#dec 16 is a hard one omg

[winnix85]

Nixon’s divorce

Nixon’s divorce was shown in HBO miniseries but not in the book BOB or BBOB. Only Biggest Brother mentioned it: “Several months earlier, his wife in the States wrote that she wanted a divorce.” [The context is in Kaprun, May 1945. Several months earlier than that....hard to tell which month]. 

It appears that Dick Winters only brought up this subject in his letter to DeEtta because in May 1945 he successfully persuaded his friend Lewis Nixon to write a letter to his wife: “In May, Winters convinced Nixon to write to his wife for the first time since the previous November. Nixon protested at first, claiming he had nothing to say to her, only to his dog, but he relented. Possibly it was Winters talking him into it, or possibly it was the effect of the vodka, vermouth and rum he and Welsh were mixing.“

Therefore the last time Nixon wrote home a letter was Nov 1944 when they were in Holland. In early Dec 1944, Nixon went back to Aldbourne to visit his mistress.

In the same letter to DeEtta, Winters noted that during their time overseas, “Nixon had dated only one Englishwoman”. (OMG “ONLY ONE”???? HE WAS A MARRIED MAN AND A FATHER HOW MANY ENGLISH WOMEN DO YOU EXPECT HIM TO DATE????) Winters also wrote that he expected Nixon to remain in England after the war. 

“On July 2 Winters wrote that his friend had just returned from a furlough to England “looking better than I’ve seen him for 6 months at least.” ....“I think, in fact I know, he’s going to ask or tell his wife to get a divorce and jump in a lake, and marry his ETO wife. For Nix and all concerned, it’s the best. This skinny English girl seems to have what it takes to make him happy, namely honesty and sincere love for him. That’s something his present wife never understood. She was just interested in the Nixon millions and Nix, as a result, lost all faith in women.” 

(So that divorce letter could arrive as early as Dec 1944 or Jan 1945. Did she find out about Nixon’s mistress in Aldbourne? Can the divorce be avoided if Nixon took that 30-day furlough and went back to the states to patch things up?

In addition,  Nixon’s son was 14 yr old when Stanhope died in 1958, and 16 yr old in 1960, so he was born in 1944. We can’t pin down which month, but given 506th PIR left US in September 1943, my guess is that Michael Nixon was born in 1944 before D-Day. So when Katharine wanted a divorce, their son was less than 1 year old. Maybe she only wrote that letter as a threat?

But Nixon was eager to get out of this marriage, and his friend Dick *goody-goody* Winters, was cheering him on! 

Of course the above are all my speculations. The timeline of the letters Winters’ wrote to DeEtta also requires further study. Hope they will be revealed in the new book “Hang Tough: The WWII Letters and Artifacts of Major Dick Winters” 

I’m just shocked to see how Winters’ was affected by Nixon’s questionable moral standards! Why on earth would he think Nixon leaving his wife and son and remain in England after the war a good idea?????

[yibuo]

UMMM I would love to know what exactly happened with xnine too if you know??

i didn’t know how to answer this without hating on long danni but... that’s not possible when you’re talking about xnine

CORRECT ME IF I’M WRONG IN ANY WAY @ DIMPLES AND CFANS

tldr ceo addicted to producing survival shows realizes boy group is incapable of feeding her fat rabbit because of her OWN mismanagement and throws them away (literally? probably not, maybe, idk)

HOLY SHIT THIS BECAME RLY LONG IM BEGGING KEEP READING TO WORK LO LOL LOL

long danni= wjjw company ceo

wjjw=company that xnine, xz, r1se, etc are under

huo mala: fat company rabbit that WILL give u nightmares goodness gracious thinking about him sends chills down my spine

alright so long danni (ldn i will refer to her) & ee media along w/ tencent and sm made the survival show x-fire... the premise of xfire was that 16 contestants split into two different teams (white and red) and then at the end it would boil down to each team having 4 members and the winning team would debut as a group called xfire...but wait...the group’s name is xnine? so out of red team (peng chuyue, baishu, xiao zhan, xia zhiguang) and white team(wu jiacheng, gu jiacheng, zhao lei, and guo zifan) white team won...and they unofficially debuted as xfire..went abroad to train yadda yadda yadda and then a few months later, TELL ME WHY LONG DANNI DECIDES TO RELEASE POLLS TO LET FANS VOTE IN 5 MEMBERS INTO XFIRE TO CREATE XNINE! ldn PLEASE if u wanted to rig the show you should’ve decided in the beginning what was the point of making the teams and the fans fight against each other...

so yeah xz and crew weren’t actually supposed to debut according to show rules...i mean i’m glad they debuted obviously bc x9 is x9 but ee media and frickin ldn couldve handled this better...like every member except chen molerat is amazing and great but....WHY DIDNT MaNAGEMENT NOT BLATANTLY RIG THEM INTO THE GROUP

but also thank u ldn for also letting us get to know the 4 guys who were added n not chen molerat <3 but like DO UR JOB PROPERLY

anyway the polls were RIGGED obviously thanks ldn what did u expect out of making POLLS, and xiao zhan, peng chuyue, xia zhiguang, yan xujia, and chen z*** were added to the group to create xnine...talk about rigged when chen z*** the molerat lookin turdface misogynist was added... anyway at the time he wasnt known to be problematic but ya the whole rigging thing caused a whole rift esp when x9 debuted bc there were fanwars and death threats initially but xfire did well because it was one of the (if not only) survival shows at that time and x9 debuted w/ a good response etc

then they got moved to wjjw (still owned by ldn thanks ldn) and wjjw is known for hoarding artists and not promoting them (THEY HAVE LIKE 45 ARTISTS BUT WERE FORMED 3 YEARS AGO MAKE IT MAKE SENSE) and not being promoted properly was EXACTLY what happened to xnine. as idols what they needed was music promotions, variety shows, etc stuff to get them as people out there but this genius ldn decided to promote them through stupid zodiac dramas like super star academy (to promote xfire finalists) and oh my emperor (which was an xnine drama). now i haven’t watched OME, but SSA gave me enough brain rot and gunk for me to not watch OME. (the only person who could act was baishu), and the story was SO BAD. nevermind the acting, because the boys weren’t initially slated to be actors, but the story was horrible, girl without superpowers suddenly becomes white cult goddess at the end??? WHAT???????? why didn’t ldn just promote them normally !!!!!! are they an actor group or an idol group???? I LOVE XNINE, THEY ARE TALENTED ARTISTS !!!! and eventually some went into acting (xz, guo zifan, gu jiacheng) BUT WAS THAT THE TIME DLFNJNF and then they just kept getting sent into random dramas and movies as random side characters instead of being able to make music and promote????? i’m sorry i’ve been stuck on using dramas to promote x9 for a while because that’s such a SILLY IDEA *vigorously shakes head* 

ldn knows how to do survival shows but she doesn’t know how to promote her artists thanks ldn. xnine has so much talented, we know xiao zhan is a great singer, but other main vocalists like wu jiacheng, zhao lei, and peng chuyue are amazing as welll, here’s me plugging this video of zl and pcy performing their self-written song on produce camp because it’s the most beautiful thing ever

-oh yeah somewhere in here insert chen molerat getting outed as a pedo misogynist cheater by his gf who still has the audacity to have xnine in his weibo name because xnine starting to get popular gtfo rat lookin ass i WILL barf, when we say ot8 xnine we mean xnine w/o chen toadratass but sometimes ppl think it’s xnine minus xz which is untrue-

they also have talented rappers (gu jiacheng yan xujia) and dancers (xia zhiguang guo zifan) like xia zhiguang can end me with his spinning flying kick thing and i WILL let him 

so YEAH !! TALENT that went to waste because wjjw gave them weird random hiatuses and kept pushing them as actors??? seriously what is with this actor stuff...so that’s why they debuted in 2016 and have very little discography to their name because wjjw just gave up...trying to promote them GOD thank u so much ldn for ur incomptency <3333 xnine had members in diff stages of life (ranging from xz who was born in 91, to yan xujia born in 2001, they were all close tho soo cute) and wjjw really was like nope we’re not gonna try to promote yall’s dreams of becoming singers on the stage because they couldn’t add 34783473 pounds to fat huo mala’s weight

so ya a lot of people are like omg wjjw hates xiao zhan!!! ya no they hate all of xnine but now xz is bringing enough money to make huo mala even fatter so good for huo mala i guess /s

also rumors and any bad media? lol wjjw doesn’t care they do a shit job at handling bad things too WHAT A WELLROUNDED COMPANY

OH ALSO TALK ABOUT HOW THYE HAD 3 DAYS TO PREPARE FOR A CONCERT???????????? WHAT????????? wjjw u mfs

anyway to summarize my rants above wjjw did  a SHIT job of promoting xnine as idols when the boys worked so hard and wjjw kept tryna push them to acting bye (some of them can’t act and literally don’t WANT TO ACT HHHSFLNF), wjjw is also horrible at letting all of the xnine members shine when as i mentioned before, they’re ALL TALENTED!!!! and then they just gave up on xnine somewhere in 2017-2018... ok anyway so is xnine disbanded? no although some may say their last concert in dec 2018 was their last concert ever they’re not disbanded

xiao zhan , gu jiacheng, and guo zifan went into acting

wu jiachang is focusing on his music etc (he was actually the first member of xnine i came across when i watched the collaboration/cyzj in 2018...yes carats this is That wu jiacheng!!!) MAN CAN SING

peng chuyue, zhao lei, xia zhiguang, yan xujia all went on produce camp 2019 (aNOTHER SURVIVAL SHOW BC THEY WANTED TO BE ON THE MF STAGE BC THATS WHY THEYRE HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE WJJW) along w/ fellow labelmates zhou zhennan and zhai xiao wen ... and everyone but peng chuyue made it to the final 11 spots and got to debut in the group r1se...UNFORTUNATELY ALSO UNDER WJJW HELP SEND HELP

if they’re in r1se does that mean they quit xnine? no! they’re in both that’s just how survival shows work it’s kind of weird

peng chuyue recently released a song and it’s really good and you can’t not tell me that it’s gay here it is

anyway xnine hasn’t disbanded!! the X玖少年团 (xnine) in the non-r1se members’ weibo names say that loud n clear!!! and when the r1se members from xnine won produce camp 2019, they all made xnine signs SO XNINE IS ALIVE and they do keep in contact!!

why haven’t we seen blatant public interactions btwen xiao zhan and the xnine members? because some frickin annoying xz solo stans/xfx claim that the other members use xz for popularity (HELLO??????? IN WHAT WORLD DOES THAT MAKE SENSE HALF OF THEM R LITERALLY HIS KIDS BUT OK) 

anyway in conclusion wjjw doesn’t know how to promote any of their artists, thus screwing over xnine members and making them go on a group hiatus where they focus on acting/singing/r1se for r1se members but they are very much xnine as of now !!!

here’s some REALLY GOOD RESOURCES to follow xnine bc as an ifan it’s mf hard

-xnine slideshow

-xnine faq

-xnine eng sub channel by yuer

-all of that content i listed above was made/subbed by one person and she is the queen of uhh...xnine international fandom outreach (????) how do i word it but she’s been subbing and spreading xnine long before xiao zhan’s popularity skyrocketed so go follow her for updates and memes here

-xnine intl fanbase twt and tumblr

-and here’s this twt account with dumb pics of xnine because why not

also i’m pretty sure there’s a wip video explaining x9′s history being created (by yuer because queen) so when that’s posted i’ll rb this and post it here

also here’s this video dragging wjjw

[bard-llama]

Tagged by @potentialyeti

1. Why did you choose your url?

When I first joined tumblr back in like 2012ish, I think my name was just llama or something similar. But then... well, let’s call it a stalker incident. They found my tumblr, so I changed my name to something entirely non-llama-related. But years have passed now and when I started writing for the Witcher, it made sense to change my name. Llama alone was taken, but I do like to think of myself as a bard storyteller, so...

And yes, my name is actually Llama. For realsies. I even use it professionally. (Unfortunately, all I deal with lately is medical shit and that all uses my legal deadname and I don’t hate it, but my name is Llama. It just is.)

2. Any side blogs?

Yes, but honestly, I think I might let it die, ‘cause I originally made it to share nsfw stories, ‘cause I was embarrassed to have it on my main tumblr, but in the year and change since I started writing porn, I have come to be absolutely shameless, so... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ now everything is shared on this blog, because keeping track of multiple is hard and also, if you have a problem with me linking to my porn, that’s a you issue.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

TBH time is absolutely meaningless to me, but I think around 2011-2012. I remember first using tumblr in college (started fall 2011 and finished fall 2013, so limited time window), but I also remember stopping using it because I had such limited free time and tumblr time was time that could be spent reading fanfiction. ‘cause for some reason in college/right after college (?), I stopped writing for like a decade and I don’t even remember why.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Pfft no. The only reason I queue things is if I think I’ve been reblogging too many things in a row lol

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

Uh... actually, I’m 90% certain that @slashlett and @shiarempress and @professorpineapple made my blog originally because I wasn’t interested in doing so and everyone else had one. They also made my profile and I think there was an awful picture of Benedender Cumberpatch for a while??? Idk, it’s been a long time.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

IT’S A LLAMA!! Actually, it’s a llama specifically from a picture of me at a llama farm many years ago. And this llama wanted to be fabulous, so now they’re fabulously me.

7. Why did you choose your header?

Oh okay, so at my work, I am co-facilitator of our LGBTQIA+ Staff Resource Group. And last Nov/Dec I was all “I miss my bros and since we couldn’t gather in person at all during the year, I wanna do something for them.” So, while stuck in a Discount Tire waiting room, I made Rainbow Nametags for everyone. And I liked mine so much, I made it my header.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

I can’t even figure out how to find this out, so uh.... i am really bad at social media

9. How many mutuals do you have?

I also do not know how to find this oops. But apparently I’m following 442 people? so like... idk, 20 of those? Who knows.

