#cleaning only becomes a factor when I'm so overwhelmed and don't know what to do with myself

[call-me-kitty]

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[thecynthh]

confide - M.S

summery - y/n escapes to the balcony of you and matt’s room while a whole party is still buzzing under you, he finds you and lets you know that he still loves you no matter what

notes - MORE FLUFF, guys we needed more fluff, i can make a part 2 with smut in it if u whores like this one 🫶

a/n - this is me putting off smart ass 🤗

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trying to escape the madness of the party happening underneath me i choose to sit on the outdoor couch on the very high balcony i sit at. i started the mini fire pit in front of me as all the supplies for it was just in a box near the door. 

the blanket that embraces me is fluffy and soft, as much as i love matt i couldn’t breath in that horrible blanket of tension his mother threw onto me. i was drilled with questions by her knowing the reason for the excessive amount. matt went through a rough break up before me, and i can’t blame her for wanting to make sure her son doesn’t go through something like that again. 

the fire crackles and pops while i just enjoy the city lights and soft jazz that plays on the upper level of the penthouse, i lay my head down on the other seat cozying up on the bamboo woven couch, the thick padding cradle me as i feel myself being lulled to sleep. 

not long after i fall asleep im woken up by the sound of the sliding door behind me, a shadowy figure walks to the side of the couch, it was matt. 

“hi sweetheart, did you get tired?” matt says, folding over to get closer to my face, the glow of the fireplace reflects every chiselled feature in his face.  i give him a soft nod while he peels his suit jacket off resting it on the chair that is also stationed towards the fire.

“hey move your head up,” i do as i’m told and he slides into the seat on the couch my head was recently covering up, he lays my head back onto his muscular thigh letting me use him as a pillow. 

“im sorry, i was so overwhelmed by your mom,” i say shameful of when i tripped over my words and made a fool of myself. 

“yeah, nick told me about it, he already told her to calm down on the questions, he also led me here to you and i don't think my mom is the only factor of you coming up here.” he says, dipping his head down to kiss my forehead. his fingers push my hair away from my face as i turn to look up at him. 

“i don’t know matt, i feel weird. i don’t belong in this sparkly dress or these high class parties. i’m so new to all of it, and don’t get me wrong, i love all of this and you so much to keep pushing through but if i’m being honest it’s really hard for me to be down there.” i hope matt understood what i meant by all of that because it really felt good to get off my chest. 

“i get it, we grew up differently, but that doesn’t change anything between us. i dont care if you were dirty and homeless on the street as long as i knew who you were i would have picked you up, housed you and loved you forever. and i'm willing to do that right now too. i don’t care if my family is worried about me, because i know that i'm alright now. you healed me.” he cupped my cheek making sure my eyes were still connected to his while he assured me of his intentions and beliefs. 

“i know i’m not what your mom envisioned who you would be with, so thank you for all of this. from the dress to the heels and your sweet words, thank you for sharing your beautiful life with me.” i sit up and begin to straddle matt, my red dress pools around us while i take matt in for a large hug. he returns it pushing my head into his neck letting me become way more calm then i was when i came up here. 

i look back up to him with a tear escaping from my perfectly done eye make up. “don’t cry please, it breaks my fucking heart when you cry.” he kisses the tear before it can run fully down my face fully. “how about we go to bed, i’ll get you all cleaned up and all i have to do is tell nick and chris that i’m not feeling well and we can cuddle all night, sounds good?” i eagerly nod, giving an enthusiastic yes. 

he wraps my straddled legs around his torso and carries me inside, keeping me bundled up in my blanket as I'm moved to the bed, before promptly putting out the fire i started. he retreats back to me bringing one of my silk black cami tops to change into while he goes to my large vanity and brings back a soaked cotton pad to use to clean my face of running mascara and concealer. 

he gently rubs and wipes across my face seeing him extremely focused on the task in front of him. he tosses the stained pad and he lets me crawl into bed. “okay i’ll be back im just going to find chris or nick to update them, i won’t be long.” he lingers at the door handle while telling me his exact actions while he heads out the door.

i check my phone for messages and notifications while before he comes back to our room, he strips off his button up abandoning it in the hamper that crowds a corner of the room. his dress pants hang low on his hips as they fall slightly while he pulls his belt through the multitude of loops on his pants. 

he’s now just left in his plaid print boxers as he slips under the charcoal grey duvet and snakes his arms around me pulling me in, embracing me just like he said he would. his chest is flush with my back and his legs entangle with mine. he’s warm and still smells like the intoxicating cologne he adores. i take a deep breath in being very content in where my life ended up and how i’m now engaged with my fiance and now letting the rest of his family know at a party. life is great when you find your person.

