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sneeg talking about vod watchers watching these twohickey vods without music or anything to focus on (like music) really made me realize how insane i am for watching this shit (like the two 11 hour vods of CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK DING CLICK CLICK CLICK DING) without playing any of my own music in the background or speeding it up to 2x or some shit .
#real vod watchers will listen to sneeg sing along to songs they cant fucking hear#/nsrs#only thing i consistently skip is the pee breaks n shit#and yeah i sometimes just . watch these . without doing anything else (like drawing for example) other than Watching Vod#i hate the recycling bottles part like holy fuck man STOP ACCIDENTALLY THROWING THE EMPTY BOTTLES INTO THE WATER BOTTLE STACK FUCCCCKKKKKK#and my god its so so boring like please#at least i can watch exp bar go up when he’s upstairs with the brewing stands#but in the recycling part i just have to wait until its over .#watch streamer man fuck up and throw a turtle helmet into the piles of bottles#cry#wait even more because for SOME REASON I HAVENT THOUGHT OF JUST SKIPPING THRU THOSE PARTS . FUCK#why am i even watching this#also if you saw my previous post similar to this one uh no you didnt ? Lol#at least the clicking doesnt drive me insane (am one of the ppl who like the clicks :3)#all i get to hear is the fuck ass allays giggling weirdly or whatever#why do they sound like that . they sound creepy . but only like a little bit idk#god please just reach alchemy lvl 100 (ng 2) PLEASE#i like when he do the turtle master potions#exp bar go up yaaayyyy#counting the seconds for when this is over . yaaayyyyy#1500 exp yaaayyyyyyyy#anyway i guess ill go fuck myself#‘feel bad for the vod watchers’ says sneeg . Fuck You says i (who is watching the vod)#trsmp#trsmp vodblogging#sneegsnag#tr!sneegsnag#trsmp sneegsnag#the realm sneeg#kristiliyaps
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originnssssss who remembers origins i Loved origins
#origins smp#i heard theres been like three failed origins revivals WHAT EVEN HAPPENED i was only there for the first one😅#beeduo#otubbo#oranboo#beeduo fanart#i rewatched some origins streams a little while ago oh my god theyre SO FUNNY#DUDE DOES ANUONE REMMEBER THAT ONE STREAM I COUDLNT FIND RHIS ONE STREAM#IR WAS LIKE THE ONE WHERE TUBBO WAS SINGING SUGAR BY MAROON FIVE and they were being really Funny thay shit h#ad me CRYING in 2021 Please i swear this happened imnot crazy but also they might have been separate streams actuallu i dont rememebr its#been wayyyyyyy too long#BUT IT HAPPENED I PROMISE Sorry i've been gone for a while ive been very busy lots of Things going on went to Six flags then jad a surprise#bday party then i had to buy shoes for prom then Go to prom and also i do figure skating and am out like every day idknt have Time im sorry☹#had a crepe yesterday it was sooooo goood im like learning to drive too that shit is boring as hell my dad kept gettign 😑 bc i couldn't stop#yawning DRIVING IS SO BORING its not my fault😭😭😭😭#ok what else ohhhh. y god i locked in SO HARD for this physics essay u guys dont even knowim getting ONE HUNDRED on that trust i just really#wanted to share ok i love you bge#WAIT ACTUALLT SORRU IM LIKE REMMEBERJNG THE ORIGINS STREAMS K WAYCHED#RANBOO WAS SO FUCKING FUNNT IN THOSE STREAMS TOO LIKE I REMEMBER NIKI WANTED TO SEE THEIR BASE and tubbo was like ooh maybe we can put like#water down here for you niki we need a water system and ranwas like Do we though?I WAD WAYCHING THAT .LIKE DAMMMNNNNNN OM LIKE GIGGLING WRIT#ING THIS RIGHT NOW I CAN HEARTHE CLIP HE DID NOTTT WANT HER IJNTHEIR BASE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I NEED TO FIDN THAT STREAM WHERE IRS LIKE TOMMY AND JACK A D FHEHRE LOKE TALKING ABOUT DUOS AND THEN JACK SAYS THE MOST OUT OF POCKET SHIT I#VE EVER HEARD LKKE I LITERALLU HAD TK PAUSE. H PHONE AND BURST OUR LAUHJIMG MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOORRRRR DO U GUYS R EME ER WTF IM TLAKING AB#OUT IDK HOW TO FIND THESE STREAMS Oh my god u really Had to be there early 2021 that was liye the funniest era of mt life i wlild be#Tearing up from lauhjimg every day I MISS WAYCHING STREAMS LIVE CHAT WAS SO FUNNY I wishe it was archivedI WISH MORE STREAMERS KEPT CHAT ON#SCREEN i defiently understand why most didn't like Wyd when chats annouing ad hell but also Me 3 years later is interested in what the pub#lic had to say.... ok Now bye
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I'm actually so obsessed with him it's not even funny if i'm not listening to a TikTok or music directly related to him I can't focus free me free me
This is @/cherubpuppet's OC for a object show [au? pitch? wip show? How do I categorize this] and I've been destroyed by the fact that ruler art is infinitely superior [and 10x longer] and i don't have a good enough grasp on lip gloss's personality to make fanfiction so I am frozen in "want make fanart but fanart takes effort :["
