#anyway autistic anthem. 2 ME

[deathlonging]

more artists should be horrible and offputting and sexy

[cat-amaryllis]

*NOT MY IMAGE*

Hi! I decided that I really wanna talk about my favorite shows! I watch lots of anime and cartoons and thought I’d share my favorites and why I like them so much! Cause maybe you could watch them and that would be cool! Anyways here’s my top show list!

1. Fairy Tail: So this is my favorite anime and my special interest. I will be getting the guild mark when I turn 18. It’s so good! I don’t know why it gets so much hate. The OP’s go so hard and ALL of the females are written well. I tend to overhype the show but it is genuinely so good. It was also my first found family trope which is one of the reasons I’m so attached. Anyways, go watch it!

2. The Owl House: What is there to not like about this show. Flawless writing, dynamic characters, oh my god the animation!, good non-binary representation, etc. I’m such a Hunter kinnie and I’m gonna cosplay both Hunter and Amity soon. The kiss! And the girlfriends! And AAAHHH it just makes me so excited. I wrote a whole essay for my creative writing class last year about why it’s a cinematic masterpiece. Please go watch TOH! It got cut short but I know it’s gonna make the most of it’s final three episodes.

3. Soul Eater: For starters, I would like to mention that Maka and I are the same person. I am the embodiment of her. Now to the other stuff, I watched this anime a couple months ago and It’s honestly just one of the best anime out there! Talk about a dynamic cast of characters! I swear that last episode changed my life forever. So go watch it!

4. Amphibia: The last episode of Amphibia is the best final episode of anything I’ve ever watched. Marcy is SO autistic it’s not even funny. Anne’s anthem to Amphibia and her self discovery is gorgeous. Sasha’s journey is unfathomably well written. I started and finished Amphibia in three days. A fantastic use of time. You know the drill by now, go watch it!

5. Steven Universe: Steven Universe absolutely has its problems. But those things aside, it’s so good! I mean the SONGS! They are taking up so much room in my playlists. I won’t spoil anything, but the reveal! Season 5 episode 18 I think? Oh my. The movie slaps too and I think the future series has scarred me. Go watch it!

6. Your Lie In April: Finishing the list with this show feels right. I absolutely adore YLIA. It was my second anime ever and oh my god that ending! Sobbing. Actual tears. I even read Kaori’s letter as a monologue for my beginning acting class. If you don’t like sad things, it’s not for you. Cause YLIA stirs all the feels. Please go watch it!

[owencorley]

anyway, my anthem takes/thoughts are stale by a year and a half but that’s not gonna stop me from restating the same things i’ve already said on twitter because i’m fixating!

1. anthem is a good game and i feel so passionately about this i probably will be avoiding all of the video game youtubers i enjoy when they talk about disappointing games because i won’t be able to be chill about it FDSKLJG

2. i like the freelancer but also? fuck the freelancer, forreal.

3. owen is textbook bpd you cannot change my mind and trying to is a blockable offense (he says to his 0 followers as of this writing) and sure what he did was wrong but also i’m sending the freelancer to therapy where they can learn how to communicate with others

4. bioware’s greatest failing in regards to this game was by far billing it as an experience we’ve never had before. if they were just talking about how the studio that couldn’t even figure out how to do jumping right in dai managed to make the best flight mechanics out there then SURE HELL YEAH but they weren’t!

5. fo76 is to blame for everything bad that has happened since oct. 2018 (yes im pinning 2020 on bethesda, can you blame me) including just how poorly anthem was received (and the fact that there are people on this planet who think anthem is anywhere NEAR fo76 in terms of quality makes me want to scream)

6. tassyn is a disaster lesbian who sent a note to her crush telling them to get out of her school but now she’s a cool adult and thinks being open with her crush is talking about her similarly threatening job

7. zoe is the glue that holds coda together and when her son grows up he’s going to follow in her footsteps and fix the entire damn planet even if he’s not a freelancer

8. general tarsis needs to hug me. please. i’m begging. she made me cry i love her so much

9. i’m STILL livid about that one quote about cyphers that’s like ‘should they be allowed to have free will’ like bioware why are you so obsessed with stripping ppl of their humanity can you just chill out???

