#anyways im too lazy to fix them lol

[fala-alfredo-pasta]

💜Ichi Day💜

[allyougottado]

i love this cover a lot… cthylla's voice is SO CUTE

[vincent-sinclair-deserved-better]

hm

thinking of my blorbos but not in a "i love you you love me all is well" way but a "i love you hope you kill me" way lol

[consumed-by-fandom]

DIDude ramblings warning im being silly again.

P2’s a bit of an unwilling participant when it comes to the events of Postal 1. For most of their life all he’s tried to do is help P1, whether thats protecting him, standing up for him, getting him to socialise and making friends, the usual stuff you’d do as a kid/teen. And later on in the years he helps get them a job etc. it’s never fully clear to P1 what P2 is so he always gets confused on how he’s suddenly able to function without having to stammer his way through apology after apology for things that weren’t his fault. P2 tries to let him know he’s doing it all, but he’s never fully listened to because P1 still thinks he’s a demon.

He doesn’t care at first, he even finds it funny. But when it starts getting in the way of being listened to, and he’s never really thanked for what he does, it gets to him and he acts out in retaliation. Cuz to him P1’s just ignoring him and pretending he doesn’t exist and refusing to accept him despite him trying to help, so he instead goes along with the title of being some malevolent force. Lots of nasty arguments, judgement and picking apart every single flaw P1 has. Because that gets him to listen, when he’s not being nice. That has an effect.

When 1997 comes around and P1’s at his worst, he doesn’t try to talk him out of his mental spiral into paranoia and what his brain is tricking him into seeing. He just keeps taunting and pushing him, and when the massacre does happen he sees it as a confirmation that he was right and P1 was wrong. And it makes him feel good.

What doesn’t make him feel good is seeing the person he cares for most slowly degrade and become a former shell of himself. That scares him to his core, and what makes him try to get P1 to realise that what they’re doing isn’t right and that they’re heading towards a very bad end. He doesn’t succeed, of course, and so his only option left is to just keep him safe at any cost and try to enjoy the remaining few days they have left. Forces himself to enjoy it, even if he really doesn’t.

When he’s eventually left alone and forced to live as himself he just represses everything he went through, and even when P1 comes back years later they never really talk about it. It makes him feel awful thinking back because he was so immature to P1 that he only made things worse instead of just trying to get through to him. They do talk it out at some point but even then its something that hangs around in the back of his mind as something he’s still capable of falling back into, just how flawed he truly is.

I like to think his “regret nothing” mindset is just a positive mantra that gets him through each day and allows him to see the joy in a world full of shit, but I also like to see it as a rule of sorts he has to follow. Because if he did have regrets (and he DEFINITELY does) they would eat him alive. His definition of acceptance is never actually what acceptance is. He thinks its “this exists/happened and I’m acknowledging it” and not “this exists/happened and thats okay, I’m willing to use this as a way to become a better person and heal”

Dude’s system basically works as both a way to survive and cope with their trauma, but also as a way to accept everything the Dudes are without shame or hatred. Yeah, they’re violent assholes with a lot of issues, but they’ll never be able to improve themselves if they don’t accept that’s who they are and learn to love the good parts of themselves too.

[blessedshortcake]

My opinion on the finale episodes below the cut. Obviously spoiler warning lol

First of all. I see people say it was really underwhelming and i kinda have to agree? It wasnt a Bad ending or a lazy one or whatever words have been thrown around tho imo. I feel like with all the hype about how "painful" and emotional itll be from the VA and from everyone, we all just expected more tragic outcomes or something.

I am dissappointed because of that as well. I liked how Simon finally reflected a bit and had some self awareness about their situation with Betty. I loved that he didnt become Ice King again or that they didnt do some actual time travel to "fix" stuff. I also liked that they didnt necessarily made him a bad husband (?/boyfriend?) he kinda just never realised that Betty has been putting more into their duo than he was.

That doesnt make him innocent tho b4 someone comes at me. He was a bit too self absorbed but i dont think he was entirely selfish either. He was a person who made mistakes and didnt realise them. The line where he said smt like "i wish we could have talked like this before" also makes it pretty clear to me that Betty never really spoke up about these things either. Golbetty had to make him aware and tbh? I think that was more Golb than Betty.