10. How many followers do you have?

Oh hey, apparently 414. Cool. I... absolutely knew where to find that number before this very moment.

11. How many people do you follow?

Oh lol already answered. 442. And even still, sometimes there are not enough new posts on my dash :(

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

I... do not know?

13. How often do you use tumblr a day?

I mean, at the moment, I’m on medical leave from work, so all I do is write and procrastinate on unpacking. So I’m on tumblr a lot to chat with some lovely mutuals and sometimes to avoid writing lol

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

I don’t think so? That just sounds exhausting. Although, I guess there was a little bit of idiocy/drama right after my dad died when assholes tried to fuck with the lovely mods of the Eskel Big Bang. I vaguely remember spending a day not thinking about my dad and just fucking answering every anon. 

15. How do you feel about the ‘you need to reblog’ posts?

I don’t need to do shit. There are a lotta reasons people don’t reblog something, up to and including “I didn’t feel like it”, so like, whether or not you reblogged as a sign of your morality is... really fucking stupid.

16. Do you like tag games?

Sure! I like interacting with any of you at all!

17. Do you like ask games?

Hell yeah! Esp ones about my fics.

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

I still don’t know how to tell if someone is a mutual? So uh... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

I have been reliably informed that what I think is a crush (”omg this person is so cool, I wanna hang out and learn from them”) is uh... not actually what a crush is. (”omg I wanna bone them”???? Apparently??? Or “I wanna date them”???) Idk I’m just a dumb aroace llama with no idea what romance actually is. There’s a reason I use trust as a proxy for romance in my fics.

Tags

Well, I already got 3 of you tagged earlier, so I guess I’ll add @chaoticmel, @zzzett, @useless-empty-brain, @kalikatze and anyone else interested!

[ktheist]

FROM THIS POST

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

i do! it wasn't always like this before buy i'm glad my relationship with them improved <3

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

me mom bc i luv her

03: Do you regret anything?

my wasted potential oof

04: Are you insecure?

who isn't?

05: What is your relationship status?

i'm taken!! by meeeeeee!!!

06: How do you want to die?

in my sleep because i won't notice i'm dying - or will i realize i died when i wake up? oof

07: What did you last eat?

a popia, i think it's a traditional food here.

08: Played any sports?

breathing is a sports

09: Do you bite your nails?

thankfully, no!

10: When was your last physical fight?

been a long while, last fight i remember is wrestling the tv remote from my bro and we were like kids and i'm old now ):

11: Do you like someone?

like someone i can potentially get or someone i can never? min yoongi and jeon jungkook ):

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

oof i don't think so but i might once i get desperate enough to take some adderall

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

at first i thought i don't but now that i really think about it, there's this one dude who, every time i think about him, makes me wanna puke bc of his shit hygiene and we got preeeeetty close at some point

14: Do you miss someone?

nopee

15: Have any pets?

my demons uwu

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

as of 15th dec, ya girl is tideeeee

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

naw that shit nastyy

18: Are you scared of spiders?

TERRIFIED

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

yes omg

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

at my ex's place before he left the country

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

work and sleep and hopefully sleep some more

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

five is too many but i'll start off w one kitty and adopt more from there!!!

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

none, i'm a puthy ):

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

english / research / acadamia. potato potato yk

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

i shudder at the idea of meeting people from my pasts lol

26: What are you craving right now?

i’m always craving for ramen!!

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

ig

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

yes and no? it didn’t feel like a real relationship lmao

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

i wouldn’t say make since i asked them about why they did sumn sketchy and they ended up crying

30: What’s irritating you right now?

the shitload of work that i have ):

31: Does somebody love you?

meeee and ig my parents luv me

32: What is your favourite colour?

maroon, deep blue and grey!!

33: Do you have trust issues?

omg yes how did you know

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

i don’t remember but i usually like my dreams bc it’s like watching a fantasy movie lmaooo

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

i don’t cry in front of people

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

i give out third chances lmaooooo

but ig it works out bc if they mess up after the third, then it’s bye bye for good bc they dead to me

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

to forget wooooooooo if you mess up then you’re dead to me 

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

nah bro its 2020

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

legal

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

outside like in public or just in my house? bc if the first, then neverrr

51: Favourite food?

ramen yumm

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

depends lol sometimes things just happen to inconvenience me and i don’t appreciate the person who caused it 

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

scroll my ipad

54: Is cheating ever okay?

depends lol, are you both cheating and aware of it? then yes. if only one party’s cheating and being sneaky? no i hope they get pooped by a bird every time they go out

55: Are you mean?

idk ): sum say i come off too strong but it’s only been them puthy ass men that’s said that

56: How many people have you fist fought?

my bro

57: Do you believe in true love?

yes for self-love and no for romantic kind of love, maybe for familial love

58: Favourite weather?

livin in a hot and humid country makes you appreciate the rain a bit more!!

59: Do you like the snow?

they look magical in tv!!

60: Do you wanna get married?

yea sure if the dude fits me. i don’t believe marriages are supposed to be a compromise, if you have to change something to fit the other, then that’s not really a good reason to keep being tgt for me.

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

eh it’s okay

62: What makes you happy?

sleeping!!

63: Would you change your name?

i would... to cara (;

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

idk man, i don’t have any problems but depends if they wanna ykwim?

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

noooooo best friends are best friends for a reason!!!

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

no but oh well i’m v comfortable w my girlfriends alr

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

uh, besides my dad and bro, ig this one friend from high school who’s like super chill

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

a friend on tumblr by the name of my fav day; rain ((((:

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

ig? i mean if they fit you then they fit you. 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

me mommy bc i appreciate her sm <3

[letterstothemidnightsociety]

Another day of quarantine, another attempt to decipher the secret to one show’s mind-boggling longevity - Are they casting spells on every airdate? Do they have some kind of talisman? Did they make an actual deal with a literal devil to stay on the air this long?? The fact that Jensen Ackles has barely aged a day sure suggests they might have. It’s Supernatural! 

I think one of my favorite things so far has been the trailer that plays at the end of “Crossroad Blues” to really make sure you tune into the next episode which...did not play for two weeks. Looking at air dates, “Crossroad Blues” plays on Nov 16, 2006, so that’s right around the Thanksgiving break. Then they come back for ONE episode on Dec 7 and that is their midseason finale. TV programming is wild. 

I was like, really into this Bobby Johnson, like...I was into that.

It’s very possible that at this point in the season, SPN is trying real hard to keep their audience. Looking at the numbers for all the episodes leading up to “Croatoan”, they’re only averaging between 3 and 4 million viewers, roughly 1 - 2 million less than where they were at this time in season 1, so it’s easy to see why SPN was on the hook for renewal in season 2. Looking over its ratings for the rest of the season, the audience numbers just keep going down. The show is the number 8 highest rated show on the CW in 2006/07, so technically in the top 10, but it’s tied with Reba and One Tree Hill and the CW only had (16) original programs that year, so it’s not boasting much. These numbers supposedly include Live + 7 day DVR watches, so those numbers really are not good, BUT: starting in January of 2007, the CW started releasing episodes online the day after they aired, so I’m willing to bet that large portions of their audience were still tuning in, just not tuning in in a way that could be tabulated by Neilsen at the time. 

It’s also interesting to note that for both season 1 and season 2, the real mythos/lore/arc episodes don’t really start until the midseason. In season 1, it’s not until episode 10, “Scarecrow,” where we’re introduced to Meg and the bigger stakes at hand for the Winchesters. Their search for their father starts ramping up and the show starts subtly shifting away from Finding Dad to Fighting The Boss Fight. 

Season 2 is pretty similar. Up until “Croatoan” (episode 9), the show has been about the fallout from John’s death. Finding the yellow-eyed-demon is certainly a driving factor, but it’s very much on the backburner. The show even makes a point to say, hey! Our guys don’t really have any leads, so it’s gonna take a while before we get back to this. 

I actually really appreciate that the show takes this much time to let the Winchester process their grief. Kripke and Co. have said numerous times that they realized the episodes that work best are the ones that really dig into the emotional journeys of the characters, so they just went ahead and made that the primary focus of the first half of the season. It gives weight to their loss at the beginning of the season - John’s death is not some throwaway plot point, it’s a real gut punch that our characters aren’t going to get over in a hurry. It also lends weight to the danger the brothers face in the future - John died immediately, who’s to say that won’t happen to Sam or Dean? 

I mean, sure buddy, but also...no one here is okay.

Not to mention, John’s deal with the yellow-eyed-demon (+ the events in “Crossroad Blues”) give us a subtle/not-so-subtle hint as to what’s waiting for us at the end of season 2. But we’re not there yet. 

Then we’re in “Croatoan” and reminded in full force what our guys are supposed to be fighting this season - not their crippling grief but rather a very present threat to their physical and spiritual well-being. That’s not to say we haven’t had a taste of the Sam-centric plotline that appears in “Croatoan”. BUT I’d argue that even though “Simon Said” deals with the Psychic Children, it’s still only a tease for what those children are capable of. “Croatoan” really drives home the threat from the yellow-eyed-demon, not just from his Psychic Children but also whatever nefarious plans that he’s been cooking for however-long. And it puts this threat front and center as a main quest for the back 13 of the season. 

Because of COURSE demon viruses come with their own dusting of sulfur.

Doing the math on this, it looks like SPN had a Front 9/Back 13 split? As in, they got picked up for the first 9 episodes of season 2 but weren’t sure they were going to get those final 13 episodes and that is...crazy? I have not seen any proof this is the case, but it is something to consider for a show that was on the edge of cancellation for this season and last season. It’s possible that the CW was treating all of its programming like they were pilot seasons since this was, essentially, CW’s pilot season, but again - I have no evidence other than this 9/13 split to prove it. 

Back to the show. Let me just say: I LOVE “Croatoan.” Any time anyone wants to make up a supernatural reason for an obscure historical mystery, I am ON. BOARD. And the Lost Colony of Roanoke is definitely one of my favorites. I STILL love this episode even though I can hear my friend whispering through the decades, ”The colonists just intermarried with the local native tribe, the Croatoans…” which is apparently actually the answer in real life. But demon viruses are fine, and particularly relevant in The Year of Our Troubles 2020. 

CROATOAAAAAAAAA!!!

What also works in “Croatoan” is the dynamics between the brothers that will play out for the rest of the season/series. The groundwork for their big fight at the end of this episode has already been laid in the beginning of the season. On the one hand, you have Dean, who’s lost so much at the hands of the yellow-eyed-demon he can’t stand to lose anymore, especially not his brother. On the other hand, Sam is becoming more like his father - ready and willing to sacrifice whatever needs to be sacrificed to defeat this thing, even if that means giving up his own life. Sam has the same motivation that Dean has but coming from a completely different direction. If his death will save his brother, then he’ll do it, no questions asked, just like John died to save Dean. Neither of the brothers are willing to lose the other and they will go on to make increasingly stupid, selfish decisions to make sure they won’t have to. Yes, I love this show, and I love Sam and Dean, but man they are DUMB BABIES. 

OOF.

So we get “Croatoan,” where we see the stakes at hand - the yellow-eyed-demon is out for World Destruction, not just Winchester Destruction. He may have plans for the Psychic Children, but his plans reach far beyond a bunch of 20YO with wacky powers. And when Sam gets infected with the demon virus (LOL, sulfur in the blood?????), he knows he’s a danger to others and is immediately ready to sacrifice his life to keep those around him safe. Dean goes on to prove that this is a line too far - he’ll keep others safe but if the choice is between killing his brother and anything else, he will literally choose anything else. Sam turns out to be fine in a mysterious kind of way, although the town clearly is not, and the boys ride off into the sunset. Then we get the cliffhanger - John told Dean something important that we will not find out until January. 

These dolly shots crack me right up.

If you’re watching this in real time, you wait a month for that cliff hanger to resolve itself in “Hunted”. If you are living in the era of streaming, you just skip the closing credits to find out what John said - “He said that I [Dean] had to save you...and that if I couldn't, I'd . . .That I'd have to kill you.” 

Are you ever just like, What the actual F*CK, John Winchester?

This is literally Dean’s worst nightmare - having to choose between duty and family. Sam understandably doesn’t take this well to start with, but like in “Croatoan”, he ultimately settles into the idea, which is...deeply upsetting??? 

“Hunted” does a lot of fun things - 

Number 1: We get more of the Psychic Children (because I REFUSE to call them the Special Children, sorrynotsorry). We see that there’s a range of Types, from Scott who definitely looks like a serial killer to Ava, who ultimately goes on to be the headmistress at a secret magic university (OMG, DO watch The Order cuz that shiz is GOLD.)

Seriously, if you liked Supernatural, you will like this show. 

Number 2: We get the return of Gordon, this time as a head-on antagonist. Do I like Gordon? No, I find him frustrating at best. But do I LOVE Gordon as an antagonist? Absolutely! He is smart, capable, and (at this point) wholly non-supernatural, Natural, if you will. He’s such a good foil to Sam and Dean and he’s the perfect villain for this moment. He sees the world in only black and white. To him, there’s no moral dilemma as to whether or not the Psychic Children are good or bad - they’re definitely bad and he’s here to stop/kill them. I think he’s an important catalyst for Dean too, since in both of Gordon’s episodes, Dean sees what he could be if it wasn’t for Sam’s influence. He doesn’t want to be like Gordon, so he needs to keep Sam around.

