#but after thats done theyll be back in the store

[mayakern]

we have SO few pics of customers in the farfalle tops so the moment zoe tunnell / @ blankzilla on twitter posted this pic i HAD to ask if i could post it to other places!! i just think she looks SO cute in this top

[brella-boi]

Making Dango: Part 13

Were getting into the nitty gritty now.

We gonna start with the antennae. I was brainstorming how to do these for quite a while.

My friend suggested using something as an anchor for the antennae, so they dont just sag, and that was a brilliant idea. I got plenty of chichago screws in my order, so lets use those.

Stuff three pipe cleaners in there and braid them. Stick magnets on the underside, stick magnets to the head, and theyll easily stick on now.

Originally I was going to have 2 pairs, but the placement of the first was impossible the way I did the first scale... I should've lowered the placement of the first crest scale, because I wasnt able to fit the magnets before it. So I settled for one pair of antennae, right after the first scale. This shouldnt be plenty. Theyre technically posable too.

Sew the fabric on them in one big tube with a stuffed end, and DAMN

Next step, the eyes.

Stupid as I am, I only measured one side of the cut foam to fit the eye, and just assumed the other side would do. As you can see thats not the case.

I had to heavily cut the eye dome to fit it inz and even then there were spaces i just had to fill with hot glue.

I just about managed to have enough 'clear' glue stick, because our store ran out of clear ones and from then on I had to use glitter ones.

The inside has black foam covers, and also painted with black acrylic paint to conceal the glue.

And here they are!!

Though... the vision is not great.

The way you do dome eyes is you have to stick clear plastic onto the back of the mesh so that no condensation gets inside the dome and fogs up your eye sight. I used lamination sheets for that. And that was not the best choice. My vision went from great to quite bad real quick. There's glare inside as well, but thats unavoidable with the eyes being placed the way they are. Light peeks into one eye and glares onto the other fron the inside.

I later went back and tore off the lamination plastic, then glued on a different kind of plastic sheet. And the vision got at least 30% better. The googly eye dome itself is just not the best plastic itself, but it is what it is.

The eyes are done now, and they look quite good from the outside :)

Next, sewed up the neck, yippee

And last foe todays update, one ear.

I sewed it up through pain and tears and glued it onto the foam. The foam that I cut to size to only stick onto the grey part while the long fur has jiggle physics. Put some pipe cleaners on the end too to keep the fluffy bit upright. And i...

I dont like it

Like at all.

Look at how it bundles up on the back... how crinkly it is on the front... it definitely needs a small trim but i... i still don't know how to fix this

Im gonna put this off until I can get a second opinion from a friend

Also happy to hear suggestions on this

[sajaffery]

4...

i miss my old laptop. bastard collapesed on me six months ago and i’m stuck using my dads piece of shit. i keep putting off going to the apple store (yes it was a mac. i wasnt always a cheap broke, starving writer[make that pretend writer as i havent actually been published anywhere]) because i’m terrified that theyll tell me that there’s nothing that can be done and i’ll just have to buy a new one. as if i have grand to throw away! oh and something about sweat shop and kids being paid 1p an hour etc etc. lets not forget that! ok im going to cheat and read back on what i was writing before my fucking laptop froze because i’m blanking and that seemed fairly intresting, sorry. not like you care anyway its not like you had to pay for this. always remember something else is only a click away. im wrting this for me not for you. yes I lie aswell. i thought i should let that in evetually, fairly early, of coures i’m writing for you. its why all writers write, to feel worthwhile, to feel substantial and influential. and to get laid ofcourse. define me, define me, love me, love me! thats from friends by the way, no cliched literary refernce today just shitty tv references. OH SHITTY TV. thats what i was talking about, how i use shitty tv as a dont do guide for my writing. i didnt have to cheeat after all. or maybe i did and i’m just an unreliable narrator. hehehehehe you’ll never know. wow i need to stop watching bad tv. i should cancel Netflix. its got so much shit on it. i know seven pounds a month isnt much but still, more then half of thee stuff there is crap and i really dont like how they moniter peoples watching habits to make more crap tv because lets face it most people watch crap tv. oh you know its true, dont call me an elitist, fucking shit like coronation street and eastenders have been running for years and making millions and its just crap. I’d like someone to find me a fucking square with four or five streets ofshooting from it with as many fires, rapes, murders, kidnappings and robberies and i’ll withdraw this post altogether. i’ll leave tumblr even. i’d bitch about corrie except i dont know anything about it, yes yes i used to watch eastenders, get over it, everyoe goes through that phase and that shit is addictive. i’m getting tired. and i need to find more hastags. what the hell is spilled ink? it sounds cool at first, but if you think too much about it, it starts feeling a little silly. oh unless its like one of those ink blots, the kind that shrinks use in bad TV, fuck i’m starting to reapeat myself, which means i should stop wrting this, i’m done for the day. i miss word count. hahaha that came from the heart. if its like an ink blot then its pretty cool. thats essentially what this is i suppose. and ink blot giving anyone reading it a glimpse into me. okay i’ve added it. i’m tempted to add inblot aswell but then i dont want to run the joke too much. i wish i could remember what theyre called. i know it starts with an R. there an o a c and ch in there too. Roch something. i hate it when that happens

[fuck-customers]

Posting on behalf of my wife who works at one of the dollar stores. Excuse the rambling tone to this, I have a habit of overexplaining.

A bit of backstory thats kind of vital to why this took such a toll on my wife: At the beginning of the year, her SM was out for three months with shoulder surgery. During that time, the DM was so horrible to her and refused to find them consistent coverage. My wife is a keyholder, but cant move up due to not driving. So she tries her best to work with the little bit of coverage she does have, but it nearly drove her to quit several times. She stuck through it because she respects her SM so much. During all of this, my wife missed several important events from important dates with me to her own brother's wedding, all because she was the only one able to cover her store and she didnt have much of a backbone to stand up to anyone.

A new ASM (M) has been hired recently and the SM (S) has shown to have heavy trust in them despite M consistently getting bad surveys and actually losing money in their deposit (not theft, they just cant count for shit apparently). So my wife and her coworker have been wary of this but putting up with it because if S wants to fuck up their store, so be it.

Now to today's story.

She went in at 1:15 and around 6, when her associate N is supposed to get there, she finds out the N quit the night before. They just told the manager J they were working with that they wouldnt be coming in again. Wife called N and they explained that they quit. So my wife calls J and asks if this did happen, did they tell S and she asks them if they can come in. J cant come in and also didnt tell S. Wife calls S, who is scheduled off, strangely enough since they usually work Saturdays. S BLOWS UP ON HER. Starts yelling about how thats on N to tell them they quit, not J. My wife is on the register by herself, ringing up a long line of customers. Shes exhausted physically and emotionally, but shes managing not to cry. She tells S that she knows thats not on J, but since they didnt tell them, she wanted S to be aware at the very least and see if they can help her find some coverage. S continues to berate her and asks her all accusingly why she didnt call M, the ASM. My wife doesnt understand until S explains theyre on vacation, out of town until Monday. They never told anyone this, except M. So my wife starts crying because now she was expected to know something she was never told, shes being yelled at, customers are piling up, and she just wants to get someone to her store so she can take her break. Shes been there for 5 hours by herself by now and she needs to sit and eat. She ultimately hangs up on S, sick of the berating, and calls M, who comes in to cover the shift. S spewed some script in their group chat about everyone stepping up to cover it and how theyre going to hire the best associates they can as soon as they get back. They never once make a move to apologise for making my wife cry, ehich they very likely heard when they were talking on the phone.

This was the ultimate eye opener for my wife. Her backbone has grown spikes and shes done. Shes covering one shift tomorrow because M has a family emergency, but after this, no dropping everything to cover for anyone. Shes looking to get a job elsewhere already. All respect for S is gone at this point. Shes half tempted to not even give a two weeks notice. My wife has a coworker she adores who stuck through the same shit while S was on sick leave. The two made a pact that they would stick through it, but if it got too much, they would quit together. Theyre still agreeing to that now. My wife has guaranteed that once she has a new job, shes gone, and her coworker is going too. S wants to disrespect the people who kept their store running? Well, theyll have to learn from their mistake when they lose their two keyholders on the same day.

[necros-writing-stuff]

oooooooooohh nooo thats so cute :(((( what u said abt young eden is so true omgg. they r also def the type of kid that brings stray cats n dogs 2 their home. so evrytime the orphanage carataker hears a meowing or barking inside they r like "gdi eden not AGAIN!!" but it wouldnt stop them lol. they r the type that r immune to scolding. after finishing wth being scolded theyll go back 2 do exactly what they r told not 2 do. oh n also they enjoy rough playing. so on top of being covered in dirt or mud, theyll always have bruises n scratches from getting into fights or just from falling or running around. also they have a habit of like, suddenly disappearing (maybe 2 the forest which makes them hard 2 track).

and lol ye i saw it, it made me go hmmm, a true missed opportunity. eden wouldnt let the chance pass. im manifesting a future update where we could give them oral spiderman style 🙏

a bit off topic but i was wondering if u have any ideas or hcs about eden n baileys relationship/friendship?? idk. eden being slightly aggressive n mad at u after they rescue(???) u from bailey when u miss ur payment kinda throw me off ngl. bc they dont act that way when they rescue you from remys farm or the asylum. like, wtf is going on??? idk. its a bit of head scratcher for me.

Ooooo boy Eden and Bailey's past is something I often think about.

Under a cut for sheer length

Okay so I think they are about the same age (late 20s to early 40s) and that they grew up in the orphanage together.

I think Eden was there since very young/birth, but Bailey came later.

Eden not having sole primary care takers fucked up their socialising skills and they felt more comfortable on their own (read:fear of abandonment).

Bailey I think came from a really abusive impoverished home, and thats what made them obsessed with money. They have a weird vendetta against their birth parents to be 'better' than them.

Eden had a stray dog they cared for, but one day when they were running through the forest, a wolf got at it. Hence their 'non of these would survive in the wild' line at the pet store, and their obvious interest in puppy play.

After that, Eden started to shut off even more, being aggressive with the other kids, until Bailey started hanging out with them.

Bailey was angry to be in an orphanage and could see that Eden obviously wasn't happy, so they sort of gravitated towards each other.

Bailey was also the only other kid that didn't cry when Eden hit them.

They're the only two people that know each other's birthdays, besides anyone who looks at their very real legal documents.

As they hit puberty and start growing, they get competitive. Both are rather controlling, so they make a ton of bets against each other. One of them being who can lose their virginity the fastest.

Eden is rather blunt at asking, scaring a lot of the potential partners off, while Bailey is smoother about it and of course wins the bet.

Some fellow orphans start going missing, making everyone uneasy.

This is also when they start noticing the rampant sexual assualt in town, travelling as two most of the time so they can fight people off easier, if needs be.

Terrible at school. Eden was great at English, decent at history, but good luck making them show up half of the time. Eden had a talent for art, however, particularly carvings.

Bailey was there to socialise and steal lunch money, but they had okay grades.

If this is set in England, they would have gone to a secondary school with a sixth form. This means ages 11-18 as students, and I hc that when they were in year 7 (1st year of secondary) Leighton was in sixth form (years 12 and 13). They did not get along for the brief time they would meet in the halls.

I also think Eden would have dropped out in year 11, at age 16, and probably had an apprenticeship with a woodworking company (explains making the coat rack and love seat).

Bailey starts getting into more and more criminal activities, dragging Eden into them too, until a local crime boss notices them. The boss takes Bailey under their wing, thinking Eden won't be right for the job.

Instead they ask Eden to get a job at the police station and help them get further footholds there, that's how Eden has all of those collars (inspired by that one anon), and possibly their rifle. Alternatively, Eden leaves for the military and comes back later.

It works, and they end up covering a lot of their tracks. It's probably around this point that Landry does a few smaller jobs around the place and starts hearing about the Boss' new protégé.

They both have money now, for the first time in there lives, and this is when their differences start to show.

Bailey wants more and more, where as Eden wants to be comfortable.

Bailey fits into the mobster life fairly easily, but instead of the drugs that a lot of the others peddle, Bailey specialises in extortion and blackmail.

They slowly end up getting quite a few powerful figures under their control, and when the boss dies and Bailey ends up in charge of the money? They buy the orphanage.

I think Bailey might have cared for the orphans at one point, in their own ways, but their greed got the better of them.

Working under the mob and the corrupt police has Eden start to hate and fear the town. The only place they felt safer was the forest - which was full of deadly animals. But Eden could protect themselves now.

Being tall and muscular means that Eden is often sent to intimidate or even physically hurt people, often times getting hurt as well. Not to mention when arresting people, some are rather adverse to going to jail and take stabs at them.

If I go with Eden joining the military, they come home hoping to have a familiar setting calm their nerves, but it doesn't. Working for Bailey to earn money also doesn't help, one job having them break into the police station and setting fire to their files (that's another way Eden could find the collars, think of their old dog, and take them in nostalgia).

Eden cracks when they're asked to kill someone off, only to realise its a kid. That's too far.

They go to Bailey and tell them they're done. They need an out, they're fucking miserable, barely sleeping, constantly anxious, and Bailey tries to convince them to stay at first, before realising that they could lose their best friend once and for all if they force them to stay.

So they start planning together what Eden should do, and eventually come up with the cabin. Bailey has Quinn/their predecessor in their pocket by this point, so some cash and threats have some builders help make it, including running water.

When in town, Eden supplies Bailey with animal furs for custom coats. Bailey gets Eden new books, cans of food, more bullets. And if you miss your payment, Bailey eventually gifts Eden with a spouse.

Eden gets angry if they 'rescue' you from Bailey cause its a reminder of the past they try to avoid, and they take it out on you. Of the fear they had as a young orphan of disappearing, something Bailey is now enforcing on more orphans. They take it out on you because violence has always been a way they've coped.

Occasionally, maybe on one of those birthdays, they sit at the lake and drink some whiskey together. They don't talk about their feelings, they're both too stunted for that. But it's comforting knowing each other is still alive and well.

