#aviva anastasia payne

[brninthefire]

AViVA songs aesthetics 3/?

🎧GRRRLS

🖤 Favorite lyrics:

Trace back to all the millionaires Snake oil traders, no one shares

💛 Favorite thing about the song:

I love the brilliant songwriting of the second verse, and the overall message (though this is a given in an AViVA song). My favorite part of it is the outro, when Aviva is singing but at the same time there’s the “la la la la la la la” playing in the background

[eggsnatcheskneecaps]

I swear to god, if you post anything about AViVA, just tell me, I can't find content at all for her gjfbfbf

[darkmatterzine]

AViVA

AViVA talks about feeling like an outsider and being an Outsider; how her music and books dovetail together; and about community and hope.

Dark Matter Zine welcomes special guest AViVA. Aviva Anastasia Payne, professionally known as AViVA, is an Australian singer-songwriter and author, a multidisciplinary artist with international success, garnering more than three billion global streams of her music to date. Having always been a lover of stories and made-up worlds, she has fed her passion for self-expression with a healthy…

[beautifulpaxielreads]

As usual, I have more than one book on the go. My thing lately is to read four books at a time - two fiction, two non-fiction. I recently DNF'd Self/less by AvIva (real name Aviva Anastasia Payne), an Aussie author who's better known as a musician. It was kind of billed as a successor to the Hunger Games, set in a dystopian world where self-expression is illegal. The premise of it was good but the execution and writing style leaves a LOT to be desired.

Another book I'm reading now is The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas. I picked it up second-hand ages ago, and I was very recently surprised to learn that the edition I have is most likely abridged, given it's approximately 500 pages long and the full novel is 1000+ pages (the original would be perfect for a 1K pages challenge, lol). I'm normally pretty wary of the classics given the archaic, flowery language, but this one is actually quite readable.

I'm also reading The Winter Duke by Claire Eliza Bartlett, Lives Between the Lines by Michael Vatikiotis, and Esther by Jessica North (the latter two of these are non-fiction, in case you were wondering).

Booklr, where you at? What’s cooking? What are you reading? Which book destroyed you lately? What’s something good that has happened to you?

Tell me everything! <3

[brninthefire]

When I tell you these songs got me through adolescence fr fr

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AViVA songs aesthetics 4/?

🎭 EVIL

🖤 Favorite lyrics:

I’m sorry somebody hurt you when you were younger, but why’d you take it out on me?��

💛 Favorite thing about the song:

The total effect, I’d say. It’s just such an impactful, powerful and addictive piece, I remember when it was released I was listening to it like, 5 times a day at least. Also I’m pretty sure this was the first AViVA song that I listened during the release, so it has a special place in my heart for that <3

[brninthefire]

Watching AViVA’s Spotify Wrapped message is soooo heartwarming. Yes, Avi, I will continue hanging out with you. You have no choice :)

[brninthefire]

Lord grant me AViVA’s level of productivity tbh

[brninthefire]

AViVA songs aesthetics 5/?

💔 BROKEN HEARTS

🖤 Favorite lyrics:

Give me all your tears Or live with your fear I might break your heart

💛 Favorite thing about the song:

Okay, bear with me on this one because it may sound like too much a stretch to you guys: I love how, for me, it sounds like a song Cupid would sing. No, really. Picture Eros, after losing Psyche, being enraged about having to give humans the happiness he couldn’t have, and filled with disgust about how little humans valued love (and even how they avoided it). The first thing I thought when I heard this song was it was something that this angry and desolate cupid I’m picturing would sing as he went about he world breaking people’s hearts out of spite. It matches with the “there’s no end to my despair, so no one gets their happy end” part, and I also like the meaning it would give to my favorite lyric (that being Eros saying you should surrender to his power even if it makes you vulnerable otherwise he will make sure you live in fear of what he can do). Don’t you just love how music allows for each person to have their own interpretation? xD

[brninthefire]

AViVA songs aesthetics 2/?

🐇 Rabbit Hole

🖤 Favorite lyrics:

I’ll drag you into my home Lose you deep in my thoughts Fall inside the rabbit hole again

💛 Favorite thing about the song:

I love that it’s about mental illness. When I first heard it, I still thought I was neurotypical (and really had no issues with anxiety related illnesses). Still, even then I thought it portrayed really well how mental illnesses aren’t something to be taken lightly. Since then, I have developed a degree of religious OCD, which made me relate to this song a lot more. The distorted voice singing “rabbit hole rabbit hole again” in the chorus really speaks to the way repetitive and intrusive thoughts worm themselves into our minds

Some extra thoughts are that I love how Aviva wrote this for a friend who was struggling with anxiety, and that I’m really grateful for this song because it was the one that introduced me to Aviva’s work <3

An EXTRA extra thought is that I simply ADORE Alice in Wonderland, and the fact that this song has some AiW vibes made it stick with me instantly

[brninthefire]

Ma’am I have nothing but respect for your creative process but my pattern-seeking really wants to know what your reasoning was here

[brninthefire]

Pretty homophobic of Spotify to stop collecting data for this year’s wrapped before BROKEN HEARTS could make it 🙄🙄🙄

[brninthefire]

About me!

Uhhh I’m just getting started on this blog, so I thought I might begin by making an introduction post!

You can call me Nyx. I’ll be using this blog (at least for now) to talk about AViVA, my favorite singer since late 2019

I used to be on Instagram with this same name, but I really don’t care about ig so I thought I’d move my rambling to tumblr, even though I haven’t found any OUTSiDERS here haha. I’ll probably start off reposting my ig content here

I’m currently a college student, so I won’t have time to post often. Don’t worry, though, Im not dead!! And any AViVA fans are completely welcome to shoot me messages or asks whenever :) I can talk in English, Portuguese and Italian (kinda egdjbdjdbd), so feel free to reach out however you feel the most comfortable!!

I haven’t yet been able to read any of the self/less books, so please, only talk to me about them if you also haven’t and also like to theorize about the plot judging by the songs alone!!

I go by she/her, but any pronouns are fine. The pride flag on my pfp is the moon lesbian flag, which is no different from lesbian. It just means I really like to moon and its aesthetic, and I thought that the colours fit Zelda better than the orange and pink one.

I really want to gather as much AViVA content as I can in this website, so I’ll start tracking “avivasoutsider”, in case you guys also want to post!

Speaking of tags, I tag triggers as “tw: trigger”, personal things as “nyx speaks”, and everything that isn’t AViVA related as “not aviva”. Please ask me to tag any triggers that will make your scrolling safer!!

[brninthefire]

Guys it’s my third year with Aviva as my top artist on Spotify wrapped :’) I’m so relieved I was afraid of her losing her spot ehejdbjsdb

[brninthefire]

AViVA song aesthetics 1/?

💍HUSHH

Staring off the aesthetic series with one of the moodboards I had already posted on my ig <3

🖤 Favorite lyrics:

Hush now, darling, don't say a word Demons calling, they'll eat your soul

💛 Favorite thing about the song

I love the twist on the Mother Goose poem. Gives the song some lovely creepy vibes

[brninthefire]

POV you’re an OUTSiDER in November 25th 2022