#but the video might be a bit gross or disconcerting for some people

[livtang]

Romanticisation of stalking in media lately?? Pre gross tbh, in a lot of media types. I feel like this is mainly impacting younger people. Might write more about it later but it’s e v e r y w h e r e. You get it in movies like Twilight, the series You. Oh god You. I don’t think it needs to be said that stalkers and killers are about as far as you get from romantic. Idealisation tik Toks to Yandere/stalker subliminal messaging videos on YouTube I think it’s a bit disconcerting how mainstream it’s getting.

Here’s some Yandere subliminal comments I found, fruit for thought:

The desire for these kinds of toxic relationships under the guise of love is… wow. I don’t know just thinking about this lately thought it’d be cool to mention

[tipsfromabird]

Baby update!

Three babies are out of their eggs, and one is working her way out still. She made some spiderweb cracks, presumably prompted by her brother’s chirps, then decided she wasnt really ready yet and rested for another 36 hours.

The other two - Jerrie and Teazer, Lucy’s biological children, being raised by Elsa - are healthy and already visibly bigger than they were, and, as you’d expect from an experienced mother, they’re being fed very well. Michael is a bit clueless as a dad but he’s working it out.

The baby above needed help. This lad is Cori, one of Elsa’s two who are being raised by Lucy.

He was very vocal while still inside the egg, but because he cracked a hole in the shell too quickly, the membrane dried out and ‘shrink-wrapped’ him so he couldn’t move and keep breaking himself out. So I very carefully helped him out, by degrees over the course of a few hours, continually breakig just a little more shell, moistening the membrane with a q-tip and then returning him to the incubator (much to Lucy’s displeasure). This is, by the way, a tricky and dangerous procedure, which can kill them by shock or by blood loss, if any of the blood vessels attached to the shell (and especially the big one at the belly) are still ‘live’ and the ‘belly button’ isn’t fully closed yet. So, you should never help a baby bird get out just because you think it’s taking too long!

This is as far as I went with helping him, and after this I put him back in the incubator until he got his head and other wing out by himself. Then, after checking that his belly was properly closed, I gave him back to Lucy (after making sure she still recognised him), while his butt was still in the leg.

That was yesterday and it’s now midday, and I checked two hours ago and found that she has worked out how to feed him - baby Cori has a full crop for the first time! And, as aforementioned, baby Tanto is on her way out to join him.

(Btw, no, obviously I don’t know their sexes, I’m just using the pronouns of the character they’re named after. They can change later if they want to! :P)

[impossiblerebelblaze]

i'm gonna be the evil one here and say 50-99! bwahahahhaha for anti

Most of these are just for Ire, unless Vice is mentioned by name in the answer I give.

50. When is their birthday?October 11

51. How do they usually celebrate their birthday?He doesn’t really do much ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

52. Do they have any family?No. Maybe like, other demons but no blood-relations (other than Jack???)

53. Are they close to their family?I mean kinda? “Close” like he lived inside Jack’s mind for however long. Does he like him? No.

54. What is their MBTI type?I took the test as him and got ENTP-A

55. What is their zodiac sign?I mean with his birthday, he’s a Libra

56. What Hogwarts House would they be in?Slytherin. But I think he’d live in the forbidden forest rather than the school

57. What D&D alignment are they?Chaotic neutral with heavy leanings towards the “evil” side

58. Do they ever have nightmares? If so, what about?Probably things we wouldn’t be able to understand.

59. What are their views on death?He likes to think that he works alongside Death, in a way.

60. What is something that they’re sure to laugh at?I guess he can’t really talk, so he just kinda yells, grunts, and laughs a lot,, but honestly if he’s thinking clearly, jokes can make him laugh quite a bit

61. When bored, how do they pass time?Either sleeping or causing general mayhem.

62. Do they enjoy being outside?Not really, he’d rather stay inside where it’s warm

63. Do they have an accent?Again, he can’t talk but you bet your ass he’d have an Irish accent

64. Upon seeing a slice of chocolate cake, what is their first reaction?His eyes go wide like he just saw a small prey animal and JUMP ON IT. he likes sweets

65. If they knew they were going to die, what would they do/say?If it was due to a fight, he’d be screaming and fighting till his last breath. If he couldn’t do that, he’d wedge himself into someplace small, where nobody could find him.

66. How do they feel about sex?Ire doesn’t really understand it, and Vice would just see it as another possible way to torture someone, I guess.

67. What is their sexuality?Ire is basically ace, and Vice might as well be, too. Neither of them look at humans like that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

68. Do they become squeamish at the sight of blood?HA NO

69. Is there anything that they find really gross?Physical affection, and Ire has this weird aversion to birds

70. Which TV Trope(s) best describes them?Psychological horror, the monster. (Wish there were more of those)

71. Do they enjoy helping people?Ire doesn’t, but Vice will if it feeds into something he’s doing

72. Are they allergic to anything?Nothing of note, maybe Vice would be allergic to cats because Jack is

73. Do they have a pet?No, he’d probably end up killing it tbh

74. Are they quick to anger? What are they like when they loose their temper?Imma do a quick rundown for bothVice. We’ve seen what he’s like when he’s mad. He spews threats, guilt trips the people around him. He’s wickedly smart and manipulative, but when he loses his temper, he gets impulsive and violent. Ire. He’s a lot like a furious cat. He screams as loud as he can, kicking, biting, scratching. Green rings appear in his eyes, and the room he’s in will start to tilt and shift. The eyes on his torso will start to ooze a rancid substance. When it drips on the ground, it starts to seethe and grow, shooting out veins across the floor and up the walls. It’s truly terrifying.

