#but theres also those™️ days where i get 3 hours

[schnitzelsemmerl]

i've been getting 5 hours of sleep on average for the last 2 weeks. i've been yearning, literally BEGGING MYSELF for something caffeinated bc i'm tired all the time lmao. well, your girl just bought herself an energy drink, chugged it all and now she's even more tired :3

[canarydarity]

6. Are there any fics from others you reread all the time? :D

oh absolutely [ask game]

I am a dedicated re-reader. Thank you for this I am turning this into a tiny fic rec post.

Let's Ditch the Dance Floor by whatcaniwriteinthis (i cant tell you how many times I've reread this fic I love it so much it is so perfect to me)

Where The World Begins by waveridden (Ive known about this fics existence for literally 3 weeks and I have already read it 3 times. immediate top 5 fave rancher fics of all time)

Closer To Another Shore by remrose (closer to another shore scar means. the ENTIRE world to me. my favorite scar of all time ive read this fic at least 3 times)

Something Blue by Teagica (literally reread this one at work this past weekend)

Those Were Kinder Times by SurrealSupernaturalist (what rancher fan HASNT read this fic multiple times)

Everywhere, Everything by Birrdie (i reread this one but hwen i do its like a call for help. /lhj thank you birrdie youre absolutely fantastic birride)

Wherefore Art Thou Scar? by zipzapzoooooom (i reread this fic whenever i need to jumpstart my heart again. it drives me INSANE. PHYSICALLY UNWELL /POS)

there are definitely more than this but these are what i've got on hand rn,,,, and I know the prompt said others but i also...reread my own fics very often LOL. how could i not its like the author wrote it EXACTLY to my taste...crazy how that happens.

and i know this is my mcyt account, but it feels dishonest to answer this question without including all the other fics I reread constantly even if theyre from other fandoms. so I'm including them under the cut. because i MEANT IT when i said im a DEDICATED rereader.

Cigarette Daydreams by Passive_phantom (i am...quite literally Known™️ for being obsessed with this fic on multiple other social media platforms aadjfgh. I could analyze it for hours and HAVE. this is also a cry for help reread <33 'Andrew knows that all of the odds are against him--that he'll start smoking again, that he'll lose Neil, that he'll decide none of this was worth fighting for when he gets back to Columbia, but heres the thing: 93 days isn't that long.')

I'll Stay Inside (with you) by ghosttamer and queersardonicrat (this fic is literally my two faves from a differnet fandom meeting on a mc server and having an online long distance relationship it is 10,000 times too real and ive read it sooooo many times haha haha....)

Where the Wild Things Are by justadreamfox (one of the best soulmate au fics ive ever read ever. Ive read it at least 3 times. i could talk forever about the way this plot was set up.)

Quicksand by likearecord (lol. if not cigarrette daydreams this is The Other fic i am Widely Associated with. god. quicksand andrew the love of my got damn life. i literally reread the first two chapters of this fic out loud to birrdie like 4 days ago.)

theres sooo many more I. used to run a fic rec account for the fandom I was in before this one so. my whole THIGN was knowing the names and authors of like over a thousand fics and reciting them upon request <3 trust me when I say I reread OFTEN and INTENTLY.

ANYWAY. thank you for asking askdfs I love rereading and i love gushing about the fics that are special to me.

[littlest-bugz]

Hope it's okay to send this for the ask game! We've really enjoyed reading all your answers :)

🥀 + 📻

No worries! You can def send them in (and Im glad u enjoyed reading our answers :D I just figured everything was abysmally buried)

🥀 - do you keep track of your alter count? how do you do so?

So!! We use 3 different things for managing alter info, and then one separately. 📓 is our archivist and he is!! Bonkers /j.

First he uses simply plural for the custom field feature, and the layout of the app. He has a shit ton of custom fields put in for anything you can reasonably think of for an alter. Then, he uses Pluralkit because we have a system discord. Theres a template he made that we r going to upload soon. THEN in the system discord has an even longer version of the template he made (that cant be used in pk bc of the length). On top of it all, we have a notion journal with all the same shit + personal journals. Why did he do that to himself? /j lh/ No, but those are the three ways we manage to keep track of alters. Not all of them are uploaded, and furthermore, not all of them are uploaded in all of the places. We try to keep our simply plural for the bulk of it.

Other apps we use as a system that dont keep track of alters, but we find helpful regardless:

- Mindly: A mind mapping app that is pretty user friendly/easy to use. Not a super high learning curve imo, but it can be confusing upon initial use. If u are any flavor of polyfragmented, it may be harder to keep track with the free feature. We have 3 separate mind maps for the 3 separated areas in our system.

- Calm Harm: We have a horrible self harm addiction 😃 this app tho? It helped a ton in our beginning days of stopping. We don’t SH as much anymore bc of coping™️ but its still helpful for alters who cant control the urge as well as the others.

- UpWord: Its a notes app that can be locked via a passcode. It also has a built in reminders feature. We use it for keeping track of body info, extra info, routines, and general alter stuff. Its become pretty obsolete for us because of the onslaught of programs 📓 uses, but it keeps track of stuff for us still. It has a $4 upgrade to change the colors, remove ads, and more. Id say only purchase it if you end up liking it and using it more than other apps. It’s worth it imo, but if ur broke like me and $4 is a lot, hold off until you use it.

- Selftalking: one of those back and forth, self chat apps. I find it easier to use than Antar (which i still don’t know how to use to this day), but you’ll probably have to make the convos as needed, as opposed to making them all and having alters search their name,,, but it does have a search function if needed. We found the search function helpful. It is, undoubtedly, super ugly from an app design standpoint, and its not entirely user friendly. The ads are incredibly annoying as well, but its a much worth it $1 purchase imo.

📻 - do you experience amnesia?

Yes, but most of it is drug related these days I think (as 🎸, the addiction holder). We’ve been working on functional multiplicity for a while so (day to day) memory sharing is getting easier, but we have a lot of what our therapist calls “cold switches” where theres usually hesitance or stubbornness or any negative emotion that leads to the switch being more disorienting and heightened amnesia. Its like,, idk hard to explain?? Most of the time theres about 9-10 of us front at any given point. Its actually really annoying to have so many of us front and then our amnesia STILL sucks. Like imagine you switch w/ the dude next to you in front and there being complete amnesia between the two until prev dude briefs him on whats been happening.

The way our front works, whoever fronts the frontest (lol) usually has less access to the innerworld, usually forgets what they were doing on the innerworld, they also usually forget what we were doing in a time range of,,, 30min - 3/4 hours, and thats if they are cofront. We’ve had alters who when cocon can remember all this shit but when they front they forget a bulk of it. It’s weird, but we’re working on it.

BUT YEAH! Feel free to send in more or ask non ask game questions!