#but it's so scary and so unbearable

[atlasisntdead]

I would give literally anything to not fear conflict. It's the kind of fear that can make you feel so trapped and genuinely mess up your ability to manage less then ideal parts of close relationships. Having close relationships with avpd feels like russian roulette- either you get lucky and the person ends up being safe, or... they aren't, and boom, you're trapped. And it's a fear of what feels like life and death. How do you even overcome that? Once I'm in a close relationship that is in any way 'unsafe' for my brain, that's it. I can't even leave the way a lot of people do, nor confront them and resolve the issue. I have to just hope they will be better eventually about whatever topic or behavior. And if they're not, well, tough luck.

[napping-sapphic]

I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

[rattini]

[lovelaceisntdead]

OKAY I'm supposed to be getting my haircut on monday but I'm thinking. I skip it.

[izzyspussy]

like literally every time anya talks about money she is 100000% quoting economics magazine or whatever. and it's not like she didn't fucking hear xander's verse in the musical about being insecure that he'll never make enough money for her, that number wasn't like "standing" where buffy was having a montage during and therefore wasn't cognizant of it. this conflict is just so fucking stupid. they know they need to talk. they know what they need to talk about. they have reassuring answers to give to each other that they don't even have to work for. the song brought the topic up for them. anya could have lived or at least got a worthy death if only joss whedon would've gone to marriage counseling.

[rawliverandgoronspice]

oh no I stopped working for five minutes and remembered I love he...................... ;;

[here-there-were-dragons]

as a general rule, on average, if americans consistently complain about a food being conceptually weird, gross, and scary, then it probably tastes amazing. or at least inoffensive.

this is because in my experience americans for the most part (give or take a few exceptions by region) think eating literally anything other than beef, chicken, bread, eggs, peanut butter jelly sandwitches, ketchup, and disgusting cloyingly artificial brown sludge soda is insurmountably weird, gross, and scary.

[cheekblush]

great i just did my skincare and now i’m crying again

[impossible-rat-babies]

idk if I still don’t understand it even after getting it to lvl 100, but pld still sucks ass to play

[girlivealwaysbean]

on one hand completely ignoring your emotions is soo good for my mental stability and productivity but man i miss staring at the ceiling and listening to sad songs on loop

[akc-g]

everything going exceptionally weird lately. got lsuch low bloog sugar i lost my vision for like 20 minutes n when it came back i was unable to orocess anything i could see n was struggling to think for another hr n i still feel really wrird. lost sensation in my arms for a bit too (they were numb n then tight i felt it in my hands n then all the way up my shoulders) n took a nap n it helped but still scary to experience n that that can just happen just bc i wasnt paying attention to what i was eating. fell asleep watching needle park while my vision was still on the buffer n woke up. fell asleep again to scarecrow n dda. i think im a person again

[aria0fgold]

I sometimes miss school for the experience and also just wondering how it'd go now with this version of me but then I start thinking bout the schoolwork and teachers and just frown like: Yeaaahh... nah.

[kkujo]

last night i had a mix of tinnitus and sleep deprivation induced auditory hallucinations which was basically just like. literal microphone feedback. and i think it was triggered by me testing my microphone yesterday bc the feedback was awful but yeah i was lying awake and all i could hear was extremely loud microphone feedback in my brain i'm so glad it's over 😭

[themetalvirus]

(watches radio drama version of the AM hate monologue) ha ha eggy sonic

[heartbeetz]

Trying to find an apartment with a friend and a job in the area we wanna move to but it's so so so hard. I have no money for that. And no work experience or credit. But I've been told I need to either start paying my father rent to keep staying here at his place (again, no money or job + he's really not the kind of person you wanna be stuck living with), or get kicked out in potentially a matter of weeks. Scary and stressful...

[caffeinatedopossum]

I don't know if this is dissociation or something else but it feels unbearable actually