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what if she abstracts because of caine
#aw man shes all goopy#showtime so good when its just this#the amazing digital circus#tadc pomni#tadc caine#can i still tag this as a ship#yea#caine x pomni#tadc showtime#anyway if pomni abstracts in the show#im going to sob#even if she comes back#i love pomni sm i dont want anything bad to happen to her WAILS#(i say as i draw her abstracting anyway)
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completely self indulgent sky siblings doodle. i'm sick and i deserve to draw all the fluff ever
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#gremnda art#art#hermitcraft#pearlescentmoon#pearlescentmoon fanart#grian#grian fanart#sky siblings#i think that was their duo name???#that moment when you've been away from the fandom for months and when you come back you cant remember anything#i'm surprised people are still here sobs#anyways sick bug is now gonna take a nap (lie)
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GRIMS COMING!!! You gonna pull for him??👀👀
I'm gonna try, but...
I have mere hours to decide if I want to make one last attempt at Malleus or save a few to try for Grim...and this is all before the new event reveal on the 16th. truly the most difficult choice of our modern times. the gacha is getting its revenge for all of my Lilias.
#art#of a sort#twisted wonderland#glorious masquerade#can't believe that malleus still won't come home two years in a row#okay. okay. so we'll get a free 10 pull for grim and then if i use ALL my keys and gems that'll get me up to...ugh. numbers. 91?#literally 9 short of a guaranteed summon. oh my god.#curse you trey why is your birthday just too late to get me another 10 set when i need it#i was really trying to ration but i still spent too many of my hoarded keys failing to get masqeralleus#my hubris...#and this is assuming that i won't even want any of the 2023 halloween ssrs which is. unlikely.#may we all get ridiculously lucky and get the fancy ssr on our first pull using the free event keys#it can happen if we all BELIEVE#(sobs)
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Oh, help me God, this hellboy got me coming back for more
reblogs super appreciated !!! close-ups under the cut !
#south park#south park fanart#stan marsh#shroomer's art !#shroomer's archives: south park#artists on tumblr#my ramblings + thought process starts here (warning. its a lot) vvvvvvvvvvvvvv#"heyyyyy shadowww. its mee. da devil.#the amount of eyestrain i went through while rendering this#gradient maps!!! are so fun!!! (they are not i hate them so much)#lots to improve on still. but that's for next time!#the process of making this was so arduous.... but i learned a lot i feel#(and also if i had spent any more time working on this i would have actually lost it)#BUT YIPPEEEEE HAPPY BIRTHDAY STAN MARSH THE LOSER BOY I CANT BELIEVE I FINISHED THIS ON TIME#2 days in advance too by the time the queue uploads it#anyways.... stupid loser boy stan marsh..... i found out his birthday was coming up soon#and i had this idea sitting in my head for like.... 2 weeks i think#popped up when i was listening to lexie liu's album the happy star and the song diablo came up#and i thought wait.... doesnt stan get possessed by satan at some point#and so here we are!!#I ACTUALLY RECENTLY WATCHED THE EPISODE TOO AND THE THEME OF THE SONG FIT THE THEME OF THE EPISODE CRAZY WELL AS WELL#sometimes my genius is almost frightening#anyways this emotionally sensitive animal lover boy has really grown on me over the course of the series <3#i still havent.... finished cartman's sheet.....#the self designated deadline i gave myself of 2 weeks is coming up soon and erm. guh.#dies#this took so much effort and brainpower that needed to be allocated to my assignments.......#but its ok!!! im gonna sell this as a print!!! so its kind of!! productive!!#guh i hope this one performs well sob theres this nagging feeling i have that its not gonna do well at all#try painting some funky lighting + greyscale painting she said. it'll be fun she said.
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MIZI IN ROUND 7 MY BELOVED
She is Till's ray of hope on this round. He resigned himself to dying, he gave up practically. Choked in regret and misery, he was alone- Mizi was missing, likely dead and is dead.
The way his eyes light up ans he regains vitality. He was overwhelmed and felt truly alone, like in Rouns 6 he resigned hinself to dying. But this time, it felt like he was mentally at the brink too, because of round 5 and 6.
Seeing Mizi was like a wake up call to him- a spark and miracle. The push he needed to snap put of it.
He loves Mizi.
It may not be reciprocated, romantically, but the care is mutual.
The round is practically over though, but Till has regained his spark- the same spark that makes him able to fight aginst aliens and win for a few seconds before they put him on a leash again.
