#anyway i went on a trip on main but i cant not

[leyyvi]

hi ley! i'm currently in japan and wanted to ask if you knew of any places that have aot or jjk (anime merch in general ig) from your trip ? i've already been to the animate in akihabara and got some stuff there but i'm greedy for more😩 ty!!

OH YES I GOT YOU

i went to all the animate stores but their merch was pretty limited for aot stuff when i went...you might have better luck than me tho

there's a place in harajuku an anon recommended me that has a 2nd floor with a bunch of aot stuff... fuuuck i cant remember the name of it but it was on takeshita street. i wish i could remember the name im sorry! it was a pretty big interior though and had a big staircase in the back of the room with anime cardboard cutouts (levi was there at the time), but you go up the stairs and theres a long path full of anime stuff there

don quixote (i think pretty much any of them, but the bigger ones might have more) also had some aot stuff with a bunch of other anime merch too

if you're going to osaka i highly recommend checking out the animate there (i found it was better than all the ones in tokyo? except maybe the ikebukuro one bc that one is HUGE), near the osaka animate there's a bunch of second-hand shops with anime stuff too, go to denden town it's basically like a mini akihabara

i highly recommend going to the second hand stores like book-off bc they had the most aot stuff out of anywhere i found. pretty much any store with bins of anime merch i just walked right in bc they had the most second-hand merch, it's where i found most of my aot stuff. secondhand stores around animates, side-streets of the main akihabara street, and in denden town osaka!!

ALSO i know this was mostly about merch but if you're looking for some aot cafes rn...

website link

i believe there's another cafe happening too but i can't find any info about it dgdfgh

ANYWAY i hope this helps!!! HAVE FUN IN JAPAN IM LIVING VICARIOUSLY THROUGH YOU

[simcardiac-arrested]

AKNDMN,S okay so

juts a fair warning this is a very long ramble so like. people reading this be careful you might be stuck here forever because you cant put read more in asks for some reason

I don't have any updated references for Six Silver Stars (the one who's very mad at one guy) so she won't. have any images.

She was created with the idea of mapping stars and planets and stuff so her puppet chamber was built outside of the can and made out of glass with her puppet arm attached to the roof of it. im sure this creates no issues at all whatsoever. anyways the main ancients that monitored her and talked to her did not like them. which im sure doesnt create any issues whatsoever. ive fallen in love with the idea of schools organising trips to visit the puppets of iterators so she made friends with this one kiddo who wasnt super social with the group. kid was often granted permission to visit her chamber and they'd often talk and just bond. kid was part of a fancy-ish family who was very devoted to the void. bring in Unnamed Iterator because i cannot think of a name

art and design not by me by a friend btw.

anyway they were made to bless people and prepare them for the void. like the people felt that they were ready and they pretty much just said 'yeah good luck' and gave them offerings and fancy robes and masks to hopefully make the void favour them slightly. Kids family went 'yeah lets all dip in the void and take our like. 15 year old kid with us this is so cool of us' which then left Stars pretty alone as her ancients often just. blocked communications for her because they were soo amazing(sarcasm) Stars immediately turned all blame onto the guy because its all she really had to blame. she didnt know the parents of the kid and she obviously wouldnt blame the kid so yeah. this guy was the blame.

this guy also worked very closely with Swirling Blossoms, Fading Fast

(again art and design not by me i saw this adopt and my brain went yesss) as they both had similar but different jobs. They made to be a god directly to the ancients, a place of worship, offerings and confessions. she was built with taboos SUPER SUPER SUPER enforced into her code like to an ungodly amount. also was given a lot of 'ancients need help you must help them they dont mean to do anything wrong ever they need help.' again i am sure that this didnt give them any issues surrounding themselves and their ancients at all. both them and unnamed guy communicated a lot and slowly started to date in secret which was Really Weighing on Blossoms because ''dont grow attached to anything thats a sin thats a no no ''

this continued to weigh in on her and like. a little while after the mass accession somehow messages between them got leaked. like not anything gross just typical couple stuff. not sure how this happened yet . but yeah, she was Very Stressed OUt About This despite like no once giving a shit. panic lead to her making dumb desicions and she ended the relationship and isolated herself. a lot 👍

so during this unnamed guy is like acticly trying to fix two relationships, one with someone they barely knew but felt very very bad for and one with their ex.

starts continued to do not very good and was exceedingly pissed at unnamed guy because before the mass ascension her communications were blocked and no one is able to break them or undo them. so like. they were sending scugs back and forth to Stars who was just like "Dude FUCK OFF you fucking killed my kid " and his ex was just sending them back with no response. theyre so fucking fucked over and a sopping beast and theyre not okay.

anyways theres more but this is also like. a brick post thats not very well organized so if youre still interested i might talk more about them in another ask

DIVORCE NUMER UNOOOOOOOOOO

[sarah-ankh]

Having some feelings I need to write down, and here is as good a place as any. This is gonna be a bot all over the place...

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I hate going for walks with my family.

I hate walking full stop, but i hate "going for walks" when my family is involved.

So often in the past it's become a *thing* that I can't do it now without reliving all of those past times.

I've always had muscular problems with my legs due to my height, and in recent years this has been compounded by nerve damage in my feet, and injury damage to my knees and hip that mean I can't walk particularly fast or far without a great deal of pain.

This means I almost always get left behind. I can't keep up with them and fall further and further behind them, and when I was younger I would always wind up lost.

Lost and tired and in pain in a strange place until somebody came back for me. They'd always make a joke about it, trying to cheer me up, but that always made it worse when all I wanted was a hug.

So I started refusing to go. As soon as I was old enough to stay home on my own I would politely refuse to go, and that was almost worse.

My mother would always respond in a half-joking way like "aww, you're miserable, you're no good" or "you're no fun, come on" or after my nieces and nephews came alo g shed turn to guilt tripping. "They're only here for a weekend, you have to spend time with them'

My brother would always look so disappointed and try to talk me into it with all the stuff I'd be missing, while I'm sat there knowing I'd probably never see most of it anyway and even if I did I'd be in too much pain to enjoy it.

My sister would just take a snippy tone like "oh. Ok." Then make a point out of how I didn't come later.

So even when I didn't come I'd spend the whole time sat alone at home making myself miserable and feeling guilty for not going.

