#apologize for existing
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i don't know what my conclusion is but i've had a couple of situations when my more distant friends didn't recognize me on the street / had their friends feeling threatened by my presence in public as a man when it's dark (it gets dark at like 5PM soooo) and i talked about it with a non-binary person who is nice and cool but they said: gender euphoria! and i wonder if being perceived as a threat is a good thing now? is it supposed to make me happy? and the answer is ofc not and while i don't want to yell too loudly about it being any sort of an issue yk
#my post#trans man#transman#ftm#transgender#i've also had people make uh men type of jokes to me and like bro what am i supposed to do#apologize for existing#fuck you#i have to make myself nice clean nonsexual and nonthreatening to people who have some weird assumptions about me??#i'm afraid of girls thinking i'm hitting on them when i'm just autistic and trying to be friendly#and being a weird man is much less acceptable than being a weird girl#bc people get scared much more quickly and i know how it is to be scared of a weird man#i don't ask people for hugs anymore
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i cant stop thinking about the fact that the us and uk killed one million people in indonesia as part of the cold war effort and barely anybody knows about it much less cares. trying to tell somebody about it especially in the west will just garner laughter and celebration -- genocide is okay if they are (true or suspected) communists, no matter what. one million people
#op#this is not a number that exists solely in an infographic#those were whole and complete people with rich inner lives and families who probably thought very very similarly to you#who died in some of the most horrific ways possible#and its a total blot in the collective memory of the united states#the youngest of the victims were only as old as my father -- the majority of the survivors are alive today and still asking for an apology
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sometimes. i just have to remind myself that percy took annabeth to paris. like, canonically. he forgot their one-month anniversary. and took his girl to paris to make up for it. the standards are in elysium.
#because listen#hijack a quest and crossed the country to save her#burned himself alive to save her#returned from literal paradise because he didn't want to be away from her#turn down literal fucking godhood to live out his natural life with her#but this??#this is the moment annabeth knew she scored#annabeth 'my man forgot our one-month anniversary and took me to paris to apologize' chase#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo text post#pjo#percy jackson#annabeth chase#percabeth#percabeth fluff#percabeth being the cutest couple to ever not exist#percy is devoted to this girl#she has him wrapped around her finger#and she knows it
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happy october :]
@scienceteamtober day 1: before the game
with lovely beautiful awesome forever character art by @winkreallyisntable goes CRAZY!!! full art below the cut.
#hlvrai#scienceteamtober#original things#3d renders#AHHH MY APOLOGIES TO SCIENCETEAMTOBER HOST POTIONBARREL BTW! I DID NOT SEE THEIR PIECE BEFORE I STARTED THIS...#it is beautiful to see similar concepts from different perspectives but STILL i hope this does not come across as nabbing your idea :wails:#also ignore the fact that gordon exclusively owns copies of kane and lynch 2 i thought it would be funny and it saved on time.#AND because i am a computers guy i have to ignore how much sense this doesn't make with my interpretation [if i'm taking hlvrai seriously]#of how the game shit works and happens#like bro they either would not exist yet or would not yet be installed u get me right#BUT THAT SAID LIKE!!!#i love the vibe of them Waiting. heaheahea. initially this was just gonna be benrey but then i got coda on board and it was silly time.#this was awesome to make. yay :]#yay moment#IGNORE THAT I AM . LATE IN MOST TIME ZONES. HAHAHAHA.