10. i’m so glad faye always has something to comment on when you run to her because she’s so cool i could listen to her all day and her voice is so pretty and i’m still soft about her message to the freelancer about getting an icetide gift for haluk :plead:

11. haluk. is a good character, but there’s something Off about how they gave the token disabled character the ‘too stubborn to live and will hate you forever about it’ deal. i love him a lot but there’s several things about him they could have handled a little better.

12. similar to the above grievance but i’m over making your characters disabled as a punishment. that wasn’t even cool, either! owen straight up looks like you caught him in the middle of taking his makeup off from a ronan the accuser cosplay!!!!!! unforgivable, tbh.

13. them making max disappear for a while there was really mean i was so scared she died because of the curse!!! i almost cried when i finally saw her again

14. at first the other npcs seem pretty one note, and like, most of them still are, but the dialogue is SO good they really feel like people, yknow? i love them all dearly and can’t get enough of our conversations

15. arcanists and cyphers are autistic thanks.

[timeisacephalopod]

1 & 99 for the Get In My Business Please question list?

The meaning behind my url:

If you’re talking my writing blog URL its literally just what my AO3 name is, which was chosen when I was 18 and liked Criminal Minds a lot. In hindsight it was a bad choice but I can’t change it now lmao. If you’re talking my personal blog (ridingcthulhudick) I just thought it was hilarious. And if anyone quoted my blog in an actual publication they’d have to print that my blog name is not appropriate lmao.

Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?

When I got this question I was like ‘do you answer on your phone’ and decided no because I have some fucking tales ok. You guys have all heard about this person if you’ve followed me for awhile- this is the person that I called on racism and she didn’t show up to school for a week after. But that is really only the tip of the ice berg.

So I meet this person at the beginning of my school year, who like me is named after a season, and she’s odd- wearing a cowboy hat with all these fandom pins and ok. That’s strange but ok. Then she starts talking, goes on an on about her kids, I discover that she’s 27 but if I were to age her by actions, style of dress, and mannerisms I’d put her at 17 and that’s only because she was in post secondary so that’s the youngest she could be. Otherwise I would have gone 15. And she has 2 kids. So ok. I leave and something is off about her but people can be eclectic and I don’t like being judgmental so I leave it be and let her actions speak for themselves rather than jumping to conclusions.

Class starts and she never. Shuts. The. Fuck. Up. And I don’t mean like useful advice, or even interesting facts that are irrelevant to the class but at least neat to know like another student in the class does. I mean every. Fucking. Thing. Out of her mouth is useless. So we all decide she’s annoying amongst each other and we all start to back away slowly.

Now we may seem like dickheads at this point but keep in mind, within a week, we all knew these things about her: she has 2 kids that were taken by child services and she complains about it a lot, she has an obsession with tiny houses, she’s a bronie and sometimes takes commissions for bronie porn, she’s a furry- which isn’t inherently bad but combined with the rest it just becomes another weird thing about her, she’s homophobic but also pansexual (??), she has a fiancee, but maybe also 2 boyfriends, we still aren’t sure and we’ve found her scrolling in dating sites, she’s an artist but I literally drew better at 12 (though in her slight defense I am naturally gifted at drawing), she tried to start a conversation with a friend of mine about incest on a busy street, and has a weird obsession with The Human Centipede. This isn’t even all of it, this is just the first fucking week.

So the semesters go by and in my school they’re 3 months long, which is a little shorter than normal universities, and we just got through our 3rd term. Here is what we know now. She lives in a small city (a couple hundred thousand people), but talks about it like its a small ass town like the one I came from (which is under 2000 people). Another student lives in the same city and has no fucking clue what she’s talking about. She’s sexist and racist (like hella racist- once she claimed that because she grew up with some Natives in her life she is one. That’s not how it works, and given how confused she seems to be on various cultural aspects that I know of from Natives in our area- which is admittedly not a lot I will full well acknowledge- this is a total lie). And she’s L O S T on all social cues. And not in a way where some people, like people on the autistic spectrum, are- I mean she intentionally has ignored social rules her whole fucking life and expects everyone to compensate for her bullshit kind of way.

