#buckley-diaz family feels

[hopeintheashes]

hold me close when it's over

Post-hospital. Read it below or on AO3.

Buck's starting to fade by the time Maddie and Chim are clearing the dishes from the dining room table. Bobby stands to help them, and when Hen comes back from bringing a stack of plates to the kitchen, she looks Buck up and down. When she does the same to Eddie, it feels a little like he's been put through an X-ray machine.

"Alright, I'd better be getting home. Chris, do you want to come to my house, have a sleepover with Denny tonight? If it's okay with your dad?"

It's like she knows without asking that they're not making it home tonight.

Christopher shakes his head solemnly, and Eddie runs a reassuring hand over his hair and nods his wordless thanks for the offer.

"Okay." She squeezes Buck's hand. "You let everyone here take care of you, alright?" Mock-stern. "That's an order."

Buck manages a small, tired smile.

"You should go lie down," Eddie says quietly, but Buck gives the smallest shake of his head. Been lying down for days, it says. Eddie sighs. "Alright, living room, then. At least."

He has to help him to his feet and to the couch. Chris follows them in and curls up beside Buck. There's a dimmer switch for the lights, and Eddie turns them down low. "Okay," he says, and it's half a question and half not.

"We're okay," Chris says. He's got a hand on Buck's arm like he's holding him steady.

Holding each other steady. That's what they're all doing here.

Bobby's putting the last of the dishes in the dishwasher when he comes in. Chim's taken Jee-Yun to put her to bed. Maddie's wiping down the table and the counters. There's nothing left to do.

"I'll leave you to it," Bobby says as he hits start on the machine. "Athena just got home, and May's there tonight, too." Maddie nods and hugs him goodbye, and when Eddie does the same they both hold on tight, tight like they had in the hospital during the long, awful wait. When Bobby goes into the living room he brushes back Buck's hair and takes his face in his hands and kisses the top of his head and tells him, "I love you, kid," and Eddie knows from Maddie's quiet sniffle beside him that he's not the only one with tears in his eyes.

He hadn't asked. About staying. He'd just packed a bag with their toothbrushes and pjs and a change of clothes and thrown it in the truck. Just in case.

"The second guest room is all made up," Maddie says, before he has to figure out how. He nods, and blinks back tears, and she pulls him close and tells him, "You're always welcome here."

Chris is still watching over Buck when Eddie comes to sit beside them on the couch. "What do you think, should we stay here tonight with Buck?"

"Yes." With an emphatic nod.

"Good," Buck whispers, and it's like the relief washes away the last of the resolve that had been holding him upright against the couch.

"Bed," Eddie says, and holds out his hands, and Buck doesn't even protest the early hour, just takes Eddie's hands and grits his teeth and lets himself be pulled slowly to his feet.

"I can read to you," Chris says. "I brought my book."

Buck's asleep within the first two pages, so Christopher switches over to reading silently to himself. Eddie wants to stay and just watch this, his boys, forever, but the tug of good manners pulls him back to the living room and their hosts.

Chim raises his eyebrows when Eddie comes back into the living room: Everything okay? Eddie nods and makes himself sit down. It feels strange, at this point, not to be at the hospital anymore.

There are things they should say. Things they need to say.

It still feels too fragile. Too soon.

They all go to bed not long after that. Eddie lifts Chris out of Buck's bed and carries him into the next room like he's a little kid again, and changes into his old, soft shorts and t-shirt and brushes his teeth and sits on the edge of the bed watching Chris breathe in and out, soft and even.

He might have imagined the sound from next door, or it might have been Buck whispering his name, but either way when he goes back in he's met with the glint of hallway light off of half-opened eyes.

"Hey." So gentle. Coming close. Sitting on the edge of the bed. Brushing his fingertips over his hair. "Talk to me."

It's not meant to be an echo of before, but it ricochets between his ribs all the same. Makes his heart beat fast and his breath go shallow.

Buck frowns and scrubs at his eyes. "Hurts."

"Where?" Already looking around in the supplies Maddie had set up for painkillers and heating pads.

The frown tugs the corners of his mouth down even more, threatening tears. "Everywhere."

"Okay." He checks the medicine log on the bedside table and shakes out the right number of pills and hands them to Buck with a glass of water. Hovers at the edge of the bed while Buck swallows them, grimacing.

