#also. ahem. FAGGOT

[kapreday]

did he just call dean "daddy's blunt little instrument"???

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY I'M WATCHING THE DESTIEL LOVE CONFESSION FOR THE FIRST TIME

[currymanganese]

The Bear Season 3 gave me the courage to start Interview With A Vampire~ Among many of the things that I found darkly funny about the season are:

1. The whore house scenes:

a. The Alderman that rightfully got his head busted open for dipping his dick in Brick's poop chute without her consent.

b. Lily saying to her madam, "they're swapping Andouillie sausage recipes." over ldpdl and lestat's dick measuring contest / posturing over her with all the gay ass lust and tension over them being so thick and pervasive like the fog of war on a DOTA map.

c. Brick's ascent to being ldpdl's woman of business and ldpdl skirting around racist ordinance targeting his *ahem* 'facilities' by giving the ladies shares in the business.

d. "I have clean pussies walking the floor out there!" ~ okay ma'am, Brick my beloved, I believe you.😭

2. The period accurate homophobia:

a. Paul's gaydar going off if Louis and Lestat even so much as breathed, gurgling and screeching like a geiger counter going off at ground zero of the Chernobyl Nuclear Reactor disaster - but not the defective geiger counter, "3.6 roentgen, not great not terrible.", but the accurate ones that could've saved so many lives and warned the reactor staff and first responders that they were all doomed in short order 😔

b. The police chief that came to loustat's home and shaded them for, "crimes against nature" at every opportunity

c. Ldpdl's mama basically calling him a filthy faggot in her mind at every opportunity, when unbeknownst to her he knew exactly what she thought of him after lestat turned him.

sidenote: actually it was heartbreaking how desperate ldpdl was for his family's love and approval, he tried so hard to hold onto them for so long - he's better than me in that regard, but it was so clear why that was ultimately an impossible task for multiple reasons namely....Bro you're a fucking vampire now! 😭

d. The crowd reaction to loustat having a 'dance of romance' at their family murder (unbeknownst to Lestat) divorce ball - the couple that walked right the fuck on out in disgust immediately at the sight of their pda might've saved their own lives if they were at risk of being lured in as prey. 🥴

e. "Daddy Lou and Uncle Les had a real funny way of being nice to each other!"

3. The unapologetic gayness:

a. "Ahhh! Lestat! Unpack your trunks (wdym by that lestat 👁️ that's innuendo there isn't it 😭) you're home!"

and the UNPARALLELED downbadism of "he ain't white, he french,!"

b. Lestat seducing Louis.

c. Claudia Louis divorce lawyer and power of attorney arc - he really couldn't have let that man go on his own. 😔🙏🏽

d. "Come To Me!" 😩🥵♥️✨💦🍆🌈

e. Louis taking Lestat back

d. Daniel being shady af and calling Louis a battered wife - he was so real for that.

e. Daniel in general - I know his old ass was lusting after "Rashid!" so bad and trying to act mad or like he was above it - but like sir! why tf did you want to know what he tasted like and how much he weighed etc. etc. but okay, no judgement, he IS fine as hell and *Spoilers* he's older than you anyway so good for you! 😉

3. Lestat's cheating ass,

a. he was almost as shameless a philanderer as my grandfathers, amazing.

b. him giving louis permission to indulge in an open marriage and obviously lying through his teeth about it - R.I.P Jonah

c. Him and Antoinette arguing over her finger.

4. Lestat in general. Sam Reid ILY - lestat my behated though but i see his appeal i really do.

5. Raising Claudia.

6. Claudia in general - she really is her fathers' daughter after all.

7. "Did you eat the baby?!" 🤨

Louis took so long to answer it makes me doubt his ✨ odyssey of recollection ✨ about the circumstances under review in this here interview

8. The 🧚🏾‍♂️💅🏽✨💖Odyssey of Recollection💖✨ 💅🏽🧚🏾‍♂️ smh louis - you spent way too much time with your huzzbands and they rubbed off on you - you were not always a theatre gay! but also go off king 👑🥰 because you have the talent for it.

9. The flashes of loustat coparenting baby vamp Claudia - the stakeout / ambush / you are grounded missy! moment in her room when she snuck back in the house.

10. Mr. Dr. "I'm not here!"

11. The poor tractor salesman that got got 😭

12.Nobody questioning why Louis' eye colour changed. "That information is on a need to know basis!"

13. realizing what moment that gif of louis' pov of lestat dropping him like it's hot was from - the vfx for this show is shit sometimes but I don't even care because everything else was so good 😭

14. Daniel a la Will Smith in Suicide Squad, "What is this, some kinda dark gothic romance?!"

..........

Well, duh! I know everybody involved in this show was giggling their asses off like this 😁🤭 on set for that line and Mr. Bogosian sold it with conviction, well done.