And Luka realises this.
Till is driven by emotions, and in the blink of an eye can drastically change actions and make multiple moves when motivated and charged.
This scene shows how Mizi and Till are eachothers final hopes.
This round is called Final, not for it being the end of this alien stage- not with out special guests here. But it's the end of what these 2 jad left.
Alien stage is cruel, and it presented multiple instances of false hope. It repeats again and again.
With tbe aliens believing Ivan would win, until he gave it up and in a blink was gone.
With Mizi and Sua beleiving they could tie, and the brief second they felt they did, until in a blink Mizi got 1 more point and Sua was gone.
For Hyuna, who once had both her brother and Luka one moment and seemingly the next lost it all, and by the hands of someone she trusted. Evrrything she had, gone seemingly in a blink.
Hope is fleeting in alien stage. And I feel like it's why the things in the back are also temporary means of happiness shown repeatedly- such as the shooting stars Ivan enjoys and finds peace in, and the flower crown that had its own background story in the mvs with Mizi and Till. Thsy taper off and die or pass eventually. But they're watched carefully by wide eyes.
It repeated, that joy and hope lost in the matter of seconds.
Blink, gone.
Except, Mizi and Till didn't blink. They watched, eyes wide and focused, and perhaps its thar focus and consumation of hope and emotion that doomed them to barely meet eachothers hands and escape the shot in the crowd.
There is no hope, in a cruel alien stage.
And it's ironic that as always, Till feels like he's won for a few seconds when acting against the aliens, only to lose to them a moment later. This time it's permanent.
#alien stage round 7#alien stage#alnst till#alnst luka#alnst mizi#this isnt even half of how i feel about the scenes between these 2 in this#but its kinda hars to focus when ye still sobbing and need to get ready to go out in a few mins#i feel mant things and have many interpretations of this scene#but bitter and regretful would be the most prominent#gomna go blast mitski after this to process the shitshow thar aas round 7#mayhaps ill come back witha better interpreation and way to explina my thoughts on this then??
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Alright, the traffic light trio dynamic, in my head
#it's like#there's dragonfruit and then there's dragonfruit's bestie who they want around#but to me it's like. even with dragonfruit- MK is still Mei's number one person#al la the meme above. If you are in a relationship with Mei you are also in a relationship with MK#I'll let go of their hand hold when I'm dead okay#they just#they hold each other's hands as they're taken into the scroll#*sobs*#lmk#lego monkie kid#traffic light trio#dragonfruit#lmk meme#lmk MK#lmk Mei#lmk Red Son#I'm so snobbish when it comes to my tastes for these 3#my friend's dragonfruit fic is the holy bastion for me
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turned my sona into a slugged cat :D
behold, a beast
#rain world#sona#it uses it/its pronouns :)#whenever this thing is observed it becomes the most cringefail pathetic creature known to slugkind#fails a jump and sobs on the floor#tries to eat a fruit too fast and throws up#stands still and stares into space 50% of the time when the rain comes#gets lost in a region its stayed at for 109432 cycles#still somehow manages to survive and navigate an iterator's can#an overseer swears its seen this thing kill a vulture before#truly an iterator's most complex riddle#maybe even moreso than the Great Problem itself#macchiart
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honestly it's just funny to me when people are like "aziraphale had to be talked into even trying to save the earth blah blah blah" trying to make him out to be a Bad Person. meanwhile in canon it took like, 1.5 conversations and less than a day because he DID want to do it and jumped on the first feasible idea.
and then they conveniently ignore that he spends the rest of season one actively continuing to do everything in his power that he can think of to save the earth, despite every obstacle and despite CROWLEY actively saying they should give up on that and run away together instead
(which all these same people conveniently... never seem to mention or frame as crowley being a Bad Person. the same way they never seem to try to frame him calling aziraphale stupid or his little "i'm leaving forever and when i'm gone i'll never even THINK ABOUT YOU AGAIN" moment as him being a bad person, instead suddenly being much more willing to sympathize and give him the benefit of the doubt. hmm go figure).
like he literally tries to talk to GOD up close and personal to change her mind. he throws down his uniform, refuses the war, and goes AWOL back to earth determined to save it, even knowing that he's pretty much signing up to lose EVERYTHING that he's built on earth for himself, even thinking he possibly lost crowley already by pushing him away, like.
