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[henkoukazue]

Meeting you was a Blessing...

Summary: When polar opposites meet, everything becomes chaotic. Does coexisting will be just fine…. or rather much more difficulty?? We'll never know unless…

WC: 5.0k (not quite edited tho, and this will be quiet long so ready some snacks and tissues if needed ehe~)

Type: ONESHOT

Pairings: Alhaitham x Fem!Reader (*and slight Cynari<3)

Warnings: MDNI 18+, NSFW, suggestive/explicit content, possible mentions of SH (slightly??), Trauma (reader), Panic and Anxiety Attacks, Mild Depression, (...will add some after i complete this or y'all can give me suggestions huehuehue)

Tags: Alhaitham x Fem!Reader, Fluff, Smut, Angst kinda heavy??, miscommunication?, established relationship, slow burn (unsure), arranged pairing, mutual pinning, crack!fic, marriage (at fisrt you agreed to marry him bcs of your parents and... "of his high salary and stable job" but...), whipped!Alhaitham, slightly jealous!Alhaitham??, modern au (kinda.. idk), Kaveh and the other Sumeru boys and girls cameo, exploratory ff, might be ooc on the latter (yes.... I'm talking abt Haitham here BASHAHSHASHA idk tho, not sure)

a/n: This is my first time doing something like this and idk if this'll be successful, but I'm just doing this for fun and also like a stress-reliever (abt stuffs from school & at home😭😭 ....GOSHH i hate it here /jk) lmaoo and this is kinda like a self-indulgement ff sorry abt that I guess... I hope you all will also enjoy my writing. TYSMM!!🖤💚 ouhh and also, bfr I forgot, English isn't my first language sooo~ if there's any mistakes or errors lemme know my cinnamons <3

>> and also 'here' is a dabble of their domestic life awiee enjoy!!

There was a point in your life when you fantasized about having or being in a romantic relationship with someone, but... you learned through time that love isn't the only thing in the world. You relished the freedom and independence that came with discovering yourself. A soft sigh left your lips ‘It felt like ecstasy being out of the cage,’ you mumbled. Walking down the streets of Sumeru city, you spotted your closest pals since college. There were Candace, Nilou, Dehya, and Tighnari.

Candace noticed you and waved softly, saying, 'Looky here, our bachelorette is here!' Little chuckles escaped their lips. 'Heh, what are you guys talking about and giggling there?' you pouted and hugged them behind their back. You noticed your friend Tighnari blushing, looking at his phone and you inquired, "Eyy, are you and Cyno going out now?" eyes sparkled, and the others turned to look at him. He smiled nervously, then said 'Uhh yes, we are now officially going out now, but, please don't announce it to others yet. It's pretty embarrassing,' he says, straining his eyes shut. You were surprised that they were going out now, and the girls were as well, so you guys cheered 'Congratulations!!' ' to your best friend Tighnari, gaily. 

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You and your friends now bid farewell to each other. Now alone, a sudden call from your parents came. 'Uhm, hello? Mom, Dad? ' you answered. 'Why hello our dear sweetheart, have you found a man you'll mar----' your father interrupted what your mother was about to say 'Uhh hahahaha my, don't worry about that my child.' clears throat 'How are you doing now? ' He expressed concern. You let out a sigh. 'Oh, I'm doing well and.... You no longer need to be concerned. I'm an adult now, and I have a great job, even though I'm still living in that leased apartment'. 'Ohh, I see,' your father said, before the call fell silent. 'Darling—-' you cut off the phone before your mother begins to whinge about your love life once more (if you ever have...).

When you got closer to the apartment, you noticed your friend Tighnari's flower shop, where he and his lover Cyno were all lovey-dovey, and a faint smile slipped your lips. But after a minute, you felt a sharp pain in your chest, you came to a halt and sighed heavily. 'Man... I shouldn't be feeling this,' you said as you resumed your walk.

Now that you're inside the apartment, exhausted and sluggish, you just throw yourself in bed. 'I guess I'll go visit them and consider about that marriage they're talking about, and blah blah,' you muttered, closing your eyes shut. Dawn arrived, feeling the beams of sunshine on your face, you got up and started your just-so-normal daily routine and headed to work. 

After an hour of dedicating yourself to your job, you rewarded yourself with some sweets and a cup of coffee at Puspa Café, which is also pretty close to your place. Knowing you as a regular, the owner immediately listed your orders and awaits you if you ever want to add something. 'Well then, mister, I'd like to take out some of your freshly made Padisarah pudding!' you said warmly. The owner then chuckled and said, 'All right, dear, your order is on its way!' Then motioning his hands a kind-of-salute gesture.

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While you were leaving the café, you noticed that your phone was not in your purse, and as you looked around, you observed an ashen-haired man motioning something with his hand and muttering something. 'Miss! Miss! I believe this is your phone.' …..

'Miss umm, here, your phone,' he said slowly, motioning his palm over your face. You shook your head, 'Ohh! Ahh yes, thank you very much.' you nodded modestly and bid farewell to the man. 'Yes, you're welcome,' he mumbled under his breath, watching you with his bright teal eyes motioning out of the café.

It's that time of year again, summer. Because of that one phone conversation, you decided to pay a visit to your parents' house. 'Ughh, seriously, your mother? Why can't she leave you be? You're all good now and doing great, the fu---,' Dehya exclaimed, only to be cut off by a piece of bread Nilou shoved into her mouth. 'This woman! Aish,' Nilou sighed and glaring at Dehya with an expression saying 'What? What did I do wrong?'. Candace and you both laughed.....  'Well, then, what can I do? They're old and such, I assume they're simply worried about me.' Candace and Nilou gave you a pitying glance.

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You were apprehensive about your journey to your parents' house because you knew your mother would nag you all day and all night about how you didn't have a relationship. As you arrived at the front door, you were debating whether to knock or go back when your father abruptly opened the door. '..... Oh. Ohh! Dear, goodness you're here. How's the trip?' He hugged you and you just plainly stated 'Well, it's summer and I'm on a break, so I decided to pay a visit since…. It's been a long time... I suppose?' an awkward silence filled the doorway.

The only thing that broke the silence was your mother clapping her hands. 'Hey, the two of you come on over here now, and how's the trip, my darling, how about a boyfriend?' You gave her a deadpan expression, indicating that 'Please, just shut up, I'm tired!' to only earn a small chuckle from the elderly man, your father.

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Sitting at the dining table, memories of the past came rushing. You recall how this home and its people made you feel horrible as a youngster, how they used to control and mistreat you. You smiled bitterly at the memory. While you didn't notice it, your father, looking at you and clenched his fist under the table and kept saying, 'I'm so sorry, my dear,' who knows how many times. Breaking the awkwardness, your mother started. 'So, would you mind if we do an arrange pairing?' You shoot your heads up and look at your father and mother to only mutter, 'What?'

After some minutes have passed, your mother smiles, 'Well isn't it why you came here too?' …..your mother isn't wrong. You cleared your throat, 'Yes. I'm also here to discuss that arranged pairing and marriage thing you're so eagerly asking me for.'

A month later, a matchmaker was dispatched to your place, accompanied by your parents. Still can't process what is happening, although you agreed to it that you’ll do the arrange pairing, you let them in.

The session was then initiated by the matchmaker. She asked you quite numerous questions, and some of those were; 'What do you wish for in your life to be my dear?' gently staring at you... 'I want a tranquil life where I can exhibit my independence, value space from each other, and the partner who will be partnered with me is also committed,' you gulped, ending with a shaky voice. The old lady giggled softly and delicately wrote it down on her vintage paper. Then she again asked another one, 'What is the thing that interests you the most?....it might be from the past or currently.' She smiled again, assuring you to be true to yourself. 'I-- I like books and anything that I think is very valuable,' you looked down, turning pinkish-red. The old matchmaker then pursues you to say it. You inhale, regain your confidence, and continue, 'I also adore deep sea creatures...... if that makes sense.' you awkwardly smiled. She then resumed her writing.

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You hurriedly go towards the elderly matchmaker and, of course, your parents, as usual. You grumble in a low tone upon seeing them. The matchmaker then motions with her hands for you to enter the room and address the matter, but this time your parents are not present, so you feel relieved.

You noticed the man standing near the furniture set reading something about literature after slightly opening the door. He then noticed your presence and politely nodded, as you do so too. The matchmaker then instructs the two of you and tells you what topics you will be discussing before leaving.

'Oh, um... Hello, pleasure to meet you,' you said as you extended your hand in a handshake. The man then accepted it and said, ‘Same here, I'll be in your care then, my partner?’ Your body became stiff by hearing his voice. He then felt your hands stiff, so he released your hands gently and said, 'Are you alright?’ looking straight at you with eyes which remained neutral. You, startled by his stare, so you shifted your sight to the window and murmured something. Him the observant he is, noticed you again but didn't do anything and let you be. He's not sure as to why he gave in to his deceased grandmother's will that at that age, he'll go to meet a matchmaker and be paired to the person he'll remain for the rest of his life, love, and cherish him.

A day turned into a week, a week turned into months, and then those months turned into a year. Now, him helping you move out to his house, you asked midway at the entrance door. 'Umm, about the wedding ceremony, when was it again?' looking at him neutrally, like you have no any interest in it whatsoever. 'Hm, I think it will be expected 8 weeks from now?' He looks up at the sky, then yours. '..... Alright, do you have any guests you'll have invited? Moreover our wedding will only take place in the government office.' He looked at you blankly for a few seconds before saying, 'No. I don't,' he says as he walks inside….

The time then has come, the two of you then recited your vows and filled out the papers prepared by the clerk for both of you and your parents. Of course, no honeymoon occurred; instead, you and him organized some of your belongings and the entire house now that it is occupied by two people.

After three years of marriage, you've gotten used to each other's habits and company. He occasionally notices you dancing while cooking and humming a song, noting mentally that you're having a nice day, just to elicit a small genuine smile, noticing it and contemplating at himself why he did that.

You also had the impression that someone was watching you from behind while you were cooking, so you stopped whenever you noticed your husband's presence in the kitchen or when he took a sip of his coffee nearby.

'.......' sips coffee, 'What are you cooking?' he said. Startled by the man you yelped and said in return, 'You! You almost gave me a heart attack there! Ohh, I'm cooking Sabz Meat Stew, the one you said is your favorite.... yes?' only to receive a blank expression from the man and one brow slightly raised. 'Hmm~ okey.' then leaves the room.

You pondered, 'Huh? The hell??'

Alhaitham grumbled after he woke from his peaceful slumber. He recalled that he had a job today. He then got up lazily and looked back at the bed to only see you snoring (not that loud), although from the looks of him, he thinks you are cute.

As usual, he didn't feel tired or anything in his office corner, but it was quickly shattered by his senior approaching him, and a former housemate, Kaveh, the star of the firm, renowned as the passionate designer with exquisite taste in arts and romance. Alhaitham scoffed, 'What?' glaring at the platinum-blonde haired man. 'Ugh, save that glare for later, will you!?' Kaveh exclaimed. Putting a bunch of papers at his desk. 'Here. This needs to be approved today so do it now, alright?' The man earned a minute of silence, then Alhaitham spoke up, 'Alright then. Now go.' Kaveh, being used to his antics responded, 'Bah! Alright, alright I'll go now~'

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'Great. Now I can have peace,' Alhaitham whispered as he walked to the nearest café in the company. He then spotted Puspa Café and, shortly after, he noticed you with your friends. But he didn't approach you, he simply chose to observe you from afar.