And that’s a whole other thing. Not only is she racist, sexist, and homophobic, but she also has this obsession with bullying. She’s always on about high school (mostly in regards to herself- I will remind you all she’s 27) and bullying and has, on several occasions, defended school shooters and claimed they did it because bullying. As your local queer kid in a small, very homophobic town, eat shit bud white boys don’t school shoot because they were bullied- signed every other minority ever. Anyways. This grates my nerves and keep in mind I am a patient person, so I don’t like being That Guy. But there comes a point where I can’t morally or logically stand by when you’re an asshole. So a friend of mine from class was talking racism and she goes on what is essentially a #NotAllWhitePeople rant, claiming we should leave racism in the past and focus on the now, blah, blah. So I was like no, we have to examine the past because it continues to influence the present- to break this down into a smaller event this would be like a person in an abusive relationship focusing on processing their trauma and moving on from it- you gotta acknowledge the past to move forward.

WELL, she was not having this so I called her racist, because she continued on pulling the ‘colorblind’ argument, which is a fucking cop out so I said it. She was all ‘that’s my OPINION’ so I was like well then your opinion is racist, like shit son don’t hit me with that crap. In this exchange we’ve traded a good four sentences or so back and forth and the student that was originally talking racism (and the only brown person in this discussion) offered a single sentence of support for my argument. But she was silent for most of it. Well once More Annoying Tomi Lauren stomped off we find out she whined and cried about the brown woman eating her ass when it was my lily white ass that went all in. I was pissed.

Anyways. So we’ve established that she’s an asshole, and also weird as fuck. Lets run a highlight reel of this person: obsessed with tiny houses, general asshole, also emotionally manipulative but I didn’t even get time to cover that, looks and acts like a particularly annoying 15 year old (I’m so sorry to 15 year olds, you all deserve better than being lumped in with this), has an obsession with bullying but defends her racism (???), has the aesthetic of someone who shops at Claires and the lost and found exclusively, every single character she writes is a self insert (and I hadn’t covered that either- fuck I have tales ok), constantly monopolizes class time by yapping about shit no one cares about, thinks the Big Bang Theory is a good show, can’t take criticism for shit, and has more confidence than Joss Whedon when he wrote Age of Ultron.

There is more people- I didn’t actually touch on the emotional manipulation, which often links in with the bullying obsession, or any of the self inserts let alone her actual attempts at story. I didn’t even touch on all her racist Facebook posts or that time she whined about the gender neutral Canadian anthem (changed recently), which resulted in my sourcing that the fucking anthem was gender neutral when it was written, then was changed, and is now being changed back so at least know the fucking history of the anthem before whining and crying about it being changed. This is just what I remembered off the top of my head.

A friend and I from class once went out with a bud of his and we were talking about her and halfway through I realized she sounds fake. It sounds like writers all sat down in a room and were like ‘what pile of weird and asshole traits can we give a person?’ and then we created her. But we did not, we would not intentionally let ourselves suffer that way. And, AND, this is key- you’ve all read my writing here. You know I can create whole worlds with various levels of efficacy- I’ve written almost 200 stories that I’ve put on my AO3- but I simply am not creative enough to invent this person. I never would have combined ‘racist, self insert writing, tiny house obsessed person who thinks the Human Centipede is a movie that makes you think’. I wish that last part was a fucking joke but that’s deadass a quote. It is not a movie that makes you think. Wolf of Wall Street is a movie that makes you think assuming you figure out its a satire intentionally making fun of every white male power fantasy ever, not the fucking human centipede.

Conclusion: If you are so generally off the rails that a writer who prefers writing fantasy and science fiction is not creative enough to have invented you you are Some Shit ok. Like Hannibal Lecter is a character someone invented and that guy probably couldn’t have come up with my seasonal nemesis ok. There’s just too much to unpack there and she’s too willing to throw it all at us like a monkey flinging turds. I can’t believe this is a real human being. I wish I didn’t know she was, but if I have to suffer so do all of you.

[borisbubbles]

4. NORWAY

JOWST - “Grab the moment” 10th place

I always keep Eurovision songs separate from non-Eurovision in my mind. If I’m really honest, most “Eurovision Songs” are really, really average at best as songs, but elevated to the next level through a combination of petty politics, far-fetched gimmicks and campness. “Real music” is simply too good to bring itself down like that (and no, pale imitations such as... well... literally half this year’s contest if i’m honest, don’t even come CLOSE, I refuse to parttake in that sort of revisionism).

However, every once in a while, a song that i would fall in love with OUTSIDE of Eurovision somehow tumbles into Eurovision proper.Enter "Grab the moment”.

