#and the inherent intensity of it bc hello it's them

[hello-eeveev]

I imagine Essek had this moment of recognition with Astrid and Eadwulf while they were all in the Blooming Grove, similar to how Kima was like “sword lesbian recognize sword lesbian” with Yasha. They all looked at each other and went “neutral evil wizard with complicated feelings for Caleb and a weird relationship to their homeland recognize neutral evil wizard with complicated feelings for Caleb and a weird relationship to their homeland,” and they didn’t need to discuss it any further. Their relationship is not affectionate at all, but it is not hostile. It can’t even really be called professional. It’s just there, and it’s a relationship of few words, but enough understanding.

And Astrid. Astrid Beck, my most beloved. Her relationship with Caleb hurts, if she’s being honest. But so does her relationship with Eadwulf, even though it’s a different kind of hurt. She is just full of trauma and I don’t think there is anything in her life that isn’t filtered through it, so everything is just kinda painful.

But I imagine that after taking on the role of Archmage, Astrid feeds Essek just enough intel to steer clear of the Assembly's ire, but they don't talk at all beyond that. So like, they don't really know anything about each other, but they are still offering up a lot of trust. It creates this weird intimacy of knowing someone's greatest secrets (Astrid, about Essek) and having seen them at their lowest point (Essek, about Astrid) and sharing a weakness (both of them, for Caleb). But at the same time, there is a massive divide between them that, for a myriad of reasons, will never ever be bridged. They both know this, so they won't even try.

They do not have a relationship, but there is still so much to it, you feel me?

[wisteria-lodge]

lion primary + slightly burnt bird secondary

Hello ! I did the quiz twice with slightly different results and I wanted to have your opinion cause I'm having trouble figuring it out. I tried to keep it short, but it's 4 pages on my google sheet i'm sorry, if it's too long I'll cute some parts there's not problem ! 

Also, I hope it's the right "place" to send it, I wasn't sure. 

You're doing great, although all that apologizing his making me think we're going to run into some burning here.

PRIMARY 

Lion: “Lions are probably the most likely to forgive their enemies, if those enemies seem to repent and change.” → I always say that it’s how you end that matters, not who you were before. 

I mean, I would hope so. That's a human thing. The real question is what proof will you take that someone has really changed. That's where we start getting into primaries.

“For a Badger, it is not about sides or repentance; it is about the inherent worth of a human being. Badgers who value other people in that way can and often will help someone or forgive someone who they dislike, distrust, or disrespect.” → No way. Not everyone deserves respect or help. It’s better to be right than kind. And being kind to someone bad isn’t right. 

That's intense. And probably points to either a Lion (possibly a Badger defining people out of their community, it depends where the rest of this goes.) But I'm leaning Lion. This knee-jerk 'some people are just BAD' and 'it's WRONG to be kind to bad people,' is a Lion's felt morality. A Badger would be more likely to say something like 'lack of kindness CREATES bad people,' or that the kindness *itself* is moral, rather than the Lion classic 'it's better to be morally right than to keep the peace.'

Snake vs Lion: If Snakes will be loyal to their loved ones and they won’t leave them on any instance, but Lions will be willing to leave friends or family members behind if they disagree on some important values and principles, then I’m stuck between the two.

Family is very important to me. I’ve always been close to my parents, sister and brother. We share the same principles and we generally agree on the same things but there are still differences sometimes that bothers me (ordinary sexism for ex).  At one time, I was so pissed off that I didn’t want to see them during the holidays. But I feel like it’s my responsibility to make them understand my point of view and to educate them on certain subjects. I wouldn't do this much effort for people I barely know, but it’s my family and I don’t want to lose them. I think that if they were really intolerant and opposed to my principles, I would avoid them, but I would be really depressed about it. And I’ll never stop trying to change their minds. 

That's... a really really REALLY Lion primary answer.

I hate losing people. I’ve always wanted a friendship that would lasts forever. But I had this friend, she was “problematic”. But, bc she was my friend, I was avoiding some topics so that we could just chill. But she started to debate at parties, and me, hearing these things, I couldn't stay silent. And then she was like “you’re so annoying, we can’t say anything with you”. I tried to explain to her how I was feeling so she could understand me. But due to our disagreements and her refusal to listen to me, I ended our friendship.

Lion. Lions have a LOT of trouble nurturing friendships or close relationships with people whose stances don't line up with theirs. And it might be hard, but they ultimately feel good and kind of badass about giving those people reduced access to them.

It was a bit hard, but I won’t accept toxic relationships and intolerant people. 

Like, if you were a Snake, you would have just rolled your eyes when your friend started talking politics at parties, and changed the subject. It wouldn't have felt like it mattered all that much. I'm also considering Lion secondary to you, because going into hard-core debate at parties is a *choice,* and not one that everyone would make. Because like you say, it runs the risk of making you seem annoying, a buzzkill, holier-than-thou. But a Lion secondary is willing to take the hit, and they get a lot of their power that way.

“Ultimately, lions are about their principles, not people. No matter the means, if the end is what is needed, then it all works out.” → Principles are important because people are. When you fight for a cause, you fight for people. I think it’s more like Lions fight for people they don’t know personally, who can be different, because it’s right, whereas Snakes for instance can do that but it’s not their priority. As for the end justify the means, again, it depends on the situation. I wouldn’t agree with this every time. Also, I realized that if I knew everyone personally, I wouldn't fight for them, I would fight them.

Oh man, are either are really a Lion secondary, or just REALLY live in your primary.

(The rest of it is just people stuff)

I often wonder if people are worth it. (cf. wonder woman “they don’t deserve our help”). Like, I have the feeling that almost everyone is either sexist, racist, lgbtphobic, etc. when they’re not all of that at the same time. 

You know, I am going to pull up that scene from Wonder Woman. I want to talk about how it fits into this system.

DIANA: My mother was right. She said `the world of men don't deserve you.' That's why she left. They don't deserve our help.

STEVE: It's not about whether they deserve it or not. It's about what you believe. You think I don't get it? All I've seen out there? I wish I could tell you that there was one `bad guy' to blame. Maybe we're all to blame. But that doesn't mean we shouldn't try to do better. (beat) And if you believe this war should stop, Diana, if you want to stop it, then help me stop it.

Diana is a hurting Lion primary. It seems pointless, it seems hopeless, she's lost that burning moral certainty she had in the beginning. She doesn't even know if she wants to end the war anymore. But Steve is as Badger as Badger can get. He says it's a trap to talk about who 'deserves' saving, because everyone contributes to the whole, and all you can do push that whole back, or further into the light.

But that doesn't make sense to Diana. She's not really part of the whole, after all (she's both a really loud Lion, and an Amazon.) The argument that *does* make sense to her is the one she expresses later on.

DIANA: It's not about deserve... It's about what you believe... and I believe in love --

If you're a Lion, you *have* to believe in something, you just do. And Diana doesn't believe in people. She doesn't have to. She believes that love makes things better, and so she will love the world.

I believe that reformism is a tool when you have nothing else to ameliorate people’s conditions of life, but that only a revolution can change the system. But revolutions are violent, deadly, and even though I support it, would I be brave enough to give up my privileges, my life, my dreams, to fight for what’s right? I hope so. 

 I’ve always thought of Lion as the “activist." And I try to fight for what’s right. One day when I was a kid, my dad told me about the workers in the UK who went on strike for ONE YEAR in 1984-1985. He said some of them were so poor they had to eat rats and I was so shocked and admirative of their bravery that I still remember it years later. I’m always wondering if I could be as brave as them, and honestly, I don’t think so. But I try to be.

Strikes work. And I dunno. Everyone does suck, at least a little, and we should all do what we can to make ourselves healthier, wiser, better educated versions of ourselves. But that's kind of the point of Wonder Woman, and why it has to be set during World War I. People are capable of insane evil. But they're also capable of intense good, and if you burn it all down, you burn down the good too.

I try with small things, like saying what I think, not letting an injustice be unpunished. For example, my mother’s boyfriend said sexist and racist stuff so I stood up. I also try to do this at parties. It’s not easy bc i’m often portrayed as a buzz killer, a feminazi or else. But I feel really bad when I don’t do it, I feel guilty.  

You feel morally in the wrong (because you're a really loud Lion.) I'd watch that retribution streak though. That's something I tend to see with Exploded Lions.

Lion vs Bird:  Concerning my beliefs and principles, I like to have an opinion about everything bc I don’t believe in neutrality. Like, it’s okay not to know what to think about something, but it has to be temporary. I inform myself a lot. I want to know the truth, I believe there is one. Of course, reality is complex. But that doesn’t mean that there are not fair and unfair situations. Sometimes, it can be both. And for certain topics, I knew something was wrong even before getting some information and arguments, just cause I felt it was wrong. 

We've definitely got a little Bird secondary going on here. Could be a model you love. Could just be your secondary.

“They can often feel extremely strongly about something… but have trouble breaking down their argument or explaining why (at least in the moment). You’re more likely to hear something like, “it’s wrong because it’s just wrong” from a Lion. They have internal voices which are very important to them, and matter a lot when they make decisions.” → THIS !!!! For example with death penalty, I felt it was wrong without knowing anything around this debate. I only read and did research after. Sometimes, I do some research on a topic because I don’t have an opinion on it, other times I do this but I already have an opinion and I'm searching for arguments to justify it. 

Lion primary. And from one Lion primary to another, beware any black-and-white worldview. It's a thought-killer. But yeah, sometimes you have to go though the process of deciding *why* you think something.

“A Bird can explain the structure of ‘why’ they believe what they believe (and will probably be thrilled you asked. More importantly, they will be happy to field any questions and have a discussion about it. A Lion might do this… but it would be an all-around more stressful conversation, and not a fun thing to do over brunch.” → Reading this, I thought about all the debates I had about feminism, rape culture, the use of racist or homophobic slurs and yes this is stressful, because people say horrible things.

Of course, you're fighting from a place or morality (not practicality or utility, which is always easier.) And, chances are when you're debating these things, you're fighting for your survival and of course that's stressful.

(it's just not a fair fight, when only one party is risking getting hurt)

It’s not that I doubt my arguments and analysis, just that people are not easily convinced, even with facts. 

My take on this is that very few people are convinced by facts, and almost never in-the-moment. Debates are not meant to change the mind of the person you're debating. They're meant to change the mind of any observers that might be on the fence, or to get into someone's mind like a splinter and just sort of - wait their chance.

So yeah, don't let racist jokes slide (I wouldn't) but also don't... feed the trolls. There are a lot of people who want to make bad-faith arguments just designed to get you angry. And you can't teach people who don't want to learn. Just do your thing, be visible, and when those people are ready - they know where to find you.

