#also yes i woke up at 2am and cant get back to sleep

[onabat11e]

Could we pleeaaase know if 'afilamk' will be bottom lucy and top ona cause after 'I'm yours' I'm politely BEGGING YOU for more of that dynamic. Love your writing 🫶🏻

hey anon, quick question. how did you hack into my google docs account? i’ve had that fic planned out since before im yours also so?? how did u know

as a bottom!ona truther idk how this keeps happening (😭) but the fic definitely has top!ona elements to it 🤭

[slashingdisneypasta]

TWO MORE TINNY THOUGHTS BECAUSE I HAVE NO SELF CONTROL XD

So Tinny is huge, right? Maybe not as big as Lion(?) But he's still a hulking giant at this point, right, IMAGINE HIM CARRYING YOU!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 you're tucked in the crook of his arm, or if you're really short, you can perch yourself on his shoulder? But like- PLEASE IMAGINE THIS WITH ME! Even if you're a fighter, you kind of look/feel like a princess being carried like this 😆🥰 and Tin would be living for this I just know it.

Imagine in that AU where the trio are being rehabilitated instead of executed, Tinny will actively dull his knife fingers so HE CAN TOUCH YOU!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 Him nervously and hesitantly reaching for your cheek (he tested the sharpness of his digits before touching you. Like you said, he is thorough. But he's so scared of hurting you, too), maybe not touching you all the way, so you lean the rest of the way in and press your cheek into his palm!!! The same cheek that's been sliced countless times can now be held in his hands with no danger 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 (... Yes I know Amy would have probably gotten his knife fingers replaced, but WE AREN'T TALKING ABOUT THAT HERE-)

Or! Alternatively! You and Tinny decide to flee the Emerald City!!! He's a wanted man now, and you two have to constantly be on the run. He's so regretful and sorrowful that he can't give you the peaceful life you deserve, and you tell him that you'd much rather be out here with him than under control of Dorothy 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Ok.... I'm probably not gonna be done after this ask, but for now I am XD

I WOKE UP AT 2AM AND READ THESE, WENT BACK TO SLEEP, FORGOT WHAT THEY SAID, AND GOT TO READ THEM ALL OVER AGAIN YAY XD

Tin with a pocket wife???? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 Yes??? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 He would love that so much??? Easy to protect and keep close?? Adorable????? Imagine sitting next to him at dinner with Lion and Scarecrow, and Tin genuinely has to look RIGHT DOWN in order to converse with you 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 XD

I see your 'Tin actively dulling his dentist tool fingers' and love it, and also raise you... reader knitting soft little finger cover things to slip over them for him !! Putting them on one-by-one while he waits patiently and intrigued by your knitting skills, saying thank you sunstar. Him getting all excited to hold your hand and cup your face then!??

Or Tin convincing you (Or Amy. Or Una) to give Scarecrow back his brain for a short, very very heavily supervised surgery where he fixes his hands.

... and that last dot point. I cant even. Its so perfect, my heart is just 🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕🥺

[lizandbo]

cuddling w/ mha bois<3

Kirishima

-ok, but like c’mon this man is the fcuking definition of “cuddles4life”

- the best cuddles by far

- if he would be goin in the contest for who’s the best cuddling partner it would be him

- i would like to think either he loves spooning you or/ and facing each other and talking about whatever the fuck ya want and give occasional kisses n pecks

- he loves to cuddle you, anytime and anywhere he could get his cuddles he would

- in his sleep, he would sprawl out like a mf starfish

- numerous of times he pushed you off the bed becuase of it

- it wasn’t fun when he woke up, and see you weren’t there...so was trying to look for you cuz like...he needs his cuddlingz>:O

- but then he stepped on you, trampled a bit, left for you to fucking perish from being stepped on like a mcfucking rat

- so yeah you def woke up then

- anyway, besides you dying on the ground... comfort cuddling is a fuckin must

- always always always cuddles when you have a bad day

- cuddles everyday

- if you dont like cuddling well to fucking bad becuase here we are cuddling

- wait why did i say if you dont like cuddling..then why are you even reading about this, this is everything about cuddling

wtf is wrong with me

- completely covers you, no matter what, tall? Short? Extra meat on your bones? Who the fuck cares, he’s still cuddling you

- its his mission to cuddle you

- hugs are a must too

- also i headcanon he has to have a fan while sleeping too

bakugo

- when you asked for cuddles, he questioned “what the hell is that, a fighting move or sometin?”

- like, bro...never heard of C U D D L I N G?!

- he didnt really like cuddling at first, he didnt know what to do, where did he put his clammy ass hands? am i holding them too tight?

-its this whole big ordeal about him being stiff as a fucking board, and then he got too hot cuz he’s a human heater

- i almost said human eater

- BUT! After a month or so, he got the gist of it:)

- likes when your head is on his chest and vice versa

- but normally he wakes up weird, there is no telling if he’s gonna have a sleepy pillow fight with you while he’s sleeping because he still is dangerous in his fucking SLEEP

- softly talks in his sleep too

- but its not softly cuz like, god damnnn does he have a gravely voice

- its concerning? At least for meXD

- he also likes to lay on your thighs and lay his head on your stomach

- sweats in bed:( I’m sorry but he does

- every morning has sweat in the fucking bed

- you guys have no blanket, but yet he still fucking sweats

- anyways, I think he would be a light sleeper, so if you move in bed too much...he will wake you up and telling you that you woke him up

- but your like?? Ok, i woke you but why you have to wake me?? Bitch??

- but in his god damn peabrain thinks its a win win so;-;

- he wouldn’t cuddle during the day tho, he has a reputation to keep up

Midoriya

- flustered boi

- he’s a very cuddly person but at the same time tho, he doesnt know what to do

- i feel liek when he was a child, ya know how Inko was very close (and still very close) to midoriya?well, maybe they cuddled together?

- when he was having a bad day or somethinf

- he fucking LOVES cuddling

- he mumbles and rambles while cuddling a lot too

- either It would be hero’s, how much he loves you, etc

- basically everything under the fucking sun

- cuddles give his anxiousness a break for once

- his favorite position is liek hugging you built cuddling at the same time, does that make senseXD

- he has a lot snacks in the bed so he gets nasty ass crumbs in the bed

- but he does feed you snack at the same time so, how could you say no?

- late night snacks is a yes

- the snack choice is yours

- ok idk why this popped into my head..by what if they have like all might themed..goldfish or like teddy gram cracker thingys ya know?

- if they are real he would def have them

- looks at his phone at night too, so he would have one arm around you and scrolling on his phone:)

- while your here to fucking die like a mf shriveled up rat, suffocated from izuku’s neck

- ok, i never cuddled anyone but, everyone said I shove their heads into their s/o neck, but like wouldn’t they just cant breathe?

- I’m curiousXD

- ok this is about you and izuku cuddling not MY FUCKING THOUGHTS

- anyway, yeah, izuku loves to hold you in his arms, it makes you actually feel real

Todoroki

- stiff as a motherfuckin stone slab

- he doesnt know what to do when someone is touching him becuase he is a touch starved baby:(

- hair messy in the mornings too

- just like Bakugo, he would question what the fuck is cuddling

- i feel like he would find cuddling fun and precious becuase he never experienced it

- the only ’affection‘ that he would ever get was form Fuyumi, but it wasn’t really affection

- he has seen so many toxic relationships, cuddling never was spoken of

- BUT NOW HE KNOWS AND LOVES

- plus once you do it daily, he’s gonna act pretty pouty when you leave from a cuddling session

- but still has that stoic face™

- he likes spooning, he doesnt care if he is a lil spoon or a big one

- he really loves anything but..he does really like spooning

- it would be very...quiet

- it doesnt matter if you are cuddling in the middle of the day or at night

- he’s more a listener than a speaker, this might be obvious but oh well

- I just think he would love cuddles but if anyone interrupts then he’s gonna be more upset cuz liek...HE LOVES OYU AND WANNA HAVE THE BEST TIME IN THE WORLD WITH YOU-

- he’s a real simp for ya btw

denki

- movies + cuddling = Y E S

- he always has movies as a background becuase he doesnt really like silence

- he doesnt care if he sweats, he will have the blanket either way

- also a blanket hogger

- it would be good at some point becuase you wouldn’t sweat like him

- back to the movie part, he always watches the same damn thing over and over again

- to the point that he knows all the lyrics to multiple movies

- his favoircuddling position is when he’s on top of you

- I’m sorry but he sprawls like mf starfish too

- soemtimes you cant breathe...but we aint talking bout thattttt:)

- plays monster’s inc A LOT

- no matter how many fucking times he sees it, he still laughs in the funny parts of the movie like a fucking hyena

- plays video games a lot so hes gonna have a bunch of video game dates with you

-Mario cart and cuddles? Yes fucking please

- sign me the fuck up

- also the best at Mario cats and 60 seconds

- even tho you both are up at like 2AM playing video games and cuddling each other likethe life depends on you guys

- you.are.cuddling.no.matter.fucking.WHAT

- he likes to interlock his finngers too

- he ALSO (once againXD) likes to zap you for no fucking reason

- fucked up prick >:(

[zaikaglow]

After Party

Short Drabble 

Based on this post about text’s Aot boys send while high

Pairing: Reader x Bertholdt x Reiner

Content: Tw:drug use, dub con if you squint? You pick up Reiner and Bertholdt from a party with them being stoned out of their minds

It was nearly 2am when you received a text from your friend Bertholdt asking you to “please please please come pick me up from Eren’s I am going to die”, which after in a panic calling him revealed he was just high as hell. So being such a nice and devoted friend you drove your ass over to Eren’s to pick poor Berty up. 

