#am I FGO posting? yes maybe so

[terrible-monkie-kid-aus]

Speaking of FGO this is from the Camelot singularity and it’s the main theme performed live. One of my faves tbh.

Here’s the og version btw

[punderfulowl]

Top 10 Anime (That I've Seen) in 2020

Well now, it has certainly been awhile. I'm currently sitting at eight months too late for posting this, but, y'know, something something life happens. More accurately, I already made this list, but wanted to try out what response I'd get from Reddit. Turns out, they're not as cool as you guys!

Anyways, as the title states, this is not a list of my favorite anime that came out during 2020, but instead my favorite anime that I just so happen to see during that year. While it's fun to have an end of the year retrospective, I find that having a list in this format not only adds variety, but also helps bring attention to anime that might have been lost in the shuffle in previous years (I also don't have enough time to stay caught up in seasonal releases).

Honorable mentions:

Aggretsuko S3, My Hero Academia S4, Today's Menu For the Emiya Family, Interspecies Reviewers (yes, really), and I Couldn't Become a Hero So I Reluctantly Decided to Get a Job

10. Maid-Sama (2010)

In hindsight, I find it a bit funny that I wanted to watch something wholesome to kick off 2020. Anyway, Maid-Sama is about a high school girl that is also a no nonsense Class President and she kind of has to be at a school where, until recently, was an all boys school. While she kills it in academics and is good at shutting down any shenanigans from the male student body, her financial situation isn't the greatest and has to balance a job at a maid cafe along with her school-related responsibilities. She does her best to hide her employment there to keep up appearances, but is one day found out by one of the boys who happens to be a big flirt and, yeah, hijinks ensue. While this anime doesn't have too many surprises, our main leads bounce off each other well enough to keep me entertained. Nothing I haven't seen already in other anime Rom-Coms, but I think it has more than earned its place at the start of this list.

9. Haganai NEXT (2013)

It's a personal rule of mine when making these lists that I don't include sequels of shows that were in previous lists. While I DID see the first season of Haganai a couple of years ago, it didn't quite make it into the top ten at that time. Because of that, it meets the criteria for this year's list. While I found the characters were just as charming here as I did during the first season, the development of their relationships really took off. It's a shame that it will most likely not get a third season, but I'm happy with what ride this show gave me. But hey! At least I can read the light novels/manga to continue the story! Wait, nevermind, the Haganai fans on Reddit are saying that's a bad idea.

8. Engaged to the Unidentified (2014)

Based off of a Four Panel joke manga, Engaged to the Unidentified tells the story of a girl in high school suddenly getting some life changing news. As it turns out, her grandfather made an arranged engagement with her and the son of a family he knew. Next thing she knows, the boy in question, as well as his little sister, moves into her family's house! While the boy is unassuming at first, there may be more to him and his family than he lets on. Plain and simple, this anime has charmed me. There's a decent amount of drama and mystery despite the source material and I applaud it! Even though this also doesn't have much new to offer, even to the point where I would compare this to Maid-Sama, what made me pick this at the 8th spot were the color choices and animation quality. Give this a shot if you can!

7. Grimoire of Zero (2017)

It's a fantasy/adventure story starring a loli sorcerer and a huge, anthropomorphic white tiger man. I honestly can't say anything else. I won't be able to do it justice. That first sentence should intrigue you a lease a little bit. Read it, again. Please check it out. It's an underrated gem that no one is talking about.

6. ID: Invaded (2020)

Hey, here's something recent! Unfortunately, this is also not something I can say much about. There may not be too many deep characters and the secret bad guy isn't hard to figure out, but BOY is this anime cool! The best way to describe this series is that it's like the movie Inception, but instead of brain heists, it's brain murder mysteries.

5. Carole and Tuesday (2019)

A runaway rich girl has a fated meeting with an orphan and they decide to make music together...oh, this also takes place Mars. Joking aside, this show was something special with its music (a new song almost every episode no less), interesting setting (freaking Mars, dude), and endearing main cast. Shoot, the music itself would be top 3, maybe number 1, but what bogs it down is the show's second half. I can easily see myself watching this again someday, and maybe my opinion will lighten up, but for now, 5 is a dang good spot.