“When Lions change their minds it’s a much messier situation, and takes a lot longer.” → Some of my opinions have changed, evolved. It’s unpleasant to see that we were wrong, but not everyone can be right every time. The important thing to me is to realize your faults and act better. But yeah, sometimes, it hurts. 

It does. But it sounds like you already know that the most important thing is to remember that you might be working with flawed/incomplete data just the same as everyone else, and *always* might be wrong.

“There are also [Birds] who believe that truth is discoverable, and there is a universal, objective truth, and that they have found it. Maybe it’s not perfect, but it’s solid, and they’re sure that if they explain it sufficiently to someone else, that person would also see the truth of it. [Bird] Primaries also value internal consistency. Hypocrisy means that something is off, and wrong, and it irritates them.” →  Hypocrisy is one of the things I hate the most specifically because it’s pure lies, denial and bad faith. I always make sure that I’m always in the truth and on the right path, and that I don’t let myself get carried away by my ego or else. Not always easy. 

I know that 'hypocrisy' is often held up as THE thing that most annoys Birds, but all your language here is really Lion. 'Denial' 'Bad faith' - that's feeling something is right and deliberately going against it (a lion would *hate* that.) And really intense, exploded Lions tend to get swallowed up by their ego... while intense exploded Bird almost have no ego at all.

 SECONDARY

I think the first time I did the quiz I had bird secondary, but the second time I did it, I had this result : Burned Snake Secondary.

Okay, that's really interesting. I totally see the Bird, but I never would have guessed *snake.*

It said that:  “It doesn’t feel deceitful to a Snake to change to fit the needs of their environment: to be kind with this person, forceful with this one, erudite to the next. This adaptability can be applied to manipulation, influence, and power, but a Snake secondary can just as easily focus their efforts on maintaining friendships, making people happy, encouraging positive social change, or streamlining communication.” → I’d feel bad if I was being nice to someone I hate except if the point behind this fake nice attitude was to trick them. Because then, it would be justified and not just because I’m scared to say what I think of them.

This seems to tie back to your primary. It's not uncommon for Idealists (Lion and Bird) to be REALLY against lying - even a little bit, in any circumstance. It's very Kant. BUT, if your primary was okay with lying for some reason... then of course lying would be all right.

But "being nice to someone I hate [because] the point behind this fake nice attitude was to trick them" isn't a Snake sentiment, because that wouldn't feel fake to a Snake. It wouldn't feel deceitful, it wouldn't feel like lying, it would feel like just a communication style.

If anything, what you're describing here sounds *more* like a situation specific Actor Bird - a you have a Nice!You, in order to get things from people you hate.

As a teen, I wanted to be myself,

Human stuff. (But that kind of existential how-do-I-define-myself angst is especially common with Lion primary.)

but I also wished for people to see my worth. I was searching for others’ validation and it often led me to elaborate a bunch of strategies to get noticed and “admired” where I needed to be a bit hypocritical sometimes. But this whole era is hard to explain. 

Glory Hound Lion primary. (It's common, it's a classic.)

“A burned Snake secondary might want to be flexible, adaptable, and clever, but they feel like they are (or like people think they are) clumsy, unobservant, or blunt.” → I sometimes feel like I’m dumb in the way like I’m not particularly cunning but I wish to be. 

Look... everyone thinks Snake secondaries are cool...

SNAKE : “They naturally create the mask, the persona, that the situation requires, and shift out of it just as easily.” → I try to put on masks to appear on my best day, especially with people I just met. But it’s so hard to keep it, I usually forget how I was supposed to act and talk, and end up being my normal self. But I like the cunning part, I don’t know if i’m good at that but I would love to be. I have this recent example where I wanted to know something about a friend of mine, but it felt weird and rude to ask her directly so I bypassed the topic and she told me what I wanted to know. 

I think all this is just being garden-variety polite. (Which you talk about as basically as an Actor Bird persona, that you don't especially love.)

I also try to adapt to people in order to convince them. I know how they can react and I adapt my speech to them, because if I don’t, they’re gonna reject it directly. But I don’t think I’m snake bc I can’t restrain myself from being myself. For example, when I was like 12, I was in this awkward situation where my friends and I were hanging out, and one of my “friends” mocked me, while the others said nothing. It was a habit : this girl bullied me but we still hung out bc we had the same friends. It happened to me again a couple of years ago. So I was shutting my mouth bc I was afraid of losing all my friends if I stood up. But eventually one day, I was so angry that I told them how I felt. Both times, one month is all I could endure of their bullying. And both times, when I spoke, it just slipped out. I really had zero control. And even though I was afraid of the consequences, it felt good to say the truth and not let them walk over me. 

Hmmm. I mean, no one likes being bullied. And just blurting out stuff unwisely because you're angry, that's just a person thing. It didn't make you feel strong after all, it make you feel out of control. Which is why it doesn't seem to point to your secondary.

In general, you seem pretty comfortable with the single-player version of your Bird secondary. But you're in process of getting comfortable with the multi-player version. You... don't totally trust your ability to use it yet, but I'm not sure I would call it burned.

I also had a LION MODEL which says that: “Lion values honesty and integrity. If you model Lion secondary, you also value these things and like to live by them. You like to be honest, straightforward, and consistent-- but you wouldn't feel guilty for abandoning those values in the service of other, higher priorities. It would be nice if you could always say what you mean and stick with it-- but sometimes you have to be circumspect, restrained, or practical, and you don't feel bad about that.” And elsewhere I red about Lions secondary that : “Every other secondary will act or wear different personas, but to a Lion that feels immoral.” → I don’t think it’s immoral, but sometimes i’m tired of pretending. In fact, I like to put on a mask and play a part if it’s to manipulate people I don’t like, or if it’s just to obtain information that I can’t have just by asking. But I hate situations where I have to be polite and pretend that I like people I can’t stand. For example, I’ll have to have dinner with my mother’s boyfriend who said racist stuff and I’ll have to be polite and it’s going to make me feel bad/guilty. I try to be more honest. 

When you HAVE to do things, it make them a lot less fun. That's just being human. Authenticity is - a presentation that you have given your consent to, free and clear, in the knowledge that you could have just as easily said no. It's fun to play a part and be nice when it's you deciding to do that all on your own, to get something you want. But playing a part and being nice because you HAVE to, because you have no other choice... no one likes that.

 LIONS : “They charge into situations and have faith in their intuition” → I can feel in my gut that a situation is unfair

That's your primary talking.

but for general topics in everyday life, when I have a choice to make, I can’t decide. Choices are hard for me. I’m not an improviser, I plan everything. But sometimes, I wish I could let go of things. 

I'm really doubling down on Bird secondary for you. And feeling sort of stuck, incapable of making a practical decision - that's something I see with Bunt secondaries, *especially* with Burnt Bird secondaries.

“Lions solve problems by being committed (or stubborn.)” → I made myself a promise when I was a child, to never give up. I don’t even feel like I have a choice, I don’t like to give up on things or people, so I will always try. I only give up when I have no other choice.

That's your primary talking again. (You have a very loud primary)

BIRDS: When I was a kid, I wanted to be the smartest in the world like Einstein and thought that knowing everything by heart was enough 😂

Ooooh... young Bird. Such classic young Bird secondary.

Sometimes I’m scared not to have time to learn enough in my lifetime. And one of the reasons why I want to realize documentaries as my job, is to learn, and teach people. I want to give people information and try to make them understand things, and maybe change their minds, make them see the truth. 

I think you'd be a fantastic documentarian.

(Also? You've collected quotes about the different primaries and secondaries from at least three different sources, collected them here, and arranged your response around them. A very Bird secondary problem solving method.)

Since I was a child, it’s really hard for me to take decisions because first, I want everything lmao, and secondly, I'm always making sure I have all the information and I'm always waiting for the "perfect moment" so I just freeze in place.

A lot of Bird secondaries have this problem. And hate the idea that they're never going to know everything, or KNOW that something is the perfect moment. A Lion primary comes in handy here - sometimes you just have to kick your butt into doing *something*... because doing nothing is just as much as choice as everything else.

I love to-do lists. I love traveling and I make super detailed lists about the countries I want to visit and the things I wanna do and see in order not to forget anything. Because I don’t wanna miss a thing. I’m always afraid of wasting my time and life. I’m not against improvisation sometimes, but not when it could waste the only chance I have to do/see something that really matters to me. I know I want control over everything, and I’m a bit of a perfectionist too, often leading me disappointed. 

Bird. And watch that perfectionist streak. You'll never do anything if you only accept immediate perfection.

Badger : “Rather than an integrity of performance (as with Lion Secondaries, who must be themselves or wither), there is an integrity of method with Badger. Things must be earned. Interactions and achievements must be fair.”→  I do want to earn my success. But when it comes to decisions that have an impact on people, I wouldn’t mind using manipulation and lies. If, for example, the only way to legalize abortion at some point in one’s country was to threatened anti-abortion voters to make them change their votes, I would do it, because first I don’t mind if they got scared and most of all, because the stakes are too high.

Kind of an interesting way to end, okay. And let's unpack this.

First off, it's definitely not a Badger answer. A Badger would say that a victory built on an unstable foundation, like a foundation of fear, of propaganda, of misinformation, is never going to be a *lasting* victory. But Badgers generally take longer to get where they're going, and sometimes you *do* need something to happen *now* or someone's going to die, which is pretty much the only place threats of violence have. I mean, fear is just a bad motivator. It's that whole consensual behavior thing. If you only do something because you're afraid of what will happen to you if you don't, then you just get resentful and better at hiding.

You also like these hypothetical power fantasies. "If the only way to legalize abortion was to blackmail/exhort/threaten the friends and family of the people behind an anti-abortion bill, would you do it?" It's a fun philosophical question in a trolley problem kind of way, but practically - that's never going to be the case because the world isn't that simple. I get that you're young, I get that you feel powerless, I get that the idea of scaring these people that say things that scare you feels good. But I get protective of young firebrand Lion primaries, because we *do* need you, and I *don't* want you to burn yourself out. OR hit that "Everyone not with me is an enemy" mindset, which just narrows down choices and possibilities.

Stay strong. Find some good friends. Don't let your mom's boyfriend give you a hard time. You're going to be okay.

