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cinnabeat · 2 years ago

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omg i was trying to explain to my professor my issue with self portraits especialy ones hat have to have a personal meaning during my critique yesterday and she was like not getting it AT ALL it was so annoying

#its not that theres nothing interesting about me #she was like i have to disagree with you saying its JUST you #theres nothing JUST about you and while that is a very nice philosophical and whatever thought #i meant that like i dont want you to look at a self portrait of myself and be able to glean every aspect lf my identity and personality #i dont make aspects of my identity in real life obvious #why should a self portrait reflect that #im just me #what you see is what you get and if you know me youll know these parts of me that make me #that was a confusing sentence im sorry #but anyways its not even the mortifying ordeal of being known bc thats not it #im not gonna put like chilean culture shit around me in a self portrait bc that gives you the false illusion that this is a huge part of my #identity which its not #first of all bc im american its my PARENTS who are chilean but also its just like. its a fun fact about me something youd find in the trivia #section of my character bio or whatever it snot something jnherently visible about myself #same with being a lesbian like yeah i like women but im not gonna like put a lesbian flag somewhere in the background to let tou know that #bc once you start making that shit obvious its like oh this is a big part of her identity and its NOT #which is not to say that people who DO make their identiy onvious are lying #bc if ur latina and you paint yourself in traditional clothes bc thats what you usually wear and like other stuff #then thats you! thats a big part of your identity! that makes sense to me #i dont have somethinf about myself that is a Big Part of my identity im just me #nothing about me overpowers another aspect about myself #not even an aspect its like. that implies its separate and its NOT its all integrated into who i am #im sorry i keep talking about this but i have SO MANY thoughts about this #i could go on about this for so long omg #like one of my classmates did a self portrait using a blue light and dark room #and you could argue i could do something like that you know? but like #if you ask me to make a self portrait showing who i am if like #exaggerate something its like..........#i dont want to treat my self portrait like an illustration. the more you exaggerate something the more unintentioned meaning you put into so #something??? man maybe im thinking too hard about this i feel crazy....

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