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thischickwritessometimes · 4 years ago

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MYSME RBB

Hey!! I joined my first ever collab this year for the Mystic Messenger fandom! It was totally awesome, and I lucked out and got someone super cool as my artist. Shout out to @thedum1, who was my partner for this. Go check out their amazing art that goes along with my writing, and give them some love. Without further ado, here’s the fic!

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Saeyoung decided that he’d been sitting in one place for far too long. His back was screaming in agony, his eyes were trying desperately to make the computer screen focus, and his head felt like it was stuffed full of cotton. All of those combined to make him feel miserable, like he was going to explode if he sat there for even one more minute.

He shut down his workstation, making sure that his work remained where it was, the computer encoded carefully to make sure that no one could get into it and change things. Of course, if someone was going to get in, they’d have to break through the security in his house, which wasn’t likely to happen. He’d just figured out the best password for his front gate, after all. As Saeyoung idly considered his password (and other possible future ones), he slid on his shoes and grabbed his jacket.

He stopped in the kitchen to grab a package of Honey Buddha Chips and then was off, heading into town on some form of a quest. The destination isn’t important, he tells himself, just the experience. He just needed some fresh air, a sight that wasn’t his computer screen (or, more recently, the wall slightly above and behind his computer), and perhaps a reminder that there were other humans in the world outside of himself and Vanderwood.

He hummed to himself as he walked, enjoying the sun on his skin and the sounds of birds and people talking. Couples were walking just about everywhere in the park, each chatting and laughing happily. Some younger kids were running around chasing each other. A dog sprinted past Saeyoung, chasing a stick that had just been thrown.

The dog reminded him of Elly. She always was willing to run around his feet happily as he played with her in Jumin’s apartment. He missed the white cat. It’d been far too long since he last saw her, and he mentally decided to schedule a time to break through his friend’s security to see the fluffy Persian again.

As he walked along, a flyer for a pet shop caught his eye. It was advertising a day to come play with the animals, both cats and dogs alike. As he stopped to read it more thoroughly, Saeyoung realized that if he headed to the shop right now he could get in at least an hour and a half with the cats (and maybe some dogs too). Now armed and ready with a plan of action, he set off with a purpose, striding quickly to the pet store.

As he neared it, he noticed that not many people were lingering around. Saeyoung realized that this must be one of the less popular pet shops and was sad to see that, especially because it looked very charming and quaint. As he pushed open the door, a bell above his head let out a quiet sound to alert an employee that someone had arrived.

Sure enough, a slightly frazzled-looking young man appeared. His hair was shaggy and black, long enough that it was falling into his eyes just slightly. The eyes in question were a stunning blue-green that Saeyoung wouldn’t mind looking into for a while. He tried to shake off that thought. He was here for cute cats, not cute people.

“How can I help you?” The guy asked, a small smile on his face.

“I’m here to play with the cats. I saw a flyer saying that you guys had free time for that?”

“Oh, of course! Right this way. I think there’s only one other person in there, so it shouldn’t be that much of a crowd. Feel free to use any of the toys out. And don’t worry, the only one that scratches is our resident sourpuss, Yoshi.” The employee opened the door carefully and Saeyoung peered in, amazed at all the cats running around or napping.

There was one girl sitting happily in the middle of the room, surrounded by cats. She had a dark skin tone and was wearing a pink skirt and what Saeyoung was pretty sure was a halter top. (How he knew that? Well, let’s just say that he had been considering one for cosplay for a long time.) When she turned to look at him, he spotted glasses and heterochromatic eyes. One brown, the other a bright blue.

She’s cute, was his first thought. It only amplified when he realized that her hair had a piece sticking up that looked to be meticulously formed into a heart like you would see on a lovesick anime girl. Her dedication spoke volumes and he knew that he would probably end up liking this girl if they talked.

He shook his head slightly. No, he couldn’t be thinking about that. Not today! He was here for cute cats, not cute girls or cute boys. His mind was set firmly on petting all the adorable creatures.

So he walked past the girl, giving her a faint smile. She returned it with a glowing one that practically lit up her entire face, and Saeyoung had to hide how his heart pattered at the sight. He focused his eyes on a particularly cute orange cat that was napping peacefully in a ray of sunlight.

As he reached out to pet it carefully, the cat responded by purring softly, like this was everything it could have dreamed of. However, after a while it tired of his antics and scratched softly at his hand in warning. He chuckled and pulled his hand away, letting the feline relax by itself. His eyes scanned the room for another willing friend and they snagged on a little black and white kitten.

It was pawing at a toy, obviously bored. Saeyoung crawled over carefully and picked up the toy, which appeared to be a feather on a string. He bounced it around, and the kitten started to paw at it. It got into the game, eventually leaping at it until it tired itself out.

Saeyoung made a “pspsps” noise, trying to attract the kitten to him. Its ears perked up and it headed over to his lap, where he petted it softly. The cat seemed like just the perfect companion, and if he could adopt a cat right now he would definitely consider this little guy as the one.

There was a quiet intake of breath over his shoulder, and Saeyoung looked back to see the girl gazing fondly at the kitten. As soon as she noticed his gaze, she colored, blushing slightly. “Ah! Sorry to bother you!”