[sleevesareforlosers]

and now my headcanon questions: 1. you've probs talked about this before but in ur long term post-canon (like. snapshot of these guys as Real Adults 10+ years later ) what are vaya and vamos' average days like? 2. do u have any platonic vamos & vinyl headcanons?, and 3. do u have any val/volume/vinyl relationship headcanons? sorry those last two are so open ended I'm just thinking about them ❤️

oh!!!! okay okay okay i love these (and god. i talk so much whoops)

1. vaya ten years down the road still lives in the RadioShack (docs old station) but kind of splits nights between there and xyr girlfriend's place (blessed helen, milf, oc that @dangerdaysofficial and i share). if xes at the shack xe gets woken up by xyr cat(s) and if xes at helens they get woken up by helens kids. xe does broadcasts from the shack mostly but if theres an event happening in the zones (concert, sports game, derby, etc) then xe has a portable station in docs van and goes to them. so yeah xe mostly hangs out, does broadcasts/traffic reports when they happen (much rarer now that like. they arent at war sdkfjs), bugs val and vinyl, xe 'helps' helen in her garden by sitting around and looking pretty and spraying her with a hose when she isnt looking. vayas life postcanon is very much learning how to put down roots and be open and connected with the world around xem

vamos ten years down the road is living in the city, has like. two or three therapy appts a year bc theyve done the Real heavy lifting with like trauma/grief/codependency so now they only have to go when their SAD is acting up or like, yknow, life stresses make things tough. they i think run a like, free store yknow? and it also functions a bit as the nest did in terms of being open housing, a place for people to hang out, vamos loves people and loves helping people so living somewhere thats like, the-nest-but-not-so-destructive is really really good for them. and its very chill as well they get to sleep in and run around the city for fun and host big like. community dinners whenever they want to and ofc they go out of the zones at least once a week to visit vaya and val and vinyl. sometimes the rest of the v's (they still call themselves that but its more of an honorary thing yknow?) come in to visit but vaya is Busy still and going to the city is still kinda hard on vinyl so thats less often. which is ok! vamos does love the zones still they just went to the city to get like. therapy very soon after them n val and vinyl got back from their postcomics roadtrip and by the time theywere like. feeling stable enough to not need super frequent appts and checkups they had roots down in the city and didnt Want to leave. vamos' life postcanon is less about putting down roots and more about finding the balance between independence and community that was hard for them to get while being like. hunted for being a killjoy

2. i have a few but theyre not serious theyre just like. i like rotating them in my mind. vinyl is the only v that Actually knows how to change a lightbulb but vamos is the one that always does it bc vinyl likes to sit back and laugh while vamos climbs up on whoevers shoulders to try and fix things. vamos had been dying their hair before joining the vs ofc but vinyl was the one to suggest that they try pink. they cuddle so much!!! like vamos is already a v physically affectionate person but vinyl LOVES to curl up with them, theyll nap together on couches a lot. also as the two v's that val was most uh. lenient (? chill) with, theyll team up to tease him every now and then (moreso postcanon for obvious reasons) which sometimes looks like vamos putting on what they imagine vinyl's voice would sound like to read whatever he's written in his notebook and sometimes looks like the two of them passing notes and giggling like schoolchildren, tossing the book back and forth over vals head when he tries to grab it, etc. bastards <3 it was vinyls idea for vamos to come on the postcomics roadtrip

3. hm. not romantic hcs but friendship ones for sure!! they were the v's before vaya and vamos joined so there was i think abt two years when it was just the three of them running around, eventually moving into and kinda taking over the nest. volume and val could fight a lot and sometimes vinyl would smack a little sense into them and sometimes hed leave them to work it out but like. most of the time they Did all get along super well (crews love each other!!!) and i mean. sharing beds sharing clothes (val n volume are the same size for binders) making each other food "hey volume i stole u jewelry from the market" "oh val did you hear about the loretta show in zone three i think youd have fun, we should go" "vinyl im doing laundry do you want me to patch up your jumpsuit i know the knees are wearing through" like!!! even if they were bad at um. words and obvious shows of affection or acting like they liked each other sometimes they loved and knew each other really really well and it was obvious in the little things

[oswednesday]

so like my mom acted like she didnt bring anything from the grandparents house, but i was in her room gathering trash and i was like where are the bags she got from the house a while back? like shes gone back to using like this big ratty bag she got from a thrift store, my gut says she sold them it was two of them like, and while i was looking for these bags i found under some wallmart bags of some shirts that idk who theyre for, maybe my brother, one i kind of want to just snag and hope she forgot about getting but like these bags are like very deliberately on top of these old amazon boxes that i did notice she was gathering in her room are a few like cups and such from the gparents house so she like took them out of whatever she brought them in and like ?hid? them for some reason in amazon boxes, i could Almost wonder that theyll be gifts for me but i big time doubt that so its ??? that she went through the effort to hide them like that tho that Would explain why she launched into the whole what are you going to get me for xmas before i was even asked or even said anything about it, which like of course i want my grandparents things to be like passed down to me but my mom has succh a fixation on things that arnt like heirlooms in any way shape or form, like the thing with like the decades old cutting board thats like 20 dollars online dfgdfg or like this series of bone porcelain thats like i can find on ebay for like 12 dollars (which is what she took this time), when they have like really nice stuff thats like irreplaceable or very cost prohibited to replace, i mean she has taken some grandma art which feels like this big evil act she did like she had them all hung up in her room only until like recently when she brought one out in the living room but it was like weeks after its was like hey what should we do with this and i was like oh we should have it in the living room and she hung it in her room by her bed like gdfgdf and she has two paintings that were apart of a bigger series and its like she rotten of her to have them like i even asked for one instead of just taking it and she was like no teehee they should be together like, as if she wont like destroy it or try to sell it the moment she thinks she can get something out of it, or even leave it behind if she decides to move on a whim when im gone which like is a thing that might happen since thats what shes literally done every time ive moved out of the house she’s in, but back to the bags they probs werent worth much but still like designer bag price range cause she has like no eye for when stuff is nice and expensive and it really drives me insane that shes like this like being extra suzzy not even grabbing the nicer things (or they Were really expensive and she sold them like she did that to greatgrandmas jewlery when she got them after all the estate stuff was done with) , and she’ll act like theyre super sentimental to her like theres some of greatgrandmas like lower price dishes like 12 dollar plate kinda thing but like she hasnt grabbed like quilts or like dolls or anything so i think she just thinks she has something super valuable that she stopped her sister/late brother from getting when its like, stuff you can get at like macys

[starrysamu]

I have done away with the stupid case study and i finally got time to read the next time chappy and hehehehehehehe im shaking its all happening OH boy (also does he hit different after the new ep or is it just me? 😳) "and if you really felt like deluding yourself, you could feel the way his arm wrapped around your waist" OOF the difference a single person can make to a bed :') alsoooo if osamu owns that new store around the corner then im gonna freak outtttttt

+ (tumblr give me the longer asks challenge grr) i thought u explained her distraction rlly well, like just staring blankly at the words (can relate rip). also how dare u remind me that he would have already brought her a coffee + food >:'( they really fell back into a rhythmn quickly huh? i read "you caught the familiar whiff of powdered sugar" and i nearly cried like smells are so evocative! and thats all it takes to bring /everything/ rushing back </3

+ and also its lowkey ironic that the smell of the bakery, the thing that took him away, is the thing that she most fondly associates with him :( AND THEN you hit me with "like you were the only thing he’s needed this whole time." and ahh does regret hurt. also INFURIATINGLY "because in your head, you’d do everything right this time" like girl! u did have another chance! and u learnt a heap but u didnt follow through :') but i think theyll got it this time. hnnnn i rlly hope the get it this time

+ also lowkey thought the sister was gonna dip and leave her and osamu on a blind date lsdjfkbh. fav line was "because maybe that would mean that whatever you had with him back home would get tainted with whatever you were now" because oof. like that week only feels like just an unattainable dream? even through the fights and emotion and stress, all that is remembered is the good stuff :'))))

+ "you could relive your moments together instead of replaying them" OOF YES OK LOVE THIS WORDING and it links with "thinking about how history was undoubtedly always good at repeating itself"! Thats all shes been doing! replaying what happened instead of taking the jump to try it all again with him :') and the repetition through this section was super cool, really made it feel like a waterfall of realization happening all at once!!!!!!

+ yea so in conclusion i thought this was a v important and clever chapter and im v excited and sad for this final chapter oof. good luck writing it ;) <3

goddamnit erica and her inflammation 

the way u manage to still surprise me even after all these chapters. please i tell u this every single damn time but i don’t think i’ll ever be able to convey how grateful i am for u. u have been so so integral in me successfully writing this even when i’m low in confidence. even when i put out something that i feel iffy about, you’ve still managed to somehow highlight the parts you liked which means like ... so incredibly much to me i can’t even YOU MAKE ME ATTACHED TO THIS STORY FOR NO REASON 

the way i’m a fake fan and haven’t seen the new episode yet i’m gonna hurl i’m waiting to watch it after i finish all my quizzes and assignments for the week i can’t believe i live like this but i’ve seen clips and ss and i wanna vomit how tf does he look like that huh make it make sense

i just think senses are so much more important than . actual thoughts. idk like for me, i have a song associated with almost every aspect of my life. listening to it reminds me of either a memory, a time in my life, or a person/event. i wish i utilized something like that a lot more throughout the story because i also feel very emotional when i hear a song that reminds of a part of my life. so i’m glad someone could appreciate it because i tried to make like a recurring theme earlier, when she was crying that one night and he comes home smelling like sugar idk i think like ... it’s just something she associates with him now (rightfully so) and i think something like that is meaningful idk i’m rambling now 

yeah she’s ..... hhhh she’s frustrating. she’s really convicted in her ways sort of, or stubborn i suppose, in a lot of aspects, especially when it comes to him. she’s never really gotten the chance to prove herself or had some big “self realization” sort of thing that’s been meaningful enough for her to change her ways. i wanted to sort of use this chapter to kind of highlight that, because with the way it was going, it was evident that she didn’t really have a reason to act. i wanted to reflect like hey, if she still doesn’t take the chance after this, after realizing how much he means to her, then she’s literally a lost cause like girl even i, the writer, do not know how to help u - 

PFFFT YEAH A LOT OF PEOPLE THOUGHT THAT ABT THE SISTER. idk ... we’ll see ... 

and this was in no way a redemption for the sister i guess. she still sucks, family sucks a lot sometimes tbh, but i think i kinda wanted to show that it’s a balancing act between them (even though i made her absolutely hateable in the beginning lol). i wish i could’ve expanded on the relationship between reader and sister a bit more, but it seemed sort of frivolous in the grand scheme of things. but i will say i think reader needed some outside intervention to realize like hey ..... this is actually kind of important to you and you should do something about it. idk? 

THERE WERE SOME LINES I REALLY REALLY LIKED WRITING. frankly listening to supercut did so much good for me i made jac listen to it on repeat w me for like. two hours. she a real one for that. BUT i really liked some of the lines in here (even if i wasn’t too content with the thing as a whole .....)

thank you so so so much for thinking it was a decent installment. idk i have mixed feelings about it, but i don’t think i would’ve been able to justify the ending without it. thank you for supporting it (and me), i absolutely, truly, wholeheartedly adore you!!!

[lovenikkimadegeeky]

WHY [DEICIDE KALPA] COMING BACK AS A RECHARGE FOR THE 3RD TIME IS BAD FOR THE PLAYERS OF LOVE NIKKI

[Kalpa] is the first suit to come back as a recharge for a 3rd time. On all other servers, every recharge comes back to the {Store} and/or for crafting after 6 months.

But wait, [X] came out 6+ months ago for us and it’s not available to buy/craft? That’s because back in March LN started selling recharge suits twice. We are the only server that does this which means that we are the only server that doesn’t get the suits for buying/crafting after 6 months. [Kalpa], if we were on any other server, would have been available for buying/crafting since AUGUST.

SO WHY DOES IT MATTER THAT IT’S RETURNING FOR A THIRD TIME? If all suits can return for a third time what’s to stop it from returning for a fourth or fifth time? What’s to stop them from just never releasing it for buying/crafting? Since March we’ve only had one recharge suit come back for buying/crafting. We should have so many more recharge suits to buy/craft and instead we get [Kalpa] back as a recharge for a third time.

This is incredibly unfair for so many reasons. Why is our server, and again it’s only our server, losing the option to get these suits for free? Why aren’t we being treated as well as the other servers? Free-to-play players should be able to get these suits. (For the record, I am not f2p.) Players who can’t afford to buy every recharge should be able to get these suits. Every player on the other servers, no matter their VIP level, can get these suits eventually except us. And that’s bullshit. We deserve better.

I can’t tell you what to do but I can tell you that if [Kalpa] sells well this time and if we don’t make our voices heard about how we’re not going to stand for this, then suits will continue to come back for recharge over and over again. And they may never come back for buying/crafting. It seems like such a little thing but this could completely change the way the game works.

We can change their minds. We can make them listen to us. We’ve done it before. Check out below the read more for ideas on how to do so (apologies to app users for whom “read more” doesn’t work):

Comment on every post on LN’s fb and write a public post on their page listing why this is shitty. Comment on every instagram post. Leave a negative review on fb, google play, and/or the apple app store. Email them at cs1nikkigame@gmail.com. Bury them in a fucking deluge of messages about how we refuse to be treated so unfairly.

Put your money where your mouth is and let them know to what degree them bringing back recharges a 3rd time and not bringing them back to buy/craft will impact your spending. Please only tell them something that you’ll stick by because they need to take us seriously. Tell them that you’ll never purchase a recharge brought back for a third time. Tell them that you won’t purchase anything when a recharge is for sale a third time. Tell them that you’ll stop spending money at all if they don’t stop bringing back recharges for a third time. Choose whichever of these you’ll follow through on. Money is the #1 thing that they’ll pay attention to so make them pay attention by making it a financially bad choice for them to ignore you.

If you send them a message, some key things to keep in mind when writing it: If you do have a VIP level, make sure to mention it, so they know you've spent money on the game in the past. Specify the consequences if they don't listen to us. Let them know why you feel strongly about this; if free-to-play players are a big part of that, make sure to mention them. Remember that they’re not native English speakers and they've shown that their grasp of English isn't great. This isn't a judgement on them, rather I'm bringing this up so you'll keep that in mind; try to use simpler words and language, so that there’s less of a chance of them coming across a word or phrase that might cause confusion.

If you’re lazy or low on spoons or hate writing an emails, below I’ve pasted the email that I sent them. Make sure to change it to fit your personal play style and/or your personal opinions. Making it not look like a copy/paste would be great but I understand if that’s too much and I think a copy/paste would be better than no email at all. 

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I am VIP 6 and I will not be buying anything while Deicide Kalpa is up for recharge a third time. Any time any suit comes up for recharge a third time, I will not spend any money the entire time it is up. If you continue to bring suits back for recharge for a third time, I will stop spending money entirely.

Free to play players deserve to also get these suits and it's unfair to them to not bring recharge suits back for free the way all the other servers do. One of the reasons that I love this game as much as I do, and one of the reasons I was willing to start spending money on it, was because you gave free to play players the ability to also get recharge suits. If you're going to be unfair to free to play players, which was one of the main reasons I started spending money, I'll just stop giving you money.

All players deserve to be treated with the respect that other servers get and a recharge suit coming back a third time shows that you're not giving us that same respect, especially not your free to play players.

....... 

And, no, this is not happening because we boycotted ranking events. The Chinese server boycotted ranking events in 2015 and their recharges do not come back as a recharge for a second time and they still come to the store/crafting after 6 months. (See the comments for sources.) Let me reiterate, we are the only server that they are doing this to, including another server which also boycotted ranking events. We are being treated poorly for no reason other than they’ve decided our server, for whatever reason, doesn’t deserve the same respect other servers get. And it’s bullshit.

