#despite all the pain
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I’ve been mentally lying on the ground in a forest glade being SO fucking Normal about Gandalf calling Frodo Bronwe athan harthad, Endurance Beyond Hope
#IT’S WHAT HE WAS! IT’S WHAT HE DID! it was what made him able to carry the Ring to the Samath Naur!#no hope for the success of it no hope in the face of the Enemy’s power and might but he went on regardless in despair but still trying#and he paid a dear price—all of himself#body and soul hollowed out and left in shreds and tatters#AND THEN HE CONTINUES ON ANYWAY#giving even more of himself to rebuild the Shire#enduring on and on despite not having had any real hope for his own recovery or victory or joy or healing for a long time#god Frodo. endurance beyond Hope indeed#and always Sam—Hope Unquenchable. to the very fires of the volcano and the heart of evil darkness watching one he loved be destroyed#and then claiming the eventual miraculous victory and recovery with two hands and fashioning#a beautiful full rich life full of love and service and growth and healing after all is said and done#despite all the pain#I am being So Very Normal about this#lotr#Sam#Frodo#Sam and Frodo#personal
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to lose you
#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#sth#im insane im crazy i have to end it all i saw a singular dialogue in sonadow gens that made me go so fucking crazy dude im in tears#i dont subscribe to the sonic as reincarnated maria theory but how beautiful is it that shadow always had somebody in his life#that loves the earth more than anything else#somebody who wants him to see its beauty no matter what#that will never give up on him#he has never been without that#despite all his pain#sonic x shadow generations#sxs generations#shadow#sonic#sonic fanart#sonic art#sonic fandom#sonic series#shadow fanart#sonic the hedgehog fanart#art of crane
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I know we like writing fics where Jason is all "I'm not the kid you lost" and "he died and I'm all the worst parts of him that came back" and whatever. but lately I've been thinking about a Jason that's angry bc everyone thinks he came back wrong, because to him, he's the same as he's always been. sure, he's more upset and angry and traumatized, but he's still Jason.
I've been thinking about a Jason that spent most of the time since his death underground and then catatonic. to him, hardly any time has passed at all. to his family, three years have gone by. and Jason knows he looks different than he did, and he knows he's sharper around the edges, now, but he's still Jason. he's the same kid that died and now he's back and why doesn't anyone see that?
they're the ones that changed, not him
#anyway#I just think it'd be neat#bc I love a good 'Jason has no self worth and everyone needs to convince him he's worthy still'#but the angst of trying to convince you're family you're still in there#under layers of trauma and pain and anger#that you're still YOU despite it all#and I want him to recon w the fact that Dick and Bruce and Alfred are different now#that part of that is his fault (for dying)#that the rest is their fault (for coping so poorly)#(batman used to smile is the thing)#jason todd#batman#batfam#bruce wayne#dick grayson
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#I was going to add other things but there's something nuts in this being in only Illario's words.#Always thinking about the messy and fraught and just... the genuine grief and choked affection and fucked up love in this relationship.#I think Illario loves him despite it all. Despite the doom and murder. And that the demon thing is a genuinely maddening grief and guilt.#Exactly the same way that Lucanis loves Illario through it all even when it's full of pain and grief and rage and hurt.#I considered adding more Illario following Lucanis in Wigmaker quotes but that's bludgeoning the point a little. The steps one is best.#ty rosie for the screenshot on the codex entry so I can make this post#Illario Dellamorte#Lucanis Dellamorte#Dragon Age: The Veilguard#Tevinter Nights#Dragon Age#Dragon Age The Veilguard#Veilguard#DATV spoilers#Veilguard spoilers#DATV things
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Hey, don't cry. Ghost yuri, okay?
(Now that you know the girls, they need to meet the boys!)
#payneland#edwin x charles#dead boy detectives#dbda#fem payneland#although technically as everyone is the opposite gender their last names should be different#OKAY you know the drill u get fanart and i get to ramble about it#Edith wears pants now#this pains me because i love drawing skirts but after she escaped hell#she met charlotte who made an offhand comment about how it's easier to move with pants#and edith who just spent 70 years running in hell went wait a tick#she feels safer that way is what i'm saying#interesting because as you can see she wore a skirt to confess and we know how THAT went but anyway#charlotte's mom was abusive of course#and she forced her to practice ballet despite charlotte being interested in a lot of other sports#she did fairly well at ballet but this means no cricket bat :(#i know we all love butch fem charles but as he's mostly gender conforming i decided to not do that#no reason for the bracelets but as i wanted to give her a choker i thought they would combine with the earrings#crystal is still crystal because his parents are weird artists who like stupid names#niko though... i don't know what to name him#dead girl detectives
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Rebellion era Cody, how I visualized him during his bounty hunting days, before and during being with Obi-Wan(based off the fic series called "codywan on tatooine" by Serie11)
Edit: ao3 author is here! Credit where credit is due @oathkeeperoxas
#he has my whole heart okay? 🧡#mah hart. mah sole#this fic series had me by the balls its by far one of my favourite looks into Cody and Obi-Wan's relationship post. Everything#the pain and the trauma and the growth and the coming back to each other (more Cody coming tho cos y'know..Tatooine..Ben) despite it all#they are two stars in orbit around each other and i GOD 🧡💙🧡💙🧡 sorry no words#codywan#becos i said what i said#commander cody#marshal commander cody#CODY#cc 2224#codywan on tatooine#fic series#wars in the stars#kraftykelpie's art#star wars#rebellion era
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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*superglues them together*
Aka, eeeeh fok it. Here's some ougoku stuff I've been sitting on. Happy THOSE GUYS day.