[roobylavender]

hello faatima your mind is very sexy to me so I would like to know what's your opinion on this argument

https://twitter.com/aquariahsrising/status/1752785184414699923?t=CqpcbbqgbtKgPwREC9dSIw&s=19

i'm ngl this was the last thing i expected to see when i opened that linkjgdksjglgsf 😭 i do get the immediate irritation at fujos like esp considering their rep is very commonly associated with shounen manga and the consequent misunderstanding and/or complete avoidance of main female characters as a result, but i also feel like i have to disagree with this person.. like it's one thing to point this out on a case-by-case basis and quite another to paint what is a large swath of gay fans looking for gay rep with a broad brush stroke. it's not to say these issues don't exist nor that misogyny (internalized or not) isn't prevalent within them but i think to go with the base assumption that anyone into gay fanon within shounen (or other comparable media) is trying to make it into a "peak feminism" thing (going off of their og tweet once you sort through all of the quotes) or is painting over it in hetero colors is a bit of a misdirect. gay people look for gay content bc they're gay. you can certainly make arguments as to the fact that repeatedly looking for gay rep in shounen specifically is a lost cause and that it would be ideal to support more work where the gay rep is canonically there. but these series are popular. a lot of people grow up with them. they attach what they want to see to what they're into, and so on and so forth

i think it's completely valid to complain about some of the things that leads to on an individual basis. you've seen me do this several times re: the naruto fandom's treatment of sakura and how they tend to misread a lot of things about her arc as an excuse to not have to engage with it at all. but i don't think there's any stock in implying m/f ships are comparatively higher up on the feminist ladder merely bc they happen to have a woman in them. i enjoy sasusaku bc i'm into tragedy and miscommunication as narrative devices. my attachment to sakura certainly factors into that enjoyment but i don't think it's inherently more feminist to prefer it to sasunaru merely bc sakura is there. what's more worth pointing out is how gay shounen fans almost exclusively look to ships between boys and almost never to ships between girls despite the latter also being a perfect avenue to explore non-heteronormativity; or how anti-intellectualism contributes to the way we engage with media at large and this includes many people's unwillingness to engage with female characters who get the shorter end of the stick in narrative bc making the effort is hard and can take critical thought; or how the misogynist vices of an author are often projected onto a female character even though she possesses no actual agency, and those aren't vices we should internalize ourselves

to go back to the og tweet you sent, hypersexualization of what is very often children's media is very much an issue, but i think that has less to do with purported fetishization and more to do with purity culture (aka the real purity culture, wherein the obsession with children's chastity drives mass conservatism and subsequently intense sexual repression of young people who need an outlet and latch onto unrealistic standards of sexual relationships bc it's what they have access to)

[dissociativedoe]

hi!! wondering if u had any insight or thoughts about why “narcissistic abuse doesn’t exist” ?

i saw ur reblog and i’d love to understand! my childhood trauma was i thought it to be believe even more intense bc both my parents were narcissists etc

Hello, thank you for asking!

I'm really bad at phrasing things on my own, but this post explains it pretty well!

Basically though, even though the word "narcissist" existed before the diagnosis of Narcissistic Personality Disorder was a thing, it's become very hard to separate the two, and the word "narcissist" is generally used to refer to someone with NPD.

Calling a family member a narcissist when they don't actually have NPD is sort of in the same vein as saying someone is "so bipolar," or describing someone as "psychotic" when they don't actually have psychosis.

Narcissists, people with NPD, are most often victims of abuse themselves (quite a lot of PDs stem from trauma). Not all people with NPD are abusive (just like not all people with any other disorder are abusive), and continuing that narrative of "narcissist = abusive" furthers the stigma of NPD and does a lot of damage.

I work best with examples so... It's like, I was abused by a man with bipolar. But I'm not going to call it "bipolar abuse" because not only does that create stigma against bipolar and make it seem like people with bipolar are inherently abusive, but it's also because the bipolar itself isn't what made it abusive, it's just because he was a shitty, manipulative guy. Not all people with bipolar are going to be abusive like he was (especially if they're in treatment), so it's unfair to push that narrative, right?

We have a whole disctionary full of descriptors at our disposal. If it was emotional abuse, call it that. If you were neglected, call it neglect. If your family member was self-centered, manipulative, or just an asshole, then just call them that. There are lots of other words you can use without further stigmatizing personality disorders.

[stray-tori]

Arcane S1 | live comments compilation

I watched Arcane, and spammed a discord channel so here’s all my reactions.

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Finally started arcane and the slow motion beating up makes me laugh more than anything sdyddssxf

Idk if sths wrong with me but it kinda loses the inherent oomf and panic to it, for me.

i felt like it was trying to show intimidating it was for Powder (don't know her actual name yet. unless that is her actual name wheeze) to watch but HHH idk i just have my intuition shdhshsh.

Also holy hell Vi pls put those two strands of hair sticking to your cheek away they and their small constant shadow irritate me so much

these two hairs just stick there for their life help 

I am wrecking my tiny brain about the technique used for this though. I'm guessing a mix between 3d models or at least 2d mapped onto it and 2d puppeting/rigging

"were gonna be fine right?" Yup totally - until the blue stone thingies chilling in the ocean explode on y'all.

Sir could you decide between "it's good that it's gone" and "you shouldn't come back from a job empty handed" What a complete 180 lmao

NOOO NOT THE OVERHEARING ONE PART OF THE CONVO AND MISUNDERSTANDING. MISSCOMMUNICATION HOW MUCH I HATE YOU 

also holy hell the enforcer lady's voice 

Oh boy i sure know who has another piece of evidence and won't show it to Vi and therefore won't know it's good that it's gone bc she just MISUNDERSTOOD *Combusts*

WAIT NO WERE GOOD

Thank god I mean no probably not this will likely go horribly but they talked and she showed the stones THE FUCK whomst is this guy and why does he have berserk-go-potions

WHY DO YOU HAVE THE STONES ON YOU NOOO

Well hello pretty rich lady [Mel]

Whoa i rly love the comp of them searching the bar cellar. We don't know where the kids are hiding and each look he takes is framed from inside the place. Big suspense. Love it

So many victors, no victorias Also oh no

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= EP 3 =

Nooo vandor :(( enforcer lady is right everyone wants to have war pls don't go sjsjsjsj nvm take him away holy fuck what is happening

NOO THEYRE DOING THE SLOW MOTION THING AGAIN ADAESRSFE this is serious brain goddamn it dxfsfeg

Whoa the shot of Victor writing on the board from the side with him starting a line close to the camera

"... Crack it up..." shdhsjsj I like victor. "wait a minute this isn't my bedroom" VICTOR ILU

[ Tori found a fave ]

ANOTHER VICTOR HELP I mean there's only 2 but it's funny that it happened twice

I also rly like the council lady whose name i couldnt understand yet shshdh Pretty. And i like the way she talks idk

also Nooo enforcer lady :( rip to her voice

Holy hell that violent crying was so good. Like... Intense and upsetting but just... Idk so real? I don't remember seeing something like that from someone in animated media before... esp a main character. Or maybe I'm blanking on it

Eyyy they utilized slow.motion in a way that didn't make me laugh shdhsh

the monster drink is actually terrifying holy hell. He also seemed kinda out of it when he was given it.... Poor guy.

Also oh NOOO WHY DID SHE THINK THAT WAS A GOOD IDEA aaaaaaa

Also thank god for putting Vi’s hair down on the side No more infuriating cheek hairs. I won

Oh shshdh Silco for dad? I hope that's his name i think so sjdhdj Yeah this is no bueno.

It's also kinda the whole miscommunication concept again. Wanted to go back for her but Mr. Enforcer was like Nope. But i mean i guess that's good bc they probably would have died but oh no the emotional baggage

I'm just kinda like. Laying here trying to process all that...

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= EP 4 =

Dang what a glow up tho

Victor... Why you panicking about the decade... Do you not have the time? My tpn-taught alarm bells are going off.

I actually cried only once yet and it was after Benzos death when Vi hugged the white haired kid.

Say about Silco what you want but he asked for both sides of the situation. I respect that.

NO I HATE BEING RIGHT. VICTOR :((( HE COUGHING. Aaaa TvT

Also holy hell jinx needs help The visuals are so cool though

excuse me where’s my man's victor opinion on all the council stuff happening >:(

ENFORCER LADY WOOO

Excuse me Jason (jup i thought “jayce” (jas) was a nickname for Jason, kill me now) and the council lady?? I don’t feel like he had that chemistry with her so far?? and i dont think it’s that I don’t notice because I think he has good "chemistry” (platonic) with blue hair. And I'd argue victor too, though that’s moreso my fond-ness of their setup and meta-dynamic I guess. ... And they were (science) partners :((( Plus the angst of dying :( sad

OH EXCUSE ME YOU ARE NOT DOING THE CUTS BETWEEN THOSE TWO THINGS OH I HATE THIS I LOVE IT BUT :(((

thank good he didn't fully die though i would have thrown my phone out the window

I will say as epic as this is i do think it's quite jarring to realize that of all the previous main cast, Milo and Claggor died (and Vandor and Benzo). Notice something? No hot girls. Milo and Claggor both had fun non-made-to-be-hot designs, one chubby and the other just... Like he's a nice design and I liked him but he ain't the prettiest guy, just saying. And then they died leaving a cast of majorly super attractive girls and while i awooga at that i also just. Man. Why? Everyone is just seemingly made to be attractive if they're part of the main cast. I just think it sucks that two of the most stand out designs just got killed off. It almost feels intentional or like "well they'll die anyway so we can make them not conventually pretty". Idk, not a fan of that...

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= EP 6 =

Smol Victor!!

Hold up that's the guy that was with Silco isn't it shdhsjsj oh noo

"She's dying" Well victor can relate to that WHEEZE

(victor talking to the smol council member about legacy) GREAT IM CRYING.

Has my dip into consuming gay Media tipped my scale of het romances bc boi this feels so artificial to me shshshs Like i love them both individually but somehow with them together I'm just like *squints*

[added later:]

I just don’t think it came very naturally, to me. and on top of that it feels very politically motivated. The one genuine moment was when he told her Victor was dying, to me. And with them going into Caitlyn being into girls and the somewhat clear connection between Caitlyn and Vi, but I don’t think the same has held true for a male counterpart? I ackknowledge that there aren’t a lot of men in the main cast, and I don’t want to say that non-het men have to be included; but I guess I just felt that there was a quite good setup for a deeper connection to be explored with Victor and Jayce, and instead both of them got a female love interest (though I didn’t think Victor was interested in her, but still she existed). Now, I know that I’m just seeing things, and I don’t particularly wish for this relationship to have the sort of energy I was hoping it could, but I guess to me what happened there was as if Vi and Caitlyn got their first trip together and then they’d both gotten someone else to be paired off with.

...

Mang i rly love Jayces talk about how he can't do anything now. I'm not sure if i even see them romantically i just rly like the whole setup and dynamic of it... I have this thing where i kind of want to see a "ship" just as... Being each other's special person..not necessarily romantic/sexual but just... Idk. Priority over others,i guess? It's hard to explain, it's kinda like TPN trio for me ig? Tho that leans into romantic sometimes but i guess that sort of weird middle ground between the two.