4. Fate/Grand Order: Absolute Demonic Front - Babylonia (2019)

Part of me hesitates placing this high up on list due to this show being animated, fan service spectacle for Fate fans. However, that hesitation is overshadowed by the fact that I am a Fate fan myself and I can do whatever I want with this list. Even if you're not a Fate fan or play FGO, if you enjoy some solid fight animation, this is worth a look.

3. K-On S1 (2009)

I'll admit it, I might regret not watching the second season then putting the series on the list as a whole, but this how I've been doing these lists and I'm such a creature of habit. There's not much I can say about K-On that hasn't already been said. By itself it's an anime classic and one of Kyo-ani's biggest properties. It's a sweet and wholesome watch, but be sure to have some insulin within reach.

2. Princess Principal (2017)

Imagine you're working with a team of programmers trying to make a mobile game then all of a sudden someone asks to make a show out of it. You know, a show with different character motivations, plot, twist and turns and all that? Most might say that's just a shameless, shallow cash grab, but it turns out okay for Princess Principal. Sure, most might summarize this anime as, "cute girls doing espionage things," but with its cast, visuals, and interesting alternative timeline, it works! Apparently there's a new season or movie in the works and I am all for it!

1. Beastars (2019)

I was not expecting this to be number one, but with much deliberation (with myself obviously) this feels right. It tells a pretty unique story while showing itself to be the exception to the rule when it comes to 3D anime.....it being that it's actually good. While I acknowledge that shows like K-On are classics and deserves to be number one on many different lists, it didn't line up with my personal criteria like Beastars did. My biggest deciding factor is: Now that I've watched this, do I want more? It's true that while I'm excited to start K-On S2, Beastars intrigues me more and ever since season two was announced, I'm looking forward to that more.

Sorry again for this list being so late, but at least the silver lining is that the next end of the year list is about four months away (in theory)!

[siverfanweedo]

my kinda old Osakabehime post is getting notes and maybe it's just how I wrote it but I think I am gonna restate. The point isn't that oh fgo is bad with age, retcons, and pandering ( which is all true ) also Osakabehime's age isn't a retcon

it's in her profile and from the myth stuff i have read she appeared as an older women.

i will say my issue is that a NEET in their 20's doesn't feel as tragic and pathetic. With how the world is now a days there is more and more of that. FUCK i am 24! I am a stay at home i can't work nor am i in school right now.

Realize and think how much more tragic and pathetic it would be if Okki was written to be in her late 20s if she was in her early 30s. Someone who society thinks is a proper adult and should be working should just...NOT be a shut in like Okki is portrayed as.

Yes her age is bad cuz it's fucking creepy and weird. Her age is bad cuz it actually effects the power of her story. Like it would all be so much more powerful if Osakabehime were older! that is my point

[mystech-master]

My FGO Servant ideas/Servants I'd expect

These are some Servant ideas that I have had since I've already asked what you guys want.

I know that the Servant has to be someone that people know for the most part, since almost every Servant is someone that everyone knows with a few exceptions.

Some spoilers for other Fate works bellow

Saber

Yagyu Jubei, the One-Eyed Samurai. I feel like his NP will be some kind of Mystic Eye under his eyepatch or something. But if they want to go super Bullshut, I could imagine him being a Pseudo-Servant of Yvette L Lehrman.

Archer

Tchaikovsky, composer of 1812 Overture. The Orchestral song featuring CANNONS! I have already made a Reddit post about it here. I am trying not to just shove people in Caster

Angelica Ainsworth, holder of the Gilgamesh Class Card in Prisma Illya. I wonder how Archer/Caster Gil would react to her, or even Enkidu. I mean we know Kid Gil isn't fond of her.

Lancer

Arachne, the Spider-Woman Weaver. Her Lance would simply be an enlarged sewing needle. She'd either be a sort of Spider- Centaur, or the Spider-Legs would be coming out of her legs. For some extra shit, she might be merged with the Japanese Spider-Yokai Jorogumo, or just reference it similar to how Galatea referenced the tsukumogami. Also, her being a woman made into a monster by Athena, Medusa might gain a new friend.

