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lunar-fey · 2 years ago

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vent or whatever.

when y. when you dont get to eat dinner bc youre broke bc youre disabled and cant hold a job and your parents buy your food but they dont believe in things like "digestive disorders" or "dietary needs" so they basically tell you to either eat something that will make you sick or not eat at all bc they cant go to 3 different places to pick up food and skerples already cant eat the food everyone else eats (autism). and then they get mad at YOU when youre like okay. guess i will not eat then. because they are like ogh youre just being mean because you hate me stip trying to be special and eat it even though it makes you sick like the rest of us >:( like SORRY id rather not eat at all than eat something that will make me throw up. (me and dad have had extended arguments over this. he truly cannot understand this concept and thinks that everyone should eat things that they hate or that make them sick because its food and no one should ever be allowed to like. customize their food or get something else))

they did get me like some potatoes but 1. its like. 3 bites worth (none of us knew it would be that small) and it also tastes awful (i really didnt want to get anything but again they got really pissed at me for saying i just wouldnt eat then (not even like. in a passive agressive way i was just like. uhhh well i think im too sick to eat any of this. itll be fine) and looked like they were gonna cry about me not getting food. like idk but if you care that much about me eating then maybe stop picking the same 2 fast food places that you KNOW and have known for years that i cant eat at. maybe then you wouldnt have to feel bad or whatever. or maybe the real issue is just that you WANT to feel wronged by me + a refusal to accept that people can be sick for their whole lives bc you have been sick for your whole life but refuse to accept it. mom literally cant work and is on ssi bc of her disabilities but also disabilities arent real and no on has them and everyone can just try hard enough to overcome their symptoms. except her of course, because shes your wife. but fuck those kids tho. no matter how old they get they are still too young to have any type of medical problem, because kids are immune to medical problems and adults can simply will them away.)

anyway this time it was taco bell but also just because i want to get this off my chest too im adding it. normally they get like burgers and i can only tolerate mcdonalds burgers and bk to an extent (as far as wjats availble here. i knos everyone hates mcd burgers but they dont upset my stomach like everything else. idk why. they dont taste like a burger but whatever they do taste like is good to me. mostly i think they just taste like salt) and the sheer RAGE dad flies into every SINGLE time he asks what i want and i say i want a cheeseburger with no mustard. he LOOSES HIS SHIT. EVERY SINGLE TIME HE YELLS AT ME FOR IT. im like sorry man but if its got mustard im not gonna eat it. its disgusting. i dont want you to waste money on food im not going to eat. and he gets SO MAD. he doesnt WANT to save money; he wants me to be the perfect little military brat he tried to raise me as who never speaks unless spoken to or asks questions and does as hes told and eats disgusting slop and vomits and says thank you sir. can i please have more sir. and it AINT ME.

anyway if you wanted to know why im bad at starting conversations and you read this far uh. now you know. the ability to speak to someone else first got beaten out of me its not even anxiety i get so scared of getting introuble for starting a conversation that i black out and forget every single interest ive ever had. BUT if someone else starts for me im okay <3

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fishareglorious · 4 months ago

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in this one fishareglorious cosplays a firehose with their eyes.

if youve been looking at my previous posting, i am very emotionally destroyed! my heart has been crushed to dust, my crops are all burnt, my skin is cracked and bleeding, i am not moisturized, and i am very bothered and away from my lane! i am inconsolable! i will be holding this grief in me for the rest of my life! fuck!

...

i screamed just like marcus right now. ogh my ghosd

how miserably disappointing did it feel to hofmann, for her to go all those lengths to try and protect heinrich yet have it all end up in vain?

BE SERIOUS RIGHT NOW YOU ARE DYING😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

im actively weepign righth now i acnt take ttis anymore

oh my god. all her talk of not dying ignorant just makes this hurt more. you've been waving death flags for so long and now that were here. I. I.

man.

ive seen this exact scene three times yet here in this fourth time it hurts much much more. god.

everything hurts everything hurts everything hurts everything hurts everthng hurts everhything hurts did you know i couldn't even see the screen because of my tears so i had to listen to marcus crying and wailing and trying to bargain and find a way to keep greta alive?

im never emotionally recovering from this bluepoch you are a god in wringing every single drop of emotion from us but also please go fuck yourselves

i am ever emotionally recovering from this.

marcus probably won't too huh.

my hofweis ass is rejoicing and grieving at this

oh shit, kakania actually is cryng here.

Its just. exceptionally miserable and if not a little ironic to think of this in context of chapter 7.

you will survive the storm, kakania. you and marcus will become colleagues, but all the work that's leads up to all of that is. well. if you know then you know.

did hofmann think of the plan in the moments where she was about to die or far before that.? if the latter, then, wow. props to her.

now with the knowledge of her POV in her event story, I can imagine how much self-loathing marcus is currently drowning herself in. nonetheless, she's in here seeing a sliver of hope that maybe she can find a way.

god marcus. you're doing your best. godspeed, kid.

YOU CUNT. ITS ON FUCKING SIGHT LAWRENCE CAVENDISH JR.

reverse 1999 is a game of a bunch of people and factions trying to convince they’re in theright and playing the game of 'us versus them' in the backdrop of a time apocalypse huh

he's not very fond of isolde ins't he? its probably on the whole 'she murdered heinrich' thing but im also subscribed to that one post of him hating her because she doesn't fit their whole goth theme going on in manus

isolde you absolute lesbian LMFAO. the way her face immediately lit up and then her voice goes five pitches higher upon seeing kakania. gayass.

me when i lie

leading her into a trap huh? wonder what's the plan between her and marcus.

finally playing chapter 6. i'm putting everything under cut for the sake of not spoiling people and because i might go off the shits.

anyways: i'll be bringing up the events that'll happen in the later stages constantly. also will mention chapter 7 (patch 1.9) spoilers in detail so watch out.

isolde on the torture chair once again.

since i like reading up on medical history i am curious a little bit on the actual historical accounts of EST. while im mainly more interested in the realm of epidemiology instead of neurosciences and general psychology stuff i might fall into a deep dive of this topic later lol. who knows.

.... eee. a sad truth.

ehm. not really.

ah were back for the regularly scheduled arcanist discrimination i guess

SLAYYYYY KAKANIA'S HERE

oh. yeah i forgot kakania's a med school dropout with a practice that's definitely not legal.

can't. hold schwartz against that sigmund freud was a... weird guy. especially with his oedipus complex thing

we back on laplace. also what the fuck is up with these guys. didn't matilda and sotheby run into one of of them covered in weird slime in The Star

MANUS MASKS????!!! WHAT THE FUCK STOP EXPERIMENTING WITH MANUS GOOP!??!?!!!

FUCK. IS THAT WHY PEOPLE STARTED TURNING INTO MANUS MONSTERS IN CHAP 7.

STOP THAT SHIT RIGHT NOW.

the forehead slap i just did can be heard all the way down the marinara ocean. like fuck offffffffffffff. luc's such a funny bastard she has the most serious robotic voice yet she does stupid comedic shit like this. i love you you funny tin woman

... at the expense of the majority of your staff? god with my knowledge on chapter 7 im constantly going 😬 here not going to lie.

!!!????? HE SHOVED A BALLPOINT INTO HIS EYE???? OH MY FUCKING GOD?

i kindave feel for medpoc if I was them i would be biting the shit out of lucy right now in utter frustration of her callousness

an unfortunate nickname for them, but that's semmelweis' team!

all we know from echoes in the mountain's story has set up quite some of the happenings for this chapter.

#1.7 spoilers #playing rev 1999

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