After finishing your job at the library, Tighnari, your friend, messaged something at your group chat, saying that 'Guys, I'll have you all meet my boyfriend today, of course if you guys are free.' You smiled at your phone and waited for others to reply, then you saw Nilou's message, 'Yes we are all free today, where do you want us all to meet up? ^^ .' You then added, 'Me too, just concluded my work.'

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You met Dehya first and welcomed her after all of you agreed to meet at Puspa Café. As is typical, Dehya has always tried on make-up with you and the girls since your college years, as she is doing just now, claiming boredom while waiting for the others. After a few minutes, you two noticed the other three and waved your hands where you were seated. 'Eyy, Tighnari, where has your boyfie gone? 'Dehya said. 'Hahah, Dehya, wait a minute, I'll go fetch him outside,' the man said as he ran out of the café.

After a minute of waiting, you and the girls see a tanned man joyfully conversing with Tighnari, all lovey-dovey. 'Yuck,' muttered Dehya in another hand. ‘I wish I was too sheesh, good for them I guess?' She shrugged, glancing at us, only to get a nudge at her side from Nilou. 'Oof-- the hell?'

Tighnari then waved and exclaimed, 'Guys! This is my boyfriend Cyno. Hope you all will be well acquainted with each other! ' smiled. Nilou approached Cyno first and enthusiastically handed him a handshake adding, 'I am very delighted for the two of you, that you are now officially going out!' Cyno then nodded and chuckled. ‘Thank you~’ said Cyno. Candace and you then bestow your blessings on the pair. Finally, there came Dehya, who looked at them with critical eyes. 'Hey, is there something wrong?' Tighnari said, tapping Dehya on the shoulder. Then Dehya looks at them both. 'No, nothing. I'm just happy for the two of you. But. BUT! If you Cyno--' pointing her index finger at his chest, 'I won't forgive you, okay? Don’t hurt my bestie.' Then Cyno chuckled and said, 'Heh, you can trust me lady,' and grinned silly at her.

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Your husband was observing you guys from the other side of the café when he noticed a familiar figure. Slowly closing his eyes. Not sure whether he's seeing things correctly, but after repeating it a few times, he seemed astonished (although, actually kind of shocked lol). He then tried to go in your direction, only to be halted by his senior. 'Ugh...' Alhaitham exclaimed in his mind.

'Alhaitham!! I've been looking at you everywhere in the office. Remember how you agreed to have lunch with me today? You also said that someone's cooking delicious food for y----!!' Alhaitham then shoved his hands in his colleague’s mouth to show how annoying Kaveh is to him. He sought to hide somewhere when he noticed your presence approaching him. And silly Kaveh, left there standing, questioning what the hell is going on with his junior.

Alhaitham returned to your shared house and discovered that the lights were turned off and the room was chilly. Traversing the living room, he noticed a loud thud in your shared bedroom on the second floor. When he arrived, he noticed you weeping and.... you have a cut on your wrist that seems to be quite deep.

He embraced you ever so delicately as if you were about to crumble at any minute, trying to calm you down before asking any questions. Hearing your sobs go down, he then caresses your locks.... very soft locks. Didn't have the time to question what happened seeing you calming down and noticing you about to fall asleep in his embrace, he carefully lifts you up and places you on the bed. Looking at you, his heart breaking as he saw your state, he got up and cleaned and bandaged your wrist wounds.

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Morning came, you noticed something on your hands. It was your husband, Haitham. You were taken aback by the sight, carefully releasing his calloused hands, which were securely entwined with yours. You were startled by your husband's unexpected motion and questioned, 'Uhh.... What- what happened?' face turning pale, smiling awkwardly.

'........., well aren't you the one who needs explaining here? My wife?' eyes widened by the sudden call of a familiar address. You gazed at his eyes, dazed, still taking in what he had just spoken. He softly bumped his forehead on yours, while you, bobbing your mouth open and closed. 'Take your time, anytime you are ready, my wife.' Again, your eyes widening, oblivious to a torrent of tears exiting your gorgeous eyes. You wept incessantly and were put back to sleep.

Alhaitham then began informing your coworkers at the library that you will be absent today due to you not feeling well… called Cyno to inform Tighnari and some of your friends.

You were back at work a few weeks after that event. Your coworkers begin to wonder who the man who contacted them that day was and what your relationship was with him. You ignored their queries and just stated, 'Enough of this chit-chat, remember we're at work, keep it for later,' before continuing to arrange the shelves. Quite embarrassed, you asked the Chief Librarian if it was okay to take your leave early today. The elderly then kindly nodded and waved you goodbye.

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Alhaitham is waiting outside the library. He then glanced at Cyno and said, '.... What exactly do you want to know? ' while he was reading his book. Cyno, on the other hand, peered at him for a few minutes before saying something. 'I've been meaning to ask you this question, Alhaitham.... My lover claimed they didn't know you, and his friends wanted to know what your relationship is with her.' declared unequivocally.

'I-- we are married.... that is all I have to say.' Then continue reading where he last left. Cyno was taken aback, his mouth agape slightly, by what he heard from the man who is reputed to be distant, intellectual, dislikes small talk, and is difficult to engage with. '.... Cyno, please stop being so animated, you're not funny.' he said flatly, without glancing at the tanned man. 'I know you're joking. It was a great one, but—-' ,Cyno utter, only to be cut short by an impending disaster that Alhaitham despised oh so much (lmao sorry my bbg).

It was none other than Kaveh, his senior.

'Hey! What are you two talking about leaving me for? 'Kaveh remarked, not entirely aware of the very kind-of-awkward situation happening at the moment. ‘Huh? What?’

You, on the other hand, witnessed the scene. Ears turning flushed pink. 'What? WHAAAT!?? 'You exclaimed in the back of your mind as you walked straight to where your husband was, Haitham.

'My~ hello there Cyno.' you stated, smile feeling forced. '.... Oh. Ahh! Hello.' he nodded and glanced at you and Alhaitham, dazed. Kaveh, taking in what is going on. 'OHH!! Wait, wait, wait, wait!! ' shooting a surprised and uncharacteristic kind of glare at Alhaitham. Kaveh trying to connect the dots as to why you, a very beautiful— no, ethereal lady— would marry this man whose only interests are books and knowledge.

Two men are astonished by what is happening right now. Alhaitham then smoothly held your hands and excused, 'Uhh, apologies but me and my wife have to go now.... Bye.' walking out their way, the two men stilled on that very spot, gaze following you both, mouth twain agape.

The next day, you were greeted by your friends at the front door.

Flabbergasted by Candace by abruptly holding your shoulders and shaking you, 'Waaaaah our- our baby is married! Since when? AAAAA!!' Dehya in the back restrains her snickers since it's uncharacteristic of Candace. Then you gaze at Nilou, tears welling up in her beautiful blue-ocean eyes.

'Uhmm, I--' stopped by Dehya, 'NO! Let us in first.' then eyeing every corner of the house, finding where your said husband is. '..... My husband isn't here. He's at work right now.' Suddenly Dehya turns around and runs in your direction, exclaiming, 'Whaaat!? You're not lying, are you?' gasped loudly and animatedly. Nilou and Candace both chuckled at her sudden reaction.

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You and your friends were seated at the sofa. Calmly explaining what and how it happened, then there's Dehya asking. 'Sooo, did you guys do it?' The other two women were stunned by what Dehya said, and Nilou responded, 'Sorry about that,' she smiled at you and smacked Dehya on the head.

You gave a forced smile and responded, 'Heheh, however we did not. And we don't even have feelings for one other...' you gaze down, a familiar aching in your chest welling up. Nilou notices it and pats your back. 'Actually.... I- I think I have feelings for my husband, however..... I think if I say it to him and announce it, he'll be appalled by the concept.' Tears well up in your lovely eyes. The females listened to you and offered words of sympathy.

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When night fell, you were alone, waiting for Alhaitham. Thoughts from a while ago flooded your head, and thinking about them just made you feel upset again. So you went to your shared bedroom, covering your mouth to prevent sobs from escaping your soft lips, duvet covering you.

Alhaitham was drained after working overtime, now on his way home. He sluggishly put his shoes on the rack. Afterwards starts waltzing to find you and notices the bedroom door is slightly ajar. Alhaitham heed the quilt trembling; he then patted it. You, startled, you stopped moving and tried to make your voice not too strained from crying. 'Ohh! Welcome home Haitham. I'm sorry I wasn't able to cook for you, I wasn't feeling well.' Then the next thing that happened is that silence fell upon the room.

'........ Umm, Haitham?' you said still under the quilts. You tried to peek since you weren't receiving any reaction.

Alhaitham, being the person he is, saw an opportunity as you attempted to peek, a small smile escaped his lips. 'What are you doing? Hiding there and all.' looking at you with an unreadable expression. You gasped by the sudden touch at your hands by his. Flailing from his iron grip, but can't unfortunately, you accept defeat.

'I have a question.... and I'd want to say something to you.' Upon hearing that, your thoughts are clouded with pessimism, and you begin to wonder what he is going to say. Him observing your figure under the quilts, shaking. Without any further ado he started, 'I know you didn't want this kind of life, and that…. your parents made you do it..' He sighs, then says faintly, 'but—' suddenly a sob escapes your trembling lips. Surprised by it, you swiftly cover your mouth.

Alhaitham reacted quickly, pulling the quilts down to see you weeping uncontrollably. When he saw you in that state. His heart were shattered into pieces seeing you in that condition.... He hates it, he hates seeing you cry. 

He daintily wiped your tears away and kissed you on the temples and next your forehead, also cupping your cheeks. You, on the contrary, are at a loss for words, mustering the confidence to speak up, 'Hait—-!!!' a quick sweet kiss pressed against your plump lips.

'Ahh!' You gasped, both lips parted, and the expression on his face was lustrous, though he kept the neutrality in it. The abrupt realization of what is happening causes your cheeks to heat up. 'Ahhn, Haitham! AH!... Wait, no, please!' squirming out of his towering figure.

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Hands began to trace your contours, as if in adoration. Alhaitham then pulls your skirt's waistband...... and then your undergarment. A moan left your now swollen lips from the kiss as you felt his cold fingers under your skin. The ashen-haired man grins, the hue of his eyes darkening by the second.

'Hah~ Ah! ahh.... Nghh.. Haitham.' you looking at him eyes half-lidded. The gaze you gave him drove him over the edge. He couldn't wait any longer, so he began to slip his digit into your aching folds. 'AHHH! ' left your quivering lips, body trembling from his penetrating satisfaction. The way you called him in your angelic voice has skewed his judgment.

The unexpected stretch made your honeypot tighten even harder as he inserted another two of his digits. 'Hah~ so good for me.' Alhaitham can't contain his smirk from making you feel good. He then began to pace his digits faster, motioning where you felt the most ecstasy.  Mind becomes hazy, don't know what is right and wrong. 'Hahh, please....' you said ‘I- I want it inside.. AHH!.. nghh mn... of me now.' The thrill has caused your eyes to close.

Alhaitham drew away, as if taking mercy on your predicament, or perhaps his desperation had reached its limit. Tears welled up in your eyes as he positioned his length with your thirsting cunt. He slowly pushes it inside then outside of your sobbing cunt. 'Aghh! S- so tight and... hah~ warm.' You can hear him growl near your ears, feeling the closeness and warmth of each other's bodies.

Shaky hands grasped their lover's toned back. A growl broke from his chest as he dove into your arms, his length thrusting completely into you. 'OH!' you mewled out from the stretch of his length, nails digging at his back and his shoulder blades.