[straw-bana-blog]

lmao why are people getting so shitty about us getting mad??? It’s almost like they think we’re just gross horny ppl who only care we won’t get porn anymore,,, 🧐

Listen, if I want porn, you know where I go? To porn sites. I sure as fuck never look anything up here. Why? Spam, loli and shota, creepy ppl I don’t wanna interact with.

So why am I mad?

1. Because of the timing. I don’t fucking think its a coincidence that right after apple takes tumblr off the store, they fucking scramble and start deleting blogs left and right, a lot of which did nothing wrong, then turn off safe mode and clear out the nsfw tag (and other related ones) and finally ban nsfw content outright.

They have known about the cp and the fucking bots and the nazis and EVERYTHING for YEARS. I’m sorry but it’s true. They will never admit it, obviously, but they’ve been ignoring it and excusing it by saying ‘oh how could we know!! Our site is so large we can’t keep track of everything!’ Meanwhile waves of tumblr users have been making posts and reporting it to them. 

They’ve had the time to fix it, they COULD have been working on an algorithm all this time to fix it, but no. It wasn’t a concern until suddenly ppl couldn’t download their shitty app anymore (which is just. Riddled with issues of its own anyway). So they throw together an algorithm that doesn’t work, then decide to just nuke it all because it’s just easier that way.

2. It’s literally going to destory the site. I’m sorry, YOU might stay and try to cling to this garbage site because of xyz, but I’m not. You can make excuses, you can try and convince yourself that you don’t care, you’re just here for the fandom/the art/the community, whatever, but the truth is? This is the last step for me.

Tumblr has been a hellsite for years, its been a mess and its become a joke. Everybody laughs about how they don’t wanna be here and they can’t wait for it to die. But nobody leaves because tumblr seems to survive anything.

Nobody’s happy here anymore. Sure, they might be happy with the community side of things, the actual people on here, but NOBODY is happy with the site. I know its hard to please everybody these days, but pissing off everybody? Its seems impossible, but tumblr managed it! All the bugs, the lack of communication with any decision, just everything. Its not a good site.

People are going to lose income from this, possibly friends who only talk to them through tumblr and get their blogs deleted. A lot of people are just going to leave. Because yeah, maybe I don’t get my rocks off going through the nsfw tag on here, but a lot of people do, and you know what? You can make fun of them for leaving, you can call them horny and gross but at the end of the day, its going to be a lot of people. Even if they’re like me and go to other sites, for a lot of people its a big issue. They want the OPTION of seeing nsfw stuff, even if they won’t ever seek it out. They don’t want to have to worry about being censored of having their blog deleted for showing some fucking nipples. 

And when they start leaving, some of their friends will too, and more and more until eventually no one’s left! Sure, I might be wrong, it could still survive, people might not actually leave, but the core of tumblr will permanently be changed, no matter what happens after December 17th.

3. Its just further proof that Tumblr just doesn’t get it’s users. This one has been coming for a while, honestly. We all know this. We makes jokes about it. They make silly cosmetic changes and ignore the bugs, they randomly go on purges of normal accounts, but the bots seem untouched, tags that are KNOWN to be full of cp/abuse/other shitty things have just been left alone!

They think we want all these fancy new features when really we just want them to address the things that are already wrong with the site.

And now that they’ve been caught out for their biggest issue that’s been going on for so long, they’re finally fixing it. But not in a way that’s good for the site, certainly not in a way we want. It’s a lazy way, nuking all nsfw stuff so they can claim to be family friendly and hopefully get back in the store and stay in apples good books. It’s so they won’t have to make an actual algorithm and keep on top of it in the future.

No, they’ll just make another shitty algorithm that targets all nsfw, have their users report things that aren’t kid-friendly and then they’ll be good again!

Except we never wanted that, never asked that. And if they had have just listened to us in the first place, they could have gotten started fixing the issues a long, long time ago. They could have had enough time to come up with a proper solution rather than just nuking the entire fucking site.

So I think we have a right to be mad. You can make jokes all you want, but we’re pissed because we have all wanted tumblr to get better for so long. We have waited, we have tried asking them, talking to them, begging them to fix things. They don’t listen.

So for a lot of us this is just. Too far, finally. We’re done waiting for them to step up and become a better platform. They’ve proven they don’t listen, they’ve proven they don’t really care about anything except profit. So I’m mad. Because I’ve made excuses for them in the past, justified using the site because of the community aspect, but they’ve finally made it impossible for me to do that.

I’m not going to be using the site anymore. And you can make fun of me for not leaving sooner, you can stick around. I don’t really care. I’ve spent years on this site just trying to ignore all the flaws. But I’m done! I’m sick of waiting for the next bug, the next shitty decision, the next fuck up.

I’m just gonna go to other sites from now on.

So here’s my Twitter, my Ao3 and my insta is @awuum.

Edit:Oh! I also do have a discord, so if you want that then just simply ask!

[boy-with-shaking-hands]

that time and my panic

i remember, i think it was in march or april, maybe later or before, that i was groped. basically, my friend and i were hanging out at his place. while i was walking over to his neighborhood, a couple of underclassmen saw me, and i assume thought my outfit was odd or gay. it was, but thats sort of how i dress. anyways, they started asking me if i knew their friends, what my name was, if i took dick up the ass, youre getting the picture, as i walked by them. they didnt follow, at least i think, my memory is sort of hazy. once i had gotten over to their place, we talked about the past for a while before getting some food. i think it was either pizza or some organic choose your own food bar. basically, they saw us, my friend and i, both wearing gay looking clothing while walking around, and started swarming us. i kept trying to signal to my friend that the best option here was to just run or walk away. they hadnt surrounded us, per se, it was more like they had formed a crowd in front of us, like we were stage performers missing our stage. these people probably had their own things to do, i figured, so if we just walk or run away, even if they follow, theyll eventually stop and give up. my friend didnt get the hint, and started telling them to fuck off and leave us alone. the questions got weirder, my friend got distracted by someone's questions, and their group kept asking me more questions too. specifically, it was a large group of (i assume) their group's girlfriends, who were caught up in their schemes. they asked me many questions, though i can barely remember most. i think they asked my height, my friend's height, our dick sizes, our sexualities, if we were racist or sexist, something like that. i deflected pretty well, i think. basically responding with joke answers. though i kind of cant remember. when they stopped asking my friend questions, they asked me questions. my friend had walked off into the rite aid nearby to get away, but i got surrounded by their group and picked up, with a hand on my ass, and brought into the rite aid. im not really sure if that counts as groping, actually. at the very least, its probably harassment. who knows. i think it was probably an accident really. anyways, they started talking and asking questions again to us, and i think it escalated until they started throwing something at us from the other aisle. i think it was toilet paper or diapers, but i cant remember. they got kicked out after that, and we stayed back in the store for a little bit to relax. after leaving, they saw us passing by, since they were at the resteraunt next to the store, and yelled out something to us, but we ignored them. the next day, i saw them at the store next to my school, calling out to me, and i basically speedwalked to my theatre recital and tried to control my breathing, thoughts, and heartbeat for the next two hours while sitting on the ground and trying to go along with class. my friend sat next to me, which was nice. i sort of wish he had done something more, but i dont know. i wonder, if i overreacted to the whole situation. i mean, for like weeks, i was too afraid to go to the store alone during lunch time. i would basically ask a friend to go with me. i dont think we actually did see them again, though. or if we did, i couldnt tell. it seems like an extreme reaction, right? i got really shaken up by it, and i think i must have something in my head that made me already predisposed to freaking out about it. i probably had a preexisting mental problem, right? so what exactly is it, and how did it get there? anyways, over the next couple of weeks, a lot of people asked me if i was okay. i didnt know how to respond. i wish people were still concerned about me. i think after a couple weeks, people forgot. or they assumed i went to therapy or reported it to the principal. but i never did. i think what i wanted, under it all, was a hug from someone reassuring. that never happened. people moved on, probably thinking someone else comforted me. at least, thats what i think happened.

[bronzeflower]

Who The Fuck Writes A Ten-Page Rant?????

Also on ao3

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Chapter 5: Dave Is Just A Huge Flustered Mess

You were just finished updating your SBaHJ comics when you saw that your sister was pestering you.

-- tentacleTherapist [TT] began pestering turntechGodhead [TG] --

TT: Hello, Dave.

TG: whats up rose

TT: I would like to invite you to go with me on an outing to a certain clothing store.

TG: for the last time i dont want to get a suit and theres nothing you can do to make me go TG: what do i even need a suit for TG: i never go anywhere fancy enough to warrant wearing a suit TG: theyre also uncomfortable as hell TG: all itchy and scratchy and constricting and shit

TT: You only think that because you’ve only worn cheap suits. TT: And besides, I can easily convince you to come with me.

TG: bullshit TG: there is absolutely nothing you could say or do that could possibly make me go with you TG: ill chain myself to the inside of my room TG: you cant possibly break the lock even if you had ten thousand locksmiths TG: theyre all going to be like TG: miss lalonde why are you trying so fucking hard to get this guy out of his room TG: why cant you just leave him alone TG: and youll go on this spiel about how i need a suit TG: theyll be ten thousand miles away in a goddamn flash TG: knowing that suits are awful as fuck TG: so no rose TG: there couldnt possibly be even a single thing that could make me move an inch to go with you to a store to get a suit

TT: It’s a very nice store. TT: There is a plethora of clothing items to chose from there. TT: There also happens to be a cute boy who works there.

TG: … TG: … TG: … TG: how cute TG: like are we talking astronomical levels of cute TG: like one wrong move could set my heart aflame TG: or is he passing a random stranger and giving them a spare glance cute

TT: He has messy hair, small horns, and he looks like he could be able to give you the best hugs imaginable.

TG: my bloodpusher is already in hyperdrive TG: where do i sign up TG: i mean TG: nope still not going TG: i refuse TG: no matter how cute that guy sounds TG: i absolutely refuse

TT: You’ll come with me eventually. TT: No matter how much I have to wear you down.

TG: wow way to sound super creepy TG: why are you even so insistent on me going to this store anyway TG: youve never been this insistant before TG: even pulled out the cute guy thing on me TG: i bet you just made up that guy to try and get me to come

TT: I assure you that he is, in fact, as real as you and me. TT: And why I am so insistent on you going is of none of your concern.

TG: is there a cute girl who works there and youre just using me as an excuse to see her again

TT: ...

TG: holy shit TG: you really do have a crush on her TG: whats her name TG: come on rose TG: you cant avoid the question forever TG: tell me tell me tell me tell me TG: at least tell me what she looks like good god TG: okay you got me TG: if you tell me her name and what she looks like i swear that i will go with you to the store TG: ill even let you get me a suit

TT: What do you swear on?

TG: i swear on the monkey paw in my dead things collection

TT: A dangerous item to swear on. TT: I’ll accept it. TT: The contract is sealed. My blood has been used to finalize it.

TG: goddamn it rose just tell me who your crush is

TT: As if you don’t ramble on for an even lengthier amount of time than I did. TT: But I suppose I will hold my side of our deal. TT: Her name is Kanaya, and she owns the store I was speaking about. TT: She, by far, has one of the best fashion senses I have ever seen. TT: She’s intelligent and can analyze with the best of them. TT: She’s extraordinarily well-read, and the theories she has are like nothing I’ve ever heard. TT: Her horns are like daggers, her hair like silk. I could only dream of her lifting me off into the sunset. TT: Oh. TT: I seem to have gotten a little bit carried away there.

TG: holy shit rose thats probably one of the gayest things ive read in a while

TT: Yes, well, prose aside, you are now obligated to go with me to the store Kanaya owns. TT: I get to see Kanaya again, and you get a suit. TT: I’m killing two birds with one stone. TT: Not only that, but you get to meet a cute troll.

TG: clearly the only upside TG: anyway what time is this place open TG: because i would like to get this over and done with as soon as possible

TT: Good. TT: I’ll come over to pick you up in twenty minutes.

-- tentacleTherapist [TT] ceased pestering turntechGodhead [TG] --

You decide to edit one of your videos during that time, and soon you hear the ring of your doorbell.

Your get up to answer the door, and there is your sister looking more dressed up than usual.

“You’re dressed up. Trying to impress Kanaya?” You tease.

“Oh, silence. It’s not like you didn’t get dressed better than usual because I informed you that the boy working at the store was cute.”

“Okay, okay! Uncle! I admit it. I took five minutes of my time to look slightly better than normal, but at least I’m able to admit that.”

“I’m going to put the radio on.” Rose said, putting on obnoxious pop music that you both have heard a hundred times.

“If you don’t think I can easily talk over this poor excuse for good music then you have clearly underestimated my ability to ramble on for hours upon hours on end to even myself. There doesn’t even have to be anyone there. I’ll just be over here vomiting any stray thought I have out onto the ground where anyone can see it.Now I have to clean up all this fucking vomit on the floor because it's stinking up the room, and wow. I completely forgot where I was going with any of this.

“We’re here.” Rose suddenly commented.

You stared at her for a solid thirty seconds.

“You played me for a goddamn fool.” You finally say. Rose simply smirked all knowing like as the two of you got out the car.

The two of you went into the store, which, oddly enough, smelled a lot like rosemary.

The store was colorful and seemed to have nearly any article of clothing a person could want. There was also a sign that advised against licking the clothes, which reminded you of Terezi.

But, the moment your eyes wondered over to the register, your heart stopped. It stopped and then sped up to double time. You think you forgot to breathe.

You think what Rose told you wasn’t nearly enough to properly prepare you for how cute this troll was. Saying that he was astronomically cute was the most major understatement anyone could ever possibly make.

And Rose was pulling you toward him. Oh god, do you look okay? Would you even be able to talk to him? Come on, Dave. Take a deep breath. Be cool.

“Hello, Karkat.” Rose greeted.

“Hello, Miss Lalonde. What do you need?”

“Polite as ever, but you can just call me Rose. However, I did come here for more than just exchanging pleasantries. I would like to see Kanaya about getting my brother, Dave, here a suit.”

“Alright. I’ll go get her for you.” Karkat left and soon afterward an elegant looking woman came out with Karkat.

“If you’ll come with me, I can get you measured.” The woman said.

“Thank you.” Rose responded, and the two of you went to the back with Kanaya.

You can’t believe you’re being forced to get measured with your sister and Kanaya flirting up a storm. It was honestly extremely embarrassing.

At long last, you were done being measured, and you bolted out of the room after telling Rose that she could pick out whatever kind of suit she wants. This may or may not have been a good decision on your part, but you were just glad you didn’t have to see your sister make goo-goo eyes at Kanaya for another minute.

However, you were now back in the store part of the store where the cute guy was. You had no idea how to even begin interacting with him, so you decided to look through the store. To be fair, the clothes looked like they were really well made, so you ended up picking a few items that you genuinely wanted to buy.

When you began making your way to the register, you were revisited with the problem of how to talk to the cute boy there.

You were already going towards the counter, so it wasn’t like you could just go back and look through the store some more, so you resigned yourself to your death.

