#but mental health says stardew only rn

[lilypixels]

Hiya!!! Do u think u might convert some fangs for infant to go with your bat wings? Would love to have a lil one fanged winged vampire baby or something 🤣 even so, i love your wings!!!! They’re so cute :)

God knows I wanted to, and do try, but teeth are a whole new territory and I have not dared to attempt again (and have help while doing so) 🥲 cause for real that is all I want, and I’d give my life to anyone who might do this too

Glad you like the wings tho!! I’ve been oof from work and stuff but hoping to start on some other stuff soon it’ll all probably be hoarded till simblrween however

[lucy-the-demon]

The one thing i hate about the Stardew valley fandom is how a lot of people demonize mental health issues. Like, Being somebody with clinical depression, PTSD and autism it really upsets me when people are mean about Shane and Kent.

They treat Hailey like she's the perfect woman because she's mean then Treat Shane like the scum of the earth for being mean as well.

I have a caffine addiction, and while it's not as horrible as having an alcohol addiction it's still an addiction that im trying to overcome and i have depression as well. So seeing people treat Shane like that, plus calling him a liar when he's not 100% happy and sober all the time it really upsets me to see how he's treated, and i don't like him because I want to fix him, its just nice to see depression portrayed so realistically and to feel represented in media and i just want to be there for him. I can relate to him, and when people insult him and treat him like the bad guy for being mean and depressed and not 100% sober i feel like im doing something wrong and I'm a bad person for having depression and anxiety

And i have PTSD over very different things then kent, but I understand things that trigger memories to events, if I see the person who mistreated me in life or if somebody mentions middle school I get really upset and will go on a rant about it, when I get so upset I get angry im brought back to those horrible memories, and I understand why hes stressed over something that seems minimal to others And people are mean about him too, hes not a bad person he's just got PTSD and he doesn't know how to handle it. I feel bad for him when the community is mean to him over that cutscene.

and these are fictional characters it makes me scared how they would treat a real human being with similar issues, like me. I joke about if you hate these characters you should hate me too but like, it really pisses me off how this community treats mental illnesses And being somebody with these issues i really just want to spread awareness on how i personally feel when people say horrible things about these clearly mentally ill characters that have issues that real people have

Mental illness isn't black and white y'know, and if you think it is i think you might wanna get your eyes checked because you might just be completely colorblind, or blind in general. the actual mental toll it puts on real people to be represented by characters who's mental illnesses are portrayed very realistically only to be treated poorly by uneducated fans of the series/game/movie/ etc. It's very heartbreaking to me personally..

I just want fans of Stardew to be more mindful of characters like shane and Kent because there are real people like them that have the same issues as them. You don't have to like them just understand that real people have been through the same things they have and be respectful of that. i mean I don't like Harvey but I am respectful of people with anxiety, I have anxiety too. I think everyone does at this point.. but i would never undermine his anxiety or say he's a horrible person Because he's anxious that's a disgusting thing to imply and it should be the same way with characters like shane and Kent but it's not that way

The double standard with shane and hailey is an argument that may just involve sexism but that's an entirely different argument that i don't wanna get into rn, but just know, you don't necessarily have to be a nice person to be a good person, and vise versa.

Tldr: you guys need to stop saying Shane and kent are bad people for having mental illnesses, it's really gross and insulting to those with mental illnesses

[seijch]

ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

[yesthatdana]

About meeee

Tagged by @razzybean ! ; v; thank!!

Rules: answer 20 questions and tag 20 people you want to know better.

1. Nickname: As a kid my friends called me Dani (Day-nee) sometimes. My name is so short I never really had nicknames but nowadays I go by either Dana, Ru, or Dani (Danny) lol. My online handle was often Cheyanne in games so I got called 'Chey' a lot.

2. Zodiac Sign: I am a Pisces and a Horse! I just realized that makes me a Kelpie. WELP..,,

3. Hogwarts House: I think the app put me in Hufflepuff? Which is fair. I always wanted to be in Ravenclaw tho.

4. Height: 5'3"! I have always wished I was shorter tho

5. Last thing I googled: Mushroom floor stardew valley. I've been playing it recently

6. Favorite Musicians: Idk names of singers or bands. I don't tend to have favorites either. I guess one off the top of my head that I've never disliked the music of is Shoji Meguro

7. Song stuck in my head: Our different paths, a Mo Dao Zu Shi song

8. Followers: 257ish (I block all the bots I see but I might've missed some)

9. Following: 555 8)) I did not realize I followed so many people

10. Do you get asks: Nah. It is once in like 100 blue moons if I do.

11. Amount of Sleep: Ahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahafhfhls okay so I usually get between 5 and 7, but I would ideally like maybe closer to 9? I am tired regardless but I am REALLY not a morning person.