Sigma,>! Maiya Hisau's son from Fate/Strange Fake. Apparently the True Lancer of the True and False Holy Grail War!<. I really just want him in to see how he'd interact with the EMIYA family. ~~Someone give Shirou/EMIYA some guy friends!~~ Of course, we'll need to wait a long time for strange fate to finish to get him since the author doesn't like using f/sf characters for anything else atm.

Loki, god of mischief. Maybe being half-Jotunn can be a good enough justification to keep him as himself and not need to be a Pseudo. I like OSP's interpretation of a "genderfluid benevolent but mischievous Hearth Spirit who protects the home and family". Genderfluid would open up for one of Fate's many genderbends they love doing, but if they kept him male and make his character about all the kids he has, then imagine...Loki, who is a god of mischief and a dad.........Loki making dad jokes. Although I feel like they might go with the female Loki one since Fate loves Genderbends and IDk if Japan has an equivalent to dad jokes. The reason he'd be a Lancer is the spear of Mistletoe he gave to Höðr which then resulted in Baldr's death which is treated as the precursor to Ragnarok.

Rider

Jiraiya, the Gallant Ninja. It was either this, with him riding his summonable Toad (I mostly think of this video), Assassin b/c Ninja, Caster b/c of reasons covered in the video linked before and some similar videos by the same guy, and Saber with the Nakirimaru, or "wave cutting sword," used to exorcise the Snake Spirit from Orochimaru. I went with Rider so the Rock-Paper-Scissors match of Frog-Slug-Snake matches the classes of Jiraiya, Tsunade, and Orochimaru respectively.

Caster

Tsunade, the Slug Maiden. The reason is mentioned above in Jiraiya's segment.

TOHSAKA, Rin as a Counter Guardian. The closest we'll get to actual Rin on her own with no other god(dess) inhabiting her body as a servant. NP would be the Jeweled Sword Zelretch. Also, imagine Ishtar seeing the older Rin (her vessel)'s more developed body and getting pissed.

Orpheus, the musical son of Apollo. Considering one big part of his story was being so bummed about his wife dying that his music just depressed everyone, even the gods, with his bad vibes, I could imagine them making him into sort of an emo guitar player or some shit. But if that is too lame then giving his Lyre some Siren Song-esque powers might be something since during his adventures with the Argonauts, since when the sirens began to sing he "played music that was louder and more beautiful, drowning out the Sirens' bewitching songs."

Assassin

Not too sure on the spirit, hopefully a Death God, but I want a Pseudo-Servant of Kairi Sisigou. I mean a Necromancer Mercenary, TELL ME that doesn't fit. Also the possible fun interactions he can have with Mordred again, and her family and new friends.

I mentioned above, Orochimaru, with him being a Pseudo-Servant in Souichirou Kuzuki. I just needed a snake-themed servant to put him in because I know everyone wants him as a pesudo so Medea can have her husband.

Berserker

Kriemhild, wife of Siegfried. Either this or Avenger. Berserker would be the most fitting for my idea, but Avenger would also fit and most likely have cooler animations I bet. As the wiki says about her personality: "Kriemhild held a "deep‐rooted and blind love" for Siegfried, such that it's described as "passionate love that repays the murder of one’s loved one with twice the payback." Siegfried's death, rather than assuage the feud with Brunhild, caused Kriemhild to "burn with the flames of revenge."' NP being a more demonic/dark version of Balmung. I wanted her to be a sort of obsessive wife and mother to Siegfried and Sieg (I like to imagine them having a mentor-student to father-son dynamic), the family dynamics between the three would be fun to imagine.

Lycaon, the wolf king. He once tested Zeus' omniscience by serving him the roasted flesh of Lycaon's own son Nyctimus, in order to see whether Zeus was truly all-knowing. In return for these gruesome deeds, Zeus transformed Lycaon into a wolf. He'd be a pseudo for Svin Glascheit. I just needed a wolf spirit to put Svin in. I mean everyone already is imagining Berserker-Jack the Ripper using Flat as a vessel.

Magni, son of Thor. Do I even need to explain who I am using as a vessel for this Spirit?

Avenger

Pandora, the all-endowed first woman. At first, I was unsure about her class. Yes, the whole thing of Pandora's Box was made as a punishment for Prometheus stealing fire (I wonder how Fate would interpret this with the whole Age of Gods vs Age of Man thing), but as the wiki says "She was given knowledge by the gods that she had to wait until humanity perished so that she can finally open the box and release the world's true potential. Because of her immortality, Pandora suffered greatly as people unreasonably tried to kill the undying mud doll whenever they discovered she wasn't human. After so many years of suffering, Pandora began questioning on why she had to go through this for humans."