What a great piece of television this season was. Thanks for the recs! @ambeauty @melfinawins

[ufonaut]

Happy Pride Month! A while back, I posted some excerpts from The Sour Lemon Score by Richard Stark -- the twelfth book in the Parker series, that seminal classic of American noir (which us comic book fans are most likely familiar with from Darwyn Cooke's fantastic adaptations). What's so special about Sour Lemon is the gay couple at the centre of its tale and the fact that Mr. Stark's handling of gay characters is not just a first for this kind of genre fiction but it's also completely revolutionary.

For a book written in 1968, there's a level of introspection and complexity that had certainly never been afforded to gay characters in the mainstream before. It's the kind of thing we're not even seeing right now, let alone in the 1960s. The theme of the Parker novels has always been identity, the knowledge of oneself and the right to be that person is sacred above all else in Richard Stark's work but that's never been so evident as it is in this particular novel.

Parker's been double-crossed by a fellow heister named George Uhl and when we first meet Paul Brock & Matt Rosenstein, he's only trying to track down Uhl through his associates.

Again and again, we keep coming back to Paul Brock's apartment and its "veneer of masculinity" -- Parker's downright obsessed with the details of the place, and who can blame him? It's a fascinating choice on Stark's part, this decor, and hardly a random one. Heavy wooden furniture with Spanish influences seemed to have been a big thing for gay men in the 1960s, just take a look at Rock Hudson's home (nicknamed "The Castle") from 1962 to his death:

(from Rock Hudson: His Story 1986)

Even Liberace with his more flamboyant tastes had his Palm Springs home, nicknamed "The Cloisters", Spanish-style and with a heavy brass & wood motif and quite reminiscent of the "monastery" description up there in the Stark novel:

(from The World of Liberace 1973)

Obviously it's the existence of the second man in Brock's apartment -- the intimate details of the two toothbrushes, the clothes in the closet in two different sizes, etc. -- that's the main attraction here but the seemingly personal knowledge of gay tastes at the time add a necessary dimension to the character & the world around him. Paul Brock is not a stereotype, despite presumably being 'visibly' gay.

His lover, Matt Rosenstein, is an equally fascinating and well-developed character while exploring his struggle with internalized homophobia:

It's a portrayal of internalized homophobia that's cutting, visceral, and hard-hitting, especially for the era. Rosenstein and Parker are built up as mirrors of each other throughout the book and despite both of them referring to Brock as a "faggot" in their internal monologues, it's the more effeminate Paul Brock with his self-acceptance that wields all the power in his dynamic with Parker and that makes Rosenstein realize this reality about himself -- these are all books about criminals and hard cases, the narrative maintains that Rosenstein's worst trait is not knowing who he is.

The use of slurs may be disconcerting to most modern readers and I've noticed a large number of reviews calling Stark's work homophobic but I think the intention behind the story is loud and clear, and other books in the series have used "gay" and "homosexual" interchangeably and the preferred terminology has always been left up to the POV character. Even here, there's a stark (ahem) difference between Parker's use of the word -- to him, it's a descriptor -- and Rosenstein's -- drowning in his self-hatred.

As I come close to finishing the final book of the series, I wanted to shine a spotlight on my favorite entry in it and a widely unacknowledged piece of thoroughly fantastic gay literature.

[tostadamika]

Daniel Watches She-Ra

& The Princesses Of Power

-S1E3- 'Razz'

Todays' She-Ra Watchthrough Art: Look I have been having a real shit week or so let me just bullshit this one thanks

Dumb question but why is Glimmers mom British? Also this is probably just me but it looks like her wings are attached to her hair & I can't stop thinking about it.

Oh also yo the theme song?

Yeah that's pretty swell.

A big step up from the original cartoon which was just.....sad? It's just like a sad attempt of being a cool retro cartoon theme song. It fails to live up to any of the greats of decades past.

TMNT 87? Iconic. Badass. Groovy. Radical.

Transformers? Iconic as well. Absolutely fucks.

The Super Mario Bros. Super Show? Fucking ART that makes Hans Zimmer look like an absolute fucking dork.

Sonic Underground? LITERALLY THE GREATEST FUCKING PIECE OF MUSIC EVER COMPOSED BY MANKIND.

80s She-Ra? It's like watching a cat spray diarrhea across my carpet for a solid minute. It's just sad.

Okay so I literally don't know any of their names but uh-

These two. These two evil goons right here.

Are-

Okay so are they like gay? I don't know why but my brain saw this & went "Is this dude dating that lizard? are they going to smooch?"

I have no evidence or any proof to back up my claim here.

But I'm gonna just assume these two are gay & smooching & holding hands & stuff.

Anyways these goon squad characters are lame, also fuck that one girl who was bullying Cat-Ra, like, damn. The fuck is her problem?

Like leave that cat alone she's a fucking cat. Who bullies a cat??

Fuck you!!

Yeah so the only two goons I find myself enjoying are these two because I just get a strong feeling that they might be gay.

Again, I have no proof or evidence. But I'm gonna just say that they are anyway because I decided that I want to & you can't stop me.