Once inside you see him laying down in front of the couch the other guys still passing around the bong smoking and chatting like their 6′4 friend wasn’t laying down having a bad trip right in front of them, but when Bertl looks up and see’s you, your heart cant help but melt at the way he looks so relived and gets up running to hug you. “thank you thank you thank you y/n” he chants hanging onto you, while you struggle to hold up the large inebriated man “it’s okay Bertl I’ve got you buddy” you say patting his back “Reiner I’m going to bring Berty home want me to take you too”? Taking a look at Reiner sitting on the floor spaced out you realize you may just have to take things into your own hands, with Bertholdt still hanging on your shoulders you go to Reiner and offer him your hand like he’s a small child and pull him up off the floor to bring him out back to your car.

It was a long journey back to the boy’s apartment. Reiner was in the back laying his head against the window and sighing like he was in a indie music video and Bertholdt was sitting in the passenger seat still gripping your shoulder with one hand because he was convinced the minute he let you go he’d teleport back to the party. You three finally made it home and now was the challenge of getting the two very large out of it men into bed. You lead Bertholdt back into his room and lay him in bed ready to go try the same with Reiner when suddenly Bert grabs your arm “please don’t go y/n, please can you please just spend the night I don’t want to be alone” and well he looks so pathetic just laying their flopped on the bed with one arm covering his eyes you cant exactly leave him all alone. “Okay Berty, I’ll stay but I’m going to borrow one of your shirts to sleep in okay”? You say as you make your way to his dresser by the door, slipping off your pants and then top and bra and pulling one of Bert’s tee shirts out of his drawer and over you head. Once you pull your shirt though you notice Reiner standing in the door way in a tee shirt and boxers still staring where your bare chest once was. “Hey Reiner how long were you there”? His eyes don’t move from their spot even while he speaks “I don’t know. I don’t want to be alone. Can I sleep with you guys”? I guess you cant really be mad at him he’s totally out of it.

Laying in between the two you’re starting to fall asleep when you start to feel shaking and you open your eyes to see Bertholdt sitting up and frantically pulling off his clothes until he’s completely naked and throws himself back in bed, head hitting the pillows “hey bud you are like completely naked right now, you wanna put on something” you say. You have thought about what he looked like naked before and it was a little exciting to see him all layed out bare but also he was still completely stoned and you knew he’d probably be embarrassed as hell once he woke up in the morning. You try and pull some of the sheet up over his groin when he rips it back down “y/n nothing can touch my body right now or I am going to die” he says punctuating each word “Okay then you.. just do you Berty” you say before turning over and being taken aback to see that Reiner is still awake, heavy lidded and still out of it but awake “hey y/n do you wanna see my penis too”. Well you didn’t expect that question “you know now I am kinda curious but youre still high as hell so maybe let’s just wait and see if you feel like offering again in the morning okay”? “okay”.

It’s early in the morning and you’re asleep head on Bertholdt’s chest thigh between his legs and Reiner is clinging to your back when you wake up to Bert saying in a panicked tone “guys why am I naked” he starts trying to pull up the sheets to cover himself but can’t because of the way that everyone is laying and even though he’s embarrassed he doesn’t want to just toss you off him. “You said that if anything touched your body you’d die, now can you please just go back to sleep we’ve already seen everything” you say in a sleepy voice before nodding off again. Its a few hours later when you wake again still in the same position except now Bertholdt has his thighs crossed in an attempt to cover himself and he’s been running his fingers through your hair. Still keeping your head on his chest you turn to him and notice how red he’s turned but still give’s you the sweetest smile. And you turn your head back and kiss his chest before starting to trail your hand down his chest looking for any sign of resistance, before making your way down further towards his groin. And when he uncrosses his thighs for you, you go ahead and start to wrap your delicate fingers around his hardening cock. Reiner being a great wing man starts to get up to give you two some privacy but then you catch him with the two fingers of your other hand sliding into his boxers and grabbing the band when you say “Hey Reiner my answer to your question last night is yes if you’re still offering”

[boomboombakugou]

A Dumb Little Bakugou Drabble About You Guys Spending The Night Together

part one : this one will kinda make sense without reading the first part but it’ll but it’ll just be better if you do. okay here we go ah

It was 1am. You couldn’t sleep, but you didn’t wanna take out your phone in case Katsuki was a sensitive sleeper. He was on the floor and you felt bad, but also didn’t want to make it weird by offering to share the bed.

He was awake too. Neither of you know eachother was a wake and neither wanted to risk waking the other up. He flipped his pillow over to the cold side. You didn’t know if it was an unconscious thing or if we was really awake.

“Katsuki?” You said, sort of quiet, but loud enough for him to hear if he was up. He turned around to face you. The room was dark, but it felt like his red eyes were glowing, burning holes into you. You tell him to go back to bed because you assumed you had woke him up.

“Im already up, what do you want?” He asked you annoyed, but truthfully he wanted nothing more than for you to want something because he was so bored.

You shuffle in your blankets before finally deciding to just sit up, “Cant sleep.” You state. He keeps staring at you. “What? Imagining me naked?” You can’t help but make perv jokes whenever he looks at you.

“Stop making everything weird. I can’t sleep either, it’s just dark as hell in this room so I can’t see shit.” He spits. You don’t move, so he gets up and turns on the light. “Ew freak what if i was naked!” You whisper scream.

“Stop! You’re so weird.” He hisses back at you.

The joke is that when you were getting introduced to the class, Denki pointed back and both Mineta and Bakugou and said, “That’s Mineta.” Of course he didn’t know Bakugou was standing there too. All day long the girls told you about how weird and perverted Mineta was. You thought they were talking about Bakugou, but later you found out they weren’t. It’s still just super funny to you though. Katsuki hates it.

He goes to sit back on the floor, but you scoot over and pat the spot beside you on the bed. “Are you gonna try to kiss me?” He mocks.

You feel his weight press down on the mattress. He looks tired. Calm. He looks calm. Well, calmer than usual. “Stop looking at me, freak.” He says, waving his hands in front of your eyes.

You keep looking at him because you can’t stop thinking about how he says he cries for no reason too sometimes. You can’t imagine him crying. Obviously you knew he has emotions like everyone else, but you just couldn’t imagine it.

“So you cry for no reason sometimes?” You question. He stares at you. More of a glare. An annoyed glare. “Yes. I do. And what about it? I’d still kick anyone’s ass at any given time.”

You hold your hands up in defense. You weren’t trying to make fun of him. It was just interesting. “Cool.” You say as genuine as possible.

Another glare. “Yeah obviously.” Classic Katsuki. This is supposed to be a heartwarming moment, but this man will never miss a chance to flaunt his confidence.

Silence

More silence

The air turns off abruptly, making the room even more quiet. He sighs loudly and throws himself back into the bed so that his legs are hanging off but his top half his laying vertically. “Why do you wanna become a hero Y/N?” He asks. It sounds aggressive and angry, but he genuinely wants to know. Sort of like a judge of character.

You actually don’t know. Why wouldn’t you wanna be a hero? Saving people seems cool, you guess. “Why do you wanna be #1?” You ask, switching the conversation back to him.

He pauses and stares at you in a sorta disgusted way, “It’s less of a ‘i want to be number one’ and more of a ‘i’m going to be number one,’” Pause. “It’s a fact. I’m working to meet my goal and I will end up on top. Fact.” He continues.