“Oh, it’s not an issue,” he said, giving her a smile. “He’s a cute one, isn’t he?” He gestured to the kitten that had made itself comfortable in his lap.

“Yes, he really is. I must admit, I may have been looking at him the entire time… but I got a little nervous he wouldn’t like me.” She looked away, seemingly embarrassed.

“Well,” Saeyoung said, an idea coming to mind. “Let’s test that out, shall we?” With that, he scooped up the feline and plopped him directly in her lap. The cat seemed stunned at first, and Saeyoung worried that he would hiss and claw at the abrupt change. Instead, the cat sniffed at the girl and then settled in again, seemingly unconcerned by what had just happened.

“Oh,” the girl said, smiling. “He’s lovely.” Her hands went to softly pet him.

After a few minutes, she looked up. The cat was happily asleep in her lap, purring softly. She spoke again, her voice quiet so as to not disturb the kitten. “I’m sorry, I didn’t introduce myself. I’m Jasmine, but you can call me Jas. It’s good to meet you…”

She trailed off, searching for a name. Saeyoung smiled at her before giving her his fake name. “I’m Luciel. It’s good to meet you as well, Jas. It seems like you’ve got a way with cats, huh?”

“Well, I don’t know about that,” she said with a laugh. “I do love them though. Cats are some of the best animals, in my opinion.”

“You have a top-tier opinion then. I’m inclined to agree!”

“So I take it you’re a cat enthusiast as well, Luciel?”

“Yep,” he said, popping the ‘p’. “I have a friend who has a gorgeous cat and that’s kind of what kickstarted my love for them.”

“Have you ever considered getting one?” She cocked her head, but her hands never left the black and white kitten.

“I’d be lying if I said no. But my job is kind of crazy, and I can honestly say that I don’t think a cat would be good for me right now. Someday soon, hopefully. What about you?”

“I actually came here today hoping to adopt. I’ve been looking for a while but I never found one that I really loved. Well, until today. But I’m still not completely sure…”

“Well the little guy loves you, I can tell that much. And if I’m wrong, which is not very likely, let me tell you, he’s the kind of cat that will always be able to find a new home.” Saeyoung stretched and winked at her.

“Well in that case… I guess I’ll need a name for him, huh?” She looked down with a smile. “Got any good ones?” Jasmine’s heterochromatic eyes twinkled with a hidden glee when Saeyoung’s face lit up.

“Oh boy, do I! I’ve been saving up all sorts of names for this. Okay, there are the classics, like Fluffy, Batdude, Charles. Oh, and you can’t forget Toast!” His rambling list of (admittedly awful) cat names went on for a long time, leaving Jas halfway to tears with laughter as he continued. When he finally drew his list to a close, both of them had laughed so hard that the kitten had woken up and the employee had poked his head in to make sure that nothing bad was going on.

“Okay, okay,” Saeyoung said once he’d calmed down slightly, “any names catch your fancy?”

“I mean Fuzzbucket was a pretty good idea, but I think I decided on Tama.”

Saeyoung and Jas looked down at the same time to inspect the cat. The black and white kitten released a soft mewl and butted his head at Jas’ hand to request more pets. The two scheming partners in crime looked at each other and smiled.

“Tama is perfect.” They both said at the same time, then blushed and looked away. Saeyoung swore that when he looked at her cradling the tiny cat next to her chest she seemed to glow with happiness.

Soon enough the time to play with cats was over and the employee was putting the animals back in their cages and thanking them for coming to play with the cats. Jas told him about her interest in adopting Tama, and the employee got her the forms she would need to sign before she could take the kitten home. Saeyoung stayed with her as she filled the forms out, the both of them laughing and chatting the entire time. When all was said and done, Jas hoisted the carrier that held Tama up and exited the building, Saeyoung holding the door for her.

Jas scanned the street, then took a deep breath in, steeling her nerves. “I had a really good time today, Luciel. I was wondering if you’d like to do it again some...time?” She turned around to see the man gone. Her brows furrowed as she swiveled her head to see where he’d gone. “Luciel?”

Saeyoung, who had darted behind a pillar beside the pet store, let out a quiet sigh of disappointment. He gritted his teeth together when he heard Jas whisper sadly to Tama that “he must not have wanted to talk anymore, huh?”

He leaned his head against the pillar and stayed there until he heard the quiet clip-clop of her shoes walking away. Then he tore himself away from the pillar and walked towards home, hands shoved into his pockets, knowing that he would always remember the girl from the pet shop.

The sounds of music coming from a radio fill the kitchen. A black and white cat races around its owners’ feet as they try to dance. Laughter and pure contentment fill the air as the redhead twirls around the girl with one blue eye and one brown one.

Years ago, when I was younger, I kinda liked a girl I knew.

“Do you remember when we first met?” Jas asked, her skirt swinging wildly as Saeyoung spun her enthusiastically.

“How could I forget? That pet shop must be the most magical place on this Earth to me.”

She was mine, and we were sweethearts. That was then, but then it’s true.

“I was so upset when you disappeared, you know. I thought you’d gotten sick of me.”

