#boston called me 'pretty boy' and im having a panic attack and im so mad about it god dammit

[violentviolette]

fucking hate that broken brain feel when u finally get something uve been wanting and craving ur whole life and instead of just feeling happy and validated you also have to feel violently uncomfortable because your brain starts blaring at u that this isnt real and no one really cares about u so dont get comfortable or used to this or else itll hurt that much more when it inevitably is taken from u because people like u dont get to be happy