when satan is en route to the airbase, wouldn't you know, crowley is the one who says it's over we're fucked there's nothing we can do and aziraphale is the one who says no, we can't give up now after everything, and gives crowley the push he needs to buy them some time.
i'll never say he's a perfect uwu bean or that he always goes about things the right way but like, this weird thing (especially post s2) where people try to project some different character onto him just never goes over. he's not self-absorbed or callous or power-hungry or stupid or too naive or completely selfish. fundamentally.
also he wouldn't take angel crowley over modern crowley. he loves crowley in every capacity and every form and through every change and tbh like. he understands that those aren't actually two completely separate entities, and crowley is one person who's been through so much and had to change so much, and he loves all of him.
their relationship is not toxic or abusive. they understand each other in ways nobody else ever will. they push each other to be better and appreciate each other for everything that they are, that they have been, that they could be, and they continually choose to come back to each other no matter what fight they have or challenge they face.
every day i gotta get out here like you know you can just like the character crowley better... and relate to him more... without having to twist around to justify it as some moral superiority thing. like that's fine and normal, to just like a character better than a different character and focus on them more.
#good omens#aziraphale#ineffable husbands#long post#im simply tired of the takes i think like no sorry guys crowley doesnt ~deserve better~#no aziraphale doesnt need to suffer to ~deserve him~ and sob and beg and go through hell while crowley slams the door in his face#they broke up like TWICE in s1 after having big arguments and saying hurtful things to each other and crowley still like.#immediately went to try to save aziraphale when he thought he was in danger. they both love each other they both want each other safe#despite their differences in how to approach that and what it means (which will always come to a head a bit tbh)#(bc they are each others biggest priority and not themselves)#if there's anything to forgive about the final 15 crowley has done it already. it's past. he never wants az to suffer.#idk the end iguess
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"THE OTHERWORLD IT HATES YOU!"
Final Fantasy X - Otherworld
#When i first started up ffx and i heard this theme i was hooked#when i heard it AGAIN for the tragic final boss fight against Jecht? I WAS SOBBING#SOBBING BUT HYPED#i have so sooo many thoughts that are all garbled since im still coming off the high of beating ffx#when jecht says 'i can't hear the hymn so well anymore' and has a stilted ackward exchange with tidus was so perfectly imperfect#braska's final aeon#jecht#ffx#ff10#final fantasy 10#final fantasy x#my art#fanart#tidus#ffx tidus#ffx jecht#HOPE DIES AND YOU WANDERRR AN OTHERWORLD AWAAITS YOU
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Ghost gifts a single tiny ear loop to Soap one day. Says he noticed Soap had pierced ears. That rings keep from handling a gun or a knife properly. He doesn't make eye contact, tries to hide his face, even as he's already wearing his balaclava.
Soap blinks. Ghost has already given him gifts and only behaved that way for the very first one. He doesn't understand. The earring is very simple, but seems to be made of expensive material and not only covered with a thin leaf of gold.
"Didnae it come with another one?" he says, jokingly.
But Ghost flushes, turns his head, and lifts his mask, only enough for Soap to see the glinting of the other earring on his ear. Suddenly he understands that it's not simply a gift. Ghost favoured practicality, but he wanted to give him a ring.
He grabs his hand as it falls back down.
"Simon, what is this?" he asks softly, not daring to be hopeful just yet.
With his other hand, he reaches out to gently turn Simon's head back towards him. His cheeks and his nose are flushed, it makes the warmth of his dark eyes, generally hidden behind a sneer or a bored expression, undeniable.
He looks nervous. Johnny's heart is beating faster. Could it really be...?
"I know", Simon starts then pauses, uncertain. "I know I'm probably not what you thought you'd have, when you were younger" Soap wants to interrupt, to scoff, to protest that Simon is way better than anyone he could have hoped for, but doesn't. He never wants to cut off his love when he's barely starting to open up.
"I know that I'm not easy to be with some days, that I'm not friendly and easy going like you, like someone you'd deserved to be with." he continues, unconsciously pushing his face more into Soap's hand. "But... I love you, more than I thought I could, and I'd like... I'd like to be with you, for as long as you'd have me..."
Johnny's heart is soaring. He has no idea how to react. He'd have to get all the giddiness out first, and the moment doesn't seem appropriate for jumping around and squealing.
"Officially," Simon continues, voice quieter, out of breath. "If you want to."