“I was just as upset, trust me. But I thought I had to, because of the agency. And with Rika and the RFA… it just wasn’t a good time.” Saeyoung shook his head, but then pulled Jas closer to him as they waltzed across the floor.

I’m in love with a fairytale, even though it hurts. Cause I don’t care if I lose my mind, I’m already cursed.

“And then I showed up at Rika’s apartment a few weeks later. Crazy how fate works like that, huh?”

“Oh trust me, I was incredibly surprised to see you appear on the CCTV feed. If my life had a playlist of all the moments where I nearly fell out of my chair, that would definitely be on the top ten list.”

“I was just as shocked as you were, trust me! I had told myself that I would never see you again, but then there you were!” Jas shook her head. “I had half-convinced myself you were some figment of my imagination.”

Every day we started fighting, but every night we fell in love. No one else could make me sadder, but no one else could lift me high above.

“I feel bad that I tried to push you away while we were both in the apartment. It was hard for me because you were the thing that made me happy and also frustrated me to no end. After all, I was sure I would hurt you.”

“I wanted to punch you so much, I hope you know. I was at my wit’s end when you finally opened up a little bit!”

“But I did, and look at where we ended up. I opened up, got my brother back, and I got the privilege of having you in my life as my girlfriend and now fiancee.”

“I’m glad that it all worked out because there’s no one else I’d rather spend the rest of my days with.”

“The same goes to you, Jas.”

“I love you, Saeyoung Choi. Bad cat names and all.” Jas said as the music started to slowly die down.

“And I love you, Jasmine Luna, no matter how much time you spend in the bathroom doing your hair.” Saeyoung responded, dipping Jas as she let out a quiet squeal.

The two laughed and continued dancing late into the night, Tama observing from his perch high above.

I’m in love with a fairytale, even though it hurts. Cause I don’t care if I lose my mind, I’m already cursed.

And there’s the fic!! Reminder to check out the awesome @thedum1 for their amazing art!!

#mysme reverse big bang #mysme rbb #mystic messenger #saeyoung choi #jasmine luna #cmc #saeyoung choi x mc #thischickwrites #my fic

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alosyair · 4 years ago

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Ray Route After Ending in an unnecessary soap opera: a full on essay

This is going to be messy and unorganized because I’m writing this in one go, and also I’ve just received the same goddamn bad ending the third time in a row, so I’m very tired and very upset, but I guess that’s a feeling a lot of relate to right now. First of all, I need to say that I love mystic messenger with all my might, and I’ve been waiting patiently for this update for the past 3 years, but this is also why I have a lot to say about it.

So without further ado,

So when the after ending came out, just a little more than a week ago, I was ecstatic. I saw that it had 3 days of game play instead of the usual story mode pile, and I felt like the luckiest person ever. It was frustrating and stressful since the first chatrooms, sure, but for three days straight, nevertheless, I was having the goddamn time of my life.

I think there is this aspect to this after ending: it’s entertaining as hell because it’s weirdly comedic for what the plot of it is centered around. It has answer options that would fit for a sitcom, and Rika alone acts like a full-on cartoon villain. It’s confusing and bewildering, but on my first try it really helps get rid off some of the stress.

The alternate title for this post was actually: Too Much Rika, and Too Little Saeyoung. Too little of the entirety of RFA, really. I guess, in a way, it makes sense: it’s Saeran’s ending, his story, and, well, the other characters never really features in the original routes (minus Seven) at all. But it was still, honestly, too much Rika for my sanity to handle.

I would like to take a moment to talk about V. Because goddamn do I feel bad for him and all of you who had to endure this mistreatment through painful groans. I’ve never thought about his character deeply enough to be able to go into detail here but let me tell you that the moment I saw him in the very first AE story mode, with this suspicious little smile and weird dialogue, the word that initially crossed my mind was: brainwashed. Not himself. No way that same Jihyun Kim who has spent so much time and put himself in danger to get a brainwashed boy out of Rika’s grasp would not only help her get hold of him again, but bluntly betray every single one of his friends.

I saw a very good post right before the update came out; sadly, I can’t find it right now to credit, but the point of it was basically that V could have reunited with Rika because, lacking the knowledge of the route action, he thought that MC fixed Saeran. It made sense to me. I don’t think him trying to help her again is completely out of blue— but everything else that he does in this update is. The unfortunate “Could you please hide who you are?” said to Saeran is among the worst, contextually, lines in the game, and I honestly can’t believe it would come from V.

I would also like to mention that being told “that’s all I can tell you for now” for the entirety of the first day again? Annoying as hell.

There were quite a few things I genuinely enjoyed about the after ending. Vanderwood, Driver Kim, Chairman Han. I think the tying up parallel was a good touch, albeit painful— but aside from a quick moment of empty eyes, it wasn’t exactly touched upon. Rika’s “We both struggle to control ourselves by depending on the person that’s right next to us” was also about the only thing she said in these three days that I didn’t want to punch her for, considering all the sacrifice talk, and the fact that Saeran is still healing. And this brings me to the main cause of my frustration: day 4′s 2am bad end just doesn’t go along with the plot.

