#but Im not really sleep deprived tbh im just tired anyway

[doebt]

The brain fog lately is unreal too and like disassociation or whatever I dont even know..I feel genuinely more “awake” in my dreams than i do in real life

[fictionfixations]

edit: if anyone saw a post where i was being all depressed because i lost the post i was working on. turns out tumblr did post it but my sleep deprived brain didnt think to check my posts !??! thats my bad

i make poor decisions when its late and i really shouldnt be playing gacha games because i get more impulsive then i usually am but also outside of 'i really want halloween riddle' i and someone else were praying for each others pulls (we both wanted riddle) and were gonna stay up until it did the daily reset to immediately start pulling so here i am (if you've seen my other posts you should know that it was also like this in HSR that I pulled Jade even though I didn't have an erudition built and didnt really want her but tired me thought ..what if i pulled and then i got her and then i didnt have pulls for jiaoqiu)

Result is, Halloween Rook (30 pulls) Halloween Riddle (60 pulls) and then since I was already there I decided to pull until 100 where I got Halloween Silver (100 pulls) its a good haul👍 but also rip all my pull savings. but also now i have all the cards i ever wanted (riddle as a fav and silver cause when i first started and looked at everyones card art his halloween one was really pretty) so like. this is good with me 🤷

anyway the only card remaining on my like. wish list(???) i guess is like. next main story card. erRr JP SpoiLeRS but Sebek Armor of Eternal Night or something like that. cause General Lilia duos with Sebek. but honestly not that big a deal sometimes i find dorm uniform sebek's as peoples support card

but thats less a want want and more i want him to make my cards strong instead of i just want to pull them i probably wont use them but like i want them (i probably will use them in the future but i need to build my main team first 💀)

in any case i do like sebek but also idk man

like. i set a bunch of goals of stuff i really wanted to do as a twst player when first starting which was really a bunch of ideals (like it didnt really seem possible and i figured id have to settle for less?) but like

i wanted halloween riddle and silver general lilia tropical wear riddle i got all of them

also i wanted to get every riddle card cause ppl were doing it for the favorites and i really liked riddle. so i got his birthday bloom. i do NOT have his other birthday cards because ooh boy i do not have the funds for that im perfectly content with my birthday bloom, one ssr at a time please. but so im content with that, still marking it was ok since tbh i dont really expect to get them all since i usually play f2p and also even i got all of them wtf do i do with them ???? but so check anyways for birthday bloom. but also besides that i literally got him in the first ten pull TWICE so like. i feel like that should count ?? cause that was stupid crazy luck 😭

and i wanted two dorm uniform cards who duo'd off of each other so i could have like two of them in one turn and it does the satisfying double duo thing when it switches between them attacking

which i can do. because i got dorm riddle when i first started, and i got dorm azul a bit ago who im working on getting the books for. so i can do that too.

and then i also wanted to be the kind of player who had a bunch of strong cards built that i could switch between a bunch of them for battles. which i do i just need to build them.

so its like.

??? idk what to do now

i yapped a lot more than i thought i would

um.

[scarletwritesshit]

Yosuke Hanamura x F!Reader ❀ Town of Blossoms ❀ June 20th, 2013

A Thursday night in the middle of the week…Yosuke was still lying awake on his phone, despite having to go to work the next day. You only knew that this was the case because you too, were laying wide awake at such an hour. Despite not having the same obligations as him the following morning, you were still ultimately, no better than he was. In a way, despite the decision to stay up being of your own will, he still held a part of the blame for your wakefulness.

It was apparent that over the past few days, something has been weighing quite heavily on Yosuke’s mind. Did you have a clear answer as to what that something was yet? Unfortunately, no. The only hints that you had was the occasional side comment made in the midst of a conversation.

From what you could gather, it was something about friends and abandonment issues and other stuff of that sort. No big deal, he would always claim, but it often times lead to some late-night conversations. Tonight was no exception. Things started off as nothing more than a quick chat before bed. That “quick chat” had been going on for about two hours.

Tiredness was beginning to overtake you, but you didn’t want to abruptly ditch him in the middle of a conversation. Every time there was more than a few minutes in between responses, you’d think that maybe, he at long last, fell asleep. And so, you would allow yourself to slowly drift to sleep yourself, until you were somewhat woken up by the ringtone going off alerting you of a reply. The cycle would repeat; back and forth between two considerably tired people who simply could not bear to leave the other hanging.

You wondered if he even understood half of the nonsense manifested from your fingers. An exhausted person was in no position to provide any form of solid, logical advice, but you were trying your best regardless. Any person in their right mind would opt to wait until the morning or afternoon to resolve any sort of problems, aided with a clearer mind.

But you two were best friends. Logic got completely thrown out the window.

Don’t you have work tomorrow? you texted back.

You truthfully didn’t want to stop talking to him. Even if it were only for the night, it was the last thing that you wanted to happen. More importantly, however, you didn’t want him to fall ill from sleep deprivation, and were more than willing to sacrifice a few minutes of talk if it meant for the sake of his wellbeing.

yeah but i cant sleep anyways so it doesnt matter

Staring at your phone doesn’t help.

Like you were one to talk. Staring at your phone had no advantages for you either.

neither does blankly staring at my wall

Trying to sleep would be better for you regardless

but i dont wanna stop talking to you

too much on my mind

wayyy too much on my mind

Like what

Is it the stuff that’s been bothering you all week

This could be a prime chance for you to weasel an answer as to what was bringing him down so badly. Perhaps it was just a little wrong to use his tiredness to your advantage to try and figure out what has been bothering Yosuke. In all fairness, he did bring the topic up himself first. And you were sort of at a loss as to how to help him.

eh

longer than this week tbh

Longer? Did something else happen

no its the same stuff i guess

You guess?

mhm

idk how to tell you man

but ive just been worried that youll leave like everyone else

same nonsense

I have no intention of leaving. I promise.

But did something bring this up?

its nothing

im just really tired i guess

Can’t be nothing if you’re still awake over it

But please get some rest. At least for tonight.

You’re gonna be exhausted and miserable tomorrow if you don’t

You turned the screen of your phone off and laid it on your chest. It was late into the month of June. For Yosuke, this was the season of his birthday. It was a time where you would expect him to be happy, overjoyed even. Ironically enough, it could have been the one thing that was bringing him down after all.

The more that you thought about it, the more that it seemed like a logical explanation.

It was supposed to be a time of bringing together all of his friends to celebrate himself.

What friends, though?

Almost the entirety of your group had long since parted ways completely as Inaba calmed down and time marched on. It was of no fault of one or another, as fate had long since planned different paths for each of his friends to tread. Time and again, he would claim to be fine, but it was apparent that the loneliness was getting to him hard.

He wasn’t actually "used to it." Without a doubt, Yosuke was hurting deeply inside. As good as the intentions in your heart might have been, it wasn’t something that could be amended overnight, or even at all. Regardless, there was no way that you were going to give up on him. Somehow, you had to convince him that even though everyone else had broken contact, you had no plans of doing such yourself.

You checked your phone one last time. No response. You could only hope that he ultimately decided to give it a rest and fall asleep, or that the tiredness finally overcame him. At least tomorrow was Friday, but that was still another day of working that Yosuke had to survive. Oh so close to the weekend, yet just barely out of reach…

There was one remaining option for you to lift his spirits just in time for the weekend, and even beyond that. An opportunity that you have been silently chasing for so long may be closer than you thought. No more of this “waiting for the right moment.” For the sake of you both, one of you was going to have to take the first step forward. And if Yosuke seemingly had no plans to do it, nobody else but you could take the initiative.

You put your phone aside on the nightstand and stared blankly at the ceiling in the dark as you carefully sorted through your thoughts. No, caution was what caused such a delay in the first place. The longest you were willing to wait now would be until after he was free from the grips of Junes.

In a sea of pink blossoms, understand those before you and flourish as the purple as you are. It was as clear as day what action you needed to take. Show him that you would never leave him, and that you meant it.

Content with your plan of action, you closed your eyes and allowed yourself to, at long last, drift off to sleep.

[millshakes]

Guys i totally cried!!! This is totally awesome sauce, uk i just realised before tumblr i never really had anywhere i can like let my emotions loose? Yea i had friends and parents and siblings but idk i dont think they really understood me all that well, and tumblr has been nice abt that.

Anyways, i totally cried today iv mentioned how uni life sucks and its only the first week blah blah im sore im sleep deprived and i have no time. Yesterday i was already like mentally tired as fuck and i made plans with my mom to come back home today, but i had a class in the morning(even though we shouldnt have had any) after i finished this class i was mentally mapping out how i do this. Ams blah blah i had a plan to pack mt shit go to somehwere i had to go have my mom pick me up we go back to my forms i take my shit but turns out my mom couldnt take me at this time cuz dhe had to do something and shel pick me up like 3 hours later. This made me tear up, do note im like walkimg back to my dorms after my arabic classes, throughout my walk back i was basically just whinning and being on the verge of crying. Bought food from the canteen AND FINALLY REACHED MY DORM and as soon as i sat down i started crying with like food in hand. But tbh it was much shorter than id like it to be, i dont think iv fully got everything off my chest.

I think what made me react so much from finding out thwt my mom cant pick me up at the time i set, was cuz that was like the first desicion i made in awhile. Like ofc iv chosen like oh what food do i want or which route do i take but this one feels substantial and after such a long time of not having it and having it instantly being told no made me feel a shit load of lack of not being in control? Even before me coming to my dorms did i rarely make descicions iv just mever been the type AND FOR ME TO OIT OF MY WAY WANT SOMETHING SK BAD( go back home)and not hsve it go my way was a little much for me

[ocpdzim]

today i had four shots of espresso from the coffee shop with the strongest coffee in town because i am very sleep deprived and was not succeeding at staying awake even though it was like noon at the time and i was watching them make it at the coffee shop and they were making it in little shot glasses with skulls on them and i was like “huh, maybe this is a bad idea, that does look like a lot of espresso and it is like .3 shots of espresso more than that online caffeine calculator says is my safe daily limit” but i dismissed my concerns because i figured the consequences for having so much espresso could not possibly be worse than the consequences of just straight up passing out while walking around, which at that point i was at risk of doing, and which i have gotten a concussion from doing before, and so i drank the espresso anyway but like it turns out four shots of espresso goes surprisingly fast since it hasn’t got the gooey syrup consistency of my usual coffee so i drink it faster, so i downed like all that espresso in the span of an hour and a half or so, when typically it takes me at least half a day to drink my regular latte, and fortunately that espresso sure did wake me up. i was like, having the time of my life. i was sitting in the car trying not to act too revved up because i figured if i was too obnoxiously energetic then my family might not wish to buy me four shots of espresso ever again. so i’m in the car on the way to my psychologist thinkin hell yeah im gonna have a great time all day today im gonna go home after this and run around in the yard or something. i dont care its raining. i’ll fistfight mother nature. but like halfway through the psychologist appointment i just fucking lost it. i cried a bunch. i yelled too much and hurt my throat. i feel a little bad for yelling but at least i wasnt yelling at my psychologist i was just saying normal things that i would usually say except faster and really loud. and laughing hysterically and crying at the same time. i picked up the card table and moved it two or three times for no reason, literally i have no idea why i did that. i had a fairly detailed rant about why there’s no such thing as a value-neutral position when it comes to things that affect people’s actual lives. i like, dissociated in the car for ten minutes afterwards but to this point at almost 1 am i remain not particularly tired, like, the big rush is definitely gone but i still have some residual Weird Energy which is like neutral energy but still fast. like i guess it kinda leans towards fun but only a little. and basically that’s why you should not have four shots of extra strong espresso, or, alternatively, why you should absolutely have four shots of extra strong espresso, and also why i totally want to see what happens if i drink an entire large coffee cup of just espresso someday if i have enough extra money on hand to be willing to spend that much on coffee 

[sailxrmxrs]

IM JUST SURPRISED NO ONE HAS TAKEN BLOOMING PANICS “oh no my s/o passed out from stress or an illness and now im super worried” HURT/COMFORT TROPES VIRGINITY YET. nightowl would blame onion 😗 LOL

alright bet. have some headcanons about the lis reacting to their s/o who has passed out or gotten ill because of being overworked, exhausted, and stressed. mc isn't too sick but is just clearly tired and has been overdoing it without resting and of course they tried to pretend everything was fine (spoiler alert: it was not fine). so the stress builds up and oh no something's wrong. they're not okay but the lis know how to fix this...right? anyway we'll have a sliver of hurt/comfort but tbh it'll mostly be comfort because angst is not my forté. will add a mild content warning for discussions of poor lifestyle habits ie. sleeping and eating. doesn't get too dark with said topics but they are at the centre of mc's stress for most of these. also toast's got Very Long so uh enjoy the food toast simps. thanks for requesting, anon!