And then when I do go, I'm in pain, I'm miserable, and I still end up alone half the time and stewing on the whole situation.

These days they at least try to accommodate me, but that just makes me feel like an invalid and burden which makes it all worse.

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Today I wound up alone again because the others decided to take a cliffside path full of stones and roots that I can't navigate, (literally the nerve damage in my feet means I can't feel the stones and roots, and dont have great balance, not ideal on a cliff...) so I continued alone on the main path with all this stuff running through my head in circles and making me miserable and depressed.

Part of what I was thinking about, I'm on holiday this week, staying with my brother and his family in Kerry. My mum came to join us for the weekend, and this morning his wife commented that I stop doing things when my mum is here. I'm not sure what she meant by that and I was already feeling shitty so I didn't pursue it, but now it's preying on my mind.

My mother is hard work sometimes. She doesn't understand my mental health problems and trying to talk to her about my life is just difficult. It feels like the "never again" meme. Given that his wife broke down in tears the other day worrying about my mum coming to stay, I'm sure she understands.

I tend to shut down when I can't deal with a situation. I go quiet and I find a way to leave for a bit. The more people are here the easier it is for me to get overwhelmed. And I do tend to shut down with my mum even more because I feel like I can't talk to her or make her understand, I feel like I cant get anything right, it'll never be good enough for her, so I just don't bother trying.

For all of my teenage years I felt trapped between the person I was "supposed" to be, and the person I wanted to be, and wound up stuck as neither.

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A few weeks ago I came out to my brother and his wife as bisexual, and hinted that I might be trans. It went well so i tried to have the same conversation with my mum, and her immediate overreaction made me abort so quickly. She freaked out about me wearing nail polish and was going on about how I was going to be fired from my job and it would ruin my life.

So I decided not to bring any femme clothes on this trip....

Its been hard, I feel wrong. I haven't shaved either and it's started getting to me, and being called "uncle [deadname]!" Every 5 seconds has begun to wear on me. Hence why I was feeling shitty today to begin with.

I don't know how to deal with all that. I don't know how to have the conversation with my family about my gender, or even if I should. I don't know how to talk to them about how my disability and how their attempts to accommodate me make me feel. And once again winding up walking alone brought it all home at once a little bit.

I feel alone. I feel like an outsider in my family, pushed to the edge. Not because that's what they're trying to do, but that just makes it worse because I feel like I'm just making it all up in my head.

They love me and they try, but it feels like they love the fake 'me' that I was expected to be. They don't really know 'me'.

Do I even really know 'me' at this point?

Who even am I?

[kasarian]

i am going to talk about oc pokemon au and you cant stop me :] (or, alternatively, if you're spark, it just me reiterating it with proper wording LOL)

Orbit is a knowledgable figure, unsure if I want him to be a professor or not, but he's also someone who's going to be important in the balance of quality of life in both humans and pokemon in his town, ensuring that the people do not disturb the natural habitat, and that the townsfolk be able to live a good life within the town. Ike was / is Orbit's partner in this endeavor, but went missing (presumed dead) for a year or two while he was out on a diplomatic trip out of the region; The two eventually reunite, not to worry.

Alon and Lupa are field researchers that work with/under Orbit. Alon in particular used to be a gym leader of the region in his younger years, but decided to retire a full year before he and Lupa got married, wanting to focus on his family and trying to get away from the public eye. He and his husband mostly help with nurturing hatchlings nowadays, but occasionally do the fieldwork for their job, as well as personal outings with personal agendas, of course.

Lupa has always been so passionate about pokemon and their behavior, seeking to understand them more. He wandered around various regions, becoming champion once and never again, despising the unwarranted fame his younger self did not want. He also met Alon during his travels, starting out at the wrong foot but quickly becoming fast friends, with Alon freely offering Lupa his kindness and hospitability. Despite all that, he still challenges gyms for the sake of it even now!

AND NOW FOR THE PROTAGS

The story follows Mela, Orbit's daughter, wanting to be as accomplished as her father, and setting out to her own journey. She's accompanied by Akku, who is Alon and Lupa's son, and his boyfriend, Hiraya, who was often under Orbit's watch due to his parents often being called for their duties as Elites.

As the trio's journey goes on, they all end up in a rather far away snowfields; and Mela eventually meets a man who looks rather familiar... but can't quite place her finger as to who exactly it is. She wants to find out though, stubborn as she always is to get things right. It's weird though, because it seems like Hiraya's seen a ghost, but he just won't say.

In the end of this arc, Mela meets the lake spirits, and they help her remember who that man was to her. Is to her. Ike, her dad, who's been missing and apparently, just as confused as her, because neither of them remember each other etc etc.

AUUGHUAHU

IT ALL VERY . MESSY and unclear and i might renew a lot of this bc i havent thought about all it yet. the basic summary was this:

Story following though 3 childhood friends journeys, Mela being the main protag ??? wanting to be like her dad ??? Accidentally finding her other, long missing father in the process??? ENSUE TEAM ROCKET LIKE EVENTS AND SHIT GOES DOOOOOWN

Akku and Hiraya just there for silly goofy shenanigans and support. (Akku wanting to explore like his parents did, and Hiraya not having much to do anyway, being the current youngest and not having much direction in his life???? idkkk HAHA but he and akku share the same passion w/ loving pokemon, akku just wants to see if he can run though badges in the process)

anyway yah feel free to plonk your opinions on this, i obviously have a lot to research, like the lake spirits, and which pokemon can temporarily take away your bad memories and help return it when you have to face it (first thought was gothitelle??) or if i can make up a process wherein a venusaur knowing amnesia -> imbued that power in its spores/pollen to help ease sadness that its trainer is experiencing and how thats kind but also kind of. oof move on the venusaur. etc etc. idk HAHAHHA

[the-cowardly-cheese]

Unhumanized

"Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair" (Ozymandias, Percy B. Shelley)

Part: One(you are here)

Main premise: Yuu is from the human world, yet not quite human. (Main character is referred to as "it" and "being", written genderless. I dont know if I'm going to continue this yet. I also have never written something of this idk level? This storyline is going to have a very dark backstory if I do)