"Do you want a heating pad? Or an ice pack?" Keeping his voice low in the darkness.

Buck shakes his head and reaches for Eddie's hand. When Eddie meet him halfway, Buck gives just enough pressure for Eddie to get the hint and lie down beside him. "You're…" he starts, and maybe it means you're a good heating pad or maybe it means something else, but they're close and quiet in the dark and Eddie very gently wraps him up.

There's so much they should say, but it's too fragile, and too soon.

Buck takes Eddie's hand and places it flat against his chest, over his heart, ghosting over the broken ribs that have only barely started to heal.

You saved me.

Even through the swelling, Eddie can feel Buck's heart beat.

You saved me, so we're even. Let's never do this again.

Eddie lowers his forehead to brush Buck's shoulder and doesn't try to fight the sob.

Buck laces their fingers and exhales a shaky breath and his heart beats, and beats, and beats. We've got time. We'll figure it out in the morning.

We've got time.

[fromxxthexxashes]

When it comes to kids, Eddie and Buck both have different ways of being and communicating with them. I don’t think Eddie is as naturally enthusiastic as Buck. Eddie isn’t the kind of guy who would get easily immersed in a conversation with a kid outside of Christopher, or any other kids he may or may not have. Buck is the kind of guy who can talk and talk and talk with kids because he’s got brain full of facts, and a childhood spent feeling invisible to the adults supposed to see him, so he wants every kid he meets to know he sees them and enjoys hearing what the have to say. Eddie on the other hand is just so achingly gentle. Despite growing up with a father that wanted him to “be a man” in a very toxic masculinity type of way, Eddie is soft and warm. His entire presence emanates comfort. On calls, he’s the kind of guy who the kids cling to while they’re terrified or sad. Everything about Eddie feels safe. He offers security and care so easily - it’s second nature to him.

Seeing Buck and his interactions with kids, particularly with Christopher and the borderline co-parenting role he has taken, I know Buck would be an absolutely amazing dad. And we already know, with everything we’ve seen with him, that Eddie is a fucking phenomenal dad.

[swiftiesbuddie]

[kenneth-black]

Buck canonically having photos of his Diaz boys on the fridge just made my day 🥹🥹🥹

[warpedpuppeteer]

The Buckley-Diaz Family ♡

[mazzystar24]

Okay but picture this a couple of eps into s8 Eddie shows up at bucks all happy I mean downright giddy and just BLABBING but we the audience can see buck looks sad but we don’t know what about (and Eddie doesn’t notice at first cos yapping) then Eddie reveals the reason he’s so happy is cos Chris wants to come back and basically being like pack your bags we are driving to Texas (according to Google it’s an 11hr and 49 minute drive and also Eddie canonically just assumes buck would be involved cos why wouldn’t he) and obviously when he says the Chris coming back thing we see buck instantly brighten up

But then Eddie’s brain catches up and he’s like wait a minute what was up with his vibe before I said that and he looks around realising the loft is in ‘buck is sad’ mode and then buck drops that him and Tommy just broke up and before he asks that he doesn’t wanna talk about it (and we the audience hadn’t seen this so we spend the ep as much in the dark as Eddie is) so Eddie (while concealing his conflicted happy bt are done but concerned for buck emotions) is like even better we’ll take your mind off it with the road trip! 🤩

Maybe Buck tries to be like oh I’m not gonna be good company or oh I don’t wanna impose and Eddie’s just looking at him like he grew two heads and is like what are you on about you dumbass (affectionate) I literally always want your company and you never impose

And boom it’s a Texas road trip episode

Shenanigans ensue on the way to get there maybe, flat tires, people needing help,etc

Maybe they stop at motel on the way cos it’s a long drive or cos of one of the little things that happen (and there is only one bed <- damn who said that???) and they go to a bar (preferably cowboy bar for cowboy hat Eddie reasons- and when I say cowboy bar I use that loosely because the vibes we want is save a horse, ride a cowboy not be gay, get shot - we are a pink pony club not republican club) and buck is acting weird the whole trip but they’re still their drunk affectionate selves but there is a vibe that we and Eddie are both meant to think is cos of the breakup, maybe buck even gets hit on and drunk buck is a yapper and starts talking abt loving a guy who’s never gonna love him, etc, etc and Eddie overhears and thinks it’s tommy and hello complicated feelings again

