#but now theyve got me Thinking About It (which tbh might have been their plan) so like.... wheres the big dipper?? where are the others???

[heyitslapis]

A personal favorite highlight from a conversation we had tonight:

Them: "(talking about constellations) would it surprise you to know that I have the Big Dipper tattooed somewhere on my body?"

Me: "That would be a surprise! That's so cool though! So we have (a sword) on your thigh and the big dipper....somewhere? Any other tattoos I have yet to find out about? 😂"

Them: "I think you get to discover those for yourself 😉"

[pinkpluswhite]

ok im spilling dont click read more if you dont want any main storyline spoilers (a bit of its just theories and speculation tbh)

- vogel is valentinas father? or theyre related in some way. valentinas had this whole plot where her interests are different from omegas interests. she talks of "him", a sort of shadowy form that appears to her. "he" talks about how their plan will come to fruition, and how she has to go to berlin. and she talks about how they will be reunited again. implying that not only does she know this guy, theyve met before. (and all this leads into an audio log from the da that gives me chills whenever i listen to it)

- after sam & ravenov hijack operation threshold, weaver is,, pissed. like very. (i hate hearing people yell it genuinely made me nervous hearing him like that lol) and he ends up having sam taken to have more tests run on her.. with her kicking and screaming whilst being dragged away. (thats what i was screaming about earlier)

- during the log when weaver first confronts sam; you hear something fly and impact the wall. in the second requiem radio transmission, grey swears she saw sam's diary move on its own. grey also says sam has a whole lot of aetherium in her system. enough that it would turn any other person into a zombie. but as far as she could tell, she was fine. (i guess sams got powers again 🥴🥴)

- the director is the only reason the strike team isnt being tried for fucking up threshold. weaver tells us that the whole incident has been striken from our records. as far as we're all concerned, it never happened. the thing is, why would the director care? thats something i dont really get.

- continuing in on that, i think thats 3arch's way of definitively saying we're the strike team. the game has no crew because we ARE the crew. "YOU got off lightly." "YOU do not answer to maxis." "YOU are making an impact on this fight." i think that's really cool lol

- peck & zykov are talking to each other! they cute ngl

- in an earlier audio log, when the dept heads are talking about clearing sam for field ops; her needing 4 unanimous yes...es to be cleared. carver tells weaver that if he really cares about samanthas wellbeing, he'll say no. she gets 3 yes's and 1 no. you can guess who said no.

- but the thing is; why wouldn't carver say no? he's the one who brought it up to weaver.. kinda sus ngl

- ^^ and that whole thing would bring me to the mole in requiem plot point which needs a whole other post on its own. i recommend caljitsu's 2 videos on it. he goes into alot more depth & explains it a lot better than i ever could.

- and we know sam eventually DOES get cleared for field ops because we can play as her. what's gonna happen to make weaver change his mind?

- kravchenko knows that ravenov is the mole. ravenovs been labeled an enemy of the state by omega & the kgb. hes gonna fucking die. rip bozo

- theres a good chance weavers playing a bigger part in the berlin storyline (i saw someone else talk about this dont remember who) since hes gonna be an operator, he now has an ingame model. like sam in firebase z, he might show up in a cutscene (and these next few lines are just straight speculation from me) and with the way he's acting in intel and the reveal of what happened in iran.. i dont think its a good thing for us weaver enjoyers. what im saying is something bad is probably gonna happen to him. at the hands of whom? you decide.

- kravchenko is very sussy of valentina. when gorev mentions how peck has been talking to zykov for a few months, he questions why he wasnt informed of this. gorev tells him that valentina told HIM that she would write a document and give it to kravchenko herself, which never happens.

predictions? ravenov might die, sam goes jean grey sicko mode. they kill off weaver to explain why hes never mentioned passed the first black ops game. if eddie isn't in the dark aether, then he's the director. carver's the mole in requiem. strauss & grey are just vibing. (not in that order)

[shock777archive]

A little Excerpt from a BBRAE Roleplay between my friend and I:

A little context: It’s two years after the end of season 5. Raven is 18, nearly 19 and Beast boy is 18. Raven has fallen in love with Beast boy after he nearly died protecting her from a cult of Trigon seeking revenge. Literally a week after theyve recovered from their wounds, Raven has been losing control of her powers and has been sinking into depression and even losing control of her demonic powers. Robin told everyone to leave raven alone to collect herself, but beast boy had to talk with her...and so he decided to write her a letter. 

The excerpt is below the cut! :D I just wanted to share this cause it’s super in character and fucking cute ;A; I really wanna draw this and make it a full on fic, as it does fit nicely with my headcanons... Also, forgive us for any spelling errors. this is via the LINE app on cell lmao 

The parts written by me are indicated, and my rp partner is the marvelous @angel-dust-ryuuki

Me: Beast boy stuck his head out of his room...looked to the left, looked to the right. No one in sight. It was nearing bed time and everyone was in their respective rooms. He heard muffled robin and starfire chatting, but could not make out anything they were saying. Raven's room was still cold, and almost gave off an unholy aura. It was dead silent. He wondered if Raven had gone to sleep finally? In any case, Beast boy carried out his little "plan." "If robin wont let me speak to you in person..." He thought to himself, kneeling down to her door. "I'll just have to write instead!" Beast boy slipped underneath raven's door, that single piece of crinkled up paper. Raven noticed it right away. She could always feel when someone was near...And she saw the little paper quietly slip under her door. Beast boy trotted back to his room, took one last look down the hallway at her door, and then closed his door behind him. Plopping back down on his queen sized bed, he began to game some.

Raven didn't know what to expect. But judging from the crinkly-ness of the paper and the horrendous writing, it had to be beast boy. Beast boy...her heart fluttered. Raven opened up the crude letter to look at a small little paragraph or two. She had to squint her eyes to read it.

"Raven- It's me, beast boy. I heard you weren't feeling well with everything that's going on. I just want you to know that it's okay to feel the way you do. Sometimes we have good days and sometimes we have bad days. And I know you're gonna say 'I'm not allowed to have bad days', but...I just want you to know we all hope you feel better soon! I hope I didn't do anything to hurt you or make you upset. Let me know if i did! You can punish me in any way you want! ...well, just don't take away my videogames! (he drew a random smiley face here).

If you're having trouble sleeping, maybe come hang out with me for a little while. I know it's a stretch, but I know robin and starfire do their...Adult things at night and cy usually has to charge his battery by late night...I'm usually up though! You're free to come visit. I won't tell anyone don't worry! The offer's always there and my door is unlocked at night if you need anything. You don't even have to knock! (insert another smiley face here.)

I hope you feel better soon, rae.

-From: (there were a few words here that were scratched out and illegible, followed by a slightly more bold signature: ) Changling. "

Angel: Raven blushed at the letter and held it close. She couldn't help but feel the warmth of his words in this cold room. Deciding to play along.

Beastboy was on his bed when a crow appeared. Dropping a neatly folded and stamped letter on his chest before it disappeared like smoke.

"Dear Changling, Nice name by the way. It's rather fitting. Do you plan to make it your new hero name?I appreciate the concern for what appears to be a more then unwelcome bad day. I know you want to tell me it's okay to feel the way I do. But feelings are not something I can have. You know how unstable my powers are. You didn't hurt me or make me upset. Nothing that has happened is your fault. The fault only lies with me. So please do not blame yourself for any of this. I will take your offer under consideration.-Raven

Me: Beast boy smiled and then looked around his room for more paper. Of course he was cleaner the more mature he had gotten, no longer being able to tolerate the smell. Most of his mess remained inside his closet though. Finally finding another paper he began his response.

A few moments later another paper slipped under her door.

"yeah, changling sounds pretty neat huh? I'll have to admit even I'm surprised I came up with that! (emoji here).  Maybe I can ask robin if my personal file can be updated.

Look, I know you're not too keen on spending an evening late at night with some weird green dude but I SWEAR. I won't make you play video games or even make you talk.  U could just come and read one of Ur books and I can do my own thing... I know how being alone can make u feel depressed."

Raven paused for a moment. She felt a chill go down her spine. Her room was so cold.. No doubt thanks to her powers reflecting her mood a little.

" the offer is always here. Even if I'm asleep or something u can wake me up! I don't care! I just want you to feel better raven."

Raven blushed deeply and sighed continuing to read the last bit.

"I'm glad I didn't mess up anything... I seriously been feeling like u were mad at me about something. But thanks raven. I won't worry anymore."

Angel: "Dear Changling,I'm sure Robin will have no problem with that. I've heard from Starfire he too is planning to soon change his Hero name to Nightwing. "Pausing on how to continue this.  But feeling...lonely? Sighing. "I know your intentions are good. But my powers are unstable right now and I'm not even sure what might happen. I would prefer not to put you in any danger as much as possible."The last part she sighed a bit. "But...I do appreciate the letters. I wasn't even sure you knew how to write.-Raven"Bahaha of course she chide at him a little. XD Well he's never written a letter for her before. Heck he didn't even write one for Terra.