Dark. When the human brain is met with such a lack of stimuli, it delves into imagination. Swirls and patterns, flashes of white beneath the eyes. The only sound is the deafing silence, ringing, auditory hallucinations. The feeling of bugs crawling upon skin. Then it all disappears with a blink.

~~~

An ever generous and kind Crow was disrupted from his work when a robed boy entered his office.

Red of both hair and face, the boy spoke in a panicked tone, tripping over his own words, "Headmage! It's orientation- you know well to be prompt! All the dorm heads are already waiting- one of the gates is-"

"Ah, Rosehearts!" The crow interjected, "I was thinking of kind things to do- and how thoughtful of me to think so- but oh, in my thoughs I was caught. Let us not dally, it would be criminal if we were late."

The crow hopped past the boy of red, Rosehearts, who was grumbling, he had not the chance to chastise the crow and no choice but to follow it. Rosehearts attempted to continue his previous sentence, "Headmage, please listen, one of the gates was open- the new student is just standing there- wide awake. No one noticed it until-"

"Hm? What were you saying? I wasnt paying attention- I'll assume you're prasing my generosity." The Crow had a nasty habit of cutting people off.

His cell phone rings, and after checking it he turns to the boy of red "Now, Rosehearts, go up ahead while I speak to other administrators, get the ceremony started and I'll be there shortly. You know what to do." After handing the boy a large key, the crow answered his phone and off he went.

Rosehearts was furious, there was an unprecedented crisis and the Headmage didnt even listen to him! He returned from whence he came, a room of floating coffins, a hand full of robe covered silloets, and a mirror.

"Where's the headmage, Riddle?" One of them asked

The red haired boy glowered as he responded, "he had a... call to make. He said to start the ceremony" he gritted his teeth, holding the keys up, "They arent moving right now anyways, they can wait their turn."

One of the coffins hovered close to the ground, cover burned open and propped against the wall. Inside, an individual wears robes, scorched. It was observing. In it's arms was a blueish grey creature resembling a cat with flames for ears. The cat has long since given up struggling for no matter how much he burns and maims it, he cannot break free.

It made no move out of the gate it sat in. The six original robed figures made no move to disturb it. Perhaps if they ignored it, nothing would happen? So the red head would open the coffins, give simple instructions to the occupants, and the mirror split them into seven groups.

The headmage has yet to appear and there's only one gate left. There's an eerie silence, and though they cant see it's face, it's eyes bore into them all.

Finally someone who is taller steps forward, taking his robes hood off "tsk- I'm tired of this." He turns the scorched observer, "Hey herbivore, step up to the mirror and let's get this over with."

The voice that came from the being was silvery and smooth, "Of course."

The being jerked forward and out of the gate, the juxtaposition between their elegant voice and puppet like movements was unnerving, the monster in their arms looked afraid. Everyone was on high alert and waited with bated breaths.

The being said their name when the door swang open with a bang, no one but the mirror heard it.

The door swings open, and the crow has arrived, he laughs unaware of the heavy atmosphere, "I was here the whole time, my students!" His finger hooks his chin as he smugly adds, "but I am so generous to let you all control the ceremony-"

The mirrors voice booms, emotionless no more, "you... do not belong here."

The mirror begins to crack, the mask within contorting, reacting to the one infront of it, "Leave."

The room falls silent. The being, unfazed, turns around and looks to the tall crow

"Hello... Can you tell me how to get back to earth?"

[poisonouspastels]

(Prev anon asking for lore) BITING YOUR LOREDUMP SM!!!!/pos It's so interesting!! I absolutely love how you wrote it, it like, in an way started picturing an painting in my mind of how part of the stories went down. Like with Groda and the way she wanted to be a leader with all the revolts then sending herself and her loyal followers into the underground and what was describe with the people above. And how she seemingly got even worse(?) down there while now sesrching for that enternal life. And the way Herobrine finds it!!(and how hes trying to keep himself alive D:!!) Your writing for it is intriguing to me and I can say you definitely got me into it.

THANK YOU!!!!!! Legit it is SO nice to finally be able to talk about universe building stuff with someone that isnt my partner (NOT THAT I MIND TALKING TO HER AT ALL but its just nice to get it OUT THERE) and its always so hard for me to just lay out stuff unless someone asks about specific stuff which usually people dont!! and i cant just talk about the ENTIRE thing all at once because i wouldnt even know where to start or where to end!!! or what to detail!!! my brain is exploding at all times because of all the fucking writing in it. i want to talk about EVERYTHING!!! and i want people to ENJOY CONSUMPTION OF MEDIA!!!! I am incapable of being normal but people engaging with my content and asking questions brings me indescribable amount of joy ANYWAY enough about me, im glad u liked it!!! I am by no means a professional writer but getting ideas out there is so satisfying, even if it isnt really in a professional formatting. And my MC au is something im REALLY passionate about bc it brings me a lot of comfort so i just have so many ideas and things in my head and im glad they come out cohesive and actually kind of cool sounding!! And u are right Groda got VERY worse she is so up in her head about being better than everyone else and ensuring her own success that she kind of lost sight of what she was actually fighting for and now even that is gone. Like congrats bitch!! Ur a ruler of an empire that collapsed under your own fucking reign!! What now!!! Don't worry when she comes around to finding that humans exist once more in the modern time she's gonna make it everyone's problem AGAIN. Or at least the main four players. SPEAKING OF THE PLAYERS Herobrine is genuinely so fun to just do anything with. Dude literally spawned in and weeks later dedicated a majority of the next years of his life to chasing some mystery. He, at the time, is far more obsessed with the past than caring about the present where he's just this scrawny twig of a man who's barely managing to keep himself on two feet. The spider bites on his leg are IMMENSE and he even has scaring on his arm from his encounter with the Warden. As well as that facial scarring from improper use of magic

he is a CAVE RAT and i love him deeply. most ppl make Herobrine some paranormal entity thing which can be really cool!!! but i really did say hey what if i just made him some weird fucking guy. Would u believe he first met the other main players properly through Rana finding him having tripped over face first in a berry bush after trying not to be seen by them. I would. And as I put it on Discord:

[starjxsung]

hi hi star! how are you?

i am also an avid sunscreen supporter, i wear it everyday bc im also sooo terrified of sun exposure😭