A/N: honestly idk where i was going with this... i write them at like 2am when i’m bored. enjoy this though! i might end up making this a series tho🤭 titled “a dumb little bakugou drabble” are we rocking w the idea or no?? i think it’d be kinda fun because i have a lot of ideas. it would be sort of like a slow burn type thing with angst because that’s fun.. should i?! please comment or something telling me if i should lmao.

also reminder that requests are still open for mha charcters😁 it could be whatever you want. also does anyone wanna be added to my tag list i think that’s what it’s called? okay byee

[muwur]

snapchat headcanons

✧ hc’s ✧ for using snapchat w ur boi toi ft. the pretty setter squad

❧ gn reader

✎ 3.1k words

a/n: kinda a combo of how they use sc and the kinds of snaps they send you! along w wat u send them, and uh... dating stuf n shenanigans? texting/snapping habits? my fantasies? IDEK ANYMORE EOFHEFJ

this was born from the recesses of my mind , which desired nothing mor than snapchats from suga , us sending cute selfies , others bein dumb n chaotic , no context videos , n him snapping me photos of some mangoes on sale he said he’ll buy for me DXX it’s too late for me now

doing research on hq bois and surfing thru sc features (im just now realizing theres quite a bit?? im hoping i address most of them at some point lolol) instead of real life tings aHHhhhHAHA

requests: open! will be working on a suga one i got, dw, requester!

sugawara

✧ sends good morning and good night snaps

✧ so he’s rlly good at keeping streaks, probs has the longest ones (one of them being y’alls streak)

✧ posts tidbits of volleyball practice on his story every once in a while

✧ snaps you pics of his sleeping teammates when they’re coming back to school after a long day of matches , adding a single ‘❤️’ as a caption

✧ he will also create colorful masterpieces on all of them

✧ gives daichi a santa beard, tanaka a squiggly stache (i imagine it to look like spongebob n patrick’s seaweed ones now that were mEN), n kageyama sum angry brows,,, wait he already has them lolol u good der kags

✧ posts a picture of you when you’re hanging out, captioning it: “🥰“

✧ has conversations with you purely via snaps

✧ ranges from casual chats and checking up on u to crackwhoring ( ** indicates the photo, while the “” quotes indicate the caption, all snaps are italicized, otherwise its regular dialogue)

✧ suga: *peace sign* “hey sweetheart, how r u?”

✧ you: *pics of homework* “ahh, drowning in school ;-; i cant wait for this week to be over fghjkl”

✧ suga: *close up with :o on his face* “let’s study together tmrw!”

✧ or

✧ suga: *complete darkness* “its 3 am n i cant sleep”

✧ you: *the top half of your head, laying on a pillow* “ ;( aw babe. do u want me to send something to help u sleep?”

✧ suga: *still in darkness* “y u still up?? go sleep. n 🥺 yes pls”

✧ you: *snaps pics of feet* “that’ll be 50 bucks, pay up” 

✧ suga: *darkness remains* “can we make a trade instead? i promise to make it worth ;)”

✧ ok now u BOTH cant sleep (im sry my crackheading be acting up around 2am eeryday, i stan a mischievous suga--)

✧ video chats (in the darkness lol) instead until you both pass out (im not in luv u r 😭)

✧ super down to take filtered selfies w you

✧ does all the silly ones with you (things like ’angry face’ or the frog one)

✧ but also rlly digs lookin cute with you using some heart crowns, y’all an aesthetic (n crakhead) duo fosho

✧ def subscribes to life hacks and tries them out himself, has a 50% success rate

kageyama

✧ doesn’t rlly use snapchat too much

✧ but when he does

✧ will either send you a picture to indicate he’s at volleyball practice (wow wat a sexi lookin gym floor)

✧ or some random picture of whatever he’s doing at the moment (*drinking milk*)

✧ this is mostly in order to save streaks

✧ he’s so bad at streaks

✧ “why does it matter?? what’s the point of sending just black screens or whatever’s in front of you at the moment??”

✧ can’t keep a consistent streak for more than 3 days and also doesn’t care (until hinata challenges him to see who can have the longer one)

✧ when you send him videos of him playing, he really focuses on them to try to improve his technique. asks you to send those vids to him (assuming u saved them, which u did)

✧ but when you look over his shoulder when he’s watching a video and give him some compliment (“i recorded at the perfect moment! that was a really good set, kageyama!”), he gets a bit flustered

✧ gets even more flustered but pretty happy whenever you post videos on your story showing karasuno winning some points with captions like:

✧ “footage of the legendary quick >.>” or “karasuno crows flyin high!” or “these bois make my heart 😭 im so proud”

✧ you WILL catch him off guard in photos, using filters that surrounds his head w/ emojis like 🥺💖🥰💘

✧ you also put these on your story (to his dismay)

✧ ppl comment on these mor than anything else (n for those who dont rlly kno kageyama, theyre kinda surprised to him like this)

✧ hinata snickers “hey kageyama you look pretty good here--”

✧ takes some selfies with you, mostly cuz you want them

✧ saves them after u send them over (n secretly cherishes them)

✧ occasionally watches his subscriptions, they’ll usually involve sports, mostly volleyball (who woulda guessed)

✧ you use his bitmoji to test out random facial expressions you would never see him wear

✧ you: “can you smile and wink like this? act like you’re the obnoxious charming guy in a shojo.”

✧ will actually attempt, but it looks so bad that you die inside and he never wants to try again cuz of ur laughing outburst (you: “😭😭 bb im sorry i couldnt help it”)

oikawa

✧ literally sends you anything and everything

✧ morning bathroom selfie to show off how good his hair came out that day, saying:

✧ “he has risen”

✧ or “i woke up like this”

✧ and my favorite, “you’re lucky you get this content for frEE”

✧ selfies with iwa, who just looks annoyed and exasperated at the camera

✧ sends you pics of his lunch and snacks (“bet u wish u had milk bread too”)

✧ always packs extra milk bread so he could convince you to stay at his practice after school--

✧ FILTERSS

✧ I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENUF

✧ will either use the filters that make him kayooottt (cute)

✧ loves the ones named ‘hearts,’ ‘soft,’ ‘peach,’ ‘butterfly cheeks,’ vsco filters LOL, etc

✧ uses ‘big mouth’ when he feelin a bit sASSY; also loves to use this one when he rants, it channels his inner valley girl

✧ sometimes he’ll be snacking or drinking something while he does so (“hey guys today im gonna eat these milk buns from my favorite bakery and this bomb orange juice and complain about this little kid who talked smack to me earlier and almost made me cry--”)

✧ takes cute selfies with you, is an aesthetic selfie king, puts them on his story to show off he’s hangin with you

✧ but on your story you only post the ones he looks bad in LOL

✧ has separate stories for his every need, some r private (and lucky you, ur included in all of them)

✧ titles them ‘mean things iwa said to me today,’ ‘ranting hotbox + mukbangs,’ ‘a day in the life of oikawa,’ ‘volleyball 🏐,’ ‘unpopular opinions,’ etc. 

✧ fitting room photoshoots lol

✧ “y/n, what do you think of this??” “and this?” “oOH WHAT ABOUT THIS??”

✧ ends up calling you through video chat so you can live critique his choices

✧ “oikawa, please no, i can’t be seen with you in public if you wear those--”

✧ also changes his bitmoji’s outfits from time to time, hopes you’ll notice, but you don’t LOL (oikawa: ;((((((( )

kenma

✧ uses sc usually just to reply to messages ppl send him

✧ indifferent about streaks, but keeps a few with ppl he’s closer to

✧ mindlessly plays the snapchat games with you, finds some of them kinda cute

✧ you both made his bitmoji for him, dressing his up in the orange cat suit

✧ you also helped make kuroo’s and put his in the black cat suit to match--

✧ snaps you every time he gets a new game, starts playing it, and once he finishes

✧ started to post some gameplays and reviews on his sc story (might as well add them to sc since he was already on other social platforms), and ended up amassing a large following

✧ follows the tech and gaming stories on sc

✧ as well as the ones with cute animals--

✧ open to selfies with you, usually wears a calm expression and holds up a peace sign

✧ even occasionally sticks his tongue out

✧ his story is occasionally heavily bombarded with candids of him w/ pretty sc filters, all taken by you

✧ but of all the filters, you love using the clout glasses on him

✧ especially when he’s just minding his own business

✧ “kenma, in his tru habitat” when hes cocooned in a blanket

✧ “kenma, on his way to steal yo manz” while on his way to the bathroom

✧ “kenma, next iron chef. watch out gordon” as he’s cooking instant ramen

✧ “kenma” n das it

✧ but he thinks it meme-y so he lets you do whatever you want, kinda digs it

✧ you end up dedicating your snap story to memes of kenma and the nekoma volleyball team. ppl are in it for the shits n giggles n hot bois

✧ you later discover someone else did the same thing with their volleyball team filled with hot bois from shiratorizawa, and you befriend tendou and share funni internet tings

akaashi

✧ 99% of his photos include either you or bokuto or both

✧ bokuto spams akaashi’s story and contact list with selfies and videos of himself using weird filters, often gets you to join him