Alhaitham feeling your walls clenched violently at his length, merciless pistons and teases your cunt with slow and deep thrusts. Nothing interrupted the pistoning of his hips as he fucked you through your orgasm. Slapping of skins and the thick musky scent of your both filthy actions filling the room.

Feeling the knot in your stomach starting to form, you attempted to move your hips only to be halted by Alhaitham's unrelenting grasp on your thighs and hips. When he became aware of your foreboding knot, he drew his length out at your sobbing folds. Holding your thighs up, positioning unto his shoulders, he started to lick the honeypot that was presented to him.

‘Ah-hh ahh~’ Alhaitham kept slurping all those liquids out. You whined loudly at him, vocalizing your exhaustion, as you felt his warm breath on your folds and his tongue tease ruthlessly.

‘.... no.’ Left his mouth. 'Huh?' You exclaimed, your consciousness beginning to waver. '....... I'm not done yet.' hazy scarlet eyes, now noticeable.

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His pace was suddenly much faster, harder, and deeper. You clung on to dear life by strengthening your grip on his shoulder blades and your thighs on his enticing hips. He bit at your delicate neck, feeling his locks in your neck, as he neared your release and his. Squelching noises and moans filled the entire room once more. Eyes now rolling back from the overwhelming pleasure, back arching, mind went blank, limbs were limp, and nerves fried.

Alhaitham panting steadily at your shoulders, length still buried inside. You felt him stir, straining against the bed to unpin you from his frame, after a few more coarse pants and feverish breaths. ‘Hnn~ ahh-h… Hahh~’ you utter.

Pulling out his length, you could feel a thick string of mixed slick connecting through his tip and to your hole.

Your consciousness started to drift for real amidst the exhaustion you two had experienced a while ago. Alhaitham then shifted gently your sleeping form to the side, covered you with quilts, and walked out of the room.

As you awoke, you felt a sharp ache in your chest. When you tried to move your numb body, tears began to stream from your eyes, and then it turned into loud choked sobs.

Alhaitham was sipping coffee in the living room when he heard you weeping. He dashed into your shared bedroom and held you with great care, assisting you to sit up at the edge of the bed. He holds your hands softly and gently strokes the back of your palms, you still crying.

He inquired as to whether you were in pain or experiencing breathing difficulties, only for you to look away from his concerned gaze. Alhaitham felt that pang in his chest again, and after overcoming his guilt, he asked you again what you wanted.... him suddenly remembering, that you like your personal space. You didn't even spare a glance at him, just straight up responded, 'I- I.....' you then started to cry uncontrollably again.

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His warmth in your hands disappeared, and his blurry figure walked out of the room. It makes you feel hopeless, but then he returns a minute later. You asked about seeing the shining thing on his palm, '.....what- What is that?' with a lethargic tone of speaking.

Alhaitham then queried with a breathy sigh; despite the fact that you can't see his face well due to your tears, you can tell he's nervous. '.... This.... is a wedding ring.' Your eyes widened as you looked up at him. He grinned now that he had your attention, you looking at him. 'I want to be your husband, not just legally, but also until we grow old and witness our child have a blissful life.'

'........ Wahh!? 'Not knowing what to say in response, you tried to move and hug (??) him, only to stumble. Yet in a breath of the wind, he caught your numb naked body. You then began to cry again at his embrace, nodding enthusiastically. 'Yes, yes! I- I'll marry you and make you my lawfully married husband and life partner… I do!!' You exclaimed, tears streaming down your cheeks, the man earning a smile from you ear to ear.

Truth be told, the sight was very silly because your clothings were all over the floor and your mattress was a mess. Yet, love triumphs when two individuals declare their adoration for one other.

Fin.

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s/n: huaaah~!! now that it's finished i can now rest heheh :'D also hope you all enjoyed my fic,, and sorry again for the errors & everything. bahh! this was really hard to do (although it just took me 2 days😑lol), my brain was really jagged making this heuhusehu.. well that's all for now and the drabble for this will be updated who knows when (very soon) >v^)//✨✨

QUICK NOTE...!! QUICK NOTE! QUICK NOTE!!! yep this fic (some parts) were rushed, i'm very very sorry abt that fr and judgements or criticism even are accepted, feel free ;-) i take it as advice to further improve my writing skills, vocab and such tysmm!!

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HOY ANUBA

[gardenwons]

Filo conyo! enha hyung line (maybe sfw for maknae line only if u are comfy w it) like i need all of them as conyo kids. (Jake is ateneo, Jay is lasalle... ARGUE W ME ON THIS!!)

Also can i be 🎀/🌸/🍒 anon??

AYAN NANAMAN KAYOOO 🤭🥰🥰🥰

heeseung isko ng bayannn lets go! I cant w him 😭 puta literal campus crush. Everyone KNOWS this mfer, kahit papasok palang mga freshies alam agad nila kung sino ung hot na senior 😔🤭 Super shy despite the popularity, he shoots his chances w women he genuinely likes naman. Although acads is a big hindrance whenever pursuing someone— seung would always hit you with the “its not you, its me” bc ayaw niya pa naman bumagsak ng tuluyan (both w grades and you)

Jay as a lozol kid, he fits right in. Kinda the trend setter in campus na IT boy na cold na maingay sa hallway biglang sisigaw. Super gentleman, Chivalry never died w this man. Known to be loyal (long term relationship fr) kinda type!! Would always be that guy you’d see driving as his mode of transpo to school. Tapos dad polo shirts every other day talaga, anak ni henry sy ung palaging tinutukso sakanya 🤪

jake admu! my lil stem boy 🥺 brains and beauty ang atake. APPLIED PHYSICS ANG COURSE PLS ang hot ayoko na. Maharot pero usually siya nasasaktan sa mga kaharutan niya 😭 palaging nagmumukmok pag failed ang situationships. Truly a hopeless romantic, tipong maghihintay sa library to see if may girl na he’d fall in love at first sight with. Madaling kausapin, leader ng org nila and loves socializing, super conyo and super okay with it.

sunghoon ust idc idc loves ghosting ppl bc he seems too preoccupied w/ studies + panglipas oras mga flirty chats niya jusko. Overall he’s a sweet guy,, talagang wag lang muna landiin if hindi niya pa kayang seryosohin my god. i cant see him as an athlete pero bakit nursing talaga or dentistry AHSHHS POGI SO MUCH.

All of them became friends through mutual connections and would often see them before or after exams in bars either sa pobla or bgc 🤭 asar v much whenever one of them brings their gf (pero sa totoo inggit lang sila)

next time na maknae line 🫶🏻 kinikilig ako asan na ba jake ko from ateneo ano ba yan >:(( TYSM anon ily namiss ko filo moots💓 ay omg nsfw ba dapat to natuwa ako just imagining them as students 😭 sige sige next time fr nsfw na HSHDHSH

[jezawitha-z]

"Mukhang delikado na naman ako

O bakit ba kinikilig na naman ako?" - Dilaw by Maki

Simula nung tinawag si Jollibee at hanggang sa sumayaw sya, tuwang tuwa talaga ako. Pabiro pang sabi ng friend ko na kay Jollibee nalang daw ata ako kinikilig. Hahahaha

My inner child is happy but my adult self is happier at kinikilig. Hahahaha ang babaw lang talaga ng kaligayahan 🤣 Papapicture lang naman ako Jabeee bakit may payakap. Char 🤣

[ediyoonoh]

Catching Feelings

Bestfriend!ParkJisung x fem!reader; 1.7k words; taglish fic

GENRE: fluff, smut

WARNING: this short fic contains smut (pwp and unprotected sex) and the use of foul language!

SUMMARY: Since when did you catch feelings with your best friend?

A/N: Hi there! I’m sorry this took so long anon 😭 This fic may contain typo and grammatical errors. Anw, I hope you enjoy reading and lemme know your thoughts!

MINORS DNI!!

MASTERLIST

‘Di na naawa ang mga professor mo sa inyo sa dami ng mga pinapagawa.

Nandito ka ngayon sa condo mo subsob sa pag-aaral. Sandamakmak kasi na output ang ginagawa mo at may dalawang exams ka pang kailangan pag-aaralan dahil na lalapit na ang finals niyo. Dahil dito, matagal-tagal mo na rin ‘di na kakausap si Jisung, ang best friend mo.

In all honesty, these academic requirements are only an excuse on why you choose not to meet Jisung. Lately kasi, na realize mo na may gusto ka pala sa binata. Matagal na kayong magkaibigan pero ngayon kinikilig ka na sa lalim ng boses niya, kagwapuhan niya, at ang mga kilos niya — basically all the small things that he does.

Unfortunately, wala kang balak umamin sa kaibigan mo tungkol sa nararamdaman mo sa kaniya. Kilala kasi si Jisung sa campus niyo dahil member siya ng dance troupe kaya maraming mga babae, pati na rin lalaki, ang may gusto rin sa kaniya. Ang ilan pa dito ay may itsura rin kaya naman sa tingin mo ay wala ka ng pag-asa sa lalaki at kuntento ka na sa pagiging magkaibigan lamang.

»»————-　♡　————-««

“Putangina naman, ‘di makapag focus yung tao dito eh!” inis na sabi mo pagkatapos marining ang mga notification ng phone mo dahil hinahanap ka na ng kaibigan mo. Dinedma mo na lang ito at hinagis ang phone sa kama upang magpatuloy na sa pag-aaral.

Maya-maya may naririnig ka ng kumakalampag sa pinto mo. “Y/n!!” malakas na sigaw ni Jisung mula sa labas ng unit mo. “Buksan mo na yung pinto dali oh! Namimiss na kita!” Jusko ‘wag kang magsasabi ng ganiyan, kitang delikado na ako dito oh.

Hindi tumigil sa pag-katok ang lalaki kaya pinili mo ng pagbuksan ito. “Anong gusto mo, Ji? Busy ako,” mataray mong sinabi sa kaniya pero mukhang ‘di ito nakikinig dahil pumasok na lang ito agad sa unit mo.

“Ilang araw na tayo ‘di nagkikita, y/n. Miss na kita,” sabi niya habang umupo sa couch sa sala mo. “So pupunta ka na lang dito ng walang pasabi at mang-iistorbo?” tanong mo sa kaniya.

“’Di kita iistorbohin don’t worry. You do your acads while I do my acads. See? we can still bond while still being productive,” he proudly said while pulling out his laptop from his bag.

Pambihira. Seryoso siya sa sinasabi niya. “Bahala ka diyan, basta ‘wag mo kong guluhin,” giit mo nang magpatuloy ka na sa trabaho mo.

»»————-　♡　————-««

It didn’t surprise you nang mawala ka na sa focus mo an hour after your interaction. ‘Di mo na maintinidihan ang mga readings mo dahil ang isip mo ay na pupunta na lang sa kasama mo ngayon.

Pasimple kang tumingin sa kaniya habang nag-uunat ng buto. He looks so handsome when he is focused typing away in his laptop. The way his tongue pokes out from his lips when he is ensuring what his doing is correct, is too cute for your heart. But most importantly, his veiny arms looks so nice as your neck—

“Y/n? Aayos ka lang?” Gago nahuli ka ni Jisung nakatulala sa kaniya. Agad mong ibinalik ang tingin mo sa libro mo pero naririnig mo na ang mga yapak niyang papalapit sa’yo.