#also object shows are the new mlp community change my mind /ref#from what ive seen a very large part of the community is centered around death/gore or mature topics? it reminds me of the mlp infection au#that and smile hd and everybody keeps saying object shiws are kids shows - if kids are making this stuff then good for them /gen#every fandom has its toxic/proship/18+ side obviously but from my pov gen alpha needed something they coudl handle age appropriate extremes#with - its just alot harder to make compelling emotional angst/gore with newer ultra sanitized shows or w/ mascot horror#and like thats a whole nother tooic but its obvious to me younger kids have flocked to mascot horror so harshly because average kids tv is#much more afraid of tackling any big topics to the point that the ones that DO [bluey] immediately are pushed into front and center#but i mean i also rewatched a few episodes of the shows i grew up with and ngl i think we need shit like ren and stimpy and invader zim#i hate ren and stimpy and i didnt grow up with zim but i grew up with pbs kids shit and that shit looking back was hella boring i never#cared for any of the tv shows i saw aside from elmos world and even then i was hoping that something gorey would happen. at like 5 yrs old#im rambling anyway im not sure if im actually going to get into the os communitg but i AM horribly attached to tape to the point that its#maybe possibly becoming harmful to my mental health so im gonna stick around for him for like months#just know that if im not posting anything its because im obsessed with this guy#oh also DID/MALE SA REP LETS FUCKIN GOOO#I LOVE PSYCHOLOGY AND IVE HAD LIKE 4 FRIENDS WITH DID/OSDD I NEED MORE POSITIVE REP OF STIGMATIZED/COMPLEX DISORDERS !!!!!#art#tape dispenser#search for smos#talk talks#EDIT NO. NO DONT SAY IM THE ONLY PERSON ON TUMBLR WHO HAS USED THE SMOS TAG NO. OH MY GOD#PLEASE BEING OBSESSED WITH SOMEONE ELSES OC IS SO GARD DONT LEAVE ME ALONE DO I NEED TO BUILD THIS FANDOM FROM THE GROUND UP??? NOO
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Random people put a like on my ryusen marriage post every once in a while this makes me happy i like ryusen
#Listen to my problems#actual s tier ship ...#the best most awesome ships in the fandom are ryusen and kohagen#a tier ships are kohaluna (shoukd be s tier but they dont have enough canon points) and mozgen#that one guy on twt who ships senxen like a maniac is fucking awesome also. and putting senku on top is actually more based than anything in#this life or the next. like yeah ??? yeah ??????????#until it becomes shotacon then sorry#but like GOD come on now#the reason why im not talking about tksn is because its in its own tier called tksn which is above everything else#actually stanxe is in the tksn tier too thats why i didnt talk about it#oh my god wait the reason why i like ryusen so much is because i see ryusui as asexual and senku as ... not !#waiter waiter ! more nonstandard pairings please !! wait i hope this post doesjt show up in the main tags im sorry#another ship i really love is kohahyo because like shes so cute and not even scared of him#i love shipping kohaku with men even though shes literally a lesbian to me because shes my comphet queen whos looking for a baby daddy#like if she cant have senku then she will pick gen but senku wants her to do it with tsukasa out of scientific curiosity but also kohaku#just existing as she is makes guys like her and i believe in my heart that hyoga has a soft spot for her cuz everyone does and shes the#baby of the fight crew (god she really is the youngest and tiniest member...) i say the fight team i literally mean only hyoga tsukasa and#kohaku because the three of them are always deployed together but i like to think hyoga has a little crush on her#like he has a little crush on gen too but because hes fun to bully and cute but for kohaku he wants to take care of her#and she will never fucking know because he will take this to his grave. sorry this is a ryusen post i love ryusen#what are the other good ships ... honestly joel and spiders is kinda.... OH MY GOD WAIT SPIDERS AND RYUSUI. SO AWESOME#i call her spiders because i used to cover her body with spiders but her name is minami and shes the reporter lady in love with tsukasa. my#favourite ryusui ships are with spiders and senku who are both madly in love with tsukasa (coincidence)#there was that one shipping chart i saw where everybody loves nikki and i thought that was funny as fuck like thanks ! true !!#i also like shipping gen with maya because i think he should sleep with as many people who can break his pelvis as possible. fandom bicycle#and ryusui gets to follow stanxe around because everyones his partner. i saw a fanart of him making out with taiju.. the scream i scrumpt...#but also yeah you need to commit to it or itll become lame and boring#i didnt talk about s/g because it sucks#anyway say congratulations to dr and mr stone for finally getting married congrats ryusen i dont even ship you two
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i feel like a part of my soul has been ripped from my chest and i dont know why.