i saw deadpool & wolverine today and i really enjoyed it! i was so obsessed with deadpool and x-men when i was like 16 that this movie feels like a fanfic from my teenaged brain.

aaaaaand the baby was born today <3 thankfully, everything in the delivery went okay and he’s all good <3 we couldn’t see him bc visiting hours were over when he was born </3 so we’ll just go tomorrow.

and the pulls <333 jilix is really slay and also exclusive hanji!! hardcore manifesting kitty lix for you next!!

i’m so obsessed with hanji pcs. they’re everything. they just hit different. they’re perfect fr. i hope i get at least one and one or two linos😪 i usually have good luck with pulling them but lately it’s been a lot of chan (and im not complaining bc i love them all but i need at least one of my main biases🤞🏻)

manifesting your lolla hanji nda era <3 pls introduce them to me once u have it. my personality may be better than my looks </3

i’m getting to chicago on tuesday and it just hit me that i haven’t got anything ready (:

and i have some good news! my practicum center called me and said that a space opened up so they’ll be having me after all! (but i haven’t done any of my paperwork or anything that i need for it and i can’t do it until im back from chicago and classes start on august 13. freaking out rn. but but hoping for my nda era first🤞🏻

anyways i love you so much bb <3 i hope all is soooo good <3 take care!!

-🐈‍⬛

BAEEEEEE <3

Oh my god the sunburn on my SHOULDER…… is peeling and it looks fucking disgusting HELP MEEEEE 💔💔💔💔 I haven’t had a peeling sunburn in literal years like this is so uncharacteristic of me 💔💔 I want to go back in time and punch myself in the face for not wearing sunscreen WHATTTT was I thinking

AHHH I heard skz were only in the credits or something?? I’ve never been into marvel very much so I never have any clue what’s going on in the mcu LMAO but I’m so glad you enjoyed !! The only movie I saw in theaters recently was long legs and that was a fucking trip

AHHHH I’m so glad he was born and everything went smoothly!!! Congrats to the new mommy !! 🥹🫶 I hope you guys were able to stop by during visiting hours! Is mom home from the hospital yet? That is so so so exciting ahhh I hope she enjoys these early days of being a mommy! Hearing a baby was born always makes me instinctively want to cry 🥹🫶💞💗

About 10 albums in now and sadly no kitty lix 💔 I DID snag a few of their pobs at my local kpop store and I might try for like ONE more…. But I’ve honestly lost all hope of kitty lix 💔 the pcs this era are GOOOOD tho I’m really happy with all my pulls !! I hosted a little trading event at my apartment today and my friend came thru with a few hanji ones, I’m so grateful frfr ahhh my hanji binder is really filling up 🫶 my sister’s had NO luck pulling Channie this era! We’re like Seungmin/Changbin magnets this time around so it’s been a lot of dupes 😭 but still really good pcs and I have a lot to trade !!

Bestie I am also getting to Chicago on Tuesday and I still haven’t gotten anything ready 😍🫶 I’m gonna be last-minute packing tomorrow night fr it’s gonna be BADDDD

ALSO YESSSSSS OH MY GOD I’m so glad your practicum called !!!!! That’s fucking amazing !!!!!!! It’s such a convenient time too bc at least you won’t have to be hoping they call during lolla or something !! Manifesting you’re able to do the paperwork super fast when you’re back from Lolla and that everything falls into place but RAHHH IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUUUU I cant wait to hear all about it !! 💗💞💓

I hope you’re doing so good pookie I love u !!!! Chicago on Tuesday LIKE CAN YOU BELIEVE………

(Also here are my hanji pulls/orders from this week) ily ily 🫶

[soulfullionbunny]

Found a flower that reminds me of my ex today (01 June 2024)

found this masa solo trip ke a horse stable at UPM. im not sure why but this flower sangat2 my-ex coded. bila aku tngok aku mcm "omg fisya???". the flower legit projected her image in my mind. im in awe msa tu. idk how to explain but i know why (kinda?) and i NEED to explain sbb this is very unique experience. i lack the vocabulary for it but i will try to explain.

i think the main reason why is bcs the colour scheme reminds me of her. one of her favourite colour is pink and her favourite flower is sunflower (yellow). BUT aku rasa sbb dia lagi deep here bcs if its only the colours then i wouldnt actually felt her presence, at most aku akan terpikir "fisya would love this". rather than physically associating the colour to my ex ONLY, i think what the colour symbolizes also played a major part. the colour that exist in this flower is Pink, White, and Yellow.

ok jom analisa the colours. Pink is typically associated with softness and gentleness which I cant lie, memang dia la tu. shes very soft and gentle. walaupun kinda bnyk meletup2, but letup2 dia tu typical woman behaviour and they were quickly replaced by her gentleness. so shes pink rather than red. second is White, which symbolizes innocence and honesty. she is VERY honest and innocent to the core, which is why i vibe with her bcs her behaviour is very autist friendly (i suspect her as one tho idk, dah suruh dia check). im and autist, have known it since childhood. i like it when shes honest to the core bcs im also honest sangat sampai susah nak tipu. legit get in trouble with my family sbb i cant dont lie. apparently islam ajar utk ckp benar but when astro homestay rosak suddenly kita kena tipu supaya x yah bayar??? (future story). anyway yea lurve it. then the main character of her character, Yellow, symbolises happiness, joy and everything bright. to me, one of the reasons why i like to be her friend and of course, fell in love with her is because she has a bright personality. i like love her smiles. i love her corny jokes. i love it when she went cringe mode. i cant stand cringe stuff but when its from her, the disgust adn ick turns to genuine joy (i even got horny at some point lmao). i also love her optimism and her idealism, a very yellow-coded behaviour. she sees what is wrong in the world and she will fight it. shes not shy to point out anything wrong thats happening and will stand her ground no matter what (girlboss serving cunt like breathing). brought all these 3 together and yeah... i can see why i thought of her. she is symbolized by this flower. or the flower symbolised her? idk but what i know this flower will always remind me of her.

also~~ something funny this flower is from a plant called Cosmos Caudatus. More commonly known by the locals as... jeng jeng jengg~~~ Ulam Raja!!!. So in conclusion, my ex, my first love, and my cinta mati, is.... Ulam Raja coded!!! beautiful AND penuh khasiat bila dimakan <3. she cant be more perfect than that <333

[uc1wa]

my music taste is all over the place like I listen to country rap kpop metal you name it

SO SOME OF THESE RECS ARE LIKE well one you might already know them but also like they vary depending on what you’re into

like some pop-y stuff (I think???? it’s just kinda upbeat )

Magdalena bay, theyre synth pop, they did kill shot and recently I have been listening to their song how to get physical and it’s just so like wow

Aurora ave, they’re indie pop, pretty new, also from my home city 🤭, their main singer for their earlier couple of songs Dominique is so good but she went to japan to continue her studies, and their new lead singer Samara is also SO GOOD. Ugh that whole group is so talented