Number 3: Alright, this one isn’t so fun just cuz the final scene is a little sloppy, but Ava turns out to be a good catalyst for Sam. When Ava shows up on screen, she is clearly on Team Cool Kid. She’s totally normal, very Apple Pie, but she shows up to try and save Sam’s life simply because it’s a life that she can (hypothetically) save. She knows nothing about demons or curses or Chosen Ones, she just had a weird dream that gave her a weird feeling and then she acted on out of the goodness of her heart. It’s exactly what Sam does when his dreams kick it into high gear in season 1 (with mixed results). Sam hangs out with Ava, gets to know her, gives her the whole Truth is Out There speech and when she leaves, I actually really appreciate this character. She’s had a wild ride of a day and she is just taking this whole thing totally in stride. Good on you, Ava! 

Except, when we get to the end of the episode and Sam tries to check in on her, we find her fiancé with his throat cut, sulfur on the window sill, and Ava nowhere to be seen. Now I don’t remember what I thought the first time I saw this episode, but I don’t believe that Ava killedher fiancé. The show really seems to want me to believe that she killed her fiancé, though, indicating that no matter how cool she was at the beginning of the episode, it’s only a matter of time before all the Psychic Children “go darkside”, as Sam so strangely puts it. 

Anyone else this this was a weird line? I thought this was a weird line. 

And this is what pushes Sam’s arc through the rest of the season. Our next episode is “Playthings,” which feels like a monster-of-the-week episode where they squeeze in some unrelated emotional drama. Or maybe it’s the other way around. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a fun episode, but SPN is usually better about tying their MotW eps into the emotional character arcs and this one is not as finessed. There’s a little more disconnect here. The important takeaway from “Playthings” is this: seeing Ava “kill” her fiancé convinces Sam that his father was right. Sam may need to be put down, and if that happens, he wants Dean to be the one to do it. Dean agrees, but we all know that he’s doing that just to appease Sam and that he’s still gonna do whatever it takes to save Sam, no matter the cost. Nothing gets resolved and this will definitely come back later. 

I mean, yeah that’s probably true.

Some things - 

First off: Sam seems to be perfectly OK with this and that...is not OK. 

Secondly, SAM?!? WHY would you put that on your brother?? 

Thirdly, DEAN! Don’t make promises you don’t intend to keep. 

FINALLY, and maybe most importantly, this is the best example I can think of to showcase a character’s greatest strength also being their greatest weakness. The Winchesters are about two things - fighting evil and taking care of family. Done in equal measure, these strengths make them heroic tropes. Taken to extreme situations? Well, now you have two humans wide open to failing at one of these things so bad that the apocalypse literally starts.

What these three episodes remind us, honestly what this whole season so far reminds us, is that Supernatural works because of relationships. The monsters and the mythology and the classic rock are there as a fun framework to get us interested in the show, but it’s the characters that keep us. That’s what viewers connect to. I really appreciate the arguments that Sam and Dean have with each other, starting at the end of season one and up until now in season 2. They feel very deeply rooted in character, not contrived for the sake of Drama. Neither of them is wrong, per se, but then neither of them is right, either. Their emotional backgrounds feel complex and grounded, foundations for real characters, not just the caricatures that you’d expect from a show about ghosts on a network aimed at the 18 - 24 demographic. 

See, THIS is the sort of fight you’d expect, not a fight where one brother is begging the other to literally kill him. 

And this is gonna be the hill that I’ll die on - characters and relationships are always the heart of any successful franchise. I mean, why else are there so many shipping wars out there? Why write fic if it isn’t to explore relationships and aspects of a character that the show doesn’t present? Sure it’s not the only reason to write fic, but I’d argue it’s a BIG reason. 

Because it’s not just the characters building relationships with each other, it's the audience building relationships with those characters (and to a lesser extent, with the world of the story). This is the core of any show that hopes to make it past season one and beyond, no matter the decade, the network, or the platform it airs on. We like stories about people with problems we can relate to. Dysfunctional family trouble? Check. Drama at work? Been there. Feeling like the world’s about to end any second? Oh yes. You can feel those problems deep down in your gut, even if the specifics are different. It doesn’t matter if those people are working in an office or a hospital or hunting down demons in the dead of night. If you can show us people, real people with something we can relate to on a gut level, that’s how you stay on the air for 15 seasons.

[k-odyssey]

Dramas I’ve Been Watching in January

Thoughts under the cut because I wrote a lot (pretty much spoiler-free). The first row is all dramas I started in nov/dec.

My Mister (finished)

lonely young woman in lots of debt will stop at nothing if it helps her and her grandma survive, until someone treats her with kindness.

very emotional. so much pathos that, if you’re anything like me, it will become hard to watch at times.

there’s a bit of comedy here and there, especially with the brothers, to counterbalance the darkness. plus i ended up loving the actress character.

excellent cast all around. every single character has layers (ok maybe not everyone at the office, i can think of one evil man in particular). IU shines in this. she doesn’t say a lot but she doesn’t need to.

i think it shows what being poor and isolated is really like. it’s not only that you don’t have money or connections, it’s also that you’re missing opportunities that you didn’t even know existed. simply because there was never anyone to tell you about them.

love the community aspect.

Psychopath Diary (finished)

amnesiac man becomes convinced that he is a serial killer.

possibly the weirdest kdrama I’ve ever watched.

has great comedy, somehow the silly stuff manages to coexist/blend in with much darker topics (loss of identity, mental illness, suicide, murder, etc). Yoon Shi Yoon is probably one of the reasons that it works so well. Very convincing psychopath smile.

also great ensemble cast.

my only quibble (and that could have to do with me binge-watching the first 6 ep or so) is that the “omg i’m a murderer” part of the story dragged on a bit longer than I would’ve liked.

also there is almost no romance so if that’s a prerequisite for you then you might miss it.

i love a drama title that makes sense on all levels. like, this one already worked because the diary is the most important object in the story and we learn that at the very beginning. but then the last ep added another layer and i really appreciated that.

Crash Landing on You (ongoing, 10 of 16 ep watched)

i’m not sure this drama needs any introduction at this point but

influential south korean businesswoman accidentally ends up stranded in north korea, gets rescued by handsome righteous captain Ri.

i love this drama so much. i’m not sure what they’d have to do to make me hate it. it would have to be very bad.

makes me laugh, cry, stare blankly ahead while thinking about it.

Joy of Life (29 of 46 ep watched)

21st century character is sort of reborn in what looks like ancient china, with memories from his past life intact.

could very well become my fav cdrama.

great plot, very funny, but with some emotional scenes as well.

main character has so much charisma! never ever gets boring.

cute romance, even if it’s not the main storyline.

complex and smart women. i can think of four already just off the top of my head. that’s not necessarily a feature of cdramas in my experience.

i need to catch up!

Flower Boy Next Door (finished)

ok this one is on every kdrama list ever

lonely writer meets exuberant video-game maker who helps her overcome her social anxiety, I guess.

i see why it’s a classic. i particularly liked all of the neighbours a lot.

it’s much shorter than dramas nowadays, feels like. episodes are only about 40 min long, in the 16 ep format.

i liked it fine, and i did tear up at one point (when the leads were having the big fight), but i was in no hurry to watch the last 4 ep for some reason. i didn’t find the “to go to spain or not to go to spain” bit that compelling and i’m not sure why.

Chocolate (6 of 16 ep watched)

this one is surprisingly hard to summarise.

neurosurgeon and cook who met each other as children are reunited by fate again and again, until they become a couple, i assume.

it took me 3 whole episodes to get into it. i think it’s due to the structure. there’s a number of flashbacks and then leaps in time from one point of view, then another. that just made it really hard for me to focus and care about the characters.

also when i sense a love triangle where the 2 people are decent options i tense up lol.

i really liked ep 4 to 6 though! i finally care about what’s happening.

hopefully less brain surgery from now on because i hate these close ups. i love the food though.

Eun Joo’s Room (finished)

Eun Joo quit the job she hated and she’s struggling to give her life meaning. with help from her best friend, she discovers a new talent.

this one was short and sweet (it’s only 12 ep).

very cute romance. (i don’t think it’s really a spoiler to say it’s a friends-to-lovers.)

this is a very good “i’ve had a long day and i don’t want to think too hard” drama. also a “i don’t know what i’m doing with my life pls tell me it’s gonna be ok” drama.

you might feel like picking up a brush and repainting your walls at some point. they will even explain how after the credits.

[shytiff]

Small Dec Wins

i cant believe its December already tf?!?!?!

1 - poli KIA today. saw a mother who cant feel the movement of their baby. the senior midwife tried to find the baby’s heart beat but not finding it. she said she hopes she were wrong. fell asleep at 3pm-ish, woke up super hungry. ate. i swear i feel like my weight when i measured it this morning was ~52, but after eating its close to 54 lol. eating banana and chocolate nextar is yummm. dalbang today is hella funny as always and suuper endearing. fell asleep after dalbang, didnt study hufttt

2 - today im at igd but joined azkia at vk for a bit to see partus. its not that im scared (maybe not consciously) but when the mom was being stitched i felt lightheaded, nausea, cold extremities, and i even had to squat multiple times because i couldnt stand. But i felt better after the partus so maybe seeing it was the cause. I did not feel scared at all honestly ._. and i’ve seen multiple partus before. i dont know why. i can literally feel my symphatetic tone giving out lmaoo. tried matcha latte with Cy matcha powder. it tasted more milky and grassy. mom thought it tasted like nori. i prever cocodeli alll the way (although Cy is cheaper). i think it also has a bit of caffeine that made me feel awake like a normal person should be. 

3 - today is vk but there’s no patient so thank god i saw sumn yesterday. did some cicil ukmppd in the morning accompanied by matcha latte. tried to order dufan tickets and i couldnt find my damn ktp...... fell asleep after worrying about said ktp

4 - matcha latte in the car, swab at lmk, went to dufan by tj with willy, had quite some funn with atikah nila willy amel pupuy. first time trying kereta misteri, quite fun. it rained after ashar so we didnt ride anything after that. turns out my ktp was at barel’s fotocopy lmaoo thankyou ara for picking it. went to solaria ancol afterwards, picked up by mom. i didnt tell her in the morning that i was going to dufan lmao. plenary @ zoom 19 pm. rapat nemo. fell asleep.

5 - went to lmk by tj to surprise clara. went back home and fell asleep. didnt rly do anything afterwards because this ragged body gets tired easily and i dont eat much recently. i can feel the difference before and after eating and there’s actual energy after eating. its not that im hungry though, but i feel less energized. felt annoyed terrible and just wanna lay in bed (this is unrelated with the less food in my system). even though i met up with friends

6 - after LOTS of sleeping i feel somehow better but not to a ‘normal’ amount. watched kimbab family videos. did power vinyasa by doogether with fianti. took a shower and ate indomie and i felt quite normal, except i slept again wtf. i thought i would have the second half of the day but nah. did self tryouts with fianti, 150 FDI questions. I got 96/150 right. huft. such a great reality check

7 - poli lansia with dokter isip, matcha latte in the afternoon rly helps me not sleeping the day away, packed up for depok

8 - poli umum with dr gita (helped doing phys exam), packed the rest of my stuff, ate some risol and matcha lattteee in the car, took swab results, picked up hazmats etc, zoom discussion with FT PKM Kalideres (dr gita) on the way, and i finally arrived at tamel. dinner is granola with vsoy. Taste like a slightly wet granola bar, nutty fiber-y vibe

9 - walked in ui with ara, managed to jog from the trees near st ui until kuburan bikun wow. i reached that point where my leg and heart were going in a steady unburdened pace and my willpower to keep going on was tested. tried the signature steak in Double U Steak by Chef Widi, while ara tried ribeye. the ribeye was more tender than the signature. but the seasoning in the signature is quite delish, salty and oily without being too much (like futago ya). read poppyland fast pass from ara’s phone omg season 1 is finally complete! went to coftof (omgggg i miss this place), it looks different now. ordered matcha latte and it tasted weirdly like a soy milk although ara doesnt feel that way. the matcha tasted weird. wont repurchase. read chainsaw man, its so entertaining, funny and deep at the same time. denji mess around and be too naive sometimes but hes lowkey hot lmaooo. aki is lovvvvve.

10 - first day at rsud budhi asih. had moesli combined with granola + vsoy for brekkie. went back to tamel at 3 pm. it rained when i got back. bought warteg lugina worth 32k. walked to sbux for tumbler day its been a while since i had their matcha latte. it tasted quite good, but not as good as i remembered (?) maybe bcs i asked for non fat milk. sbux closes at 8 pm for now hikss

11 - left tamel at about 7:10 and arrived on budhi asih at 08:54 yalll the traffic. Icu. Bought eatlah double and ate the salted egg part. Nap. ICU discussion with dr Dedi @8pm. I presented from my phone to save data hehe,,

12 - woke up at 8, eatlah brown butter for brekkie, symcard, saladstop's caesar salad for lunch (quite 'eneg' because i didnt eat the cheese evenly so the chicken and cheese were eaten last after the vegs are out. The vegetable's not that variative, and the non vegs make the salad taste delicious (albeit maybe not THAT healthy). Evening jog @UI and i realized i can get wifi sitting near the lake n library. Stared at the night sky from my room, i swear the sky seems super clear. Saw tiny fireworks in the distance

13 - ate muesli and saladstop’s banana walnut cake, symcard, bought moon chicken and saladpoint. lunch was egg salad and the wings. the original tasted so good like??? maybe i havent had msg for a while. also tried big bang, not too spicy which is nice. cicil ukmppd. put my laundry at buih barel lmaoo. try out with fianti. got 70/100

14 - breakfast was salad and leftover chicken. today was bangsal with angga armand. the geriatric patient has a loud murmur yall (and scoliosis, so much that the heart looks distorted). went to margo city to see sales, but when i think about it id rather just thrift stuff lmao. bought lugina. slept through kuliah guru besar. writing this in yellow truck coffee, that had 2 customers on the 1st floor including me. tried banana milk. yall after trying to drink less sugar the beverage tasted super sweet. my headache just goes away. sugar is magic but unhealthy whyyyyy.