Me: Beast boy scowled at her sarcastic remark. He got out yet another piece of paper -(turns out he found an old empty sketchbook he was gifted but never used).

--- Another letter under her door. Beast boy was getting out of breath at this point XD

"Night wing?!? Okay well at least my name is cooler...."

Raven giggled and then immediately blushed when she realized she was laughing... At one of beast boys jokes?!? Hell had truly frozen over... Raven hadn't noticed it yet, but as she was writing these little letters back and forth, her emotions were stabilized... And her furniture no longer was floating. Hell, even her room began to warm just a tad...

"I think ur just using Ur powers as an excuse not to hang out with me! And yes, I know what happened earlier. Rob-(scratched out) night wing told me earlier. Look, I get that u have to control Ur emotions and stuff. But u were fine before all this trigon stuff happened. Maybe u could use a distraction or two? (winky face smile emoji here)

I do know how to write but I know how to text even better. U can message me via communicator u know.......

U do know how to make a private chat with that thing don't u? "

Raven looked at her communicator which lit up right as she finished reading his message.

In all green text in a private message it read: Sup?

Angel: She texted back then:

I'm aware. Starfire and I private message from time to time. How exactly would you plan on distracting me?

Sending the massage to him then. Putting the ball back in his court. She blushed.

Me: It showed he was typing... Then it showed he wasn't... Then it showed he was. Raven watched in baited breath almost awaiting a response. Why was her heart so giddy all of a sudden? She was technically still a teen at age 18, though the giddiness of young love had not yet crawled its way into her heart.... Til now.Finally his message popped up."okay well I just found out about the private message thing tbh...." he wrote. No wonder he always replied or sent mass texts in group chat...." well I know u like to read. Why not give one of my comic books a try? Or maybe u wanna watch a scary movie?" Raven saw that he was texting her again. Another message popped up."Okay bad idea. Emotions. Bad. Got it."

Angel: She almost rolled her eyes at his text messages. They were kind of amusing. 'You're pretty insistent on me coming into your bedroom " she texted back. Bet he would read that and we'll get embaressed. XD

Me: there was a long pause on her communicator. Then It showed he was typing, followed by a long pause of not typing. Was he embarrassed? Did it go over his head? Raven was tapping her foot nervously on her bed, awaiting a response. Still hadn't noticed the stability in her soul or room...she was that engrossed in this conversation. (Just like any earth teen, amirite?) Finally, then came a response: "I just want you to feel better, Rae." Is all he wrote in that long time. Raven's face instantly turned pink. She had to put her communicator down and cover her eyes for a moment. Meanwhile, Beast boy was in his room worrying sick that she thought he was up to no good. The last thing he wanted to come off as was some kind of creep like that asshole Adonis. But maybe Raven didn't know that about him?! He just wanted her to know he was a gentleman..He was purely doing this to help out a friend and nothing more.

[mikiruma]

okay i'm snapping what the hell is saints row about. who's the dude with the giant titties you keep thirsting over and who's the mcdonalds emo. i need some answers bc i don't know shit.

ill edit this w a readmore bc it got Very wordy and im on mobile but i promise you. this series is a mess, i live for it, i could go ON abt it for days but this response was long enough fhwkfhejhfnd

1) so basically the premise in most of the games is like. you are a member (leader as of sr2) of a street gang (the third street saints!) and though the story is tweaked slightly for each installment, the overall goal is the same- control different neighborhoods in your city, squash the other gangs, be badass. i *call* it a grand theft auto clone but tbh i havent played gta, the gameplay's similar enough though. the first two games are more uhh... grounded? than the later 3? the plotlines are darker, deaths & events are more fucked up in a heavier/moral sense, etc etc. but the last 3 are way more silly i think. the entire series is kinda packed with crude/sexual humour and essentially responding to a punch with a flamethrower, but it goes over the top in the newer games which is.. why i always liked em lol.

but its just funny in general to think of the plot progression. oh i witness a gang war so im recruited in a gang whose current leader... wants to end gang violence. oh that leader tried to kill me and arrested/killed everyone else so i am going to go apeshit on this city until i find him and kill him back. oh somehow we are international celebrities and do crime as publicity stunts, i am gonna ask mayor burt reynolds to help us with this zombie invasion. oh now i am president of the united states, time to get the earth blown up by an alien warlord and do it with whats left of my gang every survivor plus an ai in a ball.

ive seen Some Shit abt the general timeline but tbh ive always tried to piece it together like. ok these games take place in/around whatever year they were released. besides sr4 which would be... 2019 if my math is correct? i just felt like mentioning that bc i am not touching any canon timeline

OH ALSO the main reason i even got into the series. i literally bought sr3 because of the character customization. the body mods could.... use a lot of work imo but what you can do for your protags face is BANANAS... and changing voice pitch in sr4 was fun too bc male 1 was ok for my boss but having it just a teensy bit higher REALLY made it

tldr; i cant help you there i am just along for this ride

2) im assuming you mean johnny gat not bc theres any competition but like. theres so many dudes like that in this game

his role is actually pretty consistent in that he stays a lieutenant, and hes one of the rare characters (besides. the protag i think?) who's been in every single game. he's the designated badass of the saints and is really good at coming up with plans that involve lots of guns or blowing stuff up. if i typed everything i liked abt him right now this post would be a mile long but trust me he is an excellent man, even tho he might be the scariest motherfucker ever and i probably would be afraid of him irl, he fully deserves that. hes loyal to the saints and his boss which i absolutely respect. still bitter abt sr3 "killing" him bc cmon. he cannot die. does that count in the spoiler? its the literal first mission after u customize your character so i dont think so// whatever ive been posting untagged spoilers for the other games bc theyve been out for a decade

3) IM STILL LOSING MY MIND OVER THAT SJSDHADDHSI mcdonalds emo.... thats his legal name now....

but seriously matt miller is like. one of my fav characters from sr3. he's the leader of one of the rival gangs, the deckers, and they specialize in hacking & money laundering and stuff like that. matt specifically is 16 in his debut game which is really funny to learn bc imagine being a ballsy ass kid repeatedly nae naeing the us government because you can.

anyway i like him bc instead of killing the other gang leaders like usual, u just fight him in a vr world and ur both sick ass dragons and he decides "actually i dont wanna go brain dead. ill give u either weapons or car discounts" then he fucks off back to england. then it lets him come back for sr4 and yall are friends now :D yes yall tried to kill each other but whats past is past. i would be his friend irl honestly hes great. also im still firm on the autistic matt train bc of how often he shares his love for nyte blayde & im WEAK over the boss eventually getting into it as well

[survivormetaverse]

Episode 2 - "Fuck I’m on the cursed tribe" ~Moth

a lil sad to see my girl, Bri, go, but that just makes us one person closer to the goal >:3

dennis is very sneaky. we all had a tribe call and he said he'd come later but he was actually doing the hunt challenge. like that's totally fair, it's just even afterward he acted as if he was not really focusing on it either. im going to play the game assuming he has something, just in case.

GAME AND GAME SHOW ARE DIFFERENT DSJKLFHASJDJFH no but this was hella fun pls let's do it again

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hX3Fs7lDDQk&list=PLrsCGcojtF16jvLW49C4855pUlLWI9pnn

Dhsjdjsjskksks. First tribal done. We just finished the taboo challenge ... A good bonding experience with my tribe. However, I have a feeling we lost. 😂😂😂😂😂😂 The fact that I was the guesser. Rip. 

I filmed confessionals but my internet got disconnected hahaha so that's neat. Hopefully there will be youtube videos here soon, but new update Jodi and I are in alliances with Dennis and brayden separately which I think would be hilarious if they were also in am alliance together. And it will be funny it my internet is still out for the challenge tomorrow since I'm the guesser 😆 whoops

So this is the beginning of round 2 and here are my thoughts. Might purposely not be helpful in the taboo challenge lol but i have to do it in a way that doesn't show im throwing it? tbh i say this now but when i start playing the urge to win comes in ugh but i just wanna vote one of these people out. I also took a stroll through the wiki page for this org and i love that some of these people (esp brayden and amy) have played before and their stats are there like yassss give me ammunition yassss!!!! anywho i dont care if we win or lose tomorrow i think i set myself up nicely within the tribe and i still really dont think any of these people won the hunt challenge on my tribe but again who knowssss. if we lose the logic would probably be go for josh or ginny aka the least active people buttt i dont think so like i don't wanna go the boring route. i need to keep josh close to get to merge with him we have friends on the other tribeeeeeee so i need them to survive and i need him and i to survive till we swap or merge to link up. im also trying to win a hunt challenge but my god y'all have me fucked up!!!!!!!!! i guess we shall see what happens tomorrowwwwww

