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graevs666 · 2 years ago

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idk not being able to trust ur own memories thoughts and feelings and constantly second guessing everything u think and do is no way to live

#idk but i feel like im always gaslighting myself n idek whts real or true or right. thoughts w past bad experiences #like I’ve just completely forgotten them. n idk ive had dissociative amnesia growing up w trauma #n it kinda feels like it’s the same thing where i just can’t remember like for so long it was the only thing keeping me up at night #and it makes me feel like a fraud.#I do doubt myself alot. like i always rhink in the bad person and in the wrong from bad experiences I’ve had w ppl #but like what if im not acc wrong n tht they were just harmful n i was struggling w it idk.#i hate thinking of myself as a victim and think im far more likely just a bad person #but everyone around me thinks the exact opposite even therapist so idk it’s like my own perception is so different to others #journal

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hinamie · 1 month ago

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trick or treat!

#my art #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuji itadori #fushiguro megumi #nobara kugisaki #maki zenin #yuta okkotsu #inumaki toge #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #u could argue that the spoilers r hidden by the costumes but idw take my chances #i havent posted art in a billion years i feel like a fraud and i am going to get a bad grade in tumblr dot com #so i am posting these early idc anymore #i still have probably one more halloween draws i plan on posting but im cracking i want these out of my drafts Now #these KILLED ME #i miss drawing fast i miss it so badddddd #dont get me wrong the costume design ws so fun i loved it but god did it take ages #but on the bright side. yuuji in a toga.#on another bright side. little devil nobara n cowgirl maki #on yet anotHER bright side. eldritch horror pandachu #these costumes eat if i do say so myself ghjsdfkgjf undead inuokko makes me so happy also they r so cute #not to mention megumi in his gay little hat god i made itfs so obnoxiously flirty in this #remember when i said the timeskip art ws the least heterosexual group photo i've ever drawn i take it back #theyre disgusting . save nobara episode 356325746732 #anyway happy 10 days early halloween <3 #i will try to not take a whole week to finish the last piece(s)

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notsooldmadcatlady · 4 months ago

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#ts4 #the sims 4 #wip #I cannot explain what train of thought brought me to this #I mean it's august so...winter is coming?#in best ea traditions I'm just reusing my own mesh because I run out of ideas and not able to make anything new right now #feel like a fraud honestly 🫤

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odysseys-blood · 6 months ago

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literally how i feel any time i read this line. absolutely NOT

i think he's a great mirror type character for the mc depending on how much you draw on the default ra-on and their characterization, but more specifically their feeling of inferiority to solomon (which i take for my mc loyal). both the mc and bael are stuck filling in for a role for a king that neither feels they're well equipped for or were even born to hold and the fact that bael's so used to taking the fall that he's automatically ready to do it for you too is just. man. orz

#cliffnotes/.txt #whb #bael whb #its so...augh he makes me so sad #ik itll probably take forever to get to avisos since the promised chapter 6 hasnt even released yet #but waiting so patiently to pick bael apart (not really patient (vibrating like a chihuahua))#bael and mc spiderman pointing meme #god and both being like an imperfect copy #just similar enough to pass off as a fraud but so very different at the same time #and bc of that they'll never be true replacements #though the mc isnt even supposed to be one its like #the moment of disappointment almost everyone has shown when they realize its not solomon #even if they change tunes and bounce back quickly its there #happy to meet you but still upset its not him #and the underlying expectation that it *should* be him at first #like how it should be beel in avisos. but its not #both get a good amount of reassurance and support from those around them tho i will say its nicd #esp after seeing how the rest of avisos' camp feels abt bael #they love him and trust in him so much even though he always feels like hes failing them just by not being the king #he does so much and still feels like itll never be enough #ok now im just rambling its time to be quiet before i write an essay in here

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classicslesbianopinions · 1 year ago

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i'll be honest i wasn't going to be too bothered if lloyd won the poll because like a lot of people on both sides are just kind of having fun and that's like. the point. but i am really annoyed at the accusations of botting just because it feels like... oh we can make an effort and campaign but the second we're actually successful it HAS to be bots? it's the last day, i was always going to make a big push for the last day of the poll, and i'm not surprised other greek tragedy enjoyers reblogged it from us. it feels like the absolute worst faith reading to be honest

#mod felix #tragedy poll #i don't know. i get that people do that kind of thing but. hm #also i feel like. as the person who's arguably been the loudest about the poll.#i feel like accusations of botting/voter fraud come down on me? and it's like. first of all some people have been nasty but i have not been #and i don't want to be and i've been telling other people not to be. and i'm definitely not paying for anything.#but also like... i don't know. it makes me sad that that's people's first instinct rather than just...#people are campaigning for the person they want to win #also like. yeah a lot of people like antigone. it's a good play. you should read it. watch it even. do you need a link i'll dm you.