So I got it on my first try. I thought going along with Saeran’s plan would turn out well for us — it felt wrong to keep disagreeing with him — and I was sure Jumin would let me go back. I got the bad end at the time when I was convinced I was past all the game branch danger, and I was frustrated, but I said: fine. There’s another route of action I can take. I asked him to reconsider on my second try— and I got the same ending again; I’m really not sure what went wrong that time, and, considering I got no different result tonight either, I’m not sure if my game is bugged, or if I’m really that unlucky. But let’s think about that ending for a second.

Rika finds out everyone is leaving her, again, and goes berserk— in character, sure, especially considering how the bad endings usually are. But Saeran? He lets her talk down on him and just stays. He’s hurt, stressed out, traumatized, and the past 3 days have been very, very hard— but game-wise, this behavior doesn’t make sense to me? Whichever one of my routes actually triggers the ending, the point of those is either “I believe in you, I want to spend as much time as I can with you, and I’m coming back for you” or “There’s no way I’ll ever agree to live without you” (which, really, doesn’t mean anything— I’d understand the impact of these options better if the game branch happened before the run; but then again, I have no idea what the good end is like after that). I just don’t see Saeran — strong, grown up Saeran, who’s already told Rika off before — so easily giving in to her talk, not after everything he’s been saying just a chatroom before.

To conclude this, I think stretching the update into days of game play wasn’t exactly bad— it’s still fun, and I appreciate Cheritz for creativity, for making the answer options more challenging, even, and I really missed the feeling of being on the edge of my seat waiting for a chatroom to open; but it’s not an after ending. The decision to give several different endings to something that is already considered an ending sounds ridiculous enough on its own, but the fact that this is what follows after we’ve already worked hard on the route to get our deserved good ending? It just wasn’t the right place to put this much drama in.

So.

Here’s the best line uttered in the entire AE:

#mystic messenger #mystic messenger spoilers #ray route after ending #saeran choi #rika mysme #my post

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igotmysteriousmessages · 6 years ago

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Can I request the RFA+Minor Trio reacting when they find out that MC is actually still in highschool (17-15 y.o.) but only finding out at the party

Hi there!!

I mustadmit I debated quite a lot whether to take or not this request. It’s quite a lot outmy comfort zone but since I believe noneof them would take advantage of their MC after discovering this I decided Ishould give this a try… thought I must admit I felt quite uncomfortablewriting most of this because I’m around the age of the characters and duringthe days prior to the party they tell the MC things I would be scared/disgustedto know were told to a high school girl by someone my age.

They are ofcourse all platonic or a little romantic but always considering it as a futureoption.

Also Iwrote as they founding out about MC when they meet her on their respectiveroute (except for Vanderwood of course, for him I assumed something similar toSaeyoung’s but with more involvement of Vanderwood) rather that at the partysince the only ones that don’t meet her before the party are Yoosung andJaehee.

(Btw…if youplayed Dandelion you might get some Jieun’s route vibes because I love whatcheritz did there)

RFA+Vanderwood discover MC is still in High School

Yoosung

-Probablythe less surprised one.

-Also thesmallest age gap…4-5 years are a lot when you are on your early 20’s but not somuch when older.

-Still ablushy mess… he quickly remembers a few things he told you both in the chatroomand through phone calls that definitely weren’t ok. He apologizes a lot.

-Afterembarrassment dies out he doesn’t know how to talk to you…on one hand if hestarts treating you any different you may feel offended but on the other hecan’t keep treating you like you were his age.

-He is veryconflicted about his feelings for you so you two talk it out and decide to keepit at just friends at least for a few years.

-He ispretty ok with that settlement actually; it allows you to develop a long slowdeep thrusting relationship that you both know would eventually become romanticbut there is no rush for it… you guys are fine with things are they are.

Zen

-the exactopposite from Yoosung….Zen freaks out big time.

-He feelslike the worst human being in the world; how could he shamelessly flirt likethat with a young girl?

-He can’teven look at you into the eye.

-Big bro!zen mode: Activated

-He drivesaway every single guy that tries to get close to you, regardless if they areyour age or not. That includes himself…you’ll never catch him standing lessthan ½ meter away from you.

-During theyears to come he remains a fellow RFA and a good confident in case you arehaving problems…especially family problems. He makes sure you know that if youfind yourself in the need to run away like he had at your age his doors areopen.

-Also youmay want to be extra careful about being seen with him because you knowpaparazzi can be merciless and they may misinterpretate your relationship withZen.

Jaehee

-Sheseriously can’t believe her eyes. The girl that helped her pull her life togetheris just that, a girl.

-Since herroute is non-romantic she has less weight over her shoulders but she feels badfor burdening you with her problems.

-She stilloffers you to be business partner but she states she’ll take over till you tofinish your studies (both high school and college if you decide to do so) alsoif you want a part time job she needs the help.

-Also BigSis! Mode, she becomes the best adviser/role model/ confident/ emotionalsupport you can dream on. You know she is always there for you and that it’sinfinitely comforting.

-If yourrelationship evolves into something less platonic it won’t be till you are25-ish or something like that and even so she would be very doubtful.

Jumin

-Now it’swhen things get complicated….

-give him aglass of wine…scratch that give him a bottle.