“Um, yeah, I’d like to buy this if you would be so kind. You know, because these clothes are actually super cool, and they seem really well made, not that I would know anything, but based on what my sister says about the store, the clothes are exactly as choice as I think they are. Clearly, they are the best clothes sold from here to the ends of the universe. That’s how fantastic they are, holy shit, you know? Oh, shit, I’m rambling a lot, aren’t I? I do that a lot, especially if I’m nervous. I swear I’m not actually nervous. You’re just really cute. Fuck. Okay, just forget I called you cute, not that you aren’t. You are extremely attractive and cute, and shit, I probably sound super creepy right now. I swear I didn’t mean to. I-”

You went quiet when he began to laugh. You just stood there in a dumbstruck silence while he laughed. Eventually, he stopped and spoke.

“Oh my god. When you came in here, I just thought you were some kind of insufferable prick, but you’re actually nervous, so I guess I thought wrong.”

You weren’t really able to respond due to being caught off guard by the laughter. The sound of footsteps came closer until the door was slammed open.

“I heard laughter, Karkat, what is it that you are laughing at?” Kanaya questioned.

“Did you just run over here because you heard me laugh?”

“Yes.”

“Don’t you have a customer to work with?”

“Yes, but you do not genuinely laugh similarly to that quite nearly as often enough, so I decided to come over to where you were to find out what caused you to laugh so uproariously. However, all I see is Rose’s brother, who I have been informed has a very poor sense of humor that is based heavily in the art of irony.”

“Are you saying I’m not funny?” You finally manage to say something, and, of course, it isn’t even to the troll you were flustered over.

“Although I am incapable of being absolutely certain of the fact due to my not knowing you very well, but the way Rose described your humor left much to be desired.”

“Kanaya, you really should be getting back to talking to Rose.” Karkat said.

“All right, all right. But you will talk to me later, correct?”

“Of course I will.”

Kanaya left, and Karkat turned to face Dave.

“Wow. I can’t believe my own flesh and blood would betray me like this. What kind of sibling even tells someone else that her dear brother has a shitty sense of humor. And Kanaya over there just ripped me a fucking new one, holy shit.”

“Don’t worry about it. That’s just her sense of humor shining through.” Karkat responded. “Now could you please pay for the clothes you just bought?”

“Oh! Yeah, alright.” You fumble for your wallet and give him your credit card to pay for the items. He neatly puts them in a bag and hands them to you along with the receipt.

You take a moment to write your chumhandle down on the receipt, along with a little message saying to be sure to contact you.

Rose finally comes out of the room where Kanaya was.

“Are you ready to leave, Dave?”

“Hell fucking yeah, I am.”

Before the two of you leave, you ‘accidentally’ leave the receipt with Karkat, and you can hear him yelling at you once you leave the store.

“So, how was your meeting with Karkat?”

“Come one, Rose. You know I’m suave as shit. Smoother than butter, that’s what I say. People spread me and they’re like, ‘holy shit I can’t believe how fucking smooth this is.’ That’s how goddamned smooth I am and how I was.”

“Is that code for you becoming a flustered mess around any cute guy you meet?”

“Shut up.”

“Did you at least get his contact information or give him your own?” Rose questioned.

“Yeah, I wrote my chumhandle on the receipt and left it there. I have no idea if he will actually message me or anything. Probably not based on how much of a mess I was.”

“So that’s why he was yelling at us when we left. But you can try to hold on to some semblance of hope that he will willingly contact you.”

“I guess that’s better than nothing, but I am not going to expect much.”

  Once you got home, you got on the computer to pester Terezi.

 -- turntechGodhead [TG] began pestering gallowsCalibrator [GC] --

 TG: tz holy shit i need to tell you something

GC: WH4T 1S 1T D4V3?

TG: i just met this guy okay

TG: super cute and i even made him laugh like holy fuck

TG: and all i was doing was rambling on for forever like i usually do

TG: especially because he was extremely cute and my brain just couldnt compute with the cuteness

TG: and he just started laughing

TG: and then the owner of the fucking store came running to see what was so funny

TG: apparently he doesnt laugh much

TG: and then she insulted my sense of humor

TG: like why do you have to ripe on a dudes humor like that

GC: HOW B4D W4S TH3 BURN?

TG: it was so fucking bad

TG: had to get cold water poured on it immediately afterwards

TG: went to the hospital and i was on the emergency track

TG: thats how fucking bad it was

GC: 1 C4NT B3L1V3 SOM3ON3 4CTU4LLY D1D TH4T

TG: i know right

GC: BUT ON 4 S1D3 NOT3

GC: HOW CUT3 W4S TH3 BOY AND HOW MUCH OF 4 M3SS OF YOURS3LF D1D YOU M4K3?

TG: the guy was extremely cute

TG: massively cute

TG: so cute that im gonna have to look up synonyms of cute merely to give you the basic rundown of how cute he is

TG: endearing adorable lovable sweet lovely appealing engaging delightful dear darling winning winsome attractive pretty good looking handsome attractive gorgeous

TG: some of these dont really make sense but you get the idea

TG: this boys cuteness is nothing to be trifled with

GC: H3 SOUNDS D3L1C1OUS

GC: D1D YOU G3T H1S NUMB3R

GC: OR P3ST3RCHUM H4NDL3 OR TROLL H4NDL3

GC: WH4T3V3R H3 US3S

TG: i gave him my pesterchum handle but i dont even know if he will even bother messaging me

TG: or shit if he even uses pesterchum or trollian or whatever

GC: H3 PROBABLY DO3S

GC: MOST P3OPL3 DO B3C4US3 1TS E4SY TO US3

GC: 4ND 1 COULD NOT S33 WHY H3 WOULDNT W4NT TO CONT4CT YOU

GC: BOTH B3CAUS3 YOU 4R3 SUP3R COOL 4ND B3C4USE 1 4M BL1ND 4ND TH3R3FOR3 C4NT S33

TG: shit i guess youre right as always pyrope

GC: 1TS 4 SP3C14LTY OF M1N3 >:]

GC: B31NG R1GHT TH4T 1S

TG: solid facts are being brought up here

TG: completely frozen and strong enough to stay as a goddamned solid or however the fuck that works

TG: facts that cant even be disputed like at all

TG: because that would be just blasphemy

TG: anyway im kind of hungry so im going to go eat

TG: see ya tz

GC: SM3LL YOU L4T3R COOL K1D

 -- turntechGodhead [TG] ceased pestering gallowsCalibrator [GC] --

[jane--thors]

buck history redo

:bucksmother: is born to :bucksgma:(17) and :bucksgma:(19) on 8-17-1970

:bucksgma:(17) is the last heir to the :///: family(a royal toma family) and she is expected to wed :fiance:(15) (as :fiance:’s bloodline is seen a proper bloodline to combine with her own

meanwhile :bucksgpa:(19)was a servent to the :///: familey just like hisfamiley for the last eighty generations

:bucksgpa: is distantly related to the family but this is a deeply gaurded family secret

with :bucksgma:(17) expected to wed :fiance:(15) her close relationship to :bucksgpa:(19) was disliked and discuraged by her advisors and councilors

they believe she should give :fiance:(15) many children to rebuild the :///: family and then she can wed for love with her duty completed

but :bucksgma: and :bucksgpa: ignore them and continue with their relationship

then the day after :bucksmother: was born a year after they got together :bucksgpa:(20) is killed in a suden and suspicious accident(on 8-18-1971)

this incident causes :bucksgma:(18) to panic

she immeadiatly collects all of her familys heirlooms and documents (including the ones that give her and only her accsess to the royal toma accounts and several important toma artifacts and flees ;;;;;;;;;,’’’’’’’,russia with :bucksmom:(0) in tow

for the next seventeen years the two stay on the run to stay safe from the toma and nontoma threats alike.

When :bucksmom: turns seventeen :bucksgma: sets her up to have a decent life on her own :

creates a fake identity with the papertrail to back it up

:bucksmom: becomes ;;;;;;; marcy’’’’’’’’’ price a 23 year old nurseing student who was emancipated at 17 after being orphaned (is listed as female though shes a bio herm) and :bucksgma: makes damn sure the paper trail is flawless

she transfers the royal accounts over to ‘marcy’ as inheritence (eptied the account passed it through the camens puts it into a trust empties the trust into marcys accounts)

gives her all of the :///: family heirlooms,toma artifacts,and books (that she wrote on toma:heritage medical religion and mythologies)

and puts her up in an apartment in ;;;;;;;;;,newyork(one of six safe heavens for toma and hunter expats {;;;;;;;;;;,newyork /;;;;;;;;;;,texas /;;;;;;;;;;;california /;;;;;;;;;;;,spain /;;;;;;;;;;,germany /;;;;;;;;;;;,lllllllll /;;;;;;;,alaska}

then :bucksgma:(35) leaves and keeps running in an effort to keep the hunters and toma searchers away from her only child.

SIX MONTHS PASS

‘MARCY’(17){23} MEETS ROBERT ‘BOBBY’ ;;;;;;; NASH(19) WHILE VISITING ST. PAUL,MINNESOTA WHILE LOOKING AT THEIR NURSEING PROGRAMS{1987} (SHE HAS THE KNOWLEDGE BUT HAD TO FUDGE THE TIME REQUIRMENTS DUE TO HER REAL AGE)

THE TWO FALL FAST AND HARD AND END UP MARRIED BY 1989 AFTER TWO YEARS OF DANCEING WITH EACH OTHER.(MARCY (19){25} AND BOBBY (21) AT THE TIME).

BOBBY(21) IS MORE THEN OK WITH HER HERMAPHRODITE STATUS AND NEVER MAKES A BIG DEAL ABOUT IT.

BOTH HAVE DECENT MONY (ROBERTS PARENTS DIE JUST AFTER THE WEDDING IN A CAR ACCIDENT DURING THE HONYMOON LEAVING HIM A DECENT INHERITENCE)

WHILE THEY BOTH HAVE DECENT MONEY THEY PLAN TO LIVE CHEAPLY SO THAT THEY CAN PUT ALL OF THEIR MONEY TOWARDS TRAVELING ANTHEIR FUTURE KIDS, NOT SEEING A POINT IN SPENDING A LOT OF MONEY ON A HOUSE

THEY WIND UP IN A CHEAP APARTMENT IN BOBBYS HOME TOWN AFTER SELLING MARCY’S.

ONCE THE TWO ARE FULLY SETTLED IN AND ARE COMFORATABLE ‘MARCY’ BEGINS TO PREPARE FOR WHEN, NOT IF, WHEN SHIT HITS THE FAN.

SHE BUYS THE SMPTY LOT NEXT DOOR TO THEIR BUILDING AND HAS A FREE STANDING LONG TERM CLIMATE ADJUSTING STORAGE LOCKER PUT ONTO IT.

THEN USEING TOMA TECH SHE PUTS SECURITY CAMERAS UP IN THE APARTMENT BUILDING (HER AND BOBBYS ROOM,THE EMPTY NURSERY, THE EMPTY STORAGE ROOM ABOVE THE NURSERY, THE HALLS OUTSIDE THEIR APARTMENT AND STORAGE ROOM, STAIRCASE, AND LOBBY ALL GET THEIR OWN CAMERAS IN SECRET FROM EVERYONE ELSE) THAT ARE SET TO STREAM TO A SYSTEM (THREE SCREEN AND THREE SELF UPDATEING FLASHDRIVES) WHICH IS SET UP IN THE LOCKER WHICH HAS ITS OWN CAMERA.(THE SYSTEM CAN HOLD TWENTY YEARS OF FOOTAGE AT A TIME).

SHE ALSO STORES ALL NON ‘MARCY’ THINGS IN THE STORAGE LOCKER:

---TOMA ARTIFACTS

---:///: FAMILY HEIRLOOMS

---AND PERSONAL RELIGIOUS ATTIRE

SHE WILL LATER ADD:

---THE ORIGINALS OF ALL PICTURES AND JEWELRY(EVEN SWITCHING BOBBYS RINGS S FOR COPIES AS HE SLEEPS)

---AS WELL AS THREE SETS OF DUPLICATES OF HER JOURNALS THAT SHE KEEPS    D D RELIGIOUSLY FOR HER FUTURE CHILDREN (SO THAT SHE CAN AVOID HARD TALKS)

D SHE DOSENT TELL BOBBY ANY OF THIS IN AN ATTEMPT TO PROTECT HIM FROM S S S HER PAST, THOUGH SHE DOES TELL HIM VAUGE STORIES AND BURIES ONE OF THE S DUPLICATE SETS IN HIS TRUCKS TOOL BOX (WHERE HE NEVER LOOKS)

MARCY GETS PREGNANT IN EARLY 1990 AND HAS HER FIRST CHILD ON 10-31-1990 AFTER A ROUGH PREGNAncY.

THE BABY IS A FEMME HERMAPHRODITE BUT THIS ISNT OVBIOUS AND WONT BE UNTIL SHE TURNS SIXTEEN AND GROWS INTO HERSELF FULLY (MARSY ONLY KNOWS BECUASE OF THE MARK ON THE GIRLS BACK AND SHE TELLS BOBBY IMMEADIATLY).

THEY NAME HER BROOKLYNN ILEEN NASH-PRICE.

RIGHT AFTER ‘LYNN’(0) IS BORN ‘MARCY’ PUTS A PEICE OF TOMA TECH IN TO HER LEFT EYE AND WRIST JUST IN CASE(THE TECH WILL RECORD THEIR LIFE SO THAT IF SOMETHING HAPPENS IT CAN BE SEEN)(IT HOLD 40 YEARS OF 24/7 FOOTAGE).

IN 1992 MARCY GETS PREGNANT AGAIN

THIS PREGNANCY IS EXTREAMLY ROUGH ON HER SO LYNN(2) IS MOVED TO THE NURSERY SO THAT MARCY COULD GET MORE REST.

ON 10-31-1992 AFTER AN EXTREAMLY ROUGH DIFFICULT AND DANGEROUS PREGNANCY MARCY GIVES BIRTH TO A SECOND CHILD.

THE SECOND CHILD IS A MASC HERMAPHRODITE AND ITS APARENT FROM THE MOMENT OF BIRTH.

THE BIRTH HAPPENED EARLY SO THE CHILD IS RUSHED TO NICCU.

BUT BECUASE OF THE HORRID BIRTH MARCY IS RUSHED INTO SURGERY AS SHE HEMORAGES

MARCY WINDS UP WITH A HYSTERECTEMY TO SAVE HER LIFE AND THE BABYS LUNGS SUSTAIN SCARING(HES TWO MONTHS EARLY)

BOBBY BOUNCES FROM WIFE TO CHILD AND BACK WHILE HIS SISTER WATCHES LYNN(2)

THREE DAYS AFTER THE BIRTH BOBBY FINDS THAT THE BABY IS MISSING FROM THE NICCU

HE HUNTS THE BABY DOWN AND CATCHES A DOC TRYING TO ‘CORRECT’ THE CHILDS ‘DEFORMITY’ AND AFTER THAT DEMANDS THE INCUBATOR BE MOVED TO MARCYS ROOM

THE HOSPITAL NOT WANTING TO BE SUED DOES SO

TWO Days later five days after the birth marcy finally wakes up fullyand they name the child.