Kero kero bonito, another group you’ve already heard probably like their flamingo song, and imma be honest I personally do not like a lot of their discography but I DO specifically like swimming / open road and the song only acting

ZEPH. my friend has been the biggest zeph fan for years and i’m not really big on her but if you’re into kinda experimental hopeless romantic stuff you should deft check her out, also her twitter (hatsunemitski) is so fucking funny

Adam Melchor, I saw him live at the laufey concert the other day and he’s so funny like he’s so genuine and UGHH I CANT. His voice is also so angelic??? like??? sir???? probably my favorite opener I have ever heard, he also just released an ep which has some really great and sweet songs

Superfan, pop (?) psychedelic vibes idk, heard their song onetime in a starbucks and shazammed it LMAO, very cool, wish I had motivation to look into them more

Some more like Rnb lofi hip hop type stuff

Limbo, her song airplane mode really blew up in like 2020, such a banger, but the rest of her discography is also really good she’s definitely one of my fav feel good melancholy like idk romanticizing my life

Going to the exact opposite of her LMAO, freddie dredd also blew up on tiktok and goes viral every couple of years but his music is a little more loud and he uses a lot of portuguese samples (i think i knew the reason but i don’t remember maybe he’s brasiliano or portuguese??) anyways you may have probably already heard him but there are some good stuff from 2018-2019 that aren’t as popular too if that’s what you’re into I used to play him as like pump up music for my hockey games

Montell fish, very popular for good reason, his album her love still haunts me like a ghost is so good and goes really well together imo, like pretend lovers is a great interlude between songs on my playlists, very sexy music

ENTRO//, no lyrics for most of his music, but it’s all very cool lofi with jazz influences and I like to listen to it to chill yk and some of it can start to raise my energy but generally it’s like i’m not asleep but i’m not running laps

Okay so their name is Sorry and technically they are trip hop (a quote from them) but ngl this is a pretty broad category so they’re just going here too… I don’t really fw most of their music just hasn’t interested me to look further into them personally but their two most popular songs starstruck and cigarette packet are really cool

sad indie stuff

this group called loving, they’re kinda like idk their songs make me cry but they’re also kinda uplifting??? they like pull you outta that state ykwim, like stranger to yourself is the song I play after allat

leith ross, great voice, and I once fell asleep to their song we’ll never have sex, woke up the next morning and my friends texted me asking me why I had listened to it over 1000 times

Rap

Jayworthy, got recommended his song wait on you on spotify on one day and UGH I LOVE HIS SHIT, like it’s so cool and interesting and like I just ugh get the best feeling walking and listening to him

J-pop, now i’m not as into this category BUT

Chai, they opened for a mitski show I saw and they WERE SO COOL. They sample mario sound affects and shit and are just so fun and I got their vinyl at that show they’re just yeah very fun and cute

some stuff I listen to who are artists who are like on the radio all the time and stuff like just kinda self explanatory

Dominic fike

Cody Johnson

Rob Zombie

Erykah badu

There’s also more I just kinda don’t feel too motivated to write more and also I don’t know what you listen to so like yeah there’s a good chance you know all of these and if that’s the case i’d love to talk to you ab them anyways 💗

ALSO NOTE I GOT SUPER LAZY WITH MY GRAMMAR AND PUNCTUATION KINDA COULDNT DECIDE OR COMMITT TO ONE OR THEBOTHER

first of all im in love w you, THANK U FOR RECOMMENDING ME SO MUCH IM SO SERIOUS!!! i queued all of this while i was writing a paper actually! thoughts under the cut!!

first of all i hope its okay i posted this since ik it was so much, but again thank you sm luv bug seriously, i loveee new music. aurora ave is so light and cute. i def liked cinema&swimming&open road (i think u recc'd all these LOL) by kero kero bonito, loveee this type of music to study to. liked adam melchor too! babe pls...u r my music plug now. i actually had a song saved by superfan already, but ur recc made me check them out more!! i liked cigaraette packet by sorry too!! will be running&skating to this song hehe. LEITH ROSS IS CUTIE!!! i like jay worthy's flow, will def listen to more of him. AND OMG CHAI HAS A SONG W GORILLAZ (lurvvvvv gorillaz). ive honestly never rklly listened to too much jpop either (im dead jp too LMFO), but loving chai theyre so cute and chill!! love erykah bday always and dom fike. again thank you sm love for all the reccs, i read and listened to them all!! pls dont be surprised if i hit up ur dms in like.2 weeks when i get bored of my music again LMAO

[lostacelonnie]

Surviving is one thing but befriending the alt girls? Now thats thriving congrats on the friend acquisition. Oh yeah absolutely thats super cool of your mom. To be so chill. More parents should aspire to be so chill. Birds are just chill dudes who exist & you can see them & its great. Fuck gulls though. They're nice to look at but will be bastards if you have food in some places. Ive been trying to learn german here & there and it is. Something. Mood but for english. Who needs grammer rules fuck em. I dont know polish so i definitely cant say. You probably mentioned it that sounds familiar but dang. Well it at least wont be as bad? My joke answer is gay sex would be less gay than whatever bronya/seele & march/stelle have goin on. My serious answer is that but also that was really well paced & written. Svarog my bro. Love him. Cocolia confrontation had killer music & the interaction with preservation was cool too. Love fire stelle abilities. Mobile is tough but just gotta fuck it we ball through it. Ill definitely have to add rain world to my list. Dredge is like. Lovecraftian horror fishing sim. Its really neat. River city girls is a simple beat em up adventure game where you fight through town doin little quests on your way through the main one. Real fun easy controls & the soundtrack is real good. Please do id love to hear your exploits. Yeah i have work a lot & so does she plus her kids so i dont talk to mine much either. Im getting to the point in star rail where i am catching up like genshin so ill probably log in less on that too unless more story happens or an event catches my eye. After next planet story anyways. Im not far enough in simulated universe to do swarm disaster sadly. Just gotta. Level them characters as usual. Ps5 star rail gave me gepard which he's good but like. I want bronya

