#dont ask how im keeping track

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

this is the 50th video in the lunasmr ventiverse 🎉

[ratatatastic]

cats attending a yacht party as if they werent at booze garden at 1am the same day is so incredibly-

also matthew MATTHEW THAT SHIRT. THAT SHIRTTTTT. WHAT IS THAT.

6.29.24 (x)

[poryqons-art]

mattie sticker i made solely to slap somewhere on my laptop RAAAAAAHGHGHH

[kokokulto]

Before the competition!

[TEXT] Captain Cuttlefish: Before we leave, what did Gramps and Grampa tell you? Marie: Beat the living carp out of the competition— Callie: WIN! DJ Octavio: That’s our little queens!

[megumi-fm]

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[ghostly-cabbage]

I have officially edited and updated my DP fic recommendation document

I've so far only used it for friends but now I'm wondering if any of you guys would be interested...

[tchaikovskaya]

a lot being said and to be said about the whole jonah hill thing. obviously bad opinions abound lol. but one thing i do wanna say:

the whole "therapy-speak weaponized" thing is very much linked to the emphasis put on the exact language of apologies, both interpersonal and public. for a long fucking time now it has been about Correct wording and not actual sentiment. for a while now it has been much more about how it is said than [the spirit of] what is said. this is the other side of that coin. this is that mentality come back around to bite. this should be obvious but it apparently isnt!

when you teach people to SAY the right things, without necessarily believing the "right things," you incentivize affectation in the name of progressive image. that benefits absolutely nobody, except the person doing it (until they show their ass) or you wanting to keep your warm feelings toward them (until they show their ass). (which they for sure will, because again, they dont actually believe that shit, theyre just pretending to because they know it scores them likability points)

someone with their heart in the right place, who is GENUINELY demonstrating a willingness to learn and grow even if they fuck up along the way or say something the antiquated and/or Wrong way, will always always always be better than someone just saying whatever the fuck they think sounds like something you want to hear and is Correct according to public opinion while nothing below the surface changes at all. idk how many iterations of this with b list blorbo celebrities we're gonna have to go through until people start to internalize this lol

[lordichamo]

just sending more love for your 3 dead guys comics i love them so so much 🥰

TYSM !! Been really into the whole 3y whatnot recently (as ive. started calling it) so im glad to see other ppl are enjoyin it !! love it when uh. interactions between characters that have never + will never meet etc etc.

[leo-kinnie]

OH!! Thank u sm!!!

[knizuu]

okk

So I have like, 6 [possibly 7] art related things I need to finish

And two assignments I need done before a deadline

So if you want to do something art related to do with me or ask me to do, you’re gonna have to accept a very veryyyyy long late finish T_T

And I know it might not be too much, but once I KNOW I have something on my hands, it’s like I HAVE to finish it. [Idk how to stop that feeling unless I’m told I have time :/]

So uh yeah! I’m not mad at anyone who asked me something, drawing is such a good past time, but no one [if asking for a finished look] should be expecting a normal speed as is *Clarification, about a week is what “too long” is for me <- fast artist

Because I just have sm of my mind, I hope that’s easy to understand ^ ^’

[todayisafridaynight]

Sorry to keep throwing Miscellaneous Asks your way, but I finally had a moment to get my thoughts in order on one of the points on your Venn diagram I wanted to talk about! I always kind of debate whether or not to send other, semi-unrelated long asks like this when we've already got a chain going, but oh well. I'll try and address anything brought up in response here in the main one and hopefully it doesn't get confusing lol.

So I was thinking about the extent of Jo and Arakawa's relationship. It is completely true there's not much you can say that's concrete, especially since most of what we see is from Jo's perspective. Although his perspective is crucial to forming an understanding of their relationship, it's not sufficient. This is particularly the case because, coming back to giri-ninjo for a moment, Jo is largely bound by giri; it's clear his loyalty runs deep, but it's not a choice for him.

Arakawa, on the other hand, can choose who he places his trust in, especially early on. And I think it's incredibly important that, despite having men who've already been with him from day 1, men who've already been helping him with his son, Arakawa chooses to "place every confidence" in Jo (per an old Famitsu profile, one of the first official ones) and chooses to make Jo his captain.