♡ nightowl ♡

College was a struggle for anyone and Nightowl knew the pain of late night deadlines as well as any other student. More than a few times he'd pulled all-nighters so that he could get assignments finished or study for upcoming exams. It wasn't the healthiest routine but he always made sure to get plenty of sleep in at some point throughout the day. Sure, his sleep schedule was a little messed up but he wasn't sleep deprived, by any means. The same, however, could not be said for you. Early morning classes meant that staying in bed an extra hour or two wasn't an option, but those same rapid deadlines were looming overhead and so most nights you would only get a few hours of sleep—certainly not enough to be a fully functioning human and certainly not enough to remain healthy, either. The same poor schedule and assignments led to skipping meals and just generally not maintaining yourself as well as you should be. Nightowl would text frequently, the two of you meeting up whenever you could to take your minds off the stresses of college life. But no matter how much Nightowl checked in with you, there was no telling just how exhausted and stress-ridden you'd gotten.

It wasn't until one evening when you went over to his place, not wanting to cancel your plans despite how tired and lightheaded you were feeling. You'd been up since the early hours of the morning for classes after staying up late to finish studying. The day had rushed by and so you'd only had a few snacks to eat around lunchtime. So not long after greeting Nightowl did you end up passing out right on the floor of his bedroom. Cue a panicked Nightowl stressing about whether or not he should call an ambulance or just trust himself to take care of you. After carefully depositing you on his bed, Nightowl would grab his phone and hurriedly message whoever was online to ask for advice—which only led to Onion berating him for leaving you abandoned while he went on his phone. But Nightowl would toss aside his phone in frustration and focus on grabbing some water for you and trying to wake you up so that he could get some food into you. He doesn't have a whole lot of food lying around that isn't some form of snack but there's a few things lying in his cupboards that would make for a good meal. Anything to stave off the building worry and self-admonishment for not noticing just how badly you were doing.

Later on, once Nightowl feels satisfied that you're doing okay and have been well fed and looked after, Nightowl stays up to take some of the workload off your hands. Obviously he can't do assignments and things for you, but he can help organise your notes or send that one professor an email that really needs answering. Just small menial tasks that don't take long individually but soon start to build up over time. Nightowl's happy to be of help in some way, even if it means putting off his own studying for your sake. When you do wake up for a short moment to see him sat at his desk, Nightowl's insides turn to liquid at the bleary, sleep infested eyes that blink at him under the glow of his fairy lights.

"Come to bed, Nightowl." Your voice is quieter than normal, body still half asleep. But how could he say no to that? So he agrees, guiding your exhausted form back to bed where he lays with you and holds you as tightly as possible. What happened earlier was scarier and has only prompted him to cherish you even more.

♡ quest ♡

Quest is just getting home from work, having texted you to let you know he'd be a little later than usual finishing off some task his boss had asked for him to do. He's looking forward to spending the night together in comfy clothes eating something quick and easy since it's the end of the week and you're both extremely tired. He's noticed the slight changes to your schedule, the way you've been coming to bed later and later after insisting you've got to finish that one job before sleeping. Not to mention the early morning alarms to get up and go off to work. He'd be lying if he said he wasn't worried, and had broached the topic a couple of times with you; he'd suggested taking a couple days off for an extended weekend trip somewhere or even just asking for a lighter workload on your current project. But each time you'd brushed him off saying that you were fine and this was just a busy time of year. Somehow Quest didn't exactly buy that but respected your boundaries, backing off but quietly encouraging you to come to bed half an hour earlier or staying in bed an extra few minutes in the mornings. He wanted to be there for you as much as he could.

And so when he arrived home to see you sitting on the sofa wrapped in a blanket, eyes rimmed with dark circles, Quest knew it had gone too far. Within an instant he was on his knees in front of you, one hand holding onto yours while the other slid to your forehead to check if you were feverish. His face is marred with concern as he examines the tiredness in your eyes and the guilt that resided there, knowing this was self-inflicted.

"I knew I should have told you to rest more," he sighed, deciding that your current state wasn't too pressing of a matter. All you needed was some good food and a healthy dose of sleep. Long term. Quest was fully prepared to take it upon himself to get you a couple days off work, though you'd already beaten him to it, knowing you needed the rest.

"Sorry for worrying you. It's just been so hectic at work and I felt bad not helping out where I could," you explained as Quest resided in the kitchen, steadfast on preparing a hearty meal to restore some energy before bed.

"I get it, I really do. But you've got to take care of yourself more. Or, at the very least, let me take care of you." Quest was fully immersed in his role of doting boyfriend, determined not to let this happen again. He was too sweet and caring to not accept his willing offer. Maybe you could let loose a little and not take on so much work. Though you were certainly more than happy to indulge in the comforts of Quest's embrace as he held you close against his chest, encouraging you to take a nap once you'd finished eating his homecooked meal. After all, your eyelids were feeling heavy and his chest was such a welcome comfort that it wouldn't hurt to take a quick nap. And maybe that quick nap wouldn't end up being quite so quick and would result in Quest gently moving you to carry you off to bed once it started getting a little late.

♡ xyx ♡

The sun was beating down, doing nothing to help the heat and exhaustion already sinking deep into your bones from the hike you'd been taking with Xyx. It was a frequent occurrence in your relationship to go hiking on the weekends you didn't have anything else planned. But, as a result of lacking sleep throughout the work week, you were left feeling incredibly weak. Not to mention the heated weather had left you dehydrated. Still, you wanted to push through it for Xyx, not wanting to worry him over something you'd deemed wasn't worth fixating on. As long as you could get through this one afternoon, you'd be able to rest and catch up on all the sleep you'd missed throughout the week. Though, as it turned out, your body had other plans and the otherwise enjoyable afternoon was cut short when you collapsed in the path. Xyx was immediately by your side, able to recognise the injury in your ankle caused by the fall as a point of concern.

"Shit, doll. Why didn't you say anything?" His tone was teeming with frustration laced concern as he looked around, hoping to spot someone who could offer a hand. Being so far out of the city other hikers were few and far between, leaving Xyx no choice but to carry you back to his car. He was deadly silent the entire way there, barely even speaking once you were both in the car other than to pass a water bottle over to you and instruct that you drink. Guilt struck you in droves, sensing the worry embedded in the crease of Xyx's brow. You hadn't meant for it to get this bad nor cause him such concern. But there was no undoing the past and so you had to sit with your choices and hope the injury you'd sustained wasn't too serious.

After a trip to the hospital to get your ankle checked out, which turned out to only be a minor sprain, you and Xyx returned home. The official order had been significant rest and care, along with ice to help reduce the slight swelling and redness. Xyx's face was a wall of stone as he listened and thanked the doctor for their time. Even now, after returning home and helping you onto the sofa while Cat meowed for their dinner, his expression had barely altered. Quiet with Xyx was far worse than any shouting or chastising comments. Turning quiet meant that he was stewing in his thoughts, internalising everything rather than speaking his mind. And there was little that concerned you more than Xyx locking away those emotions again.

He exhaled a sigh as he sat down beside you, letting his entire weight fall onto the sofa. His head tilted back and he rested the palm of his hand on his forehead. "Do you know how much you scared me today, love?" His voice was low, a soft sound only heard thanks to the crushing silence hanging between you both.

"I didn't think it was that bad. I never meant to worry you."

"Whether you meant to or not, you still did," Xyx replied, tone sharp. He sighed as he ran a hand through his hair. "Look, I'm not mad at you just..."

You ran a hand up his arm, unable to do much more thanks to your current limited mobility. "I know."

"Thought I was the one meant to be getting you to tend to my wounds, not the other way around, doll." A smile crept on Xyx's face, the worry and concern etched into his features slowly fading. Everything would be fine. But it was certainly a lesson for the both of you.

♡ nakedtoaster ♡

Lately your work schedule had been gruelling. Night after night you stayed behind later and later to finish the plethora of tasks that had been left to you. It was only inevitable that somewhere along the way you'd fall ill. But there was not time to take the day off work—there was simply too much to be done. You'd complained about the difficult schedule to Toast, their kind words of encouragement the only thing getting you through the day. Of course he'd suggested just quitting your job but despite the difficult schedule it sometimes handed your way, you did like working there. Just not when you were being overworked to the point of agonising exhaustion. And so, when you felt the signs of illness coming on, you just pressed yourself further in the hopes of getting ahead of schedule so that you might be able to afford time off. Toast had warned you this was a terrible idea and, frankly, you knew this too. But what else could you do in such a scenario? Either miss deadlines and risk getting fired or do the work and hope for the best. The weekend was almost here, after all, so you could rest plenty then.

When Toast arrived home one evening to seeing your shoes beside the door signalling an early arrival home, he knew something was wrong. If you'd managed to get away from work this early you'd have texted or called in celebration. So that meant only one thing: you were even more ill and had been sent home to rest. Sure enough, when he entered your shared bedroom, Toast was met with the sight of you in bed. You were wearing an old shirt of his and had a cup of water along with some medicine sitting on the bedside table. Judging by the flush in your cheeks, Toast could tell you were likely feverish too.

"Someone's been working too hard, haven't they?" He teased when you smiled weakly at him, eyes adjusting to the light after a short nap. "Work send you home?"

"Yeah. Apparently almost passing out at work because you were burning up isn't a good sign," you replied, burrowing under the covers with the plush toy Toast had bought you on one of your first dates.

"Anything to get you to rest, I suppose. How are you feeling?" He brushed a gentle hand against your cheek, pleased that your skin didn't feel too feverish.

"I'm doing okay. I think I slept most of it off at this point."

"Hungry?" They asked, taking hold of the glass on your bedside table so that they could refill it with some fresh water. You nodded in reply, feeling your eyelids growing heavy. "You take another nap and I'll come wake you up when it's ready, okay?" Toast didn't bother to wait for a reply, knowing you were ready to fall back asleep. He was glad to see you able to rest without worrying or panicking over some menial task you'd been assigned by your boss. But now, there was a slightly more pressing matter at hand—dinner. They couldn't just order something in while you were sick. This needed to be a homecooked meal. Only problem being, that Toast could not cook much more than literal toast. So, he called up the first person who came to mind—Quest.