“Pahinga muna tayo” bulong ng lalaki sa’yo nang pinatong niya ang mga kamay niya sa balikat mo. “Dali na, please? Kahit saglit lang mukhang wala ng pumapasok sa isip mo,” pagpupumilit niya. Hinayaan mo na lang hilain ka ng kaibigan mo papalayo sa ginagawa mo at saka pinaupo ka sa couch katabi siya. “Y/n aminin mo nga sa’kin,” he initiated. Tangina saan papunta ‘to?

“Anong aaminin ko sa’yo Ji?” pa-inosenteng tanong mo sa kaniya. Humarap si Jisung sa’yo at nagpatuloy sa kaniyang sasabihin, “Yung totoo bakit ‘di mo ko pinapansin buong linggo? May nagawa ba ako?” he looked genuinely concerned. “Ah…wala naman Ji. Busy lang talaga ako sa acads” pagsisinungaling mo.

“Busy sa acads pero balita ko may time ka kumain kasama blockmates mo tapos after gumala pa kayo?” he inquired further. ‘Di mo alam paano niya nalaman ‘yun pero siguradong kakausapin mo sa sususnod kung sino man ang nagsabi kay Jisung. Traydor.

“Alam mo naman pwede mong sabihin sa’kin kahit ano diba? Kahit tungkol pa sa’kin ‘yan,” he reassured you while holding your hand.

Alam mo? Fuck it.

“Gusto kita, Jisung,” you spoke without warning. “Don’t make me repeat it again. I know you heard what I said, Ji. And it’s completely fine if you don’t reciprocate my feelings because I know I don’t stand a chance with you and we can still remain as friends but I honestly don’t know if —” naputol ang mga sinasabi mo nang bigla mo na lang naramdaman ang mga labi ng lalaki sa labi mo.

“Sandali, makinig ka muna sakin ha,” sabi niya pagkatapos kang halikan. “Dami mo nang sinasabi ‘di mo pa alam sagot ko.” Tiningnan ka lamang ng binata at hinaplos ang pisngi mo gamit ng kamay niya. “Ang ganda mo, y/n.”

Nabigla ka ng hinalikan ka muli ni Jisung nang naging sanhi ng mahinang pag-ungol mo. All while his hands were roaming around your body wanting to feel every inch of it. Shit, nakikipaglaplapan ka sa kaibigan mo.

»»————-　♡　————-««

“Wait lang, Ji” you hurriedly pulled away from him. You looked at him bewilderedly as to why he was kissing you. “Ayokong ginagawa mo ‘to dahil naaawa ka lang sa’kin,” you defended.

Nagulat naman ang lalaki sa sinabi mo, “Oh god no y/n. I’m sorry if this confuses you… pero I’ve been also meaning to tell you na gusto rin kita, more than as a friend,” Jisung shyly whispered.

There was tension in between you after he confessed. While you were lost in your thoughts you heard your friend say, “Can I kiss you again y/n?” Yes please. With your nod, he hurriedly claimed your lips again as if he doesn’t want to let go. You wrapped your hands around his neck and kissed him back with all the emotions you’ve kept.

The both of you showed no signs of stopping kaya naman nagmamadali mong sinabi, “J-ji sa kwarto tayo,” agad ka namang binuhat ng lalaki patungo sa bedroom mo nang hindi tinitigilan ang paghalik sa’yo.

“Tangina, you smell so good,” bulong niya sa’yo noong hiniga ka niya sa kama at simulan halikan ang leeg mo. ‘Di mo naman napigilan mapaungol sa sarap at balutin ang baywang niya gamit ang hita mo kung saan naramdaman mo ang matigas niyang ari.

Kung saan-saan ka na rin hinahalikan ni Jisung. Una sa leeg at ngayon itinaas niya ang shirt mo para halikan ang dibdib mo. “Can I touch you,” he asked once he saw your naked breasts. Hindi mo na sinagot ang lalaki at hinawakan na lamang ang kamay niya at pinalamas ang mga suso mo. Nanlaki ang mga mata niya sa ginagawa mo and you also felt his cock twitch on your clothed pussy.

Pinanggigilan na ng lalaki ang mga suso mo at hindi na rin niyo mapigilan ang mga ungol sa sarap. “Ji, I need your cock inside me please,” you begged as you can’t hold it anymore. You want to feel him, now. Nang narinig ng binata ang sinabi mo, hindi na siya nag alinlanagan hubarin ang boxers at short niya, pati na rin ang leggings mong suot.

“You sure about this?” tanong niya sa’yo because he doesn’t want to pressure you in doing anything you don’t want. “Yes, Ji. I’m sure about this,” you answered.

Unti-unti niyang pinasok ang tite niya dahil ayaw ka nitong masaktan. You also can’t help but to wince a bit due to the new feeling. “Putangina baby ang sikip mo pero basang basa ka naman,” you moaned due to the nickname he called you and felt your pussy just become wetter.

Once he managed to fully put himself in, dali-dalian mo ng sinabi, “Please move already, Ji.” He started slowly helping you adjust to his size. “F-fuck you feel so good baby,” he groaned. You also were turned on more when you noticed the way his holding the headboard too tight, trying to stop himself from fucking you too hard. “Fuck me harder Ji, please” you asked when you had already adjusted to his size.

Tiningnan ka ng binata kung sigurado ka ba sa sinasabi mo at ang nakita niya lamang ay ang pagtango mo. “Shit, my baby wants it hard, hm?” he said habang hinawakan ang baywang mo ng mahigpit at sinimulan kang kantutin ng mas malakas hanggang sa tumunog ang kama mo kada pag-bayo.

Namamalat na rin ang boses mo kakasigaw at ungol dahil hindi tumitigil si Jisung sa pagpasok at labas ng tite niya sa’yo. “Puta, keep clenching like that then maybe I’ll just cum,” he groaned in your ear as he lowered himself. You are overwhelmed on how good you were feeling. Then you started to cry from the pleasure when Jisung started to play with your clit. “Cum for me, baby” he commanded huskily.

“Fuck!” sigaw mo noong hindi mo na napigilan labasan. “Good girl,” Jisung praised. Maya-maya naramdaman mong linabas ng lalaki ang tite niya at pinutok ang tamod niya sa tiyan mo kasama ang pag-ungol ng malakas.

»»————-　♡　————-««

You are now lying naked on his chest with a blanket covering your bodies after Jisung doing aftercare.

“Can I take you out to dinner?” bigla ka namang natawa sa tanong ng lalaki sa’yo. Parang nauna pa ata ang sex kaysa sa date?

”We started with the wrong order but yes, I gladly want you take me out to dinner, Ji” you replied with a kiss on his cheek.

[FIN.]

ediyoonoh '23

[anyalovesu]

tolerate it.

xii. where's that man who threw blankets over my barbed wire?

—“being tolerated by leon during the first days of our engagement wasn’t the one that hurt me the most. really, it was learning that my saving grace, the one whom i thought was throwing blankets over barbed wire for me…it was realizing that isaac has been the one tolerating me for the longest time. it even reached the point that he couldn’t tolerate me any longer that he had to search for what i was lacking in someone else.”

necessary reminders:

content warning: contains light smut (lol) 🔞🔞🔞; not piv ; fingering (f rec) ; overstimulation (medj?) basta bas2s

mdni mdni mdni mdni mdni mdni 🔞🔞🔞

super light nsfw only if that's not your kind of shit or if your the kind of person who publicly shits on people who don't write up to your standards, dni too

DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE A MINOR FOR GODS SAKE 🔞🔞🔞🔞

Although 4 days felt like forever for them to find themselves in a plane back to Manila, they were able to get home safely without the worries of Leon and Santi being put in jeopardy. The both of them were cleared to continue their recovery at home. Which is why Santi is back in their parents mansion because he lived alone and Leon is stuck at home. All four of them were relieved of their current projects, which included Ynes and Eli being excused from work as well, fledging to take care of their injured brothers for the meantime. Besides, after all the psychological warfare that the both of them went through from literally being the first ones to know about the accident has been too much as well that Elizalde Yang thought it was best that they let them off work as well.  Most of the heavy tasks were transferred to different teams in the company, while the rest were being done at home. 

“May crush ka kaklase mo sa conservatory ‘di ba?” Leon teased as he sat next to Eli who played a very peaceful piano rendition of Midnight Covey’s hit song, Tulog Na. 

Eli hummed, glancing at him, which admittedly made Leon’s knees feel weak, with the way the soft light from the stained windows reflected on her face, making her face look more ethereal than it already was.

“Si Geon Isidro?” she asked. “Joke lang ‘yon. Sinabi ko lang para tantanan ako noong isa pa naming kasama.”

“Kilala ‘yon nila Tito ‘di ba?”

Eli looked at him, confused why all of a sudden he was so invested in Geon when he was in fact no more than a figment from her past. It was something he knew back then. 

“Yeah, they met sa country club sa Baguio, taga roon sila originally eh.”

“You think magkakagusto ka uli sa kanya if nakita mo s’ya uli?”

“Sobra ka na yata sa gamot, Leon,” she chuckled, playfully flicking his forehead. Leon feigned offense, dramatically holding onto his forehead as if he was hurt badly.

“Bakit ba? Genuine na question ‘yon! Tanong ng best friend!”

“Hindi nga kasi ako nagkagusto kay Geon,” she shrugged, fiddling on the piano keys as if visualizing what would sound good. “Sinasabi ko naman sa’yo kapag may crush ako noon.”

“Sa tingin mo maniniwala ako d’yan? Sabi mo nga dati crush mo ako!”

“Oh bakit hindi ba?” 

Leon’s normally pale face began to heat up, turning his face crimson in almost only a glimpse which made Eli laugh at how adorable he was. Usually it was the other way around, flustering Eli was his job! Bakit sya ang kinikilig ngayon?

Elijah chuckled, moving one leg towards the other side of the piano stool so that she would see his face clearer from where he was sitting on the other half of the two-person stool.

“Pag tinigasan nanaman ako sa kakaganyan mo—”

“Oh my god! Ang bunganga mo talaga!”

“Baby, you’ve gotten off on me once na,” he chuckled, pinching her cheeks, finding it cute that she still gets shy at the idea of it. “It’s not like secret pa ‘yon sa atin.”

“Kahit na,” she laughed. “Ang awkward pakinggan na magse-sex tayo, e for the longest time kinonvince ko ang sarili ko na hindi tayo talo.”

“Cute mo,” he laughed. “You say that like you weren’t the one on top of me last time, baby.”

Leon could not help but adore how her face turned crimson when she bursted out in laughter, hitting his arm like she usually does. “Bakit ba tawa ka ng tawa?” he chuckled at her, “It’s human to have needs bakit ka nahihiya?”

“Because it’s not like me to just ask for things I need, Leon,” she shrugged. Though she meant it as a joke, they both know there’s more truth to it than it was a joke. Eli has always been one to work for what she needs, even if it was something basic. Everything she gets, she feels the need to work for it. 

“It’s just funny na hanggang sex you feel ne need to work for shit, ginaganyan ka ba ni Issac Sim, ha?”

Somehow that hit Eli. If Isaac really has been cheating on her and he’s already fallen out of love with her long before they were forced to break up… then the truth must really hurt. Chances are Isaac has only been using her to get his dick wet for the past years.

“Kahit hindi naman doon…”

She took the time to look after his health when they were still in college. All the times she was the one who woke up early to make sure his shit was ready. All the things Eli did for him, just for her to feel like she deserved to be loved, all of it she considered to be priceless only to find out that it was all in vain because the love she thought was getting wasn’t even real in the first place.

