#and now i have to look for normal jobs
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
sad that all my phd achieved is 1) destroy all my confidence in my abilities (although that is 99% the fault of my supervisor), 2) hate academia to a point where hearing about studying/schooling/academia itself gives me anxiety (literally watched a show where a chacater was helping a kid with homework and it gave me an ick), 3) me being completely desinterested in astrophysics, a subject i have dedicated the past 10 years of my life to
#personal#and now i have to look for normal jobs#and idk what to even look for#i want to go into something that is away from academia and science but on the other hand i kind of do want to be connected to ot#does not make sensr#rn i just want to never even see astro related stuff again#i kind of already decided not to finish my last paper#as it gives me major anxiety to even open the draft#and see all the hyper aggressive comments from my supervisor#phdblr#defending in october and theb i nevrr want to see my supervisor again#i am burnt out#i never want to study or do an exam or a test again#im done
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
i rewatched the persona 3 stage plays and i'm insane about shinjiham all over again. what do you MEAN she had a dream where she talked to him before the final battle and they promised to see each other again? what do you MEAN he speaks the last words in the whole entire play, "I'm here, Kotone. Just like we promised," implying that it was a SHARED dream???
oh and don't even FUCKING get me started on this
#shinjiham#persona 3#shinjiro aragaki#kotone shiomi#persona 3 the weird masquerade#persona#foolmoon#did i really forget to tag foolmoon? i'm a dumbass#the way he fucking looks at her i can't 😭😭#bitch he reached out to her and she grasped his hand and then i 😭#ray fujita & kana asumi amazing fucking job i'm sobbing#also ray fujita fine as hell!!! they could not have cast shinjiro any better#sorry persona 3 just makes me go crazy#mine#persona 3 spoilers#i guess??? portable is 15 years old but i guess people are getting into p3re so. there#RAAAGH THEY DRIVE ME CRAZYYYYY#ok sorry. normal again#FUCK why didn't i post this on october 4th#shinjiro posting#update: now with better quality!#i have another post captioning what they said but like just Look At Them
114 notes
·
View notes
Text
i love him
tbh i think the lineart is better than the final result
#wow how do you know i can't render properly#definitely not because of all the crappy job i've done right?#anyway#those are gauss's law for electric and magnetic field btw#i wanted to make that the moment i know there's a warframe named gauss in the game#yes im a nerd#i use him so much im kinda attached to him now#but tbh it's kinda hard to make him look good with my normal comic quality#i hope that bunny ears would make him recognizable enough#also have to figure out how to draw volt#i think his face looks too much like a face that i somehow just can't really handle well all of a sudden#and im gonna make gauss prime badger him so much i kinda have to get over whatever obstacle that is#warframe#warframe gauss#warframe gauss prime#my art
89 notes
·
View notes
Text
"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#cw blood#something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones#IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE#ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE....#THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU#do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule.#LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE#DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared#i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail#but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!!#i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time#i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS#soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz#i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss#have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES#I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn#annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE.#hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.
184 notes
·
View notes
Text
A break away from dem angst of the previous WIP posting 😂 (sorry but not really) brain decided (instead of doing the art I'm SUPPOSED to) what if the LaDS boys were playing/in FF14, what'll be their race and jobs
#love and deepspace#xavier love and deepspace#zayne love and deepspace#rafayel love and deepspace#sylus love and deepspace#chuddles#okay... look.... I know I have a bias for Paladin ToT#but a normal long sword in FF14 is essentially a PLD#also i mean... Xavier with capes is like...#look at Starry Witness...#I was originally going to Elezen for Zayne... but AuRa was fun for him too...#and my brain decided... to just draw AuRa Zayne until I realized it too late#oh well AuRa Zayne would be fun#ZAYNE IS DEF A SAGE#SAGE IS LIKE MEDICAL GUNDAM#ALSO ALL THE TIDBITS WITH THE ACTUAL MEDICAL TERMS IN THE SKILLS FOR SAGE#It was tough picking Rafayel's job...#was swinging between Ninja and Viper because... he's using the twin daggers and all#and then I remembered there was Pictomancer X'D#had to put him in it!#(and yes Rafayel is TOTALLY a Lalafell. Because it would be hilarious when he goes around nipping enemies in the ankles)#(also Lalafells in FF14 are SHREWD. So very sneaky lil potatoes...)#Sylus I immediately thought of Reaper#But was like wait... he likes guns and stuff... Machinist would be fun#but then I saw the Artifact gear and was like... NAH#Monk is also another one... it fits in terms of it being a brawler but not Sylus vibes ya know what i mean?#and yes... Sylus i decided way before Zayne to be an AuRa...#so now the team has two AuRas...