✧ has several streaks, but will send something with more substance than a black screen or his bedroom window

✧ will usually involve smthng that just happened to him or smthing he saw, like:

✧ “a kind older lady offered me some apples in return for helping her”

-or:

✧ “how do i break the news to bokuto that the yaikniku place he’s been wanting to go to for the past week ,,, is closed today”

✧ o n let’s not leave out:

✧ “is it possible to conjure a ghost using a wooden spatula, ketchup, and a chalk drawn hexagram? bokuto’s been paranoid ever since he tried last night and i dont know what to tell him. seriously, help”

✧ looks through stories occasionally, comments whenever bokuto makes questionable decisions

✧ also comments on whatever you’ve posted. his words range from “you’re cute” to “why,” depending on the content

✧ ppl know when y’all are hanging out cuz he’ll post smthing to indicate he’s with you, usually it’s some candid and you’re not paying attention

✧ appreciation posts for you as well! esp if you got him something, like onigiri or his fav, Nanohana no Karashiae , for lunch! (akaashi: *snaps a pic of his food* “thank you y/n for feeding me”)

✧ prefers video calling over texting/snapping whenever possible tho

✧ occasionally reminisces thru his sc memories

✧ enjoys the flashback feature and will send them to you and bokuto (cuz they’re about y’all anyway lolol)

✧ also has secretly saved a bunch of selfies of himself, consists of him trying out a lot of the filters (he feelin himself)

✧ you, one day, looking thru his phone and discovering them: “akaashi, you’re so pretty wtf”

✧ akaashi: “...”

koganegawa

✧ sends you selfies of him before practice

✧ during breaks

✧ and after practice, usually makes a comment about how it went for him that day like:

✧  “i hit a decent toss today and futakuchi actually complimented me!”

✧ that, or:

✧ “i got yelled at 17 times today 😢😩”

✧ has quite a few streaks, his longest ones being with you and hinata

✧ def uses filters

✧ tries out every funny one he finds and sends you videos

✧ “look y/n im an aaaaAALlliiEEENnnNNN oo oo hoo hhhooOOh”

✧ “now im a chicky nuggy!!” (chicken nugget)

✧ also enjoys the doodle feature

✧ but he uses the filter with the clout glasses unironically--

✧ usually when smth good happens to him and he feels happy and/or cool about it

✧ “just beat the boss in this game on my 69th try B)”

✧ “kogane, that’s--”

✧ plays sc games with you and thinks bitmojis r cool

✧ kinda sad he cant find a hair option that matches him tho lolol rip

✧ you: “you hair’s just,,, unique,,,”

✧ subscribed to anything sports and fitness, as well as pop culture so he can stay in the loop

✧ also watches everyone else’s stories, pointing out whenever he sees smthing cool and/or interesting

✧ “woahh, karasuno’s at nationals right now! i wish we could’ve won, but next year for sure!!”

✧ you encourage him at all his games, hyping him up irl and online

✧ “koganegawa: best setter 😍!!”

✧ luckily you didnt record the parts he completely messed up LOL

semi

✧ before going out with you, snaps you a pic of his casual outfit like:

✧ semi: “does this look ok”

✧ you: “babe you look great, tendou was just messing with you”

✧ will make unwanted appearances on tendou’s snap and complains to you about them

✧ “i didnt consent to being part of his meme page” and

✧ “okay, but he didn’t only have to share all the moments i messed up--”

✧ also indifferent about streaks but will do them

✧ sometimes sends snaps/streaks indicating he’s practicing his music

✧ when you see these you usually ask him to send you vids or if you can come over n watch

✧ initially is a bit shy about it but he loves what he does and you and knows you’re genuinely interested and supportive so he agrees

✧ secretly rlly enjoys having you as his personal audience

✧ lowkey into asmr, like the soap cutting shit as well as chewing crunchy things

✧ also watches food porn and clips of mukbangs, then can’t resist going on youtube and watching the whole thing

✧  “y/n, can we try this, it looks so good--”

✧ will also often watch oikawa’s stories, especially his ‘ranting hotbox + mukbangs,’ and makes comments about him being an idiot

✧  “this kid he’s talking about is a savage”

✧ but admits they’re quite entertaining

✧ just looks serious in all the selfies you take with him

✧ you: “can you look like you’re enjoying yourself?”

✧ semi: “i look cooler like this tho”

✧ sc memories filled with shenanigans from you and the volleyball team, doodles, and mirror selfies with him experimenting diff looks (you: “tendou, you got him way too concerned about this”)

✧ also enjoys showing off he’s with you, taking a short video of you when you hang out

✧ you: “semi, i look bad right now”

✧ semi: “but you can never look bad”

✧ you: “🥺 bb”

✧ viewers: “aw”

✧ shiratorizawa: “can he be this nice with us LOL”

shirabu

✧ his main mode of communication with you is mostly through the regular messaging app, so he doesn’t use sc too much

✧ also doesn’t care for streaks and is bad at keeping them

✧ will answer to you or his senpais rather soon tho

✧ but lets all his other notifications pile up a bit before finally going thru them

✧ goes through the snaps he receives really fast, spending like 2 seconds each to look at them cuz aint nobody got time for dat

✧ doesn’t even rlly open goshiki’s LOL

✧ you have fun using filters on him and taking videos while he’s just doing his own thing peacefully like studying

✧ it takes him a second to notice and when he finally looks up, he just gives you an exasperated look

✧ cue you cracking up with laughter bc the filter finally shows up on his face

✧ his eyes and mouth are now on mike wazowski

✧ that, or his face becomes so disturbingly moRPhed like an alien

✧ caption: “ken-chan, my future medical man 😍”

✧ “y/n, please, this is like the 7th time in the last 20 minutes--”

✧ finally convinced him to take a study break and hang out with you

✧ which usually consists of snacking and light banter while you lay your head on his lap

✧ and scrolling through snapchat stories and showing him what everyone else is up to and cool things you’re subscribed to

✧ “loooook, dr. miami’s doing another butt job! is this the line of work you’re studying so hard for?”

✧ “no, it’s really not”

✧ is actually very soft with you and likes having the photos and vids for memories

atsumu

✧ sends you snaps where his brother looks bad, captioning it:

✧ “this is evidence that im the hotter twin”

✧ likewise, osamu sends you snaps where atsumu looks even worse

✧ like, the mans passed out, looking rekt and open mouthed, drool seeping into his pillow

✧ osamu: “u still have time to break up with him”

✧ also lucky for you, atsumu also loves to take unflattering photos of you and send them to you randomly at like 2 am

✧ you: “nani tf when did you even take this??”

✧ usually posts a snap while he’s out somewhere like at a match, the gym, outside on a run, a party, or just hanging out with you or his frens

✧ however, makes sure you look good if you show up on his story cuz he wants to show you off

✧ doesn’t really care for streaks, but has a lott

✧ but also has a tON of unopened snaps

✧ is the type to send just a black screen n call it a day, or maybe spice it up by sending a pic of the sexi gym floor (a comeback) w his shoe in the corner

✧ will, however, consistently respond to you and kinda looks forward to ur snaps (secretly hopes you show ur face)

✧ but when you dont:

*in class*

✧ atsumu: *a smirk on his face* “your content’s kinda dry today” 

✧ you: *your sexi desk* “my nudez ain’t free, i demand compensation”

✧ atsumu: *grasped his chin in thought, but angled the cam up bc he needa hide his phone in class lolol* “what if i... take you out on a romantic excursion”

✧ you: * your face but with ‘sausage’ filter* “🥵🥵🥵🥵 yessir, what u want”

✧ rlly only wants to have pics of your face wat a closeted sOFTIE

✧ likes to have content on his flashbacks

✧ usually has other social media sources to keep up to date with things

✧ actually rlly digs using sc filters, mostly ones that’ll make him look like a queen

✧ captions a selfie of you two like: “me >>>>>>> y/n”

✧ but nearly everyone who comments on it is like: “i think you flipped the sign, bro 🤥”

✧ judges ppl who are into soap cutting asmr (you will never hear the end of it if you also like it)

a/n: sc kinda dying for me, my use went from suga to an atsumu to like nearly nonexistent LOL

also o gawd i already have ideas here n there for a pt 2 so stay tuned fjxnwfesd hope it takes me less long cuz this one took me fkin foreva LOL

idk y i made semi like mukbangs but i feel like he’d be rlly into them--

[joyaphoria]