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ENERGETIC ⚡️
you make me feel so high
#atsuoikage#haikyuu#oikawa tooru#kageyama tobio#miya atsumu#oikage#atsuoi#haikyuu!!#they are not any specific member i just chose based on shot composition and vibes#so pls dont come at me saying u think so and so should be X member instead of Y member#I just want the vibes of them being on a competition show like p101 and then debuting together bc i think them being the JP members tgt#would be very sweet and help bridge some animosity or rival tension that exists like they are competing but also#they feel solace in eos presence being from same culture same language etc#tobio looooooves oikawa HAHA hes sooo starry eyed over him... tobio calling oikawa hyung im gonna kill myself#atsumu and oikawa get close maybe after iwaizumi gets eliminated maybe earlier/midway in the show? bc tsumu understands what it feels like#to suddenly pursue ur dream alone.. samu maybe trained with tsumu at same company but quit before they even enrolled on the show#atsumu being the mediator whenever oikage bicker LOL#oikawa being stressed af and snapping at tobio and tobio is so sad tsumu is like there there... ill go talk to oikawa hell come around itok#ats comforting oikw like telling him to ignore the netizen / bad edit etc and calming him down slowly and getting oikw to apologize to tobio#also tobio crawling into oikawas bed in the dorms to sleep with him at night and oikawa wants to complain but likes cuddling... deep downLOL
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Also have another “first words spoken to you are on your skin” soulmate AU idea where Kara is a journalist assigned to shadow the controversial CEO of L-Corp for the day. It’s a big deal for her to get this assignment, so of course she trips the second she’s near the other woman and tries awkwardly to redeem herself.
The CEO stares at her almost in shock, and then says nothing. At all. Ever, for the entire day.
Kara spends hours following Lena Luthor around trying to fill the silence, but no amount of questions get her to talk. Lena almost seems to be running away at some points - like she’s trying to lose her? - and the few times she’s managed to catch her actually talking to someone she goes silent the second she sees Kara.
She asks around if Miss Luthor is usually like this and everyone looks at her like she’s crazy. Apparently she’s the only one who gets the silent treatment. By the end of her first day shadowing she’s walking away with half a page of observations and not a single quote. Miss Grant is going to kill her.
But that’s okay. It’s fine, this isn’t over. She has four days of shadowing ahead of her and she’ll be damned if she doesn’t finish this with a quote from the woman herself. It’s only a matter of time.
#what if you were an over stressed billionaire who feels like your existence must be a constant apology for the sins of your family#and you’re about to be followed around and studied by some no named baby reporter sent from a fashion magazine#you’re battling the migraine of a century you have five crises to settle all at once and also that baby reporter just said your words#the ones you’ve carried for the last decade - the ones you’ve feared and hoped for ever since#and it’s wonderful probably - this is what people dream of - but the problem is you just don’t have time for this#you can’t have your big soulmate moment#not right now. definitely not with this reporter. it’s not the right time#so I guess those words will just have to wait until it is time#if you can someone manage to resist. it’ll be hard#she does seem like someone it’d be really easy to talk to after all#good luck to you both#soulmate AU#Supercorp#fun shenanigan that I shan’t be writing#mine
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things i will never forgive the duffers for: denying us the spectacle of robin absolutely READING billy's ass
#she would have clapped back so effortlessly#unpacked the internalized homophobia he wasnt even aware of#hes scared of her because she keeps (Correctly) psychoanalyzing him but he wont admit it#billy hargrove#robin buckley#harringrove#i really cannot draw robin for which i apologize#drawing real faces in my style or at all continues to be the bane of my existence#i just hope that it isnt too uncanny looking rip#sorry about billys dialogue too but like#i feel like he WOULD
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by the way, i'd rather waste my time with you
#guess who remembered blue and yellow exists and is now Haunted and ready to make it everyone elses problem#im not a Gif Maker so apologies for the quality eerp#just needed to get the worm out of my brain#good omens#gomens#aziracrow#ineffable husbands#aziraphale#crowley
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#so unserious 😂💖