55 notes
·
View notes
Text
Btw I can't believe all the Hamilton edits with Hamilton the musical, especially to Wait for it but when they're done with Carlos
Like girl be fr if someone is his Burr that's not Carlos that's Nico fucking Rosberg, he owned that role
Carlos and Lewis have had beef for a month because Vasseur gave Lewis Carlos's job, you want bitter soul crushing rivalry that's been destroying another guy's life step by step, that's been booked by Britney since day one
#lewis hamilton#carlos sainz#nico rosberg#f1#formula 1#ferrari#edit#hamilton the musical#brocedes#BE FR I woulf be mad too if someone stole my job that's normal#you want the yearning the fury the jealous heart that's nico for you#Carlos doesn't have all that hate specifically for Lewis like it's normal now they got beef because of the 2025 seat#but he would have had beef with whoever took that seat last minute you know#yes recovered Hamilton fan getting ptsd from these edits speaking wait for it it's not the song for the sainz-lewis beef#no shade to whoever did these edits because they look really good#just I have seen like five of them with Carlos and Lewis to Wait for it#WHERE ARE THE BROCEDES EDITS TO WAIT FOR IT#WHERE ARE THE WORLD WAS WIDE ENOUGH EDITS WITH BROCEDES#your obedient servant is NOT carlos and lewis song it's lewis and nico#No Carlos hasn't looked back on where he failed and every place he checked the only common thread has been Lewis's disrespect#THAT'S NICO#Unless there is some serious Lewis Carlos lore I am missing I am sorry no#I write for a magazine where a colleague 'steals' an article I wanted to write I get pissed off but I don't break into dramatic songs#on how the guy has been ruining my life forever#RESPECT. NICO'S. ANGER.
105 notes
·
View notes
Text
i need a fic of soap bringing ghost home to his family for the holidays. his family’s always disapproved of everything; being queer, being in the military, being with ghost and it’s all over not a great time but they’re trying to pretend for the sake of the holiday. they get into it after dinner one night though and for once soap isn’t backing down, not when it’s ghost they’re attacking, when the power suddenly goes out. soap moves just in time for a shot to come through the window and he orders his family to get down
graves and what’s left of shadow company followed them to glasgow; it’s the first time they’ve been away from the 141 and they think it’ll be their best chance to take them out. johnny and simon are left behind as they become soap and ghost and soap’s childhood home becomes a battleground, his hysterical family who still think he can’t be that good of a soldier now civilians that he has to protect and get out in one piece
#its the full gambit of sisters with their partners and kids#all with respectable normal jobs and lives#then theres john still running around playing soldier and now shacking up with his commanding officer#soaps been quiet the entire time just gritting his teeth and letting them have go after go in the name of peace#ghosts been fuming the entire time but his own family trauma and not wanting to go against johnnys wishes keeps his mouth shut#and then that instant switch the second the bullet comes through the window#theyre sergeant mactavish and lieutenant ghost now and they dont give a single shit about anything butgetting out alive#‘we need to call the police!’#‘call local pd who’re drunk off their arses and never fired their guns in their fucking lives yeah right’#‘this isnt the time for you to play soldier’#‘youre right. this isnt a game. its war and youre gonna shut the fuck up and let me get you outta this alive’#ghost sneaks upstairs to get the hidden guns he brought and to get one of the kids whod been napping#soap stays to get everyone out of the way and watch out for hostiles#ghost slides him a sniper rifle and he takes out the sniper on the opposite roof and when he looks back at his family theyre#looking at him like theyve never seen him before#i just need soap whos been underestimated his entire life showing just how competent he really is#soapghost#ghostsoap#soap mactavish#soap cod#ghost cod#simon ghost riley#we’re a team. ghost team
100 notes
·
View notes
Note
my take on the agnes/gertrude/elias situationship is that gertrude seems like the most normal one to outsiders (she's less prone to arson/creepy mind reading at inopportune moments), but she is still the archivist and therefore kind of eldritch. everyone in the institute has just sort of accepted that yes, the archivist does sleep with her eyes open/is muttering incantations, and it's the least weird thing she's done this week
ok the funny thing is, technically, if by "most normal" we're going off of who is the most human, Gertrude is the normal one. but I don't believe for a second that that's how she's perceived among the rest of the archive staff lmao. like...all her assistants wind up dead, she actively works to make sure her filing system is the least effective one possible, she takes random mysterious vacations and comes back looking like she's just gone ten rounds with a tornado...I absolutely think that Gertrude has the reputation of being the eccentric on staff. I've prepared this diagram to illustrate my point:
#asks#tma#my art#thanks for your ask!! you're absolutely right that there isn't really a 'normal' one out of the three of them lol#'does your elias design have glasses or not lani' the answer to that is that he has glasses if im having trouble#drawing his face without them#my jonah has glasses 100% of the time so uh lets say he was myopic originally and his sight got better when he aligned himself with the eye#so he doesnt NEED them anymore but after wearing them for so long he kinda liked how he looked in them#and sometimes they add something to a look yknow#(i wear glasses and i actually think i look better in them i would miss them if my eyes suddenly were perfect)#so he sometimes still wears them. and if he doesnt feel like it everyone else just assumes hes got contacts in that day#ANYWAY that is irrelevant to the content of this ask. uh i think gertrude being weird and scary and never seeming to do her actual job is a#running joke among archives staff. like they make up potential crazy things gertrude could be doing right now whenever she's late or#on vacation (they could never come up with anything wilder than what she's REALLY doing)
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
[ID from alt: natsuyuu matonato fanart done with sketched-in shading. natori, casually dressed, is slouching back onto matoba, who kneels behind him in his usual kimono and leans in close to smile at him.]
HELLO. i still love them forever
#art tag#natsume yuujinchou#would you believe i worked on putting color on this for like. possibly three hours#and then decided nothing i was doing looked better than just plain values. so!#and also. matoba looks a little creachery. well he is a little creature. natori who is both the most normal and the most extra#guy of all time and he's married to the creepiest guy on the planet and they have a beautiful life togehter#exe#altho i dont know if this is at the point of them having a beautiful life together actually. i changed up the expressions to be more. ambig#this could be natori playing it extremely cool while matoba menaces at him. this could be natori two seconds away from blowing up#when matoba negs him after natori was trying to put out (end tag) an olive branch a thousandth time#this could be they are inadvisably drunk as hell together. or natori just got his ass kicked on a job.#or maybe they are happily married and hanging out for fun! call in now with your votes
38 notes
·
View notes
Note
How can I bribe you into helping me get a job in the industry, other than promising my undying love, which you already have <3
The industry is horrible and awful, low pay, long hours, no real chance of advancing.
Whenever people touring the station or new interns ask me for advice, I always tell them to change careers lol
#ask#plus; i'm a producer for a statewide channel sure; but it's nothing huge or glam#like;; i've gotten to work with celebrities but that's more luck than normal operations#and i've said 'i don't hate what i'm doing i hate where i do it' so much for so long that i don't even believe it anymore#i would only wish a career in television on people i hate#but i do try to be even minded as best i can; like i'm acutely aware i work in probably one of the most toxic environments in the state#i've been sexually harassed; grabbed; locked in a room and screamed at by a psycho freelance producer#been injured and seen graphic injuries that happened because of incompetence; seen theft and assault#and had the men at work get aggressive with me because i'm the youngest and shortest and only woman#told by management i was only given opportunities because i'm a woman and it looks better for their image if they pretend to put me up fron#had my bosses retaliate against me for refusing to do illegal things for them#to the point where i was below the poverty line for several months because of it#told by hr that i have no right to complain about anything because even though i run their biggest show i'm just a contractor#had my work stolen and other people's names put on it so those people get the emmys that my work has earned#and lied to about pay rates so I wouldn't know I'm paid less than the men who have fewer responsibilities and less experience than i do#and now they're waging a war against LGBT employees by promoting ultra-right viewpoints and banning mentions of pride#so no i really don't want to help bring anyone into this environment#every day driving in and driving home i just think about driving my car into a concrete wall#i'm looking for a new job i promise
27 notes
·
View notes
Note
Since the Neighborhood are adventurers, I'd like to imagine they travel by sea a fair amount of times too! A nice boat trip while occasionally breaking out into a sea shanty, eh? (And for gits and shiggles, to keep up with the whole.. Eddie in water joke, I imagine the poor guy is clumsy enough to go overboard. He may not be unconscious during it, but it wouldn't make it any less funny with the group desperately trying to pull him back aboard-)
OH OH OH allow to ramble at length about this!!! what an idea!!! i fucking love boats & the ocean & being on the water so this ask is checking all my boxes rn
first i imagine that the length of their trips varies wildly, along with the quality due to the glorious variation in weather & bodies of water. and i'm choosing to believe this universe uses tall ships instead of like... fantasy steam ships. because i fucking love tall ships. the sails, the rigging, the elegance... an absolute bitch to maintain and maneuver <3
i imagine that depending on the ship, captain, and size of the crew, the Neighborhood may be required to help out to earn their keep. especially since they're a crew of nine eight, and some ships are woefully understaffed!