Also one of them is a lizard dude. Like I said, that objectively makes him cool as fuck because reptiles are rad as hell.

ALSO GLIMMER & ADORA ARE SO GAY??

LIKE- OKAY FIRST OFF THIS POSE ABOVE THIS SENTENCE? THAT AIN'T A POSE OF A STRAIGHT PERSON. SHE'S AT THE VERY LEAST BI OR LESBIAN OR SOMETHING. BUT NAH THAT POSE IS GIVING ME VERY HEAVY FAG VIBES /POS

GOD THEY'RE GAY THEY'RE GAY THEY ARE GIRLFRIENDS IDC

I fucking squealed at this they're SO IN LOVE AAAAAA

GOD THEY ARE SO GAY

SHE'S BEING SO GAY JUST TALKING ABOUT ADORA/SHE-RA

GAY?? GAY

REAL

IF THEY DONT KISS & HOLD HANDS BY THE END IM GOING TO PISS ON MY NEIGHBOURS MAILBOX

POV: Glimmer introduces you to her wife (she's magic & can become very tall & glows bc she's just cool like that)

Also I like, find She-Ra so fucking funny from the design itself?

She's just.....tall. She's a tall lass. Big. Large. Massive. A Tree.

Like, the fact that she's just....big. Like this is a needed change for her transformation. Being taller is an essential part of it.

One of her magical powers is just being really tall I guess. Like that's part of the transformation, she gets BIG. So that's just considered a power, because it makes her taller.

Being a tall fuck is considered a magical ability in this universe.

Also why did this episode just turn into Pixars' Brave (2012) for the middle part? I'm not upset I'm just confused bc I didn't expect to be hit with this sudden flashback to 2012 shit. But I like this old lady.

But (good job daniel you used but twice in a row, you're so good at writing you stupid fucking idiot-) I just kept being reminded of Brave while watching. I don't know if that's a good thing or not. I haven't watched Brave in like a decade. Like, damn though, this part just reminded me of it a lot & I feel it's worth mentioning.

I should rewatch Brave sometime.

AHEM-

SHE'S SO FUCKING CUTE I WANT TO CRY SHE'S LITERALLY THE SCRUNKLY SCRIMBLO BLORBO AND ALSO A FAGGOT. I LOVE HER. PROTECT THIS SPARKLY FAGGOT & HER MAGICAL WIFE.

GRAHHHHHHH

Whore-Dak Update:

Okay Hordak, you get points just because you told Shadow Weaver to go fuck herself. That's incredibly based & awesome of you. To not only tell the wizard bitch to shove her stupid fucking shadow magic fart clouds up her ass. But you also were like "Hey angry lesbian cat, you get a promotion because you're epic" & that's so real.

I respect a villain who doesn't bully cats for no reason.

(other than because you're a huge bitch cough shadow cunt cough)

You're still nowhere near being Skeletor. But you are definitely a far better villain than the original 80s Hordak was. Keep it up buddy.

[2drockstar]

Siigghhh b-b-b-b-bad boy! Dave and you are at a party that he dragged you to and a guy starts flirting with you not noticing Dave standing right there. Ahem, Dave cusses the guy out and drags you into a vacant room and gets 𝓕𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 cause he's a possessive little asshole and then when you guys finish he shows you off around the guy who was flirting with you and :33333 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3

(Im being held at gunpoint to say rhis)

ENOUGH OF THIS MADNESS!!!! but i suppose i could write this for yew :3

— — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — —

Mustaine Property (1987)

after Dave had dragged you to a little party (a BIG party…), he just left you alone to do whatever he was doing. probably smoke weed or maybe drink or whatever, but you trusted him. you felt a little scared being by yourself around all of these strangers though, and also not knowing what your boyfriend was doing.

walking around the house trying to find your boyfriend seemed impossible because of how big the area was, and you didn’t know what to do. maybe you could ask people if they saw him anywhere. i mean… how hard could it be to spot a tall redhead with long hair?

you had asked everyone, lots of people saying they haven’t even heard of the name, “Dave Mustaine”, so maybe he had left. it got you anxious but you couldn’t give up on the search.

a tall, muscular man was in front of you, him being the last person you haven’t asked.

“uhm.. excuse me?” you say, tapping on his shoulder.

he immediately turned around, a beer in his hand. his eyes seeming tired when he looked at you.

“yeah? what’s up, baby doll?” he said, his voice slurred.

the name made me shiver, groaning a little and rolling my eyes.

“have you seen a guy with red hair? he’s maybe… this big,” you say and gesture his height.

“why… you his girlfriend or somethin’?” he asks.

you nod at the question with a smile on your face.

“sorry sweet thing, but I haven’t,”

you sigh at his words, knowing you really had no idea where he was.

“but hey,” he chuckled, putting his hand in your shoulder.

“maybe me and you could have fun, huh?” he smirked.

you looked up, a mixture of disgust and annoyance on your face.

“how about—“ you try to speak but get cut off by a different voice.

