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valhallavalgrace · 2 days

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Leo, what has been your favorite “to-the-death” activity thus far? I feel there has to be a workshop-to-the-death somewhere in that hotel.

LEO: I think maybe Magnus was right about talking about the past… I’m not sure I’m ready to do that yet, but thinking about it and doing things that remind me of my old life, it feels like progress. prev ask (also about activities!)

#was a lil liberal w this update to get the festus head in there hehe I hope nobody minds! Im just glad to be settled enough to be posting rn #leo my sweet homesick child... the next update will be even more brutal to you I'm so sorry #shoutout to yall trying to get him out doing things/in the workshop/meeting alex I think he needs a break from my angst #anyway not canon yet but halfborn probably learned ancient greek and ancient latin at some point and adores this graecus son of hephaestus #he will adopt valgrace over the course of this tbh #leo valdez #v²au #magnus chase and the gods of asgard #hotel valhalla #magnus chase #valgrace #leo valdez responds #art #I'm gonna try an update or two a week during this early part of the school year! we'll def have to see my schedule bc #I did NOT see this update taking 10 days (or more accurately... for me to barely be on my computer the last 10 days)#but I am alive settling down and still in love w this au! super behind on anything else pjo/wottg but alive and online!#halfborn gunderson #festus #<- these are more for blog archive organization but oh well... we'll see them more I swear!

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envolvenuances · 12 days

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and I think child modelling should be illegal I'm not even joking

#I dodged it but like it truly felt like we were pigs raised to slaughter. slaughter being prostitution #every little detail I remember now as adult with basic child psychology education from my teacher background is just. how #I'm not brave enough to say 'jail to mother' (yet) but honestly...#what wrong could come from making a bunch of girls used to lying about their age ignoring being made uncomfortable and disrespected #especially by adults who can make all sorts of rules and claims on their bodies and schedules that are treated as secrets #I had the best experience possible and I am certain I did get pimps approaching me my mother and contractors #and even then I felt very weird that I was often sent to nightclubs that only allowed adults as clients but since I was there to get on #stage as work then I could get in and actually I got instructed to keep on 'vip areas' that typically had a lot more drugs circulating #the heels the clothing and makeup I got put on were also so wrong #I didn't hate it at the time some things made me uncomfortable but I liked dancing I liked fashion and I liked how the fact I was 'making #money' made me more respected in my house and I started getting more independence (that I probably shouldn't have been given either)#but ugh the existing photographs already make me want to throw up and I am glad there aren't photographs of the worse 'dance' jobs I did #very strange little universe #I also feel like I was the only girl that didn't have an eating disorder but mostly cuz I already had problems with alcohol that did the jo #but also I got in much older than the other girls and out pretty fast #crazy that 13 is old but like you genuinely hear of 6 year old who are responsible for a considerable portion of the household income #YIKES #the compliments I got on managing to look older and 'being so mature'. yikes #anything that allows a child to be the one making most of the family's income is a receipt for disaster #.txt

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gemharvest · 1 year

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Ekubo Week: Day 2 (God) @dimpleweek

#artings #ekubo week #mp100 #ekubo #dimple #mob psycho 100 #we are going to ignore that i am late by two days ! have been either busy or tired :(#ANYWAYS this was really fun to do. i did not expect the muscles to look as good as they ended up being ! muscles scare me #<- guy who has only recently been working on human anatomy #(recently as in the past couple years. 3-4 ish on and off)#also can you tell the divine tree arc was my favorite arc. i have a whole animation (meme) idea i wanna center around-#-it but i have not had time yet. ily ekubo im so glad i got the chance to depict something related to it

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littleredstory · 4 months

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I wanna finish this but idk when I will. "It's pride month, me, you know what that means" "what, do you want me to. like. make my ocs gayer somehow? what?"