YEAH ITS GREAT and thank you!! we have different groups this year and im very happy ab this bc most of the popular girls im scared of that i shared a group with last year are in the other one now. so im chillen. yeah shes VERY epic hehehehe!!!!! love her. YEAH frfr i agree.... ab the gulls as well i almost got Physically Attacked by one when i was on a trip on an island near alicante cos i was hanging out in the sea and went towards a small island not far away from the shore. not knowing there was a gull nest on it. but i took the hint when one started Screaming at me like halfway through. god i am scared of these things. theyre cool but from a safe distance. and ahhh good luck with learning german!! i took 4 years of it in primary school and still dont know a thing. but its a very charming language so maybe when i get a solid hang of spanish, ill revisit it. tho it Is funny to joke with my friends ab how i didnt allow ppl to germanize me. german was mandatory under the nazi occupation and theres this one patriotic song with the lines "nie będzie niemiec pluł nam w twarz / ni dzieci nam germanił" [the german will not spit in our face / nor germanize our children] but these days its often used for jokes ab having to learn the language. and yeah i suppose thats true!! it is what it is. anyway. YEAH i actually agree with both the joking and serious part andkfnjjb ESPECIALLY the cocolia boss fight. GOD that was cool. i honestly dont use fire trailblazer abilities that much but yes she does come in handy. good luck with surviving on mobile o7 also keep me updated if you do end up playing it!!!!!! its unbelievably hard but like. in a good way. OOH BOTH OF THESE SOUND VERY FUN!! speaking of which i have so many games i wanna play..... but i literally just spent around 200zł [a bit under 46 dollars] two days ago [wait im gonna tell you how in a second]. which actually connects to dye update: i redid my hair since it washed off pretty quickly [but ah i look so nice in red] for the very event i ended up spending way too much money on. and yeah fair rn im actually going onto genshin more often than star rail bc the fontaine exploration + catching up on sumeru exploration is just. So fun. havent played swarm disaster yet either...... no time...... i have a Lot of stuff to do for school recently. its been like what. 2 weeks. and we already finished the first chapter from history and were gonna have an exam soon. which im Dreading btw bc for some reason i went for extended history in school despite being physically unable to remember dates. but hey at least extended geography is easy [so far]. so fuck it we ball. anyway ah congrats on getting gepard!!! hes pretty overpowered yeah but i want bronya as well [i say barely ever logging into the game]. which is pretty funny bc i already got 3 5* things on standard in star rail while being like 150 pulls in and they were two claras and GEPARDS LIGHTCONE. which i cant even use on march since i run her in clara teams in which i need the taunt on clara. Lol. but whatever. ANYWAY ABOUT THE EVENT uhhh you Might recall that i went to like a. con-adjacent thing last year. its actually just mainly for buying merch but a Lot of people go in cosplays. anyway i went this year as well and got a bunch of prints [of focalors, fischl, signora, silver wolf, kafka, and miku], and some other stuff [charms of himeko starrail, silver wolf, and kafka, as well as bronya honkaiimpact3rd and kafka pins]. and a very cute choker. so YEAH for the sheer amount of stuff i got id say its a very good price but i still feel bad ab spending so much money in one go sjdkgkgjh

[caruliaa]

ahhh its really late and also omfg we’re going to a museum thats like famous art and cool and stuff tmrw which is great EXCEPT its a super long drive from here which??? makes me kinda -___- lmao just bcuz theres plenty to do here like in fact i wld like more downtime so i cld just vc with youu<////3 but yeah im hoping friday will be more free hopefully.. manifesting… but anyway b4 i go to sleep i just want to say that ik u werent doing so great before u went to sleep so i mean ofc feel free if u still r feeling like that tmrw to dm me abt it or anything but the main thing i wanna say is just! that i care abt u and love u and hope i can be here for in any way possible ok? and i just want to say that youre such an incredible amazing lovely thoughtful understanding compassionate friend and person and that you fill my life with so so so so much care and support and love and light and you make my world so much brighter and just you are such an incredible incredible person all around and i just feel so lucky and grateful to know you and have met you and to get to be your friend like ;;; yeah i love you sosososooomuch. (hugs you a lot if u wld like? 💕🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻💕🫶🏻💕💕💕💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕💕💕🫶🏻💕💕💕)

nauur not the lateness tht always sucks -___- nd museum sounds rly cool but also rly frustrating w such a long trip there nd no free time but ya i have tmrw off school so we can call then ya and im v touched tht u were so excited too even if we cant :'> and ough omg ur so so sweet love ;; thank you so so much for being here for me love it really does just mean the world to me love and ya im still a bit. not the best but i feel a lot better today than i did last night and its spring break which is good !! and j thank you so so much for checking in on me its so kind of you and rly means sm to me :'> as does just knowing you in general love !! like im really so so glad that i can be such a good friend to you and be so lovely and understanding and thoughtful to you love and be so like supportive and caring and stuff i really really am because you really do deserve it so so much and just because i really do just want to so so much dearest because you really are so so dear and special and important to me and just soso amazing and i hope you know that you really are the same to me like youre just such a wonderful kind understanding loving friend to me and makes me feel soso loved and cared for and safe and warm with you and just bring so so much joy and light and love and happiness into my life just knowing you and being your friend and i hope you know you really do just mean everything to me and i really do love you so so much dearest !! :'> *hugs you back rly close if thats okay* 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

[vikab]

I didn't want to clog my post caption longer but I wanted to put additional notes about my process etc

also: [youtube mirror]

So yeah exactly 2 weeks ago, I was on a drive back home from a camping trip and while I was offline I couldnt stream any music, I decided to give some old songs a listen by Ling tosite sigure, my favorite band of all time. It's been a while, I wasn't too fond of their recent releases so I haven't listened to my favorites songs by them for a while.

My favorite LTS tracks btw...

Of course then make up syndrome song came on. I'mperfect album by LTS is how I discovered them (through Psycho Pass OP song Abnormalize) and I love that album a lot, then I started thinking about animating a music video - as one does when listening to something and imagining your favorite characters to the song. Happens often, BUT I usually never act upon it.

I know animation is a lot of work, I didn't study animation at all - I have some random animation experiences but they're not a lot. I know how use Premiere Pro and After Effects, but thats it. I didn't know how to use the Clip Studio Paint animation feature. But I had just recently finished reading ORV... and was obsessed. The themes, the characters, Kim Dokja. I couldn't stop thinking about how good the song is, and how much I wanted to animate some parts of the song (particularly main chorus and some parts towards the end).

