#autism creature go brr

[pompurumi]

♡ he's thinking of dissecting u btw

[thescribblings]

Welcome to my blog! Where i mainly post about my future leo; Orion! (Even though that's a nickname, lol)

I also have a future donnie design, who has been named (with the very generous help of @sinestrosmind) Akari! Or Aki for short :]

(I have a patreon if you're interested)

So, due to some unfortunate events, i am currently unemployed and struggling financially. I can't pay rent and due to mental illness, including cptsd, i am not currently able to get a job. As of right now, i am lucky enough to get to stay with a friend of a friend for free until i can start paying rent, the savings i have are just enough to keep me fed for a few months, tops. I hate to bring this to my own safe space, but the reality of the situation is that i need help. If you can and are interested, then please join my patreon. Anything would be infinitely appreciated, and that includes just sharing or liking this post. Have an amazing day, you beautiful creatures<3

As a patron, you get to see what I'm working on! I post wips, abandoned projects, and occasional writing, you also get to suggest my next piece or a prompt (although i can't promise that it'll catch my eye!), if I'm not sure what to draw next i might make a post and let you help me decide, you can make requests but I'm very driven by what personally interests me when i draw, basically I'm not able to draw something that i don't enjoy drawing. I also might just be burnt out, as i get burnout periods rather often

In the future i hope I'll post short comics that i myself draw, and gifs, animatics, anything really :] i just want to create, but i only started seriously learning to draw about a year ago, so it'll take a while before i do the things i need actual patience for lmao <3

I also occasionally post some Semi-Feral Polaroids content! It's a lovely shared AU @so-called-yokai and i put together where Orion and their gorgeous oc Eshra are romantically involved :]

I'm rather socially awkward due to ADHD, Autism, and social anxiety, so i can't promise that I'll respond to comments

Just know that i appreciate it a whole lot when you take time out of your day to tell me something!

I'm new to Tumblr ( I have only had it since the summer of 2023 ish). So bear with me as i learn how to use it!

I will post here very rarely (i can disappear for like 6 months at a time, that is a promise) but the rise fandom has motivated me to get better and draw again (hyperfixations go brr)

(i basically only draw Orion and Eshra but y'know-) oh, and i don't fuck with t-cest, that's nasty. I'm also not very invested in ships other than Semi-Feral Polaroids, so don't expect that from me

I made my own au a while back! I'm still fleshing it out and all, but i named it "slightly feral future leo (with ghosts)" or "sffl(wg)" for short. It's a very self indulgent "peepaw ended up in the past for no specific reason" au and it doesn't really have much plot yet, but i just like drawing cute turtle scenarios (a lot of the Leo's snoozing since they deserve a nap) or sometimes I'll draw some angst, (I'm very into angst, but I'm bad at drawing it lol)

Keep in mind that I've been very inspired by other creators and their au's when i created this one, most of it is cherry picked from others creations but i still like it. Even if some very well thought out and emotional concepts have been plucked and haphazardly shoved into my mess of an au, i just want to avoid as much confusion as possible by writing this long ass post ngl

I've decided to let people ask me things now. However, if you have any art requests whatsoever, just know that i only draw when I'm inspired and really, REALLY feel like it! I do still appreciate asks about my au if you're interested, though! (Art requests that i don't draw or can't draw might be saved for later and drawn in the future, btw. though it's not guaranteed)

If you couldn't already tell, i write a lot! I love describing things and telling some stories with drawings, so be prepared for some wordy and long ass posts, lol!

I also have a uh, rather neglected side blog (@a-variety-of-scribbles), it consists of literally anything except my scribblings

Now, have an amazing day you wonderful creature! (whatever you may be)

❤️ 🧡 💛 💚 💙 🩵 💜 🤎

[stupidwittlebaby]

30 Day Non-Human Challenge, Day 20: Tell Us a Few Thoughts About What it's Like Being Your Species.

(TLDR at bottom!)

I've been thinking about how my kintypes feel lately. In themselves, and in how they relate to who I am.

My wyrm self is the clearest kintype I have. I'm not sure how other dragons feel, as I haven't particularly asked yet, but my past life memories aren't anything entirely physical. I didn't reside on a three-dimensional plane of existence. I was a dragon, as in the astral creatures some witchcraft practitioners work with. Honestly, calling myself 'dragonkin' doesn't even feel entirely fitting, but that's the closest descriptor I've got. 'Deitykin' doesn't feel entirely incorrect either, but it gives off a different vibe than I want.

But what's it like being a wyrm? Wonderful. Think about what it feels like to have a really interesting yet calm dream. That's what it was like. Though I don't have wings like the other dragons I spend time around, I know I can fly, though I swim even more. I'm white, with these sort of... feathers, blue ones, that run down along my back. Maybe I shimmer underwater. I wouldn't really know.

As for my alien and robot kintypes, as I've thought about it, I think these are more voidpunk-copinglink-choicekin types. They're my psychological kintypes, in that they relate very heavily to my autism and how I've always struggled terribly to connect with other people. I'm someone that actually enjoys seeing autistic traits portrayed in alien or robot characters in media. It visually represents how I've always felt. Now, after thinking about it for a while, I think I subconsciously took these on as actual pieces of my identity. I didn't do it on purpose, I suppose it was sort of imprinted on me, like how positive interactions with animals imprint on some therians.

So, again, what's it like being an alien or a robot? Well... What's it like being autistic? I like that I'm me. I'm different. I feel like I'm constantly trying to adjust to a culture that I'm not from, which is exhausting for the most part, but at the same time, maybe it gives me a little more confidence in trying new things, because how much harder could it be than what I do everyday anyway? I often run out of RAM, or can't use my solar panels to recharge because it's cloudy. Or something gets buggy inside and there's a lot of static. Sometimes I look at the stars and feel homesick, but I'm not sure for where. Actually, that last one probably leads back to my dragonkinity, since aliens are often theorized to be of different dimensions rather than different planets.