As the trip goes on buck starts getting more at ease

Eddie is still concerned tho

Buckley Diaz family reunion and all the feels

And this is when you guys get to choose your story:

Either once buck and Eddie go home and they have a moment that’s like their usual ones (very romantic but gaslighting is saying it’s platonic) and when buck is alone we get a flashback to the bt breakup and its revealed that buck has feelings for Eddie (whether that is realised during the breakup or he broke up with tommy cos he realised etc)

Orrr

Diaz parents being dickheads, we get a will mention AND an Eddie confession that is overheard by buck, (then either buck acts on it before the ep is over or we are left on a question mark) AND THEN we get the flashback

[texasbama]

It’s the way I love you to the core isn’t inherently romantic (although for them it totally is). It’s so much deeper than that. This is Eddie having his person. Someone he would do anything for and vice versa. He trusts Buck unconditionally. Not just with himself but with his son. This relationship-this family-is something they have built with blood, sweat and tears. their relationship is love in its purest form. I love you. I love you for who you are. I love you for who I am with you. I love you for how you love my son. I love you to the core.

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Strength of their relationship you say??!!!

Difficulties coming up??!!!

Tested in different ways??!!!

before the break you say??!!!

[vanmarkus]

Buck comparing his own emotions to Christopher's about Eddie's distress 4x14 // 5x13

[emolionsrawr]

*the 118 doing trauma salad*

chimney: hey, my named howard, i go by chimney, and after i proposed to my ex, she broked up with me, which lead me to being in a car accident which caused a rebar go through my head, and i brought the bowl

buck: hi, my names buck, and before i was born my brother developed cancer, which caused my parents to create me to be a perfect genetic match, they took my bone marrow and he died a week later, and i bought the nerds

eddie: my names eddie, my ex wife left me and our son after i went through something traumatic, and i bought the sweedish fish

buck: hey, my names buck, and when i was a child i used to have to hurt myself to get my parents attention, and even then it didn't work, and i bought the war heads

hen: hey! my names hen, and my ex wife got out of prison and used my emotions against me which lead me to cheating in my wife, then used that against me to try to take our son away from me, and i bought the nerds clusters

buck: hey! buck again, my first real girlfriend ghosted me after she left for dublin, and then came back three years later with a fiancee, she never broke up with me, and i bought the twizzlers

bobby: hey, my names bobby, and i watched my father lose himself to alcholol which later killed him, which caused me to start drinking at the sweet sweet age of 9, and i bought the gummy bears

buck: sup, its buck, and after i lost the first person on the job i went to a therapist who used my trauma to get laid, which i later realised was assault, and i bought the reece's pieces

eddie: hey, my names eddie, and my wife came back into my life, came back into my sons life, only to die in front of us, and i bought the malteasers

buck: you know the drill, and when my father figure was suspended pending investigation a teenage bomber who had it out for him put a bomb in the ladder truck, which caused the truck to land on me when it blew up, crushing my leg and leaving me with phantom pain, and i bought the hershey kisses

chimney: hey, my names chimney, and my dad prefers my younger brother, and i bought the tangfastics

buck: me again, after i got blown up i had a P.E in front of my whole family at my welcome back barbeque which caused my father figure to have a panic attack and not want to let me back onto the team! and i bought the nerd clusters

bobby: hey, my names bobby, and i was in an accident which gave me extreme back pain which lead me to a drug addiction, and one night after a bender i fell asleep and left the space heater on which caused my whole apartment building to burn down, killing my wife and kids as well as over 150 people, and i bought the marshmallows

buck: hey! me again, after the P.E my best friend asked me to look after his son, so i took him to the pier where we was hit by a tsunami, i found him but then we were separated for eight hours and the whole time i thought he was dead, and i bought the nerd ropes

buck: oh! me again, after the tsunami and finding out my captian was holding me back i sued the city, ruining my friendships along the way, and i bought the toffee

eddie: hey, my names eddie, after my wife died i got into an illegal fight club and got addicted, and i bought the strawberry hearts

buck: hey! me again! hi! my ex girlfriend almost got two of my friends killed because she decided a news article was more important than their lives! and i bought the toxic wastes

chimney: fuck taylor kelly

hen: fuck taylor kelly

buck: hey! me again-

bobby: okay we're down the bowls full

buck: BUT I HAVENT EVEN GOT TO THE-

bobby: no.