JOY IM SO FUCKING HAPPY RN YOU HAVE NO IDEAKFKDNFJSNFNF i just finished my ap seminar exam with 5 minutes remaining and this was my last exam of THE YEAR. i mean i think i did good, and i may have a chance at scoring 4/5 (i’d like to believe so) ITS 2AM BTW

but who fucking approved this exam😐😐like first i had to answer 3 detailed questions about an article WHICH TOOK ME LIKE 50 MINUTES wayy much than it was supposed to take. then these fuckers gave me 4 articles and told me to read them, create a whole ass argument and topic, and write a 5 paragraph essay on it in 1 HOUR‼️‼️‼️ (also we couldn’t use any outside resources so bye bye researching)

ANYWAYS YOUR WITH THE FLOWERS UPDATA HAD ME SCREAMING FUCK YES and woke my family up thank you for blessing my day

so theory time🤔🤔🤔i have feeling that the reason the reader sleeps with people for money is because she has to financially support herself (and her sister/brother?????) since maybe a family member is dead or out of the picture and is not in a state to provide for the family?? i mean i think this might be the reason.

and it was so obvious rin was mad/frustrated bcs he wanted to hangout with her but she had a session PUSSY BANGS CANT ADMIT HE KINDA LIKES HER

anyways sorry for the long message bestie kith kith love you <3333

PLEASE NOT EXAMS IM SO SHIT AT THEM LIKE MY MIND LOOSES ALL ITS SHIT AND IM JUST THERE LIKE

🧍🏽‍♀️

I BELIEVE IN U ZEY I KNOW U CAN DO IT <33

STOP IM SO GLAD U LIKED IT BESTIE AH JKAHJSKD your theory is like,, 70% correct??? ITS RIGHT BUT WRONG AT THE SAME TIME ;)

AND THAT IS A REASON WHY HES MAD BUT NOT THE MAIN REASON UGH I ALMOST SPOILED PLEASE I HATE THIS i dont understand how other writers dont just spoil the entire thing for people

DONT APOLOGIZE BESTIE I LOVE ALL YOUR MESSAGE AND I LOVE U MWAH MWAH

i still hate u for that atsuhina fic u made me read ���� im gonna get u back dw

[karasunology]

well HAHHAHAHA after he went away i was thinking if he was cute like is he cute?? he kinda cute tho but i cannot process that. all i can process is how i hate myself😂😂😭 but not me remembering biking kei looking after kags and hinata tho😔💔 2am & thinking why kei cant be real😭😭 anw i woke up from sleep and im going back now. goodnight to u hope ur getting a good sleep💗💗 - 💫

GOOD AFTERNOON BB !!! i slept good after reading some fics on ao3🙈 hope u slept well !! also isa yan almost love CHAROT AHHAHAHAHAHHA almost is never enoughh. sayang na syangg talagaaa. okay im sorry i hate myself too💀 but yes, why cant kei be real. like kei stop being fictional challenge😻😻

[wandering-lounge]

health troubles (im ok!)

so, last week on thursday, i went into the hospital unexpectedly, I”ll kinda jsut vent about it below but TLDR: My appendix got me hecked up and I got it removed over Friday, and I’m absolutely fine right now. 

Just chillin, happy to be here, taking my time with things, And, just happy to be alive. and like. SUPER appreciative off everyone who follows me. and people who have been patient with me. 

So, On thursday, I woke up at the crack of 2AM with a pain in my stomach, it was large, and it was really uncomfortable. I spent my entire morning waking up and sleeping dry heaving into my toilet and sink. Until about 5:40 i was hating life, and i eventually got a bowl of cereal in me, and went to work. 

Before i had gone to work, I called my boss and left a voicemail at the office, and what i believed was their home phone. they didn't receive either of them. I told them, “I feel very bad right now, and i honestly dont want to work feeling like this. I’ve been throwing up since 2 am”. I told my boss the same thing to her face, and she said the thing she always says when its the busy time of year, “sorry we dont have any spare help, you HAVE to work today.” I did work anyways, but i figured it might just be some intestinal blockage or something minor. “it’ll go away,”, i thought.

As i drove my bus, i was about halfway through with it and i started feeling more and more nauseous. I threw up out of my window and my passengers freaked out a little.eventually i got back and talked witha  couple of other bus drivers, “what are you feeling?” they asked,

“well,” I said, “Ive been having this constant constipated like pain with nausea and what feels like a fever the entire morning.”

“that very much sounds like appendicitis. Have you had your appendix removed?”

“no” i shrugged, as i went back into the office to clock out.I then went to my boss and asked  if they could do something about getting someone to cover me for the afternoon, As well as mention what happened on route today, “sorry but we cant get anyone else, its just you, just go home and sleep”

I go home, I eat a rice cake, and sleep. I wake up about an hour later and throw up the food. and even some water that i drank with it. I feel even worse than this morning, I talk to my close friends on discord, and they tell me almost immediately, “GO TO THE HOSPITAL” I call my mom and dad to ask them what to do, as well as describe my morning. my mom JUST got off work and heads over to my place to do some personal checkups, and my dad is hours away from home and cant do a thing. they also tell me to call my doctor, i describe everything again.

“yeah, it very much sounds like appendicitis, but theres no way to know for sure unless you go to a hospital, but we do have a doctor appointment open in about an hour and a half.” 

I shrug off the appointment for now cause my mom was inbound. I just stare at my phone, “i know that i cant let them down but i’m REALLY nervous about this,” i talk to my friends and they helped me su up the will to talk to my boss one last time, 

I call her, she answers, and...”Boss, I cannot come in”

“what do you mean you cant come in?” 

“i dont feel comfortable coming into work this afternoon, I’m not going to risk this, i really dont feel good,”

“but i need you here, you need to come to work. Who’s going to pick up all of these passengers?”

“tell them were short staffed. its just how it is right now.”

“I cannot tell them that”

“im sorry but I cannot come in”

“fine, then stay home”

It felt awful. my boss was mad, and, well i honestly wasn't risking shit over this.

 And the moment we met up, I tell her aboutt he appointment, and we immediately go. my mom is almost speeding. I was more worried about her anxiety than my own well-being at that point. but eventually we made it to the meeting, My doctor told me the same thing as the nurse over the phone, “it is most likely appendicitis, if your appendix bursts, it could be very messy, very expensive, and... very potentially fatal if not treated soon enough, IF it bursts that is. so yes i highly reccomend the hospital. and so we went.

I get admitted, got my gown. got my room and bed, friend comes and visits, both my parents and half brother visit. its grand. all good and calm as i got prepped for the night and my cat scan. cause you cannot detect the appendix accurately enough on an Ultrasound (the more you know sound plays).

YEP its appendicitis. i sleep for the night. and got it removed the next day. they actually bumped up my surgery by about 3 hours or so cause i woke up in the morning with a 103 fever. (yikes) but they got me an ice bag and opened the door, 

That same day, I ate food, kept it down. felt SO, much better, and i walked out of the hospital. i was so happy to have that garbage out of me. apparently i was struggling with it. possibly for about a year. yeah... so yeah that happened.

also my boss fessed up a couple days later and said things are covered, told me not to worry about it, she felt very sorry about being a “heel”. and, I appreciate it. she told me if i need to i can take 2 weeks off, my doctor gave me a note for a week off.so. all well that ends well.

ok story time is over friends. thanks for reading.

[markleetrashh]

Best friend Jaemin

Request: best friend jaemin? 💘

A/N: im sorry if this is short!!

ooh it's been a long time since i did a best friend! series

plus it's been 939383 months since we last saw jaems

this is to all my jaemin stans

i hope you all are staying strong

without further a do, let's start

so how you all actually became friends in the first place

back then in middle school while you were both 10

you were pretty quiet then and rather introverted

only had like 2 close friends? but you wouldnt talk to them unless they started the conversation

until one day teacher changed your seating arrangement because you 'weren't participating enough'

which was why she decided putting you beside one of the most talkative students was a good idea

and he was none other than na jaemin

this bright kid greeted you while a big big smile everyday

and every lesson he'd ask you lots of questions so you'd speak up more

"ooh that's a pretty pen! where did you get it from?"

"did you understand what the teacher just said? could you explain it to me?"