Similarly, he kind of chooses Jo "over" Ichi in sending Ichi to prison "instead of" Jo. Perhaps the family really would collapse without Jo's talents, but… does it have to collapse entirely? Didn't Arakawa make it pretty far on his own? I guess it's neither here nor there, but I've always wondered if things would've really played out as feared if Jo went to prison instead. Not to understate Jo's role in the family, of course.

Anyway, I think that trust shows not only in overt gestures such as entrusting Masato and the family's finances to Jo, but also in more subtle behind-the-scenes ways, such as what we were talking about before with regard to New Year's 2001. There's also the fact that leaking information to Aoki was Jo's idea; for that to be the case, Arakawa would have to discuss Aoki's threats at length with Jo. (Unrelated, but come to think of it, "complying with him [to] make him see value in keeping us around" is very often the strategy of victims of abuse and neglect…)

And this one's an underrated detail many people miss, but after Arakawa shot Ichi, while he was able to come up to Ichi to tell him he's counting on him and sneak in the fake bill, if the goal was to not arouse suspicion, I don't think he would exactly have been able to excuse himself from the dinner to drive Ichi to Yokohama. Time was of the essence in terms of Ichi's survival, so that leaves Jo, who was conveniently already at the scene and who was certainly in on the "secret rule" that constitutes part of the Arakawa Family's agreement with the homeless camp. Overall, there is a pattern of Arakawa approaching Jo before anyone else, isn't there?

Sort of branching off of that, I would personally feel comfortable saying that Jo knows Arakawa better than anyone else. He seems to know details about Akane and New Year's 1976 no one else does, details Arakawa would have had to volunteer himself, and that plus his own experiences are what allow him alone to have the most complete picture of that night.

I also get the impression Jo understands Arakawa better as a person than anyone else--certainly better than Aoki, but perhaps even better than Ichi in some cases. There are multiple instances where he defends Arakawa and challenges their perceptions of him--that he's "betrayed" the Tojo Clan, that he's betrayed Aoki, that he's the type to scheme and make power-plays behind Aoki's back. He hasn't. And, despite how little Jo's "allowed" to say, he turns out to be right every time. Also worth noting Arakawa does something similar in asking Ichi to try and understand Jo's frustrations, though he's more or less enabling Jo's abuse in doing so.

Lastly, The Smallest Detail that drives me kind of insane. Them arriving at the office in the back seat of the same car in one of Ichi's flashbacks. I wouldn't think too much of it if it were any other time of day, but the first-thing-in-the-morning quality and the fact Jo isn't driving (thus it's not as an act of service but as an equal) is like… Okay. You're carpooling to work. And if you're not carpooling, you're honest-to-god living together. What the hell.

So a lot of it is this web of inferences--it has to be, at least currently--but I really do think there's a lot to chew on. More than meets the eye, anyway. I've also been stewing in all of this for years, especially since drafting Jo's relationships section, so I might just have inhaled the fumes for too long lol

Thank you for coming to me about the nature of their relationship! Although I did put it down as being more-or-less 'uncertain' on my chart, I do agree that their relationship isn't as cut-and-dry as other relationships might be (it's going back to appreciating the complexities of RGG relationships, especially in the case of the Arakawa's where for every party involved it really IS complicated)

I wanted to exclude making any definitive statements on things that couldn't be verified without making a detour on the original post (I know I already mentioned frequently that Arakawa is able to joke about Jo being 'softer' on Masato, but I do think about their relationship often and the implied depth of Jo's loyalty if- as you said- he was able to climb through the ranks of the Arakawa family much quicker than preexisting members), but there are clear points in the game that due allude to a great trust between the two (and I also note that carpooling detail during Ichi's flashback- or at the very least I know I'd find myself noticing Jo sitting in the back opposed to the front/driving). It's definitely not hard to assert that Jo knows Arakawa well either, it's hard not to come to that conclusion when we have evidence from the game to infer that.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[vsnotresponding]

K (me knowing it’s karma but I love him)

... ← is thinking very hard about if I have another K-oc that's not Karma

okay fine

what else do you want to know about him, lyn? he's depressed, he puts too much pressure on himself, he's too focused on his work, he can't handle grief, and he's traumatized. he's a wet anxious puppy that likes myths and science.