"Okay, Quest don't make fun of me but can you please teach me how to make some chicken soup or something. Nothing crazy just give me ingredients and a step-by-step or something."

Not too long later, you awoke to the smell of food coming from the hallway. Whatever was being made had you suddenly very aware of just how hungry you were. As you reached the kitchen door, you could hear Toast's frantic words as they rushed about the kitchen. A second voice was slightly muffled, as though playing through a speaker.

"Look I'm sure it's turned out fine and they'll love it," a voice that resonated in your ears as Quest's sounded from the room.

"But what if this makes it worse? What kind of boyfriend would I be if I made my already sick partner even more sick?" Toast had their hands on the kitchen counter, either side of his phone with his head down so you couldn't see his face.

"Did you do all this for me?" You asked, eyeing up the food on the stove that looked and smelled delicious. Whatever instructions Quest had given them clearly worked. "You're so sweet." You threw your arms around Toast as you burrowed your face into their back, hearing Quest say quick goodbyes before leaving the call.

"Um. I wanted you to have something special made since you were sick so I called Quest for help and I don't know how good it'll be but—"

"It looks amazing. Now stop worrying so we can eat."

[elysianslove]

the little things ; haikyuu boys

synopsis; the little things he does that show just how much he loves you

pairings; karasuno x reader, aoba johsai x reader, fukurodani x reader, nekoma x reader, shiratorizawa x reader

genre; fluff

warnings; will make u hate being single <3

karasuno ━━

sugawara koshi; whenever your hair gets caught in anything, he’s so gentle yet quick at fixing it. if your hair is long, and you pull a bag or a shirt and your hair gets tucked in, he’ll wordlessly pull it out. if your hair is short and a bracelet or zipper gets caught he just continues whatever he was doing (talking to someone else for e.g.) while helping you out. also always makes sure your hair isn’t bothering you; if you’re leaning over writing something, he’ll always tuck it behind your ear so lovingly ahhh

daichi sawamura; massages. he’s descended from heaven for this purpose only. his hands are rough and like hard on your muscles, but it’s so perfect. he’ll approach you when you’re in school sitting anywhere, from behind, and just knead his hands into your muscles for a few seconds. euphoric. or if you live together, he always greets you with back/shoulder/neck massages in the bathtub hvjkwkd.

nishinoya yuu; always makes you try his food. always. whether it’s with a group of people or just you two, he just goes “hey babe open ur mouth” with this face 😏 bc he’s cheeky, and just shoves a mouthful of food. spoiler alert, it’s always way too hot. but it’s just tradition at this point. he takes a bite of his food, decides if it’s worthy enough for your mouth or not, then just. yeah.

kageyama tobio; buys you a snack whenever he gets his milk. if you’re special special, he’ll buy you your own carton of milk. he goes up to the vending machine and automatically thinks of you when he sees your fave snack, and it’s like mindless at this point he just routinely does it. it still surprises you to this day, even when he’s so nonchalant about it.

tsukishima kei; kisses your forehead. tsukki is not too big on pda, and even privately he’s not very touchy feely either tbh. but just a simple peck on your forehead grounds you, and it’s a small reminder of the fact that despite his outward coldness, he really does love you. he rarely does it in front of others, but sometimes, he’ll indulge both you and him, and settle a small kiss on your temple just randomly.

asahi azumane; anime jesus always has a hair tie/clip carried around for you on his wrist/in his pockets. i mean he’s always needing them, he just stocks up when he starts dating you. somehow he’s always there when you’re frustrated with your hair all over the place what a savior. later on it evolves to him carrying around your scrunchie and yes the boys make fun yes he blushes but no he does not take it off.

tanaka ryunosuke; carries you on his back, or your things, when you’re too tired to walk. whether that be if you’re too tired because of your heels or you’re just lazy, he just loves helping you out what a respectful gentleman. honestly it just becomes that every time he sees you he like barricades over to you so quick and flips you onto his shoulder or spins you around. anyways. walking with tanaka means walking empty handed bc he will never let you carry anything. ( shifts pile of bags on one arm just to hold your hand ).

hinata shoyo; learns hairstyles to try on you. whether it be short hair or long hair, expect his youtube search history to look a lot like “how to make a french braid” or “cute hairstyles for short hair for your cute girlfriend”. he’s always so entranced by you and watches so carefully whenever you do anything on your hair, and he gets do excited whenever you let him try and he gets it right. also !!! a lot of the times you’ll sit between his legs and he’ll just softly card his fingers through your hair or lightly braid it.

yamaguchi tadashi; buys you flowers a lot. he doesn’t overdo it, just so it doesn’t lose its value and worth. but for example, mondays suck ass and he knows how much you hate them, so he always makes sure to either leave a single rose on your desk/in your locker or give it to you himself if he can. it’s so endearing and motivating honestly, and the constant reminder every once in a while is so cute. continues to do it even like 3 years in, which is so fkn sweet honestly.

nekoma ━━

kuroo tetsurō; plans the best dates. seriously. like not one moment spent with him is dull. i don’t think being with kuroo entails a high energy relationship, i just mean that even a walk in the park is fun with him. he also always knows when to plan a fancy dinner and when it’s just something casual. like he always puts in so much effort, gives 120%, for every date with you. is your favorite band/singer/artist in town? he’s got tickets. the weather is amazing? you’re going to the beach. you’re sleep deprived? nap dates. 10/10

kozume kenma; he teaches you how to play his games. the fact that he’s letting you touch the console in itself says enough, but whenever he buys a new one, and learns it thoroughly enough, he will always sit by you and teach you its ways. picture you sitting in his lap while he guides your hands <333 if you’re not a gamer, he’s actually v flattered by the fact you’re willing to sit through this w him. but if you are a gamer, expect daily competitions. oh and if you beat him? you’re dead to him :).

haiba lev; instead of reaching for things that you’re too short for to grab it himself, he just lifts you up lmfao. i mean w the way he teases yaku, i can imagine he’d be v teasing with you as well if you’re even an inch shorter than him. but fret not! it’s all in the name of love. he’s very loving though, and if he sees you struggling he’ll just wordlessly hoist you up from your waist or something. at first it’s terrifying, but later on it just makes you giggle cause he’s like so willing to do it and it’s effortless for him hehe.

yaku morisuke; always makes sure you’re taking care of yourself, but kinda aggressively? lmao anyways. like he’s always “babe have u eaten” and if u say no expect him to start yelling like “what do you mean no??? are you insane???” v dramatic but honestly <333 he’s always texting you after parting ways “did you get home safe” or on weekends where he cant meet you, he’s asking how it was, if you indulged yourself a bit, relaxed. it’s very sweet and he makes sure it’s not overbearing. he just wants his baby to be healthy and happy.

yamamoto taketora; walks on the side with the cars. it’s not a very noticeable thing, but you see it, and you recognize it. he makes sure he’s always walking where cars are speeding by, a hand on the small of your back guiding you away and to the other side of him. it’s the little notions of protectiveness like if he’s driving and stops suddenly, he’ll put a hand out to keep you from lurching forward, he pushes you gently out of the way before you bump into someone. things like that.

aoba johsai ━━

oikawa tōru; he doodles in your notebooks, or on your skin. if you have class with him, and sit next to him, he’ll always be doodling on your notebook like little hearts or stupid, cute things like your initials + his in a heart. or if you’re at a study date together, and you’re focused on your laptop screen, he’ll leave little encouraging messages on your notes for you to notice when you’re revising. sometimes you’ll be sitting with him at lunch or even if you’re out w him and a bunch of other people, and he happens to have a pen. expect a little smiley face on your inner wrist, or a heart plus his initials ( o.t. )

iwaizumi hajime; he helps you take off your make up/takes it off for you. if you’re too sleepy, he’ll just take the products he’s used to seeing you use and start following it step by step after he props you up next to the sink. while he stands between your thighs he just so gently starts rubbing at your skin and washing away the make up. if you’re already asleep, he’ll have to like google the steps oh my god im gonna cry hes so cute. if you don’t necessarily wear make up, then he’ll just help you do your nightly routine, or even your shower routine, like using a body scrub or a face mask or, bruh, even shaving lmfao.

hanamaki takahiro; saves everything you buy/send/make him. i mean everything. has literally over two thousand photos of you, all the polaroids or postcards are saved in a little box he has under his bed. anything you make him (unless it’s edible) he has. if you make him a small embroidery thing he will literally attach it to his sports bag or something. any chain you make him is automatically added to his keychain. that flower crown you made with him on one of your first dates? he still has it. the flowers are dead but the memory loves babyyyy

matsukawa issei; carries extra clothes of his for you to borrow. hey have i mentioned that mattsun is big? 😃 because he is 😃. meaning regardless of your size or height or whatever, his clothes will drown you <3 i see him as preferring more oversized or just loose shirts rather than tight ones, so yk. on you???? if y’all are just hanging out and you even think about being slightly cold — here have five options of mattsun’s clothes to choose from. he always makes sure they smell like him too. it’s self indulgent really, because he loves the way they look on you, and he loves that it leaves a trace of his scent on you. territorial? i think yes.

fukurodani ━━

bokuto kōtarō; always hugs you like it’s the last time he’ll see you. sometimes, even if he doesn’t know it, you need his hugs badly. y’all are gonna try and tell me bokuto doesn’t give the best fkn hugs??? yeah get outta here with that bs. he SO does. he either kneels down and wraps his arms around your waist, picks you up, and spins you around, like he hasn’t seen you in 3 years, or he’ll just wrap his arms around your neck and pull your head to his chest, cradling it, and just sighing like he won’t see you for the next 3 years. his hugs always make you feel so much better, even if you weren’t feeling down to begin with.  

akaashi keiji; plays with your hands and caresses them. it’s the delicate feel and gentleness of it all. akaashi’s generally an anxious person, leaving him very fidgety. but once you two get together, and he starts being comfortable with you, expect to find your hand always between the two of his, just fondling with him. he’ll trace random figurines on the back of your hand, or have his fingers ghost over your wrist and up to your fingertips. if his hands are especially shaky, expect him to just grab one of your yours and hold it tightly between the grasp of two of his. it conveys trust, and all you have to do is kiss his knuckles gently and he’s melting.

konoha akinori; he has your reminders app linked with his, and sneaks in small, motivating messages. every once in a while you’ll get a notification from the app that tells you to drink water or have a snack (or text konoha he’s bored and he misses you). also always sends you pictures to distract you from stress. like it could literally just be a picture of him smiling with a thumbs up and you’d just ,,, melt bc you love him so much.

shiratorizawa ━━

ushijima wakatoshi; he has so many plants that are named after you, or your nicknames, and he’s like so gentle with them too. like strokes their petals and speaks to them so softly, the same way he does with you. you’re honestly so curious how he hasn’t run out of names, but he’s just a genius like that. whenever you go over to his place, and he’s bought a new one, he’ll take your hand and guide you to where it’s growing and just be like “look it’s baby y/n” and you just 🥺🥺🥺

semi eita; he has a playlist on his phone, that’s constantly being updated, for you and him to listen to. the first time he showed it to you, you were stargazing and he took out his phone and headphones and was like “i made a playlist for you wanna list” and every part of your body lit up in flames im not joking. now, a lot of the times, you’re coming back home on a train, and your head is on his shoulder and you’re sharing headphones listening to the playlist. when either one of you is driving you’re blasting it (a lot of the playlist is the hsm soundtrack)

satori tendō; tendo reads people so well, and being in a relationship with him means he will read you so well. so a lot of the times, in social situations, he’ll recognize the signs of you wanting to leave, for example, or if someone’s bothering you, he’ll know exactly how to approach it too. this also entails having a lotta inside jokes hehe, and also just like. talking with your eyes. yk that thing. yeah. all you have to do is look at him a certain way, and he just knows exactly what you just said.

goshiki tsutomu; he buys the both of you this small plushie, and whenever you’re missing each other you just. squish it. and he squishes his. he would rather die than let anyone know this, but you’re not too keen on letting anyone know yourself tbh. it’s just this little thing you have, and it means a lot more to you than just this. when he first bought it he was like “look we have matching plushies” and you passed away on the spot ❤️

shirabu kenjirō; loves trying out new recipes with you. he’s not too big on cooking or baking, but there’s just something about doing it with you that really — hits the spot yk. nowadays, whenever he comes across a new recipe on social media that he thinks you’ll like he just automatically sends it to you like with no words no texts just the post and you’re like “OMG CAN WE DO THIS” and he’s like “why else would i send it. yes we can :)” hvskwkeke

end note;  thank you sm for the love on my last two posts!! i’m glad you guys enjoyed them sm. if you have any requests, they’re open and i’m happy to deliver, mwah!

