#and and they accepted my pet gecko!

[marx-soul]

I signed my first lease today! :D

[luvevee]

Not the oddest guest but definitely a surprising one

[inbabylontheywept]

The Motherfucking Lizard King

No one at work trusts my boss. 

He's smart. He works hard. He's not trustworthy. He hasn't actually fucked anyone at work over, but he's ruined his last two marriages with affairs, and got dumped by his third fiance when he wouldn't sign a prenup. The fact that we all know this is just a hazard of working in a small town. 

Anyway: The thought process of the people in the lab is that if he screwed over his first wife, and his second wife, and was probably planning on screwing over his third wife, it would be insane for him not to screw us over. After all, what kind of idiot treats their employees better than their spouse? 

I dunno. His kind, I guess? He's had a few chances to fuck us over, and he hasn't taken them. Opposite really. When our parent company was doing furloughs, he stayed in the office almost a hundred hours, talking and talking and talking his way up the corporate ladder. And in the end, no one at our site got furloughed. 

He's pulled strings like that before. And it baffles me, right? Because it really does make zero sense. He'll move the heavens and the earth for us, but his wife and kids are afterthoughts. It feels like any moment, he's going to look into the mirror and realize how stupid that is. It feels like I'm betting on him making the same stupid mistake again, and again, and again - like it would be less cynical to believe he was, eventually, going to stab me in the back. But he hasn't yet, and as far as I can tell he's been making that mistake for close to fifteen years, and it's already cost him everything it can. If he was going to learn, he would have by now. 

So my position on him is that if he wanted to date someone I cared about, I'd warn them off. I don't trust him there. But I tentatively trust him to be my boss. Maybe one day he'll stick the knife in and twist, and everyone will say Ah, Babs, we warned you, but for now, I accept that he's doing a very predictable, very irrational thing, and I've made my peace with it. 

---

My job has glue traps. 

No one likes the glue traps, but we don't have a lot of options. Poison's banned by state law, spring traps are banned by company safety, and several non-lethal options tried in the past failed to work. The mouse problem can get pretty bad if it's ignored, and there's some real health hazards in that. Our site has never had a positive hantavirus test, thank God, but the big base about a half hour away has. That guy's gonna be on oxygen the rest of his life. 

If a mouse gets caught, we just euthanize it. But more than mice get stuck. Lizards can wander into those traps too, and the people working there have different feelings about the lizards. They don't pose nearly the same kind of risk mice do. They're chill little guys, and they keep the moths away, and they're just 

You know. They're friendly. There's something to be said about walking into a room, and hitting the light switch, and seeing two little guys on the wall start to do pushups as soon as they see you. 

People used to just euthanize the lizards too, but I had pet leopard geckos as a kid and I couldn't take that so I wound up googling how to free animals from glue traps. Now, when a lizard gets stuck in a trap - which happens once or twice a week - I get some vegetable oil from the breakroom, and a little plastic fork, and I'll spend fifteen to twenty minutes just kind of gently prying the little guys out. 

I have a team of technicians that help me operate one of the larger machines. They're real blue collar guys, ex-airforce, and they make me look like a little kid. Being an engineer means they'll look to me as a leader sometimes, which is a wild experience. And I started helping the lizards for my own conscience, but one of the crazier consequences of it has been that it seriously boosted my leadership cred. Because those guys see me, and they go: Hey. If he's willing to fight for a lizard, he's gotta be willing to fight for me. 

I cannot overstate how nice that is. Most engineers that want to make a change to a maintenance practice, or try an upgrade, they have to work their asses off to get the techs to buy in. But I can just ask. They already trust me to do good. They know I'm new, and they know I'm not the smartest engineer in the building, but they also know I'm the one who gets lizards out of the glue traps. 

And just because of that, they're willing to follow me. 

---

My boss has a meeting every month or two. It's typically basic house cleaning stuff - reminders about routines we've gotten lazy on, and updates on future projects. Maybe some warnings about problems coming from higher up in the company.

People are, in my opinion, a bit too cynical about the meetings. It stems from people not trusting our boss, which again, I understand, because it would make so much more sense if he wasn't trustworthy. It's a testament to the man's incredibly unhealthy priorities that he is. But as we made it to the end of the meeting, one of bullet points was: 

Do NOT mess with animals in the building. 

So I looked at my techs, and they looked at me, and when he got to the point, he was so scathing I actually just wanted to crawl under a rock and die. He said basically that he'd heard some reports about someone in the building handling animals that found their way in and got stuck, and that he just wanted to emphasize how insanely inappropriate that was, not to mention dangerous, and that if he needed to speak to anyone about it again, there would be severe consequences. 

I was willing to just take the shame and move on. I was. But one of my techs is old. Old enough he could've retired two years ago. And his actual literal goal is to one day get angry, yell at someone, and storm out. That's how he wants to retire. So instead of biting his tongue like everyone else, he stood up and said: I hate the glue traps. You hate the glue traps. We all hate glue traps. But we've all sat here for years, ignoring the little things that get stuck in them, watching them die, and then Bab's comes in, and he is the first person in decades to give enough of a shit to start pulling the lizards out. And I don't want him to stop. 

Get humane traps or shut up but we are not going back to the old way of just letting things starve. 

And my boss actually froze up. He got all wide eyed and stared at Marc, and then the other techs jumped in, and there was a very small but intense rebellion in the meeting and my boss kept trying to interrupt while getting absolutely bowled over by this gang of angry middle aged air force vets, and eventually he just went 

I will speak with Babylon about this afterwards! After! And then he will speak with everyone else, but I have more points to cover. 

So they went silent, and my boss rushed through the last five minutes, and we all adjounred. The techs really didn't like that I was going in alone - they thought our boss was going to try and shout me into compliance. Marc in particular was like, Look, if he tries bullying you, stand your ground, and if he threatens anything, just come get us, and we'll give him hell. 

So armed with that, I went to my boss's office. I sat in the chair across from him, and he kept his composure for maybe five seconds before just flopping back into his chair. 

I had no idea you were saving lizards, he said, but I'm glad you are. I always hated seeing them die in the glue.  

I wasn't expecting that. I was about to ask him what the comment from the meeting was about then, but he answered that before I even got the chance.

A snake got into the building last week, and - someone picked it up and chased a coworker around. Turns out that coworker was severely afraid of snakes, and now it's a shitshow. We're a small site, and now I can't ask those two to work together anymore, to say nothing about how the snake fared after all that. Being upset about that is a reasonable thing, right? 

And he gave me a look like he actually wanted an answer, so I said Yeah, totally, chasing a coworker around with a snake is a dick move. Especially if that coworker is already afraid of snakes. 

And he said Exactly! and then we sat there a few moments longer. He looked so incredibly tired that I did, actually, feel kind of bad for him. And then he somehow managed to sink even further into his chair, and said

Look, I know I'm not a good guy. But I'm not evil. I'm not some sort of crazy asshole that's going to demand that everyone watch lizards starve to death. When you go back downstairs, could you try to pass that on? That I'm not evil? 

I said Sure because it wasn't a hard request, and he looked relieved. I actually made it halfway out before I realized I had a question. 

Who grabbed the snake? I asked. 

Not supposed to talk about it, he said. But whoever comes to mind first is probably right. 

ThatGuy? I asked. And he looked me in the face, nodded his head yes, and said No. 

---

The techs seemed a little disappointed that they didn't get to storm the boss's office, but were otherwise in good spirits. They were actually a little bit embarrassed to hear about the snake story - apparently, it wasn't much of a secret. It'd just slipped their minds because it happened three weeks ago. 

We did maintenance after that, the same basic repairs we did every week. The meeting had been stressful and it was a relief to work with my hands. When the parts were reinstalled, everything cleaned and smooth and ready to go, Marc found me again. 

You know what the lesson of today is? he asked. And there were quite a few answers to that that I could have taken - from don't assume the worst of people to be careful with how you spend your trust - we all need it more than we think. 

But instead I said what? because I wanted to hear what his answer was going to be. 

That I got your back, he said. Then he clapped one very, very large hand on my shoulder, gave it a good squeeze, and walked back to dosimetry lab.

---

The next day, Marc gave me a package and told me to open it in my office. I was suspicious, but I followed the request.

Cardboard gave way to a small baggie, obviously full of fabric, which opened to reveal a t-shirt that read

"I Am the Motherfucking Lizard King."

I looked at it, I loved it, and then I got an idea. I went to my boss's office and knocked on the door. When he opened it, I asked him if he would be willing to allow something very unprofessional to happen for morale building purposes.

How unprofessional? he asked. I held the shirt up in answer. He gave the shirt a short look over and snorted.

You can wear it on weeks without customers, he said. Which just so happened to include that week.

I'll pass on that it came with your blessing, I replied, and he looked oddly relieved.

Thanks, he said. And then I went downstairs.

---

The techs were very, very happy to see the shirt. And while my boss's reputation remains in tatters, and probably will be until he moves (or dies), the next time there was a meeting, there was quite a bit less complaining about how mere presence. Which is, I guess, a start.

We'll see if he squanders it.

[ju1cyfru1t]

Okay. Okay. So.

I have a rise! request for you, if you're accepting requests currently! Specifically with Leo which is odd because I'm typically a Donnie girl

So I have a leopard gecko. And in the world of herpetology, oftentimes leopard geckos are referred to as leos.

I'm sure you already have some idea of where this is going, but like,,, to clarify, imagine Reader is just SO EXCITED to have someone new to introduce their leopard gecko to, because they adore their leopard gecko and love showing the pampered little baby off. And at some point, naturally, Reader offhandedly refers to their gecko as their leo, whom they love.

And then our boy Leo's gotta be like "but I'm your Leo too, right? 🥺" or something.

Just as an idea,,,

However you interpret or alter the request is totally cool, and however you answer it is too! Drabble, fic, headcanons, etc. Or even if the answer is "sorry, not feeling this, not writing it", or "not taking requests right now", or even just. "No".

Hope things are going well for you!

-Gecko

THIS IS SOOOO CUTE HEHEHEHEHHEEHE I HOPE YOU LOVE IT BAE 🫶🏻

ROTTMNT! Leo x Reader

Reader introduces Leo to their Leopard Gecko!

Rise! Leo x Reader

fluff! :D, gn reader, romantic -> established relationship, Leo being dumb 🤌🤞

“Leo,” you stood in front of the door of your bedroom, “I have someone very, very special I want you to meet.”

“That’s cool,” Leo shrugs with a sly grin, “parents love me.”

“It’s not my parents, Leo.” You sighed and led him into your room.

Leo looked around, confused. He watched you approach some sort of…tank? He couldn’t really see because you were blocking his view as you slowly and carefully slid the top of it over, reaching your hand in.

You smiled brightly, picking up your beloved leopard gecko and carrying him over to your boyfriend. “This is my leo! Isn’t he soooo cute? You see his pattern and his-”

“Woah, woah, woah! Pause! Your Leo?” Leonardo stared at you unimpressed, clearly offended as he crossed his arms.

“Mhm! This is my baby.” There were a few small squeaks from your pet. “Awwww! He wants to say hi!” You moved him closer to Leonardo.

He glared intently at your gecko, leaning down to look at its eyes and whispered, “There can only be one.”

“Stop that! You’re scaring him!” You glared back at Leo, pulling your lizard back towards your chest.

“It’s scaring me!”

“He is not an ‘it!’ Be nice! He didn’t do anything to you.” You gently scratched your geckos chin, “It’s ok. He’s not gonna hurt you, honey.”

“Hmph. You never call me honey.” Leo turned his head away from you, huffing.

You scoffed at him in annoyance, “are you seriously jealous of my leo right now?”

“It’s- he’s gotta know you already have a Leo.” He motioned towards himself.

“You’re both my Leo’s, and I love both of you very much.” You rolled your eyes as you laughed at how ridiculous your boyfriend was acting as you set your gecko back in its tank.

“…but you love me more, right?”

“…I don’t know if I would say that-“

“What?!”

You laughed and kissed Leonardo’s cheek, “I’m just kidding. Relax. You’re still my Leo, too.”

Leo pulled you into a hug, grinning smugly at your other ‘Leo’ over your shoulder.

[michellemisfit]

🪲🐉🐸 Weekly Tag Wednesday 🦖🦚🦎

🐑🦭🐳🦕🦋Pet Edition 🪼🐬🐋🐺🕊️

Let’s talk furry, fluffy, scaly, creepy, crawly, cuddly, and everything in between!

‘Your pet(s)’ can be a current pet, a family pet, or a sadly departed pet, of course.

🐶🐱🐭🐹🐰🦊🐻🐼🐻‍❄️🐨🐯🦁🐮🐷🐸🐵

Your name: Michelle

What people call you: Mys, Myskalump, Bean, Squidge, and very recently: michelle marie misfit mcgee

Your pet(s)’ name: Mouse (RIP); Wiggins; Howard

What you call your pet(s): Mouse McFeathers aka Boodle aka Boodleboots aka Mousecat – The Undisputable Leader of the Gang aka Cat; Wiggins Dangerbean aka Wigglypuss aka Twiglet aka Stripey Boy aka t’Other Cat; Howard Bambino aka Ginger Butt aka Pumpkin aka t’Other t’Other Cat aka t’Third Cat

Post a picture of your pet(s):

Draw your pet(s) in under 60 seconds:

Favourite animal (domestic): “I meant,” said Ipslore bitterly, “what is there in this world that truly makes living worthwhile?” Death thought about it. CATS, he said eventually. CATS ARE NICE”

Favourite animal (wild): hmmm… probably just BIG CATS lol But for variety’s sake… Pangolins are cool!

Favourite animal (extinct): It’s hard to beat the Dodo, for pure comedy, but I have to go with the Giant Ground Sloth, for size reasons!! Like, seriously. These dudes could just step on your house without noticing! 😱

Favourite animal (mythical): Dragons! Though I do like a Phoenix and a Kitsune.

List all types of animals you’ve had living in your house: 4 Mongolian Gerbils, 1 Dog, 8 Cats, 1 Goat, 1 sheep, 1 rooster, 30+ Chicks, 3 Ducks, 9 adult rabbits, 7 newborn rabbits, 1 ferret, 4 gold fish, 1 Crested Gecko (Eddie Lizzard, RIP) - this excludes animals that were at the house for less than 48 hours, for emergency care.

Any species you wish to add in the future? I Wouldn’t mind having a garden big enough to keep hens maybe.

Pet you would have if welfare, money, and safety wasn’t an issue: Ozelot!!! It’s like cat, but fierce!

And now, for the Ba-dum-tss 🥁 part of WTW:

What’s your biggest pet peeve? Chronic lateness. Everyone runs late every now and again. But if you’re late all the time? Without a reason, an excuse, or an apology? Then it’s very clear you just don’t give a flying rat’s behind to even try and make an effort, so fuck that.

What’s your favourite pet name? I like ‘love’, ‘baby’, and actually I like ‘pet’ in the right tone and accent, too ☺️

What way do you like to be petted? Firm pressure. Gentle strokes tickle and make me itchy. I do like ear scritches!

Were you a teacher’s pet? Not so much a teacher’s pet, as just… very good at school and well mannered. All my aspirations in life are really about not disappointing people. Especially people that expect something from me. … Yeah. Okay. Maybe I was a teacher’s pet.

Favourite beverage sold in a PET bottle? Lemon Fanta. Only about once every six months. But when I crave it, I craaaave it lol

Yeah, okay, I’ll see myself out 🙄

But not before tagging all of these lovelies, to give us their view on pets this fine Wednesday… or Thursday, or Friday, or whenever you have a free minute and some head space for it. And if not, then please accept these ::ear scritches::

@sleepyfacetoughguy @sleepyheadgallavich @too-schoolforcool @darlingian @deedala @ardent-fox @look-i-love-u @francesrose3 @gallapiech @callivich @suzy-queued @the-rat-wins @thepupperino @transmickey @spookygingerr @burninface @jrooc @heymrspatel @heymacy @whatthebodygraspsnot @wehangout @ian-galagher @lupeloto @creepkinginc @sickness-health-all-that-shit @deathclassic @lee-ow @loftec @palepinkgoat @crestfallercanyon @blue-disco-lights @iansw0rld @rutherinahobbit @pookiebearmick @catgrassplantdad @stocious @gallawitchxx @bawlbrayker @ms-moonlight-inn @energievie @whatwouldmickeydo @gardenerian @crossmydna @mmmichyyy @sam-loves-seb @vintagelacerosette @lingy910y @iandarling @sgtmickeyslaughter @doshiart

[miasmaclockworks]

Inhale (killk me)

kinito pet au ideas (all mine now)

Pirate au, swap/opposite au, frenzy au, beach vally au, valentines au, broken computer virus (BCV) au, house care au, real virus au, mimic au, best friend au, candyland au, light's out au, time traveler au, steam punk au, ghost au, phasmophobia au, dragon barrier au, librarian au, magical forest au, fruit au, fruit au, furry au, sailor moon au, pride au, obsessed au, ice cream au, midnight starlight au, AHIT au, star collector au, broken heart au, rejected friend au, accepted friend au, Poppy Playtime au, Five Nights At Freddys au, Warrior cats au, Midnight driver, killer au, prince of the night au, pool swimmer, Magical boy au, Critical au, Escape room au, god au, AU god au, Au hunter AU, scream au, Mii au, plane crash au, pilot au, mc donalds worker au, driver au, smile tapes au, nightmare au, night gamer au, artist au, over eater au, roblox au, creator au, caseoh au, wii au, wand au, childhood friend au, possessed au, apple core au, string worm au, drunkie au, caretaker au, love maniac au, drier au, washing machine au, Im a pretty princess au, venting au, among us au, gentle man au, Youtuber au, Actual axolotl au, you are what you eat au, mince meat butcher au, butcher au, doxxed au, sally the witch au, autistic au, ADHD au, Autistic and ADHD au, Motherborn au, alien au, Mother Mother au, soul au, dragon born au, vampire au, vampire hunter au, it was all just a dream? au, sunshine au, digital circus au, clockwork au, gymnastics au, rainbow factory au, twisted and turned au, patchworks au, unseen au, joker au, minimum wage worker au, skinwalker au, kinito darling au, forever and ever, everlasting pain, story teller au, time teller au, zoo keeper au, smiling critter au, truth be told au, rizzler au, farmer au, anthro au, Digital pop up au, backfired au, chef au, cuphead au, BABQFTIM au, carnival au, internet explorer au, kidnapper au, robber au, parental figure au, parent au, father au, apple picker au, trans au, siren au, mermaid au, cloud critters, monster energy au, emo au, goth au, alt goth, prince au, princess au, priest au, reality au, Epic the musical au, bass voice au, prince of the sea au, stranger au, never used au, stranger things au, abandoned au, hazbin hotel au, lemon and lime au, softie au, grunge au, sugar crush au, rainbow friends au, block break friends au, sugar crush au, sweet tooth au, undertale au, heartless au, toxic au, waist au, epic au, error au, fresh au, reaper au, horror au, other sans aus, medical au, high school au, ruby and max au, little horrors au, planter au, plant au, crystal au, glass crystal au, rockstar au, ancient Greek au, mario au, shroomba au, sonic the hedgehog au, snowday au, cave monster au, dinosaur au, game show hoster au, lunar moon au, bloodmoon au, eclipse au, sundrop au, moondrop au, dignity au, angels gaurd au, demons gaurd au, king of hell, king of the sea au, mother nature au, king of the land, landlord au, your boyfriend au, planetary au, leopard gecko au, leopard au, train conductor au, mountain lion au, polar bear au, Mad Scientist au, don't die au, raindrops au, seraph au, always watching au, teacher au, birthday party au, husk au, royal au, gummy bear au, cannibal au, discord au, My little pony au, bumblebee au, cat au, animal au, sweet treat au, warzone au, warframe au, roblox au, unicorn au, factory worker au, you au, dihedra au, pee au, every au I forget, Deleted forever au (not really), sleep tight au, Fire borne, dragon au, mythical animals au, goodbye friend, rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles au, Replicate au, smartie pants au, femboy au, backrooms au, gurlie au, too silly au, silly au, TADC au, lovesick au, grand master au, crazy au, lab monster au, (insert every animal here) au, Monster under your bed au, sloozy au, nightmare monster au, aroace king au, your imagination au, salamander au, desktop pet au, ukagaka au, he knows what you are au, roller blades au, you can run but you can't hide au, poison rain au, dementia au, mr worldwide mr 305 au, anime au, welcome home au, Yume Nikki au, gacha life au, gacha club au, Battle blocks au,

[compassionatereminders]

Positive unpopular opinion: Reptiles are such great and loving pets!! My pet geckos (and frog) helped me recover from PTSD because before I was able to love, they taught me safety=love. Reptiles can’t feel love like mammals can, but damn bro they know when you’re a safe person! Being able to accept safety was my first steps into trusting people enough to have friendships and relationships! Reptiles are so awesome and they also lay around all day :3 I hope everyone’s day is as peaceful as a gecko on a warm rock! (Pictures below of my Leopard gecko Biscuit, my Pac-Man frog Apollo, and my crested gecko Bean! These are my unofficial emotional support animals 😂)

I think there is a lot of good in being able to appreciate any creature and see something good and worthwhile in them, maybe especially when you can't necessarily connect with them in the "usual" way.

[babyseraphim]

i did not realize you had reblogged the writer ask game as well so please accept this rather late ask: 🎲 🔪 🌸 <3

i seem to remember you reblogging a post and saying you had a gecko and . i would like to see them if this is true

Thank you for the ask!!!

🎲 ⇢ what stops you from writing more in your free time? 

I mean, I write a lot. But, if I am being stopped by something, it's usually either brain fog or insecurity in my writing skills.

🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

Oh god, that's hard. I have thousands upon thousands of words put into the lore bible for my D&D campaign setting, so I do a Lot of weird research. The weirdest thing I looked into is probably the health side effects that come from long term inhalation of volcanic ash, and the mortality rate of children in that kind of environment (there's a city called Sfyrí in my world that is constantly blanketed in a cloud of it)

🌸 ⇢ do you have any pets? if you do, post some pictures of them

I do indeed have a pet lizard! Her name is Mimi, here she is

Send me some asks!

[reapkusho]

Haikyuu matchup for @tinyrainbowshark!

Your match is...

Tadashi Yamaguchi!

♤ SO.

♤ I thought characters who were too rowdy or sarcastic were too much, so yamaguchi was a perfect pick <3

♤ Yamaguchi doesn't mind you being so energetic! It doesn't annoy him, in fact he probably finds it cute. ;)

♤ Your optimism helps his nerves. it goes really well that you like to look on the bright side, especially when he thinks too much.

♤ he sometimes goes along with the things you say without thinking. which turns out to be a pretty destructive combination /j. he's always on your side, whatever you do and say.

♤ ^ the only exception is if it harms you. why in the world would he let you get hurt? D: he doesn't let you get too impulsive - he makes sure he talks you through everything. :)

♤ yamaguchi knows how to calm you down when you get upset and frustrated. he sits down with you and listens to the playlists you share with him. he holds your hand to reassure you. sometimes he gets one of your plushies to help you calm down <3

♤ I think his love language would be mainly quality time, but he enjoys whatever you do <3 so yes, he holds your hand, he gives you cheek and forehead kisses - the whole deal.

♤ he likes when you defend him. he knows you've got his back! <3 but, well, he tries to hold you back from snapping at everyone who insults him (because your impulsive nature would probably get you into more trouble than he's okay with).

♤ and while you also defend him. he defends you too! anyone who insults you!

♤ that includes yourself.

♤ and he's there for you when you get insecure (trust me, he gets it). I have a feeling he knows how to patiently comfort people - he lets you know he's here for you. he accepts you. he definitely loves you.

♤ what. what do you mean you're interested in what he's interested in. yamaguchi WILL teach you volleyball. but he's not laughing at your wonky first-time serves, he's happy you're here and that you spend time with him.

♤ he spends a lot of time learning about your interests, too! he knows your music taste (he takes extra special note of it, but he won't tell you that) and he loves trying out food combinations with you. he reads whatever you write. he listens when you talk about greek mythology. he watches cartoons and plays video games with you. he's literally your biggest fan.

♤ imagine sitting at home, sharing earphones (wired!) and listening to music with him.

♤ YAMAGUCHI DRAWS ON YOU. in different colored glitter pens. even if he's no artist. no I will not explain further.

♤ this guy treats your pet crab like his son. You raise Rocky together. he's a bit concerned with what you want as a future pet - because a python sounds pretty damn scary to him, but you know what? If you want it, he'll want it too. he trusts your judgment, after all. throw in that turtle and gecko too. <3

that ends it. now have some low quality yamaguchi :3

hi hi: my other options were noya and hinata! but you mentioned that you were more attracted to calmer personalities, and I thought yamaguchi was the perfect alternative. sorry for taking a bit long <3333

[little-pup-pip]

i remember u posting a thing where it shows all the requests you haven't done yet. I just want to see as I requested something long ago in 2023. I'm not trying to seem pushy, I'm just curious!

(this was rhe person that requested a bugbo thing)

Here you go!! This is very long, so I put the list under the cut!

These are the requests sent after I stopped accepting them that I didn't delete for various reasons. If you sent in a request after I closed them on March 14th and don't see it here, you'll need to send a new one (please don't take it personally if I deleted it)!!

Black + squirrel

Asra (the arcana)

Shurara (keroro gunsou)

Ring tailed lemur

Buzz light-year

Rottweiler

Yellow raccoon petre

Lionel Messi

Sonic the hedgehog

Light pink and blue bunnies

Middle school gym class

Jenny wakeman (my life as a teenage robot)

Chris Kratt (wild Kratts)

Yuri (doki doki literature club)

Cole (Lego Ninjago)

Crowley (good omens)

Stingray

Prince + bunnies

CG vil (twisted wonderland)

Alt + Wolf-dog

Golden retriever

Hobbes (Calvin and Hobbes)

Kipo (kipo and the age of wonderbeasts, I think)

Leif (my inner demons)

Little big planet 3

Clouds + pastel blue

Outdoorsy + animals

Sun and stars + bunnies

Chase (paw patrol, I actually have two of these waiting)

Cinnamoroll

Eastern red bat

Octopus regression

Tiger CG

Aquarium trip

Pastel coloring + kitties

lavender/grey bunnies

Pastel dolls

Jumping spiders/Leopard geckos

Dr. animo (ben 10)

Shuichi saihara

Black Shiba inu

This is everything left from before I closed my requests!

Osamu dazai (bsd)

Flutist

The dazzlings (equestria girls)

Vampire with Halloween themes

Guardians of ga'hoole

Gromsko (MW2/3)

V (murder drones)

Cg SD-N (murder drones)

Cassidy (overwatch) and cowboys

TMNT Leonardo

Ranboo

Pastel kitty

Lackadaisy

Epithet erased

Another OC named cerys

Pikmin

Slay the princess

Someone's pictures (Idk what to call this one just know that I'm going to do it)

The Magnus protocol

Bive (regretavator)

Donnie darko

Megamind

Jake Peralta (Brooklyn nine nine)

Allister (pokemon)

Umi (idk from where I'll figure it out eventually)

Rottweiler puppy and the creek

Monster tom (eddsworld)

Gnarpy (regretavator)

Xianzhao loufu (hsr)

Cg jing yuan (hsr)

Cupcake and dino

Kitty petre pomni (tadc)

Shiromo (pui pui molcar)

Jack harkness (doctor who)

Pettoism

Cg basil hallward (the picture of Dorian gray)

Cats

Spiderman (again! lol)

Mei (Lego monkie kid)

Cats + cakes

Houndoom (pokemon)

Wolfwalkers from cartoon saloon

Lucifer (hazbin hotel)

Critterspace (drafts)

Minecraft lush caves (drafts)

Ibara saegusa

Llewellyn Watts (Murdoch Mysteries)

Jake (trailer park warlock, drafts)

Cult of the lamb (pet dreaming themed)

Tubbo

Cassie (fnaf: ruin)

Black kitten + space

Grey draik (neopets)

Pumpkin head (still needs more research)

Someone's OC Avery & siblings

Maki harukawa

Brown, lime green and forest green puppy

Dylan (the magic roundabout)

Zombies

Vincent (dead plate)

Osamu dazai (bungo stray dogs, drafts)

Vision CG (marvel, drafts)

Light blue

Bearded vulture

Mind (Chonny Jash/CCCC)

Seam CG (deltarune)

John Constantine (Justice League Dark)

Keralis (Hermitcraft, maybe)

Tula tones (novi stars, drafts)

Eevee + dragons (or witchy themes which I may do instead)

Kitten + stars (I think, the request actually says stairs though and it's been confusing me)

Mushrooms

Grey + Ross federman youtooz (drafts)

Boyfriend.xml (Friday night funkin')

Puppet (fnaf)

Genshin impact (drafts)

Eddsworld

Karako Pierot (hiveswap)

Scorpion

Border Collie

Mortal Kombat

Puppy + SpongeBob (drafts)

Baby vulture (drafts)

Rain world/slugcat (drafts)

Border Collie

Modded smash hit rooms

Crying child (fnaf)

Agent Smith CG (the matrix)

Rolfe DeWolfe CG (Rockafire Explosion)

Slime rancher

Puppet (fnaf)

Parado (Kamen Rider)

Tally hall

Rockabilly (probably)

Felix Lee

Charles Xavier CG (X-Men)

Naoto Shirogane (persona 4, drafts)

Kitoto

17th century dutch (drafts)

Sees behind trees (drafts)

Allay (Minecraft, I think. Drafts)

Tasmanian devil (drafts, can't figure out if they want the cartoon or animal)

Spamton CG (deltarune, drafts)

Grunge + lop eared bunnies (drafts)

Yume-Nikki (drafts)

Daxter (jak and daxter, drafts)

Madness combat for puppies (drafts)

James Sunderland (silent Hill, drafts)

Shirokuma (Danganronpa, drafts)

Leo (IDW comic, drafts)

[torchickentacos]

15 Questions!

Tagged by @gaycey-sketchit !!!!! Thank you so much for the tag, and I loved reading yours! Long post, sorry lol.

1. Are you named after anyone? Nope! Not to my knowledge, anyways. Though if my mom told me that she named me after Taylor Hawkins from Foo Fighters, I would not be shocked.

2. When was the last time you cried? I think monday? I cry really often, at every single emotion. Happy? I'm going to cry about it. Laughing? My high school theatre class would always point out when they made me cry laugh. Sad? ABSOLUTELY crying about that. I didn't cry but I DID tear up yesterday because I was really happy about something nice someone said to me.

3. Do you have kids? Nope, and no intention of having them. Regardless of my desire to or not (usually not, being the oldest of four is enough for me), my health is not, and never will be, in an acceptable position or ability to go through that, and I've accepted that for a while now.

4. What sports do you play/have you played? As a kid, I played soccer and did gymnastics! In middle school, I BRIEFLY did fencing. My mom told me that when I was fencing is the only time she's ever seen me look truly graceful (lmao, love my mom dw. She's right). Then health stuff came up and I had to stop, but fencing just came as easily to me as breathing did. I always wonder where I'd be if I could have stuck with it. Nothing's ever immediately clicked with me the way fencing did, but it's hell on my joints.

5. Do you use sarcasm? Sometimes, usually when I'm annoyed which isn't TOO often. Or if I'm being hyperbolic for a joke.

6. What is the first thing you notice about people? No clue. I guess their demeanor- if they seem happy or not, if they look stressed, how they're feeling (or how I perceive them as feeling, I guess).

7. What's your eye color? Blue! My friend swears up and down that they're kind of green. I think she's colorblind.

8. Scary movies or happy endings? Happy endings!!! I am not built for scary movies. I can do some buzzfeed unsolved and I can watch markiplier play indie horror games but that's kind of my limit. I LOVE some types of horror, but my anxiety does not. I will be paranoid for a month after.

9. Any talents? I can play music by ear. Give me a guitar and a random song and ten minutes at most!

10. Where were you born?

11. What are your hobbies? Landscape/scenery art (also other art but it's much harder), writing, playing guitar (used to play piano too but not well. I also own a ukulele that I'm bad at, but generally I can play something on any instrument you give me). But mostly, I pick up and put down hobbies all the time. I've dabbled in crochet, embroidery, sewing, painting, archery, coding, needle felting, gardening, cooking, a little bit of everything. Never long enough to get good at most of them, though. I get bored too quickly.

12. Do you have any pets? A lovely husky (shelter girlie <3) and a gecko! And, for the gecko, a bunch of crickets at any given point in time, which I guess counts because I have to take care of them, too.

13. How tall are you? 5'2 and a half. 5'4 with my doc martens.

14. Favorite subject in school? Assuming lunch doesn't count, I was a theatre girlie. Assuming THAT doesn't count, English. I liked English because if I didn't have an answer, I could just bullshit one, but I usually did enjoy it and had real answers. I'll tell you why the curtains are blue and why they're the specific fabric they are and what the rest of the room means- if I'm interested, anyways.

15. Dream job? Oh boy, uh. Still trying to figure that out. DREAM job, like, without worrying about money or my physical ability to do it? Pro fencer, but I gave up on that a looong time ago. I genuinely believe I could have done it if my knee hadn't gone to shit at fourteen. I'd love to work in a record store or a music store, though, which is a little more in-reach.

Tagging: Anyone who sees this, lmk if you do it from this post!! But also, NO PRESSURE AT ALL but @soulsilversprings @nowandevermore @lostlegendaerie @mozukumi !!! Also whoever else wants to, I get nervous to tag people so assume you're tagged, too!

[cryptidsurveys]

Tuesday, September 10th, 2024.

Are either of your parents engaged but not married yet? No. My parents were married prior to having me and my sibling, but they're currently legally separated (not completely divorced). Neither one of them has any plans to re-marry in the future. They still get along for the most part, but they probably wouldn't see one another nearly as often if I wasn't in the mix. We meet up for lunch every few weeks and will see the occasional film in theaters. I also need to call my mom later to figure out where we're going to eat this Thursday.

Do you cuddle with your pet (if you have one)? Of course. Esther isn't a big fan of being held (she's very wiggly), but she will cuddle under the covers with me in bed or sit on my lap when I'm on the computer or something. Karenna is somewhere in the middle in terms of being held (doesn't always love it - doesn't always hate it); she will sit on my lap, and she likes to curl up behind my legs if I'm lying on my side or up by my chest/shoulder if I'm lying on my back. Lacy is the most okay with being held (you can basically hold her like a baby and she's very calm about it), but she's not particularly cuddly; she just likes to be close without being disturbed. She's also more bonded with my dad than with me, so she tends to sleep in his bed down by his legs.

What college did you want to attend as a kid? I didn't care. I knew it was more or less expected that I would attend, but as for a dream college, there was nothing like that. I ended up going to a local community college, but I never completed a degree.

Do you have a pet gecko? I don't.

Are you scared of reptiles? I'd be apprehensive if I had to deal with anything venomous, but in general, no. I really enjoyed taking care of all the reptiles when I worked at the pet shop.

Honestly, have you ever eaten raw cookie dough? Possibly. I know I've eaten raw brownie and banana nut bread batter - my sibling and I always used to eat the leftovers from the bowl when we were kids.

Where would you most like to go in your state, etc that you haven’t been? I don't have anywhere specific in mind, but I would love to explore the mountain backroads in CO. Maybe make it a multi-day trip. Stop for cute towns and tourist attractions, photo opportunities at scenic overlooks, picnics, great campsites…

Who was the last member of the opposite sex you laid in a bed with? I'm not sure.

About what things are you most selfish? Probably food, lmao. I can and will share, especially when there's an abundance, but there are times when I can be possessive and worried about having enough. Idk if it's an eating disorder thing or what.

Are you camera shy? Why/why not? Not really. I've just accepted that I'm going to think I look crappy in photos taken by other people. The memories matter more.

What is one small thing your significant other does that makes you happy? If you are single, what is one small thing a friend does to make you happy? This just re-re-reminded me to check my messages from Ollie, but it says "message unavailable." Huh. Anyway. One thing they do is hype me up. Recently, they were saying that I should be a social media manager for the animal shelter because I take so many photos and know the kitties so well. They already have someone (probably more than someone) who manages that sort of thing and I'm not at all tech-savvy, but their belief in my ability was uplifting. :')

From inside of your house, how many doors lead outside? Two. Then there's another door that leads to the garage.

Who was the last person to give you flowers? I received a bouquet of sunflowers at the volunteer appreciation dinner last April.

What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Worrying, overthinking, excess sugar, coffee, smoking, volunteering, YouTube…

Do you like BBQ sauce? I do.

How many subscribers do you have on your YouTube channel? Zero. I only use it for watching videos; I don't create content or leave any comments.

If you could have a car in any color you wanted, which color? I'm fine with the car I have (it's red).

What is your favorite Avril Lavigne song? I don't have a favorite.

What was the last thing you were mad at a doctor about? That's not a story I want to get into.

Is your mother a lesbian? I don't think so…

Do any of your close friends NOT have a Facebook account? I don't know whether Ollie has one or not. I haven't been active there for about a decade now, so it's not something I tend to think about.

Would you ever consider getting dreadlocks? No.

When was the last time you swam in a pool? Not since I was a teenager.

What was the last thing you said out loud? Probably something to one of my cats.

Have you ever wanted to be a nurse? No.

Who or what do you worship? I don't really worship anything - not even God. I do believe in God (for lack of a better way to put it), but my connection isn't like that. In fact, sometimes I can get downright pissy. Just the other day, I was like, "Hey God, what the actual fvck is up with this shit?!" I know I'll eventually turn the situation into some sort of lesson or learning experience, but will it ever make divine sense? Who knows.

What was the last song you listened to on repeat? I don't know about a single song, but the last album I listened to on repeat was Precession by Fifty Dollar Dynasty.

What song do you want played at your wedding? There isn't one. If it was up to me, I'd just do without it.

What are three of the most painful things you have ever stepped on? Just stuff like hot asphalt/cement and rocks. I also stepped on a bee as a child. I was running through the park while wearing sandals, and a bee somehow managed to get between my foot and my sandal and it stung the underside of my toe. It wasn't especially painful, though.

If applicable, what song are you listening to right now? I'm not listening to anything.

If you could choose three US states to visit, which three states would you pick? Let's go with national parks instead because they would be my main reason for visiting a particular state: the Grand Canyon, Yellowstone, and Glacier NP.

Have you ever donated blood? No.

Would you rather attend a yoga class or a Zumba class? Zumba sounds fun.

Have you written anything down today? No.

Do you own a pair of pink pants? I have some old pink sweats/track pants.

Do you normally eat healthy? I'm nowhere near a health fanatic, but I don't have the worst diet in the world either. I eat a lot of generally healthy foods, but I also eat plenty of treats/junk foods.

What is the best compliment you’ve ever received? I'm not sure… The people who say the nicest things are my dad, my therapist, and Ollie, but you know that tendency to doubt the people closest to you because they "have to" say nice things or they're just biased or whatever? Well…it's like that.

Do you believe in miracles? Maybe not miracles. Maybe not some sort of divine intervention. But highly unlikely, amazing, fortuitous events that seem to come out of the blue or snatch victory from the jaws of defeat? Sure.

What are three ways in which you are not normal? Hmm. I volunteer full time instead of applying for an actual job/paycheck (I have my reasons). I drink a loooot of water (thirstiest person alive, literally, I swear). I don't like road trips (aside from the hypothetical scenario I talked about above).

Which genre of music do you listen to the most? Classical. Then whatever's on the radio at the shelter. Usually pop, classic rock/rock, and occasionally country.

Last person you kissed, are they into any type of sports? Which ones? No.

Does your best friend have a job? Yes.

Do you ever visit people at work? Like outside of work? As friends instead of merely coworkers? No. However, Libby left recently and now works at a bakery in town, so I am planning on going there soon to get some treats and say hello. :')

When you move out your house (or if you already have moved out) do you plan on still visiting your parents’ house? Of course.

Do you usually take home leftovers if you eat out in a restaurant? I often do. Exceptions would be when I feel like there's not enough to bother or if I just genuinely don't think I will eat the rest of it.

Have you ever ghost rode the whip (put your car on auto and dance next to it as it’s moving)? Do you want to? No.

What do you think of long-term relationships? I don't even know what to say to this, lmao. It's such a strange question. Like yes, I would like to have a long-term, solid, healthy connection with someone…?

Do you have a lot of social media accounts? Do you update them all regularly? Just a few. I update this account and my IG fairly regularly.

When you’re in trouble, do your parents ever “middle name” you? No.

When was the last time you got a new tattoo or piercing? Do you have any plans to get either in the future? It's been years.

Are you patriotic at all? Why/why not? I think this survey was combined with another that I took recently, so I'm just gonna breeze through the questions I've already answered.

Are you any good at packing a suitcase? I guess...? It's not hard...?

Have you ever had a white hot chocolate? What did you think? I haven't, but I would be interested in trying one.

Do you ever get eczema? No.

Have you ever mowed a lawn? Yeah.

Is there anyone you would do literally anything for? No. But figuratively, I would do anything for my dad and my cats.

Have you ever done a “knock-and-run” prank? A few times as a kid.

Have you ever stabbed a friend in the back, intentionally or not? I don't want to go into detail, but you could say that. It wasn't malicious - like my intention wasn't to hurt or betray them - but it was pretty selfish.

What’s the longest you’ve ever slept in one go? Without waking up whatsoever? I'm not sure.

Have you ever dated someone with an accent different than yours? Not really.

Have you ever worked two jobs at once? No.

Do you enjoy the smell and taste of cinnamon? I do.

Do you own a pocketknife, or any other kind of multi-tool? I don't personally, but I think we have an old Swiss Army knife somewhere.

What was the last thing you took a video of? I'm not sure.

What are some of your least favorite foods? I'm not a huge fan of most seafood. I'll eat some battered and fried stuff, but that's about it. I'm also not a fan of seaweed. I've tried to like it, but I just…can't.

[deathbysatellite]

Capp 1 Household: Week 1 - Part 2

Part 1 Part 3 Part 4

The next day, Elizabeth Ng returns as a friend from school.

This dining table is entirely comprised of redheads.

The handheld ended up being a good investment, as Juliette discovers her passion for Games.

Being a typical Fortune Sim, Consort made Cleo get a job in the Security Career.

That night, Cordelia manages to scare the shit out of all three of her kids.

Consort tries to improve his relationship with Cleo, so he can teach her the commands she needs in order to be promoted. It's less than successful.

Consort then spends his day off building his skills so he can get promoted instead.

Gordon Nott proves to be the most popular Sim in my game, and the orphan bus glitch apparently comes with brief levitation powers.

A pleasant autumn day for the teens. Also the least agreeable sibling turns out to be the first to get along with the slow to trust dog. For some reason this feels kinda similar to how my brother's aggressively asocial cat chose my toddler nephew—who had to be told to quit headbutting the pets for the first three years of his life—as his favorite human. Like it takes two years for this cat to let you pet him, and even then he'll start batting your hand away after a couple minutes. My nephew didn't start being consistently gentle with animals (accept geckos) until last year. And somehow they're buds.

First he stays the night at the Specter's uninvited, now Gordon helps himself to some rancid cereal. He's probably the weirdest Sim in addition to being the most popular.

He also continues to spread the chest pounding, which I don't think I've seen since Pleasantview. I've seen plenty of bowing in Strangetown, but the last I remember seeing the chest pounding was with the Burbs.

Given that Scribonia's teeth seem to be glitching through her chin (perhaps something that wasn't fixed in the clean template?), I don't blame Tybalt for being scared.

Cleo made the smart choice by investigating the truck, and managed to earn that promotion Consort was hoping for.

Juliette invites over her not-yet boyfriend, while the ghost of Julius rages about his son, Octavius.

Ouch, make that not-ever boyfriend.

Juliette can't decide between crying and swooning.

Is Tybalt mad on behalf of Juliette, or does he just hate Romeo's guts? Neither. Romeo actually slapped him first.

Scribonia manages to scare the shit out of Tybalt again, resulting in him passing out on his way to bed.

With her Aspiration tanked, Juliette spends the next morning throwing a tantrum.

Opal Raymond also returns. You know, I've noticed most of the teens who my Sims bring home from school seem to be from Bon Voyage.

Tybalt finally manages to command Cleo to speak, something he's been wanting to do for a couple days.

Dancing the Smustle inspires Tybalt's love for Music & Dance.

Consort gets a call from his niece, Miranda.

Juliette spends so much time playing that handheld, she get's offered a magazine subscription.

[spacefinch]

Incorrect Quotes, Wild Field Trips edition, part 3:

Martin: i bet being a fish whips ass. smooth and wet as fuck. well except for the bears

Martin: THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO SAVE AS A DRAFT.

Ralphie: Kinda fucked up and nasty how vampires drink blood, imo. Like. Pepsi costs a dollar seventy five

Wanda: WHERE ARE YOU GETTING PEPSI FOR $1.75? THAT SHITS LIKE $2.30 MINIMUM

Carlos: Who the fuck is paying $2.30 for a Pepsi?

Ralphie: Not me I'm paying a dollar seventy-five. At the hospital.

Aidan: I pay like $2.50 but I'm Canadian.

Ralphie: I feel like we're getting off topic.

Tim: Blood is free?

Wanda: So is Pepsi if you steal it?

Ronan: Why... why are you getting your Pepsi from the hospital?

Ralphie: Because it's only a dollar seventy-five.

Keesha: Why in God's name would a vampire drink Pepsi?

D.A.: Why would anyone drink Pepsi?

Carlos: Femboy

Ralphie: Huh?

Tim: That’s why I’m not a fan of the sexy vampire trope. One, It’s overused and supports the current status quote of typical vampire supremacy:worshiping rich folk. Two, Vampires prey upon humans and therefore symbolize capitalists preying on the working class. And three, Werewolves are much sexier imo.

Arnold: Am I having a stroke?

Gavin: You might want to go to the hospital then.

Phoebe: I hear the Pepsi is cheaper there.

Keesha: I just found out my gecko's tail works on my phone's touchscreen, so I'm going to let him make a post and let spell check interpret the words.

The gecko's post: Funks go e y y man kill zucchini angst

Chris: The gecko has spoken

Koki: okay fucking fine guys lets make the most fucked up sandwich ever since that's all you want to do.

Jimmy: I'll start: bread

Martin: Peanut butter

Aviva: Jelly (grape)

Chris: Bread

Koki: Guys...

Gavin: Tolkien is having his first ever egg. It's. Not going well.

Gavin: TOLKIEN IS A SNAKE. HE'S MY SNAKE. MY PET SNAKE. AUTHOR JOLKIEN ROLKIEN ROLKIEN TOLKIEN IS NOT BIRTHING AN EGG.

Mikey: gonna start running all of my posts through several layers of google translate just to keep the boys guessing

Mikey: I will start running all my posts with different google translation levels to make kids guess

Mikey: I’m going to start posting all of my posts in the step of transferring the kids, Google can guess.

Mikey: Google can think that I will start publishing all my posts during the child replacement phase.

Carlos: Google might think I’m going to start posting all my posts during the baby-swapping phase.

Phoebe: Garlic bread.

Tim: The Socrates of our day

Phoebe: I accept the title of Greek philosopher.

[crystal-grotto]

Does the mun own any reptiles or pets in general? :3c

Munday Funday [Accepting!]

//When it comes to reptiles, I used to! I had a leopard gecko by the name of Praag, and she lived in a tank beside my bed until a few years ago. Before her, I had a green anole lizard that I had adopted from a Medieval Faire.

//Now I just have two cats, a black maine coon named Noir and a tabby named Tippy.

[1spooky-dad]

I've always been "the weird animal guy" who has a million facts about any and all critters and loves everything from your pet dog to the black widow hiding in your firewood. So imagine the problem i face when i realize that i have a phobia of praying mantises. Im THE animal guy, i can't have a phobia of animals! When i was a kid i could forgive myself for it, but the older I've gotten, the madder I've been about it. I can hold tarantulas, i can get up close and personal with a Hornet nest without being stung. But i can barely stand next to a praying mantis with a pane of glass between us. The phobia is actively working against my autism's special interest. Who's gonna win out in the end?

I was recently looking at ways to get rid of aphids in my garden besides ladybugs, and you can imagine the plummeting of my heart when i see praying mantises are perhaps even better pest control than ladybugs. Damn. If only I could stand being around them. I should do something about this, but im not gonna go out of my way to buy mantis eggs or anything.

Well, fast forward to last Sunday, I'm at work at my pet store job, and i answer the phone, where someone asked for me specifically. It's an old lady asking if i can take praying mantis babies off her hands. She took it the egg sack thinking it was a moth cocoon. It's hatching, and is very much not a moth. It's January. She doesn't want to risk freezing all the mantis babies by putting them outside.

I'm standing there, actively being bit by a flying gecko, phone to my ear, and i realize i have a Very Important Quest i can either accept or deny.

Fuck it.

"yeah, i can take in those mantises if you bring them to the store."

And i took them home, stuck the bottle she'd delivered them inside, into my 40 gallon bioactive snake tank. There's gnats it there from the slightly damp soil, and springtails, and aphids from cuttings of my infected plant. They have a feast and a warm, moist environment that is safe from the elements.

And i can't tell you how I'll feel in a few months when the survivors are adults and considerably bigger, but god i love watching them as they are now. I love watching them box and watch their surroundings and scurry around after gnats. They're smaller than my pinky nail, but their eyes are so big. They're adorable. I can't wait to watch them grow up.

And all during this, i wonder, why are people content to let their lives be controlled by phobias? The grown adults I've seen in my store that scream in terror when i take out a tiny snake is... Honestly embarrassing. You're 40 and afraid of something that's 10 inches long? That has no way of hurting you? Aren't you embarrassed? Don't you feel silly? I know how phobias feel, but i can't imagine not wanting to change that part of myself and improve myself.