“how about you fuck off and go find yourself someone else’s pussy, asshole.”

you turned around to see your boyfriend behind you, immediately clinging onto his arm that dropped low.

“excuse me???” the man’s words slurred, and you could tell he was upset.

Dave just scoffed, grabbing the remaining of his beer to dump it on the other, and immediately got a rise out of him.

“WHAT THE FUCK?!?” the man yelled.

Dave found his anger amusing, laughing at him, trying to suppress himself.

“Dave!” I say in a worried tone, looking at him as if he was in trouble.

“wait… Dave?” the man groaned.

“you mean… this. this you your boyfriend? this faggot?” he scoffed.

I looked back at Dave, making sure he didn’t do anything stupid.

“hey man,” he huffed, “can’t be a faggot when I fuck this beautiful pussy.”

the redheads hands gripped tighter on my waist, making me whine softly.

“maybe you are though,” Dave laughed. “I can tell you don’t fuck either gender.”

the man’s jaw dropped at the comment, but didn’t do anything since we walked away so fast.

the area you went to was dark, a bathroom right next to it before Dave pushed the both of you inside and locked the door.

“where were—“

“what the fuck were you doing with that guy?”

Dave’s tone was raspy and a little angry.

“nothing! I was asking him if he saw you and—“

“yeah yeah, whatever.”

you frowned before watching Dave tie his hair up, watching his every move.

“what’re you doing?” you ask shyly.

“what?” he groaned. “you need to know who you belong to, pretty girl.”

my eyes widened at the thought of us doing sexual things at someone else’s house when there were a bunch of people outside of the bathroom.

“a-are you sure? what if we get caught!” you tried to protest.

Dave shrugged. “good,” he smirked. “then that asshole can see how good I make you feel.”

your face felt hot at Dave’s words, and he was already starting to strip, so you did as well.

after slipping your shirt and pants off, Dave pulled you closer, hiking your leg up and slipping it past your folds, inside your pussy.

“oh shitttt..” Dave groaned, throwing his head back, then forward so that his lips were on your body, hair tickling you softly.

“Dave-“

you started thrusting yourself backwards, trying to make his pace faster.

“eager little slut, huh?” Dave chuckled before speeding up, bringing his arm around to choke you, forcing yourself to look at yourself.

“cmon pretty,” Dave praised. “look at you… seeing how good I me you feel?” he hummed.

you nodded softly, looking at the mirror. your hands tensed up whenever he hit your g spot, moaning his name and any other words flowing out of your mouth.

“yeah? you like that, huh?” Dave teased.

by the way your body was acting, he knew it. he didn’t have to ask when your cunt was sucking him all the way in and taking him so good.

he pulled your hair back tightly, wrapping it around his hand and forcing your head to the side so that he could mark up your exposed flesh.

“fuck… taking me so well.” he groaned. “see? this dick is all yours, princess.” Dave hummed. “and seems like you know it too, huh?”

you nodded again, voice hitching as your legs started shaking.

“Dave- Dave I-I can’t..”

“oh sure you can, sweet girl..” he praised, bringing a hand down to your pussy to play with your throbbing bud.

his hands and dick combined threw you over the edge, losing yourself in his arms.

“shit… look at this mess.” Dave chuckled.

your body went limp before Dave forced you on your knees, stroking his length and painting your face.

“you’re so fucking beautiful like this,” he groaned, wiping away the seed and shoving his fingers in your mouth so you could taste him.

he smirked, feeling his ego rise when he saw you like this.

he helped you up, getting you changed before the two of you walked out. you were a mess, hair askew and makeups messy, with bruises on the sides of your neck and a little bit of cum still on your chest.

as for Dave, he stayed the same. his hair was a little frizzy and typed back and still had the same ego as before.

[its-a-hil]

a brief overview of some of the. ahem. interesting features of my textbook for my developmental psych course.

literally only mentions that gay ppl exist in the specific subsection on sexual orientation, and everywhere else assumes that everyone is straight, allosexual, and alloromantic as a fundamental core concept

literally only mentions that trans ppl exist in the specific subsection on gender identity, and everywhere else assumes that people who go through "girl" puberty are girls and people who go through "boy" puberty are boys

note that the subsection on gender identity begins with the sentence: "Gender identity refers to one's sense of oneself as male, female, or transgender" just call me a faggot i swear to god

does not say the word intersex once. there is an entire chapter devoted to the effects of puberty. and it does not say the word intersex. once.

immediately flips from [teenage girls have better mental health if their culture doesnt punish fatness] to [obesity is a PROBLEM and their fears of being fat are JUSTIFIED]

does not mention autism once. theres a subsection on learning disabilities, but it seems to be about dyslexia (or similar conditions) more than anything else. it also frames having a learning disability as an inverse of being academically high-achieving

has a subsection on adhd which is largely about the neurology and medication and not at all about what it's like to have it. it also says that adhd is defined by inattention (????)

mentions adhd one more time to say that it's correlated with getting arrested repeatedly, because of the poor impulse control and genetic predisposition to anti-social behavior

this edition was published in 2019.