"yay it's time for pairwork!!"

and he'd try his best to make you smile

be it through jokes or funny stances

and thanks to him you managed to open up more

soon enough he was joining you during break times

and he was your tablemate for the following years

and luckily, the two of you managed to get into the same high school

by then you two were already very close friends

but only knowing each other in the new school amongst strangers helped to closen the relationship

and after weeks both of you are inseparable

probably calls you by a nickname he gave you back when you two were younger

and has no plans on changing it

loves teasing and pranking you but does it in a way where it's funny

like you cant stay mad at him because the both of you end up laughing

like that one time he offered you a drink of sprite

but he secretly put in vinegar instead

hyuck im watching you

and when you drank it you almost spitted on his face

while he was at the side dying of laughter

but a few minutes of laughing he forgot and took a sip too

which he immediately choked on and started coughing

causing you to burst out laughing at his reaction

can get really clingy

and doesnt mind skinship at all

since he's usually the one suggesting it

he has his arms slung around your shoulders all the time

24/7 poking your sides or pulling your cheeks to annoy you

he loves tickling you too

always seems to have memes or jokes to send you

it'd probably be 2am in the morning and you get a text from him

probably a meme

"hi best friend i cant sleep so you shall not too"

and he wont stop spamming until you actually reply

which after 15 minutes of chatting, he says he wants to go to sleep

and every single time that happens you want to punch him because he deadass woke you up during midnight to chat for 15 mins

jaemin wyd???

okay but

despite him being really dorky and funny all the time

he gets serious when he needs to

and becomes extremely protective when it comes to you, your health or your safety

after all, you're his best friend and he wants to take care of you

like that one time some creep kept pestering you to give him your number and he wouldnt leave

until jaemin showed up and acted like your boyfriend

and you could tell he was 👌 close to beating that person up

but luckily you stopped him

after he calms down he pats your head and gets all sweet like "you're fine right?"

and he'd smile brightly when you say yes

"anything for my best friend"

high school was also the place where you two met the other boys

specifically jeno, mark & hyuck

but yall also know jaehyun & taeyong because they used to be seniors

the five of you would always hang out together

which gains a lot of attention because many wonder how you even got close to this good looking bunch of boys

but knowing jaemin he probably goes around shouting that you're his best friend

which embarrasses and makes you happy at the same time

for some reason he'd always tease you and jeno

and you'd be all clueless like "what? why jeno huh?"

while jeno's at the side trying to hide his blush

but as time went by you found yourself falling for jenk because he's always so sweet and kind to you??

and when you told jaemin he straight up screamed for one hour straight

"oMG ARE YOU SERIOUS"

"yOU LIKE JENO???? WOAH"

"number one fan of couple ship name of you and jeno"

and he wanted to tell jeno right away but of course you'd stop him

by treating him to meals, like always

but it would all go to waste because

two weeks later you receive a text from jeno

"so... uh Y/N, jaemin has been pushing me for days to say this but i actually like you too"

and you're all shookt and you dont know what to reply

"he told you??? when??"

"two weeks ago, i think"

and you take a mental note to remember to slap jaemin because that was the day you told him

but also thanks to that, you and jeno finally got together

which made jeno 100× happier

would probably scream again

"jeno, if she ever bullies you tell me, i can handle her"

and to you

"good luck to putting up with jenojAM, it's been tough on me these few years"

apart from all that

back to his actions

he's also always willing to listen to your problems and help you out

even though his advice may not be the best, he still tries his best to cheer you up and help

encourages and supports you a lot

like a real fan

and he always has that big bright smile while looking at you

and you feel so blessed because he's honestly such a great friend??

and he never fails to make you happy

he can be super sweet and nice one moment

and the other it seems as though he's got something up his sleeves

but nonetheless he makes you laugh and smile a lot

and without him you wouldn't be where you are today so

shout out to the bestest friend!!

[pkmtrainerbenny]

tagged by @wibuwibirb a long time ago and got lost on my notifications askdjskdfh but here it is

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and be happy yes

LAST

Drink: coke

Phone call: My uni teacher

Text message: to my two childhood friends

Song you listened to: Shelter - ᴘɪᴀɴᴏ ᴠᴇʀ - (Cover)【JubyPhonic】

Time you cried: hmm that would be last week, like at 2am or something

HAVE YOU

Dated someone twice: nope

Kissed someone and regretted it: nope

Been cheated on: nope

Lost someone special: I lost a few very good close friends, which makes me very sad.

Been depressed:  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah i don’t really drink, bro

Made new friends: yeah!!

Fallen out of love: nah

Laughed until you cried: probably, yea-

Found out someone was talking about you: hmm... yeah, actually

Met someone who changed you: ayup

Found out who your friends are: i found out who aren’t my friends, and that is a just as important, i guess

Kissed someone from your Facebook list: what even is facebook at this point- but no

Kissed a stranger: nope

Drank hard liquor: nope

Lost glasses/contact lenses: hahah- once, because i slept with my glasses on my face and woke up with them gone. they were under my pillow

Turned someone down: ... not that i am aware of?

Sex on the first date: nope, no sex. or date.

Broken someone’s heart: ... i guess not? i hope not...

Had your heart broken: not really ahah- not that i know

Been arrested: I WILL NOT GO BACK TO JAIL! okay but jokes aside, no

Cried when someone died: ... no, actually i didin’t.

Fallen for a friend: Guess not?

Kissed on the first date: nope

GENERAL

List 3 favorite colors: Blue, red and pink!

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: uuUHH- itS BEEN SO LOng leMME see--... 154 dsfkljdsf i have more followers than that wheeeze

Do you have any pets: i already had two dogs, one was a boxer named Sora, the other a pinscher called Bidu. I had a few hamsters as well and some golden fishes and three betas. The dogs passed away, the fishes too and the hamster i killed one and then gave out the rest to a sick kid that really wanted pets wheeeze but currently no, no pets

Do you want to change your name: want- not really want no, but if I were to choose another name- man, I love the name “Melody” a lot, that would be such a cute name to have.

What time did you wake up: today was about... 7:30am

What were you watching at midnight last night: my drawing being made finally after so long wheeeze- i was drawing last midnight

Name something you can’t wait for: finishing my final project on uni so i can focus fully on developping my game alraedy askdfjiher

When was the last time you saw your mom: like, 10 minutes ago wheeeze

What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my gosh forsaken will to do work because man i need to get back to focus on those things

What are you listening to right now: unravel (English Cover)【JubyPhonic】ᴅᴊ-ᴊᴏ ᴅᴜʙsᴛᴇᴘ ʀᴇᴍɪx

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope

Something that is getting on your nerves right now: my lazy ass

Most visited website: tumblr, youtube and my email

Mole/s: Yup

Mark/s: i have- freckles caused by sunburn on my shoulders and... maybe one or two scars somewhere...

Childhood dream: i wanted to be a bus driver and a trashman.... or well, trashwoman. dont ask, i also don’t know why

Do you have a crush on someone: i have a crush on a stable sleep schedule and i know its out of my reach so i gave up. no, no crushes

What do you like about yourself: .... optmism? uh.... kindness? or.... being very patient?

Piercings: used to wear earrings, but now eh just on special moments.

Blood type: O+

Nickname: Ben, Bennyo, Benben, Bencake, Benbun

Relationship status: single like a pringle, looking for Pringles, not dates. Give me chips, thanks.

Zodiac: Aeris

Pronouns: She/her

Favorite TV show: what is TV? im not even joking its been so long since i watched anything-- uh... Bear Bears, Voltron, uh... idk man, weve been watching so much Star Trek lately i cant stand that anymore otl

Tattoos: oh man I WISH

Right or left hand: Right to things that need precision, left to anything that needs strength

Surgery: none so far

Hair dyed in different color: it already was: red, purple, blue, pink and blue, and now that im not taking care of it is green wheeeze

Sport: i like chess. thats a sport. im not good, but i like it lmao i also love to watch voleyball

Vacation: from my room to the bathroom

Pair of trainers: ... two i guess, one have a hole but still usable

Current and all-time best friend: nOW THAT I KNOW i caN HAVE MORE THAn ONE its sazy and avi! not gonna tag because im lazy. But!! I do love all my friends equally, no need to feel left out

Eye color: hazel/ bright green when i cry

Favorite movie: Mickey, Donald, Goofy: The Three Musketeers

WHICH IS BETTER?

Hugs or kisses: hugs. i love hugs please just-- just hugs...

Lips or eyes: eyes, yes all eyes are gorgeous

Shorter or taller: ha as if there is anyone shorter than me. taller

Nice arms or stomach: can i like- pick a third option: back? no? well- arms then

Sensitive or loud: a little bit of both is always good man, someone that is energetic and uplifting but knows when to tone down and be gentle

Hook up or relationship: relationships

Troublemaker or hesitant: again, a little bit of both is always good

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: i dont omg i know so much bad stuff about me, man hey man, if i don’t, who will?

Miracles: yes, but you need to work for them. Miracles only happen to those that work hard.

Love at first sight: hhmm... i don’t think so, no... you can like someone at first sight, but love only comes after knowing the person.

Santa Claus: good man, needs more love of the kids

If you feel like doing this, please go ahead and tag me so i can look at it too!! Have fun~

[eurizephale]

Saw this on facebook. Napapanahon. Masakit sa puso.