eddie: I also have more. My childhood trauma. My son leaving. The time I got shot. My time in the army. How I received my purple star. And so on.

chimney: Oh! I also have more. Kevin dying in front of me. My mother dying. Jonah. I could go on.

hen: I have more too! Everything with Mara. My own childhood trauma. That time my son nearly died and I was the paramedic working on him. Jonah. I can still continue.

bobby: I also have more BUT THE BOWLS FULL!

athena: what are you doing?

buck: trauma salad

athena: oh! well then my name is-

bobby: the bowl is FULL

athena: BUT I HAVENT EVEN SAID ANY OF MINE AND I HAVE A LOT

athena: Hi, I’m Athena and when I was 9 a girl in my neighbourhood went missing and then years later, we found her remains in the concrete of the conservatory of my parents house after my father had a stroke and he was them framed for her death and I BOUGHT A GOD DAMNED NEW BOWL!

buck: YAY NEW BOWL! hi it's me again your favourite traumatised firefighter, one time i got struck by lightning and died, and ended up in a weird coma dream where my dead brother was alive but my father figure was dead and i didn't know anyone i loved and i was fighting for my life, and i bought the sherbert lemons

Bobby: I was dead you didn’t tell me I was FUCKING DEAD?!

buck:... OH LOOK THE BELL IS GOING BYE-

bobby: THE BELL ISNT RINGING GET BACK HERE YOU LITTLE SHIT-

ravi: *sighs* didn't even get to my childhood cancer

athena, placing new bowl down: they’ll be back. We have a new bowl to fill.

[elvensorceress]

fic: Father's Day

buck/eddie | 11K | rated: G | AO3

The breakfast tray has buttered waffles and syrup, scrambled eggs mixed with ham, onions, cheese, and peppers, a stack of bacon, a bowl of sliced strawberries tossed with blueberries and blackberries and peaches, a steamy cup of coffee that looks like it has cream and spices stirred into it. And a heart made of two chives curled around each other and resting on top of Eddie’s favorite way of eating eggs. 

He pushes himself up and leans against the headboard, and Chris isn’t here. But Buck is here. Even if Buck doesn’t belong to them. He’s still here. 

“Thank you,” Eddie says even if it’s still hoarse and doesn’t come out right. He means it. He’s just broken. And it’s harder to pretend that he isn’t broken. 

Has he ever been happy? Was it only ever pretending? Why does everything feel like faking, play acting, words that seem like they should be said, things that should be true, but nothing ever being true? Why is everything smoke and mirrors and losses and performing? 

Is anything about Eddie real?

Buck rests a hand on Eddie’s forearm. “Hey. I— I know— I know it’s not. I know. But. I’m here? I’m here and we’re going to have a fun day. Okay? You and me. We’re going to have fun.”

Eddie bites his lip and shoves it to the side of his face. “We are?”

Buck nods and smiles sweetly, beautifully even though it echoes the sorrow embedded in Eddie’s whole being. It’s in Buck, too. “Yeah. We are. I have a whole plan. You’ll see. But you’re going to need fuel. So, eat up.” 

Eddie breathes deeply, and he trusts Buck. With his life, his heart and soul, his everything. He picks up a fork and digs into their breakfast and they share everything down to the very last bite. 

~

With Chris in Texas, Eddie faces a sad Father's Day all alone until Buck shows up to celebrate and bring fun, love, and family.

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[honestlydarkprincess]

we'll try and we'll succeed

buck & chris || buck x eddie || rated: t || wc: 3.7k

Buck was once again at someone’s door, knocking and feeling nervous. He’d asked Eddie if he could watch Chris for the night— said maybe he and Marisol could go on a date and figure things out. From the way Eddie had looked like he was being sent to the trenches, he had a feeling they’d be breaking up sooner rather than later. Regardless, that left him and Christopher alone so he could talk to him. 

Buck was nervous. Nervous in a way that he hadn’t been with the others, because this wasn’t another adult in his life, this was his kid. If Chris didn’t accept him that would be so much worse than someone else not accepting him. Buck was pretty sure it was the worst case scenario. 