[kodzusken]

miles apart // p.p.

summary: peter decides to surprise you for your one-year anniversary.

pairing: peter parker x reader

warnings: MINIMAL angst, fluff

word count: 1.5k

a/n: this is a repost.

it was your smile that caught his eye first. that dazzling grin that radiated pure happiness and joy. peter wondered what you’d been looking at on your phone that had made you smile so wide. it wasn’t until you looked up in alarm when someone bumped you that he noticed how gorgeous the rest of you was.

his palms tingled as his leg bounced up and down, his heart fluttering fast. he didn’t even know your name, how old you were or where you were from. he just knew he had to get your contact information before you walked off the train.

as peter frantically argued with himself back and forth on how he should go about attempting to talk to you, he nearly missed you as you rose to get off the train. like a bullet, he shot up from his seat and grabbed your wrist.

you shot him an alarmed glance, your expression frozen with fear. peter dropped your wrist immediately, his eyes widening with horror and his face turning beet red. “oh-oh shit, i’m sorry, i didn’t mean to-”

as you watched him stutter his way through an explanation, your fear slowly melted away and a relaxed smile took its place. peter pressed his lips together, hoping he’d get the chance to see it reappear.

“i-i was just-you’re really pretty,” he mumbled unabashedly, then immediately clamping his teeth down into his lower lip. “i was wondering if i could get your number?”

your cheeks flushed red as the train doors slid closed. “you think i’m pretty?”

he nodded, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips.

peter felt like he was floating as he watched you dig out a pen, take his hand and scribble your number on it. the pen tickled his palm as you wrote, but he was too lost in your failure to hide your smile to notice.

the train lurched forward, sending you sliding forward with a yelp. peter’s strong grip caught you just in time, your eyes meeting in a brief exchange of shock. you immediately bounced up, still feeling peter’s fingers lightly hovering on your back.

“i’m sorry i made you miss your stop,” he apologized quietly, his hand dropping to his side. guilt flooded his body as you reached out and squeezed his shoulder.

“it’s okay,” you reassured, tilting your head to the right. “i can get off at the next one. it’s closest to the airport, anyway.”

and he watched you carefully step off the train once it stopped again, mesmerized as you shot a wave and grin his way. his gaze followed you as you walked away, your hand resting on the top your over-the-shoulder purse. peter glanced down at the ballpoint numbers on his palm. it had already smudged from the nervous sweating. he immediately copied it into his phone.

it wouldn’t be until midnight that he’d finally muster up the courage to properly compose a text that would spark the start of something wonderful.

the first time he’d heard your voice over a phone call, he’d immediately fallen for you all over again. it was nighttime where you lived, and your voice was soft and raspy. you often paused your sentences to yawn, and no matter how many times peter had begged you to sleep, you’d always stay up for ten more minutes just to listen to him talk.

fast forward a year and a million heart-melting texts later, you were floating on cloud nine as your thumb tapped the blue “send” button on your phone. you bit the inside of your cheek as you watched your long paragraph to peter send, showering him with affectionate nicknames and sweet words.

you glanced at the polaroids strung up on your wall, still hardly believing that it had already been a year since the cute boy on the train had prevented you from getting off at the right stop. and boy, were you glad he did.

you kept continuously glancing down at your phone, waiting for it to light up with a new message from peter. when it didn’t, you swallowed the small twinge of hurt. it must’ve been time zones. that was what it was, right?

hours later, you sank down into your bed on top of the covers, rolling over on your side to check your phone one last time before heading off to sleep. still no response. you scrolled up to the last message he’d sent. a week ago.

you swallowed the lump that had risen in your throat, trying to reassure yourself that it was okay as tears dotted your vision.

you wiped your tears away with the heel of your palm, slightly shocked that peter hadn’t bothered to respond to your text on your one-year anniversary. you sniffed, tugging your blankets closer to you. what was he doing all the way in queens, anyway? your tired, sleep-deprived mind immediately assumed the worst. were you breaking up? was he ghosting you because he was tired of you?

a quiet knock on your window made you leap up off your bed, your sleepy body immediately becoming rigid. “who’s there?” you cried, eyes darting around for the nearest object to use as a weapon.

“it’s me,” a familiar voice called. you blinked once, then twice. was your mind playing tricks on you, or was that actually-

“peter?” you asked hesitantly, waiting with bated breath.

“yeah.”

you rushed over to the window and ripped open your curtains to see peter perching on your window ledge, wearing his familiar blue midtown sweater he knew you loved. you gasped as you frantically fumbled with the locks on the window, pulling him inside as soon as you got it open. “peter, oh my god, what were you doing out there?”

peter wrapped his arms around you, hugging you close to his chest. “i needed to see you, especially on a special day like this.”

you hugged his waist, your head dropping on his shoulder. “how-how did you get here? and why were you standing on my win-”

he pressed a brief, hasty kiss to your lips, his thumb brushing across your cheek. both your bodies flushed with heat as you pulled away, the question on your mind already forgotten.

“i thought you were mad at me,” you blurted out as his fingers ran through your messy, untidy hair. “where have you been this whole week?”

“i was getting here,” he shrugged. “to see you.”

your bottom lip quivered as you sighed in relief, your fingers playing with his. “i’m such an idiot. i thought you were breaking up with me.”

“darling, i would never,” peter promised, squeezing your hand in response. “i would never.”

your teeth sank into your bottom lip as you threw your arms around him again, hugging him as tight as possible. you felt every muscle in his body relax at your touch, and you melted into his embrace. you couldn’t help it as your tears dotted his sweater-clad shoulder. it had just been too long since you’d seen him.

“can we cuddle?” he asked, his voice muffled by your neck. tingles shot up and down your spine as his lips moved against your skin.

“of course.” you gestured to the bed, where he immediately jumped on the covers like a five year old and opened his arms. a giggle slipped from your mouth as you crawled into them, letting him pull the blankets up and over your bodies. peter smiled. your laugh was even better when he heard it in person.

his hands wrapped around your shoulders as he tugged you closer. it wasn’t until you saw peter’s face up close that you noticed the deep eyebags that looked like they could carry groceries. you ran a thumb over them, shooting him a concerned glance. “have you been-”

“yes, i’ve been sleeping,” peter finished uncomfortably, waving your hand away. you frowned. liar.

“c’mon, peter, don’t lie to me,” you whispered, ruffling his dark brown hair. “y’know i love you.”

he wriggled around in your arms for a while before finally acquiescing to your worried gaze. “fine,” he grumbled, glancing down at your intertwined hands. “i-i’ve been having trouble sleeping-every time i close my eyes, i think of you in some sort of trouble and i can’t do anything from queens, when we’re miles apart, and-and-”

you wiped away the tears that had gathered in his eyes and were spilling softly down his cheeks, and placed a kiss to his cheek. “i’m here now, okay, baby? please sleep for me?”

peter stroked your hair gently. “i don’t deserve you, darling.”

”shut up,” you poked a finger into his side playfully to lighten the mood. he sniffled and chuckled, making you grin. “i love you.”

his arms closed around your body as he placed a series of loving kisses up and down your jawline. you sighed contentedly as you snuggled up into his neck.

after only a few minutes of cuddling into peter’s soft as fuck hoodie, you drifted off to sleep in his arms. peter blinked down at you, unable to keep a goofy grin off his face. it wasn’t until extremely late at night that he finally fell asleep, not because of nightmares. but because, for once, reality was better than his dreams.

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[raisinchallah]

screaming i know im not gonna be able to sleep until like 9am i just fucking know it cuz ive many times given into the false sleepiness earlier than the time i went to sleep the night before and ended up trapped in no sleep hell lying in my bed in the dark but im sooooo tired... i do think the one nice thing the sleep doctor clarified was i guess knowing a bit more about various sleep disorders and idk if my sleep issues are easily classifiable but the whole pattern of the non 24 sleep wake disorder thing where ur sleep can only go forwards and u cant like sleep earlier it jsut sort of works its way around the clock makes a lot of sense cuz yeah if i sleep at say 7am one night even if im exhausted and try to sleep at 5am without fail ill end up staying up for hours even if i only got like 4 hours of sleep the night before like my sleeping time refuses to go backwards except maybe in some pretty extreme sleep deprivation cases but tbh ive found my sleep deprivation has actually just made it harder and harder to sleep like i really had an entire mental breakdown lying in bed for four hours crying id never be able to sleep again... which is why its so vital again to be able to judge the whole perfect sleep time so i can spend as little time in bed lying awake as possible.. anyways i should probably get studied in a lab or something love how half the time being awake in the day im exhausted and then it gets dark and im like now im awake..

[leavetwn]

* AMANDA CAMPANA, NOBINARY + SHE/HER/THEY/THEM  | you know RAMONA GALLO, right? they’re TWENTY-THREE, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, TWENTY-THREE YEARS? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to CRYING ON THE BATHROOM FLOOR BY MUNA like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole COLD PIZZA AS A HANGOVER CURE, TALKING SHIT ABOUT CUSTOMERS IN THE BREAKROOM, LONGING FOR WHAT COULD'VE BEEN,  thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is AUGUST 17TH, so they’re a LEO, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( claire, 22, est, she/her )

HEY , BESTIES ! happy new year (the way it’s 11:55pm here so barely) !! my name’s claire and i’m 22. i’m livin in the est timezone, and my pronouns are she/her. i’m bringing y’all a mess of a muse 😈 because well  ,,, it’s what i’m best at. if you’re feelin ramona & wanna plot, just go ahead and like this & i’ll hit you up. i usually plot on discord, but if you prefer the tumblr ims, that’s no problem at all. anyway, lemme stop waistin time and get to introducing you to ramona. * tw: mentions of cheating & alcohol. 

𝐈. ━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 .

full name: ramona gallo.  nickname(s): anything your muse wants to call her tbh. age: twenty-three. date of birth: august 17th. zodiac sign: leo. gender/pronouns: non-binary, she/her/they/them. sexual orientation: bisexual. romantic orientation: biromantic. hometown: irving, north carolina. current residence: irving, north carolina. occupation: employee at zoinkies currently,  a lifeguard during the summer. eye color: brown. hair color/style: had long hair up until her breakup then had one of those breakdowns and cut her own hair into a bob and then her own bangs. i bet it was a mess lol so she probably called her friends or went to a salon the very next day to get it fixed. also highlighted the ends red but her natural color is brown. height : 5′5″. clothing style: simple and comfortable. t-shirts, croptops, turtlenecks, all usually paired with either jean shorts or jeans in general. she prefers to feel cozy rather than cute. tattoos: yes. a small one on her wrist. wants more eventually. piercings: both ears peirced & a navel piercing that she did herself against better judgement lol.