#is this a bad time to mention i dont even believe in souls?#i really dk why.#no this isnt abt jiro somehow apparently having a loving family#(ok like. at least 1/4 of it is BUT STILL. NOT THE POINT)#(part of me feels awkward abt it bc just. huh? youre telling me. this guy. that i basically am the irl version of. has a loving family???)#(/j and all but just. idk part of me feels awkward now? it just. a guy who blew himself up for most of the same ideals i have)#(gets to have the one thing i yearn so very hard for. everyday of my life. but can never have.)#(ill get over this in like. 2 hours. hopefully. most of thats just shock anyways.)#just. for the past some days. besides a couple things and people. hurt and love havent really. made me feel much of anything#like being cared for by actual ppl even online. yeah. it still does but#even my fantasies don’t entertain me anymore#oh god am i becoming lopt. save me fuck#UNLESS this means i get mason as my bf. then hell fucking yeah (kidding kidding kIDDINGG i dont wanna be lopt. please.)#but srsly. usually i can envoke some sorta reaction from myself if its brutal enough#but. nothing.#id assume that im over doing it usually. but i havent in a good while#maybe this is some what where my art/writers block is coming from#whatever this hell is.#time to go on a spiral of mildly depressing and somewhat cryptic posts (cryptic if i didnt info dump in the tags that is)#why is it so hard to confront issues when you dont even know what the issue is?#i just. wanna be able to make myself feel something.#not in a “i have no one but myself” way for once. just. i dont wanna have to rely on others for my emotions#i want to feel a pang of hurt. yet it feels so empty. i dont want to harm myself. i just want to feel it.#anyways ig.#ig im gonna just sleep#which tbh im growing to hate bc like. i feel all i do is sleep. i sleep to avoid how much my own body hurts. i sleep to ignore my issues#i sleep to ignore the fact i keep forgetting to respond to people even though ik i have to at some point. i sleep to avoid the dread of not#getting anything done. i sleep just because im bored.#and im tired of sleeping.#but. it feels worse awake. my body hurts. my mind hurts. it all just hurts.
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Skypiea time part 2
She is a woman..... this is sanji's influence... in whiskey peak his slashes were non gendered
Ace just letting himself get pushed into the river like aight my bad I will take my punishment.... he really is so well mannered (it sounds like I'm talking about a dog)
Conis showing that nami influence.... gfs....
Nami and luffy twins moment look how relieved she is... this whole fight is so theirs...
Also how funny it is that the milk girl gave ace a shirt.... also new pants??? She must think he lost the shirt in the river.... no girl he is just a slut...
Nami: okay ❤️ yay ❤️
Noland just thinking about where karugara is and if he is alright in his EXECUTION!! SICK AND TWISTED
OMG BOUNDMAN INSPO????