Captain Ahab, Captain of the Pequod. >!Implied to be one of Watcher's Shadows in fate/strange fake, so the reason he'd be unavailable is stated above!<. His NP would be his prosthetic leg made out of whalebone, which may give him some aquatic abilities. Or it might be the harpoon that he got tangled in which resulted in his death.

MoonCancer

Tsukuyomi, the Shinto Moon God. Using Hakuno Kishinami as a vessel. I mean combining the Admin authority from the EXTELLA's Regalia which grants him kingship of the Moon Cell with Tsukuyomi's moon god authority would be pretty cool. I know a lot of people want a Dioscuri situation where we get both male and female Hakunos but I feel like it'd be one or the other. Of course, this is only if Hakuno NEEDS a god in him. I partially Headcanon that the reason BB made Jinako a MoonCancer was as a test run for when she does it to Hakuno.

Alter Ego

Ergo, The Man Who Devoured God. From The Adventures of Lord El-Melloi. " Because of the method of creation he has several gods within him after devouring their flesh. All three gods within him, one of which is Sun Wukong, have the shared themes of "water gods" and "hands"." Having 3 gods fits man other Alter Egos haveing 3 gods in them (Sakura Five, Ashiya Douman, and Sitonai).

>!U-Olga Marie, the Alien God. The Best chance we get of having Olga back. Similar reason for being summoned as Kiara.!<

Lemme know what you guys think of my ideas and if you'd add anything to them.

[yet-another-saberface]

Fate/ & My Anxiety

Okay, so, I kinda had a rough day today, but that rough day really made me want to write this. I’d been thinking about it for a bit, but now I’m sure that this is something I should put out there, because I’m sure at least someone out there has had a similar experience. And if I write this correctly, it should be an interesting read anyways. (Post now updated with a cut & pretty gifs and things! I tried to keep the gifs more positive to offset some of the more serious parts of what I’m discussing.) So uh... Enjoy I guess? It’s kinda what it says on the tin.

Warning for serious mentions of anxiety and stuff. But I try to keep it lighter than it could be. For anyone else that might have some anxiety problems like me, it might help you to read this, because it’s really just a discussion of some themes I’ve taken away from the series that really helped me with my own anxiety. But whether you read it or not you should probably take a sec to breathe, that never hurts.

So. I’m going to be upfront about this. I have anxiety. Not just a normal amount of stress, but actual, diagnosed anxiety. I am not medicated, but at the moment that’s mostly because my doctors think that trying medication during this whole pandemic situation wouldn’t actually let them know if it would help me in the long term. I’ve been living with anxiety for pretty much my entire life, but I just thought everyone was stressed out, and that life sucked, and that I was bad at dealing with it. But that wasn’t the case.

But one thing is going to ring true for me regardless of what the state of my anxiety is, be it in the moment or over the course of my life. And that’s that like most things, media helped me with it before I even realized what it was. As I sit around in quarantine and try to manage my fluctuating stress levels, I’ve found myself drifting back to the Fate Series, and FGO, after taking a break from them for few months, arguably even the past year.

At this point, it’s been around 3 years, maybe even 4, since I originally discovered Fate. And I’m not going to lie, I didn’t get the best possible first impression, because I started with the Deen anime from 2005. I’d seen Saber before, had no idea who she was other than some chic I vaguely looked like with a good character design and a sword, and saw her on the cover of an anime. So I watched it. I had no idea what the hell was going on, and was trying to piece everything together as I watched, but I watched to the end. And I liked it. It definitely wasn’t my favorite show. But when I heard that it was “the bad one,” and that there was more, I gladly went to go watch it.

And that might not make sense at first, but I’m emitting a huge detail. I was, and still am, a huge mythology nerd. As I was watching the original Stay Night anime, I was fascinated by the portrayals of these characters that, technically, I already knew. And I was really into the idea that there was more of that.

