#can't let myself drop it

[petrllchor]

i think im FINALLY doing like a full on art not just a doodle. finally god it's been so long

[catsharky]

May I ask for some details about your Tav? What do you mean by hasnt really lived as a tiefling before? Like literally has never seen another tiefling? Seems like being abducted by the mindflayers introduced major life changes to your Tav

I'm sorry this took so long to answer, but I ended up doing a whole bunch of art to answer this!

Ember has a really extensive backstory that's kind of long, but the short version of it is: she was caught in the crossfire of a deal her parents made with a devil. They couldn't have a child of their own because her mother was too severely ill, so they made the deal in the hopes of returning her health and along with it the ability to bear children. Unfortunately devil deals being what they are, they ended up with Ember who the devil stole from her birth parents.

Her mom was a high elf and her dad a half-elf, and her mom's side of the family were quite vocally anti-Tiefling. Because of her mother's health problems, however, they couldn't just sever contact with her parents because they relied on their money to cover the cost of healers, expensive potion ingredients and the like. They couldn't be trusted not to be a threat to Ember though, so the decision was made to disguise her as their biological daughter throughout her childhood.

Here's an age chart!

As a result, Ember didn't even know she was a Tiefling until she was around 4 or 5, when she began to present as a sorcerer and accidentally undid the disguise spell (she ends up a bard thanks to her mom, but her control of magic comes from sorcery).

Before the events of the game, the most time she ever spent as a Tiefling was when she was 13- when her mom died and her dad disappeared, the disguise spell having relied on her mum's magic. She went through hell for a while after that and as soon as she could learn how to cast the spell herself, she jumped at the chance and went back to living as her old half-elf self. So when she gets taken by the Nautiloid, it's her being forced to actually live as her real self and as a Tiefling for the first time. As a result she doesn't have great control over her tail, because she's just straight up not used to having one.

She also spends a lot of Act 1 jumpscaring herself whenever she walks by a mirror lmao.

I do plan to do some comics that are set earlier in the game at some point, and those ones will explore more of her backstory. What I've done so far has just happened to be set in Act 3, after she's already sorted a lot of her shit out. I just have no idea when that'll actually be!

[mare-sanguis]

i have a fic in my ao3 drafts and it's gonna be such a jumpscare

[nb2000]

Look the showrunner called Rogue/Gambit the OTP in an interview (er...before he got fired) so they're clearly going somewhere with this and it's FINE and I can be patient and wait to see where that somewhere is and it's FINE.

[seventh-district]

7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos

[freckliedan]

hi im glad to hear your not doing that badly but sending you best wishes regardless <3

i know i'm belated on this but i wanted to let you know the well wishes mean the world 😭 the kindness of folks here has been making a big difference.

but i am doing that badly, actually. just because i am good at making it through does not mean it is not extremely bad and hard. and being good at it is something that i have been working hard on for over a decade, not a skill i was born with.

[gothoffspring]

stop being jealous 💅

❤️🧡💛 top / skirt / sneakers / belly chain / belly ring / nails / hat / hair 💚💙💜

[daydreamingoncloud9]

they're so sick for this

[cannedf0wer]

Hydrangea's CS i made 2 Years ago 😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Post here as Tombstone for Me 2 years ago tried to make date sim of him.

(I haven't given up on everything yet. Though... But right now, I literally lack everything to make it.😭)

[blujayonthewing]

felix: [takes limerick aside early in the campaign and confides, with difficulty because he's ashamed about it, that he sometimes has trouble speaking at all, because he wants at least someone to have fair warning ahead of it possibly coming up if he's gonna be traveling in a group for any amount of time]

limerick the first time felix mostly loses speech: you've been really quiet, everything okay? do you have any thoughts to add [to this discussion]? :)

limerick last session when simon lowkey assigned felix to go do a social encounter: I'll go with you, to help with the talking :)

limerick as soon as we're in the social encounter: [looks directly at felix, expectantly]

[hauntedwoman]

i have never felt so empty i look back at pictures of who i was a year ago and i'm frankly just disgusted at how i didn't know who i was but i also still don't know who i am now. i'm gonna be 25 this year when will the constant need for reinvention end. i feel like such a phony. i don't have any actual skills or personality, i just reflect back what i think is cool or interesting. i read a lot of books and i act like i know a lot of things but i'm just pretentious and have a compulsive lying problem. when will i know what i want and where i belong.

[zafiro-anyejo]

ever since hearing about how much water is used to cool down genAi servers, I'm like... how is this feasible long-term? It feels like NFTs or cryptocurrency lol. like what is the actual future of this thing? why are we putting money into this when such things(clean water??) can be used and saved for just... practical purposes (like drinking it)?

[yohankang]

shit went down at work today and there's a chance they'll fire me 🙃

[novelconcepts]

i don't make resolutions, but if i did

it would be to finish this fic

(and to be kind to myself for however long it takes to actually do so)

[meme-loving-stuck]

I've been doing SO MUCH HARD STUFF lately and ZERO DOPAMINE REWARD has been issued!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am owed at least a fucking WEEK of happiness or at the very least CONTENTMENT and i am gonna be PISSED OFF until i GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRR

[thetriangletattoo]

how did I manage to attract friends completely different from me I'll never understand