𝐈. ━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐡𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 .

you were born on a scorching hot day in irving , your father says so, anyway. you’re convinced he’s being dramatic. your birth went smoothly; after two previous children, your parents had become disillusioned by childbirth. just another one to add to the bunch, and one that was meant to save a dying marriage. still, they loved you nonetheless. your father, to this day. your mother, until you were ten, and then she up and left without a warning. 

your father keeps food on the table by fixing cars. you spend your days in the hot sun watching him replace parts and continuously try to crank vehicles until they run. he fist pumps every time one does. ‘ how lame, ’ you think, but it’s inspiring how hard he works to take care of three kids. and he does a good job. 

therefore , you spend much of your early life trying to make him proud. you’re smart as a whip, and all your teachers have good things to say about you when it comes to academics. you’re a bit of a troublemaker, though. your father doesn’t mind that too much; he was the same at your age. and he’s proud  —  proud to see you work so hard. 

you spend your teenage years doing much of the same. though , you begin to come home a bit later than usual, and your excuse is that you’ve been at ashley’s or samantha’s, but really all three of you were out partying. you don’t think your father would care (your grades are fine & he wants you to live like a normal teenager) ,  but you still lie about it. why ? well, who knows, maybe you like the adrenaline rush it gives you. like most things, you do them for the thrill. 

you join the swim team. you’re kind of bad , but that’s okay. just like always , you work hard, and you realize that you’re kind of a natural. your father cheers louder than anyone else in the stands. it pushes you to do better. with your good grades and athletics , your guidance counselor tells you you’re a shoo in for a scholarship from whatever university you want. you apply to several. if it’s one thing you hate, its this town. you can’t wait to make it out, and you figure, this might be your only way. 

you’re eighteen, and you’re in love. it’s crazy how love can make you see things differently. suddenly , this town doesn’t seem half bad. all your friends find it cute , and you tell them everything. the things he tells you or the way he makes you feel. it’s a crazy feeling; you never want it to end. 

you throw your cap in the air. finally , high school is over. college is looming. you’ve been accepted to several & received scholarships from at least a few. you lie in bed thinking about it. now, you suddenly don’t want to leave so bad. don’t want to leave him behind. how could someone leave another they love so easily? it makes you hate your mother more.

for the first time, you disappoint your father. you don’t go to college. you don’t give a damn. you want to stay where love is. you’re addicted to the feeling. this lasts for three years. now, you’re twenty-one; you’ve gotten a job at zoinkies, and that keeps you away for most of the day. you randomly decide to visit your boyfriend during a lunch break one day. you find him in bed with someone else. suddenly , you realize love isn’t as addicting as you once thought. what once made the world beautiful now made it hideous. what once made you feel so high had somehow made you feel so low. it was horrible, and you’d realized your mistakes. 

you threw away your future for love. something as rotten and twisted as love. something you swore you’d never let yourself feel again. something that you put away in a locked box with no key. irving was the same place you’d always known it to be. boring, drab, familiar. at least you had your family. that was barely enough to keep you sane, though, and it was hard to feel normal.

you turned to the thing that help. alcohol, partying, any escape at all. you lacked coping skills   —  that much was clear, but you didn’t care. you blamed it on something else entirely. just as your teachers had said, you’re a bit of a troublemaker. you do anything to make yourself feel alive, to make yourself feel free of the hurt. 

it’s two years later now. you’re still not over it in some ways, as regret turns to anger and resentment. you’re bitter. who wouldn’t be? but you feel like you’ve had time to mourn. maybe it’s because you never acknowledged it in the way you should’ve ( it’s still locked away in that box. ) you still have your bad habits. you still work at your stupid job that you hate. you’re lost, but you’ll figure it out. you always do. so, you continue to float , seemingly stuck in the town that you never let go of, and you wonder what comes next. only time will tell.

𝐈. ━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬 .

still swims but doesn’t have as much time for it. probably not as good, but since she spends the summer lifeguarding, she uses that time to practice & try to get back to where she was. also kinda jaded asf so even if she says she wants to get back into it, she probably won’t lmaoo.

is a horrible driver. how did she get a license ?? not even she knows. def the type to like have a leg up on the dash board, hand out the window, and only one hand on the wheel while speedin idk how she makes it out alive

can take a car apart and put it back together again thanks to her dad. also changes her own tires so let her change your tires. im just sayin 

stays up way too late & would sleep until 2 pm everyday if she didn’t have to work. should probably work on being an adult and going to bed at a normal time but just half the time doesn’t give a fuck so she’s probably sleep deprived a lot. therefore also has a 

character parallels: alice ayres/jane jones (closer, 2004) , clementine (eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, 2004) , fiona gallagher (shameless, 2011-present) , more to be added.

𝐈. ━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 .

ok but plots really do be making my world go ‘round. 😳 i love em, so literally hmu with anything you’re feeling, and i’ll be down. just wanna plot & write with everyone 💕 but here’s a couple of wanted connections for y’all. i’ll prolly have a most wanted tag sooner or later & i’ma be make a plot page soon.  

* the unholy trinity  — these two are the friends she cherishes most. i’m assuming they’ve been friends since at least early high school , maybe earlier. they went through a lot together. these two were with her through all her relationship troubles. true ride or dies. she’s do absolutely anything for them, and she trusts that they feel the same way. they’re rowdy & wild, do whatever they want, and have a damn good time doin it. also have a gc where they just talk shit and send tiktoks idk just gimme this plsss 🥺

* friends with benefits / one night stands  —  this would probably be the extent of ramona. clearly not over what happened to her the last time 😭, so she’d have plenty of these tbh. she probably wouldn’t think too much about it, but it could be awkward for you muse maybe, etc. 

* unrequited love / crush  —  here’s a toast to the ones who crush on ramona. it would be an absolute tragedy lmaoo. she’s not really mean about it, but she is 100% certain she’s not looking for any type of relationship. could be really dramatic and messy and those are tha best kind. literally this

* former friends / enemies  —  she’s lived here her whole life, so she’s at least got one. these two just don’t get along/no longer get along for whatever reason that can be plotted out. 

* coworkers   — she works zoinkies throughout the year and picks up shifts as a lifeguard during the summer so your muses could know her from that. could delve into a close friend territory too lmao. they probably just sit in break rooms and talk about rude customers or bossy managers lmaooo.

* literally anything your heart desires — a lot could work. we could even just start from nowhere & have them meet for the first time if they’re newer/just to town. 

[sunatooru]

SHAWTY IM BACK and so sleep deprived and stressed 🤪 first of all the fact that you’re in the uk makes sense to me,,, i got fam in the uk and i remember i went clubbing earlier this year and y’all were still in lockdown and my cousin messaged me like “wow can’t believe y’all are basically back to normal” but now it’s like the other way around bc at least y’all didn’t slack on vaccines 🤡 anyways good onya tbh for going back to “normal” bc i’m struggling but oh well. i finished my essay btw, EXTREMELY last min bc i was really procrastinating so hard bc it’s really hard to link structural governmental racism to the prison abolition movement okay, there’s a lot of things to talk about and it was only 1000 words which is NOT enough words but i mean it’s done whatever and submitted so goodbye KSKSKSKS uhhh other than that i have some things i need to do (hush hush bc nothings confirmed and i work in silence x) and i thought they were due the same week as my essay so that also didn’t help the panic but turns out they’re not so i’m taking a bit more time w them. also gotta do another thing i applied for (hush hush) and KSKSKSKS theres just a lot going on 🥲 anyways how’ve you been since we last chatted?? doing okay w work? - 🕯

HI HEYY WELCOME BACK🥰 sleep deprived and stress is the otp 👏🏼 and that essay seems intense and only 1000 words???😭😭 one of those essay where you have to summaries a point in 3 sentences💀 but atleast it’s over but shawty pls you getting your deadlines confused with, STRESSES me too!! Pls check them beforehand for (y)our sake 😅 afshdjlkl yes work in silence 😭😂 don’t want to jinx anything but hopefully everything goes well for you!!!

And yeah! Uk came through with the vaccines so that’s good, I saw there’s been an increase in cases in aus esp in nsw?? Hopefully your parents are okay! AND IM SO TIRED🥲 my feet are aching but it’s over now! It was fun though and I got to be social again and acc talked more with some of my coworkers and I got that bag 🤑so I’m happy but now I just have to wait to see if they’ll call me back (fingers crossed) esp for Christmas sales

[filthyjanuary]

hello!!! for the red ask thingy: claret & cherry!

claret: talk about a memorable experience on public transport.

so back when i wasnt working from home, i had to take the ttc everywhere. i like to sleep on the ttc bc i am chronically sleep deprived so i catch as much as i can during my commute to/from work.

one time i was snoozing and i got like shocked awake because there was a dude who full on was in my face, like leaning into me and yelling, and i think he was probably homeless and not doing well so like i wasn’t like... angry with him or anything but it was definitely uh.... not how i was expecting to wake up, and he smelled very bad, likely for the aforementioned reasons, and it was just a lot for me being torn out of sleep. and it def startled me pretty bad.

should have probably convinced me to stop sleeping on the subway but.... it did not. i love sleeping on the subway.

cherry: thoughts on mainstream music?

hmmmmmmmm. i have many. i guess my two distinct thoughts are a) mainstream is not an inherently bad thing and tbh i think most mainstream things are mainstream for a reason and im tired of this weird attitude that stuff that is popular is bad like get over yourself go outside. pop music is fun! and isn’t all vapid or whatever stereotypes exist. and sometimes vapid is what you need in the moment anyway!!! mainstream music from other genres is good too and if the only reason you dont like an artist is because theyre successful, please get a hobby or something. b) streaming is like... destroying the concept of albums and also the concept of like... songs being the length they should be and not the optimal streaming length for maximizing plays/making money and.... i dont like that but i dont even know how we’d fix it at this point.

in terms of preference, i dont love a lot of the mumble rap stuff.

also i feel out of the loop bc i feel like songs that get really huge now all blow up on tiktok and i am not on tiktok so grandma doesnt even know what mainstream is anymore. i dont listen to the radio and i dont go on tiktok and i dont know whats happening.

send me shades of red asks

[starcaptorss]

its 1am, lets review Radio Silence

Radio Silence is a book written by Alice Oseman (found at @chronicintrovert), which was published in 2014.

This isn't your typical review, because im high on sleep deprivation. it isn't spoiler free, and its full of me being tired and gay. it makes no sense :)

here's the hot shit. its about a fictional podcast and its a cry for help from the coolest non-gender conforming kid ive ever seen written, and its to his sister, but also thats pretty gay man, and also i love Lorraine although it was an interesting name choice. i like it.

anyway.

it took me a few hours to read this book, mostly because my adhd ass can't not hyperfixate, and i AM buying it from the store tomorrow. if i can find it. stupid australia with their stupid grumble grumble grumble

so - Frances. I like her. She's a bit odd, but she's also pretty realistic. I can see that bein a real person. and Aled. I can see how far gone he was, and i really fuckin connect to it, because altho my parents arent like kill the dog abusive theyre still abusive enough that [REDACTED] and i can see how i connect to him and tbh? that point he was at in uni? thats me right now. and Carys was interesting. she gave off all these vibes (summer time vibes dude) and i was like "aw fuck man!!!!!!!!!!!!!" but eventually i was like "thats some real shit" and it is. and she just Serves That Tea!!!!!!! Daniel was just. he was so insecure, and its obvious he was a dick to cover that up. but i mean, he was just a kinda sorta dick and not a bully, and thats why it was good writing. and raine is just a Big Gay Mess and i love her. and i couldnt read her without a bogan accent im sorry!!!!!

im so fucking tired what am i writing? ouch my serisis. dont got limbs babey!!

anyway. i like podcasts and encorporating such into the book was So Fuckin Good. altho i didnt resd them properly really because im so fucking tired im sure ill go back and do it proper soon. anyway im tired peace!