To its credit, the song survived its transition into a Eurovision entry quite well, with the aid of some serious Midnight Gold-esque special effects:

K1LL KILLL K1££ K1LLL KI££ V0IIIIIIC€ IN µY #€@D.

I love how Nika Kocharov, of all people, set a new standard for psychedelic special effects <3 Black+Amethist CGI mash-upfest <3 Similarly, JOWST has now set a new standard for live vocal interpretations, with all the inbetween chanting being pre-recorded. Such trend-setters <3

But to understand “Grab the moment”, we have to understand WHOM we’re dealing with first. I love the dynamic between JOWST and Aleksander. I’m normally don’t understand “bromos” (you’re in what is functionally a gay relationship despite being straight, without the sex but with all the emotional trench warfare? meeeeeeh), but omg talk about a cute bromance. Aspie musical progidy & laid-back hipster stonergod  BFFmances <3

Like, Joakim is deeefinitely on the spectrum? It’s not just the “refusing to perform w/o a hoodie & fluorescent mask” thing, but also the “making off-hand Game of Thrones references during official press conferences” thing, the “loving your bromance partner but forgetting to credit him as the vocalist” thing and the “alternating between looking a point right above the camera and looking at your toes during interviews” thing. (all of which <3)

Aleksander otoh is basically... an antropomorphic carebear. Chatting up to JOWST while the latter is ~InDaZ0n3~ during the live performance sums up his entire essence, btw. It’s kind of funny to hear him sing (which he does EXCEPTIONALLY well, lbrh) stuff like “i’m tryna sound kewl, but i’m boilin’“ when he’s probably the least likely person to ever get angry or anxious at anyone ever. <3 He was certainly a good mama bear figure for Joakim and help him feel at ease in the public eye <3

So it’s only apt that these two provided us with an anti-anxiety anthem, yes?

The realization that “Grab the moment” isn’t about anger, but about dealing with extreme, crippling social anxiety as a young straight [autistic] man is what finally sold me on putting “GtM” inside of the God Tier of Eurovision songs. Mental health is a huge taboo, especially when young, vulnerable straight men are concerned!! On occasion, some [piers] MORON[gan] tells them shit such as “ugh man up” or “this is for guuuuurls” and “get over it” which never, EVER fucking helps why do people do that? ugh. Anyway, fortunately, there are people -like Joakim and Aleksander- who tell them “dude, you only live once. go for it. we’re here for you” a message which not only encourages but also actually helps. MENTAL HEALTH CRUSADERS <3

Also, again, “Grab the Moment” *is* a really fucking good song. It can’t be stressed enough that the verses are OUT OF THIS WORLD. It’s edgy, compelling, complex in form and function, has a relevant message, etc. I’m *elated* the juries carried it to the top 10 finish it deserved.  I’ve seen some people (idiots) label it as “boring”, because idk, it’s fronted by men and is actually viable as a song(???) and grouse about their lost Tijana and Timebelle time (??? that is like saying someone ate your peas & carrots). Personally, I believe that if something is truly good, it can’t ever be truly boring, but each to their own, I guess...

Decade rank: 29/324

THE 2017 RANKING SO FAR:

-ADORE- 1. 2. 3. 4. Norway (29/324) 5. Lithuania (43/324) 6. Hungary (47/324) -LOVE- 7. Moldova (55/324) 8. Italy (61/324) 9. the Netherlands (63/324) 10. United Kingdom (67/324) 11. Finland (68/324) 12. Estonia (71/324) 13. Azerbaijan (84/324) 14. Latvia (87/324) 15. Israel (93/324)

-LIKE- 16. Bulgaria (100/324) 17. Portugal (105/324) 18. Croatia (115/324) 19. Austria (119/324) 20. France (138/324) 21. Poland (154/324) 22. Armenia (158/324) 23. Romania (164/324)

-OKAY- 24. Iceland (174/324) 25. Ukraine (190/324) 26. San Marino (203/324) 27. Albania (217/324) 28. Denmark (228/324) 29. Spain (237/324) 30. Cyprus (240/324) -DISLIKE- 31. Germany (258/324) 32. Montenegro (263/324) 33. Sweden (270/324) 34. Serbia (275/324) 35. Australia (280/324) 36. Switzerland (286/324) 37. Czech Republic (288/324) 38. Malta (291/324) -HATE- 39. Georgia (301/324) 40. Greece (303/324) 41. Slovenia (307/324) 42. Ireland (312/324)