#also the cool mod where characters go to class and whatnot

[simply-slytherin]

Attempting to finally mod my game and get companions and more immersion.

Wish me luck soldiers, I am embarking on this quest.

[forbidding-souda]

About Mod Souda

You guys should talk to me in the ask box more smh you guys are fun

Like just tell me about your day but I won’t guarantee that like 1000% I’ll respond but I’ll read them all.... efkjlwdbsc or or ask me questions or something idk I like talking

1500 followers face reveal when (shocked emoji) /srs

Anyways here’s some things about me because I never really introduced myself (since this is my account and why would I do an introduction)

THIS IS LITERALLY MY LIFE STORY GOODBYE BAHSBAH

-Mod Souda 

Hi I am Mod Souda and I go by he/him ofc ofc I am a gay man.

Uhh I am an a native amercan mixed kid AND an Aquarius ugh I’m so unique right. I was raised by a raver and a metalhead skater in Vegas. I’ve been in the pit since I was 4 years old (specifically at a Primus concert LMAO).

The first fandom I was in was Creepypasta, and I was about 8 years old. It’s funny because the first musician I ever actively liked was Madame Macabre. 

As a child (like 7-11) I mainly listened to Vocaloid, Madame Macabre, and Nicki Minaj.

When Avengers came out I was still in elementary school. And .. Loki... wrjhfbwejdhb bro!! gay awakening!! holy shit. I was in love with him but I didn’t want to admit it smh shhh.

The first anime I ever watched was Black Butler. I was IN LOVE with Joker from Book of Circus ehbwdjqshdfb. The last episode of that season ended the day I moved to California. I remember crying bc of the last scene inside of the moving truck.

I also got into Fairy Tail a lot. Also tragic. I had the hugest crush on Gajeel Redfox mmmmmemdwkgsnekfdjsglkvcx

I live in the Bay Area, and grew up in the same house, compared to living in Vegas where I moved every two years. There are ... so many poc here ... and in vegas I was in a class with all white people. Being around so many poc was so like ?? fun ?? idk how to describe it but it feels like how life should feel like; not stressful at all.

I started listening to goth music when I was 12 because I was in the Mr. Creepypasta amino and somebody was like “you guys should join the goth amino” and I was like oh that sounds so fun !!! Boom... goth Mod Souda arrived.

I was all about Sopor Aeternus and Switchblade Symphony. 

I discovered my lifelong favorite artist in like 2016. It was because I was making playlist for my Fairy Tail oc (tragic) and I added this song I got off of a “Creepypasta Theme Songs” and it was Bernadette by IAMX (which was assigned to Laughing Jack). And I listened to the song and was like meh this is cool. Then one day I played the playlist and it just.... hit different. LMAO I was like waiitittttititit. The next day, on the way to the airport, I downloaded all 7 (at the time) of his albums and listened to them the whole way. I’ve seen him live too like mm chris corner I love you.

I got into DR in 2015 because of an edit of (anime) Syo and Junko to Pound the Alarm LOL. I was like “this looks cool” so I watched it on my phone while sitting on the couch all in one go. Spoilers but I cried the most when mondo and sakura died, fun fact. Life went down from there smh!! 

I really believed that I was dating Gundham Tanaka. Like everything in my life was Gundham Tanaka related like I was ... obsessed with him. And I coudln’t see art of him and sonia because it would make me have a breakdown bc I thought he was cheating on me PLZ BHDSABHJBAHAAHHA it’s funny because I kin sonia now and I’m in love with her.

This was the same year where I ???? got bruises on my eardrums somehow (I asked my dad recently how I got them and he went uhh idk) ???? and I couldn’t hear anything for like three years plz. My hearing has gotten better but idk if my ear percentage is 100%/100% or if I’m just grateful it isn’t what it is before LMAO so that’s when I started learning ASL.

This is also the same year where I got hospitalized for being a neurodevelopmental schizophrenic lol OOPS !

A funny story of me growing up with danganronpa is uhh when future arc was still airing ,,, Spoilers,, and the episode with Juzo passing aired,, I literally printed the frame of him talking to himself confessing his love and BROUGHT IT TO SCHOOL. I LIT A CANDLE FOR HIM TOO LIKE BYE

Freshman year of highschool I started dating an emo kid who brought his electric guitar to school. TRAGIC. We dated for like two years please what.