WAIT THATS HER PAINTING?? I THOUGHT THAT WAS THE BG HOLY HELL LADY BIG TALENT.

okay i know I'm weird about seeing gay things but between last eps cuts between deathTM and the deedTM and now transitioning from her body centered to his? Idk man sus. There's definitely intent to inherently associate Victor with their blooming romance. And i think it's more meant to contrast that he is all alone BUT SHJSSJ.

Hmm. "It's not what you think. She's with an enforcer" i wonder if she rly does think that or just says it like that to mess with Jinx. Because i could see both shsusjsjs. But i felt Vi was pretty obvious in showing she wanted to get her back.

SILCO DONT YOU DARE KILL THE LITTLE GIRL IS2G

Victor is so awkward help i love him when science partner leaves :( sad life.

OOH ITS THE SCAMMED DUDE. HI FRIEN

THE HUG :((( i thought she wasn't real bc they weren't showing her wound sjshs.... Man jinx... Please let her explain... Aww well I'm glad that she didn't want her to be taken away at least.

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= EP 7 =

Wait is this the white haired kid-

IT IS. IM SLOW

Victor no pls i can't take it if they make him a low-key antagonist or he dies as a deformed creature please :((

"love [and legacy] are the sacrifices we make for progress" "Jayce will understand" HELLO?? OH MY HEART-

NO

VICTOR NOO

Jayce go back to the lab pls

oh my god did jinx just explode sth on herself acfdgfd- if so how did she survive that

Also another cool instance of slow motion

= EP 8 = Silco seems to genuinely care for Jinx it's kinda endearing.

And also i love how now the same thing is happening to Silco. People arent satisfied with how he does things, tho to be fair for different reasons than Vandor - but i think it's interesting how the children thing kinda ties them together. I wonder if Silco will have a moment of empathy or like giving a goal up or sth because of how he grew attached to Jinx...

LMAO IS THAT A HOWL REFERENCE

ECHO'S (im writing every name based on how i hear it forgive me, i can’t hear) ALIVE WOOO

EY VICTORS THING WORKED. POG. UH. Victor why are you doing more- stop there, oh god

also Jinx' braids are cool but holy hell do they look inconvenient

ah yes, let the random BG character who of course likes him find victor doing this thank you

WAIT NO I DIDNT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN TO HER HOLY HELL welp i am in shock.

oh no caitlyn

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= EP 9 =  wait last episode oh no

hmm i understand that Vi is hardened but I'm quite shocked how unphased she is by the death. despite her own losses... idk oh okay nvm she did seem upset there

tough stuff... im generally always agreeing with "war bad" but in things like these, is there a really a peaceful way to deal with it? give him everything he wants? I mean he just wants to make it better... but it could always backfire later, shady businesses being made, all that... it’s difficult.

try to kill the arcane, arcane will push back

Him putting the ashes and being like “I don’t even know where you’d like it” :((( that is... so sad. poor victor. and he'S STILL DYING ON TOP OF EVERYTHING GODDAMN IT

NO THE PARALLEL SHUT UP. MUTUAL SUICIDE PREVENTION HELLO??? sobs. falls onto the ground.

LIKE I LOVE MEL BUT CAN SHE GIVE ME THIS??? NO SHE CAN’T :/

the way Jayce agreed about the weapon but he actually meant the hex core... the hex core is far more dangerous than the weapon... idk why it obliterated her (bc no runes on her?) but if that gets weaponized holy fuck

oh man look who's getting the same speech Vandor got. i guess there's no appeasing anyone ever ahh

Jinx protecc. this deal would benefit him too, right? but he wont do it bc of Jinx oh man

(council freaking out) NO NOT THE UNINTENTIONALLY COMEDIC SLOW MOTION AGAIN HELPPPPP HAHAHA

listen im not a fan of silco either Jinx, but he didnt rly wanna betray you PLEASE

"we're missing someone" walks up with a plate NO YOU DID NOT. JINX IS2G

HOLY HELL YOU GAVE ME A HEARTATTACK

im :((( can just every other part of silco die and we can keep the dad part? I’m aware he’s not great and not handling her mental state well but they could grow together idk sdhjsd-

is she gonna shoot herself i live in fear.

well thats worse. but i mean the peace wouldnt have happened anyway bc Silco wouldnt have given them Jinx, oh man

.

... i uh

[meetmeatthecoda]

It’s bonkers how Liz and Ressler can literally have sex and then still be on a last name basis with each other. Even Red calls her Elizabeth lmao. But seriously, if K—nler is endgame, is this really the writers’ idea of romance? Barely any buildup, BOOM they have sex, then these awkward, forced ‘moments’ between them? *deep sigh* Idk, maybe I’m being harsh, but I guess I feel like the least they could do (if they won’t give us Lizzington) is give us something decent to watch. What are your thoughts/theories on this mess?

Hello, dear anon!! ❤️ Firstly, omg, I know!! All the “Hey, Keen.” and “What, Ressler?” is so intensely romantic 🙄🙄🙄 The thought of Red calling Liz just “Keen” is so laughable to me. As you so rightly say, he at least calls her by her full name, which is much more telling imo than any robotic surname crap. (Plus, he would never call her “Keen” bc it’s her fake name from her fake marriage to her fake husband, but I digress.) Regardless of whether it’s Lizzie or Elizabeth or Agent Keen, it still sounds like music coming out of Red’s mouth. Whether that music is a funeral march or a symphonic poem... well, it varies 😒

ANYWAY you make such a good point!! If we’re striving to be objective (which is a pretty unobtainable goal for me at this point), there is  n o t h i n g  inherently romantic about K**nler. I’m sorry, but to me - no matter which way you slice it - there’s been absolutely NO romantic coding with these two over SEVEN SEASONS, really only a handful of scenes together at all that mostly consist of “STOP! FBI!”, and very few personal/meaningful moments. And of those VERY FEW moments, they all appear to me as platonic/work friends/colleagues. And listen, I’ve always liked Ressler and Liz as BFFs. Liz always offered a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on about Audrey in the good ol’ days and Ressler did the same about T*m, plus I’ve always loved how Ressler offered to “rough him up” in that gruff, brotherly way. There was never any jealousy between them at their respective romantic partners, like there always is with those Will They/Won’t They ships. And I think pilot!Ressler hating Liz’s guts gradually morphing into them being best buds over the ensuing seasons is super cute. But it’s never screamed “romance” to me. There’s been no anticipation, no build-up, no close calls, no nothing. My prime ship example for that sort of thing is Caskett from Castle. They spent 4 seasons building those two up with plenty of close calls and jealousy keeping them apart for as long as they physically could before they finally came together with fireworks. There has been zero of that with K**nler. (Lizzington on the other hand? Yes. Not to mention all the Lizzington suggestions FROM RESSLER: ”Sounds like someone’s jealous Uncle Red’s got a new crush”, “You in the dog house or something?” - but I’m slipping into my Lizzington googles, so I’ll stop there.) Not to mention I’ve never really liked Ressler as a character. Sorry, no shade to Diego, but it’s not exactly a dynamic character. And TPTB have a marvelous reputation of tabling characters until their designated plot lines and episodes, with no measurable growth or continuity in between, so it always feels forced to me. To just throw a long forgotten character - whose only role in the past 11 episodes has been driving around and answering phone calls to catch the weekly blacklister - in my face once a season and say, “LOOK, WE THOUGHT OF SOMETHING FOR THIS DUDE, REMEMBER HE CAN TALK?!” and expecting me to feel invested is wildly unrealistic imo.

In conclusion, anon, I don’t think you’re being harsh at all, rest assured that I have been much harsher in tags, DMs, and especially my own head about this so-called “romance”. I think you’re definitely correct that they could at least give us something decent to watch with time, a true romantic build-up, and a satisfying culmination. I mean, I know this is primarily an FBI-mystery-mythology-government-action-procedural-show but... AS SOMEONE ONCE RIGHTLY SAID, “I think it’s a love story.” and babe? ..... this ain’t it. I’m sorry, Lizzington remains the only pairing on this show that has had a veritable phone book of romantic tropes written for them, including - but certainly not limited to - tense undercover operations, dancing, jealousy at other partners, killing for each other, actual DECLARATIONS of LOVE,  T H E  L I S T  G O E S  O N, not to mention I’m of the steadfast opinion that they were the initial endgame for the show, and that’s a hill I am prepared to die on. I HAVE and WILL go down with this doomed ship until the end of my days. Amen.

As for my thoughts/theories on this mess, I am flattered that you’re interested enough to ask, and I think I probably gave you way more than you bargained for in the ^above^ rage!typing 😂 The only things I would venture to add are: 1) K**nler is a barely a ship by my admittedly high standards and, if it is indeed intended to be The Great Romance™ of the show, TPTB did a piss poor job of making it AT ALL satisfying 2) The current “plot line” is an inconsistently written, infuriating, OOC across the board, “twists” pulled out of a hat, PIECE OF CRAP mess, and I’m so over it and 3) I have genuinely no idea how they plan on digging themselves out of the sizable RED VS. LIZ hole CRATER they’ve dug themselves into and, if they plan on having even a mildly successful season 9, they had better claw their way out soon bc, by all accounts, pretty much nobody likes pathetically-evil!Liz and most are rooting for heart-of-gold-&-incredibly-sympathetic!Red in every single way. Sooooo... idk. I’m really bored by the whole RuSsIaN oPeRaTiVe arc and I wish we could fast-forward to the season finale to see if they plan on making any effort at all to improve the core relationship of the show, or if they have indeed given Liz up to mannequin-man and revenge-filled-rage-induced-mentally-unstable-out-of-left-field-evil-Kaplan-hallucinations and Red over to simply sad-lonely-romantic-tired-puppy-dog-who-deserves-better.