I'd imagine that Poppy sometimes takes the cook's job if the crew is currently lacking one (or if the cook wants a fucking break, jeebus it's a demanding job. there's a reason ship cooks in moves/tv are always stern & serious). Barnaby can probably charm his way into doing nothing but provide music/entertainment (much to Sally's aggravation). everyone else are plain deckhands
of course i imagine that that doesn't always happen! plenty of ships are probably content to just take their coin and tranport them. some of them (Eddie, Poppy) may still wheedle their way into helping out though. they strike me as characters that can't Not help
who i imagine loves their little water journeys: Barnaby, Wally, Sally, Wormie
neutral: Frank, Julie
hates it: Poppy, Howdy, Eddie
allow me to provide reasoning!!
Barnaby's impeccable balance probably means that he's stable as a rock even in choppy waters, and i'm reasoning that he doesn't get seasick either. his vestibular system is as solid as his sea legs! he probably finds the whole experience relaxing as anything. He gets to just recline on the bowsprit's base or wherever he isn't in the way & smoke/play his accordion/nap.
Wally just has such a love of life and new things, so why wouldn't he love being on the water? it's different! it's new every time! there are ample things to learn about and do! Home probably keeps his systems stable so that he doesn't have to deal with seasickness. though it probably takes him a little bit to find his sea legs... catch him stumbling around like a lil newborn lamb. sometimes he is facedown on the deck <3 i imagine he'd enjoy going aloft!
Sally would probably love the inherent romanticism and adventure of it all. Who knows what dangers and glory they may face! I bet she writes up a storm during this time - plenty of story material! food for the imagination! what does Anne say... Scope for the imagination, i believe! i bet she also loves having a captive audience. Literally. they're stuck on this ship with her <3
so many lines for Wormie to climb... so many little places to crawl into... new people to trick into giving her treats... down time where the Neighborhood is relaxing in one place. abundant time for affection!
Frank probably doesn't have strong feelings about it. It's a boring ship with no bugs or things to do. Except when he manages to rope crew members into having a lil impromptu fight club. Or when the Neighborhood is put to work - i wonder if he'd find the maintenance soothing or pleasant... or if he'd relish in the hard work of pulling lines
Julie is likely in a similar boat (ha) as Frank. once the initial "wow! whoah!" wears off, it can get boring! and games are limited - there's only so much you can do on a ship (depending on the size of the ship of course), and there might be strict rules to keep passengers out of the crew's way and to lower risk. She probably entertains herself by "bothering" her friends and the crew & cloudgazing.
Poppy... do i need to explain? wooden ship on the ocean, which i understand can be terrifying. who knows what lurks below the waters? if the weather will change on a dime? if one of the flammable things on board catches fire? if the ship hits something? etc. I imagine it's impossible to get her to go above decks. They have to literally push her statue-frozen body onto the ship when they first board
Howdy! honestly i just think it'd be really fucking funny if he gets Violently seasick! like, curled into a ball in his bunk & involuntarily making agonized noises. he sounds like a ghost w/ all the pained moaning. his sea legs suck unless he stances all four at the right distance to anchor himself in place. he's a weak, sickly, fragile little thing, take mercy on him... he doesn't even have the strength left to swindle or sell...