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[monstress]

hii. if u dont mind, could u please share that "change of attitude" towards journaling? i feel like i really need that.. since i myself changed my attitude towards drawing and have been much more productive and happy doing it this last year. however Writing About Myself its another beast completely.. hope u r having a nice day! 🍃

hope you're having a lovely day as well! anyways as i was typing this up, what starts as a small tidbit has gone off the rails so i suppose this is my blanket advice as a newbie in journaling:

the materials!

choosing the titular journal aka notebook:

soft vs hard cover - i didn't realize this is SUCH a deciding factor until much later. most people prefer soft covers since journals can get massive with use but it's very subjective. be tactile - if it just don't feel right in ur hands, it's not gonna be something u reach out for when u have free time.

size - the most common sizes are A5, A6 or regular aka travelers notebook. you have to think abt who you are as a writer. do u have a large handwriting that takes up pages and pages? do you like space or are you overwhelmed by a blank page? do you travel a lot and do u want something unobtrusive in your bag? choose something that will reasonable work as a part of your daily life.

paper texture - paper that is smooth to write in are a great source of pleasure. notebooks with 100gsm paper is a good benchmark.

price - pleaseeee do not break the bank to purchase a fancy notebook. an expensive notebook can become an unloved one. you'd be too stressed to ensure every entry is perfect and pretty enough and the notebook eventually becomes too intimidating for you to fill in. check out your local hypermarket or online stores for quality notebooks. moleskins are overrated--in my country, they are v v expensive so don't feel pressure to buy a certain stationary just bc you see them often on ig/tiktok like my journal cost me approximately RM10 (USD2.34) and my new one w 100gsm paper cost me RM17 (USD4) like affordable options are out there!

build a connection with your notebook - listen...this sounds strange but having an attachment with your journal and making it inviting as possible is a great source of motivation. personalize it: add stickers, doodle or paint the cover. get a fabric/pvc cover to keep it clean if you'd like (you can add lil papers/stickers on ur actual notebook cover before putting on the pvc cover! very cute and easy)

and your pens:

again: less is more! use any relatively cheap pens you like - be it for the ink or smoothness. if you want to journal a lot, expect to lose a few pens during traveling or just around the house lmao

for fans of darker inks like me, i use Uni-ball Signo Broad, M&G R3 retractable gel pen and my favorite: Faber Castell RX Gel Pen 0.38mm - which cost like RM1.49 (i dont wanna convert - it's change money in america)

final note: i don't use fountain pens so i'm afraid i'm not well-versed enough to advise in that department but i deeply respect (and a little in awe) of journallers who use them 🫡

the tenet!

purpose: what do u plan to use the notebook for? daily journal? art journal? planner? all three? it's your life! live deliciously! since i have a 9-5 job, i know i can't keep up with more than one journal so i've been using mines as a diary and i dump my daily activities/thoughts/reviews of all kinds of media i'm currently obsessed with and it fills up quick!

don't be too hard on yourself: if you missed a day or two of journalling, it's fine - take it back up. write down anything memorable you'd like in the past few days. if you come across a certain blank page your brain is blanking to fill, perhaps after a previous dark entry, skip the page. skip two pages if needed. don't be scared of blank pages. if it needs to be blank, let it be.

it doesn't have to only be words! add stickers, dried flowers, receipts, ticket stubs, other ephemera you collected in the day. be artful! go crazy on page decoration!!

if there's anything you take away from this post, it's this: if you truly want a journal that is used up quickly, do not have plans to share it on social media. personally, i find once you are in the mindset of sharing your journal for an audience's consumption, you get worried whether it's "aesthetic" enough or is it too boring or too ugly or too dark or that you don't upload regularly enough. social media can be inhibiting your creativity or motivation to journal like let your animal brain ruminate in private! stay free from the shackles of responsibility!

[superheroclock]

SHC Continuation and 2014 Christmas Specials For My Youtube Channel!

