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vicsy · 2 years ago

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#sometimes I get validated because of certain things I do or create #and it fills me with so much joy and emotion #but I always end up wanting more #which isn’t fair #and other times I feel like I could literally just say #can you please tell me I did good? that I did something helpful or useful or something that made others happy #and it’s just SAD #like with whatever I do I constantly require assurance #even if I’m writing fanfiction or like #helping someone with a presentation #I’m very tired of being dependent on it but I cannot get rid of my constant need of validation #and it’s really getting in the way of everything #I will delete this stupid rumble later #rn I’m just struggling for some reason

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druid-for-hire · 2 years ago

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[image id: a four-page comic. it is titled "immortality” after the poem by clare harner (more popularly known as “do not stand at my grave and weep”). the first page shows paleontologists digging up fossils at a dig. it reads, “do not stand at my grave and weep. i am not there. i do not sleep.” page two features several prehistoric creatures living in the wild. not featured but notable, each have modern descendants: horses, cetaceans, horsetail plants, and crocodilians. it reads, “i am a thousand winds that blow. i am the diamond glints on snow. i am the sunlight on ripened grain. i am the gentle autumn rain.” the third page shows archaeopteryx in the treetops and the skies, then a modern museum-goer reading the placard on a fossil display. it reads, “when you awaken in the morning’s hush, i am the swift uplifting rush, of quiet birds in circled flight. i am the soft stars that shine at night. do not stand at my grave and cry.” the fourth page shows a chicken in a field. it reads, “i am not there. i did not die” / end id]

a comic i made in about 15 hours for my school’s comic anthology. the theme was “evolution”

#dinosaur #evolution #comic #prehistoric #animal #wildlife #paleontology #biology #poetry #comics #original #my art #archaeopteryx has no direct living descendants i know #but i wanted something aerial and the dinosaur to bird connection is classic and well known anyway #also the chicken over any other bird is very on purpose #its the mix of truth and comedy and genuineness and the fantastic in the mundane #its me asking you to see something so wonderful in something taken so un-seriously #and to love it both ways #also the jurassic park thing #where someone saw the reconstructed gait of a dino #and said. hey hang on. i know that walk.#and pulled up footage of a chicken walking #which jumpstarted the entire study into the link between dinosaurs and birds #in the end take whatever you want from it i just thought id provide some insight #i always like it when other artists do #the point is that i enjoy when people laugh at the end and when they dont #and i like it when they cry. i like it best when they both laugh and cry. eeaao intent #anyway mourn your losses but to live is to change #also hi guys i finally figured out tipping after 5 months so no more annoying ko-fi link #the antidote to despair is awe

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redpapercraness · 1 month ago

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to lose you

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cidnangarlond · 4 months ago

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#putting this here in case anyone decides to go looking for more info about my particular guy here #1) soccer player 2) gay 3) started for italy met and got engaged to his future husband while there and adopted a girl #4) ends up spending the rest of his life in germany bc he got traded but he WAS able to get gay married there #because it's legal in germany and not italy. ENGAGED FOR LIKE 15 YEARS BTW!!!!!#5) husband dies at 110 and then my guy dies 7 years later also at the age of 110 #6) I don't want to start a new life in the game because I played as him for hours and don't have the heart to wipe the slate clean #yusuf yacob you will always be famous. to me. sorry for making your penis injury gain interest #and sorry your mother died after being charged by a hippo

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egophiliac · 6 months ago

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was this anyone else's first thought, or

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #anglerfish #YES hiking jade let's GO #send him up the mountain to look at some funky mushrooms #love how delicately he's holding his lantern with his little pinky out #ooh la la monsieur mastermind #now what are the odds we're getting gargoyle-club malleus next #probably not good but LOOK let me DREAM #i also very much want the equestrian club. GIVE ME HORSE BOYS #actually just give me everyone i want to see everyone #man though the june schedule looking pretty light over here in jp #which always makes me think something big is coming up...#whenever they pull a training camp on us it instantly sends my brain into overthinking mode #chances are good it's more main story though!#we've been averaging every-other-month story updates for a while now and the consistency is nice #i'm still not over the eight months between the end of episode 5 and the start of episode 6...#(IT'S FINE i want them to take all the time they need! i am just impatient)#(i will happily wait but i will be rolling around on the ground the entire time)