At any rate, thank you dearly for this ask, anon, it turns out I had a lot of negative feelings (surprise, surprise) that needed an outlet and I hope it wasn’t too painful to slog through!! Feel free to send another/more asks to keep the commiserating going!! I have dearly missed asks in what’s left of this fandom, but my ask box is still open!! 🥰 I will continue writing fic and shipping Lizzington pretty much in AU now as, unfortunately, that seems the healthiest and only remaining option 🥲 Much love to you!! ❤️❤️❤️

[kachinnate]

,,,,okay i know i just said i wasn’t going to talk about the deh movie but actually yeah imma talk about it for just a sec bc y’all actually make me legitimately distressed sajkfndsmjkgds

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLQ_A0H1otc i dont have the braincells to do a shot by shot analysis right now but here’s what we’re lookin at

under a readmore because ghhhhhhh

firstly, let me lead with this: yes, from what we know, there’s a lot of things wrong with this movie. 

the worst, in my humble opinion, being the bts treatment of the (very few) actors of color, and the lack altogether of any production team members of color. that’s something that should be acknowledged, talked about, and fucking dug into especially at the current fucking period of time we’re living in. it’s unsurprising, but disgusting nonetheless, and it set this movie up for failure from the very beginning. i’m a white person so by no means so i feel inclined or like i have any authority in saying what one should feel wrt all of that, however i will say if there’s to be a boycott in not watching this movie, that should 100% be the reason why. it’s fully poc’s choice whether or not to forgive the production team or give this movie a chance for the irredeemable shit it did in regards to handling the movie’s production. the movie imo definitely doesn’t deserve their forgiveness, but again, that is not for me to say. 

there’s some little things too that i can’t fully think of off the top of my head - like, the whole making larry connor’s stepdad thing fucking irks me, for example, but, like...... listen.

if you know me like at all, you know my favorite word is nuance.

so, i’m going to say it outright: the way you people are approaching this three minute trailer shows literally.... none?? no nuance ??? is it no-nuance november over here or ???? like i’m begging you i’m BEGGING YOU to put aside your pre-determined prejudices against this movie and like stop pretending to be a renowned film critic for ten seconds because it’s really not as outright fucking abysmal as you are saying!! and also it’s possible to have opinions that aren’t completely fucking polarized to one side because guess what, the deh movie? a piece of media! what is the shit y’all are constantly preaching about having the ability to consume media critically ? because you’re trying to cancel a fucking trailer based on the contents of the trailer alone !!!!! hello !!!!!!!!

media is bound to be problematic. if y’all were as quick to judge any movie as you did this one, guess what you wouldn’t be watching any movies like ever <3 

anyway lets get into the parts that are probably going to get me cancelled lmao 

ben platt - listen. LISTEN. listen i know he’s too old to be reprising evan we ALL know he’s too old to be reprising evan i’ve heard this same argument since the announcement was made we get it we all know. haha he’s a grandpa yes bestie ur so right ur so funny wow. i do agree that we should’ve maybe had a not-ben-platt evan moment but here’s some things to keep in mind: the arguments of “oooh ABF is right there !!!!!!” 1. who’s to say he was available? 2. the environment of a movie is so, SO much different than that of a musical -- as much as you wanna pretend you know everything from just a trailer, there’s no way of knowing what scenes were added that might’ve made the movie like.. idk possibly more intense story-wise not even COUNTING the fact that just inherently a movie set is different than a musical one? like yes ben platt might be just being used as a device but that’s probably not the sole and only reason. Also, if i see One (1) more comment about his FUCKING HAIR 😃 first of all it’s not that deep like... if you’re so distracted by an actor having their hair different that’s on you, but going as far as to call it bad or distracting or being like Vehemently a way about it? y’all i know it’s most likely not your intention but that is literally just ben platt’s natural fuckin ETHNICALLY JEWISH hair sajknfgkjds!!!! i’m not the first to make this point, but like dsjnfkjdsg!??! y’all are being so mean about it and for WHAT? again, maybe not intentional, but it reads as like high key Very antisemetic and you should.... maybe not 😳 be that way

connor. the thing about a trailer is that they don’t show you all the scenes because they want you to come see the movie. right? can we agree on that? all the connor scenes in the trailer had SEVERAL hard cuts, omitting a lot of the scene -- like the computer lab scene! we see the beginning of it, there’s a VERY obvious hard cut, and then he’s running out! in my opinion my first watch through of this trailer i had a very like “:// hmm all these actors feel a lil like dry”, but man oh man the comments ive seen about connor. holy shit guys. this boy gets 7 minutes of stage time in the actual musical, and the whole thing is we DON’T KNOW VERY MUCH ABOUT HIM. not to burst your bubble, and i by no means hate connor, i love me some good connor lives fics and stuff, but everything we write with connor being alive? that is !! speculation on our part !!!! those are headcanons and us using the little context we have!! connor doesn’t have any significant development IN THE SOURCE MATERIAL that is being adapted into a movie !!! you 1. can’t fully judge a character with already limited screentime in a 3 minute trailer, 2. can’t really call what connor has canonically in the musical as in depth character development !! what is his arc then !!!! he pushes evan, goes to the computer lab, has an outcast loner kid moment, gets upset, takes the letter, DIES. sorry stans, that’s just how it is !! and, AND, everything in between, all the idiosyncracies, that depends on the actor playing connor! speaking of, you know who the actor is playing connor in the movie? that’s right, colton ryan! so, i don’t know, maybe... have some trust in the process, in an actor who ALREADY has played connor on broadway???? and also trust that you will get more connor content then u are seeing from a 3 minute trailer!! dhgnijsdg and some of the comments on like his appearance specifically? like are you really made that he doesn’t have long hair?? they kept his nails and his rings but nahhh the hair was apparently a MUST HAVE (even though like.. not all connor actors on broadway always had/have long hair but w/e).. REGARDLESS. tldr on THAT , the movie would have to do a pretty shitty job if they want to take something from someone who doesn’t have much to begin with and i think y’all are being extremely harsh on this point 

jared. honestly i’m a bit worried too about the like... name change, because it does have the potential to be taking out some representation, but... they did change the name to fit the actor’s ethnicity? it’s a really [hmm] topic because, again, from a trailer and from what we have been told we don’t KNOW a lot of the context, but i think it’s important to remember that uh.. jewish people aren’t just? always white ?? there’s a possibility they changed the last name to fit with the [ethnicity] while keeping him jewish?? ofc there’s the possibility that they Didn’t and ... again hm that’s its own thing altogether but just reiterates the point that you can’t knock a whole movie just based on the trailer. you can’t talk about things you know nothing about. 

alana. same thing as before, you can’t.... completely bash a character based on a 3 minute trailer. there was discussion about how she seemed ‘shy’ when talking to evan, which like.. maybe she is but also that scene was them talking in a library like if u actually take notice of what’s happening in the scene jdskngsd though i do share the general consensus with many others that she won’t get a lot of screen-time but that’s neither here nor there 😔 moving on

scenes and the setting. one of the things i was most like.. tentative about in regards to a switch from a musical to a movie was how they were like... going to do certain scenes? naturally, a lot has to be different when we’re going from a minimal stage set to an entire movie with like.. settings. there are going to be new scenes because a movie lends to have like, physical places that aren’t just [evan’s bedroom] and [murphy kitchen] and [implied school]. so new scenes, new conversations, slightly different pacing.. this is all to be expected right like are y’all geneuinely surprised here or ........

there’s a lot we aren’t seeing yet because this is a TRAILER. again i already mentioned this re: connor but like... again, y’all are making some Claims that just... fucking outlandish. there are so many moments in the trailer that are very obvious Hard Cuts. you don’t have all the information yet. you are angry at a tiny fragment of something that is confusing you because you don’t have all the context. is there a chance that some of this shit is just genuinely Bad? yeah but you really cannot 100000% say it with your chest and gauge it without seeing the movie and understanding what that scene is in context. lowkey uhhh saw some jokes about the zoe scene in the car and :’))) ? jesus? christ????

concluding thoughts because my brain hurts but like. you don’t have to like the movie. you don’t have to WATCH the movie. like all media if you choose to consume the movie you should do so with some CRITICAL THOUGHT. but, just like the novel (and i do not want to have any discussions about that i don’t care if you think it’s good Or bad that’s not what this is about) you guys are going in this WANTING to believe it’s bad and completely polarizing your thoughts on what this is going to be. yeah, maybe there shouldn’t be a movie. i genuinely think we could’ve gone without. but it’s just a piece of media, it’s not a progression like all your (musical is good, novel is bad, MOVIE IS WORSE OH NO) posts are suggesting. they are all just. different pieces of media stemming from a source. at the end of the day it’s just a fucking movie. if you already hate it so much, guess what? you don’t have to watch it! you don’t have to put so much needless fucking hate into a 3 MINUTE TRAILER. you can stop being performative and dissing it for its poor treatment of POC while then going on to make fun of ben platt’s hair and just targeting a different group like! please !!!

i’m not trying to be a fuckin’ advocate for this movie because there’s so much opportunity for it to suck, i do Not have high hopes for it, and i’m not even really sure i want to watch it (i bought the novel when it came out and have yet to read it, and i’m sure the movie will like.. elicit very similar vibes from me lsdngjkdsg like im just not uhhh feeling it) but y’know what? watching the trailer did not bring forth the fucking onslaught of hatred in me that apparently has fuckin posessed all of y’all and like djnsgjksdg plagued my dashboard for this whole evening. don’t come into my inbox trying to like.. argue with me about this (preemptively im turning off anon because i like i Can’t lmao) this is just like... a rant i needed to get out of me real quick. 

SO. tldr for now: have critical thought about shit you consume, there’s no ethical consumption under [the film industry], you can’t judge a movie entirely on its trailer, and y’all need to calm the fuck down 

[assrotea]

Hello I heard Scorpio Mars and have been summoned 👀 👀

(What are your thoughts on Scorpio Mars males)

This is gonna be a ride,,,, and a complex one bc I think Im going to end up talking about things that might not be super related but we’ll see,,,,,,,,, so

IRL I think I have not deal with a scorpio mars super up close and personal, like the people around me (the ones that I know super well and like,,,, know their charts) none of them have the placement.

Funny enough almost every celebrity crush I’ve had has it????

So very early on I just formed this opinion that scorpio placements are THAT bitch and I’ve said this so many times lol but, I think it is just bc they always seem to ooze this vibe of being quiet and collected but not really at the same time?? So people seem to be inherently attracted to the mystery of them and the prospect of yk,,,, sort them out.

and bc those intense feelings are projected to the outside (wether they want it or not) is just very alluring and all.

I JUST FIND IT SO FUNNY BC I PERSONALLY CAN ALWAYS TELL WHEN SOMEBODY HAS IT LIKE,,,,,,,,,,, HONEY YOUR SCORPIO IS SHOWING

A DEVELOPED scorpio mars can be quite the dream lol (if you’re into the things that the placement itself talks about and I am not only referring to sexual stuff you people), like ofc it depends on the entire chart but when it’s very prominent it is quite literally unstoppable and ummm (for me hehe ✌) determination his hot as fuck jhsdjhjsd. Also the commitment to the things that they obsess/care about is cool.

Guys with this placements they do often feel like the tall dark and handsome archetype, even if they are not tall or conventionally handsome they just............ have it...............

Overall I think the promise of intense emotions is what makes this placement quite attractive. The not so hot part I guess it’s the anger issues that might come with the package,,,,, like I said earlier, when they snap is like a fucking flood most of the times and it can be scary as fuck and in their very water-sign-like-fuckedupness they don’t even want to stop ~the flood~ when it begins bc feelings 1) are to be felt and 2) they just don’t want to.

Jealousy comes wraped there too and sometimes is not even like on purpose, they just are naturally suspicious and possesive.