Due to marcys inability to have more children  and their already existing 2 year old daughter in brooklynn(2) they decide to raise the child male and name him robert jr ‘robin’ tar’ein nash-price.

At two weeks old marcy puts a piece of toma tech in robins right wrist and eye

and after bothe births made six sets of fake birth certificates with the childrens prints and list six different couples as parents and six different birth states {all of the parents are orphans that were dead less then a year after robins birth so no one can contest the paperwork}

In the aftermath of robins birth marcy becomes terrorfied that her past and heritage will hurt her children and goes to extreames to prepare them for the danger shes sure theyll face sooner or later, giving them all that she can, teaching the two every aspect of toma heritage(history/medical/religion/mythology/ect) that she can when she can as soon as they can understand it all while training them to escape and survive at all cost from the day they can walk unasisted and unsupervised raising them more like soldiers then children

in 1994 marcy is ready to go back to work and lynn(4) and robin (2) spend their time with the wife of one of their babas coworkers when both their baba and mi’i’ia are working.(almost always at the station)

By 1996 (L/6 and R/4) HAVE CONVINCED THEIR PARENTS TO GIVE THEM A LOCKER THAT MATCHES THEIR BABAS  THAT IS KEPT IN THE APARTMENTS SHARED BATHROOM.

AND BY 1998 L/8 AND R/6 HAVE THE ESCAPE PLAN FROM THEIR APARTMENT DOWN PATT AND CAN RUN IT IN THEIR SLEEP  AND THOUGH THEY DONT KNOW WHAT THEIR MA’I‘IA IS SCARED OF BUT KNOW THAT SHE IS SCARED OF SOMETHING REALLY BAD

{OUT OF THEIR BEDROOM WINDOW, ONTO THEIR FIRE ECAPE, UP THE LADDER TO THE NEXT FLOOR, INTO THE STORAGE ROOM, THROUGH IT, INTO THE HALLWAY OUTSIDE, PULL THE  FIRE ALARM TO CREATE A CROWD TO HIDE THEMSELVES IN ON THE WAY OUT, DOWN THE STAIRS, INTO THE LOBBY,OUT A SIDE EXIT AND INTO THE STORAGE LOCKER VIA THE BUILDINGS ALLEYWAY}

THERE: THEY ARE TO WAIT FOR MARCY BUT IF IT BECOMES CLEAR SHES NOT COMEING THEY ARE TO MAKE THEIR WAY TO A SAFE ZONE USEING THE LOCKERS CONTENTS.

THOUGH THEIR 8 AND SIX THEIR MENTAL STATE IS CLOSER TO TWO FOURTEEN YEAR OLDS AS TOMA CHILDREN (EVEN HALF BLOODS) MATURE MUCH FASTER THEN NON TOMA INDVIDUALS.

ON 7-15-1999 MARCY(){}CATCHES BOBBY() IN THE HALL OUT SIDE THEIR APARTMENT HIGH AND DRUNK THE TWO FIGHT VISCIOUSLY AND BOBBY LEAVES THE BUILDING TO COOL DOWN AND SOBER UP A BIT WHILE MARCY RETURNS TO THE INSIDE OF THE APARTMENT WHERE SHE IS SHOCKED TO SEE ROBIN(7) IN THE KITCHEN (HE SHOULD BE IN BED LIKE HIS SISTER IS)

MARCY FORCES HERSELF CALM AND TELLS ROBIN TO GO GRAB HIS LYNNS AND HER GO BAGS {ALWAYS PACKED JUST IN CASE} AND TO WAKE LYNN SINCE THE THREE OF THEM ARE GOING TO A FREINDS HOUSE{BOBBYS COWORKER} AND WHEN THATS DONE TO MEET HER IN THE ENTRY WAY TO GET THEIR SHOES WHILE SHE GETS SOME FOOD TO BRING WITH THEM(HER CULTURE FROWNS ON SHOWING UP TO A NON RELITIVES HOME UNANOUNCED WITHOUT FOOD IN HAND)

ROBIN(7) HEADS OFF AS HIS MI’I’IA MAKES A CALL AND THEN BEGINS MAKEING A PLATE OF FOOD(SHE ALWAYS HUMS IN THE KITCHEN NO MATTER WHAT IHAPPENING IN THEIR LIVES AND ROBIN THINKS HER HUMMING  IS MAGIC SINCE EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS BETTER AFTER SHE DOES HER THING)

FIRST HE GOES INTO THEIR ROOM VIA THE MAIN HALL AND QUICKLY WAKES LYNN BY SHAKEING HER SHOULDER.

LYNN(9) WAKES SILENTLY DUE TO MARCYS TRAINING and quietley asks “whats up”

“were going for a visit will you grab our bags while I grab ma’i’ia’s and baba’s?”

she nods and hops up heading for the bathroom through the connected door where she grabs the bags from their locker while he goes through the hall and into their parents room to grab theirs.

She drops the bags in their room and goes over to their parents where she find robin packing their mi’i’ias phone/jewelry box{she never leaves the house without it} computor/keys into her go bag. She grabs her babas bag and begins packing the contents of the rooms safe into it(not knowing hes not coming with)(both bags on the bed){not really noticing what shes packing} as well as her granpa nash’s medal box.

The two close the bags and take them over to their room.

There lynn begins to pack their important items into their bag{not knowing how long theyll be gone but knowing that leaving in the middle of the night isnt a good thing}[their jewelryboxes their baby blankets stuffed animals and a few of their favorite books and their journals]

while shes doing this robin had fastened their parents bags together then his job done he notices that he cant hear his ma’i’ia humming any more.

Excited to catch his ma’i’ia doing her :magic: he sneaks out of his and lynns room and into the main hall where he ducks behind the shelves in the hall and peaks through it.

But instead of seeing his ma’i’ia doing magic he sees her fighting a man dressed in all black with yellow eyes.

Robin is scared and quietly rushes back to his room where lynn is fastening all four bags together.

Robin waves to get her attentionand uses one of the signs mi’i’ia had taught them {translation:GET OUT NOW FAST AND QUIET}

her drowziness instantly forgotton at the look in her brothers eyes lynn grabbs the teid together bags and robins hand and all but drags him to the window.

She climb out and while robin follows she pulls the bags onto her shoulder before the two quickly scamper up the ladder in a nervous silence and clamber into the storage unit{bobbys spot to medicate} where they raceout of the room and into the hallway out side.

Lynn runs ahead to pull the alarm knowing that robin will follow her.

On his way out robin knocks the space heater and bobbys vodka over in his rush but is moveing to quickly to notice as he flees into the hall the alam covering the sound.

The two grab hands again, hide in the crowd and race down the stairs two at a time.

At the bottom of the stairs the two split from the crowd, run through the lobby and exit out the side door and quickly duck into the locker.

Inside the locker lynn turns on the security screens on just in time to see the man drop their ma’i’ia’s body to the floor of their kitchen

the two are to shocked to do anything but watch as the man goes through the apartment trashing first their parents and then their own rooms.

Just as the man finnishes with their room they watch as the ceiling comes down in flame.

The fire spreads quickly and the man flees the apartment and leaves the sight of the cameras.

In stunned silence  they wathc as first their apartment and then their floor are consumed by flame the cameras going down one by one as they melt.

Then they are further shocked when they see their baba race into the building just before the lobby camera goes down damaged by falling debrie.

Lynn begins to cry as she realizes that both of her parents are dead while robin turns to packing the locker up trying to not think about whats happened.

First he packs all of the storage lockers contents into their babas half empty bag:

--toma artifacts

--:///: and nash family heirlooms

--paperwork

--pictures

--:bucksgmas: books

--marcys religious wear and jewelry

--toma tech unrelated to the security system

then he pack the security cameras hardrives into an empty bag already in the locker and puts all three of the flashdrives onto his and lynns birthstone necklaces.

Then robin takes lynn by the hand{lynn holding three of the bags atatched to each other and robin the other two tied together} and drags her out of the locker and into the alley between the bakery and daycare across the street from the apartment building so that they can see whats happening with the cameras down.

Lynn goes along with it but has no hope of seeing their baba walk out of the building as the two watch the crowds through tears.

Robin is the first to see the man in black as he stumbles out of the building and begins going up to people waving a picture frame around.

Robin recognises the frame of a picture of lynn and their mi’i’ia, and he is struckwith terror as he realizes that the man is after lynn and rufusing to loose anyone else robin grabs lynn by the hand and takes off running forceing her to catch up{lynn still has three bags and robin two}

the two run for ten minutes straight until they reach a late night buss stop

its now 10:42 7/15/1999

at the stop lynn now calmish in the face of the new mission(survive run keep robin safe)uses money from the sathel neklace mi’i’ia required both to waer and keep full of the three hundred dollors she put in them to get them both tickets to ;;;;;; newyork{lynn at eleven passes for 17ish easily due to her hight of 5’9’ and reserved demeaner and robin at eight passes for 14ish due to his 4’4’ height and attitude}

from 12:22pm 7/15/1999 to 12:30pm 8/04/1999 the two make their way to new york via buses telling any who ask their going to their parents for a custody switch

on 8/04/1999 at 12:41pm the two dissembark in oooooo,newyork and wind up in a little field surrounded by trees in a park next to the bus stop.

Lynn takes their remaining mony and after empting their babas bag goes to buy the two food bag in hand, whilrobin repacks the bags.

He empties the other four bags onto the pile left by lynn.

Then he repacks it all :

---his bag gets:all of lynns and his clothes, blankets, stuffed animals and on of the sets of fake birth certificate

---lynns bag:his and lynns other important items thei ma‘i’ia’s religious and daily head scarves, their ma’i’ia’s leather jacket and their babas work turnout coat and the other five fake sets of cirth certificates and their real set

---marcys bag:his parents jewelry documents toma artifacts :///: and nash familey heirlooms paperwork :bucksgmas: books ma’i’ia’s {jewelry box computor phone and keys} safe contents pictures and tech.

---locker bag:the hardrives and their grandfathers medal box

this leaves their parents day clothes unpacked

lynn returns with theirs babas bag full of long term food and a few bags of fast food in hand at 7:00 am (she spent her time shopping at a 24/7 store getting as much as she could for the least amount of money then she picked up food from mcdonalds.)

the two eat quickly  then lynn empties the locker bag and fills it with their parents day clothes and takes them and sells them while robin reorganizes the food in their babas bag.(7:30 am)

she returns at around 10:30 am with an empty bag and 89 dollors and repacks the hardrives and the medal box into their babas empty bag.

The two then take turns sleeping in shifts until 12:00 pm at which point they begin making their way deeper into the city.

The two liv on the streets completely on their own surviving off pick pocketing and using the facilities of a fire station that they find unlocked when the trucks are on call until 8/19/1999 when lynn runs into owen strickland who came in on his day off with his son tyler kennedy strickland{7}.

Owen simply makes another plate and leaves it for her as well as a tupperware container full of food for her {not wanting to scare her off and wanting her to keep coming back thinking shes a homeless 17ish year old and wanting her to have somewhere safe to crash and food to eat[he knew someone had been using the stove and stocked food while the crews slept and now he knows who]}

lynn and owen proceed to repeat this every day that owen is on shift and after a few weeks the two start talking to each other.{8/19/1999 to 1/02/2000}[lynn 11 to 12 robin 9 to 10]

When owen realizes shes younger then she looks he offers to get in contact with her parents but she tells him that their dead and that she has no other family(he notes that she stuters over saying the later bit and assumes she has a younger sibling somewhere hidden and dosent trust him with them yet which also explains why their on the streets {cps might seperate them} so he starts cooking double the food and sending her off with lots of packed food.

Then he talks to his wife and asks if they can take them in{their already certified as foster parents due to the process they used to adopt her sisters son tyler} and she agrees.

The next day she and owen go in on his day off after the crews head out and the two discuss it with lynn.

Lynn clearly wants to but is hesitating until :oswife: hands her a contract that states that the stricklands will do everything in their power to keep her and her sibling(s) together all it needs is her and their names filled in and signitures in front of witnesses{someone from one of the other crews}.

Lynn agrees and runs off.

She comes back less then five minutes later with two birth certificates {listing lynn as lynda nomi price and her little brother robin alexi price 12 and 10} and a boy{robin} and five duffel bags.

While lynn trusts them robin is more suspicious and shy.

:oswife: takes the certificates and the now signed contract and goes to her office to line things up while owen takes the kids home.

:oswife: uses her job and pull to rush the kids placement with her{the judge agrees as she and owen had earned the childrens trust and he saw no reason to further distress the children{they lost their parents and have found a new set that they trust and can depend on in his mind} irregardles of what yyyyyyy the cps agents assigned wants. 1/02/2000

{{{Yyyyyyy hates :oswife: yyyyyyyy is an expat hunter who still cant stand tomas

she tried to keep them from getting tyler and had custody of the boy for a week herself and was sickenly cruel to the then six year old

tyler never said anything scared of loosing owen :oswife: and his cousins{owens sisters two daughters}

yyyyyyyyyy is sleeping with even eugine buckly

eugine is married to fffffff

fffffff is sleeping with xxxxxxx

xxxxxx is the fther to both fffffffff’s daughters :maddalind elianna buckley{13} and shannon breeanna xxxxxx{ }

fffffff give xxxxxx shanon to keep him satisfied as her side piece {hes a dick to her but never violent}

eugine thinks hes maddies father but that shannon was the resault of an assult and that xxxxxx his brother volunteered to take the girl as a favor to them.

Eugine raises maddie to hate shannon without being overt.}}}

mean while owen takes the children home{strickland family home 14 generations} an begins moving them into tylers{9} room .

The room has a bunkbed and a foldout bed for when owens sisters kids spend the night.

He sets robin up on the bottom buck and gives lynn the pullout{knowing that the girl will feel guilty putting robin on the couch and ty already has the top bunk} he notices that the adults arnt let near the kids bags but they dont push.

tyler gets home and is a bit miffed at sudden new siblings but when he wakes from a nightmare that night things change.

Tyler wakes crying as robin shakes him out of a nightmare of his of owen dieing in a fire and robin pulls him into a tight hug until he calms and falls asleep on his shoulder.

Robin stays up the whole night petting tys hair and keeping the nightmares away.

The next day :oswife: takes the two shopping to get batheing suits so that they can join tyler in his swimming clases. While owen redos the room.

He takes out the pullout and puts in a second bunk bed that lynn will later take the top bunk of on a day to day basis {when owens neices are over lynn moves into robins, robin will sleep with tommy and leave the other bunk for them two girls.

While the two were trying on suits that day :oswife: notices marks on their shoulders {;;;;; tattoos disguised as henna that denotes their toma heritage and their ://: heir status due to her own toma heritage.}

owen adds lockers for all three kids and his neices on lynns sugestion

robin and ty are estatic and robin begins to feel at home fully.