-He wasn’texactly flirty with you in the chatroom but he knows he treated you like youwere his age, maybe a little younger but definitely not 11-13 years younger… hefeels awful.

-He mayhave pushed out his life entirely if it wasn’t for the situation you two metin.

-It waslate when you showed up at his house (it wasn’t Jaehee’s fault she didn’t knoweither) and it was way too dangerous to send you back to the apartment…he couldsend you home… wait a second…you’ve been staying at the apartment for days, doyour parents even know what you’ve been up to? Have you been missing school? Whyin the world did you follow Unknown in the first place?

-theinterrogation lasts what feels like ages. When he finally calms down you are a little annoyed and he apologizes forbeing so harsh but as the situation is so dangerous he offers you a room forthe night and to take you home in the morning.

-He remainsvery protective of you on the years to come but he ends up deciding that whathe felt for you at the beginning wasn’t love. He just cares for you as a fellowRFA member.

-Heprobably won’t question those feelings again till you are 26-27 y/o. and evenif he does it would be very difficult for him.

Saeyoung

-He is amess, like more than usual.

-He feelsawful that such a young girl gets involved in all the problem with Mint Eye.

-Hisprotective instinct kick in.

-It’s alsopainful…you are about the same age Saeran was on those photos he has…too youngto be going through so much pain.

-He pushesyou away with even more decision than in his route, you should be happy leadingthe normal life of a school girl, not worrying about the him and the mess ofhis life…also when he comes around and decides to put his faith in you he feelseven guiltier to burden you with his life story and to rely that way in theperson he should be protecting.

-Aftereverything gets resolved he distances himself a little, I mean he’d always beavailable to answer your calls and help with any problem you may have (anything…from“I had a fight with my friend and I need somebody to listen” to “Can you hackmy school’s system to make pass sports class?” and even “I argued with myparents and ran away, can I stay with you?”) but otherwise you wouldn’t see himmuch.

-Same asfor Yoosung, the age gap isn’t huge so I can see having no problems falling inlove with you after you reach adulthood and he puts his life in order.

Jihyun

-What thefuck did Rika do this time?

-The firsttime he sees you talking with Ray at Mint Eye he can’t believe his eyes…I meanhe is barely able to see but he is sure you are High school student, definitelyyou have nothing to be doing at that place.

-He feelseven guiltier than he is in his route. You are far too young to be involved withMint Eye let alone comforting him and helping him solve his problems.

-Tbhbesides that I don’t see much difference with his route because with all theshit going on there is not much flirting on his side on his route, if somethingis usually MC who shows affection to V.

-If the MCshows any romantic feelings for him he’d kindly remind them that he is too oldfor them but of course he’d be so sweet about it that you’d barely feelrejected.

-Same asfor Jumin, it’d take a lot of years for him to develop romantic feelings foryou

Saeran

-In allhonesty the first thing he felt upon seeing you in person was pity.

-You arearound the same age he was when he had been brought to mint eye, so young andinnocent and full of hope in this cruel world –insert more Mint Eye bulshit here-

-As Ray hetreats you as a fragile princess and pampers you big time.

-AsDark!Saeran he is even crueler because he sees himself in you; the way in whichyou claim Ray will come back and how you refuse to give up on him reminds himtoo much of how he used to claim his brother would come rescue him.

-once heregains control over himself he can’t believe how someone so young can be sostrong… he is also very ashamed of the way he treated you both as Ray andSaeran.

-He’d bevery doubtful of how to treat you on the first few days after escaping mint eyebut in the end I don’t see the age being a huge problem for him… he’d be reallyrespectful of both you as a person and of your age, also if you show romanticfeelings for him he’d be pretty clear that you are too young and he is toounstable for a relationship yet.

-But the bond formed during the time you spendin mint eye is strong; with time he starts understanding his feelings, you bothmature more and I can see him still falling for you a few years later.

Vanderwood

-What thefuck did 707 do this time?

-Like thesituation wasn’t bad enough; that “harmless” fundraising association of Seventurned out to be a bigger mess than their agency, his partner’s long lostbrother came back to destroy him and everybody associated to him and of top ofthat they have work to do if they didn’t want the agency to dispose of them. Hehad so many worries in the meantime, so when he met the RFA’s newest member? Itwas just too much.

-He took alook at you, lit a cigarette, took 2 deep breaths and then turned the cigaretteoff because he was in front of a minor.

-He takes itup to him to keep you safe from the crazy situation you are in.

-He talksto you about how dangerous is to take orders from an stranger in your phone, heteaches you self-defense techniques and is around you all time till the problemwith Mint eye gets solved.

-He won’tbe patircularly nice to you and his presence is always rather intimidating buthe does his best to not scare you more than you already are.

-He’d alsocontact your parents and school to give them a believable excuse of yourdisappearance so to no light up any alarms.

-If Zen andJaehee become your older siblings this man goes a step further, his yourofficial new dad.

#mystic messenger #mysme #Yoosung Kim #Hyun Ryu #Jaehee Kang #Jumin Han #Saeyoung Choi #Jihyun Kim #Saeran Choi #Vanderwood #...does anyone else get tired writing also these tags?#mysme headcanon #mysme hc

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leoandnemmie-blog · 7 years ago

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hi! i love your account ^^ i was wondering if i could group reacting to an MC who has health conditions (like i have a heart condition) that makes her weak or unable to do a lot of physical activities? i would just love to see how they would react to her.