It was nice sitting the challenge out, I'm busy tomorrow and the fact that they could complete it is good for me. Also, if we lose, nobody can blame me for the loss. Only drawback is it appears to me some people can be getting close by bonding over funny things in a game. I have to go back and see who may be close, I don't think I'm next on the chopping block, but I'm definitely not in control. To me, I do not need to be number one on this tribe, I just need to survive the next tribal and hopefully make it to the swap at 14 or 15.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wm_dmPuwzzI&list=PLrsCGcojtF16jvLW49C4855pUlLWI9pnn&index=2 anotha one dj khaled

HEY SO KIND OF A LOT OF DEVELOPMENTS TO MY GAME we didn't lose first challenge!! thats great. whatever. no tribal. I've been trying to connect with fellow tribemates but overall we're all pretty quiet. I did have a small 30 minute call with Jay where we kinda connected on somewhat of a game level. I kinda get the vibe that he may not fully trust me or he might see my as a threat, but I want to work with him. I also really like Anastasia and Elle, I think I can connect with them more on a more genuine level. Perfect scenario for me would be setting up a trio alliance of Me + Elle + Anastasia, and then having Jay on the side as my actual #1. idk if I can pull that off, but that was my plan heading into round 2 BUT. AS ROUND 2 STARTED, MY GAY ASS WON THE HUNT CHALLENGE. AMAZING. idk HOW I managed it because like?? I finished and found the hidden link within like 20 minutes? Statistically very unlikely BUT I'm so glad I did it. I WON A SAFETY WITHOUT POWER. It's kinda like a hidden immunity idol, except slightly worse because I can't actually partake in tribal at all. we went ahead and competed in the Taboo challenge last night and boy it was kinda rough. We lost a LOTTA points because we kept accidentally saying forbidden words (I lost us 2 points, woops). But we ended up with a semi decent score. Elle did an amazing job guessing. I really hope we can pull this out. SO YEAH SORRY THATS KIND OF A LOT. OVERALL I FEEL LIKE IM IN A DECENT POSITION, WAY BETTER NOW THAT I HAVE A SWP. I wanna further my position in the game with some allies now. That's my next biggest goal. toodles!!!

So I've figured out that Amy is a comp beast based on us discussing our old seasons and how she did in those: she always talks down her abilities because she's worried she's being painted as a big challenge threat, but I don't think she realizes that doesn't matter to me at all. Ultimately, I think she needed to be at tonight's challenge more than me, so I decided it's ok to sit out since I'm sitting out only because somebody has to, not because I don't want to play. In tribal challenges, it means she'll help keep us winning tribal immunity, and further down the line, if anything, I'll be using her as my "Ken" and if she wins everything, it'll keep immunity away from people I want out. 

I think I did much better in Taboo than I did in endurance, so I'm happy about that. Hopefully my performance this round can help me redeem myself with my tribemates.

Today in the fools tribe: no one is talking 

Holy crap we won yet again this is such a great feeling just like last season :)

Fuck I’m on the cursed tribe this round This time I think I’m on the majority alliance, which is a great place to be. So hopefully everything goes as planned tomorrow 

https://youtu.be/fszNKUHjB_8

So! We did the Taboo challenge and got second place, probs wouldve got first if we didnt get deductions but also we did so good so whatever 😂. I definitely kinda pushed for us to do the challenge last night bc it's Dylan's birthday and I didn't want to have to like, be anywhere specifically today 😅. But yeah we did super good and now I'm gonna go talk to ppl bc I've been gone all day lol

Bye I hate it here. 

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SO. Here’s the rundown: We lost. Again. Pushing for Shaad to go. Moth, Jared, and Danny all agree with him going. So far I’m getting good vibes with everyone. Danny says he gets along with Jared well and doesn’t talk to Moth that much. Plus, Jared, Moth and I have that little alliance. Jared and I also get along well. Worried for Moth as she doesn’t seem to message a lot. This tribal... I’m feeling safe. I might even make an alliance with Jared, Danny and I. Worst case scenario for next challenge we lose and Moth goes. 

Yay we won again! Anyways, Dennis messaged me tonight talking about how everybody else knows each other from playing Stings games before. He said he checked the series wiki and got freaked out and told me that we're two newbies amongst vets. While he's telling the truth, I'm actually not too panicked because 1) I actually checked out the wiki before he told me about it and 2) I have pretty decent relationship with Amy to incentivize her to keep me around. I worked tightly with Amy for the specific reason that I knew she'll have others to work with, and for her to keep me as a loyal number. I also know that she was runner up of another series and she already recognizes the target on her, so I doubt she wants to risk me putting a bigger one. WOW FOR ONCE I'M NOT THE FLAMING TARGET I LIKE THIS 

Round 1 updates: https://youtu.be/5nhSsLNcnZ0 https://youtu.be/S5-0Yw93wc0

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Round two rambles: https://youtu.be/CuwgF9IVmUM

So, tbh I've done some research about some previous seasons and I noticed Moth and Jessica have played together before. Moth still has not talked to me but Jessica has been overly friendly. I know they have a group message with Jared and I know he can be the split vote between what happens in our tribal tomorrow. Jared claims he has voted for Moth but we will truly see tomorrow. But honestly, if he chooses us, then Jessica is next unless the tribe swap or merge has happened.

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Also with that research, I've peeped there's other connections in other tribes from previous games so this is gonna be interesting.

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I chose Jared to work with mostly because I see he can play strategy.

Fools tribe is bad at playing games. And its perfect for me because I am safe but i am wishing for drama bcs its fun. rn we are doing small talk and being so nice to each other. I think we will form an alliance officially soon but i am too awkward or like i dont know how to say it or bring it up.

WHY! DOES! MY! TRIBE! KEEP! WINNING!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am trying to go the fuck to tribal council but noooo we have to beast all the other tribes yet again. Like a swap is probably coming soon and with my fuckin luck I am gonna get swap screwed like they are gonna look at me from the phantoms and be like yeahhhh theyve been winning lets get his ass out. i would love to lose this next one so the sees look stronger. if phantoms go to tribal I know I''m safe (anything can happen but I set myself up well), and thats all I care about. Jodi and I started to really talk about the vets who are playing this season, and we just realized that we're the only newbies on our tribe. like wow. The fantasy would be to get to merge and have a numbers advantage of newbies against these vets, or make the vets eat their own idk. Lots of thinkin lots of thinkinnnnn. I have been strolling through the wiki page some more and mapping out potential connections from previous seasons. The casting directors work hard but i work harder

https://youtu.be/gsDJIiGiqHE

https://youtu.be/V1ku4_-w0SY

Roses are red We’re on day six Fools tribe worse at challenges than a bag of dead bricks

That im one of the strongest competitors on my tribe, Dennis feels like he is on the outs, but that connects us so i can pull him in as an ally.

It’s been a tricky round 

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Edgic:

Power Rankings:

Phantom

Jodi: Jodi remains at the top of the tribe for much of the same reason as last round. Now, she is even in two alliances with no one wanting to come for her nor do they see her as playing both alliances. Hopefully Jodi’s quick alliance making and constant worrying will help strengthen her defenses in the later rounds to come when people will be looking at her more closely.

Amy: Amy is still playing that stellar UTR game. No one seems to register her as a threat despite their access to the wiki and her performance in the challenge. Her social game is just too strong. Additionally, her greater willingness to work with Dennis than Jodi’s willingness to work with him may provide some good allies for Amy if she ever wants to distance herself from Jodi.

Brayden: Brayden rises in the rankings from last round as he has become more closely aligned with Amy and Jodi. The trio seem to see themselves as the only “active” ones on their tribe and are very quick to bond. Additionally, unlike Dennis, Brayden is not viewed with suspicion by either Jodi or Amy. They definitely feel more like a core alliance than they did with Dennis. Furthermore, Brayden is poised to get the people he wants gone out of this game. He is targeting Josh and Dennis which are good targets, especially the latter. All it takes is for Brayden to push a little for Dennis and I am sure the two girls will take the bait. Finally, Brayden’s connection with Ginnifer is very beneficial since he seems to be the only one willing to work with her at the moment. This gives him a very easy ally and Ginnifer doesn’t have much of a choice besides working closely with him. It is certainly an easy number for Brayden if he ever wanted to backstab Jodi or Amy in the future.

Josh: What lands Josh here is that he performed well in the challenge and is easy to like. Interacting with Josh on calls is always a pleasure. However, by not being part of that main trio, he is in danger of being voted out on a whim. Despite that, he seems to be, in my eyes, the least likely out of the bottom 3 to be voted out. Additionally, there is paranoia around people’s “experience” with ORGs surrounding these bottom 3 from others (despite the fact that the top 3 is composed of 2 people with ORG experience). Josh gets this heat the least.

Dennis: Dennis is in real danger if this tribe goes to tribal council. If Brayden pushes hard enough, Jodi can be easily swayed into turning on Dennis. He needs to back off with the strategy talk and just be more social. What saves him from last is that he is in that alliance with Jodi and Amy. This might make Jodi hesitant about targeting Dennis so soon as she may see him as a number. Additionally, Amy does seem keen on keeping Dennis around for a little while which would help his longevity. Hopefully Dennis can realize people’s perceptions of him before it is too late considering that he gives great confessionals and is one of my favorite players this season.