So later that year, I watched Fate/Zero. And I’m gonna be honest, I was too young to really appreciate everything it had to offer, and I’m planning on going back to it soon, but I loved every second of that show. When I got the chance, I binged through it, and it was heavy stuff, but I couldn’t take my eyes away from it.

And after that, I started looking up what else there was. I watched Carnival Phantasm in maybe 2 days tops and adored it. I procrastinate on watching a lot of stuff, because I found myself having less and less time to myself, but that same summer I watched Zero, I also started playing FGO. I started the game for the characters I already knew. I stayed because I found a story I was genuinely invested in on its own, and a community that was really fun to observe, if not be an active part of. I still remember sitting down on a day when I had nothing to do and finishing Okeanos all in one go. Or laying down after a long day at school and doing the same to a ReRun event. It was a great stress outlet, and I was invested.

But the more I look back on all of that, I start to see details that explain even better why I was so invested. I don’t have a single favorite Fate character, but I will admit that I adore Saber. She’s what drew me in, my friends who know Fate apparently think I look like her, and we all know the Excalibur scene from Zero looks like it should be in an actual movie.

I won’t claim to be a character expert, despite being a writer. I didn’t write Saber, let alone any other Fate character. But the more I think about her, the more I start to realize that yeah, I understand a lot of what she’s gone through. Do I know what it’s like to be a King and run a country and what that entails? No obviously not. But I do know what it’s like to feel that you have a duty to everyone around you to not screw things up. I understand how someone could feel extremely guilty when they do eventually screw things up. There’s a lot of ways to look at any character, but I realize now that from the beginning that that specific idea was the lens through which I understood Saber.

And it holds true for most other characters. With Shirou, did I understand losing your parental figure or an undying desire to be a hero? Not really. But I did understand the fact that he felt like he wasn’t good enough, and that he gained value by putting himself on the line for others. I may not have risked my life for another person, but I’ve definitely put myself through mental stress enough to induce multiple panic attacks a day for other people.

And now we get to the part of this... I don’t want to call it an essay. The part of this post. Where I talk about Gil.

Am I aware that in most (early) depictions of him in Fate, he’s a horrible dick of a person who deserves no respect? Yes, I am.

But I also know that when I think about some of the less horrible aspects of him as a character now, there’s stuff in there I should take away that is good. I just went on an whole rant about how I can understand low self esteem and self sacrifice and crushing responsibility and the pressure to not screw it all up. And these days, I can’t stop thinking about how Saber admitted to a lot of that and (this is obviously a gross oversimplification but you should get by now that this is personal and specific) the response from Gil and Rider was “It sounds like you aren’t living life as happily as you could and are setting a bad example of how to live life for those that look up to you.” And that idea keeps coming back to me in every moment when I’m having an anxiety attack, or cram studying even though I know I’m ready, or finishing something due two weeks from now tonight because I won’t have to do it later. And it only hits me harder because I know I’m not a King or anything lofty like that, but I am a labeled “gifted student” and a support person for many of my friends and a designated “responsible one” and all of these other things. And yet I’m preaching for them to do as I say not as I do when it comes to enjoying life and taking care of yourself.

I don’t know if I fully internalized that message when I first watched that scene. But I must have in some capacity because it still haunts me now, reminding me that maybe I shouldn’t be giving into all of this stress. And I’m trying, I really am, to keep that in mind as I fight against all of it and try to keep things under control.

And then there’s Babylonia. When I really get down to it, I have a pretty strong emotional connection to this part of FGO. I joined the game pretty late, roughly right after Camelot’s release, so I had a lot of catching up to do. But I caught up, and I got to experience this story that I’d heard was one of the best in the game as it came out. If I wanted to I could say a LOT more about Babylonia, and maybe I will in the future. 

But I’m not going to deny that CasGil has been a pretty prominent presence in my mind ever since when it comes to stress and responsibility. (Heck I could probably talk about just him specifically for at least a good 5th of what I have so say about Babylonia. Maybe I will someday.) I mean, it’s kind of his thing, you see the fandom joke about it all the time how he’s the Gil that doesn’t sleep because he just keeps on working and working and working. And that’s why there was this one moment when I was watching the Babylonia anime that now stands out to me. When Gil goes with the player out to the observatory, he just leaves. He doesn’t bother apologizing to anyone or explaining his actions, he just goes. And we know, as basically an outsider, that this is him taking a break. He needed a break and so he just took a break without any clarifications or explanations or apologies. Sure he might justify it to the player has needing to do some other work out there, but that actually makes it hit harder for me. Because he’s justifying his breaks as more work.