I remember you! You sent me a match up like… A month ago? And if memory serves correctly, I paired you with Jumin! You sound awesome. I hope your heart condition isn’t too bad…

I did RFA separately and a group one including RFA and Minor Trio, the group one will be under the cut.

No, hun. You don’t love my account, I love you. ;D It was D E S T I N Y. How does this make sense, wtf Leo.

OK… I’m sorry, I’ll write now… ^^;; ~Leo

Yoosung Kim:

You were diagnosed with arthritis when you were a child, Oligo-articular JIA to be specific.

You thought you were going to get better in a few years but you were one of the unlucky people who had it for a long time.

You didn’t feel the need to mention it to Yoosung because it never came up.

Besides, it barely affected you at this point. You always managed to get through the day.

But this one was different…

You were walking home with Yoosung and your legs were hurting quite a bit.

You were lagging behind a bit so Yoosung asked you if something was wrong and you simply brushed it off as you being tired.

He then bought up the childish concept of having a race to a nearby tree in attempt to make you less tired somehow.

Not wanting to let him down, you accepted.

You were ahead of him but halfway through you felt the pain in your leg and it was unbearable.

You yelped out in pain and Yoosung stopped, crouching down to see what had happened.

He was confused for a moment before you explained that nothing had really happened. You told him about your arthritis and how you were getting surgery next month for it.

He helps you out before your surgery a lot, even to the point when it’s sometimes unbearable.

He’s still a bit overprotective after the surgery.

But you know he means well.

Zen / Hyun Ryu:

You had been suffering from back pains from time to time over the past 2 weeks.

You had been diagnosed with sciatica when you went to physiotherapist.

You didn’t feel the need to tell Zen because they told you that it would be over in a less than a year and not to worry too much.

This one time you were watching one of Zen’s musicals and when you stood up to clap, you felt a sharp pain run down your back and you immediately sat back down.

You quickly register the concern on his face and he steps of stage and asks you what’s going on.

“She’s pregnant, isn’t she? Not that far along from the looks of it… Maybe she’s one of those people who have a small bump. Anyways, it’s probably just a contraction, don’t worry too much Zen.” Someone from the audience spoke loudly.

“Jagiya, w-what?” His face was fixed in an expression of surprise

“Zen, I’m not pregnant.”

You told him you’d explain on the way home and when you were feeling a bit better you were both on your way.

After you told him he face palmed and began apologising since he wasn’t there for you.

But you tell him it’s OK, you didn’t tell him which made it your fault.

He sorts out an exercise routine with you physiotherapist and makes sure that you get better quicker.

Thanks to him, your recovery is completed 2 months earlier than expected.

Jaehee Kang:

Come on, let’s be real here. She’s the one who had an idea of what was going on before you did.

Symptoms of high blood pressure are practically unnoticeable Like me

You were amazed when she suspects it though.

She forces you to go take a blood test and it turns out she was right.

Immediately begins taking MUCH more care of your health.

She makes sure that your food isn’t too salty.

Gets rid of most of the alcohol in the house.

Begins to make you herbal tea instead of coffee because caffeine is not good for you right now!

If you smoke, she’ll gradually get you to quit.

She won’t make you go cold turkey out of nowhere though.

Also makes you sleep a lot more.

Ty mama Jaehee.

She’ll get you to exercise with her, will even invite Zen to exercise with the two of you sometimes.

She’s also on top of your medication, not in that way, she knows exactly what time to give you which set of pills and whether or not you’ve taken them if she isn’t around.

She’s so glad when your health begins to improve.

She honestly doesn’t know what she’d do without you.

Jumin Han:

You noticed around 2 months ago that your heartbeat would skyrocket out of nowhere sometimes.

You would get dizzy sometimes and you didn’t know why.

Jumin would ask you if you were alright and you would just tell him you were dehydrated or tired.

You got Jaehee to book you a doctors appointment, you didn’t tell Jumin because you thought that it was something minor and not something he should be concerned with.

He was even more concerned when Jaehee told him instead of you.

Would’ve got driver Kim to drive him to the hospital if he didn’t have so much work.

The second he walks into the penthouse the two of you share, he demands answers.

You murmur out that you were diagnosed with atrial fibrillation.

He doesn’t quite know what that is, so you tell him that it’s a form of arrhythmia.

All signs of anger leave his face as he wraps his arms around you and offers words of consolation.

He tells you that no matter what he’ll love you and it’s true.

Will keep up to date with your medication.

Makes someone keep track of whether or not you take them.

Will do and does do anything in his power to make you feel healthy again.

Anything for you.

707 / Luciel / Saeyoung:

You were diagnosed with hypoglycemia.

You went to the doctor’s a week ago and somehow Saeran had gotten wind of it and mentioned it to his twin in a conversation since he presumed that he knew.

Lol. No.

Immediately hacks your medical records. Do not try this at home kids

You’re honestly not surprised, he was bound to have found out one day, you just hoped it wouldn’t have been this way.