The whole Scarab ordeal felt a bit. Ehhhhhh I dont know. His anger reaction to things suddenly becoming "canon" (lmao) was very nice to see but him being allowed to wreck havoc like that for a good while felt more like an excuse to bring the others into this world. I dont have a problem with it btw i just dont see the point why we need Farmwold Jay and Little... I forgot her name damn. Also whys Babyworld Finn here 😭 (i get it, he was in the tank, i dont mean literally i mean Why)

As much as i was soooo mad when LSP freed the scarabs it was very in character. I like how it was a thing that he likes animals from the start so it wasnt senseless stupidity, it was something he would do even tho it was the wrong thing to do. Made me pause and lay down to stare at the ceiling in frustration for a solid minute i cant lie, still in chacter tho.

But alas. I like how in the end it all didnt turn magical (completely since ig its partially magical with Cake and everything else) and how Cake finally cooled down about the crown. IM ALSO SO HAPPY THEY KEEP IN TOUCH WITH SIMON OVER THE PHONEEE!! But yea him wanting to move was so real and I hope he does lmao he deserves it.

I only kinda wish they made him reconnect with Marcy a bit more. I am actually pretty dissappointed that we dont know if he ended up reaching out to her more or not. I understand his situation with not wanting to spook her, i actually feel that bit in a soul connecting level good god, but idk. Im at least happy he is Literally in therapy now

(Kinda makes me wonder tho if he spent the time between the end of AT and the start of FC with no like therapist or psychologist. Just rawdogging his mental illness about everything. Mood tbh but like did he? Did he??)

Anyway despite my slight dissappointment i am actually pretty happy with the outcome. I really liked the theories and the ideas of how Simon may make FC magical or what he will become but tbh this is probably the best outcome. Everyone got a happy/hopeful ending (minus Farmwold Finn ig who im atp assuming is dead. Also Star Marceline and PB) which i am really REALLY happy about.

I gotta say I already wanna write fanfic about these guys so inspirational effect granted. Woooo.

Tldr

I was kinda dissappointed because it was overhyped about how emotional it will be when it really wasnt but other than that I am really happy about how the ending turned out save for the alternatives staying in FC

Edit: I SEE PEOPLE TALK ABOUT THE WHOLE SHOW DONT TELL THING AND TBHHH??? TTTTBBBHHHH??? YEAH. IT WAS ALL JUST TALKED ABOUT LIKE WHAT ABOUT SYMBOLISM? MY GOD.

Also Simon had like 10 minutes to get closure with Betty which was horrifically rushed but again, when your wife turns into Basically God you kinda dont really have a choice to chit chat. Still not happy about it but again, could have been worse. Could have been much worse.

[ochrearia]

Boyfriend for the character thing? :3

BEEFER slams him against a wall

Favorite thing about them: Ouh man. I know I write this idiot as actually speaking English in PoPr because I operate in the idea of GF acts like a TARDIS from Doctor Who and her magic auto-translates his beeping to understandable things for her, and Pico, Darnell, and Nene. But FUCK if I could speak in abstract musical beeping and shit I WOULD GIVE UP MY VOCAL CORDS FOR THAT IMMEDIATELY. Do you even know how much that would fix me if I could do that. If I could speak literal fucking music and people understand wtf Im saying anyways. IM JEALOUS OF THIS STUPID BLUE HAIRED FUCK GIVE THAT TO ME I WANT IT

Least favorite thing about them: Bro idk. I guess the idea that he's supposed to be 7 fucking feet tall. Man no the hell you aren't. You are like 5'5 at best. And you are STILL taller than me in that regard so shut up and stop complaining short bisexual kings gotta stick together

Favorite line: Looks directly into the camera like I'm on the Office

brOTP: BF and Darnell is so fucking funny to me. Darnell being smart but knowing he can get away with stupid shit with BF and BF just genuinely being dumb as rocks. Match made in heaven. And then Pico has to yell at Darnell for nearly killing his boyfriend because they wanted to see what happens if you put a metallic wrapper in the fucking microwave

OTP: Lol RGB is this even a question. Like I fuck with funkycule 5 too but I main RGB. To be completely honest. I feel like that's still a basic ass answer but I'm not really much of an OC x canon shipper personally. I'd kiss BF but like who wouldn't?

nOTP: Idk?? I guess?? I don't really have specifics in mind but like anything delving into incest or concerning age gaps is a given I feel like. Besides the obvious things I don't think I really have one.