Another thing of this placement is unfairness, it is almost always gonna be there to some degree, a scorpio moon/venus/mercury/mars will HATE to be played with, like mindgames and stuff they just hate it but then they will do the thing to you bc THEY JUST LOVE testing people to see what shit can be drawn out of others,,,,, and that is tiring tbh for them AND for the people actually experiencing the bullshit. 

I AM NOT HERE DEMONIZING SCORPIO MARS FOLKS OKAY THOSE ARE JUST OBSERVATIONS and I am also concerned at how ppl romanticize the placement like it’s not a difficult one sometimes.

[ultraqueer]

having thoughts & what have you

cw for like... explicitly Gender and Sex stuff ig. if you know me irl you can read idk just don’t be weird about it lol

been having a lot of thoughts abt gender and such lately, specifically about dysphoria & Bottom Dysphoria in particular. the past year has seen a lot of me coming to terms with the fact that, while I don’t necessarily want to get top surgery or go on T, I’m. not super comfortable in this body. like I’ve never felt a connection to my body as being myself, I don’t really perceive my body as being Me but it’s gotten... a lot more Intense recently

like. i bought my first binders recently, right. and that’s cool. i can’t wear them a lot because chronic pain’s a bitch and I get lightheaded just by standing up but they’re. really nice. but that’s not what’s Bothering me the most?? like no I don’t like my chest sometimes but also yes I do like it sometimes and mostly I feel ambivalent

honestly the thing that’s the most frustrating to me. which has been extremely difficult to navigate as someone who’s vaguely asexual & has a weird relationship with sex & masturbation. is the whole ~downstairs zone~. like i don’t even know what to CALL it bc I hate it so much

I have never wanted my period, which is one thing, and I’m trying to get to an ob & also talk to my regular doc to figure out what the fuck we might be able to do about that without destroying the rest of my health. but like... functionally. in terms of What I Have. I don’t want a Cis Dude Dick but I very specifically feel like i should have both a slot and a tab if you catch my drift (i am a little bit intoxicated and personally I think that’s a funny way of phrasing things and it’s one I can tolerate without feeling wrong)

and i don’t want to go on T for a lot of reasons. health stuff for one, sure, but also like... one of the biggest things is that I don’t want my voice to drop. I’m a singer, I like the versatility I have, and after so long trying to accept that I’m not terrible/hopeless musically I don’t really want to force myself to go through that again. but every time I see a trans guy talk about bottom growth, or read an article about it, or however the fuck i come across it. i feel... deeply frustrated that I don’t have that.

i don’t know. i’m not really A Gender in general but like. i like masculine terminology more than feminine. i’ve been dealing with all this pent up shit re: the ~downstairs zone~ and how i feel about it for a long while now. at this point I genuinely can’t tell if this is partially a matter of me being lonely/touch-starved & struggling with the inherent sexual repression of growing up queer in a very conservative very religious area, or if it’s full blown fuckin penis envy. cannot believe freud was r- ri- right about something (euck)

anyways. why can’t gender be like the sims where you can just. customize. yes hello gender doctor i would like a penis upgrade please the one i was shipped with was too small :/

[writertitan]

hello i just would like to know your opinion on my placements oh wise one:

sag sun

cancer moon (second house)

gemini rising

scorpio mars and venus

cap mercury

you gave me everything and i love that, thank u sweet cherub

cancer moons are always just inherently so nice and willing to listen to u LMAO, i just love them so much bc they are so emotionally available tbh. and it’s pretty balanced with your sag sun and Gemini rising (hello rising twin!!). I think with your sag sun, since many sag suns are just prone to running away from their feelings and can be aloof, the cancer moon makes up for that. and with ur Gemini rising, you ain’t afraid to say whats on your mind! at least with trusted individuals, but again, i think gemini placements can be ambiverts and can talk to literally anyone.

scorpio mars is right in its domicile, and i love that. a Scorpio Mars person is quite methodical when it comes to taking action. people like to also loop in how one presents their aggression with Mars, but I see Mars as how you take action, but how you take action can also be how you present your aggression, and it would fit that Scorpios are more mentally aggressive and a little cunning LMAO.

the scorpio venus is hard tbh, bc its in its detriment when in venus. it’s def not a bad placement to have at all, i just see Scorpio venuses as being super intense with love but also still quite reserved. for both your Mars and Venus, you can think of your Scorpio placements being kind of like a volcano. It just kinda bubbles within you until it boils over, so just watch out for that

cap mercury is not a common placement i’ve seen! i like it!! i think it makes your communication style quite practical, no frills. even maybe your sense of fashion might lean more towards practical or also very timeless. so, for example, ur Gemini rising or even your sag sun could potentially have you rambling and getting lost in your ramblings, but your cap merc helps organize your thoughts lmfao

hope this helps!!!!

[kakashibestie]

i'm having big loving luke skywalker feelings in this chilis can you please talk about your favorite things about him

HELLO it’s always luke skywalker loving hours in this blog so let’s go here are my top reasons why i love luke skywalker in no particular order:

his righteousness: literally every single thing he ever did as a character (at least in the films bc i know jack shit about the eu AND excluding tlj l m a o) he did as an act of kindness, or as something derived from his inherent righteousness!!! like he found out the droids his uncle’d bought belonged to some other dude he didnt even know and he INSTANTLY thought abt giving them back. like the guy could’ve been a serial killer and he didnt care he just wanted 2 do the right thing! when he saw leia’s hologram he immediately thought holy shit ive gotta help her and he literally cruised through the galaxy to do so. he went the extra mile to help those in need...esp. the ppl he cared about on every chance he got and tbh we should all be more like him in that matter

um the fact that i’ve always perceived him as gay: this one’s a little more personal but i think many el gee bee tees see some of themselves in him and that’s always something nice to see and have, even if it was never explicit!!! like i saw a post earlier today abt how revolutionary it was for luke be Like That back when the first star wars was released bc every action movie with a male protagonist at that time followed the macho man archetype and luke is literally the polar opposite of that. i dont know which demon possessed george lucas to make him write luke in that way bc im sure he was OBLIVIOUS of what he’d done and we all know luke was supposed to be his self insert so...whatever demon it was, thank you. neat job. also the fact that mark hamill endorses gay luke skywalker makes my heart grow warm. 

how loving he always was: i think this goes hand in hand with his righteousness or maybe one thing blooms from the other but regardless of the order of things...his fervent love for his friends and the ppl he cared about was baffling to me. and now that my understanding of love has changed and maybe even evolved to a higher level i find that luke’s loving feelings were a CRUCIAL part of his character. a building block...dare i say his very FOUNDATIONS!!! luke skywalker wouldn’t be luke skywalker without the intensity of the love he felt for all the things he cherished.

his fashion sense: goes hand in hand with his gayness because no cishet could ever dress like That. i can’t even pick a favorite outfit of his because they’re all iconic!!!! tatooine farmer boy chic? timeless. xwing flight suit? invented fashion. bespin fatigues???? E P I C. and i wont even get started with the black chanel suit from rotj bc that’s....too powerful and we all KNOW it is.

his determination: okay like we all know george lucas intended for him to follow the OG hero’s journey from Whiny Boy to Man™...and like in a way he kinda did follow it???? but i think we could dive deeper into it. anh luke was just DESPERATE for a way out of his monotonous life (he was also 19 so like...lmao) and in the process he found something much greater!!!! he found out abt the force and found friends and found out the first puzzle pieces of a past that at that moment had been nothing but a blur to him. like imagine the excitement he must’ve felt. the fear. the pain. THE GRIEVING. luke skywalker died three times and was reborn three times. the boy from tatooine died after the death star trench run. a young man with enough drive to defeat an entire Empire on his own was born. then that young man was confronted with like the hardest truth he would EVER learn abt himself and he let it kill him. because he knew once he was reborn again, he would become his best self. never did he waver on what he thought he needed to do in order to become it. he knew there was good in his father so he went and confronted him. he was ready to literally DIE right there because he was sure vader would save him. they saved each other in the end. all thanks to luke and his determination.

[rctribvtns]

〔 JAIME LORENTE, 23, CIS MALE, PYROKINESIS 〕╰  ANDRÉS SERRANO  just  came  over  half - blood  hill .  you  know ,  the  child  of  HEPHAESTUS  who  was  claimed three months  ago ? i’ve  heard  chiron  say  that  he  is  INQUISITIVE & RESOURCEFUL ,  but  if  you  ask  the  aphrodite  kids ,  they’d  say  they’re  HOT-HEADED & STANDOFFISH .  i’d  say  they  remind  me  of  grease stains on dark coveralls, text messages left on read for 3-7 business days, stargazing on a tailgate in the heat of summer, and nicotine kissed lips ,  especially  since  they’re  NEUTRAL/AGAINST THE NEW CABINS .  

          hi  there,  hi  there,  hello  there  !! my  name’s  c,  i’m  old  as  hell  from  the  AST  time  zone,  and  this  is  my  trash  son  andrés.  i’m  going  to  keep  this  brief  bc  i’m  allergic  to  intros  but  even  as  i  say  that,  it’ll  probably  end  up  being  a  four  paragraph  essay.   apologies  in  advance.  

the  signs  were  always  there,  but  he  ignored  them.  call  it  naivety  or  ignorance,  but  everything  was  explained  away  with  rational  responses.  his  mother  couldn’t  see  the  monsters,  so  she  always  assumed  it  was  the  work  of  an  overactive imagination.  when  he  started  struggling  to  read  languages,  he  was  misdiagnosed  dyslexic  and  flunked  out  of  public  school  —  a  system  that  failed  him.   his  lighter  always  seemed  to  light,  even  though it  was  at  least  five  years  old,  but  he  never  thought  anything  about  it.   you  forget,  after  a  while.  no  one  questions  the  how’s  and  why’s  things  simply  work.

he  was  raised  by  a  single  mother.   they  never  had  much  money,  but  they  had  an  abundance  of  family;  he  was  an  only  child  but  his  aunt,  uncle,  and  six  of  his  cousins  lived  next  door  for  most  of  his  young  life.   he  never  really  felt  like  he  suffered,  not  having  his  dad  around,  because  he  had  a  strong  support  system  in  other  ways.

he  started  working  for  his  uncle  when  he  was  17.  he  might  have  struggled  to  read  but  he  was  a  genius  when  it  came  to  working  on  cars.  he  had  almost  a  sixth  sense  when  it  came  to  cars,  especially  on  how  to  fix  them  up,  and  he  was  a  quick  study  when  it  came  to  learning  the  tricks  of  the  trade.   the  pay  wasn’t  spectacular  but  he  knew  the  chances  of  getting  a  better  job,  or  any  job,  without  his  high  school  education  was  pointless.   he  made  the  choice  to  focus  on  what  he  was  good  at,  not  the  many  things  he  wasn’t,  for  the  sake  of  his  own  sanity.   IT  SURE  AS  HELL  MADE  HIM  HAPPIER.  