You tried explaining but he simply raised up a finger to silence you.

For a moment you were scared that there was gonna be an argument.

But he just tells you that it’s gonna be alright, that he’s there for you and that no matter what he’ll always love you.

He comes to your appointments unless something comes up. Even if he is forced to wait outside he waits.

Always gets the right medication for you and remembers what time to give it to you.

Heck, he even managed to make a cat robot tell you when it’s time to take your medicine again.

He’d do anything and everything to make you better again.

Group:

The entire RFA was holding a fundraiser.

All of you had to run at least 100m.

You thought you could manage that but apparently not.

You had damaged a part of your cuneiform a few weeks ago and the doctor told you it would take at least 4 months to heal.

They also told you that you shouldn’t walk too much, forget running.

When the race began you were fine.

But 50m in you felt too much pain in your foot and practically screamed in pain as you fell down.

The race promptly stopped and in a flash V was in front of you, asking if you were alright.

You nod your head but the Jaehee steps out of the crowd, asking if anyone nearby was a medic.

Seven pushed his glasses up and asked Vanderwood to come forth.

Vanderwood groaned as he came forward, claiming to only know a bit of first aid.

More than enough for this though.

He gets Yoosung to grab a first aid kit and Jumin skillfully calls an ambulance.

You can also see Zen try to calm everyone down and progress with the event alongside Jaehee.

It wasn’t really going great since Saeran kept yelling...

“WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU GUYS DO TO MC!?”

V attempted to calm him down.

Oops. Wrong guy for the job.

It takes Seven promising to get him some ice cream for him to calm down a little.

Once you’re at the hospital you get told that you need to stay there for a day minimum.

Everyone visits you, including Vanderwood at some point claiming that Seven forced him go.

Lol. We know he did it out of the goodness of his heart.

Yoosung comes along with Zen and you end up playing board games with them and they tell you about their days.

Jumin also comes, most of the time for short visits, and tells you what the doctor told him and what his new ideas for C&R are. He’ll ask you for your opinions too and tries to get your mind off of the pain.

V comes and shows you some of his new photographs, he gets you a drawing pad and some pencils so that you can draw.

Jaehee tells you little tips about how to keep yourself better.

Even after you’re let out of the hospital, they’ll constantly ask you how your doing and visit more often.

Honestly, with their help you became better so much quicker than you thought you would’ve.

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mysticdrabbles · 7 years ago

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could I ask for an imagine in that RFA+ V and Saeran find out that their s/o hates coffee and loves tea? they drink it like. every night and enjoys trying new flavors ! ( also, just sayin my fave ,,, is yoosung and i love oolong tea js sayin i hope that’s not pushy and i hope ur having a good day your writing is really good and imma go now thank u for ur time ) - petra

I strongly relate to this. Down with coffee, vive le thé! Be as pushy as you like, I don’t mind! ^^ And to all of my lovely followers feel free to include details and specifics if you’d like, they are requests I’m filling for you, after all E>

Zen:

Zen can appreciate a good cup of coffee.

He sometimes drinks a cup in the morning if he needs a pick me up.

He tries not to drink too much of it though. He needs to be nice and hydrated to perform well so he tries to drink mostly water.

And beer but we don’t talk about that

He also likes tea though!

Mostly at night. It’s relaxing to sit down and sip a nice, warm cup of tea before bed.

He only has two kinds of tea.

He has a cheap green tea, because of all the ~health benefits~.

And he has some chamomile for when he’s stressed.

(He’s trying to turn to it instead of going to alcohol so often.)

Which means you get to introduce him to all your new fancy teas!

He’s always happy to try new things with you.

Yoosung:

Yoosung is bragging to you one day about his coffee knowledge

(“I was in a coffee club, you know!” he tells you, puffing up his chest.)

He knows how to make latte art!

Well, sort of. The word “art” is debatable, but he can make some pretty shapes.

He can make one for you sometime!

You almost don’t want to rain on his parade.

You do it anyways though. You gotta.

You tell him you have actual taste buds that like real flavours not that bitter burnt tasting crap don’t like coffee and he droops.

…Oh.

You do like tea though.

Oh!

(He’s still a little disappointed about the coffee thing.

How is he supposed to impress you now? T_T)

He doesn’t drink a lot of tea coffee’s cheaper but he’ll make sure to keep some around the house for you! ^^

He also stops by the tea section every time he goes grocery shopping to see what they have.

Whenever there’s something new on sale he buys it right away.

He wants to have a variety at his place for you to try!

It’s also a good excuse for you to come over more often.

One time he found a new brand of oolong tea he’d never seen before. It was almost ten thousand won.

(That’s about ten whole dollars.)

But it’s new and it’s fancy and he’s sure you’d like it.

(He’ll just put the eggs back. He doesn’t need eggs this month. He’ll be fine.)

He’s basically financially supporting your obsession now

He just wants to make you happy okay

Jaehee:

It’s no secret that Jaehee likes coffee.

I mean, Jaehee really likes coffee

And she really likes you too, so she wants to share her interest with you.

When she finds out you don’t like coffee though, she tries to cut back on talking to you about it.

You have to reassure her that of course you still support her passion even though you don’t share it!