Leon hummed at the reaction he got from Eli. Though much like her advances, it was meant to be a joke, he did not want to hear all the hell Eli has been going through that she did not notice at all. He just wanted to replace it. Make her feel like the woman she was meant to be—adored and served.

“Actually, I don’t want to hear it,” he scoffed. Well, even out of the sexual context, it pissed him off that Elijah was treated like that. When they were friends, if it was possible for him to do it instead of Eli, he did it. It pissed him off that during the time he could not be the person who does it, she was allowing herself to be used by some bastard who isn’t even worth half the person Elijah is. “Kapag magaling na ako, you don’t have to work for anything else, okay?”

“Bro, I want to work,” she rolled her eyes at him, making him laugh while leaning towards her, inching her face closer to her.

“It’s okay if you want to do that, pero ako na ang bahala sa’yo sa ibang bagay, okay?”

Eli could feel her heart race at his sincerity, or maybe not, maybe it was his hand on her exposed thigh, showing through the slit of her sundress because it was scorching hot in the country. She doesn’t know anymore, it doesn’t help that his warm lips are on hers again, moving in sync to hers. 

Shit. Kakasabi ko lang kanina na awkward, but why does it feel so right? Eli thought to herself.

Leon then takes the opportunity to squeeze the supple skin of her thigh before inching it higher and higher, making her gasp for air but he only takes this as an opportunity to slot his tongue in between her parted lips. At that point, he really was determined to make Eli feel nice without her working for anything, fuck the stitches on his side. He had to make his baby feel good.

His hand kept inching up her body till it  reached her boy shorts.

“Do you want to?” Leon asked, making sure that she still had a choice, and he will never do anything she doesn’t want to do. 

Eli looked up at him and nodded before leaning over to capture his lips once again. And while he just wanted to just grab her and fuck her right then and there with how pretty she looked nodding at him like that, he needed to hear her say it.

“Say it, baby,” he hummed against her lips, before his other hand reached for her face, holding her back from kissing him again until she gave an answer.

“Fuck, Leon. Yes.”

He wanted to go feral at that very moment but he knew his limitations with that stupid fucking wound on his side, he’s not gonna be able to feel her up that way. But it wasn’t going to stop him from making her feel good.

“Kandong ka, baby,” and before Eli could think of it, there she was again, on top of him, with both legs on either side of him.

“Wait paano yung tahi mo,” she gasped, hitting his shoulder upon realizing. 

“Hindi yan magagalaw kung hindi ka maglilikot,” he chuckled before pulling her face closer to get a taste of her saccharine lips once again. 

Mint. Mint lipbalm. That’s what her lips taste like. Something Issac will never taste again. Fucking asshole. Leon thinks to himself.

He likes to think that it’s just love instead of lust that drives him to do this, because it is. While there is that primal need to be as close to her as he could, all he wanted was to make her feel loved and taken care of—that finally she can rest her armors down and let him do all the work.

Eli’s arms find home around Leon’s neck as she leans closer to him, unintentionally putting on pressure on Leon’s hard-on. 

“Lean back, baby,” Leon hums against her lips before adjusting her back to her old position, hands delicately guiding her hips back before it travels down to where she most needed it to be.

“Fuck,” she breathes out as Leon continues to rub his thumb on the wet patch on her cotton underwear. “What the actual fuck, Leon.”

“That feels nice, baby?” he smirks as he leans over to kiss her neck, leaving soft butterfly kisses first before sucking on the sweet spot behind her ear. 

“Yes, oh my god—” Leon seemed dissatisfied when she began to move on her own again, trying to grind against his already moving hand. 

“Wag kang malikot,” he says sternly, his free hand holding her hips down to keep it steady. “I’ll stop if you move. Okay?”

Eli, already drunk in love, couldn’t help but just helplessly nod at Leon’s ministrations.

“Answer me, baby.”

“I won’t move, Leon. Please, just—” Eli’s pleads were cut off by her own quiet gasp when Leon’s fingers began moving again in a steady pace that quite literally made Eli want to go insane, trying the best that she could to not squirm at the pleasure that was running through her entire body.

“Stay still, Ellie. Alright?”

“Yes, please—fuck—can you remove na please.”

“You want me to touch you raw, baby?” he asked, fingers slowing down before hastening again to tease her. 

“Please, baby.” Baby. Leon’s head goes haywire. Before he could even let his mind think about it for a second time, he helps her up and takes off the piece of cloth separating his hand from the soft nub in between her legs. 

Leon takes his time with her, making sure every move was only meant to please her, always asking before he does something foreign. 

Thus, there Eli was, being fucked witless with two of Leon’s fingers, knuckles deep, swiftly moving inside her, curling every now and then, making her release a string of soft hums and whimpers in his ear as she bites on to the crook of his neck to keep herself quiet while her fiance’s fingers do its wonders.

“That feels nice, baby?”

“Nice… yes… oh my god, Leon,” she replies in soft gasps as she clings to him for support. “Faster, please.”

Leon does as he is told, even going as far as using his thumb to rub the bundle of nerves while he’s at it, making her stomach tighten at the sensation. 

It’s not long after she reaches her high, leaning back pressing on random piano keys that fills the living room with other sounds than the sound of her heavy breaths and the wet sound of Leon’s fingers ramming inside of her. But the older does not stop his hands from moving.

“Shit. Shit. Shit. Baby, done na please—”

“One more baby,” he hums before kissing her again, enjoying the remains of her mint lip balm that has now faded, probably smudged on either of their faces and on the hickeys on his neck. “You can give me one more.”

Tears began to form in the corners of her eyes as her dilated pupil gaze on the features of his face, reflecting pleasure at the sight of her getting flooded with dopamine at her climax. “So pretty for me, Ellie.” 

“Leon, oh my god,” Eli was sure that very moment that Leon had already fucked her stupid, and that was with his hands only. Only his name was coherent from all the babbles that came out of her mouth that Leon could not help but feel smitten with how willing Eli is to be vulnerable with him. 

It wasn’t too long until Eli is sobbing at the wave of pleasure consuming her entire body while she wraps her arms around his neck once again for comfort. Leon's thumb still consistently moving, guiding her through her high.

"Baby, enough na please," Elijah whimpered against his neck, reaching in between her thighs to make him stop. Leon then takes it as his stop sign, slowly removing his hand from inside of her before lifting it up to his mouth to taste. Eli, still too fucked out to think of anything else but the aftershocks of her climax, wasn't strong enough to stop him from doing so.

Fuck. She wasn’t even sure how the fuck was it possible that he made her climax twice that quick, but one thing was for sure. Nothing can compare to the feeling of his hold after it’s all done. Soothing circles were drawn on her lower back as he waited for her body to stop spasming.

“Okay na? Kailangan pa maglinis, baby.”

“Sleepy,” she responds, burying her face on the crook of his neck.

“Linis muna, then matutulog tayo, okay?”

“Okay,” she hums dejectedly before pulling away from him.

continue here (kulto ni tobias gc convo)

continue here (housemates' gc convo)

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“Saan tayo after sa Valiente?” Gwen asked from the shotgun seat, craning his neck back to look at Eli who sat in the back seat with Leon and Jacynthe. It was obvious that he was in severe  discomfort with the atmosphere in the car with both Jas and Alistair being in the same space when fully, everyone knew how shit went down for the both of them.

Jacynthe and Alistair were a thing about a couple of years ago, when Alistair had just finished his Information Technology Degree. Philomena Yoon and Daphne Huh, have been bestfriends since highschool and have been each other’s support system since then especially when things got messy between their relationships and well, they both had children none of their partners wanted to keep. Basically, Jacynthe and Alistair knew each other for a long time already, with both their mothers being attached to the hip practically. But what seemed to be an ideal relationship between the two immediately went awry when Alistair migrated to LA to supposedly pursue a career in the Silicon Valley. The two broke up upon Alistair’s wish because apparently he could not handle a long distance relationship. Nonetheless, they kept contact after promising that he will be back once he’s established his career. Well, that was until Alistair enlisted into the military as a Military IT, and did not tell Jacynthe. Back then, Jas held on to every detail to his promise. She lived for the hope of it all, depending on empty promises as something to hold on to. You could only imagine how devastated Jas was when Alistair just decided to go into boot camp and go MIA from the internet scene for a good while. Thing about Jacynthe is that she doesn’t just love. When she loves, she loves deeply and truly and madly. She makes it a point that everything she can give, she will give if that’s what it took for her to be loved. Maybe you can daddy issues for it, but that’s how it is. Jas went around serial dating guys who weren't even worth half a minute of her time. They were all sorts of guys—jobless, narcissistic, manipulative, you name it— all of roommates can agree that they were only there for the money and the fame because Jacynthe was steadily rising to the limelight with songs she produced for multiple A-list singers and songs she wrote with Kyle Crisostomo. It was safe to say that even if it was worrisome that Jas is getting involved with someone like Tobias, who always claimed that he didn’t do relationships, he was nicer than anyone else. Tobi, if not for his compulsive need to stay out of relationships, would be one ideal guy. He’s talented and passionate and dedicated to the things that he loved to do, which was music. Something Jas has always been interested in as well. So, as uncertain as it may be, they had more hope that Jas would not get broken hearted by Tobi, more than anyone else she went on date with. 

“Bahay na uli,” Eli replied to him. “The band will come daw pa magpractice kami para sa set sa Aurora bukas.”

“Oh you will perform?” Gwen’s eyes lit up in excitement as he fully turned to look at her.

“Jas rin! She has a few songs to play with MC!” Jacynthe looked uneasy with it being brought up, especially with her ex sitting just in close proximity along with the fact that in both of her features, she will be singing with Tobias and Amir.

“Galingan n’yo bukas!”

There they were, in the VIP parking lot of Valiente Med, where most of the physicians and surgeons park their cars. It was safe to say that Eli was left speechless the moment her car entered the parking lot and several men dressed in suits were already waiting for them. Philomena Yoon, you are as OA as you can always be.

“Napaka-oa mo ninang,” Eli shrugged at her godmother as soon as she met them in her office.

“Jas!” Philomena smiles as soon as she moves to hug Jacynthe. “Oh how are you? May masakit ba sa’yo? Nasa OR si Mama mo ngayon!”

“Oh, may scheduled check up lang po, Tita. I’m okay naman.”

“Good ‘yan. You’re not pregnant naman, 'di ba? Kaya nagpapacheck up?”

“You put my IUD in, Tita!”

“Ay oo nga pala! Anyway, mabuti yan! Itong bata na ‘to, kelan ka huling nagpacheck up? Kailangan mo na magcheck up ng madalas! You’re gonna get married na next month you have to make sure na you’re completely healthy!”

“Isang beses sa isang taon lang ako nilalagnat, ninang. Para saan ba ‘yon?”

“What if you’re pregnant na pala?”

“Ninang! How?”

“Babe, you’re young! And engaged! And pretty! I was younger than you when I had Ali! I used to have pregnancy scares more than twice a month!” She laughed. “Either way, tama yan. Huwag kayong gagaya sa akin, I understand naman. And your ex boyfriend was an ass. If I was in your place I would’ve been extra careful din. Wouldn’t want a guy like him to knock me up like the genes that kid has! They’re gonna taint our pedigree! Ugh! And at least Ali’s dad was a lawyer and left me to pursue law kahit papaano, I know Ali is going to turn out smart and well kahit namana n’ya yata ng slight ang katarantaduhan ng tatay n’ya. Right, Jas?”