NO ACEEE NOOOOOOOO
THE END OF ACES STORY IS THAT THE COFFE IS NO LONGER BITTER BC THEY SERVE IT WITH MILK AND WHY AM I EMOTIONAL ABOUT IT
#luffy carrying karugaras will to make cricket hear the bell tolling.... god.... but i think i missed why he knows there is a bell#luffy is smart idk if enel mentioned it or he connected the points between the ones cricket had#and right now i get my answers... damn you oda... cricket making sure he sends luffy where he wants to go so now luffy will get him the bel#nami and her waver are literally invincible... i miss it where did it go.... she and the waver and zeus could take down big mom i am seriou#robin watching the ruins be destroyed... if she could get her hands on enel i onow it would be gruesome#i just will never get over how the people just start praying to god to save them and luffy does like that is insane it is too early#did oda had nika in mind already (by old sketches he did) or some concept of it like what the hell chapter 297... and so explicit...#on the second read it really sticks out like damn.... foreshadowing and also a lot of lore starts here its amazing....#HE LITERALLY MAKES IT SUNNY AGAIN LIKE WHAT ARE WE DOING!!! HELLO???!!!#luffy doing like noland did and making god worthless... i mean different instances but the god the shandians praised was very much like ene#omnipresent and vengeful. have to keep him pleased if you dont want to suffer his wrath etc...#and then the god the people pray to save them is luffy (even if they dont know) which does good and asks for nothing in return.... yeah....#cricket was so worried about them omg.... crying and everything knowing they are alright and also made his life worth it like damn#now everyone comes back to life yeah yeah weve all seen it... only luffy knew a good party could end a 400 year territorial feud#you know the fact that netflix could use skypiea to make a insensitive tasteless two state solution reference with this makes my blood boil#<- very tangential but alos very real solution bc i do not trust them to be critical bellemere said stealing is bad. what next#robin learns about ancestdal weapons and says tss... whatever this isnt history jadhiansksns#so roger followed its guide?? so he was looking for the weapons too?? my axis mundis theory makes sense ajdianiskanao#nvm roger took the poneglyph with the history i guess... thats more boring..... roger took the info on the poneglyphs to laugh tale??? okay#THE COOKS ARE THE GIRLS PARENTS.... I THOUGHT IT WAS THE CAPTAINS DAUGHTER!!! OOOOHHH THAT IS EVEN BETTER THEY ENJOYED ACE EATING SO MUCH 😭#aokiji is the strongest man in the marine headquarters... so that was a fucking lie....#reading one piece
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Oh boy I can't wait to get 5 hours of sleep before this gp 🌚
#fernando. im gonna need you to pull out a banger performance today#to make me waking up worth it#hes gonna win the race guys.......#forgot to draw him with a crown but tnats fine because hes gonna win#if not im gonna need to draw myself au comfort art 😭😭😭😭😭#but god i really hope its noy a boring race(for me) cause ill just be morose and pass out for 4 hours#I WANNA BE HAPPY AGAIN 🥺 LIKE ZANDVOORT#hey guys remember that 15 years ago he won from starting 15 place- dont worry about the circumstances behind that#but ugh i guess i try to think about how good his starts are#like p5 wasnt that promising 2 race ago but hey look where we go#*got#sorry but i am kinda just manifesting a ferr//ari fuck-up and me//rc of course#nothing else matters as long as nandos on top 👏👏👏👏👏👏#my mclaren boy isnt even up there either so :((((#MANIFESTING PLEASE#sorry i am tiresd and delusional and am resigning myself to so little sleep 😭😭😭😭#i gotta be positive in some form!#im tired enough that i really am considering praying to my fernando poster HAHAHAHAH 😭😭😭😭#about to kneel down i swear to god#catie.rambling.txt
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Me when someone criticises sanji's character for being weird, flawed in his view of gender roles, or pathetic
#sanji's veiw of gender and stubborn moral values are SO FASCINATING why would you hate him for it#once in a sanji hate post they were like “hes transphobic and homophobic” and i was like YEAH HE IS <3#(its ok if you dont interpret him that way but i like playing around with that part of his character)#its just SO much more fun to play with a character thats incredibly flawed#and i think people need to remember that a character doesnt have to align with your values to be good#also. people will really point out sanji's pathetic traits as if its a bad thing. like please. wheres my real pathetic man likers at#if sanji didn't have the traits people complain about i would be so bored of him. on god#this post also applies to nami. people will really be like “i hate nami shes *lists everything i find fun or interesting about her*”
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This is so annoying, I don't want to live through another elounor. I've lived through 2 already. 🙄🙃