-Posted on the original website on: December 4, 2014

I know lot of you fans out there are anticipating Super Hero Clock Episode 1 Part 4. Well, I was cleaning up the animation for part 4 a month ago and it got me thinking that despite the fact that Super Hero Clock has more publicity now and I really want to release the whole of episode 1, it is still unsure that it would be enough for this series. Unlike parodies, it is original and when it comes to releasing original content on Youtube, most of the time it wouldn't be much of a hype due to the unawareness factor. So after much pondering, I have decided to continue Super Hero Clock when my youtube channel has 150,000 subscribers or so. That way, subsequent Super Hero Clock releases would have, if not the least 150,000 views, more views than it usually got when it first started out.

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EDIT:

Ok. Now that more people have watched Super Hero Clock, I could assume that it was only until recently that most of them discovered it. Before, hardly anyone knew about it.

If this is too long for you to read, click here to skip to the last paragraph of this edited part. Super Hero Clock started way back in 2007. It was first released as an animated short in conjunction with Clock Day on Newgrounds.com. Back then, it had quite a positive reception. It got quite popular and had a lot of views. A lot of people who watched it wanted to see a series for it. I was happy with the reception but wasn't confident about the series. A series sounded like a good idea but it was overwhelming for an indie flash animator. I also had college to deal with back then so eventually the SHC hype died down to a dead silence over time.

After a few years, I changed my mind and decided to go for the series. Production started in mid 2010 and after about 5 months or so of software/hardware breakdowns, personal problems, crunchtime, whatnot, the raw animation was done but it didn't look as good as what it is on youtube now. I thought if I just finished it and released it then, it would have just sunk to the bottom of youtube's sea of videos because it looked lame and don't expect the people from the hype before to remember it after all those years. I wouldn't have earned any profits from it either. The whole production seemed like a total loss so I set it aside and decided to become a freelance animator instead hoping that one day I'd earn enough to resume the SHC series production.

2 years later, I collected some funds from all the freelancing work but it still wasn't enough. However, Youtube Partnership became available in my country and I managed to setup my channel so that I could earn from my videos. It gave me confidence to continue SHC and I got back into SHC production shortly.

After releasing the short teaser trailer (2012) and the first 3 parts of episode 1 (2013-2014), views were bleak. The first part had only 15,000 views and subsequent parts only had a few thousand. A few days after each upload there were little to no views. Everything just wasn't working out for the effort I put into this production. It was only after I released the Frozen Genderbend animation that SHC videos blew up with views and gained more publicity. So this time, to make sure that all the effort put into SHC doesn't go to waste, I will upload the next part when I have a considerable number of subscribers on my channel. That way, more people are more likely to watch it right when it's released.

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In the meantime, it's December. It's that season again where people do crazy stuff because of the holiday spirit and the year is coming to an end. I have always thought of releasing something special for Christmas for my channel but it never happened. This time, I'm gonna do it. So this year, I will be releasing my Genderbend Let It Go animation in a few different languages. The versions will be released one by one depending on how fast they are prepared. In the end, they will all be available in this playlist on my channel:

Disney's Frozen "Let It Go" Male Multi-language Versions

[colour-outside-the-liness]

Prompt alerttt!!! hahaha

I was thinking about how would Dani finally let Jamie know that she doesn't want to leave her and doesn't wanna divorce her and also some horror factor in the end.

It was a gloomy evening and Jamie had gone out to get some groceries while Dani stayed back at the house to get back to her work. She tries to indulge herself in the work that she's doing but all she could think about is the divorce, how she'd talk to Jamie about not wanting a divorce and that she's done a big mistake of asking Jamie for a divorce earlier. Though she knows how much Jamie loves her, she was afraid if Jamie's gonna disagree with her in not wanting a divorce and that she might probably taking care of her only for the time being. Anyway,she tries to dodge all of her thoughts and gets back to her work. Jamie returns home after a hour and Dani doesn't realize that she's home. Jamie announces her arrival saying "Dani,I'm home" and Dani still doesn't realize that she's home. Jamie approaches Dani, and she seems to be seriously working on their project so Jamie calls out her name once more but Dani still doesn't answer to her. Jamie gives up and places all the groceries that she'd got on the kitchen table. (So the place i imagine Dani to be working is the kitchen, which is similar to the kitchen in bly manor with the long and huge tables, which would allow them to,you know spread out their charts and do whatever that architects do) That's when Dani finally notices Jamie and asks her

Dani - Hey, when did you come home ?