A gigantic grin splits Johnny's face. All of his limbs are buzzing, he needs to stand up, to run, to explode something. But he's terrified to spook Simon so instead he just squeezes the hand he's holding rhythmically and moves his feet back and forth.
"Baby, are ye asking me tae marry ye?" Johnny says. He's pretty sure his voice is wobbly, but can't really hear it himself as the blood in his ears is louder than the rest.
Simon's eyes do something, what is visible of his face looks like he has an expression on but Johnny can't analyze it now, doesn't dare to see the hope in his eyes, the pleading in his brows.
"I... Yes, I guess I am," the love of his life says finally. "If you want to. You don't have to."
Soap can't keep himself in check any longer. He's making a high pitched noise, jumping up and down where he's seating on the bed, and throws himself at Simon.
"Of course ah fooking want tae!!!"
Simon lets out an excited giggle, swept in Johnny's mood, and tightens his arms around his lover. No, his fiancé.
This is the best day of his life. He just has to deal with this mission tomorrow, and then they can start to plan everything.
#cod mw2#john soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#ghostsoap#soapghost#and now a bit of angst as a treat :#soap goes on his mission and doesn't return - ghost immediately goes to look for him and only finds traces of a struggle#then price receives a bloody earring and instructions to give out state secrets in exchange for soap#ghost goes ballistic - price doesn't deal with terrorists but has to make them believe he does to gain some time#they need to find where they keep soap - when they eventually manage to rescue him he's in a pretty bad shape and cries when he sees ghost#he looks like he hasn't slept since he was taken and his lobe is covered in dried blood where his captors ripped the earring from it#he sobs in ghost's arms that he lost it#that ghost had given him something so precious and he wasn't able to keep it and ghost knows that it's only because he's been tortured and#sleep deprived but it still breaks his heart & he doesn't know what to do and how to make soap understand that he loves him no matter what#johnny needs a medic and fluids and sleep and stitches and a cast but he can't bring himself to let him go so he just carries him#and doesn't let him go until he absolutely has to even as soap falls asleep on the way back and even as the others look at him with a look#on their face - it doesn't matter anyway soon he'll be simon mactavish and everyone will know#as he's waiting at soap's bedside watching him sleep price comes in and gives him the earring - it's been cleaned and looks good as new#then price asks him if he's invited and after a minute of ghost looking at him with wide eyes he eventually nods#'of course' he says 'we wouldn't be anywhere without you old man'#and price gently punches him in the shoulder#'you have to stop calling me old the recruits are convinced I'm like 50'#and ghost smiles for the first time in a week - he won't stop though - not until he convinces the recruits that price is at least 60
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help im getting emotional over satoru gojo again
#may or may not be crying#thinking about him and his found family#thinking about how he views his time with suguru as the blue spring of his life#a place he cant return to — only in dreams…#but he can regain that sense of happiness even now and i think that’s something he might not realize#because he’s silly and stupid and he doesn’t understand how loved he is#by his students and by shoko and by yaga and by everyone he’s helped and saved#he’s soooo loved and the idea of him feeling that love through his precious students — feeling even a smidge of that blue spring again…#it just gets to me :((((( your life isn’t over gojo!! the blue spring you miss is still right in front of you!!!!!!!#the shinjuku fight will always be so special to me… all of them slapping his back while he puts his infinity down and grins happily#wanting to show off in front of those beloved students when he fights sukuna….#sobbing crying throwing up he loves them so much he cherishes them he wants them to be happy he wants them to be proud of him :((((((#the papa of all time. the only Father ever#canon gojo will always be my favorite at the end of the day. no fandom variant comes even close to being Him u just cant copy that ……#feeling very sniffly tonight :(( very vulnerable trying to avoid leaks and worrying abt what’ll happen#ari noises ✩
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Pinesong wip
#PLEASE read Pinesong if u havent#like i dont know anyone in the revalink fandom who hasnt read it#but still#i was reccomending it to some friends today which now has me on a reread#SOBBING A NORMAL AMOUNT#oh ghirahimbo why must u hurt us like this?#(affectionate)#i want to make them kiss#this fic defined what revalink was to me; shaped me and moulded me into the creatior i am today when it comes to them#i love this fic dearly#i want a printed copy so bad (signed id lose my shit)#revalink#wip#i think this may end up a small comic#if i can panel correctly
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I want Eddie freaking out about Shannon being gone. Like finally having to accept that she’s dead and Kim isn’t her. And Buck being there in the moment of his breakdown and telling him “She’s gone Eddie. She’s been gone. But Chris is still here. I’m still here.”