12. Lucky Number: I actually have a few! 1, 2, 3, and 10. I prefer evens to odds but my bday is 3/10 so.

13. What are you wearing: Whoops I'm in my relax at home clothes, so a really huge mountain dew t-shirt and black leggings w socks ofc (I'm cold rn man)

14. Dream Job: Being paid to improve my mental health? :( Tbh I don't have a dream job... Anything that doesn't involve talking to lots of people, including by email or phone, and pays enough for me to enjoy life would be nice.

15. Instruments: I learned to play the flute and piano as a kid but haven't played since. I suck at reading sheet music orz

16. Languages: Really only English in any way that matters. I can understand a ridiculous amount of Japanese by ear from all the subbed anime I have watched, I took a quarter of Spanish in high school, and I am learning a bit of French rn.

17. Favorite song: Can't say I have one. I hyper focus on songs kind of one at a time, then they go into the pile of "songs I like" for shuffle listening later.

18. Random Fact: I can ride a unicycle, which I learned to rise before a bike. My elementary gym teacher brought in his own unicycles for kids to use during recess and classes, I was on the school's unicycle team 😎

19. Aesthetic: Oh boy. I am all over the place. I personally like being really bright and cute and layers, but I also love punk and chains and stuff. Neon is awesome with black, and I love really light and flowy. Haha. I can't afford to nor have the energy to dress all these ways but I would like to.

20. Dream Trip: Well I wish I could stay at my family's childhood summer vacation house on a cliffside of an island... But they sold the house so it really is only a dream. Tbh I don't really like to travel so it's staycations or to a bunch of theme parks. I love roller coasters~

[shadowsunflowers]

Thanks for the tag @minervas-sandwich

Formatting this was so hard lmao so sorry if the order is f'ed up or if some questions are missing

What do you prefer being called name wise?

Your best bet is to go with Lea tbh.

When is your birthday?

I'm a pisces!

Where do you live?

Germany

Three things you're doing right now?

Watching korra, eating lasagna and this

Four fandoms that have piqued your interest?

Avatar the last Airbender, supernatural, doctor who and stardew valley

How has the pandemic been treating you?

It didn't affect me that much tbh. We're not leaving the house much anyway. It has put stress on us though, because let's face it: a pandemic isn't easy to deal with mentally. But we don't have anything to complain about though. We're kinda lucky I guess.

A song you can't stop listening to right now?

It's a German song but I love it

Rest meines Lebens - KUMMER ft. Max Raabe

Translated it means "rest of my life". And it tackles the feeling of depression as you grow older and how it's slowly getting "too late to die young" but it ends on a positive note, leaving hope that maybe getting old isn't so bad after all.

How old are you?

22

Biggest pet peeves?

-being mean for no reason

-littering

-yelling to try and win an argument

-yelling in general

-I'm sure there's more but in general JUST DON'T BE AN ASSHAT and we'll probably get along nicely

School, university, occupation, other?

Currently in school to become a curative educater or special ed teacher (I don't think there's an exact translation of the job title)

Are you shy?

Yes but also no. Life as a system ya know? ^^

Pronouns?

If you wanna talk about us as a system they/them plural (lmao I put singular in before which is false)

And then it just gets complicated.

Probably just ask who you're talking to?

What is your favorite "dere" type?

Uhh I had to Google and then I took a quiz what dere type I am and it said tsundere.

I watched a couple of popular animes like the studio ghibli movies and sword art online and Elfenlied (Google the English name yourself please I'm not up for that rn lmao) but tbh I'm not a big anime nerd. I enjoy watching some of them but I am in no way informed about it

Rate your life from one to ten. 1=crappy, 10=best it could be

I guess a 5 or 6? We're struggling with our mental health a lot but if we put that aside we're pretty fortunate.

What's your main blog?

This one

List your side blogs and what they're for?

All right lmao

@leaspoems

As it says it's for my poems but be careful because there could be some triggering themes in there. I tried to trigger warn in the tags but I'm not very good at it I think.

@snowfallsystem

Our DID themed blog where we sometimes write posts about it ourselves or just reblog mental health related stuff. It's only active in phases tbh

Is there something people should know before become friends with you?