15 - igd siang with indah. This body sure is frail. Did cbd with dr afifah AND rescheduled pleno. Rip mobile data i have to use for hotspot.

16 - ok today. Inserted goedel and did bagging. I bagged the patient the wrong way at first (too much). Thankfully the nurses were kind and taught us a lot :) watched some bts content. I feel like after reading househusband my tiktok page is now immensely funnier. Dalbang is also hilarious as always. Put on ginseng sheet mask (smells quite strong)

17 - bangsal. snacked on fried chicken. matcha latte starbucks (turns out its quite full here) and liqo about keeping our tongues in check

18 - arrived at icu. And then opened line. Turns out hadin's swab is positive, so agung kak iman and me have to isolate and swab. So i went back. Ordered kanayam chicken and fish and tempe. Nasi liwet tasted goood damn. Sleptt in the afternoon. Pleno at 4 pm (entered the room 4:30). Had no motivation to do anything. Azkia is getting married! Spent 20 mins formulating words to congratulate her lmaoo

19 - osce simulation, kak nanu was so kind and encouraging. Did try out solid. Lunch is fish bite pasta with melted cheese (cause i had to reach the minimum amount for promo). It got cold so its not that good (pairing it with self made mentai sauce, mixing the mayo and chili, is way much better). Jogged in ui (and searched for wifi). Approached by someone selling haraus coffee (25k), saying that some earnings will be for charity. Its basically sweet. Can barely taste the coffee.

20 - had kanayam for lunch (brekkie is almost always muesli lately). The nasi liwet tasted much better the first time. Walked to yellow truck coffee in the pouring rain. Got banana milk. Saw webinar ksk (electrolyte correction and dr nadhira talkshow). What i got from it is that, dr nadhira is a different person from the first place. Shes visionary, knows what she want and not afraid to reach it. The mindset is different. Even if i try as hard as her, her propensity to growth is different. Cicil ukmppd. Try out with fianti (got 72/100). Talked for an hour about love and marriage and engagements (there are so much of it lately)

21 - leftover kanayam for brekkie, also ate roti salman in cikini st. swab today (met kris, nessa and others). muesli for lunch. i thought my body felt a bit warm, so i decided to find sumn to eat. tried kedai abu bakar’s spaghetti brulee. its okay. maybe because its not too cheesy or meaty, mainly bechamel sauce. the one pupuy made is much tastier. finished the whole 10x20 portion in 2 eating sesh. cicil ukmppd @ bed in the evening (somehow felt refreshed enough to be able to concentrate in bed)

22 - went early to icu to put dops form. lugina for early lunch. i feel like my metabolism is faster? or my body is not so much in calorie deficit mode anymore and it got greedier lmao i used to just ignore hunger but not now, for health. starbiiies tumbler day. ordered black tea latte with non fat milk and vanilla syrup (because raspberry syrup is no more). did cbd geri ppt. 

23 - finally knew the swab result bcs kak iman asked kak farras. thankfully negative. igd with jordi. quite a few chances to do iv line, but i failed 2 times. managed to do iv injection to insert 2 drugs. saw the worst cpr ive ever seen in my life. its too slow, with maximal interruption. fish bite for lunch. wasted the rest of my day

24 - originally intended to run but i cant bring myself out of bed. packed up my stuff. picked up by mom. got the paper result of swab, got ksk from kelvyn @ capitol. can finally drink self-made matcha latte again, but it tasted horrible. i know cy matcha doesnt have that much going on, but even this is low even for them. previously i was starting to get used to the grassy smell.

25 - my lil bro remarked “maybe shes depressed because she doesnt have her chair”. fuck yall. this “depression” that im in is caused by this very place and the people. and im supposed to still muster the strength to study for ukmppd AND get my face together for solid book photoshoot. that shit is too much. this is why the money that goes to cafe, and the bike ride there is worth it for my sanity. after showering, things felt a bit better. had absolutely no will to study today. ate muesli with a bit of matcha latte.

26 - muesli for breakfast. matcha latte is lyfff ive probably said this before but it ~somehow~ makes me feel normal and not in a slump. like im a regular person. with normal moods. and not wanting to sleep all the time. i try to do ukmppd exercises but the pace is so fucking slow, bcs im distracted by get rich haha,,,. the latest potn update (64) is omgggg the mixed feelings? love? hate? anger? everything and nothing? the ~tension and passion~? im obsessed. watched a ton of bts content today and yesterday lmao.

27 - nasi kebuli for brekkie. went to flavola, im the first customer lmao. tried kopi susu coklat, tasted quite close enough to janjiw’s kopi soklat. had the same ~improved mood and concentration~ effect. tried to read ksk. bought milky banana 1L from puyo to give dajen (its his bday yesterday) (i feel prompted (?) to gift people when theyve given a present to me) (because my love lang is not gift giving at all so i barely think abt gifts lmao). talked with sum 33 ipa guys @ dajens house. yay appropriate amount of social battery charging. tryout with fianti, padi this time. got 67/100. 

28 - ate muesli with matcha latte after breakfast. cicil ukmppd. Listened to yoongi's vlive until i fell asleep lol. 2 burger and salad for dinner. omggg hansol revealed his gf. 

29 - spent half of my day tidying up the mess that is my room. figured out what to wear for solid book photoshoot with fianti, ara. matcha latte terosss. phd for dinner. 

30 - breakfast is muesli with cimory choco hazelnut. mom made matcha chocolate brownies. tryna study. slow pace terosss. read some padi materials. dalbang.

31 - bought vsoy low sugar and multigrain. moved my body a bit to youtube videos. showered. felt better. it also rained (which i love). the pleasant mood only lasted til the evening. did nothing from 7pm even though im not sleepy. cant tell when did i start to sleep

and just like that, 2020 kkeut. its sad to say i dont rly remember much remarkable things this year. other than the trip and memories with minor rotation friends. i just remember wasting my life away in my house. i guess that’s the danger of living a monotone life. sometimes you gotta invest some time to have fun, to have motivation to live on and do things. not doing this makes it difficult to live day by day. and friends. meeting friends, seeing new stuff. that helps me live. 

[luvdsc]

Hihi Cat! I've come to deliver some good news! (This is pretty long huhu ToT)

MY ERB HAS BEEN APPROVED AND I CAN PROCEED TO RECRUIT PARTICIPANTS!! Ahh it's been such a blessing to be able to proceed immediately! I've actually hit my target amount of participants in less than a day (IT'S CRAZY) but I'm gonna collect more responses cuz the more the better! (Would you wanna check the questionnaire out? I can PM you the link!! :3)

Also also I PASSED THAT FINALS! The one I took a day after my vaccination (1st dose) ToT GAHH I'm so happy I won't even ask for more, it's enough :3

I've been writing my thesis during this sem break but it's progressing pretty slowly cuz I've been so drained from last semester and the vaccine itself. Huhu but I've written a brief rundown for my proposal so there's a rough idea there, just needa rly assemble it into a clear narrative. And yes I agree! Psychology studies are a beautiful fusion of science & human essence imo, and its fascinating learning more abt ourselves and how we as the human species progress in life ya know? 😌

I got my second dose exactly a week ago and got the same side effects - headache, arm soreness, hunger, fatigue; I felt like a fusion of psyduck & snorlax HAHAHAHA 😂 - it wasn't anything serious so yay I'm fully vaccinated! (in a few weeks time keke I'll be)

HAHAHAHA my vaccination appointments were pretty eventful. The nurses and volunteers were all so warm and friendly! I'm the type of person who feels whatever's being injected into me, it's not the pain that I wanna distract myself from (it wasn't pain tbh) but that sluggish discomfort I get from the needle ejaculation >//< sooo as they showed me the vile and syringe before injecting me, I prepped my Yangyang photocard in my hand. During my second dose, the nurse thought I had some fancy way of taking a video when in actual fact I was just looking at my Yangyang photocard hehe UwU she asked me whether I wanted to see the needle going in (smtg I can't look at tbh) and I was like HELL NAH ToT

And also some recap from the previous ask!

There's no need to apologise for the delayed response okie!! UwU my sem break is ending this week, but I've spent my time completing my academic research trainee tasks (transcribing audio clips), I've also created the content & design for my uni's newsletter, did some thesis writing, and I took a course on financial planning on Coursera to prep myself for the adulting life ToT

And idm sharing my back up / failed topics! I didn't have a lot of cards in my hands, but here are some of em!

1) time perspective and meaning in life 2) anticipatory nostalgia 3) not a topic but a variable! fragility of happiness / happiness aversion

what ideas did you settle on for yr art pieces? If you dm sharing, I'd love to hear abt it! 💖💖💖

Tbh I can't think of a fav ice cream flavor hmm 🤔 i rly didn't think it'd be so hard thinking of a fav ice cream flavor but the first that comes to mind is green tea! I like them milky flavored ice cream😍 though my fav from this ice cream place I go to is thai milk tea, it's so fragrant and milky!! 🥺💖 I just got myself a tub of milk & biscoff gelato keke UwU what's yr fav ice cream flavor? :3

For my course structure:

We have 2 long sems (Jan - Apr, & Aug - Dec, 16 weeks) & a short sem (May - July, 9 weeks)! Our sem breaks are only around a month then it's back to sleepless nights ToT AND YES those weeks were the most stressful weeks ever 🥺😭 I'm glad I'm graduating soon for that reason 😂(though idk what awaits in the working world ToT that is another fear I have :/)

Thank you for being part of this journey and being open to listening to my lil adventures! 🥺🙆🏻‍♀️💖😭 esp w the amount of responses and ppl helping me, I feel a lil more motivated to work and excel in this pregnancy (thesis, I call it pregnancy cuz it's around 9 months too HEHE) Since the pandemic, it's been pretty hard separating studies & hobbies :/ I've learnt it the hard way from my period cramps last sem (mine's the severe type where you can faint ToT), and it was also on my last paper for finals !! Very traumatizing ._. but I'll continue to manage myself better! :3

Huhu Cat since you're working now, I also wanna ask abt yr experience in job seeking! Cuz unemployment is a real deal here esp. w everything that's going on :') I don't have working experience either (only had 1 through internship) and it literally feels like I'm going into the unknown ToT I've been running over some case studies and assessments just to better prep myself for this. Do you have any advice as someone who's already working? UwU

Take care and stay lovely as always!! 💖💖💖

hi, sweetpea !!!! 🌸 omg major congratulations for getting your ERB approved, honey bee !!!!! 🥳🥳🥳 that’s absolutely amazing, and I’m uber proud of you 🥺💗💗 also, it’s wonderful that you hit the required number of participants so quickly !!!!! (And I would love to participate if the questionnaire is still open 🤧)

AND HECK YEAAA CONGRATS ON PASSING THE FINAL TOO 🤩🤩🤩🤩 big congrats to you all around, miss smarty pants 💓💓💓

Oh gosh, I hope you got to rest during your semester break too ): you’re working so hard, please remember to take care of yourself !! 💕 your mental health is more important 🤍 have you finalized your proposal now? And omg yes exactly !!! It’s so interesting to see the thought process behind an action and how it can be manipulated or influenced by various stimulants or there’s also the argument between nature versus nurture too and how that affects psychology and it’s just all so cool to learn about 🤩

Omg you had so many symptoms, I’m so sorry to hear that 😭 I only had a sore arm, but that’s what happens when I get any shot 🤧 I hope you’re feeling better now 💘💘

I’m really glad to hear that the nurses and volunteers were kind and friendly !! it’s always comforting to have nice people as doctors, especially when you’re trusting them to stick a needle in you bshdjdjdkd omg yangyang to the rescue !!!! 💞💞 we’re not allowed to record record any medical appointments, like I think the nurse thought the person in front of me in line was recording when they were getting their vaccine and said they weren’t allowed to do that 😅 and aaaaa I always have to look when they inject me, I don’t like being taken by surprise 🤧

oh my gosh you were so productive over your semester break !!!! :o and oooo you do content & design for your school’s newsletter? Do you do stuff like graphic designing and write articles? 💓 and how was the financial planning course !! Did you learn a lot? Did you like the studies? :’)

aaaaa those topics sound so cool ??? 🤩🤩 I would definitely be down to read about those omg 💛

for my 3D design class, I decided to do lightbulbs and flowers as my overarching theme for my art pieces !! I included a couple pictures below under the cut at the bottom 💓 the first one is a soft sculpture made out of newspaper, and there’s a pencil next to it for size reference, the second one is made of wires that I shaped myself, and the third one is made of foam boards that I cut and assembled myself as well 💕 and I included a picture of my final painting project! it’s a triptych and I believe the size was like 18 x 24 for each one? If you click on the picture, it should be better quality!

omg I love green tea ice cream too !!!!! 🍵🍦 I like going to somi somi for their matcha and milk swirl ice cream with red bean taiyaki 💚 I only had thai milk tea ice cream once, but it was phenomenal 🤩 I wish they sold it near me too !! milk and biscoff :o I’ve never tried that flavor! I’ll have to see if it’s sold around here :’) green tea is my favorite, but I also really like everything but the... from Ben and Jerry’s !! 💛 also alcoholic ice cream.... like there’s this one kind where it was a breakfast esque type with vanilla, corn flakes, and bourbon, and it was delicious 😋

omg what 😭😭 you’re basically going to school year round with no break bahsjdjdjdkd when I was in uni, i had a month off for winter break (usually something like dec 9 - jan 9) and then mid june to mid September off, so around three months of summer vacation? Your school schedule sounds absolutely brutal 💀💀

and omg of course !!! Thank you for letting me be a part of the journey 🥺💗 bdjdjddj pregnancy omg that’s such an interesting way of seeing it :o sending you all my love and support for a successful delivery of your thesis baby 🥰🥰 oh yeah, it’s definitely been a struggle to separate everything, especially when the lines between home and workspace blur with online school or working from home. And oh my god ???? Are you okay ?? Did you go see a doctor or take any medication? I hope you’re feeling better now !! Please take care of yourself 😭

ah, I got my job through my internship, so I’m not sure how helpful I will be 😅 but during the process of interviewing for internships, there were several rounds for each company that range from a group interview, a one on one interview, video interview where they give you random questions that you have to answer on the spot (some of mine were discuss the stock market, give a sales pitch on something you’re interested in, etc), a test, etc. I think it’s different depending on the job you’re going for, but that’s what I had to do in the business field! It’s important to study and prep for all of this!! It’s like taking an verbal exam for one of your classes. And also make sure to study the company’s website and familiarize yourself with what they do/sell.