Sophomore year I started getting into metal and punk. This is mainly because I went to a Slayer concert. I was trying to branch out of my goth bubble and !!! metal really stuck with me. My favorite subgenre is goregrind. It’s mmm so good. Punk... was a miss. I absolutely hate punks. If anyone in the alternative community is reading this right now I’ll tell you this: the punks that I interacted with to learn more about the community were from OC .... goodbye

I still listen to Glass Street tho ^ they are hc/crossover and I really like their music omg I have their merch now plz HBSAJKH and I still like the patch pants / crusties I made so that’s cool. A lot of kids look up / glamorize me just because of my fashion but at least they give me clout ig ...

The year after that I downloaded Spotify for the first time. I was an apple music/youtube person (tragic). Uhh what else omg. I finally figured out that I was neurodevelopmental and that it affected my way of thinking and that ,, it wasn’t JUST because I am sch so that was an awakening.

Anyways now trying to get a minor in asl interpreting mmmm and trying to get a job SMH !! why is it so hard. I’m into DND now oo that’s new and I’m collecting the dice.

I started this blog in July 2020 when I was staying with my friend in a tent in New York for a couple of months. I forced her to watch despair arc (LOL) and now she’s a junko cosplayer so B^)

Metalhead anon and everyone else who’s been here for a long ass time make me SOOO happy like woah.. it’s been so long omg. I used to post fics three times a day like wtf the EFFORT (that was before school started lol oops my bad)

Since then I’ve got a boyfriend and a whole wave of danganronpa cosplayers who are my friends now. It’s really cool to talk to so many young people (sometimes) who are hella into like,, open conversations about gender and politics and whatnot. I’m used to talking to 20 year old goth people you know? 

Whenever I do something “cringey” (like if I want to do dr character impersonations or if I want to rant about how much I love this anime character or if I want to try out neopronouns) I’m like hmmmm I can go to the danganronpa cosplayers and I know they won’t judge me for this.

Anyways that’s it. It’s 22:50 where I am right now aaaanndd I go on this blog way more than I should LOL

[bleedingracquets]

“””Chloe you promised you’d be back! Where the hell are you? DAMN GIRL YOU EVEN MISSED GONTA’S B-DAY AND YOU LOVE THAT BOY THE HELL IS WRONG WITH CHA?””” Good question. Lemme answer it. In multiple ways, because I have more than one reason lmao.

So What Has Chlo Chlo Been Doin On The Down Low?

Aka: the overly-long detailed list of reasons Chloe/Bepsiqueen has not been your local shitposter as much as she probably should be doing because she’s bad at time management as well as other reasons and to be honest this is a really fucking long list not gunna lie hope you like reading school essays because it reads like one haha.

There’s actually a few answers to this, most of them lame but I still feel like you’d appreciate some solid no-bullshit answers from me. 

1. College Shit. - So as I’ve told you guys, I’m in college and doing all that fun class stuff. However, as of recent I’m actually NOT in college, even though I should be. That’s due to one thing. FASFA. This stubborn bastard has been a thorn in my side for far too long and it just worse and worse with all these dumb complications like having to verify and my parents not being married one year and then the next. Until that FASFA gets taken care of I cannot pay off my old loans to register for this year, and so far I’ve missed 3 days now going on more until not only the confirmation letter or whatever-the-fuck it’s called comes in and that’ll take about 5-10 bidness days as well as if that’ll even be enough to pay off over 6,000 dollars in student debt.  So as a result I may have to drop out for the semester and pick up a job at my local Kwik Trip (aka gas station b/c not everywhere has a kiwk trip and I forget that) to not only pay off the possible remainder of the bill but to also increase my ever dwindling fat stacks of cash. Because I am slowly becoming one broke ass bitch and that sucks a lot.  This is the biggest reason I have not been on, as it’s both stressful on my emotional health and takes up a lot of my time when I don’t get to sleep or relax and try my best to de-stress from life fucking my ass.

2. Upcoming Possible Job. - Mostly connects to the first reason, but if I can’t make it back into college I’ve decided I’ll be hitting up a job at the gas station, so that will not only cut the time I spend online in general, but I have to fix my disgusting sleep schedule (as I had been sleeping off that deadly flu and whatnot instead of getting medical attention like a normal person not in debt would do) and OH BOY. Also we’re experiencing financial problems in the family at the moment, as my younger brother lost his job and didn’t even have it for a month, and OOOOOOOHHHH BOY.