Random Headcanon: THE AUTOTUNE MIC!!! I like believing that his singing voice in canon is completely created by the mic. His microphone has magic in it that sucks in his voice and autotunes it in real time to make it sound like that so he can fit into any situation without having to worry about his real voice being a shit fit for a rap. And he keeps his real voice hidden from almost everyone (almost... couldn't hide it forever from GF and Pico).

Unpopular Opinion: I. Do not know. I guess the idea that he's overly sweet and sappy to his lovers more often than being a horny asshole but that's just like. A personal choice for how I write PoPr. Don't get me wrong he's still a horndog like that is not something I can separate from him. I just like giving him depth... Maybe that can be my unpopular opinion?? Like I can understand flat characters are good too but also I do not care I'm unflatting him. And GF for good measure

Song I associate with them: something something synesthesia this is something you ALL should have seen coming from a mile away. nuuk winter. I'm not allowed to say anything else. I've already rambled about this on my previous synesthesia related posts that I'm too lazy to dig up right now but that one lol

Favorite picture of them:

he's so fucking stupid bro I love him

[ohmeadows]

hi meadows! did you actually studied english at some point you just became fluent in it by osmosis like the majority of non-native english speakers on online fandom spaces? im picking this up from your post abt media literacy where you mentioned reading lotrd appendix with a dictionary in hand bc this got me thinking... english is not my first language too and i learned it kinda out of nowhere, but now i feel like this affects my confidence in writing a lil bit. any tips on that?

probably osmosis, with a little bit of active work. i was home from school a lot (read: skipped two years in total) when we started learning english but the classes were so miserable anyway i don't feel like i missed much. i have a lisp so i was constantly berated for saying th- words the wrong way, lol

as for confidence, man. come close. let me tell you a secret: native english speakers are godawful at writing english most of the time. either they took one linguistics course and now slap everyone else over the back of the head with a grammar book, or they don't know how to spell complex words. 99% of the time they do not notice shit. so, don't focus on performing for them.

most simple writing mistakes, contrary to posts like "well i saw a grammatical error in this fic and had to close out immediately!", don't interrupt 90% of readers. and you can always go back in and fix them. i'm very grateful for readers who nicely point out little typos and errors i make, since i don't have a beta and proofread it all by myself and you eventually grow text blind.

second is just reading more books (because of professional editing) and writing down sentence structure, phrases etc that are either challenging or neat and working them into your text. i keep lists running for each fic i write of words, phrases, etc from books i read that i want to assimilate into my writing style.

my lazy writing trick is orienting my reading habits to suit the voice/narration of the character i'm writing. for fu xuan i ended up reading a lot of chinese poetry textbooks, as well as some on divination, and just taking on that type of voice. for kafka, it's a lot of unreliable narrator books (joe goldberg quadrology, gillian flynn, in general thrillers; movie scripts and beckett plays too) and currently for clorinde i'm reading a lot of "i would die for you" type poetry as well as austen/brontë. i should note i don't finish all books but sometimes merely flip around for the vibe, read half or a few chapters, whatever. pour words into the well until it's overflowing.

[lieutenantbiscute]

I SAW THE ONESHOT (and accidentally reblogged it with my lmk sideblog but i am too lazy to fix that lols i just got home)

I LOVE EVERY SECOND OF READING IT I WISH I FORGET SO I CAN READ IT AND ENJOY AGAIN OMG IT'S SO COOL

I really love Cino's whole wrinkles talk (that i started) and the addition of Corrin and the mention of the mask

AUGH SO GOOD

I'm really curious tho, how would the others react to Mona and Mikey's discovery? What were Mona and Mikey thinking at that time as well?

(not because i want to dive deeper into the angst and have my boys meet your Leo. Lmao no, that's absurd lol. Anyways 📝👀)

IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKED IT!! Honestly it was really fun to write since I got to play around with Cino’s dialogue a bit!

With the adults of the group is think it’s be as no real surprise that there’s a universe where Leo. Didn’t make it. I mean it all sits at the back of their minds that there were and still are, multiple points where Leo could be lost to them.

But it leave a bad taste in their mouth to have that reality be here with them in the flesh. Both Mikey and Mona in the moment were more focused on separating themselves from the situation as cleanly as possible, but they can’t really get rid of the imagery of Raph, younger but still tired, wearing Leo’s tattered mask around his neck.

Mikey definitely sits a bit closer to Leo after it all. Worried brother and such.