Gwen audibly snorted at his mom’s remark. It really isn’t a secret how furious Philomena was when Alistair did what he did, she made sure he knew that as soon as he graduated from bootcamp.

Jas could only hold her laughter by pursing her lips and nodding.

Philomena continued on yapping until everyone was in their respective places. Gwen ended up being the one to wait for Jas in the waiting room, while Ali came with both Eli and Leon in the doctor’s office.

“Okay, so—” 

The both of them seemed to stop in their tracks as soon as their eyes met. 

“I was given the impression that Doctor Valle would be here instead of an intern, can I have Doctor Valle instead?” Leon’s tone was cold and stoic, which really seemed to petrify Louisse in her place.

“Um… Pi-pinapunta po ako dito ni Doctor Valle dito para magcheck ng vitals-”

“Go back to Doctor Valle, tell her I’m paging her,” Philomena wasn’t much help with her authoritarian tone before reaching for her phone in her white coat to dial someone.

“Binilinan po kasi ako na wag magpakita sa kanya—”

“It doesn’t seem like my problem, Miss Laxa, go get Doctor Valle,” she told her, bluntly.

“She doesn’t look like she’s having the best day, Ninang,” Eli mumbled, eyes wide as soon as she realized that tears were already forming in Louisse’s eyes when she left. 

“This is the second week both her and your filthy ex boyfriend have been receiving pansit since you asked me to send them,” she grinned, complacent at her pettiness as she pushed the door close. Even Ali face-palmed at his own mother’s actions. “If I can’t kick them out, the best I can do is to wish that their shift is worse than the last one.”

“Akala ko once n’yo lang yon gagawin!”

“Oh it’s no problem! I’m paying the nanay na naging patient ko a hefty to cook the pansit I send them everyday! So like isipin mo nalang na we’re supporting Nanay’s cooking business! It’s okay!”

Even Ali could not hold it any more, snorting at his mother’s level of petty. He could not believe how much immaturity his mother still got even after all those years of hardships and life lessons she learned. 

“Even Daph is on this! The Clark boy hasn’t got one scrub duty after one fuck up since we found out about what he has been doing! You have been saved by grace Alistair! If you were in the medical field din, Daphne and I would’ve gave you toxic shifts after toxic shifts too! Naiinis pa rin ako sa ginawa mo!”

“Hay nako, Yoon,” Doctor Valle appeared from the door, giving Philomena a high five as they both grinned. It seemed like they were all in to really making Isaac and Louisse’s shifts worse than it should be, which in Eli’s mind…deserve.

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“Why are you here?” Isaac bursts out as soon as Eli was out of the comfort room.

“My grandparents built this hospital, Isaac. What do you mean?” Eli spat out, glancing around to look for anyone who might see them both so that she may be able to call for help if she needed to.

“I know what you and Doctor Yoon are doing, Eli. Please, if going back to you would fix this—

“I don’t want you back, Isaac. Sana nahihiya ka sa mga sinasabi mo,” she gritted her teeth, appalled at the audacity that Isaac had to confront her like this.

“So what, mahal mo na? Kaya ayaw mo na agad sa akin?” He quipped, almost like he was offended. “Ganon kabilis?”

“Did you think I would really stay in love with you, Isaac? After you cheated on me with Louisse? Na on multiple occasions you assured me that was just your med school classmate?” Elijah was bursting in anger. She was fuming at the fact that she was being painted as the bad person when he had been cheating on her long before. “You are delusional, Isaac Sim.”

“Eli… You don’t love him—”

“That’s not for you to decide, Isaac.”

Isaac scoffed at her response, jaw visible tightening which scared her greatly. She never saw Isaac as someone who would harm her in any way, but that was before. He was a completely different person than she knew him as. She couldn’t be sure of how he’ll move next.

“Paano? Ganoon kabilis?” His voice was rising quickly which made Eli’s heart pound even harder but she kept her composure, not backing down even when tears were beginning to form in the corner of her eyes.

It was fast. Everything was fast with Leon but it felt natural. It felt light and normal, like it was meant to be there in the first place and really that feeling was so much different that when she was with Isaac.

“That’s disgusting, Eli,” he sniggered. “Just so you know, no one is going to love you better than I ever did. Ikaw? Who’s gonna love you at your state—”

“What the fuck are you telling my fiance?” Leon barked from the end of the hallway, which despite the volume of his voice, sent relief to Eli that she was no longer in danger, most especially when Alistair, Philomena and Belinda Valiente followed suit.

“We’re just talking, Doc—”

“You’re off Philomena's program, Sim. Pack your things.”

“Doc—”

“You are cornering my grandaughter, Sim. Hindi ka na nga maayos kumilos noong mga nakaraang araw, ko-kornerin mo pa ang apo ko?”

“I am not cornering her, Doctor Valiente, naguusap lang po talaga kami.”

“Hindi kami bulag, Mr. Sim. Lalong lalong hindi kami bingi, we heard what you said! Wag mo kaming ginagawang tanga. Alam naming matagal mo nang niloloko si Eli bago pa kayo maghiwalay kaya wala kang karapatan na sabihin ‘yan sa inaanak ko. Now, pack you things and find another institution that will tolerate your behavior because you are off my program.”

Eli just stood there in shock while Leon held her tight for deep compressions. 

Isaac dejectedly walks out from the hallway, making Philomena and Belinda turn to Elijah who is now in a full blown meltdown from what had just happened.

“You’re okay, baby,” Leon assures kissing the top of her head as she tried to hold back sobs.

–

“Ellie,” Leon called from his seat on the couch inside the studio. He was sitting next to Gwen and Amir, who were visibly flirting with each other while her. Tobi and Jas were MIA doing god knows what, while Karlo, Elijah and Kyle were trying to figure out how to keep Karlo from being flustered whenever Ellie does one of Leon’s funky rhythm patterns that no one in the band who has the ability to play bass can do. Everyone had been trying to distract Eli from what happened that morning, avoiding at all costs to bring up what happened earlier for her sake.

“Why po?” Elijah asked, walking over to him, abandoning the two who were currently arguing about Karlo being distractible. “May masakit ba? Do you want to go rest na sa taas?”

“No,” he replied, grinning like a child when Ellie walked over to him. He was just glad that Ellie paid attention to him and not two of his bandmates anymore. He gets it though, neither Kyle or Karlo would even have the stomach to go for their bro’s girl, but it made him uneasy how easily they could if they wanted to, especially with Ellie not even being his girlfriend in the first place. “Just wanted your attention.”

“You are so annoying, Leon,” she laughed, playfully flicking his forehead as he reached for her torso pulling her close to hug her middle, resting his head against her stomach. “Nagpa-practice kami.”

“Magaling ka naman na, ako kaya ang nagturo sa’yo!” he whined, burying his face on her belly even more, attempting to blow raspberries on the exposed part of her stomach.

“Ay parang bata naman oh,” she laughed, trying to pull him away, holding both sides of his face to make him look at her. “Sure kang wala kang nararamdaman?”

“Nararamdaman kong gusto ko ng kiss–”

“Pasintabi naman!” Amir laughed. “Hindi nga kayo magjowa tas mas malala pa kayo sa amin maglandian!”

“What for? Ikakasal na rin naman kami?” Eli laughed at him, placing both of her arms around Leon, embracing him closer to her. 

“Do you want me to court you?”

“Bitch, I don’t do ligaw.”

“She doesn’t do ligaw!” Jas laughed, entering the room, lipstick slightly smudged, with a smile on her face nonetheless.

“You should know this! Hindi ako nagpaligaw kahit kanino!”

“Hindi ka niligawan ni Isaac?” He exclaimed, appalled that Isaac did not do such when Eli nodded. “Bakit hindi?”

“Kasi I asked him not to,” she replied nonchalantly. “I find the concept of ligaw stupid. Like why would you put your best foot forward to impress a woman? Show me na agad how much do I have to endure then I’ll judge kung I want to be your girlfriend.”

“It seemed like Isaac put his very best foot forward pa rin naman the entire time,” Gwen argued. 

“Oh edi tanga na ako, yun ga ang gusto mong sabihin?” Eli sassed at him. 

“True naman! Tanga ka nga!”

“Do you love me enough to want me to be your boyfriend?”

Eli knew the answer to that

It was yes. Always yes and million times more.

But somehow a lump on her throat formed and she couldn’t form the words to say that yes, she was in fact, in love with everything Leon is and whatever it is that scares her so much from telling him that she loves him was an ass for getting in the way of things. Because she wants to tell him, but her heart is beating faster every second passing and because it still scares her that she wouldn’t know how to explain if he asked why.

“I’ll answer that later,” she smiled at him, pressing a soft kiss on top of his. “Will take that as an answer for now?”

“I can take it as an answer as a whole, baby,” Leon hummed, grabbing her by the neck to pull her into a kiss once again.

“Mahiya naman kayo sa mga kasama n’yo!” Tobi shouted from the door, entering with his crumpled shirt that’s not suspicious at all if you had an IQ of a rock. 

“Kunwari nalang hindi halata na nagsession kayo ni Jas sa banyo, dugyot,” Amir shrugged at his friends, pulling Gwen loser to him. “Buti pa kami behave dito.”

“Eh subukan mong hindi magbehave pag hindi ka natupi sa walo ng Kuya n’ya na nasa taas,” Leon remarked, making the room burst into laughter, somehow making Eli forget about what happened earlier and the fact that she didn't know what to expect tomorrow.

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“As you all know, Leon got involved in an accident a few weeks ago…” Amir stood in front of the microphone while Eli held Jacynthe’s hand on one hand and Leon on the other, while she waited for her cue. “We regret to inform you na hindi natin makakasama si Leon ngayong gabi dahil doon, we have a surprise guest tonight!”

“You may already know her by now dahil inispoil naman ni Leon kagabi,” the crowd roared upon realizing who was coming up the stage right now. “The woman behind most of the songs of Midnight Covey’s debut album and the Loophole's only full album, the woman behind Mahika, and the woman behind the humble beginnings of the Midnight Covey, I present to you, our bassist for tonight, Ruby Elijah Yang!” 

“Hi!” Eli called, the crowd getting louder every passing second, until she could barely hear herself through her in-ears. “I’m Eli. I was a member of the Loophole and I am Leon’s girlfriend.”

Even the band seemed surprised by the sudden announcement, all of them jumping with happiness as they looked back at Leon from backstage. “Also we’re getting married, so I guess fiancée na pala ako.”

“Leon is off the market, unfortunately. Yun lang talaga ‘yung gusto n’yang sabihin, Covens,” Amir laughed.

“Hala ikaw rin naman,” Kyle rolled his eyes at him.

“Aba syempre, andyan ang baby ko sa audience! Nasan ang mahal ko?” Everyone roared, assuming it was then but the camera drone immediately spotted Gwenael, who was standing in the VIP section with the rest of their friends. “Ayan! Oh jowa reveal bigla.”

The first song in the set was ‘You’, which was the first song she helped Kyle produce during the early days of the band. While Leon has never been more proud that Eli was finally singing the song she’s always loved, Kyle could not feel anymore happier that after multiple demo recordings of You, she was finally at the point where she’s singing as a feature in the song.

“You really love our Eli, no?” Jas chuckled beside Leon, who sat comfortably in a monoblock chair, grinning like a chesire cat while he enjoys Eli’s live vocals through his in-ear.

“Always have,” he shrugged.

“Bakit mo iniwan noon?”

