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Mother
Hypocritical
I think I get that from you
The hating when others do it
But not being able to help when I do the same.
I get a lot from you,
The good and the bad.
It hurts hearing all the bad you've done,
Knowing I may have done the same.
The cycles never end
And I don't think I can break this one
Maybe we're both here with the same curses.
The hug was warm
But quick
A leaving message to come back soon
It was nice wasn't it
Who were you persuading with that.
It was nice.
It was short.
I both love and hate it.
Someday you'll visit maybe,
We will go out for drinks,
You'll meet the people that make me me
The same way you make me me.
Will they look at you and say that makes sense?
Will they like you the way I think they will,
Will you like them.
I am my mother's child,
For good and for bad,
And maybe someday that guilt that comes with that understanding will go away.
#poetry#parents#i may write a follow up about being my dads child someday#cause thats also try#talks with siblings are always so fun
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I think an underrated angle on 2x05 is something that either Jacob or Assad said in some interview somewhere, which is that in that episode Louis is addicted to heroin. Thats why he has that whole stash of drugs that he gives to Daniel, that's why he gives Daniel the drugs even though he's already got him alone. He didn't just use those 128 boys for sex he was using them to get high. Bring them home, get them to shoot up, and then drain them to get that secondhand high.
It clarifies something that's always confused me about that scene, which is why Armand saves Daniel the first time. He wouldn't save Daniel as a person, he clearly knows Daniel needs to die, but he's not seeing Daniel as a person there. Daniel is just a substance. He rips him away from Louis to stop him from using.
And i think that adds a whole other layer to the fight he and Armand have to think that this is Louis on a bender, with Armand cleaning up after him because he's not stable enough to. Louis in the bed for a week isn't just healing from the burns, he's going through withdrawal. Him at the table with Daniel giving him the "bright young reporter" speech is probably the first time he's been sober in months.
It adds another layer to Armand's desperation, that Louis has been running from both Armand and himself in this way, and of course Armand wants to erase that memory. Of course he wants to pretend that that fight never happened. Not just to protect himself but in a way to protect Louis from having said those things. When he describes the fight to Louis afterwards, he says "you said the worst things you've ever said to me." And he doesn't really know how to forgive Louis for that so he just wants to bury this rock-bottom moment and move on like it never happened. After all, Louis was high, he didn't really mean it, but if he remembers then maybe he might think that he had a point. Better to wipe the whole experience away.
#imagine youre in an eternal spite marriage with your ex who you're in love with because he's in love with your other ex#who youre also in love with#and your spitehusband who hates you turns to drugs to cope with the traumatic death of his daughter (which you caused but who's counting)#and you just follow him around cleaning up his messes and propping him up and keeping him alive#because despite everything you do love him#and you find him mid bender and he's told his life story to a reporter and he didn't even mention you#and you're just trying to protect him from himself so he doesn't pass out in a pool of blood on the floor#and he tells you that you're a burden#that youre the thing thats killing him#that 10 hours with a stranger made him feel more alive than your whole relationship#and he says that youre BORING#that all your trauma and grief and fear made you UNINTERESTING#yeah id do some saw trap shit too#blorboposting#benni proof#interview with the vampire#loumand#iwtv
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i have suddenly become obsessed with a theme that HoO established but never proceeded to extrapolate on, which is:
You are Percy Jackson, and you have been swapped with a boy who was allegedly everyone's favorite person, but they have decided to replace him with you. They just met you. You stand next to his best friend and the people he's known his entire life. In his home. In his cloak. In his place. They stopped looking for him.
You are Jason Grace, and you have just found out you have a long lost sister who completely replaced you in her life with this girl you just met. Your lives and personalities are mirrors. She is you, living the life you were robbed of.
You are Annabeth Chase, and you have just become starkly aware that you have been inhabiting the void left behind by your best friend's long lost brother. You and Luke were just replacements for him. Now you have to look him in the eyes when he has nothing and know you took that life from him.
You are Piper McLean, and you have just found out your relationship is fake and built entirely on the memories of Annabeth Chase. You have been given a boyfriend when hers has been taken away. You have no idea how much of it is real or not but regardless you feel like if your relationship isn't exactly in their image that you have failed.