[lollybliz]

OK OK OK OK im not strong enough to stay away long even if im now not sure how useful these are but Whatever im having fun

we doing rarepairs here- gimme that ShinDeku content dudes

most shindeku is tragic to some degree or another for some reason. lots of vigilante aus.

Izuku Ate a Tesseract is a series by CosmicAce, and while the whole thing is excellent, the first one was more of a test-run than anything else, and isn’t as canon to the au as the work Izuku Eats His Problems. if you know what Flerkins are you already know what this is. its Pretty Goofy but delightful and updates consistently to boot! “His whole life, Izuku Midoriya was taught to keep his powers, his Quirk, hidden from the world. His kind were feared, hunted to near extinction because of it. He just wants to show people he’s different. That he can be a HERO. And nothing is going to stop him. Even if his Quirk IS like an eldritch abomination.“

(they arent together, or really trying to get together, yet in this one, but one of the tags says maybe? im counting it anyways.)

Not to be Alone by Frost_Nova is a pre-UA Izuku-actually-makes-some-real-friends au, via a discord like app hosted by Mina, whose a vlogger. this is the closest thing to a chatfic that im gonna let pass in these posts, theres a lot of emphasis on the discord like parts but it also has normally written segments, more as they begin to meet each other in real life. “Izuku is a lonely boi so he joins a discord server. that’s it that’s the fic. he also becomes part of the meme team but thats later”

Here There Be Dragons by here_and_there is a crack fic taken very seriously, tbh. izuku’s quirk turns him into a dragon, and dragon!izuku wants to add class 1-A to his hoard, and Shinsou to be his Precious Treasure. its pretty cute so far? “Izuku looked at the small circle Aizawa had motioned to in front of them. "I won't fit," he whispered, thinking. He raised his hand, tentatively. Sighing, Aizawa grumbled, "What?" "I-I have a question. Actually, two." His teacher just stared at him, unimpressed. Izuku continued. "Can we activate our quirks before we step into the ring?" Aizawa looked up into the sky, muttering something Izuku didn't hear. "If you must." "O-Okay. Uh, second question. You said we have to stay inside the circle, right?" "Yes." The man looked disappointed, not only in Izuku but in himself for letting the kid speak. "Great. Uh... does that include tails?"”

It was dark inside the closet by Chad_Champion69420 is a one-shot about a prank of sorts. are they actually together? I don't know. they certainly don't know. and now, thanks to their tomfoolery, class 1-A doesn't know either. “Midoriya is invited to a party. He and Shinsou decide to play a little trick on the rest of the party during Seven Minutes in Heaven.”

Sleep Exhaustion Causes Sleep Paralysis by Rhia_Emrys is a dadzawa good(ish) Dabi homeless izuku pile of nonsense. I like it quite a bit, but it is a bit chaotic, and the au takes a different angle than most. “Izuku Midoriya was born with a rather unfortunate quirk, extraordinarily powerful, but deeply hidden by self-loathing. Thus, it only manifested as a simple quirk known as sleep deprivation for most of his life. Due to a tragic accident in his childhood, he's left abandoned on the street without a dollar to his name. Thankfully, with a little divine intervention and an exasperated underground hero, he might just be able to turn things around.(Sleep Deprivation- If the user touches someone they can transfer however tired they are to that person. They also physically can't sleep.)“

Vigilante Ghost by allergic__to__people is a orphan vigilante izuku fic where slowly but surely dadzawa begins to earn this wild kid’s trust, only to find him bleeding out on his doorstep. “Izuku Midoriya disapears at the age of 8 after his mother is killed. A year later, a mysterious vigilante named 'Ghost' shows up. When Aizawa gets saved by him and discovers a bit more about his identity, he is hellbent on making sure the kid is save. So what happens when this vigilante knocks on his door in the middle of the night, beaten up and an obviously unhealthy amount of blood is leaving his body? Well, let's go to the hospital and try to make sure you do not end up in jail!”

Shookspeare wrote a Shindeku month series that's rather pleasant. my favorite is the seventh one, but i’ll just put the whole series here

safe haven by periiwren is going to do its solid best to crack your heart in twain, and you’ll enjoy it. erasermic, adopted shinsou, cuddles. all the good stuff. just a helpful heaping of homophobic!inko and trauma recovery to go with. “What some of his students might find surprising is that Aizawa Shouta wasn’t nearly as cold-hearted as he appeared to be. Quite the opposite, in fact - he’s married, with a son and four cats between him and his husband. Despite what his cold words and demeanor would suggest, he actually cares a great deal about his students. So when he’s at home on a Friday evening, he’s instantly alert when his son jumps up and practically sprints into his room, answering his ringing phone with the name Izuku before the door slams shut. He sets aside his paperwork to share a concerned look with his husband stationed in the kitchen. Shouta’s brow furrowed. Midoriya? Since when are they on first name basis? Shinsou and Midoriya make a pact to tell their parents about their relationship. It doesn’t go over well on the latter’s end.“

Butterfly Effect by AndStillTheyStood only has one chapter so far, so im not going to try to summarize it properly. I will say its a life is strange au. “Excerpt: "Before his eyes, he was able to make something out of his splotched vision. Everything went backwards. He was lucky he wasn't able to hear anything, since he couldn't even make sense of what he saw. The slime villain receded into a plastic bottle. Bakugou walked backwards. The bottle floated up. He saw All Might, moving backwards in his signature flying pose, and he saw the bottle fall-- er, rise-- into All Might's hand. He dropped his arm."“

The Other Side Of Paradise by Mr_Ghost(Mx_Nobody), Mx_Nobody is. hard to describe. Touya stops being one kid’s big brother to go start being another kids big brother? kinda? found family, lets go with that. “Izuku, even at ten years old, knows there is something wrong with him. His father told him so. His mother had told him so. Even Kacchan- his best and only friend had told him so. - The only thing Touya regrets is leaving Shouto behind, but he couldn’t get Shouto alone for long enough to sneak him out, father basically has him on lockdown. - Todoroki Touya and Midoriya Izuku run away on the same day and happen to run into each other.”

and that's that for shindeku. hm. how about BakuDeku? not technically a rarepair, but I don’t have many of them, and of those, only a few aren't poly.

how bout we start with one that Will Rip Your Heart Out and Stomp On It.

The Way You Used To Do by edema_ruh. hurts. its amazing! and there are definitely lighthearted moments! but its also chock full of trauma. izuku spends the first half as a ghost while his body is in a coma and only Bakugou can see and speak to him. its. a mess. basically its an emotional rollercoaster, both for the characters and the reader. currently on a Horrific Cliffhanger. “"We're really sorry," his father says, in a teary-eyed, wobbly way. "But your friend, Izuku, he's... He's gone, son."      Katsuki can do nothing but blink up at them for moments that feel like an eternity, eyes darting between both his parents in obvious confusion, disbelief, and, more than anything, indignation.  "What the fuck are you two talking about? The damn nerd is standing right beside you!" During a battle, Midoriya gets hit by a villain whose quirk detaches his soul from his body. Stuck in a ghost-like state, the boy enters a race against time in order to save himself from permanently dying. Much to his luck - or lack of it -, the only person who can see and talk to him in this state is no one other than Kacchan. Alternatively: Deku and Kacchan are soulbound.”

Standing in awe of death is a series by Ramabear(RyMagnatar) that portrays the essence of ‘This character cant stay dead so they keep dying for the advantage’ mixed with a horrifically unhealthy relationship. this is a mess. its very well written, and definitely a work of art, but its painful. I, personally, don't think its bad enough to be Dead Doved, but its close. i’m a little wary to rec it, honestly. mind the tags, take care of yourself. “A collection of Ajin!Izuku pieces. Sections range in size from multi-chapter pieces to oneshot intermissions designed to fill in the plot around the whole of the beast. Definitely filled with heavy themes, gore, violence, sexual violence and a co-dependency of dangerous levels.”

and to cheer you back up again, Percentages and Probabilities by kagome_angel is an extremely fuffy future fic where Izuku moves in next door to Katsuki and they begin to relearn who they are, and bond. its delightful, if you aren't smiling the whole time start over, try again. “"What the hell are you doing here?" "I... live here, Kacchan. "Midoriya Izuku and Bakugou Katsuki become neighbors.  Izuku considers moving elsewhere. He's really, really glad that he doesn't.”

I have. one. lonely TodoBaku fic bookmarked. a few throuples, and technically they’re paired up in Buried in the Backyard, but that's focused on shinkami so. doesn't count. so just the one todobaku. its a good one though!

how to woo your local trash gremlin: a comprehensive guide by Todoroki shouto by wonhaebunny is absolutely hilarious, and the fic that brought me over to todobaku as a stand alone ship. its another nonsensical case of trying to confess and failing while the target watches on knowing exactly whats going on, the little shit. “five times shouto tries to confess to bakugou, and one time he doesn't bother trying. aka: wikihow is a scam and bakugou is a terrible, terrible boy”

how bout some KiriDeku?

bad at sleeping, worse at dreaming by kirishimidoriya(CastielTheAngel) is the only work so far in the series Midnight, Sunrise, though I hope that changes at some point because its adorable and id pay through the teeth to read more. Kiri has a nightmare, and Mido happens upon him in the common room and they chat and cuddle. its. unbelievably wholesome. “Maybe he takes note of the way Kirishima’s eyes glisten pink in the moonlit room. Maybe he likes how the shadows paint Kirishima’s hair a beautiful tyrian purple. Maybe someday he’ll fall in love with the subtle dusting of freckles on Kirishima’s cheeks, dappling his nose, a sight only for those who’re close enough to observe. Kirishima turns his head as well, then. Midoriya feels his cheeks run red, likely a spectacle worthy of challenging Kirishima’s dye. He’s been caught staring, and he’s about to say something to avoid coming off as creepy, but that would probably only worsen the situation and dig him into a deeper hole, or – or make things even more awkward, which is the absolute last thing he wants, and oh shit, Kirishima’s staring back – Or, Midoriya can't seem to fall asleep, and Kirishima's had a nightmare. Cue the (sliiiightly angsty) fluff.”

Sweet Connection by tiffersthenerdy is a firefighter/baker no-quirk adult au, and its just as fluffy as it sounds. very little angst, and its mostly light stuff; miscommunications and worrying for the people you love and the like. “Kirishima Eijirou moves into a small apartment above a bakery where he meets his one and only neighbor, Midoriya Izuku. They are both disaster gays who need each other to clear away the smoke in their lives while still stoking each other's flames.”

heres something weird in this fandom- no ship. Platonic.