“Earth to Buck?” Eddie said softly, making Buck come back to himself and realize he was just standing there at Eddie’s door step, staring into space. 

“Hi, sorry,” Buck blushed, shaking himself out of his thoughts. “Forgot where I was for a minute.” 

“No worries,” Eddie said even as he looked at Buck with concern. “Chris is in his room finishing up homework. Please make sure that he gets it done because he’s been avoiding it all week and it’s due on Monday.” 

Buck laughed. “I’m sure I can handle that, don’t worry.” 

“I know you can,” Eddie smiled happily. “He’ll listen to you.” 

Buck followed Eddie into the house and into the kitchen, grabbing a cup from the cupboard and filling it with water. “So where are you and Marisol going to go?” 

Eddie sighed. “I don’t know. Where do you go to break up with someone?” 

“So you’re for sure doing it?” Buck asked, a funny feeling in his tummy at the prospect. Why did he feel almost….pleased? Surely pleased wasn’t the right emotion for your best friend breaking up with their girlfriend. 

“Yeah,” Eddie said, looking forlorn. “I don’t want to hurt her but I don’t want to be with her anymore. I want…a spark. I want what you and Tommy have.” 

Buck jolted at the reminder of Tommy, at the reminder that yes, he did have a boyfriend. That he was finally in a relationship that was enviable. It was a strange feeling. Good, but strange. 

“You’ll get there, Eds,” Buck said softly. “I know you will.” And Buck did. Eddie was a huge catch, people should be lining up at the door to get to him. Hell, Buck would be first in line if he didn’t have a boyfriend. Buck stopped in his tracks, his water glass halfway up to his lips as he rehashed that last thought. Wait, what? Did…did he have feelings for Eddie? 

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[loosethreadsofyoursoul]

you know what no. this scene actually flabbergasts me

by which i mean it’s absolutely fucking adorable and i watched it about 5 times over before i had the brain capacity to move on but like. i’m literally throwing my arms up in exasperation because we know this bit. we’ve seen it in all its forms. we’ve seen it as a plot device with hetero couples and we’ve seen it as a joke when it’s between two guys. and we know that when it’s like this, where it’s not the butt of a joke, it’s where one half of the “we’re just really good friends” situationship starts to realize they have romantic feelings for the other person. that is the purpose of this bit when only one of them is in earshot of the comment and they don’t immediately laugh it off. that’s what it’s designed for and what it’s used for in romantic plots!!! and here they are, using it for buck and eddie, as though that’s not gonna make the audience’s romantic alarm bells start blaring. like. objectively, this is the part of the narrative where buck realizes he’s in love with eddie. that’s what that means. and it’s driving me insane bc i know that they do nothing with it

[kenneth-black]

I find it very odd that they are focusing so much on Buck and Eddie during the Bachelor Party sequence in EVERY SINGLE PROMO 😶 Like Chimney has so many other male figures in his life that should realistically be present at his bachelor party…bobby, ravi, albert, tommy, his friend from Chicago, even Mr Lee perhaps but noooo…let’s put up a homoerotic montage of Buck and Eddie getting drunk and taking their clothes off throughout the night 😭😭😭

Something definitely must be cooking 🫣

[warpedpuppeteer]

Ever think about how Buck ran away from home to look for a family and Eddie ran away from family because it didn't quite feel like home and then they met each other by some kind of fate and Buck found family in Eddie (because Eddie gave him Chris and he loves Buck unconditionally) and Eddie found a home in Buck (because Buck never makes him feel like a failure of a human or a father, helps him without a second thought). Something about how you don't find it son, you make it. And they did. Both of them made this.

[mazzystar24]

So let me get this straight in exactly ONE night these mfs wore matching costumes,sang What I like about you by the romantics (a song with lines like “keep on whispering in my ear tell me all the things I wanna hear” and “what I like about you? You hold me tight”) AT EACHOTHER WHILE POINTING AT EACHOTHER, Eddie poured drinks into bucks open waiting mouth (in a very obscene way- and at one point the angle meant he was hovering over him on the couch), Buck ripped Eddie’s shirt off, spent most/ if not all of the time tied at the hip or basically ontop of eachother with their arms around eachother

Unhinged feral behaviour

Nurse they didn’t get out from the asylum they escaped from the WHOREHOUSE