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months ago

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The dog days are over.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #The childhood flashback is one of my favourite scenes in MDZS and yes I am disapointing myself in how little I am covering it.#If it is any consolation...I'll be bringing JYL's piggyback scene into another comic later on.#There truly is something so specific and yet resonant in the way our bonds as children feel so deep.#But the world doesn't stay as small as it does when you are a kid. The problems you argue about get bigger and more serious.#You still hold so much love for this person despite how much you want to throw hands with them.#To have such a complicated history with someone and then fall apart...You always think you have time to heal the wound.#Why wouldn't you! You've never had anything but time with this person. A brother not in blood but in true and genuine bond.#And then the fucker dies! It's horrible and sudden and the last words you exchanged were cold and awful!#What do you do with those dead end feelings? What do you do but grieve bitterly and angrily?#There is no resolution for all the love you wanted back. There will never be an opportunity to bridge the gap between you.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. Because you thought you had more time.#If anyone dares say Jiang Cheng didn't love WWX I'll be the first to fire up the powerpoint presentation on why he absolutely does.

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commsroom · 7 months ago

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the u.s.s. horrible unending nightmare 💥 (once again from the incredible @hehearse)

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #hera wolf 359 #hera w359 #art #id in alt text #i've been holding onto this one for a little while. for no particular reason i just wanted to.#but here it is #thank you so so much!!#incredible eye for detail as always and i'm obsessed with how you draw people. and also. everything #this is such a good eiffel. the circle kind of suggesting a helmet worked out so well. the way you did the star!! the glitch effects!!#the use of an actual sound clip and the heart monitor through it and all of it through his chest. genius to me.#and this ended up leaning more in the direction of eiffel's general repeated misfortune but i also really love the element of #eiffel and hera both being prisoners treated as test subjects. i like how it can read as much like him being pulled away as falling.#and with the soundwave and communication as a bridge and that specific clip from mayday and hera being the voice in his head that saves him #etc. etc. i love it thank you so much again!! <3

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technically-human · 2 months ago

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Part two of the reverse verse is here! The reverse boys meet the original boys. They're not really getting along as well as I had hoped...

Again, this was a commission for @i-am-as-normal-as-you-are and they asked for angst/funny vibes... I think it's mostly just angst though. Oh, well...

Part one

#dead boy detectives #dbda #payneland #edwin x charles #reverse verse #there's a lot i could say about this one #the idea of someone telling edwin he's go to hell is absurd as it is #edwin telling edwin? lmao #the charles... oh they hate each other #reverse charles is angry (he always is) because this other version of himself was spared hell... in exchange for edwin going there?#obviously it doesn't work like that. og charles hadn't even been born when his edwin was sent to hell #but anger is not a rational thing. especially not for this boy #og charles? you don't want to know what he's thinking #i'm telling you anyways #he... kind of agrees. if someone had to go to hell #why edwin? why not him? there is an universe in which that happened #so why not this one? unfair #then again... look at this charles who did go to hell #he's explosive. he's DANGEROUS #he shouldn't be near edwin #if og charles had gone to hell would he be the same? would he be too angry to be trusted? would he be like his father?#and if so would that really count as saving edwin at all?#if this is the kind of best friend poor edwin would end up with?#on a happier note though #physical contact!! reverse charles loves it #i don't have all the details but his hell was on the rage ring so it was different to the dollhouse.#and it was a very violent place so boy loves gentle touches #luckily edwin is more willing to give them to him with each year #i think what the edwins are feeling is a lot more clear #but still would love to hear your thoughts

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hinamie · 3 months ago

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god, i wish i knew you back when i was a kid / but when you stare into me now, it feels like i did