3. Stressed + Depressed. The fun family-friendly combo for your soul. - College is stressful, FASFA is stressful, money problems are stressful, drama is stressful and my life is filled with all of those things as of late. Because fuck me amirite? So I’m very depressed a lot and annoyed and stressed and tired and I just want to sit around and do nothing all day because I can’t bring myself to do anything really these days unless I’m forced to by my parents or I REALLY put myself out there to talk. I’m just, in a rut I guess. Haven’t been able to draw or write or anything really. Trying to break that funk tho, rest assured for ya. It’s just annoyingly difficult because life likes to ruin me at every possible turn.

4. Other Blogs - This one is one of the many issues I have with organization, mostly because I’ve been spending a lot of time in the DBZ fandom on my very oddly specific crossover with Sonic the Hedgehog blog gone wrong gone fucking horrific. Some of y’all may have noticed I followed ya from that blog to your DangoRanpo blogs because not only am I crossover friendly WINK WINK but I also just like keeping an eye out for all my cool homies that I have made over in this fandom. Gonta has definitely taken a hit in activity, hell that boy may as well be in a coma or smth since I haven’t touched that blog in a while. I’m just bad, and kinda in a dead end in how I wanna write that blog tbh. I also currently have another DBZ blog, a Morrigan blog I forgot my email for like a dipshit, an Amy Rose blog in the works and other stuff because I have problems with staying in one fandom b/c my attention span is fucking garbage. Goldfish have better attention spans than me my god.

5. Groupie Verse for the Dank Soul. - A lot of the stuff on this list is very depressing, I know because it doesn’t help my mood in the slightest looking at the list of shit I have to do and it sucks lmao, but this one will be a very pleasant surprise to everyone!  Yuppers! I’m working on a group verse! It’s very barebones at the moment, as I’m currently working on rules/application stuff/basically how it would all work honestly, as well as if I should have multiple mods in it or not. Ya know, this meat and bones of an idea.  But all I wanna give out is that I like Exile Election a lot from what I’ve seen, and while it’s not perfect (RIP NO BARA’S AND WHERE IS MY LOCALIZATION? I AM ONE WET SPAGHETTI NOODLE ABOUT THIS) it certainly sells me on other badass ideas (YOU GET TO BE THE ANTI-HERO AND ACTIVELY TRY TO KILL JUST ABOUT EVERYONE YEEEHAAW!!! AND YOU GET TO PLAY AS A PROTAG THAT SEES SOUNDS WITH COLORS. HOW BITCHING IS THAT??? SUPER COOL IF YOU ASK ME T B H. DEFInITELY GUNNA WANNA RP AS ICHIJOU IN THE FUTURE ONCE I GET A TRUE GRASP OF HIS CHARACTER). SO IF YOU’RE MORBIDLY CURIOUS ABOUT HEARING WHAT I HAVE POSSIBLY IN STORE FOR THE BEST DR + ZE RIP-OFF OF 2017 THAN HIT ME UP ANY DIDDLY DAMN DAY OF THE WEEK AND I WILL SUPPLY.

6. Just Laziness Really. - When I’m not motivated by anything from the struggles and bullshit I deal with as of late I’m gunna admit I feel really fucking lazy and want nothing more than to write some gross shipping garbage with my lit fam and watch Youtube vids all day because I have bad time management and I don’t know how to handle my feelings well in the slightest. : { I also sometimes play League of Legends! Altho nore really anymore because I have like no time for it recently! So yeah! In which case, you can hit me up on my Discord! Although I may not always respond quickly, because life hates me. I’ll also be the slightest bit selective with WHOMST I reply to because effort man. Prolly should tell me who ya are btw, if ya wanna talk too. That way I don’t think you’re some kind of desktop stripper in disguise.

^^^ My amazing Discord. Draw that boy fresh in MS PAINT.

7. CONCLUSION. - So this is long and boring, because I’m lame like that.  Not even sure anyone will read this, but you assholes can’t say I didn’t tell ya anything if anyone asks then HA! GOTCHA GOOD COACH. BITE ME.  I’m bad at talking can you tell. I’m like trying to have a conversation with myself and I’m sucking shit man I don’t know how I’m going to get a fuckin job with my inability to speak well. BUT YEAH YA NOW KNOW WHY I HAVEN’T BEEN HERE AS OF LATE LIKE A SAD SACK.

Please don’t feel shy to hit me up in any way too! I’d love assistance for the Group Verse idea and ANY AND ALL help would be absolutely fuckin fantastic.  Love ya all, and I hope to hop back into writing soon.  Just gotta get that goo ol motivation back.