Ginnifer: Ginnifer may be on the bottom, but she definitely has a chance at avoiding being voted out. Most talk around Ginny is about how she is hard to socialize with, but I am sure, when the strategic game starts becoming more important, she can navigate out of this position. After all, she does have Brayden advocating for her which can definitely help. She would need to push for Dennis if she wants to survive until the swap at this point.

Fools

Jared: He takes the number 1 spot on this tribe as he is working with both “sides.” He is serving as the perfect double agent for Danny and Shaad. Additionally, he is making the smart move of getting rid of an obvious duo wherein he was the third wheel of that alliance. He has a great strategic mind on his shoulders, but is it too early for him to show that off? Regardless, he has earned this top spot by avoiding the target cleanly and betraying his allies perfectly. Jared is definitely a contender for the winner spot as he has shown some excellent gameplay these past two rounds.

Danny: Danny has done well in avoiding the target this round as well. He seems to be more sociable and active than Shaad which is the main reason that he is not the one getting Jessica’s and Moth’s vote. Additionally, he was the one that brought Jessica’s and Moth’s pre-existing relationship to Jared’s attention which caused this flip to happen in the first place. Finally, Danny made an excellent move by pairing himself with Jared as this duo could be something fearsome to go up against in the future. The cards are being laid out for a force to be reckoned with and I am excited to see what Danny will do in the future.

Shaad: It is hard to tell if Shaad did anything himself to avoid being voted out, but, regardless, he did something right by aligning with Danny and Jared instead of ratting to Jessica and Moth. In fact, even if he does rat, he will still land himself at number 3. He is not going to get voted out here, and has an established alliance moving forward. And now that he is putting more focus on the game, I am happily anticipating what he can accomplish now.

Jessica: Jessica is being blindsided tonight. However, at the very least, she is not the one going. Her performance in challenges have helped her avoid the target for the time being. Here we can see that the boys weren’t inactive, they were just inactive with her which spells doom for Jessica if this tribe goes to tribal council again. Unfortunately, the boys found out about her prior connection with Moth. The only thing Jessica could have done was to distance herself from Moth at the beginning of the game, but that seemed unlikely since people were inactive with her. I hope Jessica is able to survive until a swap because it would be devastating to see her go so early.

Moth: There is nothing Moth did that landed them here. It was just an unfortunate circumstance wherein they are targeted because of a prior connection. Additionally, I doubt Moth is going to see this coming.

S.E.E.S.

Colin: With an advantage in his hands and him being the most popular bachelor on his tribe, Colin is quick to make allies and his allies like it that way. It feels as if everyone wants to ally with Colin. His activity in the earlier stages of the game have definitely born fruit.

Elle: Similar to Colin, everyone wants to work with Elle. Her social game is just that strong. Nothing much else to say besides what I said before, but the challenge definitely helped raise Elle’s standings in the tribe.

Anastasia: Similar to last round. Nothing much to say.

Jay: He is keeping out of the spotlight which is good.

Babs: No developments. Still viewed in the same way though has noticeably been less unhinged in the tribe chat.

Jennifer: Still the same as last time: seemingly inactive and might be targeted for it.

[ikkanrana]

So I'm confused, I thought you adopted the cat who hid under your bed a lot, or were you just fostering him for a while?

we were set on adopting him and took him in as planned.

everything was shady from the start as they more or less just dumped the poor cat here and left didnt even come up to the apartment they literally waited by the car and just asked us to return the travel cage before they left… and i was like im not gonna pull him out of there never in my life (my thought was that theyd borrow us the cage to begin with and that we would return it next time we saw the contact person like some vet clinic lets you do but noooppee they wanted it back before they left and it wasnt even the contact person who left him :)) )

so no one did any background check on us or checked out how we lived or nothing i mean we could have been living in a landfill as far as they know but they just dumped him on us and we never got any veterinary journals or ID documents from the shelter who literally ignored our calls for a month begging to get his papers so we could see what his health problems were and what kind of vaccines he’s gotten etc etc

like i was scared of feeding him the acana dry food at first because the add stated that he had bad teeth that were still under treatment (which we kept asking about and CLEARLY stating that we can not sign an insurance with any company yet since dental issues arent covered by all and is EXPENSIVE as shit so we need to know exactly what is up with him to be able to sign anything obviously… but they literally ignored us for a month even tho theyve said that ~if theres everything dont hesitate to call whenever we’re here for u~ like lmao professional etc etc and it went so far i contacted them on the official site and asked for the contact person and the cats papers because we were worried obviously that he was in any sort of pain because of the “oh he’s still under treatment” they left us with

so we were scared to death because obviously we need to know so we dont make anything worse for the cat??? because he’s the one paying for it the the end and we were apparently his second home because the other family couldnt keep him either and i dont trust anything the shelter has told us about the previous fam tbh i think they did the same thing there and just dumped him on them

anyhow as time went by more and more strange things regarding his health popped up while the contact person avoided talking to us and only sent us a passive aggressive text when we asked if he even was castrated and why he was tattooed in the ear and not chipped (which is standard nowadays) and also that he had begin to scratch himself A LOT and pee indoors and that we STILL DIDNT KNOW what was going on with his teeth which is… you know…. sorta super important (i fed him ground beef now and then both for his stomach and for his mouths sake but he did eat the dry feed normally without any spills or half chewed pieces so he didnt seem to be unable to eat but thats just MY observations still have no vet documents or nothing)

and she just texted that she hadnt got the papers from the previous home yet and blah blah blah and he was indeed castrated and vaccinated and blah blah blah she basically got angry cause we doubted her (mind you this is over a month after he arrived and they havent checked up on him or even attempted to contact us back)then she told us some of his teeth had been pulled because he had been ran over (which were news to us) and that the treatment he had been under was for a potential skin disease and we were like??????????????????????? what the fuck do you mean skin disease he’s been here for a month and since day one i was worried because he was scratching himself a lot and very intensely and was losing a lotof fur and now you might have dropped a mange ridden cat on us without saying anything and then she stopped answering for another two weeks and the itching stopped as he got to clean himself more and he looked a lot healthier after starting on the good feed we got him but he was still peeing A LOT and he kept peeing everywhere in the apartment…. we kept asking for papers but nothing showed up still and i was worried something was off with his kidneys or urinary track but we got no answers so here we were with a potentially mange carrying cat with five teeth peeing indoors.

when they finally texted us back (because she told us that she “couldnt answer and prefered texts” because she had been “sick” etc etc and she literally told marina she wouldnt answer if i called cause i had been pestering her for a month asking questions she didnt wanna answer so she was like ~uhm sweaty i wont answer if its a number i dont have in my contacts~) it turned out that it wasnt the cat but the son in the previous family who got some sort of skin disease that was potentially able to spread to cats (???????) and the only two i could find was mange and ringworm which is like????????? what the fuck you just DUMPED him here and didnt say a word and also it turned out he had been peeing everywhere in the last home too and thats one of the reasons they couldnt keep him because they had kids and apparently he was stress-peeing everywhere

so basically nothing in the add or what the contact person had told us beforehand was true and they more or less just abandoned him here without any form of vet documentations or ID and without any research on us or our situation and whent afk and ignored us for almost two months just basically hoping we’d stop calling them and just let them leave the cat here without any repercussions

last week i got home and there was blood everywhere and he had been pooping nothing but water more or less and i immediately called marina who contacted this lina girl from the shelter… long (very long passive aggressive) story short she basically told me i was rude for saying that i didnt feel alright at all sitting at home without any means to travel with a sick cat peeing pools of blood and without anything to do to help him because she insisted he would come back after the vet check-up (which had to wait until HOURS later even tho i explained that he was literally peeing fucking clean blood and he needed immediate help) and that they then would start looking for a new place for him because they didnt have any places over or anyone standing in line to take him in and we were sooo rudeee for assuming and, quote: “no one is really standing in line for a sick cat that pees indoors” and i went NO, WE DIDNT DO THAT EITHER BUT HERE WE ARE and she just switched subject and told me i’d get this “emergency number” to call during the night if something were to happen and someone would come pick him up and i was like lmAoooo as if as fucking if no one will do that shes just trying to make her part of this easier again

and i was like i dont think he even should come back anyhow i think he should stay under vet care at least over night if not more because this is really serious and also if this is stress related we would do him no favour at all coming BACK here then getting put in a car AGAIN and travel back and forth and back and forth but she didnt seem to care tbh she just called us inconsiderate basically and that we couldnt just dump him on them like this in an hour and just expect them to deal with housing him etc…. so basically we were heartless abusers with no consideration for the animals wellbeing 👌👌👌

she didnt even believe that he was peeing blood she was like “oh well as i said you’ll get an emergency number to call if theres anything… which you use if hes SICK and not just, you know, peeing on the floor.” and it just made me angry and i told her that yeah no i think i get that without and explanation thank you im the one cleaning up the blood and she just laughed nervously and told me when they would come get him (which then turned out to be an hour later anyhow :))) )

and he was beyond scared when they arrived to pick him up and for the first time i saw this lina girl in person and she was just…. weird…. i ended up aiding a terrified cat in to the travel cage myself because all they did was scare him to a point where he completely soiled himself all over and peed more blood because they couldnt seem to bribe him in to the cage. and afterwards she just laughed and was like “well that was fast! last time it took 45 mins!!”……. im like????………. whats wrong with you.

