#connor horowitz ( biography )

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⌠ timothee chalamet. 25, bisexual, non-binary, he/they. ⌡ wait a minute, is connor horowitz still in town? i thought i saw a flash of (constant bed head, untied shoelaces, freckles and dark eye bags)! last i heard they were working as a musician nearby. when it’s the (capricorn)’s birthday on 12/27 i forget that they’re immature and celebrate that they’re delightful. i hear title track by machine gun kelly every time i think of them. ⌿ @liminalintro 

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* The youngest of three, it wasn’t fair to say that Connor was overlooked - just given a lot more freedom than his older siblings.  As long as he didn’t get in trouble, he was often left to get into whatever his heart desired.

* School was not his favorite thing in the world, and by the time he was in high school, Connor was cutting classes to go hang out with his friends at the record store all day more than he was in class.  They loved music so much, the next logical step seemed to be to try to get into the underground punk scene that never seemed to die,

* There was a lot of luck and chance, but Connor and two of their best friends wound up getting friendly with a producer, and somehow that led to a track that seemed to blow up overnight.

* Unsure how to fully deal with all of this, the three boys - Connor especially as the youngest - leaned heavily on their producer for insight and guidance.  What they didn’t know was that he never had the boys’ best interest in mind - he was only in it for the money.

* At sixteen years old, Connor got caught up in a whirlwind of fame, recording an album, playing shows around New York, and showing up on talk shows.  The music seemed to be less about creative expression and more about what would make money.  Any joke idea they had turned into something serious, nothing they actually stood for.  It was confusing, but Connor felt entirely powerless to say no - as did his bandmates.

* With the release of their first album, the producer immediately set the boys up for a tour, and at eighteen, Connor was launched into a much bigger, wider world.  Constantly supplied with beer and a cocktail of drugs, Connor and their friends quickly turned into people they barely recognized.  Nothing seemed to be a joke anymore, and partying and bad behavior seemed to be the expectation.  None of them were looking to disappoint anyone they were working with, which led them all down a dark hole of turning to drugs and alcohol at every chance they got, falling in and out of bed with women because it was what was expected, they were famous, why wouldn’t they take the opportunity when it presented itself?

* Somehow, their tour lasted for nearly a year and a half, and by the time they came back to New York, Connor was absolutely exhausted.  They felt like nothing about them was real, forced to turn into some sort of a robot.  They boys were practically forced back into the studio upon their return, unfortunately, and while they tried, nothing was hitting right.

* Connor wasn’t the first to crack, but when one of his best friends and band mates quietly moved to California without telling anyone, it left Connor and the other boy in a complete tailspin.  With nothing else to do and nowhere else to turn, he completely distanced himself from everyone, and leaned into the flashy comfort of partying and drugs.

* Suddenly at twenty one, he felt completely untethered, unsure of where to go or what to do with his life.  He never finished high school, and while everyone recognized him, he barely even knew who he was.  Leaning into his fame to continue to party was easy, for a while, but he knew it wasn’t entirely sustainable.

* After a much put off phone conversation with his sister, he decided that he could always try to make it as a solo musician - until his friends came back, that was.  Her suggestion was to try to go back to their roots, and think about the things they loved before they got so manipulated into thinking the only things in life that was cool were girls, booze and drugs.

* Connor is still on a road to self discovery, trying to remember who he was before the glitz and the glamor of fame.  They barely know who they were, who they like, who they’re going to be, but the one thing that has remained true was his deep love of things spooky and unusual.  So he decided to move to a town where there were fewer people to freak out if they recognized him - his hair was much longer now - and one that had a curious backstory.

If you know anything about The Beastie Boys, Connor is based very heavily off their time during the License to Ill era and the fallout of that.  He is based moreso off Ad Rock than the other two, but there’s elements of them all in him.

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