#gonta gokuhara#gokuhara gonta#kokichi ouma#ouma kokichi#kokichi oma#danganronpa#v3#ndrv3#ougoku#ougoku day#awwgoku#wip#I drew some of these for jellybeanbagel to bribe them into finishing their fangame lmao.#2021-2023 stuff#my art#I doubt me liking this ship is a surprise to anyone given my old uploads but tbh it's a miracle that I do. Or should I call it 'anomaly'?#this is very much a 'ship chose me' scenario - my conflicting feelings towards it oddly became part of the appeal that I learned to embrace#it's complicated and might be due to me being prolly uncommon case of Gonta-main ougoku enjoyer and maybe also a masochist sdfdf#but I will never object to Gonta being treated kindly when it comes to fluff and 'what could've been' potential#and upsetting parts are compelling and deserve to be seen and explored for what they are- it's a waste to justify/idealise or minimize them#and boy do these guys have an emotional range I physically cannot overlook despite visceral and deeply personal pain some parts of it cause#...and also because of it#and on that note - I have some not so sweet nor cozy stuff with them as well that I might compile one day... to balance this post >:)#still tho I promise to give other gonta ships some love too. after all this is only one of my top 3
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my first contribution to the ninjago fandom !! 💙
#ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#ninjago jay#jay walker#jay ninjago#ninjago spoilers#dragons rising spoilers#jay ninjago fanart#my art#despite being a fan for 13 years this is my first public fanwork. wow.#name the song in the art and ill give u a cookie 🍪#im begging the designers to chill my poor body cannot handle all this pain drawing this someone help#<- i say this but was also complaining about how simple their designs were a decade ago. oops
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have we ever thought abt the fact that zuko is literally azula's older brother. like she's his little sister. that's his little sister. throughout a big, big part of atla plot, he was actively running away, scared of his little sister killing him because he KNEW she would/could. can you imagine that? your little sibling, wanting more your father's approval than your companionship to the point of death? every time they fought, zuko was fighting his baby sister. azula was fighting her big brother. this is making me so sick. they were 16 and 14 years old.
#avatar the last airbender#atla#atla zuko#atla azula#zuko#azula#hey look i posted a thing#the absolute maddening grief of it all. like what do u mean??? thats his lil baby sister!!! what the fuck!!!#when she was a bby he was probably so protective and they were so small n they must have loved each other then#before the responsibilities ozai put on them. before all that. they were siblings. they loved each other.#until they were taught that did not matter. zuko learned that it did again#despite all the pain of it#azula actively ran away from learning it from feeling that pain#because she would rather be hated and feared and powerful than to ever be weak ever#this is so heartbreaking#i think this hits especially hard cuz me n my sis are like 2/3 years apart in age. like. i could not imagine having to fight her to the dea#i just couldnt. i rly rly couldnt
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Mathias in Rykter 3x07
#rykter#rykter nrk#mathias rykter#my stuff#he’s still sunshine despite all the pain#sad sunshine#i wanna see him fully beaming again
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#copy pasting from twt but thinking of 98ww being the only one who still retains human empathy the most out of all WWs#bcs he didn't really go through modifications that makes him feel like he completely lost his right to 'humanity'...#<- smth abt ww treating Vash as someone that is also capable to process emotion and pain like a human despite knowing his true nature...#smth abt it that makes Vash wants to cry and it's not bcs of his injuries anymore...#trigun#trigun 98#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#vashwood#ish#myuminjiart#sorry for the wonky art i just want to throw this idea out
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Mizuki and Date though like. Imagine being 8 and your parents are filthy rich and going through a bad divorce. Your mom treats you like shit, lashing out at you, hitting you, saying she wishes you were never born all because you were behaving like a child. Your dad is more comforting, but he doesn’t do anything to stop the abuse and he spends his time invested in a completely different family, a girl who you love and look up to but he loves her more than you and it fucking shows. Then your dads new friend, some fucking bachelor in his late 20s, is just like "wow you guys are the worst fucking parents ive ever seen" and next thing you know your dad is sending you off to live with him. And it’s just a massive kick in the head cuz you go from a rich lifestyle to living in some really shitty tiny ass apartment with this guy who’s clearly never been around a child in his entire life and he doesn’t know how to behave and does a really bad job of censoring himself like he has a bunch of dirty magazines that he can’t hide very well cuz it’s literally a studio apartment and also he talks to himself sometimes, it’s really weird. He doesn’t even have the slightest clue what he’s doing