75. How patient are they?He can wait for hours looking down on his prey. He’s a master hunter, he can feel the rising tension in the air, the growing fear in his prey below.

76. Are they good at cooking?Nah Ire likes raw meat and eggs. He likes heat but he cannot cook.

77. Favorite insult? Do they insult people often?If he could talk, he’d love to shoot insults at every given opportunity. Idk if he’d have a favourite one, but if you watch Jack’s videos, you’d have a general idea

78. How do they act when they’re particularly happy?He bounces around and chirps, or lounges around like a lazy cat.

79. What do they do when they learn about other people’s fears?Both Vice and Ire would absolutely exploit it. Use it to get at the person, to unnerve them even further.

80. Are they trustworthy?No. Ire is just outright evil and devious, Vice would, if it served him well, gain your trust for whatever selfish reason. You could trust him then. But if it was required m he’d break that trust without batting an eye.

81. Do they try to hide their emotions? Are they good at it?No. He’s incredibly expressive, and can’t hide his anger or joy.

82. Do they exercise regularly?Climbing around like a spider is exercising right

83. Are they comfortable with the way they look?Ire can subtly change his appearance at will, but he likes his general form. It’s just human enough to be almost familiar, but extremely disconcerting.

84. What are some physical features that they find attractive on people?Ehh neither Vice nor Ire are really “attracted” to people so not really anything.

85. What kind of personalities do they find attractive?Well, he finds people that don’t express that distinct fear interesting, if that means anything.

86. Do they like sweet foods?Yes,, he loves them

87. What is their age?Redacted

88. Are they tall or short or somewhere in between?Vice is 5’9 like Jack. Ire’s tricky because he crouches and never stands up straight. He’s similar to Jack as well, but his legs add like a foot and a half

89. Do they wear glasses or contacts?Vice needs glasses like Jack does but he never wears them

90. Do they consider themselves attractive?Both of them consider themselves to be more “worrisome” or “panic-inducing” rather than attractive

91. What is their sense of humor like?DARK AND BITTER HUMOUR

92. What mood are they most often in?Angry

93. What kinds of things anger them?Basically anything

94. Outlook on life?Eh

95. What kind of things make them sad/depressed?

96. What is their greatest weakness?Vice, when he’s lost his temper, will be incredibly impulsive, and possibly sabotage his own plan through one accidental swing of his knife, or one wrong phrase that he just had to say. Ire is distracted very easily. Laser pointer? You have a good chance at escaping from him unscathed.

97. What is the greatest strength?Vice is, as I’ve said, very smart. He knows things. He’ll run us around in petty little circles, chasing our own tails while he sets up something far more dangerous. Ire’s strength would probably be the way he hunts.

98. Something that they regret?Vice might think that he could’ve drawn a bigger reaction with his first big appearance, maybe saved killing Jack for later. But it is what it is. It sure caused a big stir and a very strong starting point to his reign of terror. I don’t know if Ire can really feel regret.

99. Biggest accomplishment?Vice- easily, us. The amount of worry and interest we show. How something like Overnightwatch became such a big deal. How thousands of us stayed up all night to watch a blank frame with, what, maybe five minutes of anything out of the ordinary?Ire- again, he probably doesn’t think things like that.

[10k10k]