(theres been a new edition this year that i couldnt find for free, so maybe they fixed some of these extremely glaring issues. but i have my doubts)

[the-deviations]

Something’s getting lost in the retelling here. Keep in mind that I’m working entirely from memory, so I might also be off in some areas…but not as off as some people in the notes, like, damn.

Lowtax didn’t get chased away from his own forum for bad posting.

He was barely posting in the first place, mostly to encourage shopping on the forum store for access to more functions, all to save his crumbling spine and also crumbling dead gay forums (oh hey doesn’t Tumblr have a store with memeware? And the ability to pay for no ads, but also to buy ads (Blazes) that the no-ads people can still choose to see?)

If he could have been chased away for bad posting, it would have been when he attempted to shill for mangosteen juice and chucked a tantrum when the still-quite-alive-at-the-time gay forums did not take this well (I suppose the equivalent here would be the potential impending sale of our data to midjourney, but Lowtax - to the best of my knowledge - didn’t force people to drink the juice)

Scully, you’re never gonna believe this…

…but Lowtax was ousted because of his abuse of a select class of women; in his case, his ex-wives. What fueled the furore was that this wasn’t the first time the allegations had surfaced, but there were a few factors at play that made these last ones not get swept under the rug:

The culture of Something Awful had shifted as posters matured and stepped away from edgelord mentalities. Lowtax, abundant with both parental and forum-based funds, did not feel a pressing need to mature and thus did not grow with the community he’d founded.

The space under a rug is neither infinite nor oblivion.

It wasn’t just fuck off fuckstain, you’re an arsehole. It was fuck off fuckstein, you turned us into arseholes. We’d had his metaphorical back, and it turned out it had even less integrity than his real life one. The forums were almost assuredly doomed, until rare crypto success story Jeffery of YOSPOS threw money at Lowtax to take custody of the forums.

Yeah yeah, golden parachute, whatever. Lowtax would have taken the site down with him otherwise. Jeff liked the site, had the money to preserve it, and used it.

It turns out the financial state of Something Awful wasn’t as dire as Lowtax had made it out to be. Still not thriving, but able to chug along if it didn’t have an addict of various vices suckling at its teet hard enough to taste its silicon. The few new posters every time a big social media site has a now-familiar meltdown helps and is funny every time, and if you’ll kindly allow me a segue into suggesting a site to flee to if and when the Matt hits the fan - if it hasn’t already spoiler alert it’s Something Awful.

(Yeah, it’s a pay site, but it’s not subscription based. If you ask me, the best monetised feature is the ability to fuck with other people’s avatars if you think they deserve it. You can no longer say things like mods knew (drama topic for another time), faggot, or - outside of designated British and Australian threads - cunt.)

The first fundraising effort under Jeffery of YOSPOS was to reward whoever bought the most forum stuff in a certain time frame with a special temporary mod status. The winner’s sole task as a mod was to be the one to permaban Lowtax.

So, without his internet fiefdom and in the midst of a legal shitstorm as his ex-wives Voltron’d into a united front of ‘fuck that guy, I cannot stress this enough, figuratively’ Lowtax spiralled. If you bank the consequences of your actions, they’ll collect interest.

His Patreon for Gaming Garbage dropped over 80%. He streamed to the audience that remained, and I even caught a few of them. He’d screen shitty movies so obscure YouTube’s bot didn’t give a fuck, and he wasn’t a pretty sight. Spiritually speaking, I mean. His speech pattern was what I’d call (ahem) late-2010’s flavour of presidential, and the jokes he was trying to make were outshone by the chat’s quips, even with their time delay. There’s an infamous screencap of him from this era with a giant cured sausage in his mouth. Hadn’t even taken the casing off. Even after everything, he was still a human being, and it was a sad sight despite being one entirely of his own creation.

Anyway, it took Lowtax a contextually long time to eat his own gun. That sausage casing must have been really chewy.

I think he was still holding out hope that the courts would be in his favour because his mother’s like a lawyer or something, but they didn’t. His ex-wife that was stuck in the centre of the case with him had, at most, hours of the sensation of justice before finding out he’d gone ballistically, and then also finding out that he’d managed to practically zero his personal wealth via Goldbelly cookie subscriptions and other impermanent experiences for the purpose of leaving his daughters with fuck all. Class act.

So yeah, when another dude in charge of a community-based webbed site loses his shit when that community refuses to be his echo chamber, it’s a familiar song…but it’s not the whole album.