and she promised to call me the next day since i was the one at home and my roomie was away at the moment but of course she didnt and LUCKILY for the poor cat the vet hadnt wanted him to go either and kept him over night. and the next day i told my roomie that we just can not take him back again we just cant it would do the cat a disservice and it would start all over again and they would block us or something and just leave him to his destiny here it wouldnt be good for anyone involved except lina who didnt wanna do her part of the work… she tried to guilt trip my roomie in to taking him back in so i took over and just straight up told her that no, we can not so it and it wouldnt serve the cat in a positive way at all to be tossed back and forth over and over ESPECIALLY not since he was diagnosed with stress related FIC and this happened despite living in a calm silent apartment where he got so comfortable he could sleep and relax on the kitchen chair and eat veterinary recommended food and live in a clean nice environment as an only cat…. like he had a really good life here the months he stayed.. and she kept insisting that it was OUR FAULT that he had gotten these symptoms and yet she just wanted him to go back here because she didnt know where else to put him sorta…..

i would never in my fucking life let an animal back in to a home i suspect would abuse or treat it bad like…?????? but yeah she then tried to pitch me and marina against each other (like we didnt talk to each other??? what the fuck did she think) and tried to guilt us in to taking him and despite me seeing screenshots of what marina had written she tried to lie about what had been said and what not so i just told her nope we’re not at home we can not agree to take him back again mostly for the cats best interest it wont do him any good the end and then she started threatening us sorta and i didnt answer anymore and now theyve shared his post four times on fb and still no one wants to take him in (despite them lying and embellishing in the add :)))))) )

So Super Long Story Short kattjouren can suck my ass and being a no-kill shelter doesnt mean you can keep the animals alive at all cost, if you have an old street cat with two teeth left and stress and anxiety related FIC that pees blood and scratches himself raw maybe its not a worthy life for him and maybe its better to let him move on.

but apparently we have no consideration for the animals health and wellbeing and are just terrible animal abusers who asks her to do her job 👌

[ibolyafagyi]

i feel like despite all my efforts (basically just saying i dont wanna be this way) i still am just desperately preoccupied with being cool and seeming cool and feeling cool.

i thought that after high school i would immediately just switch to be my authentic self™ unrestrained by the perception of my classmates that was basically just what i thought they thought of me and being afraid to be any other way. a week and a half in a new environment in and i feel like im already caging myself back in an unassuming role with one person by my side whos comfortably close enough that i dont wanna initiate contact with others but uncomfortably just far enough that i feel like im not working hard enough at this people thing. besides im constantly thinking abt others perception of me, offline and online, wanting to seem cool and i just dont wanna do it, but i still do and i just wanna admit it that i am Desperate for this arbitrary thing thats maybe a human thing to want but i think its going to my detriment, and admitting it is also part of giving up a cool exterior i wanted to uphold for a long time. i wanna be effortless and good at everything, i want people to marvel at me, i want to be good and admirable.

its also a part of my still ongoing crisis abt what to do with my life and how to be a "good and functioning human". i didnt get accepted into uni n it didnt make sense w my inner fantasy, it doesnt make sense for me to not be special (when i was small it was unfathomable to me that i wouldnt be a singer on tv when i grow up like idk how i was just convinced fate would make it happen bc im bound to be the absolute best lol). i got over it fast at first and set up a plan of gap year n working bc im bound for greatness anyway but things turned out differently n now im in a state financed course which is a genre i previously deemed not good enough for me n im having a o)-) time reconciliating all this with myself. i tell myself and i tweet that i wanna be loving, i wanna just focus on things i love doing, but my mind is still on these things, on my own self involvedness, on why am i hurting, why am i stressed. i tell myself its time to exercice some humility but it doesnt really work if i dont at least address this at first. my expectations, mainly for myself, my appearance, my art, honestly tbh just about most things about me? my expectations ruin a lot of things for me altho theyve been motivators too. i could link this to a lot of things probably, my ed and my art and stuff but its way too broad to think through and im already lost trying to find meaning in this

i wanna be patient with myself. i also wanna make lots of drawings and i desperately wanna be accepted into uni to the point i might get rlly unstable abt all this. i know i would beat myself up for not being great at everything, for setting up goals for my art and not meeting them. i know it would turn out that way. and i dont really know how to exercise this patience exactly. i know ive been trying. but its also that im doing lots of brain work picking myself apart and not really getting to put it into practical use, not knowing how. i wanna stop setting expectations for myself but im afraid of letting go of goals and ambition bc without them it feels like i would just stall and productivity anxiety etc... especially w being in art school, what im doing for my own love and amusement, for my ambition, and for academic purposes, it gets really mushy and i have a hard time making sense of it...like what do i really like doing? am i just doing this to trick myself into working on my art and academia? its hard. fuckin expectations man

[haeroniel-doliet]

i need more money to buy little art

honestly tho feeling like for that ideal goal existence i’ll try get to someday, i’ll needa be making proper money comfortable and good so i can spend all i like on society 6 and other to buy shirts and bags and just everything to a house all in different art prints (mostly florals) bc just those pictures are  like everything i want but just so expensive. i’m trying to sum down like 10 to stickers, bc i wanna do up my laptop, but dedicating to a single decal (thats like 25 ON SALE) is too much esp since i love so much. so ive kinda decided to get a hard cover for the laptop just in case i break it, and just in case i do break my laptop that i can keep the stickers on the hard case and dont lose them to replaced parts. idk seems smart. ill probs buy a kinda shady cover off of ebay for 5 or 6 pound and then spend 20 on stickers for it :] since theyre on sale till 8 am today and its 3 am im probs just gonna settle and order them. might order cover tomorrow w my dad bc i need trust assurance. hes not all on board on the stickers so im just gonna go for it. theyre gonna be like my post cards. i buy so many every place. and no. not trashy postcards. i want art. i have so many postcards of paintings in galleries and so many from comic con art valleys (guess who wants to get so much more and 100% will) i love original art the most when its pretty to me and like everyone who sees it. simples okay but i prefer soft and detailed. excited now i can go to con and also be looking for stickers bc maybe ill get a few cool ones that wont cost me as much as the society 6 ones do. and then my laptop can replicate my walls, displaying all the art ive loved that ive been able to take with me (bc theres so much i obviously dont have on my walls) anyway im looking at these and making some small bc i suddenly realise this laptops got realestate. and the saddest thing w stickers (literally why i had one of those waxy paged sticker books as a child) is that i cant dedicate stickers to a single spot. its so much dedication. what if i buy a bigger sticker and it wont fit? what if i get the perfect sticker for that spot and it wont fit? (over lap i guess) how can i be sure i put them in the right spots to start with? augh i dont really wanna cover just half of it and obviously leave space bc that puts pressure on finding stickers and i might get ones i dont love. i cant get sick of any one bc itll be there  (joy of having multiple mean theres less getting sick of anything). anyway i think im happy w the sizes of these 10 stickers and can work w them (also for now i think im just gonna be going around the edges and leaving the apple logo as it is, esp bc it glows and theres already this shitty old smiley face sticker from my old psych teacher and i kinda dont wanna get rid of it, i just wanna add things around it so it doesnt look so: clean (actually dirty) laptop that a child marked as their own) 

anyway society 6 has random discounts all the time which is p rad and maybe the day im ready to invest in my own living space and dont feel obliged to check w my parents about just about any purchase, i’ll then subscribe to something thatll tell me what discount is on. that in mind, i think i’ll only get the 9 now, that hopefully wont cost too much, and leave a bunch in my wishlist, bc there’ll be another discount (this is 20% off everything)  and maybe that’ll be like 50% off stickers and boy then when my collection is underway you bet ill go for it. and like maxx sticks on their sketch book, if i dedicate to a new book maybe ill get more for that and have a pretty thing to keep and reminisce over (tho knowing me, ill not use it much bc i have a need for pretty things to stay perfect and presentable, and i have a need for everything that i might show to others to be like near perfect otherwise its sucks and ill feel bad bc i dont wanna show it off to people. like my art book, sure i couldve made it all experimental and crap and then edited the real pages together on the computer. but no. i needed everypage to be presentable and pretty and handwritten and creative. and they must go page after page, its so awkward showing someone something and then going “oh wait now these few are empty sorry yeah heres the next page” so i baasically have  a book with mhmmm 20-26 pages of beautiful spreads that im quite proud of inside beautiful covers ( i knew id want to be presenting it for years to come) and the back pages are just...empty. and theyll probably stay that way bc i no longer have projects to be doing to fill them with. maybe one day ill grow into myself and grow out the fear of ruining what ive achieved and fill some with new projects to please myself and be an indepenednt artist not just a teacher pleaser. you know its like that with my work too, like it has to have a direction and a plan that will be achieved, and its terribly frustrating when that vision doesnt happen. but i think thats the same with everyone. 

