#bc he knows his feelings run deep and there's maybe a vague notion of 'wish you were a girl'

[tomwambsgans]

lbr if tom ever did convince greg to put on a wedding dress (or any other kind) he'd only proceed to find him significantly less attractive in it. like woops nah i'm more of a fag than i thought lol put the suit back on

[venusiangguk]

(lmao I'm so sorry I rlly just let my mind ramble so you don't have to answer any of these questions, I actually like the open end so I can make my own conclusions but I just wanted to get these thoughts off my chest bcs I'm a hurt/comfort bitch with a kink for closure)

I just gotta know if jungkook was just as heartbroken as oc when they ended whatever their relationship was? Like in between the years that oc moved, I know he missed her and he tried to wait for her but did he cry every night, regretting every thing that happened, wished that he could go back and change things? Did he replay the events over and over again like a broken record player as it haunted him for years? Did it hurt when he thought he'd never see her again?

And did he actually love her? Like the answer should be "yea duh" he said in the epilogue "I know you feel what we had" so presumably he's alluding to the fact that he does love oc the way she did him but I wanna point out that he never says "I love you" explicitly, throughout the whole fic and especially the end. He just vaguely notions it. Most likely he prolly does love oc but still [side eyes] maybe not to oc's extent, the way you wrote about her love for jk, she loved him so deep and intensely that I'm pretty sure no one else could love that hard, not even jk himself (though she put him on a pedastal and idolised him so? Like a distorted love?)

And like? When they're fucking behind the wife's back, when he's looking at oc, does his gaze drip with love the way oc's did way back then, does he cry "I love you" when he re-enters into her after years of hoping until he gave up?

And then the wife, he must have felt some type of affection to her if homie went up and married them. I'd like to think that oc taught jk how to love I guess? Or like, how to be okay with it because old jk would NEVER lmao

You know what the more I think about it, the more unhealthyer jk's and oc's relationship gets damn,,,, like the codenpendancy? You'd think them breaking up would have dulled down that habit but once jungkook offered to see her tattoo at the end, you just know they're gonna go back to bad habits,,, fic kinda dark lowkey

I'm so sorry for the speculations dkdkfnf I just,,,,, it's been days and I still can't shake the feelings and affect "idealisations concerning real life realstions" has left on me. Its like the fic still lingers in my mind. Tbh it ain't even that deep 😭😭 I'm just,,,,, [cries]

i don’t think jks heartbreak was as excruciating as oc’s. hers was very sharp and breathtaking, but it was also something that was able to be healed with time, whereas i think jungkooks was more of an ache that only grew as time passed, he was full of regret and longing and he did his best to move on (getting married) but as we saw, as soon as oc came back it was very obvious he never got over her.

yes, he loved oc so much. he didn’t realize till she was gone though. he didn’t tell her he loved her when they first reunited bc he didn’t know she was staying and didn’t want to put that on her. and when he found out she was staying, panic overshadowed the other emotions.

no bc the smut i would have written had i decided to elaborate on an affair... maaan... 😩

he loves his wife in way, but like he said, it never felt the way that it did with oc. with his wife its a very comfortable, almost stagnant relationship that‘s only happening out of convenience and a little bit of fear of ending up alone.

they were so codependent, but they did have genuine, passionate love. whether it would have been sustainable and healthy in the long run?? who knows~~

don’t apologize!! i love answering questions about my fics!! i appreciate you caring enough about my stories to ask such good questions, so thank you !!