I could cheat here. I will, actually. please just go read everything by BeyondTheClouds777, they are a blessing on earth and we all kneel before their angst-ridden qpp wonders.

if we’re gonna get specific though... Izuku is a Spooky Problem Child by BeyondTheClouds777 is an excellent series, and while it holds some of the angsty vibes Beyond’s known for, its a little milder than some of the others. he’s not actually a ghost, he just looks like one. absolutely riddled with manga spoilers. “In which Izuku has a Quirk that allows him to eject his ghost from his body ("disassociate"), and regardless of how odd or terrifying this ability can be, he's dead-set on becoming a hero.He's also made it his purpose in life to haunt his loved ones with terrible puns.”

Apprenticeship by BeyondTheClouds777 is another good one, especially if you hate Endeavors guts and want nice things for Shouto. some spoilers, but mostly you have to already know to pick up on them. mostly. and its not finished yet, so it may (will) get more spoilery. Extreme levels of Dadzawa. “Shortly after the Hosu incident, Shouto shows up on Aizawa's doorstep in the middle of the night, uncertain and with no one else to turn to. Without evidence to convict Endeavor and the gnawing danger of the Todoroki household, Aizawa takes Shouto in as his apprentice to keep him out of his father's reach until a more permanent settlement can be arranged. Endeavor won't get away with what he did to his family. Not if Aizawa has anything to say about it.“

hi here’s pain. you know how I said he just looks like a ghost? in U.A.’s Resident Ghost, by, of course, BeyondTheClouds777, Izuku has been dead since he was 12, and is now following Aizawa around. not haunting 1-A, no, attending. this one will snap your legs off at the knees and then proceed to beat you with them, but its somehow still really cute? and I’m super curious to see where it goes. “There is a ghost at U.A. Not haunting U.A. Not even hanging out at U.A. There is a ghost. Enrolled. As a student of U.A. And it's just Shouta's luck that he has everything to do with it.“

anyway just go read their stuff. all of it.

after that, not technically platonic and Subject To Changes- Background Only. this is mostly gonna be erasermic being dads, gonna be straight with you.

favoritist, most important, highest priority to remember is definitely family of the year by periiwren. this fic. this fic my dudes, oh my god. there is no better Hitoshi found family, I’m sure of it. I don't know what deal perii made with what devil to create this beauty but it is here and I will forever be grateful. foster system Hitoshi Shinsou, Prospective parents EraserMic. updates sundays. this one may need to be recategorized in the future, periiwren also wrote a cute Shindeku referenced above, so i wouldn't be surprised to se that again here tbh. “Hitoshi is done. Done with moving around every few months to a couple that will scrutinize him and eventually dump him right back where he started. Good thing he’s well past his strike limit now- at least he can stay in one place, be content to age out of the system and finish out his training with Aizawa. Maybe transfer into the hero course, maybe be a hero- but none of that was guaranteed. The only thing for sure was that he was going to stay in that center for the rest of his childhood. Or so he thought- because Aizawa Shouta and Yamada Hizashi have other plans.”

(I am almost completely certain this next one will move Eventually, but at this time Izuku is far to emotionally damaged to be looking for a relationship. its also the fic that got me commenting again, so like whoop for that.)

Apertum Mortem by so_dont_let_in_the_light is a rather traumatic izuku cant die due to his quirk fic where he’s a mess, his mom is a horrid person, and luck just has it out for this kid, but he’s making friends and learning to heal so. things are looking up. it took almost 100 chapters for him to finally start being honest with his friends though, so. we in for the looooong haul here, and i’m thrilled. I am extremely fond of this fic, and have been bugging the author every chapter since I found it, and they haven’t chased me off yet so i’m just gonna keep getting clingier probably tbh. “Izuku has always had secrets. The first one he ever kept was of his mother's training sessions after the doctor's visit. Being quirkless was never a willing choice he got to make in more ways than one. The second secret he ever kept you ask? His quirk. Or. Izuku grew up facing more than just discrimination.    A/N: I'm so sorry in advance.”

I think State of Mind by GuardianOfTheLoaf fits in here as well, though that may be just because the characters don't now each other well yet. Izuku can tuck things away in a pocket dimension in his head that mirrors his current staete of mind. things put in there while he’s having a panic attac come out melted, for example. this one is Angsty, and looks to be getting angstier if anything. i’m afraid for izuku at this point. “Izuku was a late bloomer, his quirk lying dormant until his tenth birthday when in a fit of emotion he grabs his mother and she disappears. With All Might slowly restoring his confidence Izuku begins the difficult journey into becoming a hero.“

that's enough for now, i’m exhausted. I can definitely write up the last post later. still need to do the poly ships!

Hey y’all drop some great BNHA fanfics here 👇🏻 they can be long or short, ships can be whoever from bakudeku to todomomo, I’m not picky I just want to read some good ones :D

[asksep]

1-65 cause 💚

hi this is gonna be hella long lmao thank u my anonymous friend

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

-constantly, it’s. weird 

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

-a solid 3.5, though its more a fear of whats in the dark that i now can’t see

3. The person you would never want to meet?

-me from five years ago cringe

4. What is your favorite word?

-two words technically, but “rubber bung” is the best thing to say, marcellus was going on about some experiment or other that needed one and i spent a solid half an hour trying not to laugh at him saying “rubber bung”

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

-suddenly every type of tree to exist has removed itself from my memory and i cant remember any tree types

update: i did a quiz and im an evergreen pine thats nice isnt it

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

-“why the fuck is my hair purple” it was marcia paying me back for setting fire to her kitchen table

7. What shirt are you wearing?

-an obnoxiously bright green one i love blinding people

8. What do you label yourself as?

-tired? confused?

9. Bright room or dark room?

-dark, but light enough to read in (i have my priorities)

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

-trying to work out how to sneak past marcia to get into the library

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

-16? 17? 18? they’ve all been stressy but there hasn’t been many major disasters which is good

12. Who told you they loved you last?

-probs beetle tbh 

13. Your worst enemy?

- spit fyres constantly growing toenails

14. What is your current desktop picture?

15. Do you like someone?

-i like a lot of someones

16. The last song you listened to?

- It’s Time by Imagine Dragons

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

-me

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

-also me

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

-beetle, and he can bring the books up from the manuscriptorium that ive needed for ages but that neither of us can be bothered/have time to carry all the way up here

also he can get me chocolate and be on hand to give me hugs as necessary

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

-probs eyes tbh. they were grey. and now they green. and that is cool.

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

-not much different i reckon, just. prettier. hopefully. and i would just wander round in the same clothes and see how many people notice its actually me. or do stuff i couldnt do normally. like. run screaming  down wizard way. shut up i havent done that anyway what

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

-i may. be able to sing. a little bit. a tad. 

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

-marcias shoes. they are going to hunt me down and stomp on me when i sleep if i dont show them enough respect

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

-i will make a sandwich with all of the ingredients available and it will be amazing

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

-i would try and deny it, but all of it would go on books that would go next to the bookshelf they can no longer fit on and never be read as i have more books than time

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

-somewhere warm. and quiet. where nobody can find me and demand anything

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

-mojitos. i love. mojitos. despite beetle and jenna and marwick and everyone saying it tastes like toothpaste. it doesnt. fight me bitches

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

-everyone has to buy me a mojito to be allowed onto the island

29. What is your favorite expletive?

-shite. solid choice, cant go wrong with it

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

-water charm, put out fire, save everything B^)

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

-the first. ten years. of my life. ahahhahahahahahahhaha 

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

-is this not me B^)))))))) i will move to. somewhere warm. 

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

-alther? though i’d want to bring alice nettles back with him

bring all the people back, too many people need to come back

34. What was your last dream about?

-i went swimming but then the water turned into purple ink and i got out and i couldnt turn myself back normal colour and i got laughed at, and then i woke up with purple hair so i’m blaming marcia for that one

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

-i think i am a good [insert anything you’d like here]

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

-a couple of times yup

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

-yep

38. What is the color of your socks?

-one is purple with blue stripes, the other is slightly green because it was originally white but i accidentally put it in the wash with my robes and cant be bothered to turn it back

39. What type of music do you like?

-a mixture of everything tbh, but i tend to lean towards more rock-y stuff? classic rock is 10/10

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

-sunsets probably because i see more of them than sunrises rip who is up that early weird

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

-i once had a gummy bear, milk chocolate and mint flavoured one, that was a solid 12/10

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

-what is. football

43. Do you have any scars?

-i have several

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

-wizard, then extraordinary wizard hopefully

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

-i would remove my ability to remember things i dont want to remember from years ago, and replace that memory with things that i actually need to know but for some reason my brain has decided that it doesnt want to store the information

46. Are you reliable?

-depends on the situation? if its a matter of life and death important then id say so yep, if not i’m. okay?

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

-who will win the yearly sled races for the next however many years 

48. Do you hold grudges?

-a bit yep, i’m the “forgive but dont forget” type 

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

-DRAGON AND HORSE, THEN BAM YOU HAVE A UNICORN KIND OF MAYBE

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

-i once had to explain to an old woman, who came in demanding to know what kind of charm her “naive young grandson” had got from us, that it was not in fact a charm from us, but a t-shirt from gothyk grotto with an old chant that some witches used to use to get high printed on the back. that was awkward.

51. Are you a good liar?

-depends on how much depends on the lie

52. How long could you go without talking?

-i once did a solid couple of months at aunt zeldas when we were hiding from the hunter, so a pretty long time tbh

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

-when i got back from being in etheldreddas time, it was like somebody had glued a birds nest to my head

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

-omg i havent? i should do that at some point, i feel like ive been deprived though i cant cook to save my life it probs wouldnt go well

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

-…….not well

56. What do you like on your toast?

-EVERYTHING

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

-spit fyre setting fire to my projection notes

a masterpiece i know 

58. What would be you dream car?

-idk, a spit fyre is all the transportation i need tbh

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

-i dont sing in the shower, i perform

60. Do you believe in aliens?

-hell yea

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

-nah

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

-take a wild guesssssssssSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

-DRAGONS

64. What do you think about babies?

-they are. small humans

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Holiii! They didnt want to watch Dunkirk? Too bad.   A sting one? I didnt hear about that. But its possible. 3000 euros? Byeee😂😂😂😂. I'm a broken student. Have some mercy on me pls. I agree 100% with what you said about parenting and conditioning kids. It's kind of sad, but also real. (1)

Hiiii!!!! Sorry I’m so late, but what a weekend! Did you know that today was Mother’s Day?L well, a lot of people seemed to have forgotten it 🙄🙄. I had so many things to do, lol. But, well, I, gonna try answer everything, bc tomorrow I won’t be able either, and I don’t want to have you waiting.Okay, in their defense I’ll say they have already seen it,jajjajaa. But, well, why don’t watch it again!?!?! I think it was a Sting one. If not him, someone like him, oops 🙊.I thing it’s cheaper now. That was like 8 years ago. Now, I guess there are more clinics that do it. Back then, there was only one. But look at the good side, if you sight isn’t stable yet, you can’t have it done. And we you finally can, you’ll have a job (hopefully) to pay for it, and it will be cheaper, jejeje.

Bringing balloons sounds like a great idea!! They had them at the last show i went and it was really cool (even though i never got to touch one of them. Jajajaj). If you do decide to bring them, i’m sure you all will have a wonderful time! Ooh, okay. Thanks for the info. I’ll take a pic when she finally puts the poster and i will send it to you🤗 (2)

Lol, imagine if I bring them, and I start glowing them, and I get dizzy, and miss part of the concert because I get sick, 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. That’d be awful!! jjajaja. But I’m slowly convincing myself to bring them, and then I’ll see if I can blow them and all that. (Ijejdiebdc I really rally want!!! But I don’t want people looking at me like I’m a crazy old lady 😅 (even if no one sees me)).I’d love to see that door, but only show me if you’re totally comfortable with it,love.