#also its sad its exactly a year after the bua#like make it less obvious it was planned#maybe there will be something on getting a damn paternity test#end bg please#at least move us forward instead of back#my god#louis tomlinson#lets just watch it unfold but right now i dont wanna#shes so boring#elounor#unfortunately we need to keep waiting#im honestly not expecting true change yet#either something like midway through this year#2024#or by the end of 2025#2024 because of a contract from xfactor#2025 because ten years since the band ended#and 2025 is 15 years since thwy signed to syco#december of 2010
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me when its an aesthetic pic with a skinny tall white woman: 😒🙄😴
me when its literally any other type of woman or a woman with only one or two of the above traits: 😍🥰😊
#the bar is so low#short chubby white women? love em#chubby tall women? love them#skinny woc? love them#hell i would take a skinny tall woc over these boring ass eurocentric ass white women whom prolly only white supremacists like#notice how i have like 0 skinny tall white women ocs 😭 lmaooooo. i wasnt even trying to do that my soul just always hated it#like ooo you look like every other woman on a magazine 😒😒😒😒😒😒😒🥱🥱🥱🥱🥱 bye rebecky i am BORED#be short AT LEAST. or CHUBBY. or MUSCLEY. SOMETHING!!! GIVE ME SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!#you could at least be goth or something. SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#conventional eurocentric beauty lookin ass#its the tradwife lady types. or trad adjacent women. i am tired. you could at least be masc or something. something!! im begging you !!#be different from what society wants from you in SOME WAY! PLEASE! DEAR GOD!!
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#about to rant so ignore me#but like#okay. i have gotten over my assigned professor being changed. its okay. if she says this is better i trust her decision#and the forgetting to tell me and my new professor not having understood he had to read my stuff now is just an unfortunate accident#it happens. im unlucky like that i should be used to it#but now i still havent gotten even a single 'read' or whatever like they do with all my other classmates#if i go to class tomorrow just to find out no one still hasnt read what i have been working on for the last 5 weeks im#im going to explode#i already feel like shit for not meeting my self imposed goals#and its not like they could forget i have had no revisions BECAUSE I REMINDED THEM AGAIN TO PLEASE CHECK THEM OUT ON THE EMAIL I SENT#im just. so desmotivated#im already having the shittiest fucking weeks. maybe months. trying to get myself to work and do stuff#and this makes me feel like im that forgettable or that im gonna get hit with a 'change EVERYTHING' in the worst last possible moment#im so tired my intentions are good please someone for the love of god remember IM HEREEEEEEE#nothing is enjoyable i have no energy i just want to sleep everyday!!!!!!! i feel like im a burden and a bore to anyone!!!!!!!#im not wanted anywhere!!!!!! im fucking painted in here!!!!!#i have begun to talk about stuff unrelated to what i was originally saying 🙃 but oh well#its too much too many things all at the same time#i just want one fucking time where im not forgotten by literally everyone and made feel like a last fucking choice i want good things!!!!!#and im so tired of coming to terms with me never being anything to anyone just for someone to come and make me think maybe im wrong#just for everything to go to shit again!!!!!!!#i want to scream and take space and say how mad i am no more fucking 'dont worry its okay' 'sorry' no fuck off!!!!!!! SCREAM!!!!!#haunted.txt
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why have these last years fucking sucked ass
#slimey-vents#trigger warning below hi did you drink water today and eat something i hope u did ur so cool and amazing pls get some rest gives u a cookie#please scroll past if uninterested i also dont want u to feel obligated like u have to read n listen to me vent and ramble on abt dumb shit#like 2020 - 2024 . have just been ass .#we're not even halfway into 2024 and it already is just#garbage . like its fucking horrible#i dont see how this year could get . any worse ?? but i wouldnt want to get my hopes up on that itll get better ?#like god what has been happening .#covid came up technoblade got cancer and passed away israel's continuing their mass genocide#and a lot of things have happened in my personal life . such as my mother passing away .#and . its just been so fucking hard ??#i wish i had lasting hope in humanity . but tbh i dont think its ever gonna get any better and that really fucks w me#ive been having suicidal thoughts and ive just been in a very shitty mental state recently#like social media#is honestly the only thing i have to live on#i have honestly boring friends n all my friends dont go to my school . my gf doesnt even go to my school#ive had to switch schools after having a fun time and doing a lot better . the only thing that im holding on by a thread to is social media#all my friends . my fandoms . etc . i talk to through my phone and through here#im so glad to have met everybody that i have on here#im sorry this is getting really long ive started going on a ramble but i just want everyone to know that i love yall /p#i appreciate everybody so much . all my moots and my close friends that ive made not only here but irl as well#and everybody that ive talked to throughout the time we've known each other . i really just want to think that everything will get better#everybody that ive met through my years of social media and school have really changed my life . and idk what i wouldve done#having never met any of them . especially my moots on here that ive grown close to#its just been stressful . but ive strived to get through it all . despite how hard it is#and how desperately i just want to let go from everything#but ending one thing doesnt end any pain it just gives it on to someone else#and i know that im way too pussy to end anything anyways .#but on another note .#please remember that you are amazing . talented . strong . and i appreciate and ily so much . /p