And he’s the best parent you’ve ever had
Because fuck, it all really hurts. You have to cope with having never received any love from anyone, and with the fact that your parents clearly don’t want you and can’t even be bothered to send you with anyone even kinda responsible. And this guy has a scary job with crazy hours and you don’t know anything about him and neither does he. But still, he never once hits you or tells you you’re not allowed to cry. He just gives you space and doesn’t push you to feel any sort of way about him. And sometimes, he’s even kind. He makes you some stew, even though it’s a bit chunky. He lets you sleep in the bed and takes the couch for himself, even though he complains about the massive back pain he’d never trade his spot for a second. He pays attention to events at your school and gives you your favorite stuffed animal when you make good grades, even though you called it ugly. He gets worried sick when you come home with bruises and puts on a goofy voice and trains you to defend yourself and you develop some highly deadly skills and even though it’s really abnormal, he buys you a bench press so you can get stronger. There’s this distance there, and you feel really weird caring about someone who you aren’t related to, but you find yourself wishing it was meant to be like this all along, that maybe, he’s secretly your real dad and he loves you like his real daughter
And when you say "I’m back" he says "welcome home"
#aitsf#ai the somnium files#kaname date#mizuki date#THE DATES THEY ARE MY EVERYTHING AAAAAAAAA#its so funny though like imagine being such a bad parent that some loner who jerks off all the time does a better job than you#and hes literally never interacted with children before and is later revealed to have actually been an assassin#renju and shoko really just suck huh#and i dont mean to reduce date to a porno loving loser cuz nah like hes actually got so much depth going on in this situation like he cant#remember a single thing about his past he has no frame of reference for what a family is or if hes ever had one himself#which we then learn he. kinda didnt he was an orphan with no friends no name no one who came looking for him it seems#yet he still finds himself loving and caring for this girl and would literally die over and over for her to live a happy life#hes so genuinely kind and caring and deeply lonely and unsure of himself if hes doing this right#and he feels agonizing pain when hes forced to remember that he isnt mizukis real dad and that. he has nothing#but despite that he doesnt force mizuki to return these feelings because its a lot to burden a child with and shes been through enough#its like. kaname date i love youuuu please just adopt her already 🥺
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No More Skizzlepregnancy!
#is this kind of insenitive? maybe. is it funny? i'll let you decide. im really tired rn#anyway in all seriousness i hope skizz feels better soon :( from what i've heard shingles can be quite painful#i only know about it because of tv ads for the elderly which makes it kind of funny to me. despite its horribleness#your favorite mcyter is 20something and healthy my favorite mcyter has old man chickenpox. save him PLEASE#this is not going in the tags.#sillyposting
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they…
#my ramblings#okay first. baby kdj is adorable#thank you sleepy-c for blessing my eyes#second. lsk smiling for him despite all the painful bruises on her body#lsk did everything she could to protect her son but it still wasn’t enough#in the end he grew up without her and became a person on his own#yet they’re still so similar. they both love too much. they both make the same mistakes that negatively affect those around them#augh…#orv#omniscient reader’s viewpoint#lee sookyung#kim dokja
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fitzloved & safety
fool's errand / the martyrdom of saint sebastian, 1616 - guido reni / doubt comes in - hadestown / fool's errand / orpheus and eurydice, 1862 - edward poynter / heavy in your arms - florence and the machine / fool's errand / the execution of lady jane grey by paul delaroche / @ lostaffections / fool's errand / selene thrown down by argus — ferdinand keller / nylonlion / ivan the terrible and his son ivan — ilya repin / fool's fate/ portrait of lady on fire / fool's errand /metamorphoses - ovid/ fool's errand
#rote#realm of the elderlings#fitzloved#fitzchivalry farseer#i hope this makes sense to someone else other than me#something about fitz seeing beloved as safety and stability in his life / something about beloved seeing himself as the source of all of -#- fitz' pain and suffering#and yet fitz willingly goes to into beloves care knowing that he will not keep him safe#beloved's*#and yet#he feels the most safe around beloved despite all that#how could he utter a complaint other than he had been loved#sarah reads rote#long post#tawny man#tawny man trilogy#fitz and the fool#web weaving
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