Eddie. now we get to the point of anon's ask - his sea legs would be nonexistent. he's staggering and stumbling all over the place. the ship just barely tilts and he's smacking into a mast or careening across the deck. and of course, hitting the guardrails at precisely the right speed/angle to allow him to tumble overboard. i bet this happens enough that every time the Neighborhood is so much as on a dock, there is at least one person either holding his arm or acting as a barrier between him and the water. as soon as they get on any ship, he's immediately sent below decks. any attempt he makes to come up is instantly blocked.
there's a lot of both comedic and angst potential there. small ship, calm waters? comedic. some neighbors are playing cards, there's on off-screen splash & Frank immediately sighs and gets up all "god damn it, Eddie-". lmao im imagining him floating there and rapid-fire blabbering in fear 'cause there's a shark (it's not a shark. it's a dolphin. everyone on board is so unimpressed.) he's sobbing in fear as they pull him in <3
but angst? imagine there's a storm. imagine it's an all-hands-on-deck situation, every available hand is needed, and Eddie is strong as fuck - he'd be a monster at pulling lines. probably wouldn't even need to sweat them. but a violently rocking ship, slick decks, maybe even waves splashing over the deck... oof i can so easily imagine Eddie slipping & sliding right over the side. maybe while the others watch. maybe they try to grab him, but they're too late. and in such a horrible storm, there's not much they can do - it's dark, the water is incredibly turbulent, the ship can't turn around easily, there's torrential rain. a high stress situation! i'm imagining Frank grabbing a lifebuoy, firmly fastening it to a pin, and then throwing himself overboard after Eddie. something to think about! (i'm imagining that after the storm clears up enough, everyone rushes to the side to check. Eddie & Frank are trailing after the boat, lashed to the buoy and exhausted. maybe a little banged up, but overall fine!)
and then yeah.... oh the shanties Barnaby could lead... the whole ship sings! and then them all in their bunks (or in their hammocks!) in the [insert term for living quarters here, it can vary] when its sleepytime. y'all would not believe the shenanigans that can occur in the fo'c'sle (or the main hold, basically wherever the ship's sleeping quarters are), especially before actual sleep occurs. peak silly time.
there's a lot of potential here, thank you anon!
like now i'm thinking - what about sea monsters? or jobs that Require them to go on the water, as in the job takes place on a ship? ocean battles! ocean searches!
#since eddie is pretty much banished to the holds no matter what#i imagine he & poppy are the main neighbors looking after howdy in his frail sickly state#im imagining eddie sitting on the bunk with howdy in his lap#howdy feels someone petting his hair and blearily cracks his eyes open to be all '...barn...?'#barnaby: *is actually eddie*#howdy: *groans & squeezes his eyes shut* oh god not You...#eddie: *mildly offended* hey now...#im also having a lot of fun imagining frank & eddie after they get reeled in after the storm debacle#they'd just flop onto the deck. exhausted. waterlogged. still holding hands though#they'd probably end up with colds... snifflin and sippin tea while cuddled up in a bunk under the same blanket...#everyone hovering nervously because for quite a while there they actually thought they Lost them both for good....#SO MUCH POTENTIAL#i imagine that howdy actively avoids jobs where he knows they'll have to take a boat#oh his dismay and horror on the times he comes along and they have to unexpectedly go on the water....#even if its just a short trip across a river you know howdy is bent over the stern & feeding the fishes#LMAO WAIT#im imagining wally going over too but in a really funny way. he's standing normally but when the ship tilts too hard#he just slides across the deck and right off the ship. not even blinking or moving. he just goes 'oh! im sliding now'#and everyone turns just in time to watch him vanish over the side w/ perfectly posture#i think this is a situation where barnaby would toss his hat to the side and jump right in after him lmao#but in a funny way! the waters are Calm! the ship is Slow! he climbs right back on with wally (perfectly fine) slung over his shoulder#home lectures wally the best they can w/ the language barrier <3 and barn resolves to teach wally how to swim#because apparently that's not in his skillset! he just falls in the water and Sinks! well. he floats for a minute until he inevitably sinks#& he does not react to it at all. he's exact opposite of eddie on the 'how they handle being in water' scale#eddie: lowkey panics. swims for safety#wally: lets it happen <3
59 notes
·
View notes
Text
It really sucks when a barista at the little stand you get breakfast from most days of the week who you normally have a good vibe with is shitty about a homeless person right in front of you and now you don't even wanna get your coffee there.