You are Leo Valdez, and you have just learned that you are the echo of your great-grandfather. You are not your own person. You just exist to be a mirror of him. A doppelganger. An actor and stunt double facing all the danger he never had to but wearing his face. To be there for his best friend decades later simply because he couldn't. You are playing a role. A seventh wheel and a pawn for a goddess who carefully sculpted your entire life for her own purposes.
You are Hazel Levesque, and the only reason you are alive is because your brother couldn't save your his sister. You are a consolation prize. An apology. Your existence here is misplaced in every way but you inhabit it anyways.
You are Frank Zhang, and you are a shapeshifter. Inhabiting your own body feels strange and clumsy when you could be literally anything at any time. You are anything and everything and live your life with the simple certainty of knowing exactly how you will die.
#pjo#hoo#heroes of olympus#percy jackson#riordanverse#jason grace#annabeth chase#piper mclean#leo valdez#hazel levesque#frank zhang#meta#analysis#me shaking hoo: what if we actually address the interpersonal dynamics of the characters. please. please. please. please.#frank is the only person on the boat not having an identity crisis tied to another member of the crew somehow and that is FASCINATING#but also WHERE is all the interpersonal literally anything. hello. please. making grabby hands. everybody identity crisis go.#i wanna see the entire argo ii crew stumbling through trying to figure out their places and senses of self!!!!!#particularly in relation to each other!!!!! we get snippets but we rarely ever get the full thing or a resolution!!!#like. HELLO??? Piper acknowledging that her relationship with Jason is artificially sculpted in the image of Annabeth and Percy???#and that her ideals of what Jason and her can be are just that she feels like they need to be like what Percy and Annabeth have????#and thats just DROPPED COMPLETELY????#poor Jason is getting replaced twice. Leo is not his own person.#Hazel at least gets the resolution that Nico does not truly see her as a consolation prize#but Annabeth gets to be hit with the like EIGHT YEAR DELAY of learning the place she inhabits in Thalia's life is the echo of someone else#cause like. yeah she knew Thalia had lost her brother but i dont think it clicked for her until she met Jason that oh. she *replaced* him#Frank at least has some certainty about his identity in one aspect (his curse). everybody else is floundering a bit#except for maybe Percy but its kind of the camps of ''i replaced this person and it weighs on me'' versus ''i have been replaced''
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Mr. Elliott Stardew Valley once again U_U
#the bg needed something so i made a half assed frame and like its not hebest but alas#aslo cool tones are so bleugh to me but i tried#i like the colors in my other elliot piece more but im partial to green lol also Elliott in his winter outfit :3#elliott stardew valley#stardew elliott#stardew valley#sdv elliott#sdv fanart#sdv#fan art#stardew fanart#maybe ill do a halfbody piece later but idk#just checked the colors on my phone and ok so its not too cool toned i think it looks more cooled tone on my laptop#but thats also cause i was activiely trying to add warmth back in cause it was a little too cool for me lol#stardew valley elliott#art#artwork#fanart
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find another role, carry on the show
#EDIT IT DIDNT SAVE MY TAGS. hey so this post got a thousand notes huh. interesting. surely nothing will change#i'll leave all the old tags. for my thought process. and its kinda funny#take a bow stupid idiot (throws a tomato at them)#in stars and time#isat#siffrin#siffrin no middle names no last name ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧#... or is it. Smiles#i'd like to draw mira for her birthday but um (hasnt open artfight website in a few days) im scared.#also i have NICE ASKS TO ANSWER.... But im scared. give me a minute#Uawaaaaagh i drew this bc i was trying to animate a little bit but it just . Didnt look good. im not good ag 2d animation#tch. ill keep trying cause there ar e way too many songs that and now about isat because i have brain worms. i need amvs.#IM SCARED TO POST THINGS THAT ARE SPOILERY BECAUSE I WANT MY FRIENDS TO PLAY ISAT. BUT.