Over the next few months the kids all grow closeer

while lynn adores ty ty clings to robin so much that owen takes to calling robin tys teddy bear after only two months of them living there. 3/14/2000

:oswife:takes to trying to fatten the two up {shes italian creole and toma food is a religion to her and they quickly bond over her teaching them to ccok and them eating together

on 4/13/2000 :oswife catches robin teaching ty sweadish and gaelic and as a resault she takes all three children to get tested for school{their homeschooled but she wants to know if she should be giving them harder material all three test extrodinarily high and get scholership offers but decline it so that they can stay home.

Eveything continues on from that point with :oswife: teaching the kids her familial recipees {something she excludes owen from though he gets to eat the resault} ant the three children making friends with the boys next door{ooooo19/iiiiiii13/wwwww11}

they celebrate the twos birthdays on 9/31/2000

the year ends well for them all.

The next year goes much the same until september

9/10/2001 the three kids and owens neices and the next door neighbor boys are at a sleep over in the strickland home and go to bed early sincetylers 10thvbirthday is the next day.

9/11/2001 the towers are hit

and owen looses his entire crew when one of the floors collapses {owen was pushed out of the way which is the only reason he surrvives}

9/11/2001 to 1/04/2002 the family and the city struggle and owen greives

owen trying hard to take care of all his guys familys {causes an argument with :oswife: as ty and the kids need him to}

on 1/04/2002 owen overhears robin asking one of the neighbor boy if he was going to die to. Oens listens as robin explains that his baba was a fire fighter to that he got hurt got sad started drinking and died in the fire that killed his ma’i’ia and left the two kids homeless.

Owen tosses his alchohal less then an houur later.

Later that week while he and :oswife: are setting things up to move all of his crews widows and children into the blocked off wing of the strickland home when they overhear lynn calling :oswife: mi’ada and she tells owen that it means{a second mother that chooses a child and takes them in as their own without attachments to the biologicl parents} and while talking about it all they realize that in all the comotion they had missed the kids birthdays {the kids didnt say anything as they didnt want to further stress them out}.

Ashamed owen asks them what they want for their late birthday present.

Lynn and tyler ask for books {medical texts} and robin asks for a storage locker for their bags outside the home.

Owen gives them all what they asked for {though he has to bite his tounge to keep from asking what is in the bags as they are packed away} (lynn and rodin pack awayall but lynns bag robins bag and their babas work bag{all in all their parents jewelry documents toma artifacts :///: and nash herilooms paperwork {bucksgmas}books ma’i’ia’s phone computor jewelry box and keys the safes contents ma’i’ia’s religious wear pictures tech and their emotional items{stuffed animals} are packed away while their clothes hardrives and granpas medal box are kept in their personal lockers}

everything goes fine until 12/13/2004 when lynn{14}collapses at school and is found to be pregnant.

{meanwhile yyyyyyyyy and eugine ‘just had a child together’{the childs father is one of yyyyyy’s clients not eugine} and yyyyyyy drops the baby off at eugines doorstep not wanting a ‘gimp’ as the child was born with a form of cerbal palsy}

[the baby is matthew eugine buckley ffff left eugine after the clearly biracial matthew shwed up. She stays with xxx and shannon and leaves maddie  behind without a care.]

Yyyy jumps on it and arrives at their home THAT day.

Lynn{14} swears that the baby is wwww’s{15}[her boyfriend]

but yyyyyy dosent belive her

on seeing this robin sneaks away into their room and packs the three bags and usees the bike locks to make sure the bags cant be opened        without their permission {not trusting yyyyy}

the bags are tear proof fire proof water proof ect

{he puts their necklaces up in tys locker}

yyyy tells lyn that shes being sent to a special hospital for underage mothers

lynn says shes not goingnot trusting her

lynn and robin end up being dragged from the home by yyyys brother{a cop} screaming for their mi’ada papa and tyler/ty the whole time.

Yyyyy informs :oswife: that she must kick owen out that night untill the investigation ends or she’ll take tyler as well with barely hidden glee.

Owen packs his bags and moves ou under yyyys watch

she then leaves with the three locked bags

yyyy dosent know about robins hermaphrodite status as he wears a special bandage like item over his feminine bits that hides it all well {marcy got it for him to make raiseing him as a boy abit easier

yyyyyyy drags a distraught robin to even eugine buckleys home where she all but flings him into the nursery and locks the door behind him.

While she takes the bags to eugine robin notices that theres a new born baby in the room with him.

With nothing else to do he picks the now crying baby up and begins to soothe him noticeing the bruises all over him and the leg brace and being extra carefull with the little one and glances around the room. He finds a vial of medicine with the name matthew eugine buckley on it and assumes that its the babys name. The vials paper work is next to it. He reads through it quickley and realizes that its and anti seizure med and that the baby needs it three times a day.

He checks the boy finds no needle marks and is concerned. He KNOWS the resaults of not taking such a medication but isnt sure that its the babies medication so he cant do anything.

Meanwhile yyy has dropped the bags with eugine  and left to check lynn into the hospital.

Eugine spends hours trying to get them open before giving up and locking them in a safe  in the basement. Then he leaves to pick maddalind up from one of his friends [where he sent her to deal with her mother leaving].

He returns hours later nd in that time matthew had had a seizure and robin had been forced to resuscitate him after he stopped breathing{thankfull for owens lessens} and had given the baby a dose following the instructions on the paperwork.

Eugine sends maddie to handle settleing robin in, maddie finds the door shut but asumes its an accident and unlocks it. She find robin paceing the room with mattie{2 weeks} with a finger on his pulse.

She asks what happened [shes been away two weeks] and robin explains whats happened since he got there.

Maddie checks the baby over {she knew about maddie but hadent met him face to face} and aftbeing assured that the child will be okay she gos to her father and asks him when mattie got the new meds

eugine explains that he had never seen him have a seizure so he hadnt given him the meds and apologizesfor worrying her.

Maddie returns and packs both kids into her care and takes them to the hospital so that matthew can be checked over.

Hes admited and released two days later after his meds are evened out

maddie takes mattie and robin home that day to find yyyyy and eugine at the kitchen table changing robin and lynns names legally speaking{12/15/2004} robin and lynn become evan eugine buckley and nionna ann buckley “so that they will fit in better with maddie and mattie”

yyyyy leaves and updates lynn/nionna on the name change.

lynn/nionna {  }  refuses to answear to the new name and after trying to escape she is sedated and spends the rest of her pregnancy heavily drugged due to her “inapropriate” “agressive” and “dleusional” behavior {by 12/15/2004 shes six mths pregnant}

on 12/23/2004 lynn/nionna gos into labour way to early and gives birth to a stillborn daughter.

Yyyyyyy wont let her see the baby or even know the gender and drops her at the buckly home  three hours later still druged and out of it.

The misscariage is listed as a resault of the mothers illicit drug use

in reality yyyyyyyyy had given the baby to aaaaaaa and sent a sample of the girls dna in to ‘catch owen’ so she can take tyler

however the dna clears owen

on hearing this via phone call while driving crashes into another carefullyyyyyy and aaaa die instantly but lynns daughter “alexi” was lleft unscathed.

Alexi winds up with aaaaa’s daughter hhhh whos 22 as she is listed as aaaaa’s biological childrenalexi is raised well from then on.{same day}{12/23/2004}

on 1/12/2005 cps sends another worker out to the buckly house.

eugine quickley bribes the man to sign off on him keeping both children and he is awarded full custody.

On 1/14/2005 alexi’s dna clears owen.

While this means owen can go back home with his wife and son he and :oswife:cant get robin or lynn back as they were oficaily adopted and cps wont give them any information about the children or who has them only that they are settled in and that they cant be moved again noteing that the stricklands were still negligent in their care of lynn.

Owen is told by the agent {who is involved with hhhh} that lynns daughter alexi is safe but wont let him see her or even send her letters {owen gets suspicius that something bad has happened to HIS kids.

Tyler had been devestated by the loss of his siblings and cant stand to hear his name {tyler or ty} and has been going by tk since a few days after they were taken.

Owen focuses on raiseing tk and finding HIS kids {keeping the locker paid up just in case though he never looks into the bags} while :oswife: leaves tk withhis father and focusses on her job to deal with her greif.

Meanwhile 1/15/2005 is the last visit that cps makes to the buckleys due to another bribe by eugene {his perfect maddie needs siblings}.

Shortly after ariveing lynn/nionna{14} dissapears.

Eugine claims she ran away for drugs but in reality hes locked her away in to basement

maddie believes eugines story about the basement being caved in and filled with cement to keep the house from following suit.

Things go realitivly alright for the next four months:

-----eugine is gruff and cold towards evan{12} and matthew{>1} but trys to be pleasant to maddalind   fffff{17} {his golden child} though he does loose his temper with her sometimes

-----any time he looses his temper he take evan “fishing” {drags him to the little shed on the lake in fffffthe back of the property and beats him bloody from his shoulders to his hips where his clothes fffffwill hide them}

-----evan dosent tell and does his best to hide it as eugine threatens mathew while he beats him with fffffthe switch{and cause evan dosent want to cost maddie and mathew another parent knowing how fffffit feels} [he thinks he can handle it and escape with mattie and track his sister down.]

This continues until 5/12/2005 when maddalind goes to visit her mother ffff shannon and uncle xxx{who married her mother a week prior}.

Its a four month trade off.

In her absence eugine goes from cold distant and a bit harsh to a creul callous monster and the house[not a home] turns into hell

the beatings become a daily occurrenc

on 9/13/2005 eugine fractures evans {l/r}ight kneecap and left him on the kitchen floor.

Matthew starts crying

eugine leaves to go out with his friends

evan drags himself to matties room and forces himself upright using his good leg and the wall picks him up and slides back down focussing on the baby to block out the pain{like all toma/nontoma boys he has a weird issue with pain only able to feel pain when the injury damages a bone}.

This is the scene maddie returns home to evan passed out with mattie on his chest his knee swollen and purple.

She drives them to the er and calls eugine

eugine arrives and claims that evan had fallen but that he didnt think it was that bad.{he tells evan that he knew where lynn/nionna is but that if he didnt behave hed kill her.}

After three days evan is sent home.

At which point eugine cuts back on the hits and bruiseing to sheild maddalind from the trueth {in his mind hes training the boy to be the perfect brother} and the most she ever sees is eugine smack evan for being disrespectful{not looking up when he talks/mumbleing/backtalking}.

Maddie thinks nothing of evans shyness and lack of acting out as shes never seen him be any different.

In reality while eugine had cut down on the overt violence his new favorite method for taining up evan is horrific but evans act is flawles as he works best under pressure and the threats to mattie and lynn/nionna and the precived risk to maddies happiness put him basically in mission mode.

Eugines abuse had turned sexual but since the only time he went full out he did so in the dark of evans room{so he couldnt anticipate what was coming} he never notices the patch or what hides behind it, something evan is gratefull for.

The first time he takes a sample from evan and puts it in a proper freezer in his truck {heworks at a fertility clinic} {so that he can make anotther pet} {evan dosent register what he was doing as he was out of it at the time.}

By evans 13th birthday on 10/31/2005 he is matthews{1} full time carer and administrates all his meds as maddie 18 is often out looking at schools.

This continues for the next three years.

10/31/2008

maddie{21} visits for evans 16the birthday bringing her boyfreind doug with her.

That night eugine ups the abuse and makes matthew{almost 4} watch.

The next day evan pulls maddie to the side and asks that she not bring up his birthday ever again.

Shes confused but gos with it.

Then she heads back to collage.

On 12/14/2008 eugine finds out that evan{16} had been ‘spoiling’ matthew{4} when he catches the boy giving him a sponge bath [hes been giving him sponge baths as the boy is deathly afraid of bodies of water {though hes at least desenseitized him to glasses of it} and his panic attacks will trigger his seizures even when hes properly medicated and his seizures still cause arithmyias]{mattie has has 12 ‘heart attacks by age four}] and flips out.

He stalks over and decks even hard knocking him out.

Then he drahs the unconcius sixteen year old and the shakeing terrorfied four year outside down to the lakes peir.

He drops mat on the ground and hes to petrifeid to run as eugine teis evan to the peir

then he waits for evan to wait.

Once he comes to eugine lifts mat off the deck and THROW him into the lake.

Evan PLEADS and BEGS even breaking his wrist trying to get to mattie.

Just as mattie passes out eugine knocks evan out again.

He drags mattie to shore and resusitates him quickly not wanting to loose a toy and shove the catatonic boy into a box in the back of his truck.

Then he drags evan back inside this time he dosent hit the lights before starting in on evan.

As a resault he finds the patch and removes it.

On seeing what it hides he invites three of his friends over to have a turn.

This gos on for six hours evan going in and out of conciusness the whole time.

After his friends leave eugine leaves for texas where fff xxx shannon and maddie are leaving evan broken and bleeding and lynn/nionna tied up in the basement.

Evan wakes the next day barely able to move between the pain and the greif but forces himself up right to get to lynn/nionna but he cant get into the basement as its locked.

He goes back up and showers to clear his head, then he dresses and searches the house.

He nearly gives up before he finds the keys on the kitchen floor {they must have fell out as eugine left}, and invigorated by something like hopeevan grabs the keys and races as fast as he can back down to the basement where he unlocks the door.

He finds her chained and quickly unlocks her and carefully guides her upstairs and lays her on maddies bed.

That done he goes to maddies closet and ueses her pratice bandages to imobilize his wrist. Then he goes back to the basement, unlocks the safe and grabs the bags{hes shocked to find that lynns birthstone necklace is in one of the bags side pockets sans flashdrive but ignores it}.

Then he finds that when he packed away his babas jacket he must have lost the name tag as its gone but the bag and lock are both intact. He packs the bags into fff’s abandoned car and then he goes through the house collecting everything related to him lynn maddie and matthew {so that eugene cant toss them}and anything worth anything as a way to pay for their escape as well as anything useful to them. Then he packs lynn into the passenger seat and climbs into the drivers side and takes off not sure where hes going just unable to stop running once he starts {thankful for :oswifes: driving lessons}

together lynn and robin wind up back in newyork.{12/17/2008}

they check the stricklan house first but find it empty, then they check the station only to find it borded up.

{owens new crew is a few blocks over and he tyler and the previuos crews widows and children are on vacation.

As a last resort on {12/18/2008} they check the locker and are shocked to find that their keys still workand thet their bags are still there.

They collect the bags and robin puts on his necklace.

Then nionna has an idea she runs off to a near by store and uses the money robin took from the buckley house to buy a burner phone and puts the piece of paperwork with the phones number on it in the locker just in case the stricklands still want them.

Then with the bags contents she and robin set up fake ids for themselves

lynn uses one of the fake birth certificates and fills out the backstory of wiona ari russo{18}[20]with her ma’i’ia’s computor {a trans boy[william ‘billy’ ari russo] who was able to transition socially as a child who grew up in an orphanage}[BILLY RUSSO PLOT LINE]

while robin becomes evan ‘buck’ tar’ein price buckley in much the same way [keeps most of his ‘adoptive’ name since eugene wont be looking for evan buckley.