anyway on a side note, dont you guys think its so fun and cool how ive not done my post labs that were due last friday? how every night ends up being 3-4 am until i go... mhmmmm yeah i guess nothing is happening. like i hope id bloom and do work at that 11pm-3am window and then i get here, suddenly having lost all track and sense of time and just sigh. its wasted, its basically tuesday already. have to keep telling myself dates bc it moves so weird. i planned on getting shit done two days ago. here we are regardless. and the most ill get done is get those stickers ordered bc that is i guess what ive been half focused on for mhmmm5 hrs. then ill save my 7 dollars or whatever, have stickers on the way, tomorrow order the case and thats one insignificant thing done. then the question will be have i looked at summer jobs? no of course not ive looked at ballet courses. shush. i havent showered for days bc theyve just slipped by too laying in bed, maybe tomorrow ill take a shower and pick up all the trash and tissues on the ground. maybe i will. i know i wont get real work done tonight, and already ill be sleepy till 1 pm and by then mom will be again on me abt sleeping to latesoo... yeah no point. and here i thought id make a quick totes relatable short post about how i need more money to buy stickers and maybe a brief my ideal life is to have enough money to spend on art being in every part of my life and all this  being unique so people love coming to my house and go wow its so original and cool. and that turned into a word vent thats so far taken me over half an hour. hi my batterys dying. 

lng story short, i’ll order the stickers currently in my basket after so much though, suck it up and do it and know that i have a bunch over in my wishlist for that next maybe even better sale when it happens. the only thing is im taking all the rest as transparent which for sure dulls them down (yeah white background looks sick but for some its just more classy w transparent, then theres this one bear i’m 100% naming wojtek thats in white bc i feel it’ll be best for him, and i guess having him in white will set that theres no clear rules to follow and worst case if it doesnt fit he can come chill on the keyboard side next to my mouse pad thing) honestly i cant tell if i should be getting them all in white and just hope that theyll look gorgeous no matter what. yikes 3 dollar shipping for stickers, ok itll actually be 19.62 pound and using euro card 22.50 in  euros.... am i dumb? maybe. and tho im supposed to be saving money up so i have some, i also did get birthday money sorta recently soo... birthday gift from them. first set of stickers. deep breaths ok. my parents told me when i bugged them that i just have to make a decision and not ask them all the time, and he said to get 3 stickers i told him id pick 12 so i think getting 9 is reasonable. also oh shit realising that the delivery time is 1-3 weeks and im staying here only 1 and a half more so i should really order it to scotland even tho it might get ther ebefore i do bc my parents might not rly want to send them up to me. idk ok order to scotland, thank f at least one of my flat mates is staying and tbh i should really bring her some chocolate... shes done me faavours. 

[survivordivergent]

EPISODE 5 - “THAT’S SHADY AS FUCK RIGHT THERE” - DANI

Okay but is this tribe gonna have a Kura Kura lovefest "oh my god group movie night, who wants to watch cycle six of ANTM and stay up all night braiding each other's hair" type of holiday break, or a Harimau "two weeks is a good amount of time to dig the trenches and put down tape to mark your side of the beach" type of holiday break?

*singing* Dreidel dreidel dreidel, I made it out of clay, and when it's dry and ready, my dreidel I will play *singing ends* Happy Hanukkah!!

It's been two weeks. I can't remember my family. I'm in the woods somewhere. All is lost.

Hey hey! Happy 2017! I feel like I haven't talked to you guys since last year! (chuckle)  hehehe. Okay so coming back into the game after a 2 week break is..... slow going tbh. We have two people that haven't even logged in since the last challenge. I've talked with my alliance of Jill, Melissa, and Kyle, and Lake a little, but Will, Otto, and Riley are MIA. I mean, this is only reward (which I know is a huge deal because of these crazy idols we are searching for) but at the same time, it's not like they are missing immunity. Hopefully everyone turns up for that. Anyway, there's not much more to comment on right now, but once things pick back up, I'll be back! Also, shout out to Jenn From, for just being awesome.

WHAT ISNT GOING ON?

Oh wait, literally everyone. So Dani approached me asking for an alliance a few days ago w me and ed and geo and I'm like, okay f4 but I DONT TRUST THE BITCH. Bye

So yeah I guess it's been a while since I've written one of these.

Let me start this confessional off with a quick cheat sheet of all the new names we gave our tribe right before the break so that you have a little idea of who I'm talking about through this entire message. I am Daniela, as you have already guessed. Ed = Eduardo Percy = Perez Payton = Perla Geo = Gregory Peter = Pedro Lucy = Lupe

As it stands, there are seven of us remaining, and I believe (? could be wrong because according to Perla, I was kicked out of the alliance) there is an alliance of four with Eduardo, Perla, Greg, and Lupe. Like I said, I was apart of that alliance, but now my position is kind of undetermined because Perla wanted to be mad at me over literally nothing and tell me that I'm no longer a part of the alliance.

Now I'm on the bottom. Wonderful. It's clear as day that I'm going to be the next one to go because Perla has made it evident that she does not under any circumstance want to vote off Pedro because she apparently thinks he's more reliable than Perez was at the time. When we voted out the last person (idr who it was), I suggested the idea of getting Pedro out at the very next tribal council, but she said it was a bad idea because she thinks she can use him a little bit longer, or something to that effect. Honestly it's been so long, I don't even know what to say anymore.

On top of all of this, I came to the conclusion that Perla was coming after ME instead of Perez. It makes complete sense though because I did attack her with false receipts saying she was coming for me anyways, so I get it and I'm just going to pray for the best that we avoid tribal council for at least another round. Not to mention, I came into the knowledge through Perla herself that she and Eduardo have a secret final two alliance... the same thing that Eduardo promised to me. That's shady as fuck right there, so now I have a whole other aspect of the game completely up in the air right now, because I thought he would be totally loyal to me after we exchanged our identities to one another.

Truthfully, I want to mutiny to the other tribe. I still have my idol, so over on that side I would be safe at one more tribal council if it comes to that. I've pissed off some of the Four tribe members already though so I don't know if they would be as welcoming as I hope.

Let's say that we lose immunity and we have to go back to tribal council again. If I have the idol and I am convinced I am going unanimously, I have one shot to take at either Perla or Eduardo. I know that they're the biggest threats going forward, but I don't know if Eduardo is as visible of a threat as Perla. However, she's got a ton of people wrapped around her little finger and that's super intimidating, too. Then there's Lupe, who is a complete wildcard as far as everyone else goes, so I'm intimidated by that, too. I could literally flip the game whichever way I want.

The best option I have is to convince Perez to vote either Perla or Eduardo, and I vote the other. At worst, the votes would tie and we revote and likely Perla ends up leaving the game; OR Eduardo actually as the Erudite idol like he was searching for. If he plays it, she goes home but if she also has that immunity... Rip Pedro or Perez, unfortunately. I think if I make Perla feel uncomfortable enough, she might panic and drama ensues. I'm going to go along with them and let them "control" the vote; if they easily all agree on getting rid of Pedro or Perez, then I make a move. I could slip information to Greg, see if he runs back to Perla about me possibly flipping the votes, or I could just say nothing and hope they all dig my grave for me and I have the only vote that counts. That's so tricky though and extremely risky, so I'm not sure that's the best plan for me going forward... I have options, I really do.

Whew, sorry this confessional is so long, but I'm not finished yet. Something that weighs on my mind a lot now is the pressure to suddenly keep identities a secret. I didn't really intend on playing the game the way that I have so far and I feel really terrible for running around, trying to figure out everyone in the game. I didn't apply with that intention and I honestly didn't think that I would center the beginning of my strategy around discovering identities. But that's how Perla wants to play the game, and that was a very big part of my strategy with aligning myself to Eduardo. Now he knows who I am, so now he's going to use that all against me. I didn't even realize that until just now... He's the only one who knows the truth, and he might plan out blindsiding me around that. He knows how smart I can be sometimes, so now I'm actually REALLY WORRIED. If anything, this definitely taught me my lesson, and I'm sorry for being a bad son and ruining the twist for this season :(

I have so much more to say but I'm sure the viewers are like... "stop talking", so I will. I hope tomorrow we win reward so I can get my hands on that Dauntless idol, too, and really shake things up for this game. I wanna prove to everyone why you don't mess with Daniela Quinn ;)

okay so i've gotten really lazy with this game, as could be seen by the confessionals that i have been doing. there's no more title to them anymore! i feel really bad and i want to give the hosts an apology.

its been really tough, these people havent been trying to talk to me or anything. its been like that from the beginning, i know communication is a twoway street but not a single soul is trying to talk to me. i bet whoever peter and percy are want to try and get me out if we go to tribal, i hope that the alliance im in sticks together because i have been doing good in none creative type of challenges, like the music mashup or the hot pursuit or the typing thing, i think theyve noticed

that could make them see me as a challenge threat down the line but i feel like its the only thing keeping me here, come a swap or merge i really want to pick things up for me because ive doing terribly, for some  reason theres just something holding me back, if i want to win i have to start playing and socializing more with people, but that comes swap or merge so if we lose immunity and i leave its my fault

sorry Jenn and Jenna!!