Matt. Matt this is the ghost of lowtax. Keep posting. You must keep posting

[dolciume]

going to the mall and my friend invited her disgusting awful out of a man boyfriend. sigh the whole day is literally ruined but i’d like to go for the food court and car ride.

she also invited him to my aunts 4th of july party when i invited just her. i hate lying about stupid little shit but i’m gonna have to tell my friend my aunt said no. even tho is not true, auntie did not say no. never asked my aunt. bc i don’t want to spend my holiday with him. the 4th is beautiful memories for me… i don’t want some fucking loser getting in between this… not that it matters since i wanted my friend to be there. realizing i can’t be best friends w her and only close friends … painful 💔

not to mention i’m 5th wheeling two couples… of course she didn’t think of this… and i’m not such a fuckinf faggot freak id be ljke IM THE ONLY SINGLE ONE… single for many reasons. ugly inside and out should sum it up. i’m an extremely intense person. and i’m physically unironically 2/10. i don’t rate people in those scales just myself. no one hates my body more than my mother does. fucking HATES that i’m fat and have a neck hump. fucking HATES and finds me disgusting (has used that word before) and repulsive. i honestly think she won’t care too much if i die. like yes but the version of me that isn’t real anymore. my child self my teenage self. adult me doesn’t appeal to her and is a fucking confused faggot cunt ugly repulsive bitch is how she sees me.

this turned into a rant. it doesn’t matter. i need to be crazier on this blog.

to balance out i want to remember the babies i worked with. i quit that job bc my director had an irl tantrum on me and no one defended me. i miss those babies. their beautiful faces and silly strong personalities. they are my angels and forever in my heart they will be there. no one can take away our precious 3 months together. :( best job i ever had. i quit bc i have bare minimum self respect. not everyone has that.

despite my feelings of misery and loneliness and being a huge fucking loser - ahem. i loved those children and did my damnedest. i’m glad i was with them.

another nice thing, we have all kinds of sweets at home lately. ^_^ love it.

[boiled-dennis]

one particular way mac is better (or just more relatable To Me) representation than most Gay Media that i have seen: when he was in his repression era, he referred to guys he was attracted to as "badass"

it's kinda different bc i'm trans (people wouldn't have been Horrified if i expressed attraction to men bc they would perceive it as heterosexuality) but being in a horribly strict baptist home, basically all sexuality was looked down upon/considered to be shameful, sinful, and Of The Flesh.

even though i have always accepted my queerness, the fact that i feel attraction at all has never Not been something i struggle with accepting. i always default to calling people ridiculous words like Cool or Epic. or i speak about it in a clinical way so that it seems more impersonal. (in the struggle, i've genuinely called people specimens) so seeing mac being obviously attracted to specific men, but finding ways to comment on their appearance without it seeming gay (to him).. it just feels real,

also, somewhat unrelated but i'm curious to know if anybody else in iasip spaces have seen the show "please like me", i'm not going to say it's similar but the shows are connected in my mind and are very important to me in similar ways

[t4t-apexeclipse]

*ahem*

roman: this prince is sooooo hard to define <3 is he transfem? transmasc? idk but he really likes he/him either way. also it/its. they/them pronouns are the bane of its existence tho. also regardless of whether he’s transfem or transmasc he is a lesbian. lesboy roman my beloved <3 OH and loveless aromantic. obviously. but it’s not asexual

remus: honestly i dont have any set headcanons for him, but i loove the idea of remus being the opposite of roman because the idea of them trading genders warms my heart lmao (so if roman is transmasc, remus is transfem. and vice versa). i also love the idea of agender remus. and gender hoarder remus. and she’s ace you can’t change my mind (but not aro, they’re definitely gay ace and calls himself a “sexless faggot” kajddkfk) (obligatory disclaimer: i know aces can have sex, remus just doesn’t. she prefers to watch :))

janus: agender, maybe demiboy? he calls himself “10% boy 90% snake” lmao. he doesn’t mind they/them but doesn’t exactly use those pronouns? if that makes sense? same with she/her, but when he’s feeling dysphoric he doesn’t wanna be she/her’d so it’s best to ask first. as far as sexuality he calls himself gay but isn’t really sure and doesn’t really care to figure it out. he’s also loveless, but not necessarily aromantic (but who knows really. janus def doesn’t ksjdkfkfkf)

patton: bigenderrrr holy shit. that is a girlboy momdad right there i believe this with my whole chest tiddies and all. he views his two genders as his two kids in a way and nurtures both of them <3 idk if that makes sense but it makes sense to me. he’s also bisexual aromantic, or maybe bi oriented aroace? i just know his attraction isn’t limited to men ok hear me out

virgil: agender. they fear gender. and pronouns. genderphobic agender jajdjdkfkf they don’t want anything to do with it trust me. they’re also aroace because they fear intimacyKAJDJDJFFK

logan: honestly it’s so hard to come up with genders for this guy. it’s reached the point where i dont think he worries about labels, even though i guarantee he’s obsessed with finding the right labels and drives himself insane (same girl). maybe he tried finding a gender label that fits only to realize it doesn’t matter too much and just settled on the word queer. or maybe he’s catgender idk. even sexuality labels are difficult like who is this guy attracted to other than virgil KAJDJDJFKFKF like????? oh, well,,,,, he definitely wants janus to **** *** ****… or he wants to **** janus’s ***** i can’t tell. what was the point of this post again

sorry to post this after pride month but i do not control the ,,,,,, gay

[rock-the-ghost]