My one piece of overall advice would be about interviews! Interviews are important in which the person interviewing you is seeing if you’ll be a good fit with the company, not in terms of skill, but personality. They already know you’re qualified and have good skills - that’s how you got the interview. With the interview, they’re essentially trying to see how personable you are and if you will work well with their team. Some people are so intent on proving their skills that they kinda just rattle off all their achievements and whatnot, and it’s like... the interviewer already knows this, it’s all on the resume they reviewed when they decided to give the interview offer. Be friendly, open, maybe make a little small talk at the beginning (“hey, how are you? any weekend plans / how was your weekend?” This is what I did for all my business interviews, and I got an offer back from every one 🤧💗), make appropriate jokes / be a little funny, just show that you’d be a fun person to have in the office whom people will want on their team, but that you will also be dedicated to the job and work hard 💘

And thank you so much, honey bee!!! 💞 I hope you’re doing well and having a good week , and please take care as well 🌷🌷

[literallyprentissstwin]

Week 14, 15 & 16: Sunday, 03rd December to Friday, 22nd December 2017

hola guys! I FINALLY managed to put together the reading list of the past three weeks. this list includes the reading list from two weeks ago, last week and also this weeks :) the next reading list will be up on Sunday, 31st as it´s the last one in the old year! thanks for being so patient with me! 

i put a list of 50 (!) fics together which i highly recommend reading! 

Have fun and enjoy! Also leave some love to the authors :) 

-aileen x

1. Most Wonderful Time of the Year by @teatimewithtiya

this little fic was the cutest thing i read and i really enjoyed it! you´re really talented, keep going! 

2. Someone to Talk At by @veroinnumera

this was your first work and you were so unsure about it, but it turned out really good and you are really talented! Well done! :) 

3. Holiday Shopping by @tenaciousarcadeexpert 

I loved JJ and Matt fighting over the toy and the end of the story :D i love matt simmons so much! good job! 

4. Overdue - Spencer Reid by @spenncerreiid 

my poor poor fangirl heart was dying while reading this fic. i need a follow up. can i get one? i loved this part so much! 

5. Cars by @ssa-banshee

i already told you how amazing this was like my angsty heart was beating faster while reading this and it´s so so good! well done! :) 

6. Do You Really Care? // Emily Prentiss by @spencerthepipecleaner

oh lord, the doyle arch. i can´t take it my poor heart. i was close to crying while reading this :) 

7. New Beginnings - Twenty Two by @criminal-minds-fanfiction

ANGST ANGST ANGST. I´m in love. this series is giving me life! 

8. Photograph by @spencerreidsmiles 

oh lord, my heart. it started out so cute and then, the end broke my heart. but i enjoyed reading it :) 

9. Loss by @crimindsaspe 

okay i´m a sucker for your fics. i really enjoyed reading this one because ANGST <3 

10. Gratitude by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars 

this was such a cute follow up, i loved it. the first part was already amazing, but this was great too!

11.The Perfect Gift by @dontshootmespence

awww my poor heart melted. this is so pure and perfect and well written. thank you!!!

12. All You Need Is Love: Chapter Ten “Dear Prudence” by @sweater-vest-reid

WTF my heart I can´t. you know that i love percy and i always will. this is giving me life! 

13. Perfect Recall - Epilogue  by @illegalcerebral

this was such a pretty epilogue and i really enjoyed reading PR. amazing work, sarah! <3

14. Unknown Subject by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars

ANGST. YES. I´M IN LOVE. this was everything. 

15. Violation by @crimindsaspe

okay, i love reading dad!hotch stories and this one was heavy angst but so very well written. i felt every emotion. good job! 

16. Doggy Daycare by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars

AWWW yey. i love roxy stories bc she is the cutest. well done! 

17. The Babysitting Challenge  by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars

awwwww luke and kids <3 <3 my heart....awwwwww :) 

18. to have and to hold by @hotchyrossi 

this makes me miss aaron so much but it was so beautiful! 

19. Damn Sweater by @dontshootmespence

ok, normally i´m not that much into shipping Ralvez, but this kinda made me do it. i loved this! 

20. Open Back (Spencer Reid x Reader) by @thecontinuingstories

AWWW YEY! I LOVED IT! 

21. Homework Help  by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars

I died...again...this is too precious and cute. i need this to happen in real life. 

22. Newbie by @ssa-aaronhotchner

I´m in love! This was amazing! :) well done! (btw all your pieces are amazing bc you are talented af)

23. Home by @criminal-minds-fanfiction

awww yey spencer <3 this was cute, okay? :) 

24. Unshaken by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars

i´m all about angst (and somehow this made me miss IYF so so much). i loved it! 

25. Spreading Christmas Cheer by @dontshootmespence

This made my heart so happy! I´d like to believe that this is something the team would really enjoy doing! i´m happy now, thank you <3

26. New Beginnings - Twenty Three by @criminal-minds-fanfiction

This part was everything. the reader is so badass and strong. and the end was just awwww <3 

27. Criminal Minds AU Episode 17: Memoriam - Part 6  by @remember-me-forever-silent-angel

this series is so good and it´s killing me. i love ally in this especially. can´t wait for more! 

28. Judge vs. Jeter by @veroinnumera

I really really do love your works and your writing style. you are really good and i can´t wait for my luke request :) 

29. You´re Not Your Illness -Spencer Reid by @fandomyimagines

this was so good!! very well written and i felt every emotion! well done! 

30. Hanukkah is Cool! by @dontshootmespence

awwww i love me some henry and spence <3 this was really cute and i loved henry in this :) 

31. Safe and  Sound by @mentallydatingspencerreid

spence and kids, anything more to say? perfect. 

32. A Family Christmas by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars

awww. awww. awww. again. i can´t cope..my feelings

33. Under the Mistletoe by @teatimewithtiya

okay this was the perfect mix of fluff and slight angst and i am in heaven! such a great idea! well done!

34. Fix You by @criminal-minds-fanfiction

okay this made my heart break for Y/N. Spence to the rescue!!

35. The Hardest Time Of The Year by @mentallydatingspencerreid

this is such an important story bc christmas isn´t always happy and all cheerful for people. no. there are also people who have a hard time coping with everything and this is why i consider this story as important bcit literally shows the other side of the holiday too! it´s very well written! 

36. A Simmons´ Christmas by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars

this.is.everything. i love matt and luke <3

37. Present Boxes - Oonaa Family by @criminal-minds-fanfiction

again...AWW AWWW AWWW. i can´t cope. wth...sooooo cute. and the end <3 my heart is all fuzzy and warm <3

38. In His Arms by @captainreid

ANGST. YES. I LOVED IT! 

39. Symphony // Spencer Reid by @spencerthepipecleaner

this was such a cute and short masterpiece! i loved it :) 

40. Bad Day - Spencer Reid by @fandomyimagines

awww this story was somehow the perfect mix of all emotions. i really loved it! 

41.Christmas Time at the BAU by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars

awww again...my heart can´t cope anymore! i just loved it! 

42. That´s What Family´s For by @dontshootmespence

awww okay this was so sad on the one hand, but also so very cute and lovley on the other. BAU to the rescue! 

43. Bundled Joy by @dontshootmespence

and this also, such a cute masterpiece! Dad!Reid is everything!

44. Winter Wonderland by @teatimewithtiya

this one was so so so cute and adoreable and very well written! 

45. Criminal Minds AU Episode 17: Memoriam - Part 8 by @remember-me-forever-silent-angel

okay, this part had me at the edge of my seat bc ally omg. i can´t wait for more! 

46. All You Need is Love: Chapter Twelve “Oh! Darling” by @sweater-vest-reid

okay same here! WTH! 

47. An Alvez Family Christmas by @butsomeofusarelookingatthestars

i love luke´s fam :) i want luke as my bf for christmas. 

48. The Best Present Ever by @teatimewithtiya 

okay this was cute. i love JJ. 

49. Christmas Magic Brings Everyone Together by @dontshootmespence

i loved this and i loved the kids especially. it´s fun to read! 

50. Death Becomes Her by @traceyaudette

this was intense and i really enjoyed it! ANGST <3 

this were the reading lists of two weeks, last wek and this week :) i really hoped you enjoyed them. sorry again for the delay. also sorry that the recommendation texts are so short. i wish you a happy christmas and great holidays and see you next sunday! :) (31st Dec.) 

[archerwindsor]

10 BEST Last Minute Gift Ideas when You’re in a Pinch

gift ideas

We know it’s not a wrap yet for all you pro-gift-stinators Yes, we’re talking to all you shoppers looking for last minute ideas. By now you’re likely in full elf-mode. With Santa about to head out, we thought we’d make life easier for you… These gift ideas are super fun and are sure to spark some joy for those hard to shop for peeps on your list! Yeah. We got you.

Psssttt… feeling a little stressed out? Squeeze in this soothing yoga flow or read up on these tips to help holiday anxiety. We know it can be A LOT. You got this girl!

Fitness Bundles

Girl, have you seen our new LSF haul? We’re doing a lot of the heavy lifting for you with our new array of LSF products that allow you to create a perfectly curated gift for all the fitness fanatic friends on your list! It’s super easy to mix and match LSF fitness gear and apparel items from the LSF collection. We have a ton of awesome and affordable gift ideas to help them get their swag on while getting it done at their next sweat sesh: Match up our new double-sided yoga mat extraordinaire with an LSF tank and resistance tube bands. Pair our iconic Dad Hat with sculpting sliders! Or how about the Self Love Club Stacked Tee bundled with booty bands? And you gotta throw in our LSF water bottle to make sure they stay hydrated! You’ll have them toning, sculpting and strengthening in style! (Don’t forget to order by 12/18 for standard and 12/21 for 2-day overnight shipping to get them in time for Christmas!)

Silky Gifts for Bedtime Babes

We all have a few extra special friends in our crew who we like to splurge on a bit to thank them for the amazing babes they are. Why not pamper them with the gift of silk pajamas? Feminine, soft and oh so chic, this jammy set is spun from high quality 100% Mulberry silk featuring long sleeves, a button-up top and drawstring waist bottoms. This classic set will glide right onto their skin and make them feel so luxurious, they’ll stay in lounge-mode well past Christmas.  If she’s really been a baller BFF, maybe even pair them with a silk pillowcase to help her out with the morning bed head sitch.

Bed Head Curlipops Curling Wand

Speaking of bed head, we love this tourmaline ceramic hair wand for your friends who like it hot. The one-inch barrel cranks up to 400% for luscious loose curls that stay  bouncy and fabulous all day. The six-foot tangle-free cord makes styling super hassle-free, and it even comes with a heat-protective glove. Get ready for more gift ideas (p.s. the next one is probably our fave…)

LSF 2021 #Goals Planner

Okay so, we know 2020 was a little, well, eh. We’re totally committed to making 2021 the best year yet, but that takes a little planning! The 2021 #Goals Planner really is perfect for any babe in your life. There’s something for everyone! Of course you’ll find weekly calendars like in a normal planner, but we’ve also added a ton of monthly goals planning so you can start each new month feeling strong and ready to crush it! And that’s not all – the planner has TONS of resources like workouts, recipes, grocery lists and nutrition tips, horoscopes, stickers and so much more! It’s literally the planner for EVERYTHING. Couldn’t be a better gift tbh. Shop the 2021 #Goals Planner and check the gift shopping done!

Decorative Face Mask

Let’s face it; in addition to providing safety, masks have become a fashion thing. We love these masks. They come in packs of three beautiful prints and feature three layers of protection  — two layers of high quality 100% cotton, and an additional polypropylene layer (read: industrial strength germ catcher) to prevent those teeny tiny particles from getting through.  And with adjustable soft cotton ear loops, a fitted nose wire that helps prevent fogging with glasses, these masks are actually not annoying and really comfy. So show your friends you care and help them look on fleek while doing their part to slow the spread!

Apron & Matching Mitts and Dish Towels

Ah mademoiselle, how splendorous you look in the kitchen! These French-inspired aprons, oven mitts and dish towels feature simple-yet–beeeyootiful flower designs reminiscent of the idyllic French countryside. She’ll feel like she’s spending the holidays at her rustic vacation farmhouse (and look tres elegant and *francy* taking the prime rib out of the oven).

Fitvine wine

We’re no wino-cologists or anything, but vino that’s tasty and healthier?  We’re all in. These vegan adult bevs have less sugar, fewer sulfites, fewer calories, fewer carbs, and no flavor additives. Less is more, for reals. So **wine** not give this to those cleaner living peeps on your list who like to consume once in a while — and still crush it the next morning? Because we’re pretty sure these natural wines (in moderation) are also less likely to give you a hangover.