What did I just do?  I shared the first 5 dauntless clues with the tribe because I had no idea what it was asking me but after reading it again I felt like you had to ask publicly for the idol.

I go back and look at the tribe chat and Jill has done just that. At least if it worked or even if it didn't it puts a target on their back and not mine.

We will see

OK SO LIKE. WE LOST REWARD. W/E. BUT LUCY IS ON MY HIT LIST? BYE BITCH.

I am YELLING about these idols. First hearing that embodying the faction values is how you receive the idol, I assumed that the Dauntless idol would be something risky. Just straight up asking for it in the tribe chat got me that idol and I am SHOOK. It was so obvious from clue 2 and definitely clue 3. I can't tell if the other tribe that got the clues just didn't want to take the risk or if they really just couldn't figure it out(?)

I will say if Lake did not put that in the tribe chat idk if I would have done that if I got the Dauntless clues. Maybe Lake thought that was what you are supposed to do for the idol and they didn't get it quite right. Or maybe they were just baiting the tribe, I am not sure but I am thankful for it. I am DEFINITELY going to have a target on my back for having an idol but hopefully Eliza can get the intel if I am going to be blindsided so I may not be in too much trouble.

Speaking of Eliza, she is my home-girl. I can't WAIT to see who she really is at the end because it will be interesting to see who I have been really working with. Whenever there is a double tribal I always plan early and think about the vote before immunity even happens. I decided to definitely bring it up to Eliza because we were talking and she got into it as well. I am ALWAYS so nervous to do it because I get afraid that everyone will think I am going too hard and turn on me. BUT me and Eliza started hardcore strategizing. We both really like our alliance with Melissa and Kyle, and we want this vote to be the right person because it sets the course for how the rest of the game goes. We have gotten to the point where tribe strength isn't the biggest factor and strategy is most important. We just gotta riddle out who the best person to take out is. My vote is for Riley. They are always busy, but are also always around enough to let us know they are busy. It makes me think they will use that to skate by being inactive and not a huge presence when they are really just sleeping until merge to link up with old tribe mates. That is my theory. And people like Otto and Will who are actually pretty inactive would seem to be the obvious targets, as Lake had recently mentioned to me, and we can take them out whenever. Riley in my opinion could be the biggest risk to keep. But gotta see what other people think and who wins immunity before we solidify that plan

...and we're back!

It's taken me a few days to get back into the swing of things, but I'm tackling things in earnest right now. The downside to a two-week break in the game is that it really hinders a lot of fledgling relationships (which is pretty much all we have, as aliases.) The only one that I feel hasn't taken a single step back is Payton. We started talking and it was like we hadn't stopped at all.

Danielle and Peter have both reached out to say hi since the break, which is awesome. It seemed like nobody really went out of their way to be super social pre-break, so I'm hoping this marks a turning point in the game. I've also said hey to Lucy and plan on dropping messages to Percy and Geo later. With the advent of a double tribal coming up, that makes it so much more crucial to be in good with people.

I think getting in with Payton can only be a good thing. She seems especially social and has the kind of attitude that people gravitate toward. As long as she's valuing our alliance as strongly as I am, I don't think I have MUCH to fear on this upcoming vote.

What's next? Swap? Merge? More tribe-play? I'd like to get an idol but, if I'm being honest, I suspect the Erudite idol is long gone by now. I'm still frustratingly stuck on that one clue, but I think it's enough to leave me in the dust. Still, I've come this far down the road that I may as well see it through to the end. Better to know there's no idol hidden anymore and that it's in play than it is to change horses mid-stream and lose even the remote possibility of getting either one.

Frankly, I'll be glad to be off this tribe whenever it comes. I like the people well enough, but when you're getting results in the 7- and 8-minute range, that's pretty weak. I thought my score of 4:12 wasn't awesome, so double that is like... what??? how?

Anyway, I'm slightly encouraged that Will didn't submit. Though we shared a tribe in the early game, I still feel infinitely closer to Kyle. If Will goes through this double, maybe Kyle would try to reel me in as his former Amity buddy. And if that's the case... I don't know. I'd consider it. I don't feel any affinity toward anyone on this tribe except Danielle and Payton. And those two don't see eye to eye, so do I want to hitch a ride on a sinking ship?

OKay so, picking back up where we left off. We win reward which is great. Then there is a mad dash for the idol clues. I ask for Erudite again, but I should have waited until I talked with one of my Allies, so we could ask for passwords and hints if we needed it. Out of nowhere, Lake decides to post all the Dauntless idol clues in the tribe chat, and pretty much, you just need to publicly ask for the idol and then you get it. Jill stepped up and she got the clue and I'm yelling. She told me about it, and said she decided she wasn't going to tell Melissa. I dont know if she told Kyle, because me, Jill and Kyle are in an alliance that doesn't include Melissa... but Melissa knows about the alliance so... ehh its all messy. I'm in 3 different alliances with the same people, but different combinations, its crazy! ANYWAY. Jill comes to me and says that because of this stuff with the Dauntless idol, she thinks the Abnegation idol might work similar. I guess the clue for that one says that like, "I can't get the idol for myself, I have to be selfless." She said she went to her host chat and said, "I want Eliza to have the Abnegation idol." Which, first of all, Jenna is a genius and if that's how it works, then amazing. A+. I'll gladly take it. But it's been several hours since then and I haven't heard anything from the hosts. But to be honest, I'm not really worried about having an idol right now... because at the SAME TIME Jill is telling me all of this, Lake messages me and says he thinks the same thing about the Abnegation idol, and told the hosts to give it to me. I'm yelling, two people are wanting to give me idols. I know where on of the 5 idols are, and I still have my core alliance. I feel like I'm doing okay in this game. I feel like I'm liked well enough that, come a swap or a merge, people from Four will want to stick with me.

Jill and I were talking about what we want to do with a possible merge coming. We both agree that we want to stick with out core alliance of us, Melissa, and Kyle. I told her I really dont want to link back up with Payton (who I still really think is Jaiden). I don't trust her after she made Six lose all their points in that one immunity challenge. And Peter was so inactive on Candor, I don't see him being as useful to me. We got to talking about what to do should we go to tribal again, and Jill brings up a good point that Riley needs to leave. She's only here enough to barely help with the challenges, and Jill feels like Riley has the most potential to link back up with her old tribe mates. She's also strong in challenges, and if we get to a merge with her, she might be too hard to beat. It would be better for us to keep people who are inactive and we can vote them out later. Since this challenge is individual, we just gotta hope that Riley doesnt win immunity, and then we can talk to Melissa and Kyle about it. Guess we will wait and see what happens.

Okay, so I have a little bit of a master plan in mind. Obviously this really depends on whether I get immunity or not, because most of this plan was developed around the idea that I will win it. It's all going to depend on how lucky I get today, but here's the idea I've come up with.

I win immunity. I know that Eduardo and Perla are never going to vote out Pedro, simply because Perla has Pedro on lock. If Ed/Perla are as close a final two as I suspect, they'll share that opinion. The goal for now is to convince them that I'm solid with voting off Pedro so they never suspect anything is coming, but also so they get Pedro pissed off at me. Gregory needs to also be okay with the plan, but not be the one pushing for the vote to go that way, because he will be vulnerable in this stage of the vote's preparation.

Then, I go to Perla and Ed with receipts of Gregory trying to get rid of both of them. This raises their paranoia, but since these conversations happened last night and most of this afternoon, I can convince them that this was only his suggestion if Pedro/Perez won immunity.

I am going to inform Gregory of this "deception", while also cluing him into the Abnegation Idol, which then starts the second half of part two. Gregory will then go to Perla (because she's got the highest rate of tea-spilling thus far) and figure out that I was letting them know about his future plans, to which he apologizes to both of them and acts like he's going to get voted out. He'll run around and throw my name under the bus hardcore and cause as much drama behind the scenes as possible, while keeping me "in the dark" about all of the deception. Mostly, he runs to Perez, Pedro, and Lupe about all of this, because Ed and Perla would immediately report this back to me, and I would have to know I'm in some sense of danger. I do not want this.