Leon glanced at back and forth from Jas and Eli before responding, “I didn’t want the pain of losing her as someone more important to me than she was, Jas.”

“Anong difference noon ngayon?”

“Better to love than not love at all,” he replied. “Noong nasaksak ako, I only had one thing in mind, I didn’t want to go home dead to Eli. So even if I was practically dying noon, I knew I needed to find a way to cheat death.”

After the set was wrapped up and everyone was good to go, everyone huddled in the bus that they had rented, laughing and enjoying the vibe that the stage had left them all.

“Did you enjoy it?” Leon asked, sitting sideways on the bus seat so that he would be able to look at Eli properly while she ate her fast food. 

Elijah nodded enthusiastically. Leon couldn’t agree more. The stage lit up when she came like she was always meant to be there. She was a natural on stage, she didn’t need to be prepared to be there. She knew what she had to do and devoured Leon’s difficult bass lines like it was her forte all along.

“Inom kang gamot pagtapos kumain, okay?” He smiled, leaning over to kiss the side of her head, inhaling the scent of her coconut scented shampoo from her quick shower a while ago, that to everyone’s knowledge, Leon had the privilege of watching a while ago.

Eli hummed in response, nodding her head. “Thank you for letting me cover for you,” she smiled at him, after chugging down from her pink water bottle. “I appreciate it very much.”

“Masaya akong naenjoy mo ‘yon,” Leon hummed, looking at her before pressing a firm kiss on her lips.

“I love you, Leon,” she hummed as soon as Leon pulled away. He could physically feel explosions inside of him as soon as he heard it. 

Elijah Yang loves him.

At that point, Eli could firmly distinguish the difference between the feeling of butterflies and fireworks inside of you. While the fireworks were loud, there was some comfort in the light it gave. Some kind of warmth that she feels whenever she watches it burn in the sky, leaving bright colors and painting picturesque memories in her mind. The butterflies were quiet and they were quick and fleeting to the memory. It made her nervous about happiness because of how quick it could die.

And for once, love did not make her feel nervous. Scared, for sure, of all the uncertainty that there is but nervous was never in the picture. Leon exudes comfort for her everywhere she goes. Someway, wherever Leon was, there was a sense of safety. 

They have loved and lost and loved again. They were right after all. All roads lead back to where home is. And Leon is home.

And if the question goes around as to why she loved him so much, she still doesn’t know but she does love him. She just does. Regardless of if one day she’ll ever find that deeper meaning, she will love Leon until she can't anymore.

Leon threw blankets over her barbed wires before. His flee had sent her into a frenzy of desperation to find that comfort again that she allowed herself to be tricked. 

Eli guesses that love really does make you stupid.

But all’s well that ends well, right?

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[shinebriggght]

so ayun na ngaaaaaa.. natuloy ako sa library gaya ng plinano ko kahapon yun nga lang, medyo na late haha. tumambay pa ako sa timmie’s ng ilan pang oras tapos walastik, biglang sumulpot si saad sa harapan ko. drama drama pa sya bakit di ko daw sinabi sa kanya na mag tim hortons ako samantalang magkasama sila nung frenny niya. hahaha pakaarte eh.

dagdag ko lang na naghanap ako ng keyboard sa laptop ko don sa pinagbilhan ko ng table at sa techsmart sa city centre. sadly, walang available na pwede sa laptop ko. i ended up buying online pati na rin yung usb port para maraming mapagsaksakan.

anyway pangatlong beses na akong nakaka encounter ng mga bagets na naglalakad kasam mga teacher nila hahaha! cucute nila parang mga minions. look at them

hindi dapat kasama mga guro nila but i didn’t want to be a creep na basta basta magpipicture. buti na lang din hindi lumingon isa sa kanila hahaha!

i went inside the library na at tamang tama lang talaga punta ko because…

available yung IT STARTS WITH US ni Colleen Hoover sa public library and i got the chance to borrow it! kasama itong transVersing. couldn’t be more lucky about it hihihi. kinikilig meeee. hinahanap ko rin yung IT ENDS WITH US kasi mauuna dapat yon before this story pero wala. hindi available. nabasa ko naman na sila both though. i just feel like rereading it kasi Atlas Corrigan is green flag! grabe yung imagination ko about him. matipuno, mestizo, mabango, goodness! isang Atlas Corrigan po pls!!! chareng.

ayon lang naman. duty na ko starting today, tomorrow, and day after tomorrow. 😅

[aestherin]

As someone who got Scara sa rerun nya the other day.... kinikilig ako sa new chapter mo, Ri😔✋🏻😭🫶🏻 on the other hand, as someone who also like Xiao (Kamisato Ayato who? Charot) DI MAN AKO MAKAPILI BAI HANUE NA?!😤😭 makakahiram ng jacket sa kanya when?

Anyway, hru? Namiss kita sa notifs ko sobra🥹🫶🏻 and Bakasyon na namin sa wakas😭 (tho may ipapasa pa kaming report abt sa inorganize naming seminar)

- ☁️

HAHXHAHA bakit pa mamimili kung pwede namang lahat ☺️

alsooo hiii i'm doing finee hehe kakastart lang din ng vacation ko :< how are youuu i missed seeing your asks din!! 💓

[giaxhins]

To myzennn,

I just wanted to let you know that no matter what happens, I will always adore you. It's our special day, and no long, lovely message can adequately convey how much i appreciate having you in my life. I'll always be the same and will always love you through good times and bad, forever. I will never go tired of loving you. Please don't worry about it, mahal. I appreciate you for treating me with kindness and respect, for loving and embracing me for who i am, and for highlighting my value. Thank you for being patient with me during my busy days. I've grown to love you deeply and have learnt to dream of more things with you in the future. I appreciate you for helping me experience these kinds of emotions. I want the two of us a good life and a solid relationship. We have more weeks and years to go, and may they be filled with fulfillment and harmony in your perfect love just as you are. I promise to be there for you no matter what occurs, and I look forward to many more days. We will stay together through laugher and tears. May god lead us and illuminate our connection throughout the coming weeks, months, and years. I appreciate you being a responsible boyfriend, spending so much time with me, and loving and trusting me. "If you two truly love one another, you two are honest, never lie, and don't cheat on your partner". I appreciate you being there for me whenever i need you, my pahinga. Salamat mahal ko sa lahat ng pag intindi mo kahit minsan ikaw yung diko maintindihan HAHAHA pero may mga oras din naman na ako na yung sobrang mahirap ng intindihin kaya whenever the time na di mo ko maintindihan read this and always remember mahal na mahal parin kita whatever happened. Basta nandito lang ako be, strong lang tayo sa mga pagsubok sa'tin na dumadating. Thankyou sa pagpapasaya sakin everyday at kung akala mong na-aanoy ako sayo sa tuwing nanlalambing ka, it's a no baby kinikilig ako sayo at ayaw ko lamang ipakita. More kulitin at rambulan to come satin. May mga days man ako na sobrang sungit ko, sana maintindihan mo ko dahil siguro may mga bagay lang na di ko man nasasabi sayo ngunit iyon ang rason bakit ako ganun. Kung may mga oras man na may kadahilang nagagalit ako sayo agad ng hindi natin alam ang dahilan, siguro hindi lang ako okay nun kaya sayo ako naglalabas ng sama ng loob ko, pasensya ka na mahal hah sana maintindihan mo ko palagi dahil yun lang naman ang tanging paraan para magkaayos tayo sa mga oras na ganyan. Mahal na mahal kita baby, kung may probs ko or probs in our rs, don't be afraid and have courage to tell me hah? Just tell to me coz i don't want you to hide ur probs to me and to be able na masolusyunan agad natin okay? You know naman na ayaw ko na nag aaway tayo or dumating sa point na nag kakatampuhan kasi syempre masakit yun for me kahit na minsan antaas ng pride ko, alam mo namang napaka soft hearted ko pero salamat sa pag intindi sana hindi ka mag bago alam mo namang mahal na mahal kita. Basta always remember mahal, ikaw lang ang mahal ko at wala ng iba. May our 213 days, 0 hours and 0 minutes will guide us for our more countings. Happy 7th monthsarry, love na love ka ni gela mwaps. ❤️‍🩹

From, Gela. 🫀

[whooolaanmo]

pagsisilbihan kita ✨️.

May kinikilig na babae sa isang tabi 🤣😅.

🙋🏻‍♀️ : kain na tayo tapos na ako dito luto na.

D : sweet naman nagluto talaga ng dinner kikiligin ba ako 😊?

🙋🏻‍♀️ : kinikilig ka na nga sus! kumain ka madami mamimiss mo to pag balik mo Canada.

D : pagbalik ko Canada, mas mamimiss ko yung nagluto, ayyiiieee! kiligin ka naman, smile dali gusto ko nakikita yung parang dimple mo dito ( pointing sa medyo baba ng mata ko ).

🙋🏻‍♀️ : 🤣🤣🤣 ayoko nga mag joke ka muna, ikaw yung kitang kita ang dimples dyan sa malapit sa lips mo.

D : parang sira 🤨 mag smile lang dali na kasi.

🙋🏻‍♀️ : maiba tayo, mag smile ako mamaya, bakit nung HS hindi tayo masyado nagkakapansinan?

D : hello!! di ba 3rd year lang kami nung lumipat ni E ( kapatid nya kakambal ) sa school shy type 🤣🤣🤣, pero nagkakangitian naman tayo, kasi ikaw napaka friendly mo nga bawat section may tropa ka, sa room namin si Arianna, Carmee, Lana, Elliana, Marion, Averose, Mich pati sa mga lalaki kay na Dj, Lou, Allen, Wesley, Joshnel, Miggy, famous ka kasi famous section nyo.

dami usap... sinusulit lang yung time, tbh nasa stage kami ng landian tas napag usapan na din namin na kung magiging kami challenging kasi ldr Canada Pinas mag work kung mag work kung hindi ay hindi basta maging honest lang sa nararamdaman talaga.

Feb. 26, 2024 08:30 pm

[chereserene]

Ako na nagsasabi nakakamiss manggigil lalo na kapag sarap na sarap ka na finifinger at kinkantot. Tipong mapapasabunot ka na lang o gigil sa katawan. Rold, miss ko na makantot na mahal mo yung tao. Bakit di kasi ako kinikilig parang biglang nawalan ng kilig sa sistema ko.

[hashirun]

Taylor Swift is my 2022 Top Artist on Spotify - wala lang kinikilig ako bakit ba. Consistent yearly mula nung nag-start ako mag-work sa Spotify in 2019 which prompted me to create a Spotify account, tuwing may Wrapped laging kasama si Taylor Swift one way or another. Top 5 Artists, Top 5 Songs.

Naalala ko tuloy nung bago pa lang ako sa Tumblr (that was around 2010-2011 I think) a Tumblr mutual sent me an ask kung sinong favorite artist ko and I answered Taylor Swift. And she was like hmmmm. Well pwede naman ako magpa-cool by mentioning some obscure indie artist eh pero Teardrops On My Guitar days pa lang ni Taylor Swift bet ko na sya talaga eh. I remember my close friend in college downloading her entire album on iTunes and playing it on repeat all day.

Every major chapter of my life there was a Taylor Swift song playing on the background. Our Song and Love Story when my TOTGA and I were falling for each other. Everything Has Changed during that time I became single and hoping badly to fall in love again (ang present day equivalent nito for me eh Fallin' All In You by Shawn Mendes). Blank Space while I was in a toxic relationship and our subsequent messy breakup. Wildest Dreams during that whirlwind office romance with G. I fell in love over and over with every hit she churned out. And look where we are now. It's 2022 but my girl Taylor's music is still a huge part of my life.