#ugh just Eddie ugly sobbing with snot coming out his nose#Buck kneeling down with him#Eddie is basically like crying at the ground so he has to look up at Buck when he’s speaking#and then a hug after he says I’m still here#buddie#9-1-1
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i may be obsessed.
#her name is tenka but everyone calls her brandy#(warden nickname she earned in her early days due her unbreakable record of being able to drink ANYONE under the table)#her mother was banished from orzammar when she fell pregnant with her (long story very sad and dramatic and lowkey personal)#and while she was pregnant she was cared for and eventually fell in love with a gentle blacksmith from a small ferelden village#who her mother married (taking his surname) and who raised tenka as his daughter#she was a young child during the fifth blight and their village survived unscathed w the exception of some food shortages and trade issues#nothing life shattering#but she had heard of the darkspawn from her mother's stories about their family's history and they were her boogeymen#her monsters under the bed#but her parents reminded her she's smaller than all the other children and that's her strength. she's brilliant at hide and seek.#the darkspawn didn't come during the apex of the fifth blight but after#some lone grey warden had been staying at the inn that weekend. said something about looking for someone#now when the darkspawn came tenka Hid. her father was outside. her mother had already gone to the market. it was still morning#they said they wouldn't get in the house. it got very loud and then very quiet. and they got in.#she burst from the cupboard and ran to her father's smithy but she was only a child and when a darkspawn axe raked her back she collapsed#into the rack of blades she had been reaching for. these were her monsters and she was bleeding so much and her parents were missing#and she was so scared so so so scared. between fight and flight it was always flight and she had nowhere left to fly to#another graze of the blade across her chest as she scampered back made her scream and that's when she saw rowena#her uncles and cousins from her mother's stories never felt like heroes due to what they did to her mother but when she saw rowena hack#down her monsters piercing through them valiantly like light through the crack in her dark bedroom door#with her mother and father right behind completely safe and sobbing and relieved and Alive#she had never looked up to someone more#see rowena got a lot of things wrong but brandy is exactly what she got right#only two villagers died. farmers. it had been but a small darkspawn raid. but she saved a girl. saved a family. saved a town.#rowena stayed in town while tenka recovered (most likely to ensure she didn't contract the blight) and tenka adored her every move#she knows nothing of rowena's struggles. knows nothing of rowena's missteps. nothing of the constant reminder of mortality in her head#just that she's her hero. just that she wants to be exactly like her.#she joined the wardens young with a kiss to her parents goodbye and never looked back even when it turned out to be harder#in ways she'd never imagined. but she was immovable. a force of will. she was dauntless and daring and it was her idolization of rowena#that inspired her and kept her going. where other wardens cracked no amount of hardship could break her. it was almost Smug
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girlhood
#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day#like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again#and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her#I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her#and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again#“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her#growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain#and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when#people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it#but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one#and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her#lol!!!!!!!!!
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watching the first 2 episodes of frieren last year shook me so bad i still can't get myself to continue it, but between what i remember of it and the nightmares episode of dungeon meshi i can't stop thinking about the ways laios would prepare marcille for his death. what would he leave behind to remind her that he (and by extension all the people she loved and who loved her) are still with her in spirit, even if not in body?
#dungeon meshi#laios touden#marcille donato#i'm a laios & marcille are a secret third thing that can't be defined by language truther but make of this what you will i guess lol#if falin does turn out to have an extended life span due to dungeon shenanigans laios would rest easier but he'd def still worry#dungeon meshi spoilers#she might come across the regenerated kensuke at some point but that one was an accident 😅#i still think he'd train some dogs to accompany her#maybe make a promise w one of the castle staff & their family to keep training dogs through generations so there'll always be a rag for her#would he leave annotations in her magic tomes for her to find years down the road?#oh and he'd rope everyone else in definitely#he'd ask everyone in the party and maybe even kabru et al. & toshiro et al. for good measure#oh and what i meant by frieren shaking me was w each ep i found myself sobbing uncontrollably halfway through#i loved it but it was A Lot for me emotionally#i do remember seeing a post about how one of the reasons himmel had no problem having statues of him made#was bc he was doing it partly in the hope that when frieren sees one she'll remember him & their adventures together#that their time together wasn't just a blip in her life#he may physically be gone but his memory lives on#that really resonated with me#calemonsito notes
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