You were the one who was pursuing. Always mo akong pinupuntahan kahit sobrang layo ko pa just to be with me and we'd hang out and just really talk about anything and laugh about all the corny things that we can think of, until mag umaga. Yes, lagi tayong puyat nun sa trabaho. Lagi tayo magkasama the moment that we met. It was such a happy time for me.. Nung times na magkasakit ako, pumunta ka parin and kahit wala naman akong hiningi sayo, may mga kung ano ano ka ng bit bit.

You were working as a pilot for the Philippine Air Force and deployed ka lang dito sa Davao and lagi tayo nagsusulit na magsama tayo dalawa kahit wala naman ginagawa kasi we'd miss each other. Kahit buong araw the moment that we wake up, magkausap na tayo and lagi ka pa nag vivideo call kahit di naman ako mahilig nun. Sumama ka pa nga sa meeting ko na umabot ng 2am and kahit wala ka ng ginagawa and magtunganga lang. Until such time na narealize ko na i was falling for you.. LUMAYO AKO! Natakot ako.. it was pointless na maging laging puyat when in fact na di naman magiging tayo kasi ayaw ko sa LDR. Hindi ako marunong mag LDR and bakit ko ba pahihirapan sarili ko with it?

Kulit ka ng kulit buong araw. Tawag ng tawag. Text ng text. Etong gaga.. naawa. Sige.. nakipagkita ako sayo. Nag usap tayo. Pina intindi ko sayo na this cant continue.. nag explain ka din ng side mo. It was a good talk, but i was still adamant of my stand na that night will be the last na magkikita tayo and lalayo na ako.

Nasa bahay na tayo nun, sa terrace lang syempre kasi ayaw mo pumasok kasi andun si kuya and mga kaibigan niya. Galit na galit ka. Hindi na madrawing face mo. HELL i was consolling you. Niyaya kita lumabas ng bahay para mag buy ng something sa tindahan and para i can coax you to talk and let out the thoughts that was on your mind. When we came back, bago pumasok sa gate, i stopped you.

That was the moment that you told me na you love me. "Kristine, babe, I love you" -- na shock ako. but before i replied, i kissed you. For some reason, I was so happy and relieved. You then asked me.. " will you take the risk for me?" Hindi ko pa nga yun narinig pero inulit mo and i said yes. Yes, i will take the risk for you. (BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE).

Birthday ko na the next day. I was still unsure kung ano tayo. I even asked you, if tayo. Natawa ka and mukhang disbelief sa question ko on why i asked you such pero you said.. oo bakit mo natanong? natawa lang din ako kasi i felt stupid asking ---- basically thats how we started.

Take note.. ako yung tao di nagpapaligaw. I go on dates and labasan ng totoong ugali or even friends turned to lovers ang peg. Di ako marunong mag react sa ligaw ligaw. Westernized if you could label it. Also di din ako mahilig mag meet the parents kasi that takes time and based on my experience, pag maghiwalay kayo ng partner mo, kailangan din hiwalayan ang buong family which is a harder thing to do.

I had a strong belief (dahil sa past experience) that I will never look into your phone nor fuss about anything that involves it. pag nagtetext ka beside me, na nasa view ko.. tumitingin ako sa ibang angle to respect your privacy. --- HOWEVER papunta tayo sa bday ng kaibigan ko na sobrang layo. wala pa akong car nun kay nagtataxi lang tayo. i accidentally saw na may nag tetext sayo ng heartbroken emoji, busy?, why you no pansin? (not exact words but in those lines)... and name ng babae.

Natunaw ako. i dont know how to react. THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR TRUSTING SO BLINDLY. same night.. nagka guts akong iask ka.. but it took hours. pa alis alis ka pa nun sa table natin sa party kasi may tawag ka. Ang excuse mo is work. pero iba na talaga pakiramdam and kutob ko. After the bday party, standard ng activity ng group of friends ko na mag huck to have our own celebration sa bday. while we were hanging out with my friends, di ko na talaga kinaya.. tinext na kita about it. you forwarded me the excerpt of the text and nag explain ka na foster sister mo yun. I felt stupid sa pangdududa.. foster sister lang pala(she was not!). Sabi mo bata mo pa nakilala si girl and bata ang turing mo sakanya and sadyang makulit lang siya and nangungulit sa iyo. So here i am.. naging kampante but with reservations.. which at that time, i didnt understood why.

It was already the end of your deployment. Nag marco polo pa tayo nun and grabe ang iyak ko dahil sa separation anxiety. But always mo sinasabi na kaya natin to.

A week after.. pumunta tayo ng baguio. Kahit kapos sa pera.. hala gora! (tanga ehh) You introduced me to your world. Sobrang happy ko nun.

May usapan tayo na pag LDR mode tayo, wherever you are.. walang buwan di tayo magkikita. We will make it possible. Obvious din naman na since ako ang flexible ang schedule, ako ang pupunta sayo. I had a total of 14 flights last year just to make us work.

Nung after mo mag marawi.. nag bakasyon tayo. 3 days lang sana ako nun with you. We went to tagaytay. Pero all throughout may iniinda ka ng sakit. Papunta pa lang tayo, may problem ka na with your vision and head aches. hindi na tayo nag tour kasi the next day, pacheck up na tayo agad. After ng check up, bumalik tayo ng hotel (MAHAL NG HOTEL NAMIN LECHE! MAS MAHAL PA SA MARCO POLO).

naka idlip ako ng 10mins and ikaw di na mapakali.. hindi ka makahinga and everytime you breath.. may pain sa chest mo. you were in your phone calling someone pero mukhang di sumasagot. I rushed you sa tagaytay med. Ang heart rate mo bumababa ng 20 everytime nakakaidlip ka. Gusto ka na iadmit ng doctor dun ang mag undergo na ng series of tests. Ayaw mo kasi mas convinient if with the airforce ka mag pagamot.

Walang signal sa er and wala akong pang call kaya pinahiram mo phone mo para tawagan ang operations office nila. Nakita ko sa phone mo na tinawagan mo ng twice si alleged foster sister while inaatake ka and magkasama tayo. I was curious.. i went against what i believed in and checked your messages with her. PERO WTF!!!!!!! shit just got real!!!! Madami akong paglalanding nabasa.. but one thing that stuck on my mind was.

(again, not the exact words -- i also call him igorot sometimes and he calls me bisayang dako, this does not, however, reflect any bad indication or any negative label with its respective community and/or culture)

girl: Done na ako ligo! sobrang stressed sa trabaho.

igorot: Paamoy!

girl: ng ano? yung damit na hinubad ko?

igorot: hindi.. yung nag suot.

girl: wag po kuya.

ayyyyy leche.. ang landi! foster sister daw pala ha?!?

I stopped myself na iconfront ka kasi nagmumukha ka ng dying. When i did.. nashock ka. wala ka masagot. i created a letter sa phone ko and binigay ko sayo for you to read it. I was breaking up with you.. i'll make sure nalang muna na i'll let you settle in vluna and ma okay ka and i'll catch the next flight to davao. nag walk out ka.. syempre hinabol kita kasi may sakit ka and nag aantay tayo ng ambulance para ma admit ka sa vluna.

IKAW PA ANG GALIT. wala lang nga yun sabi mo.. mali nga yun pero wala lang yun sayo kasi bata nga yun si girl. (KA EDAD KO PALA SI ATE GIRL) nagalit ka kasi iiwan kita. blah blah blah.. eto si tanga, forgave you and gave you another chance. You asked me to stay with you and be with you.

I NEVER SLEEP IN HOSPITALS. may fear ako. First time ko din matulog ng naka upo. Hindi madali friends. ang sakit. Wala akong kain nun kasi on the go tayo but i stuck it through and inalagaan kita kahit wala akong experience or medical background. Naghanap ako paraan as to where maka buy din ng food for us kahit wala akong alam sa quezon city. IT WAS SUCH AN EXHAUSTING EXPERIENCE. BACK THEN I THOUGHT IT WAS WORTH IT.

After that ordeal.. hindi na talaga ako napalagay sa foster sister. always na siyang nabibring up. I even told you na i was barely holding on. Nagdrama ka pa nga one time kasi markado ka na sa paningin ko no matter how you prove yourself to me. reverse psych to the highest level.

Continue parin ako nun in going the distance. GINAWA KO LANG NAMAN ANG MANILA NA PARANG GMALL. Galit na mga taong mahalaga saakin but pinaglaban kita. I believed in you. I was always there for you.. sa mga frustrations mo.In fairness with you, ikaw din naman saakin. Kaya who wouldve thought diba?

Nung nadeploy ka ulit sa davao.. hatid sundo kita. Lagi kita pinapadalhan ng food. Sa apartment ko ikaw natutulog araw araw.

nag anniversary nalang tayo, bday ko, and valentines day.. I thought we were okay. Masaya naman tayo sa perception ko. Kahit walang grandeous ekek basta magkasama tayo.. masaya na ako.