A deep dive into Alexander (2004) directed by Oliver stone ( this definitely isn't my personal thoughts on it )

Let's start with the basics, what is this movie about, it's a "epic dramatic" films about Alexander the Great's life ( played by Colin Pharrell ), it was a runtime if 3 hours and 37 minutes. Yes you heard that right 3 H O U R S. Ahem anyways it tries to explore Alexander's relationship with his mother Olympias ( Angelina Jolie ), his father Phillip ll ( Val kilmer ) and his "close friend" Hephaestion ( Jared Leto )

Next let's talk about what the public thought about this film according to rotten tomatoes, film critics score is 16% and audience score is 35%, and all I have to say is fair enough lol, the film isn't that good, it has alot of moments that stretch out for far too long, weird shots and weird time jumps, time jumps I think are the biggest problem with this film but I will go more into it later. This movie tried to explore Alexander's personal life, childhood, relationship, army life, all the battles he and the army went through all the while trying to make it "epic" and interesting and obviously that's just too much to handle for one movie even for a 3 hours film. Now let's talk about the time jumps, they're too much, too confusing the film starts at a battle then jumps back to Alexander's childhood then jumps to the future and it just keeps going back and forth, I also suffers from what I like to call too many flashbacks syndrome, I just think it would have been so much better if it started with his childhood and slowly progressed to his father's death, his rise to the throne, army life and eventual death.

Now I would like to talk about what the

Greeks

Thought about this film. I am greek and I personally liked it but it might be because I suffer from, I have no sense of judgement syndrome ha...haha.. right anyways. So in little word the Greeks HATED this film for ONE small reason, and my father told me when I asked him about this film "they made Alexander a

Sissy , a faggot, a fig tree"

AH YES HOMOPHOBIA, yes Greece is indeed a homophobic country this film dives DEEP into Alexander's sexuality and is bisexual in this film, his "close friends, comrade fellow army general" Hephaestion and him are obviously in a relationship although it is not explicitly shown, like they share intimate moments and do alot of like touching and shit but like they never kiss or explicitly show in any way shape or form that they're in a relationship ( except from the moment where Olympias yells at Alexander that all of the women think that he is fonder of Hephaestion's thighs rather the theirs ahem ) I would ALSO like to point out that when I watched Alexander on greek television the scene where Alexander like makes out with bagoas or however u spell his name is cut out AND alot of the scenes between Alexander and Hephaestion are cut out e.i the scene that Hephaestion gives Alexander a ring. AHHH I HATE IT HERE like yes hate this film cause it isn't that historically accurate not because of the gay. Now was he gay I'll talk about that in a separate post probably lol.

Right anyways but how is the cinematography ? It's alright all the locations are gorgeous and it has some pretty scenes but like I said most of the scenes are really stretched out. The acting is alright Colin Pharrell is immaculate like he out so much emotion to this role, he's great.

And lastly why isn't it that historically accurate well this film kinda leans to the conspiracy side of Alexander's story cause like there are alot if unanswered questions like why/who killed Phillip and in this one the film falls to the conspiracy that it was a guard that was r*ped by Phillip but also has some subtext of Olympias doing it ?? Idk it's weird.

Finally what are my thoughts on it. Personally I like it, besides it flaws it's a fun film, some might say it boring considering its three hours long but I have an undying love for long films so I like this one. Yes it is bad BUT it's the funny bad and it also had the balls to tackle lgbt themes in 2004, UNLIKE S O M E OTHER FILMS THAT CANE OUT THE SAME YEAR AHEM* TROY *AHEM.

6.9/10 would recommend <3

[mobiuscinematicuniverse]

For the prompt thing could you please do 95 with pastel!Richie and Punk!Stan, no rush your head cannons are amazing

Thank you so much! I love this request by the way :)

They’re in their senior year of high school here btw

**Warning: Homophobia, it’s not too much but I don’t want anyone getting upset

No one ever expected Richie Tozier, the boy who wore pastel colors, flowers in his hair, and cute skirts but also was loud and a trashmouth to ever fall for Stan Uris, the quiet and gloomy punk who was never seen in anything other than black and had his arms already covered with tattoos and had a few piercings.

But they got together in their junior year

Richie started dressing a little more feminine lately, simply because he was a firm believer in clothing having no gender, and skirts are comfy

So one day he was wearing a light blue sweater and a white skirt, looking like a damn snack

Stan was in detention after school for getting caught smoking

So Richie decided to stay after school to wait for him

But turns out a few of the popular girls decided to stay after too

And while he was doodling, sitting on the bench in the hallway waiting for Stan, none other than Greta decides to come have a chat with him

She called him a faggot and every other homophobic slur in the book, and right as she was about to dump her drink on him a loud “AHEM” comes from behind her.