#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#sasasap#sasasa:p#WHAT IS THE PROLOGUES TAG.#tshirt that says 'i <3 killing the image in the mirror and taking its place' on the fromt#and a list of megan thee stallions tour dates on the back. お金稼ぐ俺らはスター#Im kind of tempted to edit this to be the versiom with the eyes. or maybe twt can have that. or. well#all of my friends are on twt (trombone slide sfx) so maybe thats where i should worry about spoilers.#ill see if i want to slap an eyepatch on them in the morning#Im one of those people who was like idgaf about twohats (lets it simmer for a week) Oh my god. Oh my god. Ohmy god#EDIT. i swapped it out for the Eyes version it should be fine as long as its tagged formspoilers right...#ill post eyepatch vers on twt partly bc spoilers but also ppl over there can be .. annoying ..... ....#i fear i would get 800 You Forgot The Eyepatch replies. PLEASE JUST SEE MY VISION.#[BANGING MY HANDS ON THE GLASS] HIS HAND. LIKE IN THE PROLOGUE. WHEN THEYE. HANDS. HELD[EXPLOSION
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I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional
#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian#joel smallishbeans#smallishbeans fanart#trafficblr#Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this#and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please#Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have#Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him)#But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but)#And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol#I love them so#oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying#but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy#Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea#tubby art
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Would you dance, if i asked you to dance? 😫🫣
A wip for now,,,,
#wip#stardew valley#Stardew valley Abigail#Stardew valley penny#have this for now cause I’m still figuring out how the other bachelorettes would dress#for the spring flower dance#i might keep the vibes very coquettish with the lace/ruffles and ribbons#and like very cottage core obvi#cause ‘florals for spring..groundbreaking’#the flower dance gives of very strong traditional pagan fertility ritual energy????#and i am trying to figure out how some of the characters will put a spin on the ‘uniform’ they’re supposed to wear#make flower dance outfits gay af basically#let Abigail wear her converse with her dress cause baby thats just meeeee#also lowkey stressing over maximalist-ic layering cause on one hand i can see some of the gorlies are more minimalist#but i wanna play with TEXTURES#doing 2 outfits cause I’m insane and i have too many ideas#rip to my limp wrist
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polish piece
english
#my art#trans#transgender#goat#oc#she wearing those docs#doodle#sketch#kiedyś się musiał zdarzyć rysunek kozy polskiej#w lore koza mieszka na południu pod wrocławiem lol#artists on tumblr#asexual#ace#also linking it to google translate cause its funny#thats how it was growing up as a non english speaker#trying to piece together what things mean through a broken google product
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cw // suggestive
worshipped route for whitney the faithful (or fallen?) where he's preparing the sacrifice pc for weekly prayers~
whitney the faithful/swap au idea belongs to @just-dol-headshots
#okay it seems i have a preferred way to draw whtieny and thats him looking down on pc-chan#HOWEVER !!!#I HAVE A VERY GOOD REASON TO DO THIS#ITS VERY HOT OKAY#LEAVE ME ALONE#i need to plan my panels better jesus#BUT DAMN PLAYING WITH CSP AGAIN IS SO FUN#i can finally make comic strips again!!#swap au#whitney the faithful#whitney the fallen#whitney the bully#dol whitney#fan art#art#mine#my fan art#my art#dol#dol related#degrees of lewdity#dol pc#eri the orphan#MY HEAD HAS BEEN FULL OF THIS IDEA SINCE THIS MORNING#also im sorry im making comics/art at a slower pace#its cause i got deadlines to run after#and on top of that im also trying to handle the apocalypse au brainrot#hbjrefhbehrf#so im literally swapping between comic strips HBJERFHREBFHBERF AND TRYING TO MAKE SURE THEY DON'T GET MIXED UP#damn i got two hands and im right handed
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So does he, Gallagher.