Thursday, May 11 2017

Thursday's are always hard. I hate mornings and for five minutes I briefly think about calling in sick, but then I'm remember how much curriculum I have left to teach, and get out of bed. I shower, get dressed, brush my hair and teeth and have a glass of water. I don't eat breakfast, I'm hardly ever hungry enough in the morning. Thursday is grocery shopping day so when I leave the house that morning I make sure to drag a childs sled behind me on my way to work. I comicly lay a reusable shopping bag with my laptop and sketchbook on the sled to keep it from blowing around if there's any wind and set off, happy that it's finally warm enough to go outside without snowpants. I am a first year teacher and I'm teaching high school in a tiny little town in the arctic. There are no cabs, cars are rare, and I don't like to bother people with skidoos, so I bought myself a sled to carry packages and groceries from the store to my apartment. A student meets me outside on the way in and offers to carry my sled upstairs to my classroom. I thank her, say good morning to a few early students and staff, and go about my morning, making a vanilla lattee with my classroom Keurig and checking over my lesson plans for the day. A co-worker joins me in my room and we wait for the visiting scientists to set up a lab in the classroom nextdoor. First period for High School is canceled due to the presentation so I don't get to teach art, but it's a nice break to sit back and watch others (the scientists) teach. I only have to yell at one student to stop touching the heat lamps, that they were warned not to touch, and to remind him that thermometers are not drum sticks. 🙄 My morning picks up with my second, two hour class being my worst behaved and largest. The grade tens are just a smidge too immature for my likes, and I feel like I always have to be 'on' with them. If I don't watch them at all times they will stab pencils into the ceiling or start picking at things. Today when I go into the hallway for literally a minute to check on a student who prefers to work alone in quiet, they hang a roll of tape on the skylight. A lecture about wasting supplies ensues. Being constantly on my feet with this class always makes my step counter happy, but I do wish more of them would take school seriously. I have lunch in the staff room with the usual staff members who stay for lunch. The two scientists are staying at a co-workers since the hotel is so small here so they join us for lunch as well. I brought chocolate chip cookies that my roommate made for everyone, and I trade barbs with the shop teacher who loves to try and push my buttons while eating. The afternoon seems to take forever as I only have two students for my class after lunch. Both are happily working on independent assignments so I do some correcting and prep. Students in grades 11+ are more my cup of tea, and I think they approve of how I make independent assignments and don't bother them unless they look confused on my rounds. Last periods lesson is all about STI's, which as one grade twelve student exclaims "this is so gross!"I tell her I'm just as happy to teach it as she is to learn it, but that "I'm glad you find it gross. I hope now you'll practice safe sex!" Cue a fantastic eye roll. I'm hilarious, she knows it. Anyway, I planned a lesson and worksheet using tablets and an excellent Government of Nunavut website on sexuality, gender, and wellness called irespectmyself.ca. The topic might be gross, but the students all work diligently through the class and I am glad the tablet is more engaging than the dusty module book. One of my grade 12 students has down syndrome so is on an IEP. I struggle to come up with lessons for him as I have no training in Exceptional Students and I find our Student Services teacher to be severely lacking. After asking for a new lesson for my student he gives me a photocopied booklet of money worksheets way too advanced, and a pack of fake money. No instructions, no lesson plans.The Student assistant and I agree that the worksheets are useless, but I like the idea of the fake money. I ask the SA to work with the student to recognize the money while I sit at my desk and try to think of something at my students level that could help with money recognition. I eventually come up with an idea for money Bingo where he will have to match the fake money with the word or money value, and if he gets a line, he gets a candy. I print off some labels, snag a bristle board and explain my plan to the SA. Hopefully we can finish the board tomorrow and have it laminated so he can use it forever. After coming up with a solution for the money outcome, another of the SA's praises my game idea. We bond a bit over our frustrations with the SST, and suddenly a thought comes to me. I bet I would like his job. Now, I have no training but, that's what I like about teaching outside of art. The planning. Looking at the outcomes and coming up with a worksheet or lesson plan at the students level that might engage them. I like to use games, visuals, videos, and technology and I like to come up with innovative projects that get my students thinking outside the box! I wonder if I should take an online special Ed course next year? After class I make sure all my teacher duties are done and make my way to the store, my little sled dragging behind me. The day is warmer than I thought and most of the snow has melted off the roads. I decide, starting to sweet in my down filled Ookpik coat, that it's finally time to take out my Newfoundland winter coat and put away the one that's good for -30°. The store is pretty empty, which is why I usually go on Thursday. I check the mail and get four packages, including the comforter and cushions I have been waiting on for my bedroom! My old comforter was used when I bought it at Value Village, and it was literally falling apart so while I did splurge on my new bed set, it was a necessary purchase. The boxes will take up most of my sled, so I know I can't buy potatoes like I wanted, or anything large. I shop, and by now I've stoped freaking out about the insane prices, although a visiting customer staring at the price of flour says "I can't believe the prices here!" to me as I pass by on my way to the soya sauce. The stores out of green beans and everything bagels, but I buy some snacks, milk, sour cream, bananas, chicken breasts, shrimp, eggs, bacon, and conditioner since I'm almost out of the good stuff I brought back from home. I remembered that we were almost out of qtips so I buy 400 as that's the only size they have. Since I know I'll be too lazy to cook on a Thursday I grab some microwave sweet and sour pork and chow mein. Somehow I managed to spend $160, because God damn Northern prices! My friend walks home with me on the now very slushy roads. If we don't get anymore storms or snow this might be the last time I can use my sled and I'm glad my comforter came in time! Half way home my friends sister in law and her children drive up on a skidoo and offer to drag my sled home and lay it on my step, which is very sweet of them. My friend and I get home and gush over my packages while I heat us up some quick chinese food and bake some spring rolls from the freezer. While putting away my purchases I realize that my roommate had bought qtips yesterday so we now have 800, which makes my friend and I laugh. After she leaves for a town meeting I clean up, remake my bed with my new comforter and of course snapchat it. I do a quick sketch of a narwhal and eat a slice of lemon meringue pie in my new bed, which is how my roommate finds me when she finally gets home. It's still bright as hell 9:53pm as Nunavut is currently going through 24 hour daylight. I hate this. I miss darkness, my old friend. I find it really disconcerting to look outside when it should be dark and see a bright blue or pink sky!