Gregory will throw me under the bus to Pedro for trying to vote him out, he'll say that I wanted Perez next, and Lupe right after that. Meanwhile, Ed and Perla still hold a little bit of trust in me for leaking the information. They might consider keeping me around after all of this blows over, but for now, they're sold on getting rid of Gregory at this tribal council. I need to figure out how to get Perez mutually on my side as well as Ed/Perla's side, because I don't want them choosing to vote together and getting rid of Perez instead of Pedro while also keeping the alliance intact, because that would be a literally fatal error in the whole scenario.

Part three starts... right before tribal council. As in, maybe four hours before. I publicly announce that I'm giving individual immunity to Gregory because I felt bad about letting everyone know of his plans, and that I found out that it hurt him. We apologize to each other, but obviously he pretends to be "in shock" about the entire ordeal. However, he still guns to get rid of me. Perla and Ed, annoyed that I gave up immunity, then turn on me and are set on voting me out this round. Lupe, Perez, and Pedro also go along with this plan, and then... I play my idol on myself :) Part four.

Obviously, there are some factors that could cause this entire thing to not even work, especially if I don't win immunity. If Gregory wins immunity, I could still throw him under the bus and let him try to advocate for my elimination, and then still play the idol for myself. If neither of us win, I'll think of something at that moment and make sure everything goes according to plan.

I'm also trying to get the possibility of people flushing idols. If I root against Pedro, then there is a chance that when I play my idol, he plays his on himself. If this is the case, then Ed/Perla might play a possible idol on Perla, too. Again, this all changes how effective my move is, because if the randomly immune person is Ed (aka the target of all of this), we lose at every scenario we encounter. I guess in a revote with Pedro, Ed, Perla, me, Gregory all being immune, there could be an attempted flip against Lupe and she'll get eliminated instead.

I want to talk to Perez right before tribal and convince him to vote for Perla "with me", too. If all else fails and Ed becomes immune by some stroke of luck, she will have his sole vote to be eliminated, which also prevents anyone else from having their thrown vote counted.

There are so many damn variables to this tribal council, but I want to make it count. I wasn't born in Dauntless for a reason.

Later

SOOO I just won individual immunity. Never in a fucking million years would I have ever expected that and I actually jumped around on the bed when I saw results. At first I was thinking about the other Danielle that got voted out but then I was like...wait....you actually won something and I SCREAMED

How INTERESTING was it that Ed placed me up high on his list, too. I think I'm going to use that to my advantage though, try to milk the fact that Ed would never betray me, that Perla and I are so tight, etc etc and use it to guilt Gregory into believing that they are actually going to blindside me. Whether or not that is actually true is still up for determination, but the fact still matters THAT I WON SOMETHING.

We went from like, 14 to 13 and now Will's out of the game. Awesome news for me because that's one less hurdle to cross next round, and I think I need to start stirring the pot as much as I can in the next couple hours before everyone resorts to bedtime. Whether or not I was anyone's target is completely up in the air now, but I'm going to make sure everyone has a reason to vote me off when I give up that immunity.

Ed is still my target. He should be going home tomorrow, but of course crazier things have happened (arguably in different games but you get my point giujdsdijs).

My alias is going to go out the window tonight. This is Hurricane Jaiden's game to play.

So for the second time in my survivor career (and it's not many games) I have had immunity taken away from me.

For the second time I've seen the results, celebrated, logged off, logged back on and seen corrected results.

I know it probably won't make a difference but I was really happy to have won.  Now I have to stress and am no longer gonna try and make a move.

I made a formal alliance with Eliza and Kyle and I guess we will probably vote off Otto or Riley.

Bye for now. Thanks for noticing me.

SO MUCH FOR IMMUNITY.

But don't count me out, folks ;)

[7:31:07 PM] ♥daniiela♥: okay good news and bad news [7:31:17 PM] ♥daniiela♥: which one first [7:31:18 PM] Gregory Barajas: Neither i had payton after you [7:31:22 PM] Gregory Barajas: Bad [7:31:35 PM] ♥daniiela♥: tell the hosts lol [7:31:47 PM] ♥daniiela♥: okay so, bad news is neither of us have immunity obviously [7:31:52 PM] ♥daniiela♥: and i don't know if i can give you the idol now [7:31:55 PM] ♥daniiela♥: but good news [7:32:04 PM] ♥daniiela♥: I dont want to vote off geo right now. I don't think thats a good idea [7:32:11 PM] ♥daniiela♥: so perla clearly wants me out [7:32:20 PM] ♥daniiela♥: I'm playing the idol regardless [7:32:23 PM] ♥daniiela♥: but you can flip this all on me [7:32:35 PM] ♥daniiela♥: call ME out, screenshot our convos, everything. expose me to her later on [7:32:49 PM] ♥daniiela♥: and i'll play it on myself, still the same as before [7:33:27 PM] Gregory Barajas: Okay, so now i call you out and expose you so they vote for you [7:33:32 PM] ♥daniiela♥: not right now [7:33:34 PM] ♥daniiela♥: but soon [7:33:40 PM] Gregory Barajas: Ik, tomorrow [7:34:16 PM] ♥daniiela♥: ed and i were considering lucy? [7:34:18 PM] ♥daniiela♥: expose this l8r [7:34:31 PM] Gregory Barajas: Really thats weird [7:34:49 PM] ♥daniiela♥: [7:33:47 PM] ♥daniiela♥: ok [7:33:58 PM] Perla Rodriguez: it better not leave this :) or i will switch my vote to u u binch :) [7:34:07 PM | Removed 7:34:30 PM] Perla Rodriguez: This message has been removed. [7:34:28 PM] ♥daniiela♥: omg really? [7:34:54 PM] ♥daniiela♥: that's when she said she was considering lucy [7:35:05 PM] ♥daniiela♥: thats perfect ammunition [7:35:15 PM] ♥daniiela♥: we could even flip lucy to vote perla [7:35:23 PM] ♥daniiela♥: instead of perez or pedro [7:35:53 PM] Gregory Barajas: Omg thats fucking great information [7:36:01 PM] ♥daniiela♥: it is [7:36:05 PM] ♥daniiela♥: but no one can know about the idol [7:36:13 PM] Gregory Barajas: Ed or yours? [7:36:22 PM] ♥daniiela♥: either [7:36:37 PM] Gregory Barajas: Okayits a secret

A N Y W A Y S

Based on the challenge I'm assuming that a lot of attention is probably on myself and Riley to be potential targets...

I feel like this challenge can LOWKEY reveal who's working together and who's being targeted.

I'M ASSUMING Eliza is probably in one of the slightly more "powerful" positions on this tribe and therefore her list can be seen as "reliable" in terms of who's being targeted and who she's working with. Since she had Riley last, I feel like it's safe to assume that Riley could potentially be her target (UNLESS I'm her target and she only placed me a couple of slots higher to be less obvious). She also put Lake second to last, probably because she's working with him and in turn knows that she could rely on his list having me (a possible target) low/last on his list.

So, that all leads me to believe that at the very least Eliza and Lake are together, and I'm a very likely target.

ALSO, Lake is so... wild for posting on the Dauntless clues in the chat... just for Jill to get the idol like. ??? Chill perhaps? What was the point?

SO UMMMMMMMM I really do not know what to do! If people tell me to vote for Riley then I'll probably go along with that but like... I guess I'd need to talk things through with Jill or something because she's actually been trying to talk to me unlike... everyone else! If I could sort of pick and choose who I want to leave then? I'd target Lake but I definitely am not in any kind of position on this tribe to like... swing the vote in any sort of direction.

Whateverrrrrrrr

eyerolls into oblivion tag yourself im will's math abilities

I'm probably going home this round? I really don't think I trust Dani or Geo. But hey, Divergent, it's been lit! I feel like my game has been the best it's ever been, and if I go home, I'm happy with this. I mean I'll be pissed because someone flipped, but I'm happy with this.

Lucy? Voting me out? Iconic! Bye bitch. You're gonna go.

Fuck the lyin bitch lucy

[2017-01-05 12:18:16 PM] Peter Jacobson: [1/5/17, 11:16:47 AM] Peter Jacobson: This message has been removed. [1/5/17, 11:17:38 AM] Perla Rodriguez: Okay. I was worried about that. [1/5/17, 11:17:50 AM] Peter Jacobson: Sorry, I had to delete it [1/5/17, 11:17:55 AM] Perla Rodriguez: It's okay [1/5/17, 11:18:00 AM] Peter Jacobson: I don't want you to go, and I don't trust Lucy at all [2017-01-05 12:22:32 PM] Peter Jacobson: [1/5/17, 11:21:57 AM] Peter Jacobson: Have you been talking to Logan? [1/5/17, 11:22:19 AM] Ed Creegan: Logan?

I fucked up

I fixed it

If Lucy goes tonight, I did that.

Peter DID THAT! ™