Here's to more years of Taylor Swift's music gracing our lives 🥂

[tiffaniaprinsesa-blog]

Talking Stage - Ghosted

T*ngina nananahimik ako!!!

So may kuwento ako mga mars. Diba nga birthday ko nung May 6. May mga nag-greet sakin. Isa na dun yung crush ko. Matagal ko na syang friend sa FB. Mga 2015 or 2016 pa. Nakilala ko sya sa birthday ng barkada (college classmate) ko, sa Novaliches. 3rd or 4th year kami nun. Napansin ko sya agad kasi maputi sya at malinis tignan. Nakashades pa nga ata sya nun kahit gabi na lol. Edi syempre tinanong ko sya sa friend ko. Sabi nung friend ko, may asawa’t anak na daw yun. Nalungkot ako. Sayang naman. Sya lang may itsura dun tapos taken pa. Banamanyan! Pero tinanong ko yung FB nya sa friend ko, you know naman stalker tayo. In-add ko sya. Tapos inaccept nya ko. Pero nalungkot ako ulit, kasi totoo ngang may partner na sya at anak. Hinayaan ko.

Lumipas ang madaming taon, fast forward to 2022. Nagsimula syang i-heart yung mga stories ko. May 6, 2022 birthday ko last year, nag-greet sya. Nag thank you lang ako. Kasi ano pa ba sasabihin ko? Hineart nya lang reply ko. End of convo. New year ng 2023 nag-greet sya ulit. Nireplyan ko lang din ng ‘Happy New Year din po’. End of convo ulit. Come May 6, 2023, ginreet nya ulit ako. Sabi ko ‘thank you po’. Sabi nya: bakit may po? Ako: kasi mas matanda po (yata) kayo? 😅 sya: ilang taon ka na ba? Ako: 28. Kayo po ba? Sya: 29 lang ako. So dun na nagstart yung convo namin. 1 week kaming magkausap pero sa 1 week na yun hindi solid yung usap namin kasi hindi ako mabilis magreply. Ewan ko? Siguro ayoko maoverwhelm sa feeling na ‘crush ako ng crush ko’. Ganun. I’ve put up walls. Nung unang nag videocall kami, weird yung naramdaman ko kasi parang controlling sya. Hindi sya gentle. Sabi nya pa “sige gawin mo muna yang ginagawa mo” wherein, ako naman gusto ko kunwari yung may ginagawa ako habang nakikipag-usap. Kasi awkward ako. Awkward para sakin yung walang ginagawa, yung usap lang talaga kayo. E introvert nga kasi ako kaya ganun. Nung 2nd videocall, dun ko na sya naenjoy. Kinikilig kilig na ko. Naappreciate ko na yung itsura nya tsaka boses. Tho may red flags na akong nakita (i.e. financial and attitude). So in short nagustuhan ko na sya, kaya sabi ko sa sarili ko, “okay magrereply na ko ng mabilis this time tsaka sasagutin ko na tawag nya”. So parang sinabi ko na rin na okay mag iinvest na ko ng time and effort. Nakalast videocall ko pa sya. Tapos putangina! Biglang hindi na nagparamdam. Hindi na nagchat! Yung last chat nya “gawa mo?” Habang nagddrive sya pauwi. Pinalipas ko yung isang araw baka uminom lang or nalowbat. Tangina wala pa rin chat. Dun na ko nag-overthink ng malala.

Inisip ko na baka naaksidente sya kasi nga pauwi sya nun, nagddrive. Inisip ko na baka nasaksak habang nakikipag-inuman. Tangina diba? So hindi na nga ako mapalagay. Chinachat ko sya, nagsosorry ako. Sabi ko sorry kung di ko sya narereplyan ng mabilis kasi nga takot ako mafall agad. Mga ganun putangina! Nagtanong pa ko sa kanya sa chat kung naaksidente sya or what. Tangina diba? Hanggang sa chinat ko na yung pinsan ng ex wife nya. Friend ko rin sa fb. At boom! Dun ko nalaman na may girlfriend pala sya! Putangina makes sense! So nakarestrict siguro ako sa messenger kasi kikitain nya girlfriend nya. Isn’t it amazing? Tangina nya talaga! Hayop sya! Pinag-isip nya ko ng malala! Nakakatrauma. Akala ko ano nang nangyari sa kanya hayop sya.

So yun lang naman, kailangan ko lang to ikuwento dito para makamove on na ko. Iniyakan ko din tong hayp na to! Imagine?! 1 week lang kami nag-usap tapos iniyakan ko?! Feeling ko hindi sya yung main reason. Feeling ko trauma to. Sa past failed relationships, and past abuse, overall. Tangina sino iiyak sa 1 week na ka-talking stage?? Ni hindi nga solid yung connection namin. So yeah, feeling ko sobrang naglolong ako ng love to the point na akala ko eto na yun, tapos hindi na naman pala. Alam mo yun, maiiyak ka talaga sa disappointment. 😢

Nananahimik kasi ako!!! Bat ako ginreet?!?!?!? 😤😡

[savenoname]

"MEMORIES I LIKE TO REMEMBER'

MATTHEW

Just gifted you Empire Chevaler Medal 30

Charisma increased by 5000

Just pitted you Gift: Kai x2 Charisma increase

by 4000

Just gifted you Gift. No. 10 Jersey 1 Charisma

increased by 2000

thats yours😘

yn

i'm yours😘

matthew

I'm in love in you

love u

sh#t kinikilig ako sobra tibok ng puso para sayo

HAHAHAHAHA😘😘

yn

ahh sweet

love u too😘

played four matches

night love

tulog ka na din may pasok ka

sweetdream 😘

night night😘

1weekoffline

miss u😭🥺

sorry na busy ako sa school

pupunta pala kami tagaytay baka hindi ako makaonline sorry🥺

love you😘

3hours later

awts miss u

love u😘

ingat ka palagi love

3days

minsan nga lang tayo maglaro😭

ikaw lang namn inintay ko mag onine

love you😘

nighttime

love lets play

miss you

g

talk tayo maya

okay love 🤗

played3matches

yn hindi na ko magmml

bakit love ?

umay na ko e

pano tayo?🥲

ano tapos na din

bye yn

its nice memories we make

sorry

offline

ganon lang to sakit mo namn matt

bye nice g

we played 48matches

The end

[lyrics365]

Dilaw

[Verse 1] Alam mo ba muntikan na Sumuko ang puso ko? Sa paulit-ulit na pagkakataon Na nasaktan, nabigo [Pre-Chorus] Mukhang delikado na naman ako Oh, bakit ba kinikilig na naman ako? Pero ngayon ay parang kakaiba ‘Pag nakatingin sa’yong mata, ang mundo ay kalma [Chorus] Ngayong nand’yan ka na, ‘di magmamadali Ikaw lang ang katabi hanggang sa ang buhok ay pumuti ‘Di na maghahanap ng kung anong…

[pilyeta]

The air seems different today as I walk on my way back to the office. It was humid, but the wind refreshes me in a way. It was as if every blow has brought me magic and made me the prettiest girl at the moment.

Tahimik akong nakaupo at naghihintay na matapos ang pila sa kiosk. Inaabangan ko kung ano ba ang mas mauuna, ang matawag ang number ko sa counter? O ang maubos ang pila? Medyo naging matagal ang pag-usad kaya naupo muna ako sa couch sa likod ko. Ilang minutong pagtunganga at sa isang tunog ng pagbubukas ng pinto ay napalingon ako sa kung sinumang kliyente ang pumasok.

Wala naman akong inaasahang makitang tao ng mga oras na ‘yon pero ang taong iyon ay tila may alam na kaagad na andu’n ako. Dahil nakatingin siya sa direksyon ko at dahil may reaksyon na agad siya.

Pinansin niya ako. Ang dala ko. Ang nasa loob ng dala ko. Tinanong niya kung isang libo lang daw ba ‘yung pera ko.

Naalala ko nu’ng mga nakaraan. Palagi niya akong binibiro na ang dami kong pera. Ngayon ay tila kabaligtaran ang sinabi niya. Parang inaasar niya na isang libo lang ang ide-dpst ko.

Medyo natawa ako kasi ang nipis nga naman ng sbrng hawak ko. Habang siya ay ipinangangalandakan ang mga perang hawak niya.

Sinulyapan ko siya noong nakapila siya. Nakangiti siya sa ere. Gano’n ba talaga ‘yung default na mukha niya?

“Ang dami mo ngang pera, Sir, eh...” sabi ko noong nagsalita siya pagkatapos niya sa kiosk. bakit ko ba sinabi ‘yan??

Medyo napaisip ako kung bakit ‘yun pa ‘yung napili kong sabihin. Ang pathetic pakinggan. Nangangamba na nga ako sa mga nasabi ko, hindi pa siya nag-response kaya lalong nakaka-cringe.

Pero hindi rin naman. Kasi naging kumportable pa rin naman ako pagkatapos ng ilang mga segundo.

Chinika niya ako. About sa credit niya. At chinika ko rin siya. About sa credit card niya rin.

Hindi ko na alam kung pa’no nangyari pero... umupo siya sa tabi ko. (wait, kinikilig ako habang tina-type ‘to. baka iniisip na ng mga nakakakita sa’kin dito sa office na nababaliw na ‘ko)

Nagpatuloy ang mga chikahan. About sa credit card pa rin. At sa kakilala niya na nasa counter 7 daw. Hindi ko maintindihan kung client ba ang tinutukoy niya o empleyado. Kaya ang naisagot ko na lang sa kaniya ay... “Ah, ‘yung nag-aano...”

May tinawag na number. Pero alam kong hindi ako ‘yun. Ilang beses tumawag ‘yung teller kaya tinanong niya na rin ako kung sa’kin ba ‘yun. Sinabi kong hindi. Tapos tinanong na rin niya ako kung ano ba ‘yung number ko. Sabi ko, ‘yung may letter E sa umpisa. Na-gets niya agad na ‘yung online appointment ang tinutukoy ko. Surprisingly. Akala ko hindi gets ng boomer ang ganoong mga bagay.

Hanggang sa ako na talaga ‘yung natawag. Lumilingon-lingon pa ako sa kiosk para makita kung mahaba pa ba ang pila kasi may kailangan pa akong idagdag na transaction. Pero baka ang iniisip niya, siya ang tinitignan ko.

Pero nakita ko naman talaga siya. Nakatayo na. Siya.

Ilang saglit lang, siya na rin ang tinawag sa kabilang teller. N127. Naaalala ko pa ang number.

“Ang bilis,” sabi ko kanina nu’ng magkatabi pa kami. Kaunti lang naman kasi ang tao. At halos siya na rin kaagad ang kasunod.

Ang bilis. Natapos kaagad ang transaction niya habang nasa kiosk ulit ako.

Nasa harap ko si Ma’am C.

“R&Y!” tawag ng matandang ale na pusturang mayaman mula sa cubicle ng mga manager.

Di ko naintindihan ang sinabi nito pero sumagot si Sir. “Sasabay ka ba? Mamaya pa uwi ko.”

Tapos ay nagpaalaman na sila.

Ilang minuto habang naghihintay muli ako ro’n, bigla akong napaisip tungkol sa conversation nila ng matanda.

Paano kaya sasabay ang ale kung naka-motor na 500 CC si Sir?