I used to be lucky enough to have a clear cut line between what was my time and what was other people’s time (that I was giving them out of my time) and what time belonged to school/work. And now all of that has been thrown out the window and I’ve been having to teach myself how to do what I just described.

Take a goddamn break without having to tell everyone else how sorry I am for taking a day to actually rest and breathe and all those other important things. And yet I still have to justify those breaks to myself as time to take care of other things. 90% of the time, those breaks aren’t breaks to me, they’re time to work on my novel instead of my essay, or something like that.

And then I glance down at my phone and I’m hit with most of what I just wrote flooding into my head. And I try to tell myself that no, it’s okay to just take a break. And that I should be allowing myself to enjoy being alive instead of being a slave to expectations and responsibilities. And that as a person I know other people look up to I should be setting a better example of how to take care of yourself. And sometimes it works. Other times there’s more things at play and it doesn’t get through to me the same way, but it’s something that works. All of the hours I’ve spent with those character remind me that what I’m doing isn’t okay on a pretty regular basis at this point. And I’m really glad for that. And I hope that all of this stuff will continue to help me as it’s helping me right now.

At least I know that when I feel like I’m freaking out, I can open FGO and play through a quest and I’ll usually feel better. So I’m just gonna keep trying, keep managing, until I find a place where it’s finally all okay again, as much as it can be.

(P.S: More reasons that CasGil is my grailing target right now? Yeah that’s true but these reasons are deeper than “I got a Merlin look at that” or “Grailing Jalter is useful.” He’s a character that’s genuinely important to me and I think that finally investing in him is going to be really satisfying for me.)

[fgodestinyawakenings]

Yes surprisingly, this isn’t tagged under fgo or anywhere near fate because it’s personal thoughts and pretty much anti post. 

If you don’t like post generally about anti, please do not click to read.

But if you still wished to continue reading, you’ve been warned that everything below will not be something you’re comfortable with. The warning is already bolded, so yeah.

To be honest, I already expected yet even surprised I got 1.3K+ followers under this blog mostly under the incorrect quotes I’ve posted.

I also sort of expected my gameplay is expected to not pay attention a lot because... I ain’t a whaler like Rexlent or so to spend my life expenses for certain Servants and I can only grit and grind of whoever I get with my luck.

Lastly, I also kind of expected the main purpose of this blog which is more or less focused on my story: FGO Destiny Awakenings is even less paid attention to since I’m not ghostofxavier that wrote Fragment of Chaldea... Which is the main purpose of this entire post and not really about the writer. I still recommend you guys to read since they are really a good author.

I... I’m surprised I even found myself continuing to write it. I’ve mostly written OCs stories, so it kind of explained while Gudao and Gudako have more of an original personality. But, I do try to fit to the canon information about them from their dialogues...

I’m even surprised so many people following it and wanting more for the next chapter especially it’s now in-between before Orleans Singularity.

I won’t deny I’m happy... But at the same time, I got anxiety and panic attack from this.

I rarely go inside notifications to see the comments/reblogs if there’s any since it’s flooded mostly on the incorrect quotes. However, I do observed which of them got the most notes especially on certain pairing wise...

I can only admit... Some of the pairings I’ve written as incorrect quotes and even the coming stories are the ones I really considered as my NOTP. Because it’s either I really can’t and don’t even see them that way, or at worst, I really hate that particular character a lot that I have a really hard time focusing on them or even write them in my story.

I won’t mention names of the character, since yes I’m a coward who don’t wished to get flamed just because I don’t like them, but I always told myself to try my best to include or write them to compromise that both reader and I will get what we want each.

Though of course as I said that, I got another few more pairings in my mind that I already noticed that not only it’s unpopular but even goes against that one popular ship that I can’t really ship at all.

So again, I told myself to compromise to write that character to two separate people so it’ll be easier and makes both party happy.