#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#loki#lokiedit#marveledit#and in doing so is actually the most serious of them all which is why he's a master at the craft 🥰#the chimp documentary still has me on the floor though god i love owen so much#honestly need to study him under a microscope lmao there's no one in existence more fascinating and his choices elevate every scene#for my anon who wanted some panel gifs! apologies that the quality is obviously rough but this was my fav available moment 😂#as usual their improv saves lives i'm never getting tired of them discussing how much they added to the show#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
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STRASBOURG 2023
#the band ghost#papa emeritus iv#copia#first time i've been able to sit down and make something for a few weeks which is nice. was worried i'd forgotten how to gif.#these do not do justice to this video tbh#tell me why i could just watch him BREATHE for hours#it looks like he's smiling and i just??? despite how obviously exhausted he is he looks so at peace?? i am not okay#anyway hello!! sorry it's been a minute!! i've been going through it and ugh. life is lifeing friends.#but i love and miss you guys and i hope you're all ok <3 pls accept these gifs as a token of my affection#and an apology to anyone i haven't got back to recently. i'll be with you shortly. just gotta remember how to exist first.#brb#my gifs
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"I'm sorry I vented and took up your time with my bullshit" ❌
feeds abandonment fears, implies having needs and being helped with them are wrong, makes it all about you
"Thank you for being patient with me through that, I appreciate that you took the time" ✅
shows your gratitude, affirms your affinity, no "using up" anybody's effort, makes it about you both as equals
"I'm sorry I dumped without checking consent first. I need to act respectfully and ask for your permission before I vent" ✅
"I'm sorry I said x, that was inappropriate of me to put on you" ✅
"Was it okay when I said x the way I did?" ✅
"Would you like to place a boundary around that?" ✅
"What could I do/say instead that's healthier for us both?" ✅
correct an actual wrong, seize due accountability, consider their rights as much as yours, make amends, work to correct missteps going forward
#this is a personal callout 😍#reminders#codependency#codependent#recovering codependent#recovery#bpd#rsd#rejection sensitive dysphoria#guilt#shame#taking up space#waste of space#sorry for existing#apology#over apologizing#sorry#people pleaser#toxic#regret#remorse#gratitude#self worth#codapunk
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Danny had no idea how Vortex had caused such a big commotion that it impacted the inhabitants of Atlantis, but he had. Now he had to attend a meeting with the King and Queen of Atlantis to apologise for the inconvenience.
Meanwhile, Arthur and Mera had heard from multiple sources that the being that caused so much destruction from above the ocean was from a place called The Infinite Realms and the one they were going to have a meeting with was the High King. They'd learned that the Infinite Realms was a parallel dimension full of ghosts.
What in the world could a monarch of an afterlife want from Atlantis?
#dp x dc#dc x dp#dcxdp#dpxdc#dc x dp prompt#the reason danny's not apologizing to the american government is because they're still being dumb about ghosts#atlantis hasn't made anyone's existence illegal#danny's just trying to be nice#it's kinda stressful for the living considering that what vortex did could be considered an act of war#or an intimidation tactic
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Dear Kooks, do you have some tips to play D&D alone or some solo RPG? I want to play it so bad, I have a lot of characters sheets ready because I’m so excited, but none of my friends are interested. If you know and could tell me is there some online platform to discover groups to play?
Thanks always!
Hello!
(First of all I need to start posting a bit more about solo rpgs and solo gaming in general cos I gathered some really cool materials and games over last months, so thank You for reminding me of that. Just need some more free time but it's coming, oh it's coming)
I don't have experience playing specifically DnD solo, but I know there are tools for it people recommend. The GeekGamers YouTube channel has TONS (and i say it both as an encouragement and as a warning, because it can be a bit overwhelming) of advice materials, also regarding soloing DnD and solo roleplaying in general. She also wrote a book on solo gaming called Solo Game Master's Guide which if I recall correctly has a chapter on DnD specifically as well. I know people are recommending Mythic Game Master Emulator as a good tool, but I haven't personally tried it yet.