#soooo sloppy so messy sketchy lmaooo #poppy: “just glad to be here!!” he has not thought about Gender or Sexuality at all. hes 10 and not there yet #in-universe there'd probably be a pride flag for like... fairies that think humans are hot and vice versa #i did my best to make them like. size accurate. max is still too big buT THATS OKAAY @ myself thats okay #we'll get it in post #need more women in this story hmm don't i #actually there is an older like 50-something wlw couple Beatrice and Ava but they're not main charactersss inna first oneeee #me @ myself: its 4 am what are you yapping about in the tags. go to bed #jade looks cunty in this one i love that actually #she's like “these guys (and jessie) are stupid as hell haha. idiots haha. gay idiots.”

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mo-ok · 7 months

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hmm yes i see i see

#really didnt have to hold him like that but i sure am glad you did #what if i made sure your landing was soft as i pushed you out of the way of a speeding car #what if i stood BETWEEN you and a speeding car #WHAT IF I THEN PUNCHED THE SHIT OUT THE SPEEDING CAR #thank you goggle v i really did need another red and black pair obviously the pile isnt large enough yet #goggle goggle go

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deeisace · 6 months

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#sorry sorry I just woke up and im having yesterday-was-weird thought again #and they are going here so i don't have to talk to the person that they're um about yet #basically im glad that im in a good enough space now that um #someone ive ive had text-based sex with and uhhh sent an ill-advised video to in like oct when i was Feeling Bad™ and doing. hm. too much.#like 6 months post text-based sex/ill adised video now aha and we've not spoke at all since like january and that was 'how was hols'#they asked to meet up 'not for sex just as friends' or i forget exact wording but basically that #no-pressure museum not-a-date #and i said I'd think about it. because i am as everyone knows a fucking idiot.#basically im glad that im in a better place now than the last time someone like expressed an interest in me as a person #because while this did give me a day long wobble i didn't have a full weekend long actual panic about it #tho they are two v different situs #an ace poly friend asking to go out with me vs someone i uh virtually fucked aha um asking to meet up for (mostly) being-friends purposes #same several-hours-later 'oh god no what have i done bad bad bad no thank you actually no sorry i cant sorry' but less intense this time #but at least i only said ill think about it?#and not actually immediately said yes because it's nice to feel wanted #and then gone Maximum Regret™ because actually all of this is way too much i don't like it i don't want it thank you but im sorry no #weird. i guess i don't have such a high baseline stress level any more? since i'm not at uni n stuff #and someone over messages going no pressure you want to be irl friends (maybe fwb no pressure)? is um #is different. to someone irl going you want to go out acely? yeah? awesome lets hold hands here is the discord with a whole buncha people #i guess #but i am being equally aro-not-super-ace Autism™ about it aha #and i am. eventually. going to be like. thought about it and no sorry. eventually.#if they ask again #i am kinda hoping they'll leave it there and forget they asked so i don't have to navigate social stuff #im much better at navigating canals everybody leave me alone please thank you #(everybody over there leave me alone. y'know. you guys are fine.)

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sysig · 6 months

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#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Teisel #Meme #I am on a roll with these lol #I knew adding Teisel to my list was only a matter of time #I am a weakwilled individual with one fatal flaw #Anyway (lol)#ZEX really has his work cut out for him with Teisel haha - it's very fortunate he's so determined and enjoys a challenge 'cause otherwise!#Teisel is hard to pin down - I mean Other Than That lol - he's an interesting guy :0 #Rough around the edges and a family man ♪ And if I get to draw long hair and big muscles then all the better hehe #And he has a cute nose! He has the bridge of the nose thing that I like so much!! Yes!!#As for the rest of him - hm! I've only had passing thoughts up to this point and getting into his head is...Something lol #It's well done to be certain it definitely Makes Me Feel it's just hard to ascribe a name to that Feeling just yet #Needs a bit more time to tumble smooth I suppose lol #One thing I know I like because it makes me sad - lol - is ZEX projecting some of his feelings about DAX onto Teisel - unexpected!#It's extremely interesting how despite his deep abiding love and fascination with Otherness he's gotten increasingly homesick #Finding things charming about humans that remind him of VUX! You can tell he's a bit desperate for the familiar :'0 #So isolated from even himself ah 💔 Hang in there ZEX!#At least he has some fun distractions hehe ♪ New things to learn and consider! Teisel keeps throwing him curveballs!#Both of them circling each other like ''? Isn't it your turn?'' lol #They both come off as aggressive in their own way and then swing-and-a-miss lol #And then there's how Teisel frames him as far as age goes - or really how everyone does pffft #It is So funny to me every time anyone refer to ZEX as ''old'' now that his age has been more or less established - at least pointed at #The fact that he might not even be in his human-equivalent 50s what is this who this lol he's not old! And Max /definitely/ isn't haha #He is the slightest itty-bittiest willowiest little twink y'ever did see pfft #I have been waiting to use that meme template for someone for ages I am so glad that I finally got the chance ♪