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i hate change id rather die
#people arent sticking to their usual selves stop messing w my mind#havent talked to some friends in a while and theyre wildly dif and its making me so irritated can we go back to how we were before#my obsession of waiting by the phone until someone messages me first is coming back in the worst way possible#the coincidences with k stopped and i barely even see him anymore and his clothing style is changing???#hes becoming more normal popular whatever and its so boring please i need a loser boy go back to being that#mb i cant sleep and feelings are coming back but in a weirder way and i have like 2 projects due tmr im not done w and test#i need more friends but in the way of being irl that i can wave at during school and send them videos without talking fr#serenity wake up and come home bro literally ditch school just for me 🙏 believe in u bbg#omg sid is coming back tmr thank god i need my daily walks w him i literally tried w another guy today and it was not the same#bro was yapping ab love whatever idek 😭 told me ab his crushes which good for him ig but i barely know him idc 🙏#insta wants me to stop liking k too cause it deleted all my past stories ab him when i tried to make a highlight#is it so hard to have everyone obsessed with me all the time. cant people just pay attention to me forever#i forgot what i said in this post whatever im deleting it later anyway#post#erics tag#delete later#cringingg that people know stuff ab me and why i am the way i am. maybe they should all die so it becomes a secret again#literally why did i ever talk anything out with anyone other than serenity thats so fucking stupid no shit shes the only good one#thats a lie i love attention i just hate asking for it i cant even be bothered to say more bro im so exhausted but not in a sleeping way yk#kindividual posting
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today i would like to not be touched is that so hard an ask
#being at my parents is like#yay i have soup!!!#oh my god she touched me she touched me and i dont even have the energy to react#oh. its snowing. of course its snowing.#my bed is so much more comfortable here#please stop talking to me god please i need to rest#i'm so bored#did this place get bigger?#i should take a walk#i'm too tired to do anything#this house is so small. i dont think i fit here anymore#god i love my dogs i get to hug my dogs#im just like her arent i.#it's exactly the same as last time#soup shut up challenge#me when i try to write poetry in the notes knowing no ones gonna see it#praying they do#praying someone looks after me
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the worst part about my incredibly low pain tolerance is when people literally don’t believe you. why would i lie
#its not like. that interesting#it just makes me look that much more weak and pathetic#yes that literally!!! hurts!!! that hurt when you did that. apologize?#dont just go ‘that didnt hurt’ well. it did. so :/#its like sensory issues other people don’t experience them so they assume im lying#volume is a big one for me you cant. yell thats my thing. yelling hurts my ears but its not important enough for anyone to#even notice they do it and apologize i have to go ‘hey dont’. i try to be on top of my tone bc i understand thats important to people and i#don’t always do it right (its not like. actively choosing a tone but it’s more often accidentally having a more. um annoyed or bored or#angry sounding one). and bc i know i dont get it right i go ‘whoops sorry i meant it like this’ but people yell and scream and grab and all#and dont even bother going ‘oh im sorry simon i know that hurts you#i know you dislike that for one reason or another i will continue my effort to not do it again’. and like theres an understanding i try to#put across that i know volume control doesnt come easy for everyone and yelling is often an instinctual reaction god knows i do it. but#like acknowledge. please that you hurt me#i hate my shitty pain tolerance it makes things legitimately harder for me. i have a lamp that hurts to turn off and a hairdryer that hurts#to turn on and off. i like being moved around my boyfriend but it hurts 100% of the time. when he picks me up. thing i enjoy. it will hurt#theres no way around it. it sucks really bad is all. i wouldnt lie about this :/#simons spouting#vent :(
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