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yutadori · 2 years ago

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THIS FUCKING SUCKS !!!!!!!

#i want to bite my aunt who caused me all yhat unnecessary stress to the point where she tired me out so bad i couldnt work on my essay #and i could barely sleep for days #as a result of it all #and i also want to bite the lady who hit me #fuck thid stupid baka life fuck capitalism fuck what the fuck #UAGHHHHH #im in hell . this might as well just happen #and my brother is going to tell me he told me so .__.#about calling off work bc stress and catching up to assignments #and calling off work after i got injured #this is all so stupid what the fuck #uaghhhhh uaggghhhh #how am i supposed to go through the horrors of job searching and interviewing AGAIN....#i hate it here #sun texts #how the hell am i supposed to get anywhere . i get hired > life throws stupid shit at me > i get fired > job search > job acquired > more #stupid shit is thrown at me > fired again #and then the humiliation of having to tell ppl when they ask how my work is . and then the disappointment and shame #like oh this idiot cant keep a job to save her life #well maybe the universe should stop doing this to me . has anyone who shames me considered that #god ....#well . at least i get to finidh my essay i guess

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xxplastic-cubexx · 1 month ago

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you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier

#xmen #mcu #xmen movies #xmen first class #charles xavier #professor x #snap sketches #todays schedule has been ruined by my ever occurring need to practice drawing movie charles its horrendous #i started this sheet last night but then i kept adding to it and i keep wanting to add to it but i MUST stop myself #in an ideal world i get paid to draw charles xavier and erik lehnsherr but no i live in this baka society #sleepless charles WAS inspired by me starting this at 1AM and forcing myself to sleep at 4AM #and then here i am picking i up still later .... i need professional help i fear but i aint got time for that #NEVERTHELESS I THINK IT GOT IT NOW. I THINK IM OK. i think i know how i wanna go bout drawing him now ...#chat can i confess that like. .5% of the reason i barely draw FC charles i because of his hair #for some reason some demonic entity prevents me from drawing it easily i am in STRUGGLE CITY #the only thing that gets me is that whenever i draw him i can only think of the likes of a disney prince but man thems the strokes ig #i also drew a quick dark phoenix charles but i figured id just keep this first class oriented #anything else i want to say ? uh. hm. its funny i never do any of these sheets for erik #genuinely On My Life made One (1) sheet and was like 'no yeah i got it. i got it down'#literally not my fault his head is So Shaped and defined but anyways. this aint about him.#i mean it could be. i still wanna do a doodle page concentrated on drawing how his powers show #more specifically how do i wanna draw the glow cause i cant decide on it ... also i wanna draw the 'levels' ...#but thats for another time. for right now i should probably eat i havent eaten all day #bye bye !!!!!! here's to hoping i draw something thats not a doodle sheet one of these days

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a-s-levynn · 7 months ago

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Between the second hand smoke and the glass on the street A Series of Small Offerings - IV/3 - day35

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stormy-nights-are-best · 4 months ago

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LET THE NEXT INSIDE OUT MOVIE BE ABOUT THE LEFT BRAIN PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

They're Language, Precision, Strategy and Analytic (respectively in that order).

Of course they're only as smart as a thirteen year old can get. They don't know anything Riley hasn't learned throughout her life. So, like many people's first anxiety attacks, Riley must've thought she was genuinely having a heart attack for a second there

#i'll probably draw more stuff on how they work #they would be unaware of the emotions and vice-versa #i know it's a bit dehumanizing if everything riley does is these guys and the emotions driving her around #but i could barely sleep days after the movie because i just. couldn't relate to having emotions inside my head BUT #i could TOTALLy relate to not wanting to do what an emotional impulse tells me to #because LOGIC stood between us-- you get where i'm getting at???#inside out 2 #anxiety inside out #inside out fanart #digital art #psychology #left brain #psychology memes #masterpiece #panic attack

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oswinthegeek · 8 months ago

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‘What is she looking at?’

I haven’t had time to post anything lately, I’m hoping to be more active here in a couple weeks after the play I’m in is over, just a very busy time for me rn.

#remus lupin #remadora #nymphadora tonks #harry potter #art #otp #remus and tonks #tonks #I haven’t been able to get a full nights sleep in weeks #pls I just need one day to myself #it’s been a rough week #I recently found out my best friend is moving across the country possibly permanently and I’m a mess #and it’s worse cause he just got back from a six month trip to said place and I could barely handle that #and I kinda caught feelings realizing how much I missed him and now he’s leaving again in 4 months #I need to stop venting on here lol

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vaguely-concerned · 4 months ago

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more for the garashir fairytale grab bag AU I am never going to actually write: garak knows exactly what would break his curse from the start, he just never tells anyone for the longest time b/c he's so sure it could never happen

(it's asking forgiveness, of course. he thinks it's tain's forgiveness he needs, and tain is fucking dead and knew he would be by the time garak woke up so it seems the perfect unbreakable parting fuck-you revenge curse. and garak would expect nothing less from his father than that, so he's resigned to dwindling away painfully. enter julian bashir and his fierce force-of-nature compassion (and also secret illicit immense magical powers) with a steel chair!!! to go 'OH YEAH??? we'll see about that', as you might expect. oh. OH necromancer-ish julian calling tain's ghost up to ask him about what the hell he did and how to undo it, ala his gambit to go see him the wire? and the knowledge he gains from that is what confirms garak's suspicions as to what is Up with this handsome young healer mage because it could be known only by those long dead. cue east of the sun west of the moon part of the narrative once julian understands his game is up and runs away??

anyway getting some true love's kissing in by the end of it all is just a nice bonus it's not needed like strictly magically for either of their situations lol)

#garashir #star trek #ds9 #star trek ds9 #elim garak #julian bashir #the sleeping beauty part is an entirely separate curse btw. tain really wanted that shit to pile up lol #I wonder what fucked up thing you'd do to Julian magically to be the equivalent of genetic engineering #splicing something into his soul maybe? turning him into a wildly powerful but 'dangerous' kind of sorcerer in the process?#something about violating his innermost essence at least that's kind of the thematic significance of it #people pointing at him after the reveal going 'THOSE ARE DARK LORD POWERS YOU FREAK' and he's like #'*barely holding back tears of frustration and exhaustion* I just wanna be a lil healer main can you guys fucking let me live....'#maybe like... when you've cracked someone's soul open once it's considered a sanctity breached or something. anything could get in #maybe ds9 is like... the cardassian ruin where they find garak sleeping (yeah I'm doing an sga/howl's moving castle thing in my head)#he still claims he's just a simple tailor upon being woken up and getting the castle to fly them out of danger. of course.#he also still hates the place as much as he did in the show it was considered a shitty backwater place to be stationed back in the day #guys. I think I am cooking but unfortunately I'm perpetually burnt out I don't have enough fuel to make anything of it lmao

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howdoyousleep3 · 13 days ago

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never in my life have i wanted a Daddy more than i do rn 😭

#personal #i'm going to ramble and drop it all in the tags #i'd like to have a pity party for myself thanks #the election?#fucked i've just been scrambling for a week now to prepare for the worst that feels like it's rapidly approaching #vaccines updated birth control bought out stockpile of food started passport appointments made tasers and protective gear purchased #banned books put on a wishlist #the holidays?#trying to make them enjoyable instead of so so so triggering #husband's new job?#barely home he's barely home i feel like a solo parent #i'm absolutely drowing at home mainly alone with two toddlers who have found their spirit and resilience and attitude...#the new house?#we've been fighting we are not vibing it's taking forever for me to feel in love with it #we do not get along rn lol #writing? personal time? self care? nonexistent i have no time alone during the day and then i spend the two hours i have to myself at night #fighting sleep and doing nothing #took a shower today and when i got out my eyelash line started burning and then my eyes were burning and then my nose was running and #then my eyes were watering and i could barely open them and goop started building and then they were SWOLLEN to the point where i could see #the muscles bulging and then i couldn't move them left or right #so i drove I DROVE myself to the urgent care #turns out my water has way too much chlorine in it and now that i've started taking hot as fuck and steamy showers it's just made me #susceptible to severe allergic reactions to chlorine?#it's been horrible my eyes are so sore now and they're just now not sopping in goop #and yeah #just...#i live the same day every day and i'm spiraling and drowning and about to go off the rails while also trying to SUCK THE JOY out of the las #month we have before democracy crumbles so #i just wish i had a Daddy to take care of me and tell me things are going to be okay 😭#preferably a Big Daddy that would let me sleep for days and would bring me food and let me hug and snuggle on him and not talk

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sukirichi · 3 months ago

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i’m gonna sound stupid for saying this but i’m acc very upset that real life is keeping me away from being a loser here 😔

#suki rambles #i’m barely at home anymore with how much i spend time outside... and i just wanna sit down and WRITE #but as soon as i come home i’m just so exhausted from studying and travelling that i pushing out a 1k fic-#-which would normally be so easy for me feel so impossivble now #and now i just stare at my wips feeling disappointed in myself that i’m too tired to work on it #me staring at my vampire!kita fic 😔#me staring at my lemurian! rafayel fic 😔#the younger me could’ve stayed up and pulled an all nighter to finish a fic but now i just could NEVEERRRR #i need my 8 hours of sleep or i won’t function for a whole day #and i feel so horrible too that i’m so behind on replying to everyone 🥹#DTD TOO BRUH like i was so dedicated in updating every week but when im FINALLY at the last chapter thats when i get so busy ugh #like i don’t wanna be hard on myself bcos i have written a lot and also this is just a hobby but thats the thing!!#i feel like i’m so busy with adult things that i don’t have enough time for writing (which brings me joy) and i’m sad about it lol #big sigh.#tw: rant

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chaoswarfare · 2 years ago

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danny falling asleep in weird places part 2! because i’m so tired 😀

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icewindandboringhorror · 11 months ago

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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wayvtual · 5 months ago

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i washed my hair n took a walk yesterday for the first time in a while so i am feeling unstoppable like maybe i will turn around my life this week wish me luck !