What I can recommend tho is... Ironsworn (check the link, the pdf for the first main game is free). I have been playing it solo recently and I find it very fun and satisfying. It's a system based on Powered by the Apocalypse rules framework, so not that close to DnD rules, but if you are looking for a solo rp with some more rules structure I recommend taking a look at this game because it is designed specifically for solo playing (but it can be co-oped and GMed too). You can alter the world of the game freely (and the author encourages you to do that) or use the rules in existing setting, so you can adjust it to your liking (tho i do encourage you to try the setting offered by the book first, together with its world creation process: 1) it's very cool, 2) you will get a grip of the rules in their natural environment)
I found I need a couple of additional oracle tables aside of the ones the book has, but these you can pick up as you go according to your needs, there is plenty online, and a lot of free ones too. Other than that everything you need you have in the free book.
I also recommend taking a look at some actual play of an Ironsworn game (or other games, you can find some examples of actual solo plays on GeekGamers channel too) to get a bit of an idea how people think about running a solo session and how they build a story on their own, and perhaps taking something away from it for yourself. For Ironsworn specifically I super enjoy and highly recommend The Bad Spot podcast. It has several seasons of Ironsworn: Starforge game (Ironsworn's younger brother set in space, but the rules and the idea of how the game runs are basically the same) but also some loose talks about solo gaming in general.
OTHER THAN THAT: I encourage you to look around and see what the solo gaming scene has to offer. There is so many interesting games (some with more rules structure, but also journaling games, choose your own adventure-like games, solo hacks for existing systems, and more etc etc, a whole new world to discover really), it's worth checking regardless of having a group to play with or not. I will try to get back to posting more actively on these topics, cos there is a lot of stuff I would love to share, so fingers crossed I won't get distracted lol.
Cheers!
#my apologies for not addressing the finding a group question#my dnd groups usually formed from existing groups#so im not sure where to look#but best of luck on this field too!#kooks talks#solo rpg#ironsworn
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you’re 16 and nothing bad has happened
a lil scene based on my friend @droptoposmosis’ fic can’t smile like you mean it (aaaa childhood friends hijack makes my brain dissolve ;;)
#let me tell u now those bicycles were the bane of my existence dont look at it too hard i beg…#actually this entire thing bc perspective is my enemyasjhdkashdk#BUT YIPPEEEE ITS HERE MY GIFT TO U sniffs.. <3#it took longer than i thought my apologies 🫶🏽#they were fun to draw as teenagers tho hehe theyre sooo small and best friends !!!!!!!!#hiccup baby face… hes my gloob of the universe actually ? ☹️#hijack#frostcup#jackshiccup art#my art#jack frost#jackson overland#hiccup#rotg#httyd#fic#nostalgia levels kinda going off on this i tink..#watch tumblr eat the quality :\
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I gotta know: do you know if the Certified Creature is in The Untamed, or did it get edited out for More Serious Fantasy?
If you are referring to LWJ's Bunny hairpiece, that's just the whimsy of PD-MDZS.
#ask#I am once again reminding people that the pd-mdzs characters at 5-7 cm tall. They exist in the same world as MDZS but...small.#They are like little fairies (to me).#Yes this means actual sized wwx and lwj could pick up their counterparts and hold them both in one hand with room to spare.#The bunny guan has taken a few forms over time but it's one of my favourite running gags of this comic.#I feel so hollow when we are in the flashbacks. When will my beautiful bunny ears come back from the war...#If you are referring to something else entirely I sincerely apologize - I'm happy to have clarification!
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Last night I posted the July batch #2
Avina POV of the viewing party in chapter 2 (viewing party pov #1)
a flashback of the band's (failed) audition at Carolina Records
O's POV of their flashback and failed audition (band tier)
A late flashback between MC and their dad for father's day
They come out to 23K in total :) I'm still pretty inactive online while I finish the demo so I hope these side pieces I put out can hold everyone along until it's out :)
PLAY HERE
#patreon#mini#update#apologies on the belated Father's Day piece#dont celebrate forgot it existed but we keep moving pfft
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