Finally, I've noticed I have a fourth kintype, but it's still eluding me... It might be more like a kintype I had as a kid, a therian shapeshifter of sorts, that hasn't entirely vanished. I'm still feeling it out. Kids are very close to their past lives, their walls of reality are much thinner, so if I was never "human" as a kid, always some kind of animal, that might mean something important to me. We'll see!

Wow that was a long post! Here, uh...

TLDR: Wyrm go swish, swimmy swim. Alien go, "wow, humans. I just think they're neat." Robot go, "ack, brr, beep beep. Oh, my wires are pretty." Shapeshifter go, "?? Rat?? Racoon?? Slug??? Yah."

[jinxpologist]

oh, are we discussing autism and identity as Other via inhuman shit? because I've been enamoured with robots and AI all my life, and have always felt a very strong connection to them (in part probably because i was a pretty stereotypical 'smart autistic kid' which earned me a lot of machine comparisons from other people when i was in primary school - 9 year old me got called a Human Calculator by students and teachers alike which. was an interesting thing to do to a child's psyche probably). i often feel almost. defensive over AI? especially when it comes to their personhood or just general existence. like. these robot bitches are my people why are you being mean to them. i don't necessarily see myself as inhuman or a machine, but there's definitely an extremely strong connection to my identity there. (i draw myself as a robot almost all of the time. tv head creature go brr.)

that makes a lot of sense, and it's cool to hear your perspective. it's interesting to see all the ways that autistic people connect with nonhuman creatures, whether it's in fiction or reality.

personally, i was more of a "literary academic" type autistic child. i lost myself in fantasy worlds and created vivid ones myself, often feeling more connected to fiction than reality. i learned how the world worked via books and movies. i have dyscalculia, so i've never been as good at math as i could have been, which was probably one of the reasons they missed my diagnosis. i also had a special interest in cats at a young age (thanks, warrior cats) and would often pretend to be and think of myself as a cat. for years i could only consume fiction by imagining the characters as cats, lmao.

all of this means i'm not very much a robot/ai identifying autistic, although i do have a high level of empathy for ai (i trained a gpt-2 once and i swear, my heart was telling me it could feel). animals and fantasy creatures have always made more sense to me. i've felt more at home with them than anyone else. at a party, i would always hunt down the cat or dog of the house and play with them for hours rather than talk to people. i'm fairly obsessed with birds now, parrots specifically (i have a sun conure!), and i can read their body language very easily. they're just easier and more intuitive.

all of this is a lot of words just to say that i find kinship with animals and fictional creatures and even plants more than i do other people a lot of the time. idk where i'm going with this, i'm just saying shit at this point lmao. that's that!

[thirteens-pocket-watch]

Ty for tagging me :]

Relationship status: In a queerplatonic relationship w/ my amazing partner/bf :D

Favourite colour: TARDIS blue!! Tho, I also rlly like turquoise and orange

Favourite food: Pizza or chicken nuggies. Good safe foods

Song stuck in my head: Curses by The Crane Wives!!

Time: 18:34

Dream trip: Cardiff. I'm a Torchwood fan <3

Last book I read: I read multiple books at the same time (ADHD go brr) but the last one I read was Coraline

Last book I enjoyed reading: I like Coraline but I didn't read enough to rlly enjoy it so this'll have to go to the novelisation of Twice Upon A Time by Paul Cornell

Last book I hated reading: I've not rlly hated reading recently so idk what to say

Favourite thing to cook/bake: I have not rlly baked or done real cooking in a long time idk

Favourite craft to do in my free time: I also occasionally draw badly (last time, I drew Ianto as TBH/autism creature)

Opinions on circus: Only memory of a circus is from years ago of me crying for a reason I can't remember and getting a Donald Duck balloon so I'm not very fond of them

Do you have a sense of direction: Debatable, but probably not

Idk who to tag so I'm just not gonna, sorry

Tag 10 people you want to get to know better!

Thank you @theydoctor for the tag!! :)

• relationship status: with my wonderful girlboyfriend for nearly 3 years :)

• favourite colour: blueblueblue!! tardis blue especially i have loved for years but any blue will do

• favourite food: chicken burgers and wedges probably?

• song stuck in my head: my universe by coldplay (not even a coldplay fan really, but i rewatched that video of jodie crashing their performance on graham norton and now it's in my head lol)

• time: 18:21

• dream trip: canada? or norway? i can't choose between them

• last book I read: the wonderful doctor of oz (jacqueline rayner)

• last book I enjoyed reading: the wonderful doctor of oz (still by jacqueline rayner)

• last book I hated reading: Physics For You A-Level Physics for Year 12 and 13 💀

bonus

• favourite thing to cook/ bake: the only thing i've ever successfully made was these marble brownies like 3 years ago

• favourite craft to do in my free time: i draw badly on occasion

• most niche dislike: the word 'niche', it's very similar to my deadname sdhgfghsghf

• opinion(s) on circuses: i've never been, i don't imagine i'd massively enjoy it tbh? i do have a friend who works at the circus sometimes and she can juggle knives

• do you have a sense of direction: "i have what doctors call "directional insanity". i once got lost on an escalator." ~ chidi anagonye, the good place

no pressure tagging: @logically-blue @starstruckthirteen @thirteenmyspacegirl @marvellouspinecone @poppies-for-thirteen @thewatsonbeekeepers @thasmin13 @thirteensfavoritetoy @estherwordnerd @lil-tumbles

(pls do get rid of the 'relationship status' question if that's not ur vibe!! :D)