-well we're a system so that's noteworthy lmao

-be kind

-if we don't text back for a while we probably forgot or are in a depression hole

-if you're racist, sexist, a terf, ableist or any other discriminatory thing please just stay away if you don't want to talk aboutwhy what you're thinking /saying /doing is wrong

-also to any of my followers or people who stumble over my blog or posts of mine : PLEASE TELL ME NICELY WHEN SOMETHING I'VE SAID OR REBLOGGED IS DISCRIMINATORY IN ANY WAY. We want to grow and be as inclusive as possible and that's only possible through nice discourse.

I got tagged to do this by @terudai, tysm dude you rock! <3

Rules: answer the questions and tag people you’d like to get to know better.

What do you prefer to be called name-wise? Tim, but some of my friends call me Timmy or Weedle and I like those too :3

When is your birthday?: March 7th!

Where do you live?: The UK (unfortunately)

Three things you’re doing right now: Listening to a Doctor Who audio drama, eating chocolate I got for Christmas and messing about on the internet

Four fandoms that have piqued your interest: Doctor Who (obviously), Steven Universe (also obviously), Bee & Puppycat and even if I’ve been much more on-and-off with it this year I’m definitely still into South Park

How has the pandemic been treating you?: Not the worst in some ways bc my parents have been able to put me up and financially support me, but I’ve only been able to find work for pretty brief periods, I can’t reallly move out and I really, really miss getting to see my friends and go to cons and stuff. So like, financially not too bad but psychologically pretty bad :(

A song you can’t stop listening too right now: Stripsearch by Faith No More

How old are you: 23, gonna be 24 in March and god I feel old whenever I remember that

School, university, occupation, other: Well I kinda have a job- I’ve been doing freelance writing, and I’ve started helping run the social media and produce resources for a charity. I really hope once Covid finally blows over I can go and get a job that involves interacting with people irl again though

Are you shy?: It kinda depends how comfortable I am around someone, if I know someone well rarely ever but if not (or if I’m worried I upset them) I clam up big time

Pronouns: They/them

Biggest pet peeves: I guess the main one that really gets to me is people being condescending about people who like stuff they don’t. You’re not an inherently better person because you don’t like Hamilton or whatever mate

What is your favourite ‘dere’ type?: I literally had to look up what they all are and ig I’ll go with nyandere cause cats are neat :p (I did have a big Mirai Nikki phase but honestly it was in spite of Yuno always trying to kill Yukki iirc, so I can’t really say yandere)

Rate your life from 1 to 10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be: Like the corona thing I’m gonna divide this into financially and psychologically- financially I’d say about a 7, psychologically more like a 3

What’s your main blog: this one! I don’t really do side blogs lol

List your side blogs and what they’re for: like I said I only have a main

Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends?: Well the obvious one is if I do anything that makes you uncomfortable, please tell me so I don’t keep doing it. Don’t try and shittalk things I like to me or tell me I shouldn’t like them, or my opinion of you will go into freefall. And since I like a lot of stuff that’s kinda Problematic ™, I’d appreciate if you ask me not to talk about or reference things you don’t like to you if it makes you uncomfortable so we can focus on stuff we both like talking about instead, I don’t mind at all!

I tag @thepaledivinebear @reesecomic13 @pablothefrog @ness-marsh @minervas-sandwich @ninjacupcake @bi-lars and anyone else who wants to do this! c:

[advancewars2]

Was tagged by @alkalinerock for a 50 questions thing. These take long as fuck on mobile so I likely went to bed after making this

1. What takes up too much of your time? Not doing health things or active hobbies like learning to draw or music

2. What makes your day better? Any of the above things getting done.

3. What is the best thing that happened to you today? Just hung out with a couple buds, watched anime and some DC movies

4. What fictional place would you like to go? Gonna be real, most fictional places don’t seem too fun when you think about them for more than a minute. Although I guess a village in like stardew valley or animal crossing would be chill even though I’m not huge into those games.

5. Are you good at giving advice? I want to think I am for how much I talk but I have never seen my advice followed or have someone say it worked. I would honestly prefer no one followed my advice.

6. Do you have a mental illness? Don’t know if adhd counts but I got it. I have been off meds for it for years now and can function good in school and work it’s just getting a handle on focusing my free time that is my latest challenge. I really want to get in better shape and manage proper hobbies but it so much easier to get caught in idle watching or scrolling.