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sandinthepipes · 7 months

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I'm still trying to process the fact that Beelzebub and Gabriel are canon

#Can you imagine being an ineffable bureaucracy truther before s2 #It was like Mycroft and Lestrad #How did it happen???#I am still so baffled and yet so glad #Incredible #Neil Gaiman absolute king #Good omens #Go #Good omens 2 #ineffable bureaucracy #Beelzebub #Gabriel

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pochapal · 9 months

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mood for the evening

#:)#was going through the phone i had from 2014 to 2019 and found a couple old selfies i took #and when i tell you i have never seen a more dead behind the eyes individual swamped in despair in my life #like a little jpeg of me aged 20 should NOT have contained as palpable a misery aura as it did. and yet #anyway it's insane how much i have genuinely improved as a human being in the last 18 months #on and off i've been jokingly calling my self improvement process a miraculous resurrection but wholly and genuinely i think that did happe #like. the me now looks way more alive + happy than maybe i ever have in my whole life????#also what's insane is that in these pictures of me from ages 17-22 i look a million times older and wearier than i do now in my mid 20s #moral of the story is resurrection is THE hottest thing a bitch can do #idk just. very glad i didn't succumb to the pall that had been cast over me for the majority of my life #i am very glad i am alive here and now despite it all. i certainly never believed it lmfao

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odetolovers · 9 months

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it is absolutely wild the way i’ve allowed people to treat me

#every year i write an end of year recap i’ve been doing it since 2019 #this year So much happened but one of the big things was breaking up with my ex #and it genuinely blows my mind how badly i was treated and the fact i stayed as long as i did #year and a half of clownery when i knew after 4 months i’d been sold a lie 😭#i feel so bad for past me because girlie you didnt deserve that!! nobody does!!!#it’s helped me sm in my current relationship because i know what it’s like to be the collateral for someone’s self hatred #it’s motivated me to heal and develop self esteem so i dont do that to my wonderful partner #they have really shown me what love is and let me tell you! it’s nothing i experienced with my ex!#mind blowing mind boggling i am never letting Anyone treat me that appallingly ever again #literally crazy i wish her a lot of healing and growth cos goddamn how are you terrified of being a bad person yet treat people like you #treated me. no wayyyy no way #i so believe in that thing of what people are most scared of they’re most likely to do #goddamn! 2023 man. wild time #valentina talks #i definitely made many a mistake which is why im not really like. Angry at her because i understand and i’ve had to change a lot and grow a #lot too. i think everyone just is perpetually making mistakes and growing and that’s okay. but it doesn’t mean the people you hurt need to #forgive you or think your actions were okay #just yeesh. i’m glad it’s over and i moved on

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tamaharu · 11 months

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okay thats interesting! in the SF try-outs during the song "legally blonde" she sings about how she cant be legally blonde, while in the official version AND THE DEMO she sings about letting her be legally blonde. which means that at some point they changed the lyrics around, and then changed them back! laurence o'keefe.... nell benjamin.... what occurs in your twisted minds