[rottingrat-jpg]

I tried drawing my old oc clown but i have up half way through bc the proportions were off and im too lazy to fix them lol

Anyway this is Clown hihi >.<

[barfoltidotcom]

cackling to myself in the coffeshop (my beloved coffee shop) and i ended up doodling modern au of everyone.....origionally i was gonna start with celestine but lol i went ham on marinseya.......

ANYWAYS im laughing bc i gave her a "DYKE" patch on her jeans and i think its so her lol

so far im trying to decide what to do with the patch on her other knee. and yes she was a bomber jacket bc i think they slay but most of all it makes drawing her upper half easier LOL i can be lazy as hell with it if i give her a big jacket with a furry collar

AND YES she is smoking a cigarette.

she has a punk band and runs a shitty basement venue out of the old barn on the farm she inherited (if i had to assin a real life band it would probably be emily's sassy lime....thats the vibe u know oh and skating polly's song send a priest is aso a vibe)

instead of a dragon velix is a horse

and alll the crops she grows she like distrubutes to ppl in her community bc hes cool and shes also always fixing her friends apartments and houes bc shes very handy (farm girl moment) anyways everone always comes over for shows aso

and celestine is her BEST BESTIE (they live together) and florence is celestine's boyfriend that recently moved to town from ...??? somehwere....hes always really vague about it but no one pushes it. plus he is rlly good at cooking a lot of food for a lot of ppl so when he starts serving soup at a show (out of celestine and marinseya's shitty farm kitcen...it has one of the side screen doors they prop open and its out of a beat to shit big ass pot he bought at thrift store lol) everyone was like.........yo celestine.....he makes a mean cassarole too so can you keep him (not that celestine needed them to ask but it is great to see him accepted by the community)

OKAY WHERE WAS I GOING WITH THIS

um so breysis ends up playing a show there with her band and marinseya is like

WOWIE IM IN LOVE WITH YOU SO HARD

but is a typical useless lesbian abt it lol like maybe she even writes a song for breysis and its insufferable to see her pine so fucking hard lol. idk im gonna stop blabbing now

[kimicapucciny]

Your asks aren't open on your art blog so PLEASE tell me more about Zanthe, I love me a buff, long-haired manwhore

OUGH I NEVER NOTICED KDFBJKDSFBJKSDF fixed it now

ALSO EEK!!!! im so glad u like my tit guy,,,, even tho he kinda sucks KJBSDKJFBKSD ive got a LOT to say so ill put it under da read more

ok so Zanthe is the deuteragonist of a story I've got with my other OC Dom, whose ref i RLLY should rework because i wanna work on a small animatic with them KJBFJSDF

(this is him btw hehe)

anyways, Zanthe is an Incubus that, as per my world's lore, awoke with no memories of who he used to be or why he was sent to super mega gay hell. He only knew three things: his name, the fact that he was now a powerful demon, and that he was HOT AS FUCK!!!!!

He mostly spends his time doing whatever and whoever he wants. He's really bad at the whole "stealing human's souls" part of being a creature of the night because he'll just straight up ask for a sex pact with whoever summoned him, much to the annoyance of his boss lmaoooo

Zanthe is very boastful of his abilities as an incubus, and even tho he always focuses on his own pleasure (selfish lover smh) he actually does put his dick where his mouth is (in many ways) and his partners are always left quite satisfied when he's done SDKJFBSKJDFK asides from that, personality wise, hes an asshole LMAOOOO doesnt care for anything that isnt sex or himself, and will act with nonchalance when faced with human's tragedies or love declarations, unless he can use them to his advantage. however, hes not completely heartless, and if someone rlly doesnt wanna lay with him he'll sigh and complain about his time being wasted (not like he does anything importan in the first place smh) but respect their wishes. part of the fun is having his partners sing praises to his name, so doing it with someone who doesnt want to is just plain stupid in his self-centered opinion.

on to the story part of his lore KSBDFKJDSF

Zanthe was "accidentally" summoned by Dom in order to help him get revenge for the death of his sister. I say "accidentally" because Dom was actually trying to summon a powerful demon he could sell his soul to in order to gain the necessary power to hunt down the bastards that killed his sister, but instead got saddled with an glorified dildo KJBDSJFBSJDKF Sadly for Dom, he can't exactly summon anther demon without finishing whatever business he has with the first one (some bullshit rule from hell), and, though he loathes to admit it, Zanthe IS powerful. Enough to be useful.