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? Yes! No demons though

8. What musician inspires you the most? He’s not one of my favorites but I think Childish Gambino. I remember watching his sketches when I was in middle school and he was just on YouTube and then seeing him grow through every medium that I loved into a fully realized artist and actor.

9. Have you ever fallen in love? Negative

10. What’s your dream date? Something that’s just fun for me and the specific person I’m with. Like some people have museum energy, late talk energy, night on the town energy etc. depends

11. What do others notice about you? It may seem weird but a compliment I’ve gotten often is that I smell nice which is reassuring and worrying cause my smell is the thing I’m the most self conscious about. My sense of smell is abysmal, I’ve been in sports and band for most of my life, and I work in a meat room so I have a lot of chances to smell rank as hell.

12. What’s an annoying habit you have? When we kept bottled water around I chewed the plastic caps. I’ve always chewed ice but at least that melts.

13. Do you still talk to your first love? Where she at?

14. How many exes do you have? 0

15. How many songs are in your playlist? I don’t really have a single playlist. Just a bunch of albums but Spotify says like 2000 + songs which I’m sure isn’t accurate cause I remove stuff

16. What instruments can you play? Just trumpet and I don’t feel like I’ve applied myself enough in the time I’ve had it.

17. What do you have the most pictures of? My pets I think

18. Where would you like to go before you die? I don’t really know

19. What’s your zodiac? Virgo

20. Do you relate to it? I don’t think anyone can. They’re so broad in their definition and scope that I’ve read so many things about them that I say “yeah that’s me” until I realize “literally everyone would want to say this about themselves”. We are the most biased in our own favor when we least expect and the scary part is when we are trying to be unbiased we are cruel to ourselves.

21. What is happiness to you? A web of support

22. Are you going through anything right now? Just trying to graduate and general 20 something anxieties

23. What’s the worst decision you’ve ever made? The problem here is I am pretty far beyond a lot of my decisions that I would call bad that changing them now would alter a lot of good things about myself and my life. Regret is not a feeling that stays with me for long unless I hurt someone.

24. What’s your favorite store? Movie and record stores

25. What’s your opinion on abortion? Choice

26. Do you keep a bucket list? Not really

27. Do you have a favorite album? Madvillainy

28. What do you want for your birthday? My friends to come to the cookout I’m having and me being willing to cook for it

29. What are people’s first impressions of you? I don’t have a way of knowing this. Most people’s only first impressions of anyone are “this is just a person” or “I don’t like them”

30. What age do you seem according to most? Older than I am by like 2 years but I still get carded???

31. Where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? Floor

32. What word do you say the most? Not a clue

33. What’s the oldest age you would date? 30. I’ll say older ages but I don’t think anything meaningful would come from a gap that big

34. What’s the youngest you would date? My age or older.

35. What job or career would you say suits you the most? A thing that bothers me the most is that I’ve done a good job at most jobs I’ve had and would honestly just want something that’ll keep me busy during the day and focus me while also allowing me to live comfortably.

36. What’s your favorite music genre? I feel like I’ve barely scratched the surface of so many of them

37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? Idk. Whole worlds kind of nutty and not knowing a native language scares me (fuck right off England I’m not going). I think I’m fine here.

38. What is your current favorite song? Jesus forgive me, I am a Thot by JPEGMAFIA

39. How long have you had this blog? Like 6 years

40. What are you excited for? To make progress toward getting career ready and really starting my adult life. Wanna try new stuff

41. Are you a better talker or listener? I try to listen but I always worry I’m stepping on peoples talking points or circling the convo back to me so I’ll say I’m a better talker.

42. What was the last productive thing you did? Put gas in my car

43. What do you want for Christmas? My bills paid and maybe a record or a nice hoodie

44. What class do you get the best grades in? After middle school I kind of just slipped into maintaining a steady pace of average in every subject.

45. On a scale of 1-10 how are you feeling rn? 8

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years? Maybe living in a new city. Definitely doing something in my field. Maybe I would’ve gotten bold enough to try and really break into entertainment.

47. When did you get your first heartbreak? Have not experienced that yet

48. What age do you want to get married? No clue. I really don’t like formalities and I would hope whoever I end up with feels the same.

49. What career did you want to have as a child? Marine biologist

50. What do you crave right now? Just organic conversation with friends. I’m going back to school soon and some are already moving away for grad school and life.

This was fun. Don’t wanna tag anyone cause this a long but you can say I tagged you and maybe I’ll read yours!