Then he uses the fact that even maddie dosent know how old he is and the fact that at 16 he looks 20 ish to list him self as 23 {since an age change will also make it easier to hide} [going by buck for his own comfort]

[maddie dosent know his age as she was never told it and buck already tested out of highschool when he cam to the buckleys though eugine wouldnt let him go to collage].

12/18/2008 billy{18}[20] signs up for the marines and buck{16}[23] for the seals both their fake histories backing it.

[billy russo marine plot/castle plot ect]

buck{18}[20] gets through all of his training right up till the end when he fails a test {disobeying orders under the impression that one of his team mates was left behind and hauling off shoving his co into the mud and takeing off to get the teammate alone. {5/17/2009}

hes told he isnt what they want for the job.

He returns to the usa and winds up in texas{5/20/2009}

on 5/19/2009 hes just heading for a park to run his energy off when hes nearly takeld by a shakeing five year old MATTHEW.

Buck drops to his knees and pulls him in close gently afraid hell dissapear.

A second later before he can say anything he hears a woman screaming “get away from my son”

he shoots up and steps in front of matthew as the woman comes close but before he can say anything mattie signs to her ‘thats MY even’

the woman stops cold and stares at him clearly 5ish6ish moths pregnant.

she comes close and buck expects her to slap him but instead she flings herslef at him and hugs him tight.

She introduces herself as shannon breeanna jjjjjjjj and invites him to her home.

Shanons inlaws are steying with her at the base house shes in but are out for errends at the time.

Shannon and buck talk for hours and when shannon mentions that shes worried that eugine will come for mattie buck quickley inacts a plan.

He pulls out his ma’i’ia’s computor and changes the boys legal name and history {he becomes matthew tarein price} a boy who is legally speaking the adoptive child of shannon and buck after eugine surrenderd his rights {fakeing the paperwork}.

While shannon adores mattie the boy clings to buck and is more active with him then he had ever been with her.

As a resault the two agree that buck will have primary custody of the boy.

They trade numbers and agree to keep in constant contact.

Then buck takes mattie to his apartment nearby.

Shannon tells the diazs that mattie went to his older brother whos could care for him better {financially and emotionally so that she can focus on her comeing baby and both children will be better for it}.

Ramon and helenna are a bit pissed but dont speak their oopinions{she threw a child away in their eyes leading to outward hostillity and blatent distencing}.

Peppa who was visiting better understands it when she hands her a recording of buck and evan{evans face blurred out}.

Buck and mattie stay in texas for a year.

Then on 7/19/2010 things change.

Mattie whos only six had to be put into special classes with tutors when the tests buck gets for him put him in highschool knowledge wise.{the tutors are hired as they can keep up with mattie and challenge him apropriatly.

Buck moves to a house nearer to shannon and keeps close contact with her.

While keeping up with billy

On 3/22/2011 billy stops talking to him

On 4/09/2011 their declared kia bodies unrecoverd and Steve calls buck.

Buck checks his ma’i’ia’s laptop and tells steve that billy at least is still alive as his monitor is still giving feed back on his status.

Buck explains that he can come in and find him easily with his own monitors tracker.

Steve reluctently agrees after reading bucks file.

Buck drops mattie with shannon and she wishes him luck.6/10/2011

He meets with steve, then he and steves team track billy down

it takes only five days

on 4/18/2011 the team and buck return with billy {they didnt find /////}

suddenly steve figures out the real reason buck went with his dismissial and didnt fight for the job, as buck is completely shut down.

Steve passes him off to nathen and focusses on biily

nathen brings buck out of his head by sparring with him and the two wind up in bed together.

Bucks surprised at how comforatable he is with nathen

steve makes buck a reacurring piece of the team on the low

shannon is more then happy to have mattie in the house when bucks off ‘gijoing’.

By 6/22/2011 buck is in to deep and cant see his life without nathen

nathen is much the same even giving evan a ring even though they cant marrying

{its quick but realitivly healthy}

however a mission on 12/13/2011 changes that

this mission was overseen by rawlins as steve is gone to handle his six year old daughters health issues the mission gos horribly.

Buck is there

everyone knew the mission was a trap but rawlins wouldnt listen

there are consequences to this

the mission leaves:

buck/ injured with shrapnel in his {l/r}ight leg

billy/ half deaf in his right ear

frank/ just bruised and bloody

mason/ missing his left arm

./ missing both legs knees down

leaving dead:

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but they manage to ‘rescue’ /////{}

frack looses it on rawlins and gets an honrable discharge {steve has to fight for it}

mason, ., and billy are all given medical discharges

from the team only steve and ////// stay

buck gos home and stays at shannons until 12/21/2011 when she convinces buck to take mattie traveling to get his mind off nathen

he leaves on that day

on 1/03/2011 buck finds out hes pregnant with nates child{7mths} [hed been carrying stealth and put his recent medical issues down to the shrapnel.

He goes to nates memorial on 1/29/2011 at 3 am {his wills wishes}{he was cremated right after death} and meets his adoped brother judd ryder and his wife grace ryder.

They invite him to breakfest {nate talked about him ALL THE TIME}

while at breakfest buck starts washing dishes with grace while judd goes to show mattie7 how the grill works

buck gos into labor but thinks its braxten hicks since it dosent hurt the way he was told it would

but grace notices when his water breaks

she leaves a note for judd and mattie and takes nate’s boy to one of the clinics she knows wont make a fuss about bucks gender.

Nadia ________ price ryder is born 9 hours later at midnight 1/29/2011{shes a femme herm}

when the nurse is rude about buck not having a middle name for nadia and her father not being there grace gos cold and rude and gets the nurse kicked from the room and buck adds grace to the birth certificate quickly {hiding it so he can tell her later on her bday when he asks her to be godmom {nate always wanted her as his future kids godmom}

but then buck gets the call

buck had put in aplications to fire departments everywhere when he was booted from the marines

and he just got a job with the 118 in la

he mentions this to grace and she offers to watch the children till hes ready to move them {hes uneasy but allows it because nathen trusted her}

before hitting la he tracks down maddalind who moved to oregan for work and doug and visits her job at the hospital.

The two talk but when he tells her he found mattie alive she freaks out calls him delusional and runs inside for help.

Buck leaves upset

he winds up at a bar and ends up druck and banging a random chick.

He quickly gets unhealthily attached to sex and trys to ignore it

he heads to cali and gets a decent apartment for him and the kids renovating it quickly to meet matties needs

then he picks them up and brings them to the apartment

he quickly enrolls mattie into online college

he meets with {eddies teacher]

he explains his situationto her{hes a single father who recently lost his partner}

she gets him clearence to sendd mattie and nadia to the school {they sit in a reading nook behind her desk and mattie works on his school work under her guidence} on a trial run

shes shocked that her normally rowdy class becomes 99% calm and well behaved in the presence of a baby who needs them quiet

it gos far better then expected and mattie acts as an asisstant when his work is done {he takes hyperactive kids to the side and helps them burn it off with challenges

then he drops the twokids wit h a sitter shannon used for her son and recommended to him when he called her

then he stops by the station and meets with the crew hes asigned to winding up having dinner{its the last day of their seven so he wont start for a week}

he goes home and tucks the kids in

he then pays the girl to watch them for another hour and gos out to get laid to try to get the thought sex out of his head

it doesnt work

he returns home sends the sitter home and showers scouring his skin to try to feel right again not understanding why it didnt feel like it did with nathen {he thought his earleir self disgust was due to his and the girls drunken states}.

He spends the next week adjusting the kids to the new shedule

tesh picks them up at 6

theier at the school from six thirty to four thirty

teach drops them with the sitter at 5

the sitter is working on her degree online inbetween cooking and watching the kids {mat even helps her with papers with random bits of knowledge that hes gained from his addiction to books}

she watches them till six when bucks off and 9 when hes on duty.

She watches them all day sunday while she has saterdays off{she dosent like being alone on sundays}

buck takes the kids to the liebarry on saterdays

Through the week buck continues to screw any one who will take him{hes safe about it but is desperatly chaseing what he had with nate}

the first saterday {two days till his first day} he takes the kids to the libarry

he settles them together in a reading cricle with other kids and settles in in the back.

Half way through the kids movies he sees a kid out of the corner of his eye.

As he watches the kid a boy that looks 14 at most dissapears up the roof accses stairs

following the feeling in his gut he turns to the mom beside him and tells her to call 911 as he just saw a kid go up to the roof and as she pulls out her phone he races after the kid knowing mattie and nadia are safe where they are {they have to be checked in and out}

he finds the kid on the roofs edge

they talk the kid is 17 severly starved and abused and trans{mtf}

buck ends up dragging her badily back when she slips and nearly falls

the two lay on the roof the kid shakeing hard

buck asks if shes looked into names yet

she says she cant find one that fits

buck offers up baudicca  and the girl clings to it and the story he tells her about the name as he gets her up and shuffles her downstairs and hands her off to the first decent cop he sees

he picks the kids up checks them out and heads home after making his statement.

That night is the first time since nates death he felt alive {he loves nadia her existence dosent fill the hole in his lungs}

he continuse to chase the feeling in sex but it dosent come back.

That monday he starts his first day at the 118

he notices for the first time that bobby looks familier but cant place him

buck dosnt tell the 118 about his kids not trusting the m fully yet.

-----toilet baby/buck fired/lily/buck rehired

athena takes buck out for a drink and asks why he freaked over the baby so hard

“it wasnt you being stupid you knew what you were doing and continued I wanna know why you did it”

he tells her he couldnt understand some one throwing a baby away {the girl had to flush the toilet twice to move the baby the baby wound up with the girls boyfreind, the newly named baudicca but buck dosent know this }.

----------rollor coaster’therepist’

---------chims caraccident

--------plane crash

buck and abby get closer {buck stops sleeping around after the incident with the theripist} but avoid sex

on the second day of recovery and clean up several crews from texas new mexico and arizona show up to help including the 126 from texas{judds crew}

buck runs into judds crew and the two catch up on things{he ends up cooking them multiple meals and sends them home with a ton of it estatic to cook for someone again

judds crew leave in the morning and buck gos into work then the wedding collapses bobby’s story comes out

abby and buck go on a real date

full moon

karmas a bitch

1x09

abbys mom dies and she leaves{the same night he was going to introduce her to the kids}

shannon shows up

the two wind up talking for a while

shannon dosent want to go back to her house incase one of eugenes friends is following her but has no where to live so buck invites her to live in the apartment with the kids

shannon gets a job with the teacher as a classroom asistent and taxis the kids to and frome the school becoming fast friends with the teacher

two months after she told eddie she wasnt coming back[something buck dosent like but does understand] eddie moves to cali

[fuck-customers]

time to jump ship

TLDR: i hate the job i used to love, i want to strangle every customer, i hate surveys, i hate food waste, i hate my coworkers. specific story at the end. im so sorry this is so long but ive been bottling it up for months now. content warning for biphobia i guess?

i work at the place where guac is extra and our store is kind of in the danger zone for being closed. apparently all that means is 2 weeks of being closed with some training or whatever, but i really dont want to deal with that. my gm has been pushing me [a person she never EVER puts on the fucking line because we have like, 3 cashiers myself included] to tell customers about our survey, bc at one point our score was...14%. the lowest in the state. you wanna know why its so fucking low? you wanna know? bc we're located in the ritzy part of the area [its like 4 cities just smashed into each other], and the bulk of our customers are people on their lunch break who blow $13 on a shitty burrito with like 3 things inside it, go back to the office, inhale their food and then get back to work. they dont have time for surveys! plus, why the FUCK are the surveys so important?! yes, our profit margin is small, but that doesnt mean we arent making sales! the sales are there! the lack of complaints should be proof enough that out of every 200 customers, only one says anything bad! and its always some shit like "when i asked for a little more meat, the employee put 3 pieces of chicken in my bowl. i didnt want double but i wanted more meat!" or like "i didnt know guac was extra" WE. HAVE. SIGNS. ON. THE. GLASS. THEYRE RIGHT THERE. YOU HAD TO LOOK RIGHT AT THEM TO SEE THAT GUAC IS EXTRA. ITS YOUR FAULT. i hate the surveys so fucking much bc i ring up over a 100 people a day and we get maybe 2 back...its such a waste of breath.

the waste of these people too. it was absolutely terrible at my last job [god of bread cafe] but jeez...why get guac if youre not going to eat it? why get your kid food if hes just gonna throw the rice on the floor, take one bite out of the quesadilla, and you toss the rest? do you know what a to-go lid is? clearly they do, because theyll get a shitload of food, order it to-go, then SIT DOWN, pull it ALL OUT OF THE BAG, eat it all, then throw the bag away. those bags cost money! stop wasting our bags! fuck all of you! 

and since our turnover rate is so high, scheduling is an issue. i like my gm, i really do, but shes so...bad at the schedule. im supposed to be off at 3 every shift. im never off at 3. the next cashier comes in at 3. im supposed to have all my shit done by 3, meaning my drawer counted, money deposited, checkout done, and clocked out. if im the only cashier, who tf gonna ring customers while im doing that? the manager. except they never get drawers. they just dont want to. and my gm never wants to schedule the next cashier at, oh i dont know, 2:45? so they can count and put their drawer in so i can leave?? on time?? thats all it takes, but no, because of labor that wont happen.

call me insecure, call me a prude, call me a killjoy, but when my coworkers just stand around and roast each other and pretend to throw insults back and forth, it creates this air of pure hostility that i cant stand. stop being 10 years old! do your work! shut the fuck up and fry chips! cut peppers! why do you feel the need to insult each other so much?! it makes me want to just clock out and leave most days. plus, the closing cashiers rarely ever fill up the ice bin. this whole year ive been working here, ive been filling the bin all the way to the damn lid after peak. lo and behold, the reason id have to throw like 8 buckets worth of ice [each bucket is easily 30 lbs, im 105. i carry 2 at a time] in there was because closing cash NEVER FILLS IT. EVER. its always half full at best. so i said fuck it, if theyre not going to do it for me, then i wont break my back lifting those damn things for them just bc the closing crew is so lazy. plus theres so much homophobia/transphobia underneath a lot of what they talk about sometimes. one of my lesbian coworkers looked me straight in the face and said "i could never date a bi person. what if they cheat on me?" im bi. my gm is a lesbian, and her gf is bi. a girl that recently quit is also bi. like, i actually really liked this coworker but then she showed her true colors so fuck her i guess!

anyway, a special fuck you to the old hag that came through the line today w a chicken queso bowl. expo said to me "chicken with queso" and she said "but dont charge me for the queso" i just kinda smiled and laughed it off and rang it up. and she said again "seriously, dont charge me, im a senior" so, bitch? i told her the total [8.77 as opposed to 7.42] and she was like "yall dont do senior discounts here? the other store never charges me" no you obstinate cow, we have NEVER done senior discounts, and youre definitely LYING. if you wanted your free queso so bad you should have gone to that store honey! she grumbled but paid with a 10. you dont get to tell me what to not ring up. ive never seen you before in my life. i couldnt care less what the ~other store~ does for you, supposedly. this isnt that store. die mad about it.