#covers mouth sorry so sorry guys #im a huge fan of beacon of positivity + good boy (elle puts a leash on emmett confirmed) + love and war (not in the demo but part of SF)#+ i liked some of the lyrics in the demo version of so much better (it called back to beacon of positivity!!! (i am insane)) such as:#I dream of your name next to my own but mine's looking fine up there alone #but i greatly prefer all the official songs we got. well. maybe good boy over ireland wouldve been fun (i think ireland is boring)#but itd play into the 'all men are dogs hurr hurr' joke that im glad they avoided. anyways. what was i saying.#right i havent listened to every version of everything yet (for example theres a SF version of chip on my shoulder i need to watch)#(and just the SF vers in general. shes hidden from me... why was emmett there before the remix... let me see their conversation)#but from what i have heard they made a lot of changes that were sorely needed. in take it like a man demo shes so much meaner??#it made me sad. it wasnt a duet + they wrung out the romantic tension (no subtext by calvin klein... sigh) + shes meaner!!!!#in the bway vers hes baffled but enjoys going along w it + she genuinely likes him even when hes wearing his regular clothes #but in the demo vers she keeps calling him stuff like ugly duckling and talking about how the geek is gone :( but she likes that geek..#the lines 'how much do you think i earn??' and 'kindly shut up :)' are funny but speak to a dynamic between the two that makes me sad...#follow me for more beautiful opinions on a fifteen year old musical #(heaves. do you know weird it is to see comments from 15yrs ago when this was actually showing. my brother is fifteen.)#god im so sorry i should be put down like a dog #lgb bootleggers are intense. i swear they got a bootleg every night or smth bc we got her shoe flying off + SF + kyle as understudy etc #go watch a so much better compilation sometime how did they take so many bootlegs?? how did you find them??#and its awesome cause these were filmed on 2007/2008 tech which means they have 15 pixels maximum #SORRRRYYYYYYYYYY

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damnprecious · 2 months

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one day I won't accidentally trigger a touch activated faucet and get soaked at work but it is not this day

#noopa rambles #my pocket is truly soaked dhdjdjdj #rip my keys I guess #at least my phone wasn't in that pocket hfkdkdkd #I thought that now that I no longer clean this wouldn't happen #yet here I am with a soaked pocket bc it got caught on the touch activated kitchen faucet shdjdjdk #nothing is worse than cleaning touch activated showers let me tell you #when I did cleaning during summers I used to frequently accidentally trigger the showers while I was standing under them #I distinctly remember one time getting my entire shoulder fully soaked #and while I was walking away from that shower room I ran into my coworker #and she just. absolutely lost it shdjdkds #I was just standing there going 'I'm glad I amuse you'#at least that place was a factory where the actual factory floor was really warm so when I went there I dried up quickly #now I'm just stuck with my soggy pocket

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pikkish · 4 months

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So I was rereading How To Process a Soul (because it's one of my faves) and I just happened to look at who the author was and had a moment of like... no way... Pikkish the cool artist is also a cool author... so I just had to come over here so I could compliment you :3

Wait wait are you telling me that you found my tumblr and my ao3 independent of each other and didn't realize until now that they're the same person? Because that's hilarious.

#pikspeak #i mean i know i dont really advertise my ao3 a whole lot on tumblr beyond a link in my bio #and ive only mentioned my tumblr a few times on ao3 #but if i see someone on both sites i generally assume they found one through the other #VERY entertaining to me that u just. coincidentally stumbled across one account and then the other without connecting them #i mean i guess its p easy to not really notice ao3 usernames/pfp's. those arent the things that are immediately put forward #n if i am engrossed in a fic i dont always remember the authors notes so there probably are a number of fics where the author had a link to #their other social media and i just Did Not Notice #so its not actually that implausible #but no ao3 pikkish is actually uhhhhhh my doppleganger. we are both simultaneously claiming to be the real pikkish. were not certain yet whi #which one is the evil clone really.#or better still ao3 pikkish is just a completely separate unrelated person and we have never interacted and have nothing to do with each #other and its just total coincidence.... ao3 pikkish? whos that? no idea. certainly not me!#but fr though thank you very much!#im glad youre enjoying both my writing and my art!#getting feedback and comments on things always makes my day #be it here or on ao3 #on a semirelated not i am aiming to have the next chapter of htpas up possibly sometime later tonight #if not tonight though then probably tuesday evening. we'll see.#so keep an eye out for it! n thanks for reading :)