So Dom decides to make a pact with Zanthe, much to his annoyance and to Zanthe's delight, because as soon as he set sights on the angry twunk he was dying to get his hands on that ass. Too bad Dom refuses to bottom for him LMAO

its ok tho, Zanthe said switch rights, and he has more than a good time whenever Dom takes out the collar and whip KBFJKBSDKJF

Their dynamic is rlly fun for me to work with because we have this big ass demon who looks like he could kill you and CAN kill you but is actually a lazy slut who would rather take part in massive orgies dedicated to inflating his ego, and then theres this angry mass of rage and bitterness who got stuck with this demonic asshole and cant get rid of him because he needs his powers lol

ANYWAYS SORRY NOT SORRY FOR THE LONG RANT AND I HOPE U LIKED IT

[mickgaydolenz]

hiiiiii Asia. ive been so busy experiencing an actual social life and having very lgbt things happening to me that my interest in studying has dipped by a scary amount. like yeah im gaining unlimited rizz right now because of my Venus return… but ive been getting too lazy and hedonistic out here so im struggling 🥲 rip in peace to me ig

but if im not gonna do studying then i should at least keep up my interest by studying other charts. ive pretty much exhausted the boys — unless something in the astro weather occurs onto Micky, there’s not much left to share. of course though if i find anything new to me you know i’ll message you straight away 🫶🏻

so instead of the guys, i hear people around here like this band called “the beatles”. i don’t know much about them so forgive me that i won’t be able to go in-depth with it (beatlemaniacs do your thing), but i’ll share some astro observations anyways:

Paul’s chart goes crazy with the 3H & 4H stelliums — majority of them in Gemini; as a Gemini stellium myself i bet either of two things: 1. once you get him talking he never shuts the fuck up, or 2. doesn’t talk unless it’s to provide information (😔🤚🏻 guilty as charged officer). only his Jupiter (+ asteroid Hygeia) are in Cancer in his 4H. his Moon, Mars, Pluto and asteroid Chiron are in the 6H ruled by Leo, so his normal life is always entertaining yet risky… perhaps at the cost of his fame. his 8H, 9H and 10H are all empty.

John has a 6H stellium, primarily in Libra, as his Venus and Neptune (+ asteroid Chariklo) are in Virgo, which i think is definitely where his personal philosophy stems from; Libra is all about balance, peace and relationships, while Virgo is all about practicality, routine and health. his 1H has his Jupiter, Saturn and Uranus all in Taurus. his Aquarius Moon resides in the 11H and his Scorpio Mercury resides in his 7H — absolute weird girl energy. i took a skim of the aspects and they’re a lot of squares jumping out, so lots of conflict between wants and needs. he has an empty 3H and 8H.

George has a 1H Scorpio Moon, which is a great start /sc. his asteroid Psyche also resides in his 1H… i sense a moody bitch in our midst. interestingly it’s hard to pinpoint a stellium for him, i would say his 4H and 9H, which both houses dual two different signs; it’s giving confusion and contradictions. his Pisces Sun and Aquarius Mercury reside in the 4H, his Pisces Venus residing in the 5H, his Capricorn Mars residing in the 3H, his Jupiter and Pluto residing in the 9H, and his Saturn and Uranus (+ Vertex) residing in the 8H. he has an empty 2H and 7H — he has no Sagittarius placements either.

Ringo has a 5H stellium, mostly in Leo, as his asteroid Chiron is in Cancer; his Moon, Mercury, Mars and Pluto reside there, which makes him sound like so much fun honestly, but might be an egomaniac at points (it happens to the best of all Leo placements — esp the Pluto Leo boomer generation lol). his Sun and Venus in Cancer reside in the 4H, his Virgo Neptune in the 6H, his Jupiter and Saturn in Taurus in the 1H, and Taurus Uranus in the 2H. he has his 8H and 10H empty, and he has no Scorpio placements.

i hope this satisfies you all. peace and love on planet earth ✌🏻💖 !!

kale i am so, so, so, so happy for you and your social life popping off (ESPECIALLY THE LGBTQ THINGS <3 <3)!!!!!! i can not stress how happy this makes me enough, like yes go out and fucking SLAY kale you deserve it!!

also god fucking bless you for providing me an astro fix, i actually am very fucking impressed with how well all of these track tbh (i'm not a super fan by any stretch of the imagination, but these seem so accurate to me). also can relate to the whole you and paul talking forever and ever amen because once i get going i'm unstoppable too dude