I began thinking of a storyboard. Didn't actually end up drawing out, I kept the whole idea in my head (I did write out some text details into my notes but that's it). Next 2 hours in the car I've spent obsessively replaying the song and imagining animation parts. I wanted... a lot of details and animation on that lol. More TV anime style, like an anime opening, looking legit 😅 But as I edited the song into short version (no way I would have finished this if I had done the full song) I opened after effects and started setting up my timeline. I broke it down into 13 segments and realized... oh boy. That's a lot 😅 Maybe I would just stick my own artstyle and do my best.

Through week 1 I began working on scenes I had more clear in my head and knew what specific effects I need. But still a lot of "after effects [effect i was thinking of]" in my google search bar, I havent used AE in quite some time... I downloaded few free plugins and templates but it was mostly a boil effect and chromatic aberration... some AE plugins are so expensive!!

Work week was busy but I utilized my time well. Then by the weekend I went crazy and got sooo many drawings done. They're all quite quick, I tried spending less than an hour on each, but still had to do like 5 redraws on some of them because I was not happy with some cuts. Running animation cycle at the end was most insane work I did because at first I was like "surely this cant be hard" spoiler alert: it was hard. I drew 8 frames for running and realized it was very... slow running effect. So I cut it into 4 frames, reducing my workload since I had to detail the running silhouette into HSY and YJH. yay?

anyway..... this was a lot of work. Week 2 I finally started seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I knew my limits, I hibernate A LOT on drawing regular illustrations throughout the year, how am I supposed to animate a whole video. So I knew I had to push myself to finish by end of the week otherwise I will be too tired to ever finish it. I did become a bit frustrated with my work, I had left the most difficult parts for last, and I was worried I am not doing my best work. But I really wanted to finish this, actually finish impulsive desire to make animated music video to media I'm obsessed about. It's hard for me to put into words how well ORV did what it did, so I can only hope to convey my emotions thru my art.

Uhmmm that's it!! Hope you enjoyed. I struggle with confidence about my work so I was very surprised when my KDJ drawings popped off on here. I wasn't even done with the novel but somehow I hit a nail on the head I guess. I dont expect this to pop off at all tbh, im not good fighting the online algorithm. This was a passion project through and through, but I also feel mega cringe about it 🙈 This project ended up being a lot of drawings.. so many assets. My project file was messy, and my laptop was struggling with some effects. So when I rendered video last night for over an hour, I could finally view the video in proper HD definition (my AE viewport is Quarter quality) I noticed bunch of timing mistakes and had to fix it... then set to render the video while I sleep 🙈 thankfully when I woke up in the morning I havent spotted mistakes and decided yipeee im freeeeee!!!

(free me from orv brainrot)

song: make up syndrome - Ling tosite sigure (edited into shorter version)

[zephyrfuse]

INGO TEAM PEARL

[dontmockthetrex]

Just some doodles thinking about Max facing the things he's done and the fact that he may never remember who he was or what he was searching for before being shot. He knows he's been travelling west for a few years but why? How did he get tangled up in all this? How did he let himself get taken off guard and taken advantage of so many times? Why did he let that dictate and justify some terrible things he's done?

[timeloop-liz]

Maybe Stanley actually does need to sleep but the runs never lasted long enough for The Narrator to know.

Then one run gets quite long and Stanley yawns. The Narrator thinks Stanley is bored with this ending and starts telling him off. Stanley of course quickly starts trying to “tell” The Narrator that no he isnt bored please calm down. So they keep going and Stanley gets more and more tired. But he doesnt want to upset The Narrator. He knows how sensitive he can be about his story. So Stanley just tries to push through. After all he wont fill tired anymore after a reset. They just gonna finish this run. Maybe its the ultra deluxe convention (i think thats what its called) so its a pretty long one.

The Narrator is going on and on about it and Stanley is trying very hard to listen. He starts wobbling a bit while walking. His vision is getting blurry. Oh what was the Narrator saying? He cant focus on it.

Then PLOP. He just passes out then and there. Freaks The Narrator out pretty bad. Stanleys not getting up. Sure the man has tripped before but normally gets up pretty quickly. Not like this. Hes just laying there. Unresponsive. This isnt funny Stanley. This little prank you are playing isnt going to work… Stanley? Oh god what if Stanley just died?? But how?? Nothing in this walk could harm him?? The Narrator is looking closer and sees Stanley is still breathing at least. Letting out a breath he didnt know he was holding he starts to get a closer look at Stanley. What if he hit his head to hard after all. Maybe he should reset.

Then he sees the bags under Stanleys eyes. How long has he had those? Now really looking he can see how exhausted Stanley looks. Hmmm. Well laying here face down on the floor isnt gonna do the man any good so The Narrator resets anyway.

When Stanley jolts up right at his desk The Narrator gives him a moment to get his bearings back. Watching closer now at how Stanley is reacting. He can notice the bags still slightly under Stanleys eyes. He can see how tired the man really looks still even though he reset. Odd.

“Stanley?” He jumps slightly. Then looks up confused. “Sorry but are your.. tired?” Stanleys eyes go wide as he too realises hes still feeling tired. That last run really stuck to him. Holding his head in his hand he nods slightly. “Well thats just not right? You shouldnt be able to get tired. Not to mention i just reset so you should have reset too. Now this is did not put jnto the game. I mean honestly what kind of game would it be if the main character had to sleep. In this setting of all his coworkers missing! it sees a little out of place. How little must the character care for their coworkers for them to stop on the way to their bosses office to nap. Really how…” clearly gone in a rant and Stanley is hardly able to keep his eyes open.

Still he goes. Shakily he gets up from his chair and starts to make his way out of his office. Hes hardly even able to focus on The Narrators rant as he uses the door frame to steady himself. Really why is he still so tired. It just doesnt make sense to him at all. Hes been a bit tired before sure. But that always went away with the resets and its never been this bad.