#honkai star rail#hsr blade#gallagher#i based this off of how many times i used funny soda man to help be a healer with his poppin soda pop in SU#and then blade constantly just being blade as usual#its normally him saying unnecessary to my actual healer but#i kept forgetting gallagher heals and i kept healing when i didnt even need to so TECHNICALLY yeah it was unnecessary#but the amount of times blade was the recipient......#i cant use like most of my newer units in story bc i cant ascend or i run out of leveling mats so i just#get them and toss them into simulated universe for funsies cause i can match their levels better#so thats where i tossed gallagher and he is genuinely fun to play as ? like i love his punches and kicks to start the battle#funny soda man is funny (to me) and im really behind in plot still#but last time i tried to play it on my laptop and got a kickass cutscene my laptop lagged and i couldnt even see it RIP to me#so now that its like ... me trying to play it on desktop ?#i mostly get on desktop for comms and if i do much else i feel like im slacking off even if i would take a break anyway#one day i can play more story plot stuff and actually meet the funny guys#also in case you know me for Not Having Boys in HSR i need to point out#i did pull Gallagher however same 10 pull got a 4 star girl copy for someone i never use and she is at e4 now cool#and i didnt even think of the irony as i started this i just like drawing blade and i wanted to draw gallagher#so when i already had the dialogue planned and am drawing i was like OH WAIT haha im funnier than i thought#(no i am not but we can pretend)
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was talking to my brother the other day after i rewatched dark phoenix and he was like 'why is everyone so mean to charles in this movie?? were they always this mean to him ?? is it cause he's bald now- he lost his pretty privilege??' and i fear i havent recovered
#xmen#xmen movies#dark phoenix#charles xavier#professor x#snap chats#LIKE HE'S RIGHT 1000% I JUST DIDN'T EXPECT HIM TO SAY IT VLERKVJAKLJ#ANOTHER banger of a quote from my brother chat i screamed when he said that#adopting that into my belief system i fear#like really thinking on it they really did only start being especially rude after apocalypse im crying#dont quote me on that i have to rewatch apocalypse but as far as im aware. yeah 😭😭#and its SUCH a travesty cause i love how mcavoy looked in DP SO much he looks so good bald#like please if we were going to wrap up this era of xmen films why did we have to rerun DP#can we try again. please. i need him bald one more time in a movie i dont have to argue with myself i like#see DP wasnt the worst thing ever. probably. like scott got to do things again ..... and kurt .......#and the paris proposal. never forget that.#ALSO THE FUCKIN. 'no one cares charles' BIT ???? 97 ref'd that directly i know they did and i cheered#listen if they can ref the 'black leather suits' from the xmen movies i can believe they called back to that too <- delusional#anyway when james said thats the meanest thing erik could say/do to charles .... he was cooking ....#'thats the type of thing your wife/husband says' he was so right .... we know james never misses with the cherik takes tho#ok bye i have obligations that i need to complete so i can draw my favorite cue ball
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Listen there's a half chance the hands and stuff do not work this way, but simply?? pretend they do ig ??? Had to get some Vlad out of my system, so behold my fav ghostie on the planet! Wine drinker, petty plotter, my love, haha!
#art style be evolving without my consent ig. what can you do#the brainrotsreal's art tag ✧˖°:*♡#procreate art#fanart#digital art#vlad plasmius#dp fanart#dp vlad#dp vlad plasmius#i havent done dp fanart in a HOT min yeah#slowly waking up the DP brainrot beast up cause i need to be obsessed with something rn#chipped away at this ages ago i need a full composition piece or ill explodee#danny phantom fanart#i hope thats the show tag? not the character tag?#need to draw vlad & danny dynamics because they're hilarious. what if your uncle actively plotting your dad's death. what if you bit him?#do NOT look at the anatomy or anything too closely. i do NOT want critique please bruh im trying to draw again#look me in my eyes he always had a fluffy pony tail. he always had one. trust me i was there. also his beard whatever connects cause yeah..#i dunno why i just think hes SO neat#pathetic man. petty man. would kill a guy. actively trying to. became a billionaire but cant kill one guy that ADORES him. incredible.#artists on tumblr#digital artist#digital fanart#yapping in tags hours yeah
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Day 23: Pearls Crown Jewel
#rain world#rainworld#rwartmonth#rw art month#was originally brown. rapidly learned i do not work well with browns. it is no longer brown#Also its not really clear thats the ID drone but it turns out it also looks bad when its the only thing obviously at a different angle so#whatever. anyway i like to think the scavengers just thought it was a really cool shiny thing like a pearl#also the scavenger chief doesnt have the mark of communication here cause i like to think the only reason it got that#was because pebbles couldnt blow it up due to the citizen drone#so they were trying to be like “please stop fucking around” and it Did Not Work#anyway i dont think i really did this prompt 'well' but im going to be busy tomorrow so ah well!!!!