Jamie - I'm gonna blame you if our house gets robbed some day...I've called out your name twice you know. Don't stress yourself out so much on those bloody charts

Dani - I'm sorry, i've been stuck with this for so long and now i want to get done with it but i've not been able to proceed after this...

Jamie - Alright, show me

Dani - *proceeds to show her the chart and explains to her about the issue*

Jamie takes the chair next to Dani and proceeds to explain her the solution for that issue but nothing goes into Dani's mind because the thought of wanting to tell Jamie that she doesn't wanna divorce her is constantly bugging her and just then Jamie says

Jamie - earth to dani ?........i know that look...*proceeds to close all those charts* now tell me what's going on in that pretty mind of yours

Dani - Okay, i need to talk to you about something

Jamie stiffens in her chair because the last time Dani had told her that she had to talk to her about something, it was about the divorce.

Jamie - *clears her throat* go on

Dani - Jami, i...um... i don't feel good about it. It was just so stupid of me doubt you and i know that i have hurt you a lot and i know that i should've communicated properly with you.....Jamie, i don't want a divorce. I love you...soo much *and she starts tearing up* Don't leave me ? please ?

Jamie - c'mere

and Dani wastes no time in getting up from her seat and sitting on Jamie's lap. They share a very passionate kiss.They keep mumbling to each other that they're sorry and they promise each other that they're not gonna let something like his happen again during the kiss. Just then there's a loud thud of the main door opening and Dani flinches because of the sound. She completely stiffens in her position and Jamie goes to check what's happened. She finds the main door completely open and a broken vase just beside the door. She tells Dani that it was probably the wind and that she had not locked the door earlier when she had come home. But in reality, Jamie did lock the door and she lies to Dani about it because she's already been under so much stress and trauma. Jamie offers to clean up the mess and asks Dani to get to bed and get some rest.

Later that night, when Jamie gets under the covers with Dani, she tries to calm her down by assuring her that it was nothing. After Dani becomes normal, Jamie asks her if she'd be okay with going out on a date with her. Dani excitedly nods as it's been so long that they've not done something like this. They watch TV for a while and eventually Dani falls asleep. Jamie switches off the TV and kisses her goodnight

Exactly at 3am, Dani wakes up from her sleep and she hears a thud or a knock which was coming in the pattern of 3

(If you watched the conjuring, when a knock or a thud comes in 3's, it's an insult to the christ)

She doesn't wake Jamie up and follows the sound. She approaches the main door, opens it and the sound stops. Just when she's about to go back into the house, she notices a woman hanging from the tree ( the same tree which is visible through Jamie's window) Dani has seen this woman even earlier when she used to sleep in her room. She wants to shout but she has a brain freeze moment and stutters. She falls down on the way to get back into the house and just then the lady hanging from the tree jumps down and starts running towards Dani and that's when Dani's voice comes out.

Jamie hears the scream and follows the sound and finds Dani passed out at the main door. She tries to wake her up but she doesn't so Jamie picks her up and carries her inside. After sometime Dani wakes up and sobs into Jamie's arms. Jamie says that they could talk about this in the morning if it's too overwhelming but Dani wants to tell Jamie everything and get it over with because she's not able to keep all this to herself anymore. Jamie believes every word Dani has told her and her concerns starts to grow even more but she doesn't show that on her face or in her actions because right now, in the condition that Dani is in now, she had to be the rock for her. Jamie asks Dani to wake her up next time if something like this happens and not to wander about by herself. She also makes a comment like "Seriously Dani, i will have to tie you to the bed if you don't wake me up next time and keep wandering about by yourself" to ease the moment. Dani exhales a giggly puff through her sobs and nudges Jamie's arm. Jamie switches the TV on again, closes the blinds of the window and locks their bedroom door. When Jamie gets under the covers and cuddles Dani close to her. Dani buries her head on Jamie's chest and clutches onto Jamie so tight that her life depended on that. Meanwhile, Jamie rubs her head and her back in soothing circles which eventually lead to Dani falling asleep.

I love everything about this- them agreeing to stay together and to go on a date again to start a new and try and get back the way they were before. Dani having one of the biggest and scariest moments in the house so far and Jamie soothing her as best she can so that Dani can sleep pushing all her own worry and fear aside to be there for Dani. This is an incredible prompt and so detailed I love every single part of it!! Thank you for sending it my way, I would love to add this to the fic and help build some suspense, fear, and also, add a really nice layer of softness to an otherwise angsty prompt!! Thank you so much ☺️