“Stanley?” When he hears his name he can sorta focus and looks up to where he think The Narrator might be watching. “Are you um.. doing ok? You have just been standing there for a few minutes.” Oh had he? Well the confused look on his face isnt helping The Narrators worry at all. “Maybe we should reset again? Though that didnt do much last time did it. Hmm” a moment of silence passes between them but Stanley slightly jolts when The Narrator speaks up again “Maybe you should sleep for a moment? The sofa in the break room might be large enough for you to lay down comfortably. That is if you think you can make it that far. You look like you could tumble over again in any second.” And it was true. Stanley felt like he could collapse right here and the floor did look so comfortable but no The Narrator had a point. The floor would do him no good. So he nodded and slowly made his way to the breakroom. Luck had been on his side as he only stumbled once on his trip too. The Narrator stayed silent almost the whole way but when he did speak Stanley could tell he was trying to be soft about it. Which Stanley greatly appreciated.

Once he reached the room he could already tell some slight changes. For one the lights had been dimmed and there was a small blanket and pillow on the sofa. “While i cant really make you a bed jn here i can change a few things i suppose. Hopefully the sofa there is comfortable.” Stanley looks up at the Narrator trying to convey his thanks which ofcourse The Narrator understood. Stanley made his way over to the sofa and promptly plopped over onto it. The moment his head hit the pillow he was out cold. The blanket lay half hazardly across his back. Finally able to get his first real sleep since stuck in the Parable.

Though the Narrator waiting nervously for Stanley to wake up. After all he couldnt voice it since he saw how bad Stanley was getting but he was very afraid of being left alone while Stanley slept. And knowing the man he knew Stanley would have tried to fight off sleep to keep him company. So he now sits alone with his thoughts till Stanley wakes up. After about an hour he started to spiral of course. At the three hour mark he couldnt take it anymore and just went down and sat on the floor next to the sofa to wait for Stanley to wake up. At least now he knew he wants alone. And from here he could hear Stanley breath. With his back to the sofa he too soon was asleep.

The Parable was left silent as finally they both got some well deserved rest.

[gender-snatched]

list of reasons i hate my ap lit class (i highly doubt anyone in these is on tumblr. the one person i could think would be seems too straight)

the teacher started the class by telling us all he'd give us nicknames (i had to beg for mine to not be about my hair color)

the teacher, henceforth called by his nickname cheats, regularly tells stories about his life

he will call people to corroborate these stories

he is also convinced he is the smartest person in the room, and does not seem to understand that this is usually how classes are. pretentious as hell

used to be a troublemaker, clearly favors troublemakers and gives them a space to be obnoxious

case in point: we have one desk in the class known as "tweakers corner" where all the troublemakers sit and cause trouble. he does not seperate them

it's called tweakers corner because cheats sits with a bunch of other teachers at lunch that he calls "creepers corner". somehow none of these adult male teachers realized that perhaps they shouldnt have called themselves creepers

we havent prepared for the ap exam until like. two days ago

half the class hasnt read any of the books

this is despite the fact that for some reason he hands out quizzes on our readings. however they arent the normal ones where you ask questions that aren't hard but cant be found on sparknotes. he asks shit like "whats the name of the town these side characters visited?" "how much did school cost down to the penny?" "which character said they wanted to die, casually?" "what does the main character think salt can do?"

he insists that taking notes helps with the reading but these arent notes on plot. they are grabbing every insignificant detail, and if you missed one, oops! anyways what was the main characters daughters friends father called? it was mentioned in one line.

wont shut up about how he followed the grateful dead on tour

and the problematic stuff that makes me hateeee him in vaguely chronological order

says "crackheads" a lot

likes dave chappelle

did a valley girl voice to convey a teenage female character was dumb (she wasnt even dumb in text) and did his normal voice for the male character

said the f slur in class (reading Ulysses by james joyce aloud) (it wasnt in our curriculum he just felt like it) (it made me have panic attacks until i got my gay lit teacher to talk to him) (he apologized at least)

pretended that his acquaintance, who was wanted by a government (long story) (he went to oxford for a summer and wont shut up about it) (the guy was wanted for like honorable reasons he wasnt like a killer) (he was like a whistleblower or something) was getting kidnapped by said government

calls the one latine kid in our class "el presidente" as a nickname. does NOT have any excuse for this

revealed that he cheated on his high school girlfriend. on prom night. with someone on her team. and got caught. defends this by saying they were on the path to breakup so it was almost needed. this is how he got his nickname ("we were two trains going in different directions")

had white person dreads in college

called denver in beloved a brat for acting exactly how youd expect a teen girl in her situation to act

once, on a field trip, the bus in front of ours took a wrong turn, making all the buses late because they had to stay together. said "where is that driver from? pakistan?" and then defended himself by saying "im just saying we need a native chicagoan to be driving!"

called cordelia in king lear a brat for having morals

followed this up by saying if he was in the positon of isabella from measure for measure (which is a person in power pressuring a girl to have sex with him for the release of her jailed brother) he would just have sex with the guy instead of speaking up about her morals

that one really pissed me off actually. even writing about it makes me need to cool down. like???? bitch is missing the HISTORICAL CONTEXT. cishet man would NOT if he was actually in that situation. also cops pressuring women for sex happens sooooo often. like hes just so fucking oblivious

did the valley girl voice AGAIN to mock a girl not doing work in our class. when tweakers corner is right fucking there

actually just letting us call them tweakers corner. thats absolutely wrong. i need to stop calling them that. but the only replacement i can find is a garbled scream of anger

the girl he mocked by doing the valley girl voice wasnt paying attention (again, neither were half the boys) and he was like "ohhhh are you shopping for prom dresses"

revealed he cut his brothers goldfish in half as a child. he regrets this (fair), but he regrets it more than cheating on his girlfriend

this isnt problematic but i dont like it: his ex and his wife have the same name

anyways. i hate this class. ill pass this exam because im me and the only way i dont start screaming about the no exam prep is reminding myself that if people do poorly it helps me get a 5

lmao like 3 days ago my ap lit class* voted on whether kendrick or drake was better. and kendrick won by a landslide**. glad to know both why and that that was right

*if youre wondering why we're doing this in ap lit its because that class is awful and off topic. i can elaborate

**i have not heard many songs by either artist but i've heard more kendrick, so i voted for him. also because i hate drake