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whenthegoldrays · 4 months

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Hmm

#pondering #I can’t believe it’s been a year since I gave up on my last crush #it seems like so long ago I feel like I’ve lived eight lifetimes since then #but it also feels like just yesterday #and yet I feel so…. distant from him #I mean I also never see him anymore #the only reason I did then is because I’d seek him out #and even then….#idk what I’m trying to say #just that things change #and myself of two years ago would be amazed #that I’m able to have a normal life and think about him minimally and painlessly #because two years ago I was in the DUMPS #I went through this intense phase where I just felt like I *had* to be with him and got to the point where I’d just cry out of fear that #that I’d die before I got a chance to make him fall in love with me #it was so bad I was so paranoid and lovesick and and and.. ough #I still remember that night so well #it was also a Wednesday like today and it had been an awful day and I had a headache #and I just thought. I can’t take this anymore. where are we even going. he’s never going to notice me never #i GIVE UP #it was mostly an impulse but looking back I’m so glad I followed that particular impulse #it’s like when Edmund walked out of Mary’s house not because he was super resolved but more on an impulse of the moment #just felt like the thing to do. and I may have regretted it once or twice afterwards but in the end it absolutely WAS the right call #and a couple months later YOU-KNOW-WHO showed up #absolutely insane events happening to me last year.#but now I feel like the girl from that one video #“girl who is going to be okay” djdjdhdh #but really! I will be!#and I am even! just taking it one day at a time #elly's posts

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hydrachea · 6 months

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Andjwjsb hey what r ur thoughts on the new 4.6 trailer if you’ve seen it ? 👀 👀 👀👀

I watched the stream, and I'm cautiously very optimistic about Arlecchino now! She didn't get to do much in the Fontaine main quest and it was very disappointing, but what the trailer showed of her story quest looks super interesting. God knows I've been waiting for canon to finally spell out "By the way, the House of the Hearth isn't exactly a happy normal orphanage and Father uses the children much more than she loves them out of the goodness of her heart" for forever now. Finally, I'm about to see why Tartaglia and Scara's lines about her are like that! It's been long overdue!

Cyno's second story quest I'm not as hyped about, but I'm still very interested in. He's got a lot of lore he's sitting on and it finally looks like we're peeking into it. Plus the return of the Sumeru gang! Maybe Kaveh will even have a rerun, a whole year after his release... No, let's not be too optimistic.

#anon #ask #answer #may this version finally fix the fandom's alarming lack of reading comprehension #how did so many people even come to the conclusion that arlecchino is just a good father who loves her children very much #and totally isn't making them dependent on her through affection and the concept of family and then using them #i guess i shouldn't be surprised and yet i always am #but yeah! more fatui! finally arlecchino being as scary as the others' lines about her made me hope she'd be! even some tartaglia a little!#glad he's doing good #and then more desert lore and the return of our little gang #everyone's like 4ggravate this 4ggravate that and completely ignoring collei also being there #this is 5pread if anything don't exclude her like that #anyway yeah hyped #cautiously hyped because there's always the scary possibility of mihoyo pulling a raiden #and making playable arlecchino much more tame and watered down #so i'm waiting for her lines to leak #and once they do i can either properly explode or deflate #what about you anon #did you enjoy the trailer?#genshin

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demifiendcruithne · 9 months

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'i tidied your room while you were gone' 'ok do you remember where you put anything' 'probably not'

why

#like. i in theory appreciate the cleaning. but in practise you KNOW i have adhd that i don't have proper treatment going for yet #you know i can't find anything unless it's where i put it and half the time not even then #and where the HECK did you put my controller i want to play digital devil saga and cry on a discord call with my partner #well i'd rather actually still be there but you get my point #i hate it here. i am so glad i'm moving next month

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