#That reads quippy but like it isnt first world problems I actually have a huge problem with that#With like telling any customer that the crackheads are the worst part of the job#And you had to kick one out of the bathroom this morning#Like I get it#Its normal to feel scared and unsafe in these situations#But when your voice is devoid of empathy for them at all and you sound jaded about it#Idk that sort of#I see both sides and Id want people to feel safe#But like now Im taking their side#Because like they are sleeping on the damn sidewalk and dont have a societal safety net#Maybe I overthink this or am just sensitive to it bc where Ive been but like#The hardness in a persons voice when they talk about how much it sucks dealing with the unhoused#Lets me know they aint someone I would trust#If that makes sense#Like I thought we were cool Stephen but#You actually bordered on contempt in your voice talking about booting out quote crackheads#So like I kinda look less at you now sorry man
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
having another one of my job-related crises
#where are the jobs for blokes that do fuck all. where are they!!!!!!!#i am quite literally looking for jobs where you do nothing. you do not understand how much i dont want to do anything#granted my current job has a certain amount of doing nothing in that i have the time to look for jobs where i do nothing#but i want to do even more nothing. do you understand#if i lived on my own i probably would consider some weird night shift job#but its probably better i have the routine i have living during the day like a normal person#despite the drawbacks of my cursed routine#where are those jobs i see people making tiktoks about where you do fuck all in the office and send like one email a day. id kill for that#my dream is to be paid for like. mostly sitting somewhere where i can work on my needlepoint#id even do mindless data entry. PLEASE pay me for mindless data entry i love repetitive tasks. if you let me listen to music im unstoppable#ive come across a couple data entry jobs but i think they always require a college degree#and its like oops sorry i never had the time or money for that! still dont! however i can promise you my autism is qualification enough#my dad talks about the market research jobs he used to have and how for like the entry level jobs there#there was clearly so much goof off time they were playing early computer games and shit#but there were like so much more data entry jobs that i guess are obsolete now bc of technology#and its like yes technology good but theyve destroyed an important job category: jobs where you do fuck all#whenever i have one of these crises i also check out gigs n jobs on craigslist and unfortunately everything there seems so sketchy#like every 'personal assistant' job sounds either super pervy or like im going to get serial killed#i should get paid a million dollars a year for doing nothing at all i think#anyway once again my only option is my successful director dreams. would be great if theyd actually happen#<- guy that doesnt spend enough time actually working on creative works in progress#well anyway. such is my mental state today thank you for your time
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
unnerving to see people younger than me living their lives and doing adult stuff successfully. stop that you're supposed to eat ice cream for dinner and be unemployed
#stop making me look bad by having a husband and a baby rn you're 22 fr 😭#tho i do have two friends who got married at 18 and 21 and actually i look good compared to them bc everyone they know was like stoppppp#they dated for ike 4 months before getting engaged lmao#but some people who got married young are actually doing okay and normal and that makes me look bad lol#not necessarily always abt marriage tho#people younger than me with an actual career or grown up job make me feel this way also#anyway#every day im living a life indistinguishable from when i was a teenager and many people my age are already parents with mortgages and such#😐😐😐#anyway i spent my grown up job money on some flowers and now i have no job bc i let my mean supervisor bully me into quitting#i also spent grown up job money on an oven (successfully) and a car (unsuccessfully)#i am rlly just out here.... telletubby with a credit card fr#job just give you money and you can spend it on whatever you want (but watch out)#anyway car was a piece of garbage that couldn't pass inspection 😔#was so proud of myself paying cash for my first car but there's a reason it was that cheap lmao
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
new nails ! ,,,, i know i didnt show my old ones here when i got yhem but here are the currents ,,,,
pardon the Awkwardness. i dont. take pictures of nails. very often. i also took the second and third pictures in actual pitch black darkness i was completely guessing where my hand was in relation to my camera and making last minute adjustments when my flash would turn on for like a SECOND