i love him so much

so I guess I'll give you the most basic information about him:

he/him ~20 and very demisexual

his birthday is on the 29th of February because of course it is. he has a noble name which is Oghan and it means born from the yew tree. he's a carbon copy of his father, which makes it really fun for him to look in the mirror. he's missing a tiny piece of one of his front tooth. he hates heights and crowds and feels uncomfortable in open spaces. he's lanky and weak and can't even hold a sword properly. he sucks as a prince but it's a decent scientist (once he acquires some fucking morals. tunnel vision sometimes gets to him). he's always a hair away from a mental breakdown but he'll keep the dam closed as long as he manages because that's sure healthy. he has my brand of autism too, because first POV perks.

also he's a nerd

and his favorite birds are magpies for no other reason that they are also my favorite birds

[sammygender]

i literally don’t understand what it’s like to be boring. like sorry i guess i’m just built different. imagine possessing the ability to say no. imagine not being incredibly, deeply, maladpatively impulsive. i always attract people who i love but are just like sorta loser adjacent as in they never are up to do Crazy Random Shit (and all of them CLAIM it’s because someone needs to be ‘responsible’ out of us but like i am an older brother and very intelligent i’m just impulsive while i’m smart💔) and always whine at ME for doing things that AREN’T EVEN THAT CRAZY! like sorryyy that my life is interesting and i can’t Not Do Things. sorry that i am not someone who worries in a way that stops him from doing anything. maybe i just befriend too many people with anxiety disorders but that’s not even it cause you can have an anxiety disorder and still Not Be Boring. like being boring is a state of mind. just stop it. sometimes it’s easier to say yes so like why are you even saying no

[rastea]

if it's alright to ask, what are your current thoughts on Homestuck? was it spoiled for you somehow? do you still love and interact with the fandom? do you hold it as a fond memory?

Oh boy so... it's a story.

I actually stumbled upon Problem Sleuth when it was reaching its finale. Stuck around and saw Hussies failed flash version of the first couple posts before we got the one everyone knows.

I was never spoiled because well, I was there when it happened. Watched as it went from Hussie using the first comment as the next step to realizing if it was going to go anywhere he was gonna have to curate the prompts and eventually everything got moved to the forums and Hussie got more liberal with the action prompts. It was for the best really youve probably all seen how slow the first act is. Thats why.

Got real confused when suddenly the troll popularity exploded and no one wanted to read the first act and jumped straight to the trolls. Pretty sure that didn't help any story comprehension later.

As it stands now I saw the ending cinematic and was satisfied. I refused to read the epilogue fics and forgot there was extended universe at all in comic and game(eventually) form.

As a whole it was an interesting experience living through. It was different, interesting, and got me back into drawing after being burnt out for two years. I also ended up not liking the fandom. Sometimes it felt like everyone just went insane after the trolls showed up, but that's unfortunately what happens when fandoms get large and fans don't... think (Hetalia, anyone?) And I never liked this weird attitude that you HAD to LOVE it. It was really bizarre. There were plenty of reasons not to like it or any of the formats it presented. And that's not even getting into later scandals.

All in all I suppose it remains a fond memory. There are parts that are awful, but I experienced a lot of horrible things with other fandoms and still hold my time engaging with them fondly. I remember the excitement of refreshing the page and seeing a new post! A new log! And I remember the absolute chaos of Cascade DESTROYING Newgrounds!! Those were fun times. And despite everything that's what sticks with me.

Just don't ask me about the stuff after the final cinematic I have no idea what's happening in game land, lmao. My interest in it has passed. And any comments on the creator and certain things have been discussed by people more eloquent than me.

[oodlenoodleroodle]

We get a certain amount of paid days off per year and the "season" you are supposed to use up your days go from May to April. So by the end of April you should have used up all of your days for the previous year. (I mean they let you negotiate to move them up but they don't like doing that because it is very easy for PTO days to build up too much for the kind of nerds who work too hard. So they very strongly encourage you to take your days within the allotted year.)

So April is here and everyone needs to use up their days in the next couple weeks. I failed to keep track so I started the year with 8 days, of which I managed to use 2 before the start of April.

So starting this week I have two days off per week until the end of April (including the two days between a weekend and May Day, which is also a public holiday...)

Tomorrow I am gonna work on my anti-cleavage sweat while binding -device, an upcoming DnD session (for which I haven't found any readymade maps ;_; ), have a non-work related meeting, and go to an opening of an exhibition.