#and i still have half of the overdue ironing to do lmaoooo

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Funny how after this post i thought i'm gonna be back on regular small offerings schedule in a few days and instead I've had one of the worst 2 weeks of my life, wooooo <3

The price you pay for a few days of productivity is not worth it, folks. (Kidding; it wasn't just that, january is shit on all fronts and i mean it from the bottom of my rusty heart.)

I have 100+ posts to keep up with in drafts lmao (it's not that i feel obligated to read them. I WANT to read them all), i haven't been in the main tag for ages i miss having time and energy to check the main tag and be more excited and interact more and god i miss drawing the small offerings so much. But my ideas for twtyw and tndnbtg require stuff i could not take with me for the trip so maybe I'll draw sth for the following songs instead, we'll see

HOW!! EVER!! I'm on a trip now and i hope seeing the absolute sunshine of a person that @vesselsscarlet is will awaken my dormant will to live create 💕💕💕

So i have been visited by the spirit of neurotypicality today and started ironing sheets and tablecloths that were waiting for 2 years to be ironed by me (i wish i was kidding, but it has really been 2 years) + tomorrow i am back at work (hello again, depressive states) and then have a family visit over the weekend, so i will probably not be able to post offerings for a few days! And most likely I'll be less active in general (unless i will be on tumblr instead of working. Again.).

Tbh i miscalculated how much time the ironing is going to take me and thought I'll still have time for today's offering, but well. Time is an illusion anyway, amirite

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so @buffyannes​ and @saltierthanpearl​ sent me replies to the ask meme, one of them being two questions and the other being everything on the list :O so now that i’ve gotten a chance to sit down and think about it, here goes!

1. song of the year? pin by hippo campus really stuck with me. love those boys

2. album of the year? hit the dirt by mega mango! there’s no reason they haven’t blown tf up yet

3. favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year? sure sure, for sure B^) their last album was great and i’m getting tix to their show for christmas, which will be a lot of fun

4. movie of the year? detective pikachu was super wholesome! i also don’t remember anything else i saw lmaoooo

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5. TV show of the year? yall know i don’t keep up with this nonsense

6. episode of TV or webisode that defined the year for you? the steven universe finale was pretty special. the song “change your mind” fuckin did things to me man

7. favorite actor of the year? i don’t know who’s cool anymore so i’m gonna cop out and say me!!!!! bc i decided to audition for a show for the first time in three years??? and somehow got in??? so yeah catch me at the local theatre yall it’ll be lit

8. game of the year? since i’m trying to pick things that were released this year i guess my choice would be smash ultimate by default, even though i wouldn’t say it defines my taste overall? i never buy games at release tbh, hype is less important than how well they withstand the test of time.

9. best month for you this year? april was a good month, though the beginning of the end, in a way.

10. something that made you cry this year? well officially, truly, no holds barred Coming Out was uhhhhhhh hard

11. something you want to do again next year? alternative spring break! spending a week volunteering was a transformative experience. i wrote pages and pages in my journal about it.

12. talk about a new friend you made this year i’m gonna talk about all of the new friends i’ve made in my office! they welcomed me into conversations from the start and lucky for them, i fit in instantly. (i like to say they should be glad they aren’t stuck with a front desk worker who doesn’t have stage 50 internet brain poisoning 😂) i love how we all Get each other’s sense of humor, but know when to self-regulate or take others’ needs seriously. we all kind of have our own niche interests but you never get a funny look for bringing Your Shit up. i’m very lucky to have just walked right into somewhere i feel meant to be (especially compared to SG lmfaooo, they’re full of jerks)

13. how was your birthday this year? well it was in the middle of exams week and then i got a KIDNEY INFECTION like a couple days after!!!! so cool i guess cuz i turned 21 but otherwise kind of a tragedy?

14. favorite book you read this year? i don’t know how to read

15. what’s a bad habit you picked up this year? ugh just.... procrastination on life in general turned up to 100 😖 hard to be in tune with things if they’re entirely uninteresting and the Same Old Thing ad nauseum

16 and 17: pictures from the beginning and end of year i take a pic on my laptop’s webcam whenever i change my hair (i don’t know why i do this?) so i can actually answer this one from my computer!

beginning:

end:

18: a memorable meal this year? literally any time i go to florida and eat old bay shrimp and conch fritters at the local seafood bar.... like ugh sis went OFF

19. what are you excited about for next year? being in a musical! and stage directing the kids’ show again!!

20. what’s something you learned this year? i’d say i’m still working on it, but not being unhappy for the sake of others’ comfort. working past the anxiousness of telling the truth when it’s hard, or speaking up about things i need or want. ya know. that kind of thing. it’s tough.

21. what’s something new about your place of residence (room, home, or general location) now vs the start of the year? we started the year with 3 cats and temporarily, we’re gonna end it with 6 😨 (our neighbor is most likely going to adopt her, but she’ll be in our house for a while.)

22. favorite place you visited this year? a small town in indiana, for spring break. even the drive back was memorable. it was this weird shift in perspective, going down the main roads and seeing slices of how things once were interspersed with how they are now. you’ll see a tiny, decrepit farm house sandwiched between a state of the art mcdonald’s and a tiny, decrepit auto shop. i used to give the cities i spend the most time in some kind of special merit, but it turns out that uniquely tired and midwest feeling doesn’t really start or stop at a certain place after all.

23. if you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be? the first half of the year will be great! the second will be terrible! that is, until you take some steps that are long overdue - which you will take, because this year is all about change. you’ll get a really good therapist and she’ll tell you “don't expect life to ever be comfortable.” ironically enough, it’ll be comforting, as you now know what to expect.

24. did you keep any new year’s resolutions? one of them was “become a better communicator” which is a work in progress. another was “get a second tattoo” and that did happen 100% ;^)

25. did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? describe one. ohhhh i did! one of them i never got to use because let’s face it, i don’t have it in me to write the story i want to write in the middle of exam crunch time. he would have been a little kid, still nameless, who essentially would look like a tiny paperboy (think a double breasted coat, nice hat...) my main character would encounter him randomly irl, thinking that he looked familiar but never doing anything about it. that’s because the boy would show up in the MC’s dreams and communicate... fateful events. perhaps i’ll turn it into something real one day. ;)

wow i spent a lot of time on this 😅 it was a good run tho! very reflective. thanks!