THEN  CAME  THE  CLAIMING

imagine  you  think  you  know  who  you  are.   you  have  these  ideas  about  yourself,  these  beliefs,  and  then  someone  bursts  in  like  the  kool  aid  man  and  tears  that  certainty  away  from  you.   when  he  was  claimed  as  the  son  of  hephaestus,  he  thought  it  was  a  joke.  he’d  laughed,  said  there  was  no  friggin  way,  and  had  been  shocked  and  pissed  when  he  found  out  it  was  true.   in  his  mother’s  defense,  she’d  never  known  about  the  truth  of  his  father.  it  was  as  much  a  shock  for  her  as  it  was  for  him.  

at  camp  half-blood,  andrés  isn’t  sure  he  really  belongs  there.  he  got  used  to  his  life,  liked  it  too for  the  most  part,  and  this  ‘demi-god’  business  feels  like  some  kind  of  get  rich  quick  scam.   all  in  all,  he’s  inherently  distrustful  —  especially  with  the  people  who  are  his  ...  siblings  ?   a  man’s  got  only  child  syndrome,  wyd.  

PERSONALITY

he’s  used  to  really  only  being  around  family,  or  people  he  trusts,  so  completely  out  of  his  element  he  comes  off  pretty  standoffish.  rude,  maybe,  or  anti-social  is  also  very  possible.  when  he  likes  you,  he  makes  sure  you  know  ...   and  he  can  be  a  flirt  when  he  wants  to  be.  

yes,  he  does  have  the  infectious  denver  laugh.  if  you  want  to  know  what  i  mean,  click  here.  (  warning:  possible  spoilers  for  la  casa  de  papel  /  money  heist  )

he’s  a  very  tactile  person.  his  hands  are  always  doing  something,  whether  it  be  running  through  his  hair,  rubbing  at  the  back  of  his  neck,  tapping  against  the  inside  of  his  arm,  or  playing  with  things  in  his  hands.  he  also  doesn’t  make  eye  contact  with  people  very  often  because  he  finds  it  uncomfortable.   when  he  knows  you,  trusts  you,  then  you  might  see  that  change.  

he’s  got  a  trigger  for  lying  and  hates  liars.  if  he  catches  you  in  a  lie,  especially  a  big  one,  there’s  going  to  be  trouble.  

he’s  not  the  sort  of  person  who  jumps  into  relationships.  the  few  serious  ones  he  ever  found  himself  in  probably  came  about  from  one  night  stands  that  just  never  ended.  no  strings,  no  grand  declarations  of  love,  just  ...  low  maintenance  relationships.   he’s  kind  of  an  intense  guy  —  also  pretty  guarded  —  so  i  feel  like  many  of  his  relationships  and  friendships  are  shallow  because  people  don’t  want  to  stick  around  long  enough  to  unlock  the  level  45  tragic  backstory.   he’s  used  to  being  underestimated,  or  written  off  because  he’s  poor  and  dumb,  so  while  it  makes  him  mad  (  and  he  might  pop  off  )  he  also  expects  it.  

he  has  a  very  short  fuse  and  a  wicked  temper.  it  isn’t  that  uncommon  to  see  him  taking  his  frustrations  out  on  walls,  or  the  old  boxing  bag  they  had  back  at  his  uncle’s.   he  doesn’t  punch  people  so  much,  not  unless  they’ve  really  done  something  to  deserve  it,  but  he  does  find  comfort  through  aggression  which  is  a  Choice  TM.  

ANYWAYS  YEAH  SO  I  DID  WRITE  A  4  PARAGRAPH  ESSAY.   IF  YOU  WANNA  PLOT  WITH  MY  DEVIL CHILD,  HMU  ON  DISCORD  @  jack the reaper#1764

[smallcowplant]

Hi! I'm sorry to bother you with writing advice but, I know that some of your projects take place in like, universes that aren't our own and I was wondering if you could give me some advice on how not to info dump about the world and how it works, bc I find myself doing that and I feel like it would be very confusing for the reader. Thank you!

Hello! You’re absolutely not bothering me, don’t worry! I love talking about writing!

A little bit of a preface: 

At the moment, the only project I’m working on that takes place in an alternate universe is Jinx (and I suppose TSS kind of does, but it’s very much more real-world). And perhaps, this sci-fi story I have bubbling in my head. But that’s a conversation for another day.

I don’t ever really go Full Fantasy (mostly bc I really don’t like writing in that genre lol), I just take fantasy elements and adapt them into a reality that is very similar to ours!

I remember reading something in a Rainbow Rowell book about the character putting on makeup for the first time: “she looked like herself, but with the volume turned up” or something along those lines….and for whatever reason that really stuck with me. My worlds ARE our worlds….just with the volume turned up. (Take that to mean that I build my worlds off of the reality we exist in, just adding in fantastical elements.)

Btw, I’m writing this as if you’re asking me about a sims-based story, so I apologize if it’s not 100% accurate to you!

EDIT: THIS TURNED INTO A GENERAL RAMBLE ABOUT WRITING/STORYTELLING IN GENERAL BC I AM RIDICULOUS AND ONCE U GET ME STARTED I CAN’T STOP I’M SORRY

Personally, I’ve noticed that taking away writing that is separate from the pictures (i.e. NOT writing an extended caption under the screenshots) has REALLY helped me stray away from info-dumping. 

Relying solely on the captions on my screenshots has forced me to truly pay attention to how I’m framing a scene! I think my brain switched between writing for a drabble/a book to writing as if I was making the screenplay for a tv/film! 

Tumblr is an inherently visual platform, just like film or television, so focusing on the visuals instead of long descriptions works better for me. A lot can be conveyed by facial expressions/angles—-framing your character as significantly smaller compared to something else can convey the vastness of the problem/how alone they feel, framing them as staring up at something skewed can suggest that the thing puts them off-kilter, cutting back to character reactions (without words) can quietly show the audience how each character is feeling.

But anyway……

This also really depends on the POV of the character(/s) you’re telling the story through. 

Is this a Call to Adventure/Hero’s Journey-type story? Where your character(/s) are thrust into a new world/journey that they know nothing about?

If so, consider

Is your character an outsider/transplant to this world? Like, did they fall through a portal/through the pages of a book/stumble into this realm unwittingly? 

Or are they an insider to the world….have they lived in this world their whole life, only to discover something earth-shattering about their status quo that NEEDS to change (take down a big bad/search for their identity independent of their previous role/etc.)?

This will greatly impact how you share information with readers. 

If your character is new to the world, there will probably be your fair-share of Harry Potter in Diagon Alley-esque scenes, where your character stares open-mouthed at the world and ask a ton of questions to their guide. 

If your character is part of the world, they probably have a good grasp on what the world is like/what’s going on. They will know things the reader does not, and will start off with different motivations and ideas than the hapless newcomer. 

I think that it’s good for YOU as a writer to know your world inside-and-out, but your audience doesn’t necessarily need to be the same (at least, at first). 

Plant breadcrumbs through scenes—-a comment here, a poster/paper there, an action here—-that show your reader things about the world…..you want there to be curiosity with your readers….how does this work? Where did this come from? Why is this the way it is? Those are questions that build interest, and they are the ones you, as a writer, MUST have answers to (even if you don’t share that info fully).

Side-note, but I’m a big proponent in my stories for SCENES TO MATTER. 

If I feature a scene in my stories, it HAS to matter for the bigger picture. 

They have to function as plot/story-driving scenes. That doesn’t mean that they all have to be fast-paced, action/heavy scenes. 

A lot of the scenes I like to write are intimate, casual conversations between characters or small, introspective views of character’s daily lives. A scene with two characters talking can bridge the gap between intense/plot-heavy scenes AND reveal valuable information to your readers. 

A good slow-paced scene:

Tells us something new about a character/characters.

Reveals something about the world.

Builds a relationship/dynamic with the characters/world they live in.

A bad slow-paced scene:

Rips us out of the story only to have the character(/s) state something that we already know/waste time. (I used to have PLENTY of these scenes in my old sim-stories. The character would wander away from the excruciatingly slow-moving plot to comment that they were lonely/confused/scared…and those scenes didn’t add anything, lol. They just sat there, like a boring journal entry where all you do is go to the grocery store and take a nap.) 

Is one that you could completely omit from the story and nothing of value would be lost. 

Basically, if you find yourself having characters fuck off away from the plot just to state the obvious/describe the situation to us….cut it. You can convey emotions/problems through scenes/dialogue without having to be tedious!

Think of IRL conversations and how they work—-you may have a couple occasions where friends/acquaintances catch you up on drama/information, but they usually don’t dump EVERY person’s name/motivations/relationships. Think….what do your characters know? What do they not know? How do certain characters view each other/the world? How would they communicate that?

The great thing about storytelling is that you aren’t trapped into only showing what your characters know—-you can cut to a scene completely divorced from their POV (i.e. the villain/another world/etc.) and give that perspective to the audience. 

Just keep a tab on what 1) you know as the writer, 2) what your audience knows and 3) what your character knows. These are most likely all different things. You’re the Dungeon Master, baby! You hold all the cards and you know all! (You can use this to sow doubt/drop foreshadowing unbeknownst to your audience/be selective with what you show!)

tl;dr: focus on understanding your plot/plotting in general—-once you know what you’re going for, you can trim the fat. be selective with what you show/what your audience see’s. try to treat your creation like it’s real—for example: on Earth, how does humankind function? what are the rules/status quo/known truths? what are the anomalies/oddities? apply that to your story. don’t dedicate entire scenes to explaining the world your characters are in—–SHOW us (whether in visuals/interactions/dialogue), don’t TELL us outright. your audience is smart, and they can put things together over the course of the story. if your world has rules, remember them. they don’t need to be outright stated, but if certain things are not possible, communicate that through actions in the story. 

[gg-astrology]

Hello could you do the Pisces Rising with decans please?💕🌊 I really enjoy your observations!

Hey there!!💕💕💕 Oooof thank u so much!! 💕 I’m glad you like them I’m honestly just ;; doing my best and enjoying myself with them too! 💕

[Below Cut: Pisces Rising + different decans 🌊]

Pisces-Pisces/Neptune-Jupiter (0′-9′)

Suffer but 😊

Feels Suffering so they Learnt How to Adapt and Work With It

Becomes a Personality Trait™️

The Most Optimistic Out of the Trio

Does Not Let Pain Get Them Down (tho they will Cry)

Lovable People

May Not Seem Like They Have A lot of Care But They Do

Carefree Is Part of Learning How To Cope With Suffering

It’s Strength That Grew As a Lesson From Pain

Wiser Than You Think

Gives Good Advice Objectively-- Even if Others Can’t Understand It Yet

‘If You’re So Fixed All The Time You’ll Never Get Anywhere!’