Portable table fire pit

This portable table fire pit is so, well, fire, because it helps us instantly create a relaxing ambiance — like literally anywhere. Dining table? Check.  Bath? Check. Patio. That’s right. They will be able to transform any space into a tranquil environment with honest-to-goodness flickering flames. No fuss, no muss. Fueled by smokeless, odorless, rubbing alcohol, it’s temperature resistant and safe whenever and wherever you need to cozy up.

Tesalate Towels

On-trend and sand-repellent, these next-gen Aussie beach towels rock. They’re perfect for pool- or shore-loving friends on your list who want a compact towel to take with them on their next post-COVID vacay. They come in the most precious little drawstring sacks, making them easy to pack or store in your closet. With crazy absorbent super powers, these ultra lightweight towels also great to bring along to their next sweat sesh — sized perfectly (63 inches by 31 inches) to go over equipment. Made from cutting edge fabric technology, the towels will blow you away with an amazing variety of vibrant designs. From Bohemian, Bora Bora, zen and Cali-inspired patterns, and sooo many more eye-catching designs, we are seriously having a hard time choosing just one. And most importantly, sand doesn’t stick to them, or your booty. Order by Dec. 16 for delivery by Christmas.

Glow Bowls

OMG. This is gonna glow up your holiday gift list. We are huge fans of this glow bowl that lights up the loo. I mean, think about it: It’s 3 a.m. and you need to use the facilities.  As you stumble into the bathroom, you dread turning on the light — or even worse missing the bowl. The Glow Bowl, featuring 13 mesmerizing colors that brighten your bowl, transforms any toilet into a nightlight, helping you navigate those late night bathroom misadventures. It even has a deodorizer to keep the bathroom smelling fab. If you must — give it as a gag gift.  But trust us, they will be flush with gratitude when it eliminates all those messy late night misses (and messes).

We hope you absolutely love these unique gift ideas for the people in your life! Let us know if you have any faves. And make sure to check the date to see if you can get it in time for Christmas babe!

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[camelopard-alis]

1-60 plz

I LOVE YOU 1. selfieNah I’m gross maybe I’ll post one l8r


2. what would you name your future kids?I have a whole list in my notes lmaoooo but my top three names are Camden, Cade, and Evelyn 


3. do you miss anyone?

I miss my girlfriend a whole fuckin ton ): and also my dog snuggles and also rico and Abbie 


4. what are you looking forward to?

Nikki coming back and also dying 


5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?Nikki omg she like is just ah she makes me smile just thinking about her. Like always. Also Carson, Camryn, and Rico always know how to make me smile idk my dude 


6. is it hard for you to get over someone?At first yes, and then also yes after that, and then I’m good, so then no. It’s a process 


7. what was your life like last year?I was blazed and wearing rose colored glasses lmao

 
8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?This happens a lot especially with my sister Azura yikes 


9. who did you last see in person?My trumpet teacher Patrick !


10. are you good at hiding your feelings?Hahaha I’m actually really good at it, which isn’t always a good thing. Idk I’m working on it 


11. are you listening to music right now?Nah I’m v frustrated w music rn


12. what is something you want right now?A hug and to fucking know how to count rhythms fucking accurately and to stop being a mediocre musician. Oh and also maybe something chocolate 


13. how do you feel right now?REALLY IN LOVE but also Frustrated and overwhelmed and kinda sad but that’s life


14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?Julian hugged me today yoooo


15. personality descriptionIdk a quirky klutz that can ironically run in heels and blogs too much 


16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?

Ha this has been one of the biggest problems I [have] face[d] in my life bc of my social anxiety help


17. opinion on insecurities.They are the worst things ever but develop character

 
18. do you miss how things were a year ago?

Mostly no, but in some ways yes I think I do

 
19. have you ever been to New York?Nah I don’t think I really want to go very much either 


20. what is your favourite song at the moment?Waving Through the Window - Ben Platt


21. age and birthday?18 & Dec. 13th


22. description of crush.Okay. You CANT miss her, she’s literally the most stunning girl on the planet, like her description is: glowing and radiant 

But if you’re blind, her name is Nikki and she’s rly kind & funny 


23. fear(s)Buttons and words and auditions 


24. height5'2" help 


25. role model

Mm my mother bc she role modeled to me what I don’t want to be like. And also Santa 


26. idol(s)Shay Mitchell and Jennifer Aniston 


27. things i hateYou probably and playing jazz music also Chris fuckin Ferrari 


28. i’ll love you if…I love everyone despite what I say abt hating you so 


29. favourite film(s)The hours, stonehearst asylum, the craft, and the love witch; not because it’s a good film but because the memory around that film is beautiful and my favorite 


30. favourite tv show(s)PRETTY LITTLE LIARS IM AWFUL and friends and also the voice

 
31. 3 random factsThe only time I ever got grounded was for texting a boy which is humorousUmm I went by the name Daisy for most of my life And once in fourth grade I called the police because my teacher wouldn’t let me go to the bathroom oops 


32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?Girls, I have like 3 guy friends idk sry 
33. something you want to learnHow to play trumpet better 


34. most embarrassing momentO too many. But One time I had a nip slip over FaceTime and that was really the worst ever Idk dog 


35. favourite subjectMath !!


36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?To be a genuinely good person, to be successful in whatever I do, and to have like 14 dogs 


37. favourite actor/actressIdk I don’t really have one but I guess Meryl Streep bc she’s 😍


38. favourite comedian(s)

Ppl aren’t funny

 
39. favourite sport(s)What are THOOOSEHonestly just judo and Olympic gymnastics idk 


40. favourite memoryThe day I finally accepted myself for being gay 


41. relationship statusMm idk maybe you should ask my girlfriend (very much taken obvs)


42. favourite book(s)Looking for Alaska and It’s kind of a funny story 


43. favourite song everThat’s a dumb question idk I’m indecisive and lame 


44. age you get mistaken for

Idk people usually think I’m about my age 


45. how you found out about your idolShe was GAY in a tv show that I’m obsessed with and then the other one is also from a tv show and I just think she’s hot and has a good heart 


46. what my last text message says“I LOVE U AH"


47. turn onsGurls


48. turn offs

Dick 


49. where i want to be right nowIn someone in particulars arms 


50. favourite picture of your idolThat’s too much effort rn so 


51. starsignSagittarius (((;;;;


52. something i’m talented atNot being talented(; 


53. 5 things that make me happyLesbian scenes in movies, my dog, my girl, my best friends, and winning 


54. something thats worrying me at the moment

Everything I’m so incredibly stressed out 


55. tumblr friendsUgh the list is too long 


56. favourite food(s)Pho and hummus and acai bowls and salad and pizza and almonds and ESP. Peanut butter and Frosted Flakes (together obvs)


57. favourite animal(s)Giraffe duh 


58. description of my best friend

Kind and blonde and a total badass (Carson) 

Talented and intelligent and also blonde(Katie) A super bad bitch and super funny and amazingly brunette (Aleah) A major chola dork that I down 40’s with and watch a million movies with and an incredibly great musician (rico) And my every so beautiful, talented, genuine, and loving fake blonde girlfriend (nikki) ❤


59. why i joined tumblrKatie made me one and then made me use it in the 8th grade 


60. ask me anything you wantMmm no

[teddyaltman]

all the even numbers yo

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? yeeees omg it is snowing here rn and we just went outside and i love it i love it i looooove feeling cold but only on a lil bit of my body i hate it when im all over cold4: how do you take your coffee/tea? black and strong, no tea thanks6: do you keep plants? yes, i have one money plant and it’s now named sophie courtesy of delani8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? screaming into the void (cross stitch)10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? stomach unless i’m with someone else and then probs side12: what's your favorite planet? uranus duh jk mars is bright tonight14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? so my best friend has a flat in london and it’s gorgeous and i would like to live there tbh, its just full of things that make us happy like harry potter wands and two tvs so you can play xbox together on two screens and things from travels around the world and a piano and i just love it16: what's your favorite pasta dish? a no pasta dish 18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. the time i fainted at may’s nephews graduation and got an ambulance called they’re never gonna let me live that shit down20: what's your favorite eye color? idon’t rly have a favourite but i like when you’re looking at someones eyes and they’re smiling back at u22: are you a morning person? yes! i like to get up early and curl up with a coffee and a book on a day off or when i have work i get up early to walk buddy or meg and then watch neighbours while i eat my breakfast 24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? i literally talk to my dad about eveyrthing, also dan, my mum and my sisters i never keep secrets from26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit? my flowery docs!28: sunrise or sunset? oOOoOOh both?? okay gun to my head sunrise over a lake is the most beautiful thing 30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? yes32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. when we were at uni dan and i used to call each other in the middle of the night if we were walking home drunk and we just used to talk and talk about anything and everything until the drunk one was sober enough to sleep34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? a bunny called bunny that i got when i was born (okay well actually its a replacement cos i lost the original in a service station in france on the way to disney when i was 2) but i still have it and it’s gross because i used to fall asleep by chewing on her ears and holding her tight around the neck so she looks awful but she’s still my bunny 36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now? sugarland38: tell us about your pet peeves! idk i don’t like it when people ignore me40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you? i have a wolf necklace that mg bought me for secret santa one year its gorgeous and i love necklaces and most of mine are anchors or giraffes but the wolf one is so amazing and so me and i love it42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! starbs dude im easy44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? laying on the sofa in my snug on dec 27th 46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. i cannot think of a single pun i suck48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? being abandoned and yep probs50: what's an odd thing you collect? HAHAH i collect SO MANY THINGS i have a collection pROBLEM okay i collect hurricane hard rock glasses, and i collect US quarters and i collect those special cups you can buy at the cinema sometimes and mugs from places i love and i have a p good pop funko collection and a hELLUVA lot of DVDS just idk if you can buy a ~collectors thing i probably will im a sucker for advertisement52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? its been like a week but omg the hollywood sign one

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? my sister when she just watched derek die on grey’s56: what are some things you find endearing in people? when they ramble on about something thye love, when people are so passionate you can feel it radiating off them, when someone tries their best to make you smile when you’re upset, when people pat dogs 58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? marygrace is the vodka aunt im probs the wine mom 60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? yeah but i don’t read a whole lot of it, idk i like simple stuff 62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? eh not rly sometimes apple or cranberry but not often i just drink coffee64: what color is the sky where you are right now? WHITE cos SNOW66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? any flower crown is an ideal flower crown68: what's winter like where you live? coldish, and grey v grey but i like the feeling of the cold mist snaking around you and seeing your breath when you’re walking and wearing a hat to keep ur lil ears warm!! sometimes it snows and ilove that70: have you ever used a ouija board? lmao no but i would LOVE to72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it? at work i keep so many notes about eveyrthing but i have a p photographic memory so i don’t rly need to its just so i can make sure stuff is organised and so i can show that i’ve listened to what people want74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. loud and passionate and so caring, finds an unrelenting joy in the most unexpected of things and is so strong and honest and proud. hates zombie culture. 76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't? nope! 78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? love a good minion80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? they’re cream bc my sisters and i used to switch around a lot so we all got them painted the same so it didn’t matter and we could stick up whatever we wanted to make it our own space. i did have a jungle room at one point and the walls were orange that was cool and in my hp room i had one RED wall for gryffindor that was awesome82: are/were you good in school? english, particularly lit, history, food tech, film, maths but i Hated that uuuh i was a good student - not a great one bc i was lazy and dumb in school and didn’t study like i  should have done but i did p well 84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? yessss i want an anchor on my ankle and expecto patronum on my wrist and delta lyrics on my ribs and also ‘faith, trust & pixie dust’86: do you like concept albums? which ones? what88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? impressionists90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. chicago is one of the best cities i have ever been too and i’m so lucky to have lived so close for a year it’s just so vibrant and full of life but not ~super busy so you feel crushed and rushed all the time and i rly loved it bUT also shoutout to brisbane which was a huge surprise how much i loved it and i explored it on a segway which was incredible and obvs sydney owns my lil heart and i wanna stare at the opera house forever92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? i hate pasta94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? jesus96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? ha remind me tomorrow pls98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? in the blue mountains in aus! yeah i love to hike except im not a fan of hills, whenever i hike with dan he gets me to explain the plots of tv shows to him to distract me he’s the best100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? def the future bc i have some great memories of the past 5 years and i wouldn’t be who i am today without them but i do not want to go back and relive them thanks

[cryptobrief]

Abstract: This is our third major piece on ICOs. In our first piece in September 2017 we focused on the interrelationships between ICO team members. In our second piece, in October 2018, we tracked the Ethereum balances in the ICO treasury accounts. In collaboration with TokenAnalyst, this piece focuses on the treasury balances of the ICO tokens themselves, on the Ethereum network. This report is based on tokens where the team controlled holding’s were worth an astonishing US$24.2 billion on issuance (In reality liquidity was too low for this value to be realized). Today this figure has fallen to around US$5 billion, with the difference primarily being caused by a fall in the market value of the tokens, alongside US$1.5 billion of transfers away from team address clusters (Possibly disposals).

(Source: BitMEX Research)

(Note: A reminder of the various interconnections between ICO team members, from our September 2017 interactive graphic)

Team controlled token holdings (Own tokens) – summary data

US$ billion Value of ICO coins allocated to token teams 21.5 Issuance to team post ICO 2.7 Total issuance to team controlled wallet 24.2 Coins leaving the team address cluster (Perhaps sales) (1.5) Profits/(losses) due to token price changes (12.0) Net impact of Noah (token burn) (4.4) Net Impact of EOS (1.2) Current team holdings 5.0

(Source: BitMEX Research, TokenAnlayst, the Ethereum blockchain, Coinmarketcap (for token prices)) (Notes: Price data up to Jan 2019, token data up to Dec 2018, based on data for 108 tokens)

Of the US$24 billion worth of tokens ICO project teams issued to themselves, 54% of the value has been lost due to coin price reductions. The peak valuation of the team holdings of their own token’s, using the individual price peak for each coin, is over US$80 billion. This larger figure implies US$70 billion of “losses” from the peak. Although with the peak valuation highly dubious due to a lack of liquidity and most of the tokens being granted to the teams essentially for nothing, classifying these price movements as losses may not be appropriate. Unlike ICO investors, the teams did not have an offering price or initial investment. However, some trading activity did occur at these ridiculously high valuations, therefore we believe it’s still interesting to consider these figures, while bearing these caveats in mind.