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my personal favorite interpretation of Nico's confession to Percy in BoO and Percy's reaction is that. Nico was one foot in the grave at the time - heavily injured, exhausted, probably suffering from blood loss, actively turning into shadows, etc etc. And he mentions himself several times that he's not acting quite like himself, such as smiling a lot and his mind wandering and his vision being unsure. Dude is OUT OF IT. He is one strong breeze away from crumpling on the floor and falling unconscious for multiple days (again).
a.) no wonder Will was like "three days in the infirmary now. you will melt into a puddle if you try and summon a wishbone." cause Nico was probably standing there with a glassy look in his eyes waving like a leaf in the wind on the verge of collapsing.
b.) just imagine Percy's pov: The guy you've known for three years stumbles up to you on the verge of death, clearly still bleeding and half-fading into nothingness. Obviously a little delirious at best. Normally he's extremely awkward talking to people and hates physical interaction and every time he talks to you he looks like he wants to run away as fast as possible. You are 80% sure he wants you dead but is trying to be polite about it. He walks up to you with the confidence only someone suffering from extreme dehydration/major blood loss on the verge of passing out can have, tells you that you're not his type, high-fives your girlfriend (who you thought he had a crush on?) (you weren't even sure he knew what high-fives were. you're still not sure he does) and stumbles off without finishing the conversation. You ask your girlfriend if she understands what the hell just happened. She has no idea either. You decide to chalk it up to him having no idea what was going on either.
Three days later Nico wakes up in the infirmary in a cold sweat, having remembered that interaction and goes "WHAT HAVE I DONE?!"
#pjo#percy jackson#riordanverse#nico di angelo#this also makes for the hilarious opportunity to have Nico come out to Percy a Second Time#but this time it's for real and Nico is just awkwardly trying to explain what that first conversation was#and Percy is just like ''ohhhhhh *thats* what that was? i'm gonna be real i thought you were just out of it and wrote it off.''#and Nico is just dying inside of embarrassment cause. at least the first time it was over quickly.#but now he has to EXPLAIN and ELABORATE and he wants to just crawl under a rock and hide
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no more mirrors (the beginning of dante’s nightmares)
#dante devil may cry#devil may cry#dmc#dmc dante#dmc vergil#vergil devil may cry#dantes hell run in dmc2 involved a lot of demon killing#but also trying to find vergil#after coming back to the human world he was beginning to accept that vergil was really gone#thats why hes back to being wahoo pizza man in dmc4!#growing older also caused dantes reflection to look less like the vergil he remembered#i have a lot of incoherent thoughts about dante#and the fanfics dont help but i love this stupid overpowered cowboy
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so when's the wxs phantom of the opera set
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#ruis hair continues to piss me off forever. and ever#Yes i stole their phantom outfits from the revue gacha game. Whos gonna stop me. I WAS SO MAD THAT PHANTOM NANA IS AN OBSOLETE CARD OK#the discerning revsta + pjsekai fan can see i gave emu nanas outfit and rui michirus. Becaude i am crazy. Edel de/light was crazy.#polysho#proseka#why are there so many fuckfign tags. Why so tagging. -the tumbler#Ok sorry#Watch me go insane. Phantom is such a fucking rui role inknow ok i know i know. thats why i gave it to him. but also. I have emu disease#INSTEAD OF THE BRAINTHEREIS EMUUUUUU!!!!!!#Trying to figure out if i should render these and how sucked. cause the first one was drawn on paper and scanned . i shoildve just left itA#Its ifne idekc. I did another emu phantom drawing but i dont feel like posting it alone so ill have to draw more of this. bye#i dont even like the phantom. and i want to kill andrew llyoyid webber with a hammer. And so should you
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