#but something abt twelveclara almost not being confirmed to be romantic in nature almost makes it more so

[chihirolovebot]

oh noooooo all your doctor who posting put me down a twelveclara rabbit hole and i can't get out!! as a non-dw watcher, who is twelve and who's clara in the physouma situation?

SO SORRY TO INFLICT TWELVECLARA ON YOU NOT EVEN AS A DW WATCHER THATS OS PAINFUL .

12 is extremely emotionally unavailable, often coarse and unintentionally cruel/harsh, and is more 'flippant' with stuff that would cause a lot of other people emotional pain. in terms of his relationship with clara, she's the only one really permitted to see each and every side of him, and their relationship is very much a 'warts and all' type of thing, whether you interpret it as platonic or romantic or a secret third thing, its very... you're ugly, i'm ugly. neither of us can absolve or condemn the other, we can only love, and we do.

clara is such a fascinating character. she starts out imo as a fairly shallow girl with not much to separate her from the typical spunky adorkable sassy female deuteragonist of the 2010s but she gains infinitely more depth when paired with 12. as his own deep flaws are exposed, her reactions to them expose her own. she can be reckless, hotheaded, selfish, but at her core she is empathetic, kind, and loyal. and what i like a lot abt her is that she isnt a doormat to 12's callousness or disinterest. she will talk back to him, she will put him in his place even though its evident that 12 is smarter/wiser/older than her. it's such an equal-sided relationship that it never feels like 12 is bulldozing clara's feelings , or that clara is spitefully bullying 12 , because we know where they both come from .

so . long story short . 12 is ouma , keeping people at a distance with a soft spot for one person who is allowed to see him, who comes across cruel and flippant to most other people, who is not above deceit to get his way, who condescends to those he thinks are below him, who loves the other with all his heart. and phys is clara, the one who will see every ugly part of him and stand by him anyway, who will not lie down and allow him to trample over her feelings or the things she thinks are important, who will remind him when he's wrong, who will stick by him until death.