Based on current illiquid spot prices, the ICO teams still appear to own around US$5 billion of their own tokens, money they essentially got from nothing, depending on ones view. At the same time the teams may have realized gains of US$1.5 billion by selling tokens, based on coins leaving team address clusters. Although this figure may also be an overestimate, as coins could have left the team address cluster for a variety of reasons.

Data Caveats & weaknesses in calculation methodology

The liquidity of many of these tokens is low and therefore the US Dollar values may be gross overestimates, this applies to both the initial allocation, current value and the value of any losses. In some cases, the value of tokens given to the team, for instance with projects such as Veritaseum or Noah, were almost comically large relative to the real trading volume in the coins. Therefore it can be thought of as unrealistic to value the team holdings based on the exchange price of the tokens.

The challenge and uncertainty involved in producing this dataset surrounds the allocation of the tokens to the team address cluster. TokenAnalyst conducted this allocation. The methodology used was imperfect and we have not dug into individual projects. The data was obtained by analysing the token smart contracts and transaction patterns on the Ethereum blockchain and applying machine learning type techniques to establish a team controlled address cluster for the team of each project. The data is therefore a probabilistic estimate and is likely to be inaccurate at individual project level. However, the primary motivation for this report was to produce macro data about the team holdings of ICO tokens on Ethereum. Although this analysis has produced results which are far from perfect, we believe one can draw reasonable macro conclusions from the analysis.

As mentioned above, our analysis is based on looking at smart contract data and transaction patterns, not into the documents and policies of individual projects. Therefore its possible that we included tokens as part of a team balance, although in reality they are held as part of another form of reserves, escrow or some other category, where its not accurate to attribute the coins to the team’s own funds.

The data assumes the issuance date is the same date as when the first price data appeared on Coinmarketcap, this may not be a reliable assumption.

Summary data

Value of coins issued to team controlled address clusters (own tokens) – US$ million – Top 10

(Source: BitMEX Research, TokenAnlayst, the Ethereum blockchain, Coinmarketcap (for token prices)) (Notes: Token data up to Dec 2018, data based on prices at the time(s) of issuance)

Loss in value of team controlled holding (own tokens) – US$ million – Top 10

(Source: BitMEX Research, TokenAnlayst, the Ethereum blockchain, Coinmarketcap (for token prices)) (Notes: Price data up to Jan 2019, token data up to Dec 2018)

Proportional loss in value of coins in team controlled address clusters (own tokens) – Top 10

(Source: BitMEX Research, TokenAnlayst, the Ethereum blockchain, Coinmarketcap (for token prices)) (Notes: Price data up to Jan 2019, token data up to Dec 2018)

Value of coins transferred out of team controlled address clusters (Own tokens) – US$ million – Top 10

(Source: BitMEX Research, TokenAnlayst, the Ethereum blockchain, Coinmarketcap (for token prices)) (Notes: Price data up to Jan 2019, token data up to Dec 2018. Huobi and Qash are exchanges and the tokens appear to have been sent to their respective platforms. It is possible the above figures represents sales/”cashing out”, although there could be other reasons for the transfers)

Current value of coins in team controlled address clusters (Own tokens) – US$ million – Top 10

(Source: BitMEX Research, TokenAnlayst, the Ethereum blockchain, Coinmarketcap (for token prices)) (Notes: Price data up to Jan 2019, token data up to Dec 2018)

The raw data – Team holdings of own tokens – US$ million

Token Value at ICO Post ICO issuance Transfers away from team cluster Loss in value Current value VERI 4,762 0 (15) (3,196) 1,552 NOAH 4,478 0 (4,423) 55 KIN 980 0 (0) (703) 277 AGI 863 0 (27) (814) 22 POLY 842 0 (17) (727) 99 HT 643 0 (366) (29) 248 GNO 636 0 0 (533) 103 QASH 617 0 (177) (300) 140 MKR 596 0 (46) (445) 105 TEL 452 0 (8) (408) 36 ITC 334 0 (7) (323) 4 ZRX 333 0 (9) (155) 169 ZIP 266 0 0 (226) 41 BLZ 256 0 (32) (207) 17 GTO 241 0 (67) (157) 17 BNB 219 110 0 118 447 BTO 198 0 (28) (165) 5 ICX 160 0 (79) (67) 14 ETHOS 153 0 (15) (123) 16 TNT 152 0 (10) (133) 9 CENNZ 143 0 (6) (121) 15 AST 141 0 (24) (104) 13 KEY 132 0 (2) (124) 6 BIX 118 2 0 (85) 35 CVC 117 0 (1) (75) 41 FSN 100 0 (6) (75) 19 OCN 100 0 (31) (64) 5 DEW 95 0 (1) (87) 7 SRN 89 0 (15) (69) 4 MDS 88 0 (8) (75) 5 EDO 83 0 (11) (58) 15 ABT 76 0 0 (71) 5 WTC 69 0 (50) 17 37 INS 68 0 0 (66) 2 PPT 65 0 (55) (5) 5 IHT 65 0 (2) (58) 5 CPT 65 0 (0) (43) 21 SPHTX 64 0 0 (60) 4 DRGN 58 0 (47) (2) 8 MCO 54 0 (89) 72 37 XYO 54 0 (6) (23) 25 RCN 54 0 0 (48) 6 DPY 47 0 (23) (22) 2 THETA 45 0 0 (30) 16 MANA 41 0 (95) 127 73 R 40 0 0 35 75 APPC 35 0 (24) (9) 2 CMT 33 0 (1) (25) 8 FUEL 32 2 0 (29) 5 CREDO 31 0 (0) (6) 25 DMT 31 0 (17) (12) 2 POWR 30 166 0 (154) 42 LRC 30 8 0 (21) 17 WPR 26 0 0 (24) 2 AMB 24 0 0 (17) 7 RNT 22 0 (1) (15) 7 ENG 22 0 0 (12) 10 COB 22 0 (10) (5) 7 GTC 20 126 0 (141) 6 REN 19 0 (3) (13) 3 DENT 19 635 0 (564) 90 UTT 19 0 (0) (11) 8 AE 13 0 (19) 6 0 DATA 11 0 (3) (6) 3 BRD 10 17 0 (21) 7 SNGLS 8 0 0 (3) 6 LEND 6 0 (7) 3 2 RLC 6 0 (5) 2 3 PLR 6 3 0 (4) 5 HVN 5 0 (5) 0 1 CVT 5 11 0 (8) 9 LYM 5 0 (4) 0 2 SAN 5 0 (7) 5 4 GNT 4 0 (12) 31 23 KICK 3 2 0 (4) 1 DGD 2 0 (5) 5 3 EDG 2 0 (29) 28 1 ENJ 2 0 (0) 1 2 RHOC 1 14 0 (13) 1 ARN 0 6 0 (6) 1 ELF 0 45 0 (40) 6 PAY 0 142 0 (132) 11 DAI 0 1 0 0 1 HPB 0 134 0 (119) 15 CRPT 0 3 0 (2) 1 HOT 0 7 0 0 7 SALT 0 95 0 (92) 3 NAS 0 71 0 (50) 21 NGC 0 12 0 (11) 1 CPC 0 12 0 (9) 3 GVT 0 3 0 (2) 2 SNM 0 14 0 (11) 2 BTM 0 9 0 (1) 8 QRL 0 7 0 (6) 2 NULS 0 71 0 (52) 19 POE 0 58 0 (54) 4 TEN 0 29 0 (15) 13 MTL 0 188 0 (177) 11 WINGS 0 18 0 (15) 3 SPANK 0 106 0 (93) 13 OMG 0 195 0 (154) 41 STORJ 0 133 0 (85) 48 BAT 0 38 0 14 52 VIBE 0 10 0 (8) 2 IOST 0 218 0 (185) 34 Total 21,513 2,723 (14,805) (4,396) 5,035

(Source: BitMEX Research, TokenAnlayst, the Ethereum blockchain, Coinmarketcap (for token prices)) (Notes: Price data up to Jan 2019, token data up to Dec 2018)

Conclusion & summary data

This analysis highlights the lack of standards and transparency in the ICO market, especially when it comes to the allocation of tokens to the founding team’s wallet. Teams were often able to mint, burn, buy, and sell (their own) tokens at will, without analysts being able to easily track what is occuring. We would often see tokens in exchange clusters, and it was hard to tell whether the token project “paid” the exchange to list tokens or the token project just transferred their treasury to the exchange to cash out.

Although to be fair, perhaps we could improve the analysis by spending more time reading the specific documentation of the individual projects and by speaking to the teams involved. This would have resulted in a more robust dataset.

One thing about ICOs that many people often overlook, is that ICO teams often make profits in two ways from the issuance:

Firstly, by selling the newly issued tokens (often for Ethereum), and,

Secondly, by issuing themselves their own tokens.

Our October 2018 report focused on the former, while this report focuses on the latter. The summary table below combines the figures from both of our reports.

ICO team profits US$ billion ICO process Ethereum Raised 5.4 Own tokens issued to founding teams 24.2 Total raised 29.6 Changes in coin price Ethereum profits/(losses) – Mostly realised 0.8 Own token profits/(losses) – Mostly unrealised (17.6) Total profits/(losses) post issuance (16.8) Total ICO team profits 12.8

(Source: BitMEX Research, TokenAnlayst, the Ethereum blockchain, Coinmarketcap (for token prices)) (Notes: Ethereum price data to October 2018, Own token price data to January 2019)

Although, as we have repeatedly explained, there are many inaccuracies and assumptions involved in producing the data. Based on our methodology, it appears as if ICO teams have profited by almost US$13 billion from this ICO process. In our view, this money was made incredibly easily, with very little work, accountability or transparency. Therefore ICOs has proven an extremely attractive way for project founders to raise funds. The results for investors of course, have not been as attractive.

The ICO cycle now appears to be dying down to some extent and its much harder to raise funds than it was in late 2017. But with so much money made and lost, the events of 2017 and early 2018 are not likely to be quickly forgotten. Entrepreneurs will remember the success (and keep trying to raise money) and investors will remember the pain. A repeat of this cycle within a few years is therefore not as likely as many may think.

[click2watch]

Down More than 70% in 2018, Bitcoin Closes Its Worst Year on Record

Exhale. The nightmare of the 2018 cryptocurrency market is finally over.

Of course, more downside is always possible, if not likely, but at least the year in which bitcoin prices dropped more than 80 percent and the broarder market lost nearly $700 billion of total capitalization is over.

By now, you’re probably well aware the world’s premier cryptocurrency, bitcoin (BTC), catapulted more than 2,500 percent from its 2017 low to reach a new high of almost $20,000 by December of that year.

Unfortunately for those at the time who were betting on more immediate upside, one of bitcoin’s many speculative bubbles or “hype cycles” reached its peak on Dec. 17, 2017 and its price has been trapped in a steep and record-setting downtrend ever since. 

What exactly transpired for the price of bitcoin over the past 365 volatile days is explored below.

Price History

When reviewing bitcoin’s 2018 price history, two technical developments stand out: the moving average death cross and breaking support of $6,000.

Moving averages are exactly what the name suggests – an average of bitcoin’s price over specified time periods that when plotted on a chart tend to provide support and resistance for price, as well as the strength and bias of the longer term trend.

Multiple moving averages are commonly used on the same chart and complete the bearish development known as a ‘death cross’ when a major short-term moving average crosses below a major long-term moving average, indicating a significant loss of strength to the longer term trend. 

BTC/USD witnessed a death cross between the 100- and 200-day moving averages on April 16, confirming the end of its most recent bull market.

Before the death cross had taken place, price fell to and found support near $6,000 in February.

All eyes were on this level from that day forward as price went on to test it several more times before finally breaking down nine months later on Nov. 14.  

Up until this point, many believed $6k had fortified itself as the ‘bottom’ of the 2018 bear market since it had been strongly defended for what in crypto time seemed like an eternity.

Coincidentally, Nov. 14 was the day before one of the world’s largest crypto-networks, bitcoin cash (BCH), underwent a divisive hard fork, which many suspect provided enough uncertainty in the broader market to catalyze bitcoin’s break below $6,000.

Now having closed the year at the price of $3,747, 2018 will go in the record books as bitcoin’s worst performing 12-month stretch ever in terms of price.

The leading cryptocurrency’s 2018 performance of a more than 70-percent depreciation from its opening price of $13,062 is considerably worse than the previous record holder, 2014, the year when its price fell roughly 55 percent open to close, according to CoinDesk’s pricing data.

Trading Volume

Bitcoin monthly trading volume peaked towards the end of 2017, bringing in a total of $70.2 billion across exchanges in November just before its price reached an all-time high, according to data from Bitcoinity.

Trading volumes, along with price, have been stuck in a downtrend ever since and for all of 2018.

Just $7.8 billion in monthly trading volume was recorded in September – a stark difference and 88 percent drop from the high recorded in Nov. 2017 and a 15-month low at the time.

The volume performance for 2018 isn’t all discouraging, however.

Using data from Coinmarketcap, a post from Satoshi Capital Research revealed over $2 trillion worth of bitcoin was traded in 2018, which as of Dec. 1 marked a 61 percent increase from the previous year.