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benoitblanc · 1 month ago

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the imposter syndrome sure is impostering today lads

#phd applications out here making me feel like a FRAUD #and fourth flatmate is also having a stressful day but her girlfriend is here and trying to make her feel better #and it's just reminding me that the closest i have to that is flatmate and he a. isn't here right now and b. just invited 6 of our friends #over for when he gets back and it's all people that i'm friends enough with for it to be rude if i stay in my room #but not close enough with to feel relaxed around if i'm already wound up or for them to like. remember to include me in conversation #and i don't really feel like i can ask flatmate not to have them over because it's his flat too and he doesn't really owe me anything #as much as it feels like he's my partner he's not. i love my friends deeply and i know they love me. but it's different asking them #for extra support than it would be to ask a partner- which i don't have. or at least it feels different. you know?#ughhhhhhh #anyway #arwen.text

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pickled-flowers · 1 month ago

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Every time I go to a party I'm reminded that it's not that I can't interact with people, it's just not a desire I have :(

#i always feel so guilty when ppl i just met are like wow u seem so cool! because im really not!#im good at masking and making people feel comfortable! its got nothing to do with my personality unfortunately #no version of me is as true as who i am by myself and idk i feel like a fraud for being nice?#ive had many people be disappointed when i just. dont want to hang out #im not a 1 on 1 person i hate being alone with someone #even with people i dearly cherish i just cant find myself comfortable when others are around #and its not about them either i think im just not compatible with social interactions #im not really looking for advice btw like this is just something im coming to terms with #i love people i truly do i just cannot exist properly around them #anyways fat bear supper was really nice :')#the mashed potatoes??? they were so fuckjng good like bro you dont understand #and shoutout to the ppl who made a salmon lasagna that was so good as well #friends played a beautiful beautiful song they made (if they end up putting it on spotify ill share it here its about a cow named Margot)#anyways i guess soft reminder you never know what people are struggling with regardless of how functioning they appear #(mashed potatoes recipe is as follow: unpeeled potatoes #+whole milk+butter+rosemary+thyme thats it thank u)

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blee-bleep · 1 year ago

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so what if i go insane and draw diakko as these panels

#so like we know how akko probably has low self-esteem post chariot reveal right #like she went all this way only to find out everything she knew was a fraud #but still powers thru lona and sorta has semi-self deprecating thoughts like kana has occasionally #diana doesnt comfort her and they get into a fight and it turns into this #*twirls hair* so like i just wanna make them suffer~#diana is so hellbent on repressing her feelings that inadvertently plummets akko's own self esteem #but akko's own source of comfort of self is that diana considers her a friend and rival but then diana avoids her and starts dating andrew #and akko's own sense of self gets WORSE and she doesnt find much to comfort #knowing it was all for naught because what she thought she had in her was just stolen long ago #like sure she saved magic and all but like it was surely traumatic for her #so wants something to confide in that no it wasnt a mistake #BUT THEN DIANA just doesnt interact with her anymore #and she tries her hardest to befriend her again after their rocky start and thought diana would be ok but then #uh oh diana catches feelings and stays away and akko's heart just breaks when diana does anything and everything to avoid her #akko after diana pushes her to the ground: do you... really hate me that much?#“youre right im still so stupid diana im sorry i wont talk to you again”#and diana just sits there in the rain like shinji on the chair LOL #diakko #aqukana #lwa #onk #little witch academia #oshi no ko #diana cavendish #akko kagari #hoshino aqua #arima kana #*eats this panels like peter eating burger meme* exquisite angst *gets food poisoning*

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albonoooo · 11 months ago

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romain grosjean: cursed by the fire, dancing with death.

#hi hello here's whatever this is #i'm trying to figure out how to make a proper web weave but that shit is hard #or maybe i'm just technically inept #who knows #i was listening to this song on my 2.5h journey home (love public transport acting whacky) and it made me think of this #romain grosjean #tw fire #tw car crash #this makes me feel like a fraud but:#f1 web weaving #formula 1 #emy weaves <3

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 9 months ago

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connection between "the poets are just kids who didn't make it" -> "I went to sleep a poet and I woke up a fraud" -> "I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead"

also a branch off there that ties Hand of God with TMOTM but that's actually a lyric comp I'm planning to make soon more than an actual note

#lftos essay #I'm just posting notes now. apparently. I'm trying to write out an outline rn skfnskngsk #EDIT the connection between hand of god and tmotm is the fraud/liar bit #hand of god is very eh whatever about it. hand to my heart gun to my head swear to God I'm through with this - I'm the worst liar I know #tmotm is CONCISE and DIRECT and SPECIFIC. I went to sleep a poet and I woke up a fraud #which. idk when tmotm was written exactly. patrick wanted it on the album proper instead of dark alley and champagne #but the song released in march 2006. I'm just saying that in a lot of ways hand of god feels like a draft almost #and MUCH of what it says both literally and thematically is transfered into tmotm #the contrast of the 2nd verse of hand of god vs the clarity and precision of ''went to sleep a poet and woke up a fraud'' ?#um.... hm. I won't conjecture #especially not on main. but....... I do have An Emotion about this ngl #ok that was just for my own notes ignore me. pencil in hand I'm just trying to make this work #moving on.

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astriiformes · 1 year ago

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The final assignments I need to finish for my science fair mentorship class are a lot of "Reflect on these readings we did about education and connect them to your own experiences in school" type prompts, and unfortunately reflecting on your educational journey when you are a two-time college drop-out who probably failed a class this semester is not a great time.

#like i also got some papers back today that i did very well on but #i just don't feel like a smart person anymore. like my self-esteem is terrible and evidence to the contrary doesn't help much #i'm just feeling sad and depressed and kind of like a fraud for liking academia so much when in practice i am not a great student #and these assignments are making me feel particularly stupid :/

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rottentiger-art · 1 month ago

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Err, I need a kofi to be able to retire my paypal balance and cover the commision, so if anyone wanna...

Also, I've noticed ppl are kinda shy about asking for prompts in there, dont be! I like getting prompts and I always have time to make chibis like this one: