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valiant-portabella-pirkko · 24 days

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Alright know what here's a little Guild Wars 2 reblog game for everybody; what mounts (if any) do your characters have in their canon, do they have names? Personalities? How'd they meet??

Spill it all below, tell me about all your creatures!!

#my posts #gw2 #guild wars 2 #thinking about this a lot lately since mine def do!#I'll start: Pirkko has branded mounts and while I haven't named most of them. they were all branded over by Aurene #because they'd been corrupted by Kralkatorrik and they wanted to see if Aurene's magic could purify them in some way #it usually didn't work but Pirkko keeps the ones they saved #Larimar is her skyscale. his egg was tainted by the Brand before he hatched so Aurene was barely able to save him #he's a chivalrous knight type and is known to be just as noble as the Commander who raised him. brave. bold. kind of a dork.#while the Commander is fighting he circles up above and swoops down to rescue injured soldiers from the front line #Saoirse meanwhile gets the SoTo skyscale egg and that hatches into Nightshade. he's fierce and protective too #but in a much more 'loyal guard dog' sort of way as opposed to trying to help everyone else as well. he's an axejaw!#in Regrowth Ceara gets Foxglove because the Commander and Gorrik could NOT manage this little troublemaker #she's too smart for her own good and is CONSTANTLY causing problems. so basically just like Ceara HDKDHDH #Foxglove's a lunarmane! and she's very fluffy and cute and will give you the big shiny eyes to mooch all your food. evil #Ruju meanwhile has a full cast of different mounts who all were troublemakers in different ways when he found them #his griffon Windshear's a northern featherwing that was notorious for carrying off travelers in Lornar's Pass. turned out she was just bore #she's very playful and mischievous and still grabs him on a regular basis. he absolutely hates this #his fulgurite ridgeback jackal Thunderclap was a rogue jackal that the djinn had him help recapture and tame #he's imbued with Ruju's air element magic and is known to make the air spark and smell of ozone when he's annoyed #then there's Blitz his lepidote brute skyscale! he likes bloodstone magic and kept nipping everyone until it was finally provided #the rest I don't have in-game yet but I DO have concepts for the skimmer/warclaw/raptor. the 1st 2 I know what skins I want too #the skimmer will be a frosty-dyed lithosol named Frostbite. it's an ice elemental that terrorized Frostgorge Sound #the warclaw is a spinetail nian with jungle colors since it's supposed to be a smokescale-type saurian critter #and the raptor is SUPPOSED to be the jungle raptor that plointt grew to huge size and promptly tried to eat him #BUT there isn't a skin that feels close enough yet so rip. Fang is a handful tho and keeps trying to chew on Inquest HDJDGDH #ANYWAY. that's all of mine. throws this into the wind

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gideonisms · 1 year

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ngl having bad brain times. Can you ever physically FEEL the lack of the get things done chemical

#the advice for depression is to do the things that you used to enjoy and wait for them to help again #it's good advice and it does work to an extent but listen #i don't choose when i find things enjoyable i fixate on a topic and everything becomes enjoyable again #it's not like doing hobbies or reading or cleaning or eating meals helps THAT much #it just keeps me busy and sane and makes my body keep working until i get some good brain chemical shipped in #then I'll remember everything i've been putting off but at least i'll be relatively functional at that point #it's not that all the depression tips are useless. i'd be much worse if i didn't do any of them #as it is i've made it over 25 years without even developing a nicotine addiction or a crippling dependence on alcohol #my joints are even still fine mostly and i can tell when to get out of a situation so i can keep living #now i even know when i want to be around someone and when i don't!#i'm basically great at existing i've studied with the masters #still.

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manasurge · 3 months

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bleh

#blabbering #rambling/whining/complaining/venting ahead:#I think the horrors have finally caught up to me and the depresso is starting to take hold #i don't usually experience this until winter but I think the sudden drop of activity and people going on hiatus and such -#has triggered this early for me #basically I can't be left alone with my thoughts for too long or i start spiraling REALLY badly.#i don't really handle change very well haha...#i have the notorious curse of second guessing anything and everything and putting it on repeat in my head and then amplifying it #which sucks bc I don't have any more escapisms that work now bc this was already my escapism and I have no human connections irl #(I'm not kidding either. I've failed time and time again to make friends irl and was always the proactive one about it. But alas... ugh)#my only source for connections is online bc i struggle to make friends (especially at my age and how my energy keeps depleting and depletin #might lowkey be sharkweek but usually I just get more agitated and not this (this is very specific to the winter horrors™ for me)#i guess I may as well check out the spears while they're around still (tho in between me making dinner). I'm just feeling super bummed out #and not excited like I was the other day about it (ofc I blame the depresso™).#I don't even know what to do for my beta characters. Head empty. Head gone. sigh.#also it sucks bc next week is gonna kick my ass at work (canada day/july 4th/july in general/5 DAYS and long shifts in there too)#i'm going to be so tired and so alone and with nothing to look forward to. Idk what to do bc none of my usual distractions are effective no #No escape. No seretonin. No company. Nothin'. I notice I when i start getting bad like this when I fall back hard into pokemon #(because it was my childhood escapism and I was a neglected only child who was left alone a lot; hence the connection lol)#i'll probably just have to suffer through it and be an absolute wreck of a person i think. I don't really have any other options #watch me get sick again bc canada sucks to work bc everyone has it off and they ALL GO TO THE STORE I WORK AT AND IT SUCKS.#gonna try to draw more too but the depresso is eating my brain worms (the healthy brain worms)

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kuromi-hoemie · 4 months

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I'm glad on the day i have so little energy i do not have a single meeting going on today ..... leave me alone Please

@ppl from work, not the beautiful angels who live in my phone

#i keep wanting to draw at night but then get to cozy after eating and fall asleep ૮ – ﻌ–ა #that's not necessarily why i have so little energy lol but it is somewhat related since last night my sleep was extra inconsistent #“I'll take a ten minute nap” she says over and over again starting at 10pm until she forgets to set a timer on one of them #🤌🏾 and then she wakes up at 2 and again at 4 and takes an hour at last to fall back asleep

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mukuberry · 5 months

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suddenly overwhelmed with longing for kazui mukuhara

#kazuiloveposting #I NEED TO BE DOMESTIC WITH HIM SO BAD ARGJHHHHHHHHH #i wanna get home from work and he's sitting there on the sofa and he looks so beautiful and he smiles at me witha loving look #hes got casual clothes on and hes so gorgeous and divine and i feel so relieved as i look at him. like i wasnt truly home until i saw him #i wanna cuddle and watch tv and talk about my day and eat bad takeout because we didnt wash the dishes #uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu #BUT NO. hes in stupid jail and im in the stupid 3D world. fuck #i want him so bad. just like to have. and to hold. i want him in my life #SIGHHH one day I'll have an actual bf... i can't imagine they'll ever come close to kaz but oh well... gotta keep on hoping 💪😪

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sysig · 11 months

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TFW you kill god: Oops lol 🙈😳✌ ️(Patreon)

#Doodles #AGE #Yves #It has been too long since I revisited my best/worst boy! ♥ I've been missing him #Not too long ago I went and reread my behind-the-scenes worldbuilding stuff for AGE and goshdang there's some good stuff in there #I do miss AGE - maybe someday I'll return to it I just got real burnt out on DMing :')#I still love it! And my PCs still talk about it sometimes :) Makes me happy they enjoyed it hehe #Yves is still one of my fave-faves tho haha ♪#He's such an interesting villain!#He's kinda remorseful in the same way someone who eats meat is towards the animals they eat? (Hopefully anyway lol)#''Thank you for your sacrifice but I need this so I can [well in this case it's revive God but shhhh let's pretend it's just continuance]''#You don't /have/ to do that Yves you just Want to pfft #But he wouldn't be the antagonist if he wasn't doing Something not quite right haha #The effects of the various gods' deaths are pretty interesting too since reality kinda needs them #It just keeps getting more and more shaky until it violently realigns back into shape when enough of them die - it's an interesting gradient #Yves you made a mess! What're you gonna do about it!#Yves: ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯#Silly boy (god-murderer) ♪

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lightkrets312 · 4 months

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me, having a Big Feelings day: this sucks and I feel bad.

also me, writing it all down and sending pictures: my therapist should hear about this.

#my post #...this is healthy right? this is good decisions?#i still feel bad man. i think im doing the right thing but that's what got me into these feelings so. who knows.#venting a little more in the tags cause i don't wanna make a whole new post but like. this is why i don't trust good things to happen tbh #because it's like. ive been promised cake. when is the cake coming? what do i have to do to get it? where do i go? what IS the cake?#what will it take to get the cake in my hands? when can i expect to eat it? what will it take to eat it? how many things do i need-#-to keep track of the cake I've been promised i can have? that i can eat?#i don't care if i lose the cake after. but until i get the cake in my fucking mouth? it might as well not exist #because at any moment i can LOSE that cake until I've EATEN it all #a cake is a temporary thing and i can lose it so easily. it can fall apart at any moment.#'aren't you excited for cake?' i fucking wish i could be. i fucking wish. but it hurts so fucking bad to lose cake.#i don't get my hopes up until i eat the fucking thing if i can help it. because this fucking hurts. i just wanted my cake ;_;#i just want to know I'll eat cake at all without losing the fucking thing before i finish ;_;#work it light

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ybcpatrick · 4 months

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#shut up kell #i don't have a day off until june. my last day off was last monday. im tired girl help #why'd i agree to manage two departments while we're understaffed and i can't get everything done bc of it #and also there's a bunch of external shit in our way preventing my bosses from training me properly so we're all just scrambling around #all i do right now is work eat keep myself conscious long enough to watch wrestling monday and friday and then sleep. which im gonna do now #i'll be fine we'll figure it out june is only a week away. goodnight #if i haven't answered you (there's a couple of you) and u see this it's not personal i hope you're well don't worry abt me and i love u mwah #be back as soon as i stop getting my ass beat on the reg

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thedreadvampy · 1 year

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idk I had a very interesting therap today but I just

like it's all very well to recognise that I gotta have a fucking open-ended breakdown and jump face first into the Sadness Bog sometimes instead of sitting on all my feelings

but like

I still have to go to work, you know? it's like. ok yeah have a breakdown which like until you jump into it you don't know if it's going to last an hour or a year. yeah go ahead that's all grand. you do have to get up in the morning and go to work though. you're not allowed to not do that. or to not pay the rent or not shower or not eat.

like all my friends and loved ones are constantly like 'you know you're allowed to be sad right' and it's like. AM I??? because I STILL HAVE TO PAY RENT.

#red said #the thing my therapist keeps pointing out is like. i got on this adulthood thing WAY too early #metaphorically i have Had To Go To Work In The Morning since i was like. 4. bc i am congenitally incapable of #Not Thinking About Consequences. and it's so important to be Good and Tough and Have It Together #but like. maybe if id done more crying and melting down when i DIDN'T Have To Go To Work In The Morning bc i was a Literal Infant #i might be a more balanced adult now that i actually DO. Have To Go To Work In The Morning.#what do people like. do. when they have to have feelings but also meet adult responsibilities? impossible. gotta choose.#i think it doesn't help that i already really struggle to work a full time job. like I'm already late basically every day bc i a night guy #so it's like. there's no give in this. maybe if i was back into a 3-4 day week? but idk if i can afford that #but also the work is only partly work. it's also like. having human relationships. eating. washing. being a person.#but idk. like. until i have some genuinely open-ended time i think I'm gonna always find it impossible to actually let go #i said in therapy it's like. like sadness specifically is like a thick muddy bog. and i can dip a foot in it #but bc i know i need to be able to keep moving #i can only stick a foot in and deal with a bit of it if I'm holding onto something. so in practise i can only cry #right before it becomes inappropriate to cry. so like. end of a therapy session. heading to a train station after seeing someone.#that kind of thing. it's a safety thing.#it would be much more effectively Dealing With to go dive into the bog and plough through it #but I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG THAT'LL TAKE and i have to like. come out all muddy and deal with that #and there's always somewhere i gotta be soon. i can't just jump into the mud. not cause I'll get hurt i just Don't Have Time #anyway. feelings. how do they work. embarrassed about having them. embarrassed about suppressing them. generally just embarrassed.

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ereborne · 5 months

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Song of the Day: April 15

"Something in the Way She Moves" by James Taylor

#song of the day #it's been two weeks + two days since the last song of the day #the issue is you see that I started the songs up again in December because my insomnia was fucking up my perception of time #and I wanted some kind of regular marker to help me keep track #and then what happened two weeks + two days ago is that I lost all track of time and subsequently the songs of the day failed #I'm gonna see if I can keep up again for a bit now that I've re-restarted without an alarm on my phone #but if I miss any this week I'll just give in and turn the alarm back on #updates from the last two weeks are going to sound so chaotic let's see #I got a new project at work /and/ I got demoted /and/ I got added to a higher access level /and/ I'm in charge of a new database #yes all of those things together. I'm to be an accountant now! not instead but in addition to my other stuff. should be interesting #I didn't get April Fools off like I was scheduled to because all my scheduled vacation got unapproved #(I was here for about twenty nonsequential minutes to boop people and I'm glad I made time for it. extremely fun to boop)#I lied shamelessly to get eclipse day off and we went on a full-day roadtrip and it was wonderful. everything I dreamed and more #I killed one of my baby succulents through clumsiness and rabbits ate my pea plants but my sage and cabbages look promising #got a massive pot of mint flourishing on my porch and the horseradish is gorgeous #got Duncan lights and plants and a filter system for his frog tank but we haven't set up the substrate yet #so there's just potted plants sitting inside a terrarium. very amusing honestly #I've been playing a little Stardew and eating a /lot/ of hot sauce and tofu #drinking tons of klass aguas frescas--especially the soursop one. holy shit is it good. the mango and hibiscus also #and these past few days I've been sleeping better #for most of those two weeks I was getting a handful of twenty-minute naps each workday and then crashing unwillingly on the weekend #I haven't read any comic books since February :'( this weekend we're going to costco and then I'm reading comics until Monday #what have y'all been up to? I've missed being around #edit: oh shit the actual song part. anyway this is James Taylor! makes me happy and helps me settle. good vibes songs #I'm half-panicked about work all the time recently and then also today was tax day (Nick's taxes. blegh)#James Taylor doing some heavy lifting round here

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transgenderenkidu · 6 months

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im so fine right now. im normal, even

#i need to eat dinner but i cant do so because if i do i will cede the study room and theres NO fucking way i'll get work done anywhere else #so i have to wait for my roommates to get here so they can keep the room so i can go get dinner (and also so i dont ahve to write alone)#and aslo i cant take another ibuprofen on an empty stomach adn i am in so much pain rn #my luck has been so fucking ass the past couple of days #nearly fell in the pond and did drop my water bottle in it; scalded my hand while boil washing it; tripped on the way to one of my classes;#slept through astronomy this morning; they didnt have any coffee at the dining hall until after i left; spilled my second cup of coffee all #-over the table in the study room; AND i have a major essay and two homework assignments due tomorrow and an upcoming exam

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gideonisms · 2 years

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burnout is supposed to end at some point, I have read this. However, how do you know when it has ended and you should gradually force yourself through more activities to get used to living a life again, and when doing that will send you Directly back to an even worse ring of hell. Is there like a guidebook or

#in some ways it sucks i've never had one massive breakdown just like small ones that didn't really justify lying in bed for a month #like when i say i'm doing that i'm also usually doing bare minimum reading eating exercise #in addition to lying in bed and scrolling for 5 billion hours #i'm still making plans and attempting to get better it's just at a glacial pace #it's not working i'm not feeling better i still feel like if i find a job or try to make a decision i'll probably break in a million pieces #then any time i try to work harder the rebound of that hits me even worse #every job i feel like i can deal with less and less masking. until one day i just won't be able to hold down one for more than 2 months #i kept trying every strategy i knew and it just wouldn't keep me from having to go to my car and scream sometimes #feels like walking over coals trying to apply for internships rn but schoolwork is the only task i like some of the time #need the internship to graduate if i don't graduate i'll just be stuck doing things i hate even more #ik you shouldn't apply to grad school just to go but if i can put off dealing with living a life outside of academia for even 1 year longer #worth the mountains of debt #like even if i drop out and everything goes horribly that's a year i didn't spend saying thank you have a nice day #god. i'm going back to thinking abt lesbian necromancers now. wow that brief look into my mental state sucked

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paladincecil · 8 months

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I've been super ill all day so I didn't feel up to playing any infinite wealth but now that I've settled down in my bed I feel fine -_-

I better not wake up feeling ill again in the morning xD

#I couldn't eat today do now I'm super hungry but it's also midnight #I could go make a quick something now but then I probably wont get sleep for a few hours #on the other hand being this hungry might keep me awake anyway xD #maybe I'll just go down get some plain bread to tide me over until the morning

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orcelito · 1 year

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I have finished 4 out of 8+ batches of boba

It is tiring, but rewarding work

#speculation nation #certainly more entertaining than average shifts #kinda like a dance. balancing a bunch of things im doing at once #flitting between tasks with the core goal in mind of keeping the boba machine going #im already hungry again tho 😭 considering ordering delivery & taking a break to eat #mini break rn. but depending on how many i do i GOTTA get some food #im at 2 hours in. i'll finish 8 no problem. but if there's more than that it's another matter...#do i wanna make a day of this? if i take half an hour to eat that'll set me at uhhh #hm. idk. itd risk me doing shit until 8. kinda dont wa #*want that. thanks phone #hmm......... well. maybe i'll order delivery anyways lol. i hunger

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piplupod · 2 years

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counselor has called in sick I guess (she's not "in" today) so.... at least I don't have to sit in her chair and lie about how I'm doing to avoid being put in psych ward ? a win and a loss I suppose (also I was absolutely about to forget to bring the distress tolerance booklet she wanted me to bring so fhdjdl perhaps this is a saving grace)

#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #yes I probably should be in inpatient rn but unfortunately the one here actively makes me worse #so..just.... trying to keep myself alive i guess for now dnfjdkl #''juno dont u have DID cant u just switch and let someone else take over'' lemme ask u a question in return:#do u enjoy the thought of giving ur entire life over to someone? like Actually?#i thought i did until i realized thats what was going on. then i realized that's actually terrifying #what if they say smth wrong and i have to be in trouble for it later (not anything mean but just. smth that will trigger more abuse for us)#and also /i/ want to eat my tasty little snacks #the two littles are the ONLY ones I'll save things specifically for dhfjdkl maybe Andrew too bc he's had a rough go of things #we all have but he's... different ig but he aint around rn so its just the littles that I'll set things aside for and not touch #anyways i am rambling. yes i could theoretically let someone take over but it is terrifying and i dont like it #and yes actually they have tried but i am a fucking nuisance when it comes to stopping switches fhfjdl its the only time I'll try to ground #sometimes they get thru anyways dbcjdkl I can't stop them all (its actually rare that I'm able to stop it tbh)#but yeah #im... not doing that rn much to the chagrin of Lake and Kam and probably Nine too if im honest #RIP at them BSHDKSL sorry that im a stubborn ass about this oops

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kellystar321 · 2 years

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#periodical life updates #finished all my criminology homework! now i got sunday off to chill and maybe draw and also me and my sibs might go to chinatown? but idk #because dad's bbq-ing which might change some plans. anyway! eating dinner now :> its not my favorite but it is okay <3 #high priority art to-dos: commission | daily eca (for tomorrow and the project) | art for *** and ******* | annual birthday redraw #general arts: mrd thing for monday | solepsi art | things for the ace iterations | the cases ref #self indulgence: drawtectives (i wanna draw more eugenes) | agent | fun ace things #my queue is winding down so that might go quiet in a bit <3 there's about a dozen things left <3 we'll see i suppose <3 #project sekai updates: cannot believe i have to wait 6 more events until the next wxs event i just want a cool emu :'0 #my strongest team is all four stars except for a three star emu; i just want a 4 star for her <3 also!! nicori smile survey for that event!#and also its probably the one where tsukasa makes a child cry by yelling about how hes gonna be a cool star hgkjh #but theres been so many events that just! arent wxs! it's been 13 events since the last one to the next one we get u-u <33 i miss them;;;#but we get some mmj ones so at least theres that <3 mmj's my assigned group and wxs's my favorite group so i have an attachment to both <3 #but yeah im gonna save up gems for a cool emu card <3 theres the valentines day one too? AND ALSO. TSUKASA AS A KNIGHT?#FOR THE WHITE DAY EVENT!! HE LOOKS AESTHETIC AS HEL I LOVE KNIGHTS!!! <3 so maybe i'll try for those!!#im also writing a drawtectives fic and recently i drew some aces from one of the old aus <3 i miss him i love my little guy <33 #im downloading all my old twitter archives. i have a lot of memories there i need to keep or else i'll be so sad <3 trying my best <33 #i have school on monday as usual <3 can you believe my birthdays coming up this month? it feels like ive been 21 forever hgjkh <3 #i think thats all the updates for now; im sleepy <33 goodnight. thank you for reading; ily <33

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