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Super Bowl LII predictions: our writers pick the winner, MVP and players to watch

Will the Patriots win a record-tying sixth Super Bowl championship or will the Eagles win their first? Our writers hash it out

Super Bowl LII

Super Bowl LII predictions: our writers pick the winner, MVP and players to watch

Will the Patriots win a record-tying sixth Super Bowl championship or will the Eagles win their first? Our writers hash it out

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Can Nick Foles punctuate Philadelphias fairytale playoff run with the hard-luck clubs first title in 57 years? Photograph: Eric Gay/AP

What the Patriots need to do to win

PB: Let Philly build up a lead, then stick the ball in Tom Bradys hands? Im being glib, but when a team pulls off as many come-from-behind wins as this one, over such an extended period, what else are we supposed to say? You probably dont need reminding that the Pats trailed by 25 points in the third quarter of last years Super Bowl. Or that they stuck 14 fourth-quarter points on a previously dominant Jacksonville defense in last months AFC title game.

Perhaps the more nuanced version of that same answer is: keep on adjusting. As brilliant as Brady is in the clutch, it is Bill Belichicks capacity for tweaking his gameplan on the fly that makes this team so hard to beat. We saw it against the Jaguars, whose offense exploded in the first half but ground to a halt as New England started finding ways to keep Blake Bortles in the pocket. A different approach will be required against Nick Foles and company, but these Patriots know they need not panic if they dont have the right answers at the start.

BAG: Above all New Englands offensive line must protect Brady and they will have their hands full with a stout Philadelphia pass rush thats tormented opponents all year long. Eagles defensive coordinator Jim Schwartz likes to rotate Fletcher Cox, Tim Jernigan, Brandon Graham and Vinny Curry frequently with Chris Long, Beau Allen, Derek Barnett and Destiny Vaeao, an embarrassment of riches on the defensive line that allows them to pressure the quarterback without relying on the blitz. Look for the Patriots to run a lot of no-huddle to negate Phillys depth and keep the Eagles offense on the sidelines.

What the Eagles need to do to win

PB: Predictable, perhaps, but disrupting Tom Brady has to be the biggest part of this picture. The Patriots, as observed above, are masters of the in-game adjustment. Take away Rob Gronkowski, and theyll just fire up Danny Amendola. Commit to slowing down the run and they can either start to look for Brandin Cooks over the top or exploit your aggression with James White and Rex Burkhead in the screen game.

Brady is the one essential piece of the puzzle, and has played some of the best football of his career even this year at 40 years old. There might not be a team in the NFL better equipped than Philly to generate pressure with a four-man front at the tail end of a long season, however, thanks to an extraordinarily deep rotation which can alternate the likes of Fletcher Cox, Brandon Graham, Tim Jernigan and Vinny Curry with Beau Allen, Derek Barnett and Chris Long. That group must play up to its potential for the Eagles to prevail.

BG: Theres been no shortage of hand-wringing over Nick Foles, the back-up quarterback thrust into the starters role when Carson Wentz was lost to a season-ending injury in December. But the Eagles coaches have done a masterful job of crafting game plans around Foles strengths and masking his weaknesses, putting him in a position to make plays. They will play with irreverence and they will put up points as they have all year, with or without their franchise player.

Not surprisingly, it will come down to the defense, which rated among the NFLs best all season long. The Eagles must harry Brady and shorten the game to keep New Englands offense off the field. Its the common thread in nearly all of the Patriots high-profile defeats, including their AFC title game loss to the Broncos two years ago and both Super Bowl setbacks to the Giants.

Unsung player to look out for

PB: My first thought was Trey Flowers undersized for an interior lineman, and slower than you would really like for an edge rusher, yet somehow consistently productive wherever he is deployed by New England. But is he actually unsung any more? Ill go with Kyle Van Noy instead third on the team in tackles during the regular season and a wrecking ball against Jacksonville, who had made a positive start on their final possession until he sacked Blake Bortles for a seven-yard loss.

BAG: No one is better than Belichick when it comes to denying an opponents best weapon or strategy. That will create opportunities for outsiders like rookie running back Corey Clement, an undrafted free agent who was a longshot to make the team in training camp but whos emerged as Philadelphias best pass-blocking back and a dependable target on screen passes. Clement only rushed for 321 yards, but he leads all Philadelphia running backs in rushing touchdowns (four) and total touchdowns (six).

New Englands Kyle Van Noy shined in the AFC title game after finishing third on the team in tackles during the regular season. Photograph: Maddie Meyer/Getty Images

What youre most looking forward to seeing

PB: The coaching duel between Bill Belichick and Doug Pederson. The Eagles opened up the playbook against Minnesota, and were rewarded with a monster game from Nick Foles. So what does Pederson have up his sleeve here, and how will Belichick counter? And after each team pulled out the flea-flicker in the conference title games, what fresh misdirection lies in store?

BAG: Early fireworks. New Englands pass defense has improved greatly since early in the season when it allowed an NFL-record six consecutive opposing quarterbacks to throw for at least 300 yards, but the Patriots remain vulnerable over the top. The aggressive play-calling of Eagles coach Doug Pederson, whose first game as a head coach above the high school level was remarkably less than 17 months ago, has been a key ingredient Philadelphias sudden reversal of fortune. Dont expect a cagey opening. Coming off an NFC championship game where Foles became the first quarterback in NFL history with completions of more than 40 yards to three different receivers in a postseason game, look for Pederson to take shots downfield early.

One bold prediction

PB: Brady throws a pick six.

BAG: Brandin Cooks will go for over 120 yards receiving and a touchdown as the Eagles are forced to devote extra safety to Gronkowski.

Your MVP will be …

PB: Well if my bold prediction is correct then it might be the guy who runs that interception back, but Im going to go with Zach Ertz. The Eagles tight end absolutely dominated Harrison Smith a popular pick for the NFLs defensive player of the year in the NFC title game. Who do the Patriots have who can match up against him better?

BAG: Nick Foles, Super Bowl MVP? It might sound funny, but the 29-year-old quarterback has played himself into form since Wentzs injury shook the constitution of a city. After carrying the Eagles into the Super Bowl with a master-class performance against the Vikings, Foles career playoff numbers speak for themselves: 72 of 96 passes for 793 yards, with five touchdowns and no interceptions. That 116.4 passer rating is the best in NFL playoff history for any quarterback with at least 75 passing attempts, surpassing a mark held by Jeff Hostetler, another understudy who came off the bench late in the season to helm his NFC East team to an improbably Super Bowl win over a heavily favored AFC East opponent.

The winner will be …

PB: I honestly think well look back on this and marvel at the idea that the Eagles were ever able to convince us they were the underdogs, despite a 13-3 record and a 31-point win in the NFC title game. Yes, they lost Wentz. But weve seen enough since to conclude that this is still an excellent team. Eagles 24, Patriots 21

BAG: All seven of New Englands Super Bowls in the Belichick/Brady era have been decided by six points or less and theres little reason to believe the eighth will be any less touch and go. The Eagles will race out to a half-time lead and whether they can hold off New Englands inevitable rally, as an entire city chews their fingernails to nubs, will determine who comes away with the trophy. It says here they will on a late Jake Elliott field goal. Eagles 27, Patriots 24

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A Loan Won't Solve Your Money Woes If You Don't Fix These 10 Issues First

Sometimes even the best-prepared households get knocked sideways, financially speaking. Illness, unemployment, divorce, a car accident that triggers a lawsuit these and other situations can quickly put a hurt on the budget. In such times a personal loan or one of several types of home equity loans can provide a little breathing room until you rebuild your finances. As noted, money woes are sometimes the result of plain old bad luck (illness, job loss). However, sometimes were our own worst enemies: We buy too much, we save too little, we plan not at all. You cant get ahead that way. And you cant keep borrowing your way out of trouble. A loan wont help you unless you fix the following issues. 1. Not having a budget The simplest way to wind up in debt is to spend without thinking. Stop, then, and think for a moment about what you would like to have happen five years from now: buying a home, starting a business, getting married, traveling? When you create a budget, youre not just allocating your dollars youre enabling your dreams. An easy way to do it is the 50/30/20 budget: Spend no more than 50% of your take-home pay on essentials, 30% on wants, and 20% on saving (including retirement planning and an emergency fund). Plenty of budgeting apps exist as well (some are even free). 2. Not tracking spending You cant plug budget leaks unless you know where they are. Track your spending for a month, using pen and paper or a budgeting app. The cumulative effect could be eye-opening. For example, a relatives ex-husband was shocked shocked! to realize that spending $8 a day on fast food added up to $240 a month. His wife had made more money than he did, and their commingled finances made it easy for him to swipe a card and think no more of it. Heres hoping that your own habits arent quite that clueless. But even those of us who think were doing pretty well could be surprised by the cumulative impact of certain habits: beef jerky and a soda every time we pay for gasoline, daily iTunes downloads, $20 a week on scratch tickets. Add up the opportunity cost of those non-essentials, and ask yourself if you could do better. (Spoiler alert: You probably can.) 3. Keeping up with the Joneses Just because next-door neighbor bought the priciest riding mower on the market doesnt mean you have to ditch your trusty Snapper. When your coworker talks about all the activities her kid participates in, you dont have to sign your own tots up for horseback riding and soccer camp. You should not let other people determine your clothing, dcor, automobile, or anything else. Its no ones business that you bought a fixer-upper, that you drive your car until the wheels fall off, that your idea of nightlife is to read a new library book once the kids are in bed. Remember: The Joneses may be up to their hairlines in debt. They might be focused on keeping up, too with the minimum payments, that is. 4. Wanting your kids to have things you didnt Theres nothing wrong with this! Except when there is. Obviously you want your children to be well-fed, reasonably well-dressed, and housed comfortably. You might also want to give them treats and opportunities you never had, such as vacation trips, a big allowance, loads of extracurricular activities, and fully funded education plans. But dont let this noble impulse bust your budget. Just because your kid wants snowboarding lessons, a new smartphone every year, and a car of their own at age 16 doesnt mean you have to give these things. Staying out of debt and funding your retirement should take precedence over granting every whim. At the very least they should have some skin in the game: doing additional chores to help save up for a big-ticket item, say, or mowing lawns or babysitting for extra pocket money. Besides, we arent doing our kids any favors when we give them everything they want. Setting the bar too high now could mean setting them up for problems later on. Specifically, when they move out on their own theyll want to keep living in the style to which we have accustomed them and if their salaries dont allow for that, theyll wind up in debt. 5. Automatic upgrades Whats wrong with your old smartphone or car or whatever? If you bought it relatively recently and it still works, whats with the rush to replace? If you get the newest phone as soon as it comes out, or trade in your vehicle every few years, or replace anything else before it really needs replacing, ask yourself why. Because your co-workers do? Because some commercial made you want a new car? Because you dont know why, but you really, really want to anyway? Think about the opportunity cost of that cash. Then think about the way you want to live, and whether or not you want other people making decisions about your money. 6. Shopping mindlessly If you dont need anything, stay out of the mall. Going shopping with friends puts you in a position to find something you suddenly cant live without, or something that looks so cute on you or would be so cool in your house or so useful in the garage. Except that you were doing just fine without that item until you saw it. Ditto online shopping: Dont cruise your favorite retailers websites unless you have a specific reason to do so. Better yet, undo the one-click function and remove stored credit card info from all sites where youve shopped in the past. Bonus frugal points if you change your online passwords to something that has personal significance, such as WeDDingDAy8192020, or 19YEarsLEftonMORTgage, or EARLYretire2028 these little reminders of where your dollars could be going instead might help you from overbuying. 7. Always buying retail Why automatically pay full price? Instead of heading straight to the shopping center when you need (or want) something, consider these options instead: Thrift shops: Some are junky, but others are great. Its like a treasure hunt. (Pro tip: Find out if there are senior discounts or other special deals. For example, a secondhand store my daughter likes offers 50 percent off every Monday.)Consignment stores: Like thrift shops, except theyre more discriminating about whats accepted.Flash sales: While online shopping should be approached with caution, sometimes a sale really is too good to pass up. Hold yourself to limits, though: Just because those slacks are a great deal doesnt mean you need to buy a pair in every color.OfferUp, LetGo, Craigslist: Sometimes people want (or need) to get rid of furniture, tools, bikes or automobiles without the hassle of a yard sale. Caution is required, but you can get some darned good deals this way.Newspaper classified ads: Yes, really. A guy I know recently bought a pickup truck (necessary for his job) from a newspaper ad, spending many thousands less than he would have paid at a dealership.Freecyle: You might be surprised at whats being given away, no strings attached. Ive seen beautiful furniture, clothing, bicycles, toys, books, and other useful stuff offered up.Yard sales: Another treasure hunt. Ive seen items still in the shrink-wrap at these sales. Its a great place to buy baby stuff, including newborn-sized clothing that seems never to have been worn.Buy Nothing Facebook groups: Last month my partner and I just picked up an almost-new Weber grill. Some of the other things Ive seen lately: baby stuff, solid wood table, sewing machine, board games, computer desk, cookware, and tons of childrens clothes. All of it is free.8. Overdoing it on special occasions Are holidays and birthdays completely over the top? Maybe its time to tone it down. When they become extravaganzas of gift-giving, we cheapen the meaning and also set the bar higher and higher. A kid who gets tons of presents is unlikely to appreciate each one fully and more to the point, he develops a sense of entitlement. As for birthday parties, when did they start resembling mini-coronations? Even one-year-olds are having party rooms reserved, decorations put up, and gift registries established. Really? Think of all the money thats spent and quickly forgotten. Now think what those dollars could have done for a childs education fund or your own retirement. Celebrate joyously, but celebrate sensibly. 9. Overbuying for grandchildren While waiting in line at a crafts store, I met a woman who developed the bad habit of having small gifts waiting for her granddaughters whenever they visited and they visited a lot. The woman was fretting visibly as she looked over the items in the stores dollar section. What do you buy for someone who already has everything? she asked me. After hearing her story, I felt very sad not just for her but also for the kids. A visit to grandmas house had become an exercise in acquisition. The first thing they do upon crossing the threshold is to ask what theyre getting. (Does anyone else find that quite sad?) Expectations are made, not born. If youve gotten into the habit of treats and more treats, scale back. Replace them with activities and gifts of time. The kids who are used to getting stuff will gradually become used to not getting stuff and when occasionally you do treat them, it will mean a lot more. Again, the money you save could go toward their education funds or toward shoring up your own budget. You cant finance retirement. 10. Giving more than you can afford Charity is a noble impulse. But giving to the American Red Cross or the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals should be done after youve taken care of business. Specifically, after youve built an emergency fund, started saving for retirement, and taken care of any consumer debt. Put on your own oxygen mask first, financially speaking. Award-winning journalist and veteran personal finance writerDonna Freedmanis the author of Your Playbook for Tough Times: Living Large on Small Change, for the Short Term or the Long Haul and Your Playbook for Tough Times, Vol. 2: Needs AND Wants Edition. Read more: https://www.thesimpledollar.com/loans/blog/a-loan-wont-solve-your-money-woes-if-you-dont-fix-these-10-financial-issues-first/