[bytchysylvy]

base wing joint can be lifted up and down on a track from the engine room. It does have to be operated manually by an engineer for a pilot with enough zoomies to abandon controls to a teenager for a few seconds.

ignore the fact i forgot the slat on the one wing, whatever, we dont break in this household anyway.

cross section of the main room. undercarriage where the gun was mounted now serves as uuuuuh vegetable transportation space. there would've been two more gun mounted by the doors but these structures have since been removed and replaced with simple benches and non-ammo overhead storage.

foot placement and possible angles, the each root has two rails with hinges connecting them, allowing for both convex and concave bending to adapted to uneven ground. Im not super enthused about it but im too lazy to do anything about it rn lol. Most important thing is that it is not a fixed, can be tilted, raised, land on hills while remaining level, ect. This is meant to make it easier to perform maintenance of the undercarriage. Being a war machine there was never the guarantee of a proper port with the necessary lifts to get under it.

book 2 alex got hydrel to infodump all this information but now his tummy hurt and he has to go home, right when casarin came back too : ( ough : (

hydraulic door lift, so it raises and lowers smoothly, reservoir tucked into the wall along with the wiring

the way the steps work is there's wires that are pulled taught when the door is lowered and keeps them at the right angle regardless of the angle of the door (until the door is lifted upward anyway). "that sounds like it'd be unstable and prone the breaking" yeah. it is. also sometimes wires get loose and you get wobbly steps. and these types of steps are known for low weight limits. but one of the protagonists is literally a mechanic so lmao.

clearer image of wires that travel form the engine room to cockpit in the foot bay of the ship.

[nardonotes]

23 oct '24

7:25pm

woke up at 5pm today did absolutely nothing,, ( ;´ - `;) ended up cancelling on my friend because i was so fucking tired and just drained out man... i feel like i've been saying that i'm drained out forever now. BUT I REALLY AM!! like i have no motivation to do anything and my sleep has gotten so fucking bad to the point where i cant even just relax anymore. idk. this is literally seasonal depression hitting me bad!!!!!!

honestly, thank god im still writing these though,, cause the second i dont... oh it's over. ദ്ദി ༎���‿༎ຶ ) but we hold on tight yall........ im getting there even though i am actually really struggling to keep myself intact LOL.. !!

anyways, after i ate some TACOS WITH SOFT SHELL TACOSSSSS ദ്ദി(ᵔᗜᵔ) i went to get my film developed YIPPIE!! im so happy,, i can't wait for them to come through, they'll probably be done tomorrow at around 11am, and im gonna pick them up during my lunch !! and i also bought mini baby cokes with my sister because my mum wanted them :33

now im bored as shit!! like -_-" what do i do? should i catch up on school work like i said? or should i rot like the stupid piece of shit i am........ i hate knowing i have potential to be better but being too lazy because i know i got that potential inside me which is like the only thing keeping me from falling far deep inasense idk anyways.

im going to write in my journal a bit and bujo... i also want to edit some pics but im going to do that another time. DAMN I REALLY JUST BE SAYING WHAT I WANT TO DO AND NOT DO THEM FFUCKKK!!!!!!! (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

also dreading the fact that i have work experience on friday... like i really hate that for me bro. like i REALLY HATE THAT. even though it's only for a few hours. -.- im so lazy.

im gonna pretend to be productive now. bye and goodnight. watch me not be able to sleep at all tonight. i might just fucking pull an all nighter.. fix my sleep again. who knows. i am unpredictable.(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)

song of the day: Fantasy by JADE ⭑.ᐟ

[mauricemylittlemeowmeow]

gmorning gmorning. gmorning long post.

it's exactly 4am!!

blurry ass shot but i woke up, saw jupiter and thought "yeah definitely too early". but then i get up a bit more and i saw the moon right below it and i thought pretty!!!

skies've been too cloudy to stargaze for the past month. it's actually completely obscured the moon and jupiter right now so i'm glad i could get a shot in even though it was shitty lmao. it was real pretty and nice and fuckin mars was there with aldebaran and everything (if u squint u see them in the photo above jupiter)

dream time!!! on a scale of 10, dreams were a 7-8 today depending on which. one of them featured daniil which was funny so ill relay it:

premise was that i was the player character in what my brain helpfully supplied as some sort prequel game for patho. a nurse (i was talking to my nurse friend before sleeping and she was ranting abt phlebotomy or smth so lmao)

it mightve been set in a plague but basically there was some sort of epidemic and "i" tended to the in patients at an hospital (is it a hospital?? do people pronounce the h in hospital in english?) where most of everyone was sick with something really bad and barely curable.