Sees the Point in Progression (of the Personal Self) and Transformation

Creative and Imaginative

Rich Inner World

Good Metaphors/Analogies

Likes The Journey and Prefers It Over the End Result

‘s No Rush

Well of Passion to Them 

Likes Talkative Sociable People Who Are Just... Nice

People Who Aren’t Inherently Mean or Has The Power To be Really Really Terrible (Act Out of Defense)

Likes To Know They Have Power (Will-Power) and Choose Not to Hurt Others

Strength of Moral is Important

Quality of Life vs Quantity of Age honestly

Pisces- Cancer/Moon (10′-19′)

Suffer ™️

But in That Suffering is More Intensity

Humorous (Bc They Low-Key Enjoy The Pain)

Knows People Emotion Even Before The Person Themselves

Has To Wait For Others To ‘Get On It’

Tolerant and Patient?? To An Extent

Just Exasperated Sometimes

“Eyes Rolling To the Back of the Head” is a Mood

Appreciates Beauty and Generosity in Everyday Life

Things We Take For Granted Honestly

People, Art, Food, Time To Rest, Time for Self, Parks, Nature, Birdsongs

Likes Noticing The Little Happiness (bounded in material form)

Is usually Talented....at Creating/Making Those Too

Romantic

But Can Also Be Somewhat Cynical

Likes Being Alone Bc They’re Not Lonely

There’s a Difference!!!!

“Me-Time” is Self-Care

Privacy Is A Thing you Know

Will Not Like Nosy People Who Thinks They Can Offer Advice Into Other People’s Life

They’ll Fix It!!! Themselves!!!

God Mom You DOn’t Understand!!!

Would Rather Listen To Music Than Talk Sometimes

If You Try To Cook....You Will Learn It’s a Good Release For You

Bc You Are....Motivated By Food

Witty People 

Pisces- Scorpio/Mars-Pluto (20′-29′)

Suffering Intensifies ™️

But In This Case Sometimes They Just Blocks It Out

Dissassociation Galore ™️

Would Rather Work/Keep Their Minds Off It Than Deal With The Long-Term Stuff

Skrrt- Expert

Redirects Attention To Other Things

Tries to Reason/Sound Reasonable With Themselves So They Don’t Have To Face Their OTHER Problems

Thinks Taking Things Step-By-Step is The Way

Want !!! To Do Things !!!!

be Active and Learning!! Want To be Productive!!!

Feeling Accomplished Is Their High

Likes That ‘Pat Pat You Did Well’ Feeling

Motivated By Gratification

Hedonist??? Or Masochist??

You Decide

Impressionable And Has Good Memory (Albeit A Blurry One)

One of Those People Who Gets Deja Vu 

Or Think They’ve Already Done Something When They Haven’t

Wants to Feel Appreciated/Loved and Valued

Like...What they Have is a Strength y know?

Works Hard to be Practical/Technical And Build Something For Themselves

They Know The Struggle... They Learn How To Work With It

Good Listeners and Solid Advice

Can be More...Hmm, Grounded and Active Than the Other Two

[mosscreektarot]

Hello! Thank you for your time doing this, I hope you are getting good rest and drinking a lot of water :3 Well I would like to ask about my future partner (aka first boyfriend), I'm 24 y/o now (soon 25) and I've never been in a relationship before, so sometimes I'm worried about attracting someone that isn't good for me, bc I am more goal oriented and also a little bit picky, so when I am being negative I think that I will die alone or I will attract trashy man lol Not that I think I derseve any of this, but you know sometimes the mind is heavy :') My initials are: M.V and I am a Cancer :3

Thank you in advance for your time!!

Ooh water sounds so good right now, thank you for reminding me! 🤤 Now that I'm hydrated...

Queen of Wands Reversed, 2 of Swords, Knight of Cups Reversed, The sun, 7 of Wands, 9 of Cups Reversed

You're looking in the wrong direction. You have an inner fire that burns with intensity and beauty. Being conscious about who you share yourself with is a sign of your strength and willpower, and you don't feel the need for a companion. Your aura is actually walled off and used to deter others...nobody is allowed to get close to you and see the depths of who you really are. Here the Knight of Cups comes into play. A deeply feeling person, who prioritizes action and romantic gestures will try to gain your affection. This person will share a very unique special interest with you, which will allow you bond. The warmth, silliness, and open-minded generosity of this person will allow them to pass every wall you've surrounded yourself with.

You may try finding faults in this person as a way to "defend" your heart, but human beings are inherently flawed. Nobody is perfect. If you battle with every potential love interest over slight flaws or perceived value, you will fulfill your prophecy of living alone (in comfort and contentment, but alone nevertheless). By no means should you accept just anyone into your life or heart, but there's a sense that even if your soul mate walked into your life you would pick him/her apart just to avoid having the strain of a relationship. I think the question here is do you *really* want to have a partner, or does it just sound good/like something you feel obligated or necessary to have? If you do want a partner, examine your reasons for rejecting people and ask yourself if your expectations are realistic or not. Having high standards is a great thing! But having impossible standards is going to produce no results.

[itskimibitch]

( 1 ) LATE ASS INTRO ! hello, strangers!! my name is ricky ( not to be confused with ricki... i’ll be honest, idk her ) and i’m sorry this is late, i just can’t believe i got accepted into ********, i-i mean further... haha.... anyway, i’m so excited to bring you kimberly min park, who you’ve never seen on the dash before !! there’s Stuff(TM) under the cut because a... a bio? i don’t... i don’t know her.

kimberly park was born on october 30, 1997. she was this close to being a holiday baby, but her mom had a c-section bc she didn’t feel comfortable giving birth to a demon, haha ! jokes on her !

she’s the baby of four children: isolde, aiden, vercy, and then herself. it goes without saying, but being born last makes her inherently evil. they knew something was up about this bich as soon as she was born, so jot that down !

her dad has been a math teacher for as long as she can remember, and her mother is a shrink. their jobs didn’t play a major role in kimberly’s upbringing, other than she learned how to share with not just three siblings, but hundreds of other people.

she was not very good at it.

like most babies of the family, kimberly was very cute and unassuming as a child. she was the teacher’s pet in every class.... every year... and did her best to be everyone’s best friend.

except she failed ! she really was the Girl Next Door. she was a cool friend, but no one really noteworthy? like... out of four kids, not even her cuteness could make her stand out. but she learned to adapt to being everyone’s Cool Friend, and nothing more.

but i’ll be honest, y’all... bitch was crazy.

outside of vanessa (who she ditched in later years, because apparently ghosts are too hard to believe in?????????) she had One Best Friend, and like.... kimi is very territorial. she’s intrinsically selfish and possessive, so when she had Best Friends, they were exclusively her Best Friends. she didn’t even like them talking to each other.

long story short, Other Best Friend made another friend, and kimi allegedly tried to set said friend on fire. allegedly. how does one prove that an eleven year old did such things? one can’t.

when the threat tried to accuse kimi of it, no one believed her, because kimberly park was literally the sweetest, most caring person out there? kimi even brought her get well cupcakes ! they figured the girl was just hysterical and confused, and brushed her off.

that was the start of Kimberly’s Plan to Take Over The World, alternatively titled Operation: Die Y’all.

she’s never been obvious about her, uh.... two-facedness. she was never so stupid as to take a theater class, or anything like that. she played her role as the cute girl next door all through elementary, middle and high school. for the most part, she was that girl. sure, she thought everyone was a fucking idiot, but she didn’t try to set any of them on fire.

around the time they were preparing to go into high school, kimberly left vanessa behind without a word. it was because nessa started getting into her Gifts, and kimi has never been about that life. except, apparently, she is? two faced bitch.

so, high school came and went, then came college. kimberly didn’t have any plans for college other than to get out?? then came the #patientsproject film. the mysterybustanutters went to her school, and they were so close. and while she has no interests in ghosts, they interest her.

and also, they were gaining a lot of popularity, and that’s something kimberly is very interested in.

so she spent some time working her ass off to get in with them. she even made friends with ashley cohen, just because ashley was close to daniel. she’s hated every second of it, but it worked ! she was accepted onto the team, and was officially starting her cult. uh, following. um, friends. she was making friends.

then came lana fucking cruz. she just waltzed in and was given a spot, without any of the ass kissing kimberly had to do. the ease with which she found her way to the top automatically put her on kimi’s List.

it should also be said that literally everyone except for julian is on kimi’s list. but lana’s at the very top.

julian is the only person who knows that kimi’s fifty shades of crazy. he doesn’t know about her attempt to turn that one chick into the burning bush, but he knows she’s only sweet for the cameras.

literally no one has done anything to her, but she plans on delivering divine punishment to every mysterybuster at one point or another.

headcanons that were definitely in my app !

two of her siblings teach self-defense, but kimberly has never been interested in learning. no one is ever going to swing at kimi, because she’s cute, dammit. and if someone does try something, she wears high heels and carries a pocket knife anyway.

growing up, her family kept a lot of dogs! she doesn’t trust cat people ( micah and elijah, respectively ) but she’ll die for any dog.

ironically, dollface has a fear of dolls. that mary anne bitch in the basement? can fuck off, as far as she’s concerned !

would honestly let cristian physically rip her heart out, as long as she got that d.

also, isaiah maxwell? can choke !

she might be the only person who likes blair more than isaiah. blair might be a dumb diva ass bitch, but she’s better than her stupid brother !

has spread so many rumors about people since she learned how to do it in middle school.... she keeps a notebook of people she’s scorned and how, and she reads over it every time she’s feeling a little sad.

is often the only mysterbuster with any sense. until cristian speaks, then she’s coincidentally on his side.

when kimberly was sixteen, her brother vercy dealt with a lot of bullying from these five assholes at school. the only thing she’s really protective of is her siblings, so when he started dealing with shit, she was just like “let me handle this.” everyone who was bullying him transferred schools within the next four months. two of them moved out of state.

kimi’s studying to be a translator. she speaks five other languages, including spanish, french, japanese, korean and sign language.

she’s been learning sign language since she was very little, because her sister is deaf.

is not julian or verena levels of smart, but is vindictive as fuck, and makes for a very good mastermind.

has never actually Had Feelings for anyone. she’s had minor crushes before, much like the one she has on cris, where they’re so hot, and no good for her, but she’d let them rail her?? cristian is a little more intense, but she doesn’t know if it’s an Actual Crush, or if she just wants him to treat her like she’s ashley.

on that note, she also probably plans on getting revenge on everyone who’s ever fucked cristian, including ashley and damaris, so. watch out for that, haha.

 i don’t.... i don’t have anything else. i’m just so excited to be here ! please, hit me up with plots, i’m so excited to write with all of you !! let’s have fun, friends !!