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk 266 #jjk leaks #fr anon thank u fr the request i am once again emo thinking abt them #n denial fv....god end me put me out of my misery #itfs context makes the lyrics more . healing n hopeful as opposed to wistful and lonely :'<#'everything around me looks so different now / yet everything about me wants to show you around'#PLS PLS PSLPSSLPS ILL CRY ILL DO ITTTTT #anyway emo hours aside original plan was striped shirt yuuji but i gave up smile #put him in white t shirt jail yet again sighs i feel like i do tht with him so often.....#like kid megu that's just his canon outfit but yuuji i wanted 2 get a bit more creative. task failed :(#hes got mismatched socks n scuffed knees but thats abt it #i often think abt how in official art they always put gojo in a gd white t shirt and i go smh but then here i go #pot kettle etc etc #megumi voice whatever!!!!! white tshirt in sunlight Looks Good sue me #pls enjoy them :'> anon i hope i delivered

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doctorsiren · 3 months ago

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give this angle another tri

#doctorsiren #gravity falls #the book of bill #bill cipher #scalene cipher #euclid cipher #stanford pines #theraprism #gravity falls fanart #digital art #my art #procreate #yeah I finally checked out thisisnotawebsitedotcom hooray!#don’t ask what everything on the second page says #I don’t even remember at this point LMAO #I just wanted to make it look neat but now my hand hurts from all that coded writing #there also may be some spelling errors in there bc that always seems to happen with me HAHUIHS #by merely messing up the cipher lmao #I based Scalene and Euclid off of old cartoon parents #Scalene is based around just like…50s cartoon mom #and Euclid has that 50s cartoon dad thing but also Professor Utonium #little billy….he’s just my young Miles Edgeworth…he’s Astro Miles real…#when I think of his home world I envision it all 50s styled #like cartoon depictions of that time with bright colours and bold geometry #in my head it’s idealistic but done so on purpose so that destroying such a place would be an even more absurd thing to do #destruction caused by his hubris and thirst for wanting something MORE wihtout appreciating what it was he already had #and now he has nothing in the end and it’s his fault and he knows it #thinking about him missing his parents and regretting that decision every single day hurts me 😭

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bunnieswithknives · 3 months ago

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I feel bad for neglecting Hazel so much, I do have many thoughts about her.. and also a mermaid au that im probably not going to do anything with

#fop #fairly oddparents #fop a new wish #fairly oddparents a new wish #hazel wells #fop hazel #fop dev #dev dimmadome #art #digital art #doodles #I wish Hazels parents were more flawed tbh...#Like I get why they wanted to have them be good rep so that young people could know what a good family is supposed to look like #but it felt like every time there was an opportunity to have them do something genuinely flawed-#they would perfectly sidestep it before it even became a problem #I really enjoyed the first episode because it showed a hint of a very unique emotional issue Hazel had related to having a therapist mother #The idea that she has to be mature all the time #constantly living around therapy speak makes her feel like she isnt allowed room to breathe #Feeling unable to express her emotions without someone there giving advice that she isnt ready for yet #just small things!#She feels so pressured to be emotionally mature all the time BECAUSE she gets praised for it #maybe im projecting everyone always tell me I was so mature for my age...#But like I really really wanted to see that from her!!#And then after that episode it doesnt even come up again #The only other episode that features the moms job as a conflict is the one where she wants to spend more time with her #which is a fine conflict I guess but it still ends with her saying all the perfect things #I wanted Markus to be more of a genuine threat too. even if he didnt actually do anything having him be more looming would have been nice #I feel like they mostly forget hes a para scientist most of the time idk.#I just felt like his interactions could have been more unique #Maybe he will be in future seasons idk

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frosted-woods · 10 days ago

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autumn time to be gay and totally fine and not miserable at all

#i am coping you see #i love drawing autumn stuff.. and after producing hundrets pages of tma doodles in school it was time to. draw them properly #the ironic part is that it's raining ugly as im posting this. :[[#aaaaaand you know i planned to have much more characters like this at first... but i ended focusing too long on this one piece so i probabl #won't do other ones #(plus i have arcane to draw god. but i think i want the finale to come out first)#what can i even say. don't let me near blending layers it always ends up looking like this.#jon is my ugly clashing patterns grandma. you agree #(oh and martin is holding a notebook cause he goes to write poetry on autumn walks #if you're still here reading this have a nice day and a peaceful sleep kisses<33 #mine #my art #the magnus archives #tma #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #melanie king #georgie barker #fanart #digital art

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lazylittledragon · 4 months ago

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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:

i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???