Funny and reptitive I keep saying it’s to make readers happy and myself too... But I still remember I got anxiety and panic attack... Burst into tears and feel like puking from the stress to write something I don’t like. And even wondering if I ignore the main popular charcter/otp and write what others considered NOTP because it’s my OTP would be self-fulfilling wish of fanfic.

Maybe half of it already is... Or even keeps on going at this rate that it’ll be especially if the ideas I had both gudako and in particular gudao is biased and self-inserting.

I always answered in the asks that I always keep things neutral under this blog because... I do have my NOTP and even my own Antis against certain characters, and even rolled my eyes when there’s posts that called out others for hating said characters.

That half of me doesn’t want to care and want to lose all followers for both this blog and my story just to be able to do what I want and write what I want. But another half told me I can’t be selfish and also logically that I do want it to be a better story to focus on other character... Even if my NOTP is inside....

There are times I wanted to give up writing because I always had a hard time writing them and even turning them OOC is either I don’t understand the character, write it out of biased and self-fulfilling desire for OTP and/or even knowing it’ll displease the reader.

So yeah, I’m surprise for those who do actually read them on fanfiction.net and AO3, commented, give kudos, favorite and followed/bookmarked the story. I’m happy and relief so far it’s only general of how the story goes instead of character...

But well... I’m not even sure how it goes on in the future. I’ll only say if you don’t like my OTP/NOTP in the coming story. Please unfollow/unbookmarked or even remove the kudos

I can’t make you or everyone happy. I did that and 24/7 person with anxiety and low self-esteem is what I am. I’ll only be selfish eventually to write what I want, and even if I try to write your favorite character and it screws up... Please unfollow.

It’s negative and unreasonable and even selfish at this point... But this is definitely from the bottled up stress I’ve building for writing this. Or maybe the price to write a non-OC story would lead to this...

All in all summary, anyone who are to be my hater in the future, please delete/blocked/unfollow not only this blog but even my story in both fanfiction and AO3.

Please make yourself happy. There are tons of other blogs you find will make you happier than this story/blog. I don’t hate you or anyone, it’s just really me and my own NOTP and antis to certain character.

[rexcaliburechoes]

Ok, but imagine a FGO x FEH crossover event.

They’re special units, so they likely wouldn’t return until maybe a Legendary banner. Story-wise, their appearance is similar to a Tempest Trial, where Askr and... the Fate universe mesh together via some magic either from the Fate-verse, or FEH-verse.

But imagine the units and their stats and skills. The FEH stat system functions differently from the Fate one, with skills that are interchangeable and removable. Ascension isn’t a thing, since all the power from a unit doesn’t come from boosting the unit, but from the skills.That’s how FE works- number-stats and skills go hand in hand, whereas in Fate, the skills are just... There. useful, yes, but not the center of gameplay.

I made/am making a Google Doc about the Servants that appear in FSN as FEH units, and I might make more units, but currently, 8 units are enough for now. If anyone has anything to add/changes/etc, feel free to PM me! I honestly really enjoy making faux units since comparing the stats is rather fun.

As for a list for who is planned, it’s under the cut, since I plan this post to be a masterlist of sorts of it gets off the ground and doesn’t suffer from my extreme procrastination habits sdkjfhka;sd

Currently, I’m working on:

- Cu Chulainn

- Medea

- Medusa

I’m planning on adding:

- Emiya

- Hercules

- Sasaki Kojiro

- Gilgamesh (maybe. He and Emiya are going to give me headaches because they aren’t archers that use bows >.>)

I have actually finished:

- Artoria Pendragon

[leio13]

I Was Tagged (Twice)! It’s Miracle!

Thanks @catsbythegreat and @fraink5!

Rules:

1. Post the rules

2. Answer the questions given to you by the tagger (in this case 22)

3. Write 11 questions of your own

4. And tag 11 people

Catsby’s 11 Questions:

1. Do you want any pets in the future? What kind? 

PLEASE. YES. ANYTHING FLUFFY THAT I CAN PET AND CUDDLE. PREFERABLY CATS, BUT I’M GETTING DESPERATE.

2. What would you consider one of your hobbies?

My hobbies include procrastinating, getting addicted to games that involve some kind of collecting of sorts (like LLSIF, FEH, etc.), procrastinating, writing garbage, crying over my life, procrastinating, sleeping when I should be working, uh… that’s about it, I think.