previous were also holographic, just the white powder w no colored polish underneath (just my natural nail.) this is gold holographic powder on top of a really nice pale yellow ,,, im thinking next time just doing the yellow bcs this color did turn out a bit more gold (kinda piss yellow when not under flash/sunlight,) than we were expecting
and here were my previous nails !!! which i loved very much. i just remembered i had pictures of them agdhahdjs
#salmon jibberish#i'd love to try acrylics/press on longer nails some day but w my job i dunno for now#ive already bent my normal nails back at work so like ....... do i really wanna test it with longer nails .... even if those are stronger ..#anyway .... hehehe yellow sun nails :)))))#it wouldve been better and more 'sunny' (to me at least) w the color the nails were without the chrome powder on top but !!!!! ehehehe#mom did my nails also! this is shellac. and i have incredibly shaky hands so it looks like ass when i do my own nails ;;;#she's a liscensed cosmetologist ^_^ <33
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
Wow! It's sure been a while since I've posted a tarot card! The last one I posted was my Strength card almost a year ago (Which y'all should go check out btw. I feel like everyone's sleeping on it it's such a good card)
Recently I've just felt inspired to work on some cards and the Swords suit has been at the front of my mind. I think I just relate with the overall journey of the suit so my mind likes to chew on it.
But anyway, interpretations are below the cut so check those out!
The two of swords is a card of choices. Unlike other 2 cards within the minor arcana, this card seems to be a reluctant participant. The main figure's pure white clothing suggests a level of naiveté-- that the confidence from the ace of swords has gotten them in trouble they weren’t able to predict. Perhaps the figure wielded their swords without properly understanding how to use them.
Regardless of how they got here, the fact still remains: the two of swords has been presented with a decision and this decision only has two options. No matter how hard the figure attempts to find another solution, the truth will always remain that they will have to choose one thing over another. And neither choice seems all that appealing.
The two of swords signifies a situation that many of us have faced in our lives: a stalemate that is begging for someone to put it out of its misery. But to end what seems so endless you'll have to take action. Trying to play both sides and keep everyone happy hasn't worked and seems to only prolong the conflict. It's time to step on some toes and finally bring this situation to its conclusion.
But whose side to choose? The figure appears to take an intuitive approach.
While intuition often seems antithetical to the logical and facts-based swords, the two of swords acknowledges the limits of relying only on thought alone and asks their intuition to step in. They've blindfolded themselves next to a vast ocean to connect to their subconscious, knowing that it will guide them towards a conclusion that's just.
Of course, they've still brought along their swords. After all, every element has its place in our lives; none is better than the other.
With an approach that is both logical and intuitive, the figure aims to wade through the confusion of their current situation and make the choice that they feel is right.
Reversed, that blindfold seems to serve an entirely different purpose.
Instead of quieting their mind and centering themselves, the figure seems to now be running from the situation. They're overwhelmed by the conflict around them and would rather be blind to the consequences than rip the bandaid off and face the ensuing trouble.
In some cases toughing it out until you can leave a situation can be the correct decision, but that doesn't seem to be what the reversed two of swords is doing. They appear to be in denial more than anything.
The status quo, though causing them strife, to the figure appears safer than rocking the boat. Their logical mind knows that things would end if they took action, but there’s something keeping them from doing that.
When you pull a reversed two of swords, ask yourself what your choices are in the current situation. Why do you feel so indecisive? What do you gain from remaining on the sidelines?
#Normally I include my analysis of why I chose a certain Yakuza character or scene#but my brain didn't have anything interesting to say right now :(#I'm gonna use the cop out explanation and say that the emotions of my design get the idea across well#But I guess it isn't much of a cop out since I DO think I did a good job portraying the emotions I wanted to portray...#Right before I posted this I had a brief period of wanting to die because I thought I'd drawn Nishiki's left hand backwards...#It just looked odd okay?#But anyway like and subscribe for more sporadically uploaded art I suppose#yakuza#my art#kiryu kazuma#nishikiyama akira#tarot card design#2 of swords#yakuza 0 spoilers
5 notes
·
View notes