Then came monday, February 26, 2018. BIGLA KA NGKIPAGHIWALAY. Nashock ako. What did i do wrong?? anong kulang?? i gave my all in this relationship. saksi mga tao niyan sa palibot ko.

KAHIT WALANG FLIGHT PAPUNTANG MANILA.. hinanapan ko ng paraan. Ang mahal ng ticket, pero pinikitan ko nalang. The odds where in my favor at buti din naman, may kotse din akong narent kahit last minute. (di ako marunong mag commute dun.) Wala din akong dalang anything. i went there with just myself, no change of clothes or even toiletries.

I was falling apart from monday till today. magkasama tayo lagi. tabi tayo magsleep. we always cuddle na parang walang problema between us.

Kaninang umaga (March 1), i already woke up crying. i cant fathom the pain. sobra sobra. i was always asking you na do i deserve this? i was so selfless with you. Lagi mong sabi.. wala na wala akong pagkukulang. you'll figure things out muna with yourself.

I chatted your alleged foster sister. NAGALIT KA WHY I DID IT. i told you, kailangan ko ng peace of mind. Hindi ako pala away.. i gave you to her. sabi mo hindi magiging kayo. I made you understand na its a harmless message.

Nashock si foster sister. DI PALA NIYA AKO KILALA. SABI MO SHE KNOWS! sabi mo alam niya lahat lahat. BUT you lied for the nth time!!!! She doesnt know that i exist. Nag ask ka ng favor if ikaw na mag explain sakanya and ikaw na bahala. Wag na ako magreply sakanya and all sabi mo. I agreed. sabi ko that message only and no more.

We parted okay. Syempre grabe parin iyak ko while driving back to manila. I always told you throughout those days.. find a way to come back to me. I was calling a close friend, umiiyak lang ako kasi i cant bear the pain and i was falling apart.

May weird gut feeling parin ako. I went against your request and i replied sa alleged foster sister mo. When i landed back in davao.. it was then i knew.. ISANG TAON MO NA PALA AKONG NILOLOKO! After everything!!!! after all the honesty, love, and support that i gave freely sa iyo.. grabe ka! I TOOK THE RISK IN THIS RELATIONSHIP KASI I THOUGHT YOU WERE MATURE ENOUGH AND YOURE DONE PLAYING GAMES.

You even met her dad and family! lagi mo siyang binbigyan ng pasalubong. KASAMA MO SIYA NUNG SAT pero ang sabi mo saaking, inuman bonding with classmates. sabi mo kasama mo pa si mistah mo papunta pabalik. ANDAMI MONG LIES and its all catching up to you. I TOLD YOU.. HONESTY GOES A LONG WAY AND NOT BEING SUCH WILL DESTROY YOU.. AND YES IT DID BIG TIME!

Naawa ako kay girl kasi she really likes you and nbsb pa siya. You fooled us. Ikaw ang pinaka worst decision i made in my life. AMINADO KA NAMAN SANA KUNG GAANO KA KASWERTE SAAKIN KUNG GAANO KITA INALAAGAN AND MINAHAL NG SOBRA SOBRA. PERO KAHIT ANTANDA MO NA.. IMMATURE KA PARIN.

I take back all the tears ive shed.. the undying love that i passionately gave you! I was so honest with you.. every galaw ko .. updated sa iyo kasi nga ldr tayo and para masecure kita. Sobra sobra ang loyalty ko.. everytime may mag text or chat na lalake reported agad yan sayo.

NEVER AKO NAGMUMURA.. pero putang ina mo! You will never be happy in life. Karma will claim you!!!!

I wasted a year of my life with you 1LT DANIEL M. BELEO JR (btw, soon to be captain)

ADVICE TO ALL WOMEN: TRUST YOUR GUT. IT IS ALWAYS RIGHT!

DISCLAIMER: i have nothing against the AFP and PAF. It is also not my thing to post things like this but ginamit mo ako. Pinaikot and ginawang tanga.

PS. within 5 mins of posting this, blinock ako sa facebook ng animal. haha

[leaving-all-of-it]

Ahhhhh

I just feel so trapped and alone.

My mental illness symptoms are really making functioning SO difficult lately and honestly I’m.. not functioning that well. I have not been showering as often as I should, I have not been eating enough at all the last few days purely because of lack of physical and mental energy/spoons to cook and prepare food, my sleeping habits are also very bad, and I’ve been just dragging myself around most of the time.

Yes I have been getting some stuff done through it, which is really good, and I’ve been praised by friends who understand the mental health struggle and say I’ve been doing really good. Which I somewhat have been.. but also not. 

Especially when my aunt and uncle that I live with (until the end of this month) will be back next week and they are REALLY fucking uptight about everything being like PERFECTLY tidy (like they expect the dishwasher to not just be clean but UNLOADED and empty.. which hello depressed fuck over here thats just NOT possible 90% of the time mates). They don’t understand mental illness at ALL and haven’t even accepted explanations I’ve given them before and explaining a lot of the time I just DONT have energy and its NOT PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE for me to do something.

So I can’t help but continually seeing my progress in the eyes of my family members and neurotypicals the last few days. I can’t help that when I packed up the whole bathroom - which required emptying cupboards and drawers, going through and throwing out garbage, organizing, and THEN putting into 2 boxes... probably took a good hour at least - I didn’t feel very accomplished I just stressed about the boxes in the living room downstairs and the papers on the floor and couch that I haven’t got to. About all my clothes I just tossed in the guest room to organize and put away.. but haven’t yet. About the mess in the kitchen I haven’t cleaned up. About the fact I haven’t cooked proper food for myself. About the fact my room is still messy and I have 293082948 things to go through and pack not only in my room, but also boxes in the garage, and items in the basement. 

I’ve been trying trying trying so hard to push through everything the last two weeks, especially this last week. I’ve been TRYING to push through and just get ANYTHING done. And I have gone a couple times out to collect boxes from the mall, and I have packed up a couple boxes, and one day I sort of tidied the kitchen (its a disaster again), and I did get the garbage out last night (hallelujah!), and I did buy the things I needed for the shelter from the dollarstore and go to group... but overall, honestly, I can say especially from my personal internal experiences of the week; I have not been doing well.

Last night I STILL didn’t get to sleep until like 2am because I had my light on until 1:30 idfk why. So I woke up at like noon, and then didnt leave bed until after 3pm! I got up after 3, made some raspberry sauce on the stove to eat on top of my leftover pancakes; and then abandoned the pot and dishes and everything right there on the stove when I was done. I went up to the guestroom put a show on my laptop; HOPING to sort my clean and dirty laundry at least and throw laundry in... yeah that never happened. I watched the show on the bed and got increasingly tired and fatigued, and when it was over just laid on the bed half falling sleep for like an hour.. it was nearing 6pm at this point.

At SOME point I got downstairs to heat up 3 spring rolls and eat them. Then I watched a show for another hour or whatever. Skyped with my friend. Ended back up in guest room on my laptop on tumblr... Feeling fatigued, depressed, distressed and panicked about the state of the house and my functioning right now, very hungry, and its 8pm. 

I feel so alone. I feel so anxious. I feel SO depressed. I feel so distressed. I feel guilty. I feel trapped. I CANT make myself do any of the millions of things I need to do. I’ve been pushing through... just dragging myself through the week somehow managing to get SOME things done.. but idk if its just it all catching up to me, or staying in bed until 3, or WHAT but I’m just so DONE. I feel so done and broken down and at the end of my rope tonight.

And not in a desperate, breaking down, panicking, sobbing kind of way. In a very numb and tired “I’m sitting here struggling to type this and stay sitting up because I am so fatigued and I just want to sleep. Also I am starving but have no energy to put anything into me other than cheerios but I know they will not fill me up in any way so I have no motivation to even go get them.” kind of way. Like.. just seriously depressed. Fatigued and numb and done

and Im deep down panicking over this because IDK WHAT TO DO 

IDK HOW TO DO ANYTHING

I WANT SOMEONE TO COME BREAK ME OUT OF THIS OR DO A BUNCH OF MY STUFF FOR ME OR BOTH

BUT I CANT HAVE THAT AND I DONT HAVE ANY SUPPORT PHYSIALLY Or IN PERSON RN

MY FAMILY IS STUPID ABOUT THIS AND DOESNT BELIEVE ME

AND I STILL HAVENT TOLD MY ONE OTHER INPERSON FRIEND MY SITUATION LIKE AT ALL BECAUSE I HAVENT REALLY BEEN ABLE TO HANG OUT WITH EHR IN PERSON AND IM STARTING TO WONDER IF ITS PARTIALLY INTENTIONAL AND SHE DOESNT REALLY WANT OT HANG OUT WITH ME

hahhahah yayyyy