JAJAJAJA. Andy y Lucas? Really? (They came to my city’s festivity last year😂) Almost the same thing as Niall. Yep. I wasnt allowed to go to a show without my parents until i was 18 years old, and look at them now! And this is no even their first concert. Last year we went to see Ed Sheeran in Barcelona (another Bday present for my little sister). I dont know how they can be so convincing (lying. I do know. My sister is the little one and that counts…). But i’m happy for them. I really am. (4)

Hey, Andy y Lucas were a totally hit with they’re first album ,jajaja, have some respect 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. Me and my friends spent a summer walking around with our DiskMan (you know what it is, don’t ya) on hand, listening and singing their songs, lol. I got to see them twice now that I remember, lol. They came to where my sister was living, and we went to see them. Again me dragging my sister to see artist she doesn’t like,jajajja. Tbh, I haven’t being to a lot of concerts in my life :( I’ve to see: Andy y Lucasx2, Bisbal, Bustamante and Rosa (year 2002), David Civera!! 🤣 (2001), Pereza, and I think that’s that. Then I went to 1D in 2014, and Harry and Niall this year. What a lame teenage. I’d love to see Ed, how good it was?? Also, you’re little sister is a proper little sibling, eh!! Jajajaja.

Yes yes. Now they have to come back to make it up to me. (DO IIIIT PLS, IM DYING). Oooh. I saw the video of honey you uploaded 😍 Weird, but cute. Jajajajaja Yep. I’m pretty sure she follows you, because i’m always showing her blogs that i like; “this one is hilarous” or “look at the art”, and when i first found yours i was like “WHAAAAAAAT. A SPANISH LARRIE. CANT BE”. So i showed it to her. But i’m not worried bcs she is been so busy she doesnt even check tumblr anymore. Sadly. (5)

Weird is a thing to called it. Some people think is disgusting,jajajajja. I don’t careeeee, I love my weirdoooo!!! Jajajaja I go around showing his videos to whoever wants to listen,jajajjajaaj. Ohhh, I’m a Spanish larrie 😢. There are so few of us…there are probably a lot more of us, but since we all speak in English, you can’t never know. I’ve found other Spanish larries, but don’t think I follow anyone, lol. Have I told you about the most absurd thing that has ever happened to me???????? It was at Harry’s concert. The girl who I sold a ticket to, avert been talking for a bit, turns to me an ask me with the most serious face you can think “are you a larrie?” But in Spanish sounds different, as it’s something I don’t talk out loud ever,jajaja “(eres larrie?)”. And I turned to her like a little rabbit flashed in the middle of a road 😳. And I asked her “are you?” Jajajaja. And we both were, obviously. (I laughed at the absurdity of the conversation,jajajaja). And we talked a bit about Larry things, but with hushed voices, just to not alert any anti/her, whatever you want to call it,jajajaja. Well, if she doesn’t check, you don’t have to be worried. But are you keeping her informed on everything that happens? (Harry’s suits, everything Niall, Limo’s new song, LOUIS!!)

JAJAJAJA. Fun fact, my name is indeed a flowery one. Idk how, but you got that right. We can keep that name if you want. I like it. It’s cute 😊 Ooh. Yes. You started babtsitting this week right? I forgot to ask how it went. Sorry :( Omg. Your cousins sounds amazing. Really smart. He could read at the age of 2? That’s… a lot. And photographic memory? That’s a blessing amd a curse. Is that because of the autism? (I’m sorry i dont know a lot about autism) (6)

SERIOUSLY???? I don’t know why (well, I know why. I’m half witch-half human, but can talk about that later,jajaja), but you reminds me of flowers (my brain is very weird, and doesn’t make sense a lot of the time). Okay, I’ll tag things I want you to see with flower anon. Probably I’ll include a 🌺 in the tags, but that’s just because I live for emojis,jajajajja.Hey, don’t worry for not asking, I forget a lot of things, and then I remember at the most random times 🙄🙄. Well, he’s like very special. When they thought he was autist(?), doctors considerate him a super intelligent one. But in one of his revisions, they told my cousin’s parents that he wasn’t autist, but he was a very slow normal kid. So 🤷🏻‍♀️. Anyway, I don’t think photography memory is because of that. His mom has it too and my cousin (my little cousin’s dad) is always telling who usefully it was for her when she was at uni,jajajaja. He’s only a bit jealous. But I don’t know about my cousin. Of course I see his different to the rest of kids his age, but at the same time he knows thinks kids at his age don’t even dream about knowing. And is not exactly that he knew how to read, but with his memory he could recognize a word after having watched Optica written once, and repeat it out loud. Like, his mom could write once Papá, and he could remember the world anytime you’d write it. And they taught him a lot of words. And we buy him a lot of toys related with words and all that, so he learn what sound goes with what letter. So he just started reading one day. It’s amazing.

🤦🤦Depriving someone of strawberry cake only because it is pink should be considered a crime. Yeah, i think my friend wrote it. And i told her in my answers that i thought the survey was not well done, but she hasnt reach me, and i dont think she will. I’m not sure she will even use my answers bcs i went a bit overboard with them. I guess she was looking for “yes/no because of that” answers but instead i wrote her a dissertation about sexuality, genders and social construction. Ups. (7)

Pink candies even!!! Isn’t that a big case of bad parenting?!?! 🙄🙄🙄🙄 I’ll show you what I did yesterday (I hope I don’t forget,lol), and you’ll understand why I’m the rainbow queen,jajajaja.Well, if you’re close enough to each other, I think you could talk to her in person? Explain her why it was wrong? She can ignore you if you’re face to face. Maybe she’ll learn something?  Maybe she didn’t saw anything wrong with the way it was written, but if you explains it to her, she’ll understand. 🤷🏻‍♀️Also, well done 👏🏻👏🏻 on being faithful to you and your thoughts! I’m proud of you!!

Same happens to me. I spend far too much alone, and when i can, i talk as much as possible. I totally understand. Niall had kittens? She was the one that eat them? Or it was another of the cats? Oh oh!! I just remembered you said in the tags the other day that we should talk about fics and recs, but i forgot to answer then. Did you wanna talk about something in particular?? (8)

Yeah, Niall has kittens. And this time she didn’t get to eat them. She hid them anger something and two of them died. And the other one died yesterday, I think, because she didn’t feed it. I don’t know what is wrong with that cat. We even thought that something was wrong with the kittens (because their parents were siblings (niall and Louis 😅), but this time soured they were sons of another dad, so 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️. It must be her.Ooooohhhhh, fics. I love reading fics, jajaja, but I can think about anything in particular now 😭😭😭😭😭 (Bc I’m tired, and sleeping, and dreading tomorrow’s morning 😫😫). But, yes, of course, someday will talk about fics. When you’re freer. Also, when were your exams starting this week or last week???? 😱😱😱 I can’t remember!! This weekend was soooo long, it felt like a month!! Jajaja. But very very very good luck on your exams!!! You keep me informed, please?

Hazte oír? Please, dont remember me that. I was so angry. I still am. And part of my family (my conservative cousins) agree with that statement and the organisation and uh 😷. I dont understand how they can be so intolerant. I find it horrifying. Some months ago, my teacher brought someone to give a lecture, and i left halfway because i was getting too angry about what he was saying, and later i found he was from Hazte Oír and it all made sense. (9)

WHAT?? You have family who supports that?? Who are you related to them?? Okay, I started answering this before I finish reading, and now that I did you’ve let me speechless. They brought someone from that association to your uni??? 😳. I can’t believe it. But I applaud you for leaving. What a shame. Seriously, I don’t know what to tell. I find it horrifying that teachers/schools/universities do that. Because that is educate in hate. 😡😡😡😡 I’m getting angry just thinking it. I don’t know why, but I become irrational when I’m in front of that kind of thoughts. Like all I want to do is shut their f*cking mouths, and scream SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UPPPPPP!!!! IdufbvbfivubrfvI’m so sorry you have to deal with that!!

JAJAJJAJA. I wasnt serious. I just find hilarious when they call us a cult. Because we are not ?? Nop. I’m her favourite guinea pig, and she know that i dont do wax. I have only done that 2 times, and there’s not gonna be a third. I relate too much to your cousin, jajajaja. I just help her when she need someone to practice massages with, or anything not involving wax. I dont know about Oh Anna life, but a version without the screaming & the backround noises would be nice. (Reminder approved). 10

I call us a cult??? When??? Jajajjaja. I don’t remember, but if I said it, it was sarcasm, for sure, jajajaa.Jajaja “and there’s not gonna be a third” 🤣🤣🤣🤣. Oh, but aren’t you smart??? Jajajaja. You only want the good things!! No no, I you want a massage, you have to go to her wax exams, jajajaja. I don’t know why people don’t go willingly to be waxed by people who’s learning how to wax. What bad could happen?? Jajaja. My wax teacher told us that once, a previous year, one of the students let a drop of was fall on an another student eye. And to retire that wax, they had to cut her eyelashes!! THAT is horrific and traumatic!! She told us, so we didn’t ever forget that we don’t have move the wax around our clients faces/eyes. And it was the perfect story to never do it,jajaja.At this moment, I’m all in about buying a delux album with just oh Anna, Medicine, baby honey, and that melody he played yesterday(?) for 15€ plus (gastos de envío).

YOU SAW THE NEWS ABOUT LOUIS? HE IS PARTIALLY FREE. Yaaaay. And also, Liam appeared on TV? Where? What did they say? Pd. He said the word “sacapuntas” once again😂 and i love him. And, have you watched familiar mv? I havent yet, but my sister said it was cool. And last but no least, how are you? Did you had a good time? 11

Ay, don’t remember me. I still get emotional imagining good things happening to Louis. I hope/wish/pray that everything is happening in that regard is accord to him. And that this isn’t another fake good thing. I’m so tired of expecting good for him, and then he never gets it. And, realistically, I know at some point in the future, he will be “completely” free, but I can’t wait for that day. BE TOMORROW!! Well, we only can wait and see how thing go happening.Yes, I already told you about Liam. It was just exactly a minute, but it makes me so happy. And he’s everywhere!! Even in Spain! I can’t believe it. He’s doing so well. I think he said sacapuntas too,jajajaja. That’s all he knows!!🤣🤣😱😱😱 I haven’t yet!!! I totally forgot!!! I hope tomorrow I get to watch it. Sorry, limo.I’m good, thanks for asking, jajajaa, just a bit tired and sleepy. And tomorrow I have to go to some doctors p, I have to wake up at dawn (🤣🤣🤣🤣, it’s been so long since I woke up that early). But well, my sister just changed me this week’s day of work. Instead of Tuesday, I have to go on Wednesday, so u can nap Monday and Tuesday!jajaja (I haven’t go to sleep in Sunday, and I’m already thinking about my Tuesday’s nap 😅😅). And this Friday. IGET TO SEE NIALL!!!!! 😱😭😱😭😱😭 I can’t waiiiittttt!!!!!!!

This is what i we’re doing for some time yesterday, see the rainbow?? Jajajaa. I try to put rainbows every time I get a chance 🤣🤣🤣. I’m evil!!! (I know it’s not exactly a rainbow, but it was the most similar I could get 😅). And see this pink candies (marshmallows) at eh bottom? Well, some boys/kids can’t eat them, bc they’ll lose their masculinity 🙄🙄🙄🙄.

That’s all for tonight my lovely flower 🌺 anon. Have a nice day/week. Keep studying hard, so you can get your good results at the end of it all. 😚😚