While it’s not quite the 96 percent increase recorded in 2017 over 2016, it’s clear investor interest still grew substantially in 2018 despite the relentless bearish market conditions.

NVT Ratio

There are plenty of other tools that can be used to evaluate bitcoin’s 2018 market conditions besides technical analysis.

Our favorites of which are those created by cryptocurrency researcher Willy Woo that focus on various bitcoin blockchain metrics and its relation to price and network value, like the NVT Ratio.

The network value transmitted (NVT) ratio emulates the price to earnings ratio (P/E) used to value a company’s stock price by comparing bitcoin’s network value (market capitalization) and the value of funds transmitted through its blockchain.

A ratio above 100 suggests bitcoin’s price has outstripped its network value, or in other words has become overbought. Conversely, a reading below 100 indicates the market is representing a truer value for bitcoin where price is at less risk of witnessing an aggressive and elongated downtrend.

As can be seen in the above chart, bitcoin’s NVT ratio was well above 100 for almost all of 2018 and even reached its highest level since 2011 above 200, confirming the market was significantly overvalued and a drop in price and network value was highly likely.

Now at the year end, bitcoin has witnessed a near 80 percent drop in network value, falling from $280 billion to $56 billion. While the downtrend is still aggressive, the daily estimated value transmitted through its blockchain stopped plummeting in May and has stabilized above roughly $250 million ever since, allowing the NVT ratio to finally begin deflating.

At the time of writing, bitcoin’s NVT ratio records 108, so the market is still slightly overbought but is much closer to finding a healthy bottom than it was earlier in the year.

If the bear market experienced in 2014-15 is any example, the NVT ratio will once again need to stabilize for several months below 100 before another sustained uptrend can begin.

It should be noted Blockstream’s liquid side-chain was launched on Oct. 10 which takes some bitcoin volume off-chain so not all transmitted volume is being taken into account in the NVT ratio.

Looking forward  

Indeed, 2018 was a historically bad year for bitcoin if solely price action and network value are being taken into account.

Other metrics though, like total trading volume, show a substantial increase in investor interest from the prior year, whereas the NVT ratio shows bitcoin’s latest bubble is coming close to being fully deflated.

All in all, 2019 will be an interesting year for bitcoin as valuations deflate and continue to align with fundamental principles.

Simply put, bitcoin’s market in 2019 can’t possibly be worse than 2018, right?

Disclosure: The author holds BTC, AST, REQ, OMG, FUEL, 1st, and AMP at the time of writing.

Bitcoin bubble via Shutterstock; charts by Trading View

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Down More than 70% in 2018, Bitcoin Closes It’s Worst Year on Record

Down More than 70% in 2018, Bitcoin Closes It’s Worst Year on Record

Exhale. The nightmare of the 2018 cryptocurrency market is finally over.

Of course, more downside is always possible, if not likely, but at least the year in which bitcoin prices dropped more than 80 percent and the broarder market lost nearly $700 billion of total capitalization is over.

By now, you’re probably well aware the world’s premier cryptocurrency, bitcoin (BTC), catapulted more than 2,500 percent from its 2017 low to reach a new high of almost $20,000 by December of that year.

Unfortunately for those at the time who were betting on more immediate upside, one of bitcoin’s many speculative bubbles or “hype cycles” reached its peak on Dec. 17, 2017 and its price has been trapped in a steep and record-setting downtrend ever since. 

What exactly transpired for the price of bitcoin over the past 365 volatile days is explored below.

Price History

When reviewing bitcoin’s 2018 price history, two technical developments stand out: the moving average death cross and breaking support of $6,000.

Moving averages are exactly what the name suggests – an average of bitcoin’s price over specified time periods that when plotted on a chart tend to provide support and resistance for price, as well as the strength and bias of the longer term trend.

Multiple moving averages are commonly used on the same chart and complete the bearish development known as a ‘death cross’ when a major short-term moving average crosses below a major long-term moving average, indicating a significant loss of strength to the longer term trend. 

BTC/USD witnessed a death cross between the 100- and 200-day moving averages on April 16, confirming the end of its most recent bull market.

Before the death cross had taken place, price fell to and found support near $6,000 in February.

All eyes were on this level from that day forward as price went on to test it several more times before finally breaking down nine months later on Nov. 14.  

Up until this point, many believed $6k had fortified itself as the ‘bottom’ of the 2018 bear market since it had been strongly defended for what in crypto time seemed like an eternity.

Coincidentally, Nov. 14 was the day before one of the world’s largest crypto-networks, bitcoin cash (BCH), underwent a divisive hard fork, which many suspect provided enough uncertainty in the broader market to catalyze bitcoin’s break below $6,000.

Now having closed the year at the price of $3,747, 2018 will go in the record books as bitcoin’s worst performing 12-month stretch ever in terms of price.

The leading cryptocurrency’s 2018 performance of a more than 70-percent depreciation from its opening price of $13,062 is considerably worse than the previous record holder, 2014, the year when its price fell roughly 55 percent open to close, according to CoinDesk’s pricing data.

Trading Volume

Bitcoin monthly trading volume peaked towards the end of 2017, bringing in a total of $70.2 billion across exchanges in November just before its price reached an all-time high, according to data from Bitcoinity.

Trading volumes, along with price, have been stuck in a downtrend ever since and for all of 2018.

Just $7.8 billion in monthly trading volume was recorded in September – a stark difference and 88 percent drop from the high recorded in Nov. 2017 and a 15-month low at the time.

The volume performance for 2018 isn’t all discouraging, however.

Using data from Coinmarketcap, a post from Satoshi Capital Research revealed over $2 trillion worth of bitcoin was traded in 2018, which as of Dec. 1 marked a 61 percent increase from the previous year.

Story continues

While it’s not quite the 96 percent increase recorded in 2017 over 2016, it’s clear investor interest still grew substantially in 2018 despite the relentless bearish market conditions.

NVT Ratio

There are plenty of other tools that can be used to evaluate bitcoin’s 2018 market conditions besides technical analysis.

Our favorites of which are those created by cryptocurrency researcher Willy Woo that focus on various bitcoin blockchain metrics and its relation to price and network value, like the NVT Ratio.

The network value transmitted (NVT) ratio emulates the price to earnings ratio (P/E) used to value a company’s stock price by comparing bitcoin’s network value (market capitalization) and the value of funds transmitted through its blockchain.

A ratio above 100 suggests bitcoin’s price has outstripped its network value, or in other words has become overbought. Conversely, a reading below 100 indicates the market is representing a truer value for bitcoin where price is at less risk of witnessing an aggressive and elongated downtrend.

As can be seen in the above chart, bitcoin’s NVT ratio was well above 100 for almost all of 2018 and even reached its highest level since 2011 above 200, confirming the market was significantly overvalued and a drop in price and network value was highly likely.

Now at the year end, bitcoin has witnessed a near 80 percent drop in network value, falling from $280 billion to $56 billion. While the downtrend is still aggressive, the daily estimated value transmitted through its blockchain stopped plummeting in May and has stabilized above roughly $250 million ever since, allowing the NVT ratio to finally begin deflating.

At the time of writing, bitcoin’s NVT ratio records 108, so the market is still slightly overbought but is much closer to finding a healthy bottom than it was earlier in the year.

If the bear market experienced in 2014-15 is any example, the NVT ratio will once again need to stabilize for several months below 100 before another sustained uptrend can begin.

It should be noted Blockstream’s liquid side-chain was launched on Oct. 10 which takes some bitcoin volume off-chain so not all transmitted volume is being taken into account in the NVT ratio.

Looking forward  

Indeed, 2018 was a historically bad year for bitcoin if solely price action and network value are being taken into account.

Other metrics though, like total trading volume, show a substantial increase in investor interest from the prior year, whereas the NVT ratio shows bitcoin’s latest bubble is coming close to being fully deflated.

All in all, 2019 will be an interesting year for bitcoin as valuations deflate and continue to align with fundamental principles.

Simply put, bitcoin’s market in 2019 can’t possibly be worse than 2018, right?

Disclosure: The author holds BTC, AST, REQ, OMG, FUEL, 1st, and AMP at the time of writing.

Bitcoin bubble via Shutterstock; charts by Trading View

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Down More than 70% in 2018, Bitcoin Closes It’s Worst Year on Record

Down More than 70% in 2018, Bitcoin Closes It’s Worst Year on Record

Exhale. The nightmare of the 2018 cryptocurrency market is finally over.

Of course, more downside is always possible, if not likely, but at least the year in which bitcoin prices dropped more than 80 percent and the broarder market lost nearly $700 billion of total capitalization is over.

By now, you’re probably well aware the world’s premier cryptocurrency, bitcoin (BTC), catapulted more than 2,500 percent from its 2017 low to reach a new high of almost $20,000 by December of that year.

Unfortunately for those at the time who were betting on more immediate upside, one of bitcoin’s many speculative bubbles or “hype cycles” reached its peak on Dec. 17, 2017 and its price has been trapped in a steep and record-setting downtrend ever since. 

What exactly transpired for the price of bitcoin over the past 365 volatile days is explored below.

Price History

When reviewing bitcoin’s 2018 price history, two technical developments stand out: the moving average death cross and breaking support of $6,000.

Moving averages are exactly what the name suggests – an average of bitcoin’s price over specified time periods that when plotted on a chart tend to provide support and resistance for price, as well as the strength and bias of the longer term trend.

Multiple moving averages are commonly used on the same chart and complete the bearish development known as a ‘death cross’ when a major short-term moving average crosses below a major long-term moving average, indicating a significant loss of strength to the longer term trend. 

BTC/USD witnessed a death cross between the 100- and 200-day moving averages on April 16, confirming the end of its most recent bull market.

Before the death cross had taken place, price fell to and found support near $6,000 in February.

All eyes were on this level from that day forward as price went on to test it several more times before finally breaking down nine months later on Nov. 14.  

Up until this point, many believed $6k had fortified itself as the ‘bottom’ of the 2018 bear market since it had been strongly defended for what in crypto time seemed like an eternity.

Coincidentally, Nov. 14 was the day before one of the world’s largest crypto-networks, bitcoin cash (BCH), underwent a divisive hard fork, which many suspect provided enough uncertainty in the broader market to catalyze bitcoin’s break below $6,000.

Now having closed the year at the price of $3,747, 2018 will go in the record books as bitcoin’s worst performing 12-month stretch ever in terms of price.

The leading cryptocurrency’s 2018 performance of a more than 70-percent depreciation from its opening price of $13,062 is considerably worse than the previous record holder, 2014, the year when its price fell roughly 55 percent open to close, according to CoinDesk’s pricing data.

Trading Volume

Bitcoin monthly trading volume peaked towards the end of 2017, bringing in a total of $70.2 billion across exchanges in November just before its price reached an all-time high, according to data from Bitcoinity.

Trading volumes, along with price, have been stuck in a downtrend ever since and for all of 2018.

Just $7.8 billion in monthly trading volume was recorded in September – a stark difference and 88 percent drop from the high recorded in Nov. 2017 and a 15-month low at the time.

The volume performance for 2018 isn’t all discouraging, however.

Using data from Coinmarketcap, a post from Satoshi Capital Research revealed over $2 trillion worth of bitcoin was traded in 2018, which as of Dec. 1 marked a 61 percent increase from the previous year.

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While it’s not quite the 96 percent increase recorded in 2017 over 2016, it’s clear investor interest still grew substantially in 2018 despite the relentless bearish market conditions.

NVT Ratio

There are plenty of other tools that can be used to evaluate bitcoin’s 2018 market conditions besides technical analysis.

Our favorites of which are those created by cryptocurrency researcher Willy Woo that focus on various bitcoin blockchain metrics and its relation to price and network value, like the NVT Ratio.

The network value transmitted (NVT) ratio emulates the price to earnings ratio (P/E) used to value a company’s stock price by comparing bitcoin’s network value (market capitalization) and the value of funds transmitted through its blockchain.

A ratio above 100 suggests bitcoin’s price has outstripped its network value, or in other words has become overbought. Conversely, a reading below 100 indicates the market is representing a truer value for bitcoin where price is at less risk of witnessing an aggressive and elongated downtrend.

As can be seen in the above chart, bitcoin’s NVT ratio was well above 100 for almost all of 2018 and even reached its highest level since 2011 above 200, confirming the market was significantly overvalued and a drop in price and network value was highly likely.

Now at the year end, bitcoin has witnessed a near 80 percent drop in network value, falling from $280 billion to $56 billion. While the downtrend is still aggressive, the daily estimated value transmitted through its blockchain stopped plummeting in May and has stabilized above roughly $250 million ever since, allowing the NVT ratio to finally begin deflating.

At the time of writing, bitcoin’s NVT ratio records 108, so the market is still slightly overbought but is much closer to finding a healthy bottom than it was earlier in the year.

If the bear market experienced in 2014-15 is any example, the NVT ratio will once again need to stabilize for several months below 100 before another sustained uptrend can begin.

It should be noted Blockstream’s liquid side-chain was launched on Oct. 10 which takes some bitcoin volume off-chain so not all transmitted volume is being taken into account in the NVT ratio.

Looking forward  

Indeed, 2018 was a historically bad year for bitcoin if solely price action and network value are being taken into account.

Other metrics though, like total trading volume, show a substantial increase in investor interest from the prior year, whereas the NVT ratio shows bitcoin’s latest bubble is coming close to being fully deflated.

All in all, 2019 will be an interesting year for bitcoin as valuations deflate and continue to align with fundamental principles.

Simply put, bitcoin’s market in 2019 can’t possibly be worse than 2018, right?

Disclosure: The author holds BTC, AST, REQ, OMG, FUEL, 1st, and AMP at the time of writing.

Bitcoin bubble via Shutterstock; charts by Trading View

Original Source http://bit.ly/2QiyqvT