3. What kind of music do you listen to?

Japanese music mainly.  

4. How do you feel about milk? 

CHOCOLATE MILK IS MY LIFE. 100000/10. Drinking it right now. Whole milk is pretty lit too.

5. If you could go to any country that you’ve never been to, which one would you go to?

Japan!

6. Do you like the ocean? 

The ocean looks nice…? That’s about it. I’m not stepping in there. I am not risking stepping in seaweed, on crabs, on sharp rocks and sea shells, getting eaten by sharks… 

7. Do you prefer sweet things or savory things? 

Sweet things, I think. I don’t think about it too much. I just kind of like what I like (which isn’t a lot of things).

8. What is the best food your family makes? 

Only one? Cheesecake.

9. What’s your favorite season? 

Winter! I love snow!

10. What is your favorite city in the country you live in? 

New York City! I haven’t really been to many…

11. What’s your favorite kind of weather? 

Warm but with a coolish breeze where the sun is shining, and the grass looks the brightest it’s ever been, and you just want to run and jump and spin like Maria in the beginning of the sound of music.

Now Mina’s 11 questions:

1. What is the greatest unsolved mystery in your life?

uh… I don’t know. Maybe that one time every one of my siblings and I had a dream that ended in some one shouting “we’re all stupid!” Still not entirely sure what that was about…

2. What’s the funniest thing you’ve seen today?

What did I even do today…? uh… maybe that post I just reblogged about Fullmetal Alchemist…

3. If you casually adopted one anime character’s wardrobe, whose would it be?

Kirigiri or Yosano because I want to look as cool as these two butt-kicking ladies.

Also, I think Q looks really adorable, so if I ever felt like dressing like a little preppy boy, that would be the way to go for me.

4. On a scale from HATE to would-bite-into-like-a-fruit, how do you feel about bell peppers?

I like bell peppers, but you will never catch me biting into one of them like an apple. Have you seen the insides of those things? eww… nah, man. My peppers gotta be hollow and minced.

5. Do you play (or have considered playing) FGO?

Hell yeah, I do! 

6. What is the rarest pair you have ever shipped?

I don’t really ship rare pairs… In order for me to ship something, it has to be smothered in cheesy shoujo manga romance tropes… that or apparently lots of pixiv art can do it for me soukoku. so yeah…

7. How do you feel about sick fics?

👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌there👌👌👌 right✔there ✔✔if i do ƽaү so my self 💯 i say so 💯 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mMMMMᎷМ💯 👌👌 👌НO0ОଠOOOOOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌Good shit 

8. What is something you reference excessively?

Shrek. 

Also, “alone at last”

9. Saddest moment in any media (book, movie, anime, etc) you have consumed?

Dark Era… When everything changes in Minagoroshi-hen… Iskandar (bless his heart) vs Gilgamesh (screw him)… the end of Assassination Classroom… drowns in tears

10. Best/worst one-liner from a movie?

Do I have to choose? There are so many good quotes. I for some reason can’t stop thinking of christmas movies, so… “Grace? She died years ago.” A true classic any time of the year.

11. What would you make the last question to this questionnaire be?

Do you know Oyashiro-sama?

My questions

1. Do you know oyashiro-sama?

2. Do you like york peppermint patties?

3. What’s your favorite joke?

4. What would a combination of your favorite and least favorite tropes be like/

5. What’s the rom-com-harem-light-novel title of your life?

6. On a similar note, pick 5 members of your harem

7. What is your favorite meme?

8. What character unexpectedly grew on you? Why?

9. What would you do if you had the powers of Bobobo-bo Bo-bobo?

10. Now what if your hero partner had Bobobo-bo Bo-bobo’s powers; what power would you have in order to complete their ability?

11. On a scale of 1 to how-high-are-you-Rika?, how would you rate these questions? (By the way, I’m not high)

I’m going to tag @hatterchan, @gureshin-trash, @leroleero (why won’t the tag work???), @vettiecakes, @soragakitakato, @naoamaya, @xxene, @this-is-gospel-for-us, @somanyguys, @wanderesslluna, and @daniellelyle! If you don’t want to answer my weird questions, don’t feel pressured to do so! If you do want to answer my weird questions but were not tagged, I tag you now!