#delphine cormier.

[ashesrebirthed-a]

what  kind  of  herb  are  you ?

cordelia

CUMIN.        You see yourself so clearly that you can see the gaping hole inside you where you lost a piece long ago. It's there and it's ragged and painful and bleeding and you don't know how no one else can see it when it takes up so much of your awareness. You run from it, fight it, try to find it but nothing bandages up that hungry mawing void inside yourself and when you're tired, uninspired, you swear it grows and grows. You promise yourself you want to be alone, promise yourself that you want to be different, want to be special, love having this hole inside you and point it out in words or song or jokes and stories and take pride in that pain, in your uniqueness in this world of grays and storm clouds. You are 5 am rain on asphalt roads and sputtering street lamps. You are petrichor musings and messy guitar chords and a thousand contradictions wrapped inside a quiet cry, an evening of coffee and jittering hands and a promise that you're okay or that you're fine until you're falling apart in someone's arms or messages and pretend you're alright in the morning. You taste so strongly but sometimes you wonder if all you are is ash.

delphine

OREGANO.        You are home to so many people and yet you're not at home with yourself. Everyone needs something from you and you desperately try to prove that you're enough but you're never enough, never good enough, never even you despite all of that. Your hands shake but only when you're never looking at them and your smile is so ever-present you can't help but wonder if its fake, wonder how much of you is real. You're a caretaker, but are you even good at that, or are you faking yourself out into believing you're something that you wish you could, someone that someone else needed you to be when you were small and so full of need and hope and fragility? Who are you underneath the need to be someone's home? Who are you when you come home to yourself?

keiko

MINT.        The world is a puzzle, so complex and multifaceted that you long to run your hands through the tapestry of its wonders and stay there forever, lost in the threads and colors and stories. You wish to stay there forever and you tell yourself it's to know the world but maybe it's not, maybe it's a fear that you're not enough, that you're so fragile and helpless in a world that moves too fast, to sharply, too many bright, painful colors that you stay locked inside your mind and thoughts, where you decide the tempo of your world, where you can grow and be as competent, as capable as you want, where the world is as wide as you can imagine it and never out of control unless you want it to be. Your shield is your knowledge, your mind, and you never feel ready enough for the world around you, never feel prepared enough, never safe, and you wonder if things could have been different, if you could have been better, happier, more like everyone else if you'd just known what you know now.

ruby

CARDAMOM.        You're lonely but it's okay. It's okay. It's okay. You've always been okay except you're not and somehow you've made yourself and everyone else around you believe that too. Connection to anyone is harder than you could have ever dreamed when you were young and unloved and invisible to everyone who was supposed to care about you and save you from the voiding hollowness in your chest, in your throat. You smile and say you're okay and you are, or at least you tell yourself you are, but is anyone even worried? You tell yourself that they are or maybe that it's good they aren't. You'll be okay, one day. One day.

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[itberice]

1.10 / 2.09 / 3.01

[forbescaroline]

235 FAVORITE SHIPS OF ALL TIME (ranked by my followers) 95. cosima niehaus and delphine cormier - orphan black

[wlwgif]

ORPHAN BLACK The Few Who Dare

[azarovas]

We do terrible things for the people we love. Stop asking why. Start asking who.

EVELYNE BROCHU as DELPHINE CORMIER

TATIANA MASLANY as COSIMA NIEHAUS

Orphan Black (2013–2017)

[zendeyas]

Évelyne Brochu & Tatiana Maslany as Delphine and Cosima – Orphan Black (2013) 'Entangled Bank'

[ghorbanis]

If anyone understands making mistakes out of scientific curiosity, it's me. I was working for Leekie because there were things I wanted to know, about evolution, genetics. I know what it's like to cross the line. That doesn't determine your future. That's what your aunt taught me. Love defines us.

EVELYNE BROCHU as DELPHINE CORMIER

Orphan Black: Echoes | 1.09

[tlumeti]

Cosima & Delphine

Orphan Black (2013 - 2017)

[this-blog-needs-a-new-name]

[ashesrebirthed-a]

what kind of warmth are you ?

ruby : sun shining on your face

you're encouraging, brave in your kindness, and intentional about bringing healing to all those you love. your warmth is obvious, but commonly misunderstood. at first glance, people may take your positivity as naivety; it is the opposite. you have seen the cruelty of this world, and that's why you choose to be recklessly warm. you find comfort in nature and love random acts of kindness. you probably remember one specific stranger really well, even though you never saw them again. but they gave you a bit of warmth that you carry with you everywhere you go. i hope you know you are that stranger for others. the kindness you give out is helping others be kind in ways you may never see. i see you, and i'm proud of you. i hope you're proud of yourself too.

delphine : soup on a cold day

you're caring, consistent in your kindness, and quiet in your compassion for others. you offer warmth because you were cold for a very long time. and you refuse to stand by while others suffer in the same way. your kindness is not reckless. you count the costs, but you offer it anyway. you have a unique ability at reading people, and knowing when they have a pain that they are trying to cover up. your love language is probably quality time, and you're usually more of a listener in conversations. you probably find yourself taking on a caretaker role with others, almost automatically. so when people try to do the same for you, please don't flinch away. please don't withdraw into what feels like safety. there are people who are waiting to love you in the same way you have loved them. please let them.

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[itberice]

Orphan Black I Ease for Idle Millionaires

[ygsunflower]

Even at 68, Delphine still has that soft love sick puppy look when thinking about Cosima and their precious love. 🥺

[azarovas]

I have a theory. Before we leave this life, we see what we love, I mean like pit of the soul can’t live without it love. And if it’s strong enough, sometimes we find our way back.

[bloodraven55]

i think i hauve covid

[diver5ion]

[tlumeti]

Do you remember when you told me you were sick? I made a promise. I promised to protect you.