anyways i was walking around doing my rounds. then i come over to this room with patients and it's literally like a closet with long shelves and everything but instead of supplies, the patients were crammed in there like a morgue or a line of standing coffins.

lo and behold i see daniil in all his p1 model glory. i pull him out. hes distressed so i tell him hes actually starting to get better (he was not) and that soon he'll be discharged after he's well again. i pat his head lovably and grow fond like i was comforting a cute puppy (i have 6 dogs) and i think about shoving him in the broom closet of doom again.

i think that was the part where i was like "lmao wtf is this dream rn" so my brain helpfully supplied some lore then when i was done "remembering" the setting above, the scene already shifted.

daniil was, once again, in distress. he was a lot like an asylum patient. like someone who lost their sense of self and was struggling very hard to claw at an identity of any sort that they might have had in the past. he was trying to use the phone to make a call. he struggles trying to recall a number but then eventually gets one right.

it rings and bc dream me really wanted to listen in on the conversation like a chronic gossip, i manage to "convince" him (dream coercion) to let me answer the phone.

it was his mum!! daniil dankovsky's mother 大草 lmao. i told her i was from the hospital, calling about daniil and she was like "oh... he's dead, isn't he?" and i told her that no he's fine actually and was to be dismissed very soon (i was lying).

while this was happening, i was trying my best to let daniil hear the conversation too but i didn't know how to put the telephone on speaker (bc fr idk how to put telephones on speaker irl. i think our telephone company doesnt provide speaker buttons????? idk im going insane) so i was just struggling, trying to put the receiver speaker in between us before giving up

i heard the tail end of her going on about needing "dr. burakh" to fix her up and my brain hit me with another dose of setting details at that point.

(artemy's a doctor/surgeon in the hospital and hes handling daniil's treatment too)

i laugh and tell her that there's no need to get artemy bc soon her son'll be home to fix her up instead.

at that point, i was urged to cut the call because someone came up to me, another telephone in hand, and said "you know this is a home line right?" (implying anyone could listen in)

i was too lazy to reply and continue the dream so i just woke up after that lol.

but yeah good morning yippee!! clean start for another day!!! cant wait to seize it, hope everyone does too!!!

[nyoclosmom]

i know nobody asked for this

im gonna do it anyway

here's a guide to my drawing process:

1- Pick a reference

I chose that one

2- Simplify it into small shapes and use that as a reference

like so

3- Draw your sketch using that reference

it doesn't have to be perfect. just the general idea of what you want to do and you're good to go. i don't recommend spending too much time here.

4- do another cleaner sketch over it

again, don't worry about this too much, it doesn't have to be perfect

5- do yet another sketch, but with the original reference as the reference so you can give a little more attention to detail

like so

6- I like it like this, but if you like having a cleaner sketch before starting to color, you def can take the time to clean it up or make a line art layer. Once that's done, add the base color

I have to confess something now you guys. I have 0% talent. I color pick. SO WHAT. ARE YOU GOING TO KILL ME??? (i like bullying myself but if you also happen to color pick pls don't take this as an insult, that's totally valid) We can learn color theory another time anyway.

And by that I mean I grab the colors from the reference. Does that make me a bad artist? Well I know for a fact my art teacher would destroy me, but other than that

7- okay what I did is color pick like crazy and painted however tf I wanted to. So. Just do the same.

ik it looks bad now but TRUST THE PROCESS!!! Basically do whatever the hell you want now, it still doesn't matter much (also pls use the alpha lock it helps tons)

8- okay shit's starting to get SERIOUS. Don't be too stressed about it, but actually be stressed about it??? Basically just keep doing what you were doing before but with a purpose.

Okay things are actually starting to look good

9- Here comes the real important stuff. Give your eyes a rest if they need it and go back to the reference and see what's missing, or what else you need? Hair shape? Jaw is too round? Eyes are kinda crossed? Just try to find the details and fix them

10- Best part. Just add the details, give it a lazy background, sign it, and you're done! Congrats!

that thing on her left shoulder is my signature btw

Also I really don't care about detail and i left it like that, but you can totally add and do more stuff (and actually render too lol)

ALSO SHE'S SO PRETTY AHHHHH

something (everything) about agatha crying makes me go absolutely feral