#ramble #sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well #if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD #he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE #like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one #holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do #and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that #idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything #also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore #so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks #also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently #also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this #again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable #if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time

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cherrirui-official · 8 months ago

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"You know... You didn't have to take that with you."

"But I promised him I'd take him out to see the ocean one day."

#for context uhmm how do i explain this #so around a few weeks after Jd arrives Bruce is like “Hey... where are the others?”#and Jd is like “ooooh 🤪🤪 he doesnt know...”#Since at this time JD believes that the entire tribe is dead. including his brothers and grandma #so Jd has to take Bruce to the now abandoned troll tree and give him the bad news #Bruce doesnt believe it at first. even if the tree is abandoned they cant be dead? right?? they cant be #so he rushes over to their grandma's pod. thinking that theyre just in hiding and waiting for them to return #and all Bruce is able to find in the empty pod is Branch's old stuffed toy Croco #which solidifies to Bruce that everyone is dead. their friends their family. everyone #Bruce is obviously devastated by the news. he doesnt show it a lot but he doesnt take it too well #he ends up bringing Croco with him back to Vacay Island and patches Croco up #since Croco is a bit worn out due to being left in the pod for years #and since then Bruce always keeps Croco hidden in his hair. both as a memoir of his baby brother #and also a reminder of how he failed as an older brother... ouch #ofc the others arent dead. its just that now both Jd AND Bruce believe that the rest of the trolls are dead #also King Trollex is there bc i wanted to put him there. I like Trollex :]#a knee ways more bb au art i promise the next bb au art will be lighthearted #tho now im gonna work on the next violet gijinka batch bc ive been starving my friendlocke audience for too long #sorry friendlocke fans ill feed u next dw #cherris canvas #trolls #trolls band together #trolls john dory #john dory trolls #trolls bruce #bruce trolls #king trollex #beach bros au #sorry for rambling in the tags i hope u dont mind ahaha

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rassebers · 2 years ago

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So, who's paying?

#mp100 #my rart #shigeo kageyama #reigen arataka #mob psycho 100 #i love tumblr tags now I can talk abt this a lil bit #i rlly really wanted to try a back and forth panelling parallel thing to emphasize their body language #and I imagine mob is more comfortable with his emotions and expressing himself as he gets older #so as reigen & mob become closer friends I think they tease eachother more #hence. mob starts purposefully copying reigen #also small optional detail #i Imagine when mob says you're moving apartments right it's bc serizawa n reigen found. an apartment together #because every night I look up at the sky and it's full of stars and the world is beautiful #no matter how old mob gets #reigen will always insist that hes the one with the paycheck #so obviously *he* should be the one paying!#Reigen never gets out of the habit of calling mob kiddo either #thanks for listening #mob pays in the end btw

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suntails · 3 months ago

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[sharing/rb appreciated 💛]

my silver artbook is FINISHED and will open for preorders on 8/31 at 12pm EST!! it's been almost 3 months of work and i'm so excited to finally be able to share all the art i've worked on, PLUS a small bonus charm!

if u know silver fans,,, tell them

#FINALLY! i'm finishing up setting the shop this week and orders will open on da weekend <3 couldn't be prouder than i'm doing it #i went back and found my first statement of wanting to draw this series and it was end of MAY and now here we are!!! hes REAL #ive always wanted to publish some sort of artbook or personal zine but showing unrelated pieces felt wrong i need it to be a PIECE #so this series was perfect. im making this book for all of us. silver fans must win we have to we must. but also. im making it for me #i love him so much i crave more work for him desperately so i feed myself. and i love the diasom community i love us i LOVE US!!!!#no crumbs. no. only a full meal. the finest i can offer. silver my son you are sleepy and wonderful and i love you dearly #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #diasomnia #silver vanrouge #if anyone has questions feel free to reach out however!! qs or dms or whatever. i got ur back <3 #suntails

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