Stan the Man Uris just got out of detention and saw Greta bothering his boy

Now Stan isn’t popular by any means, but he looks pretty terrifying although in reality he wouldn’t hurt a fly, everyone in the school was afraid to get on his bad side

Stan walks over to them and sees how scared and upset Richie looks

His heart breaks and he gets angry

“Why the fuck are you still standing here? Get the fuck out of here!” Stan yells at Greta, and her and her friends leave F A S T

Richie is clinging to Stan, holding onto his arm and burying his face in Stan’s neck

Stan gets Richie to let go of his arm so he can hold him

They just sit like that on the bench for a few minutes until Richie calms down

“What did she do to you?” Stan asks, and Richie slowly explains what happened

Stan is angry, and wants to go beat the shit out of Greta

“I’ll kill the bitch” Stan says, and Richie smiles and nods. “I think that would count as fucking community service” Richie said and they both laughed

A week later Greta comes into school pretty quiet and apologizes to Richie

And Stan has another week of detention for getting into a fight with Greta

Everyday after school Richie waits for him and when it’s over they make out in the back of Stan’s truck

[kristastic357]

October 11th is National Coming Out day. I haven't been "in" for a while, and I've been open about my sexuality for quite some time. But even while I was working at JP's, I felt pressured to keep a lid on it for fear of being ostracized or even hurt by some of the less *ahem* kind folks who hung out there. Anyway, I realized I was #bisexual when I was 15 years old, and while it was a tumultuous and challenging time, I was also incredibly lucky to have a close knit group of friends that helped me realize it wasn't "wrong". I still felt uneasy about myself until my 20s, but it helped to have a support structure. Now, in the following years, I didn't have it as rough as many, for sure, but I still had to deal with people from within the LGBTQ+ community and without mocking me for being "confused", and once was run down by a car while having "faggot" screamed at me. So. Yeah. People can be just peachy. That's also why it's important to be inclusive and open. There are kids (and adults!) the world over who are struggling with what they are, being told they're a freak, or an abomination, or a sinner, who need to know that they're NOT alone, and they ARE loved. So whenever you, or someone else, says "I don't care what they do in the bedroom, why do they have to make a big deal about it?" That's why. Without openness, they would never know they had others in THEIR corner. #comingoutday2017 #bisexual #bipride #butfirst #selfie #purplenails

[nthsonata]

Honestly I've been describing myself with queer ever since middle school, since before I truly understood my identity, because it captures perfectly how I feel. I had words like homo, faggot, dyke, tranny, lesbo, and yes, especially gay thrown at me to silence me for daring to be different, to force me to conform. I choose to use queer for myself because I don't want to conform, I don't want to be seen as normal.

And now I've got people again calling me homo, faggot, dyke, gay, etc. and thinking they're somehow different from my past abusers because they're ok with the words being used, and then trying to silence me even more by telling me that I can't identify with one of the few words that actually hasn't been used as a slur against me because oh how will I conform to what society expects of me if I dare use such a word that they hate, despite that fact that, being not only trans, asexual, and multi-romantic, but also autistic and traumatized (and also likely having DID), society will never see me as normal unless we destroy these idea of conformity and normality from its very core, which is made much easier by the use of words such as queer.

And you don't get to come on our posts about using queer for ourselves and how we get silenced for it by whining "but oh don't call other people queer unless you know they're ok with it" when that's the same exact non-sequitur argument (where the fuck did any of us call anybody but ourselves queer?) we're talking about being used to silence our user of queer by radfems and other queerphobes, especially when you probably wouldn't think twice about calling someone g*y (ahem, how many "you are g*y" post have you seen floating around Tumblr and other social media? Probably more than you could count.), despite the fact that it could be (and for many, such as me, is) a major trigger for someone?

Sorry for the rant, this is just something that's important to me because queer is a word so close to my heart, and others such as the g word so close to my abuse. I know I might regret posting this, but I'm so fucking done with queerphobia, especially from so-called leftists. For someone like me, respectibility politics is no better than, and infact sometimes worse than, our current system, and the attempt to silence us by telling us we can't use our very own words and identities is practically Orwellian. Thank you for reading.

I can’t tell you how frustrating it is to have been in the queer movement for 20+ years, to have studied queer theory, to have contributed to you potentially enjoying the rights you have today because I was part of a groundswell of lobbying and direct action in the 1990s….

…to have a 15 year old who’s spent maybe 8 months being political and has never inquired about queer history anonymously message me, “EXCUSE ME QU**R IS A SLUR LMAO OMG EMBARRASSSING AN aCTUAL ADULT WHO THINKS IT’S OKAY TO USE QU**R!~!!!!”

Dude, we are a slur. Queer folks are a slur to conservative straight people. Everything we are will be used as a slur by everyone who hates us. Gay is a slur. Lesbian is a slur. People will try to use all of our words against us. Don’t fucking let them get into your head to the point at which you’re telling actual queer people not to use the words we’ve used to unite ourselves and empower ourselves for decades.