Talk coffee to me baby~

You two can still bond over your obsession with drinking hot, (sometimes) caffeinated beverages, even though they’re different drinks!

And she does like tea as well.

She mostly drinks it at night, on days she doesn’t have to pull an all-nighter for work.

She’ll make you tea lattes so you can still experience the joys of latte art!

Jumin:

Oh boy are you in luck.

Jumin also enjoys tea.

(It’s his second favourite drink, after wine, of course.)

And when Jumin loves something that means he becomes obsessive an expert in it.

He knows where to get the best brands for each type of tea.

(Do you prefer light or dark oolong tea, he asks you. He personally prefers dark, but if you like light there’s a specific kind he’s read wonderful reviews of that he can get imported for you.)

He also has memorized perfect amount of time to brew any type of tea, down to the exact second.

He personally prefers his tea black, but if you like anything in yours you can guarantee he’ll remember and get it perfect every time.

He also really likes reading which teas pair best with specific foods.

(Did you know oolong tea pairs well with pancakes?

He does.

It works well since it’s one of the few things he knows how to cook himself.)

Seven:

He will drink anything that gives him the energy to work all night

His caffeinated drink of choice is Dr. Pepper, of course.

Even though it has less caffeine than coffee. That just means he has to drink more of it!

For every cup of coffee Jaehee drinks, he has to drink 3.465 cups of PhD. Pepper.

Yes he did the math

If he really needs the caffeine he can just drink Red Bull Bear

(It’s his favourite because of the potential for “Red Bull Bear gives you wings” jokes)

He’s not the biggest fan of tea?

He’s sowwy >.

He’ll drink it if he has to. Like with coffee, he has to add enough sugar to mask the bitterness though.

But he likes feeling included so when you’re drinking your tea

He pours PhD Pepper into a pretty floral tea cup to drink with you.

He just sits there with you slowly sipping it. Pinky out, of course.

He’s grinning the entire time.

Saeran:

Please do not give the anxious fluff ball anything with caffeine

The first time he drank it his heart sped up and he felt shaky and sick and he thought he was going to die.

He also hates the taste of coffee? It’s too bitter.

And if he wanted something hot and sweet why would he bother trying to drown the bitter gross drink in sugar to make it tolerable when he could just drink something that actually tastes good, like hot chocolate?

And if he needs the caffeine to help him stay awake all night, he can just take caffeine pills for the Convenience™

(Even back in Mint Eye, the caffeine made him anxious and miserable and shaky but it kept him from falling asleep, so)

Now that he’s learning he doesn’t have to suffer and do things that make him miserable, he avoids caffeine altogether.

Tea, though, tea is nice. (Herbal teas, at least.)

Tea doesn’t try to kill you

His favourites are anything fruity and naturally sweet.

He’s open to trying new kinds though. You guys can share your favourites!

If you really want to make him happy, invite him over for tea.

It’s such a stereotypically “normal” thing, in his mind. He’s never been over to someone’s place for tea. He’d love it.

All he wants is a fancy tea party with little cakes just let him have a tea party please

V doesn’t have a strong opinion on tea vs coffee?

(Though if he had to choose between the two, he would probably choose tea too. It’s more… relaxing?)

But when he finds out you like it, you can guarantee he will support you.

Both emotionally and financially.

Sometimes he chooses to drink wine instead of tea, but he always tries to sit down and drink with you at least once during the day.

(You can make him put his wine in a teacup so you can pretend you’re having a tea party)

And he will buy you all the teas you want. And more.

Seriously, this boy is loaded with both money and with adoration for you. You are going to have so many fancy teas.

You’re going to need entire cupboards for the amount of tea this man will buy you I’m not even kidding.

Vanderwood:

They like their coffee like their soul: dark and bitter.

…But tea’s nice too.

They’ll drink pretty much anything you put in their hands tbh?

(As long as Seven is nowhere nearby. They pay very close attention to what they’re drinking when he’s there.)

(Don’t ask.)

They’ve never really thought too much about things like their preferred flavour of tea, honestly?

They never really had time to stop and think about things like that.

Now that they’re in a place where they can relax and enjoy life more, they like taking time and paying close attention to the details of flavours.

Their favourite so far is lapsang souchong. There’s something they like about that smoky taste.

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sage-nebula · 7 years ago

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Why do you think that Saeran didn't have DID in the Original Story?

I apologize in advance if this isn’t exactly coherent; it’s late, and so my thoughts might be a bit all over the place.

I don’t think Saeran had DID in Original Story because there are absolutely no signs of it.

I’ve played the Original Story—and in specific, Saeyoung’s Route, into which I include the Secret Endings since they’re a continuation of his route—enough times that I have a good number of the chats memorized, and so that I don’t even have to read the guest e-mails before knowing what the correct answer choices are. I’ve gone through them non-linearly (as in, going into the history / Secret Endings out of order to look over things withotu actually playing through them) even more times. Saeyoung is my favorite character, but it’s because he’s my favorite character that I’ve spent a lot of time paying attention to and studying those that are important to him. Namely, this means both Saeran and Vanderwood.

As a result of this, I’m really familiar with who Saeran is in the Original Story, and I say with confidence that we never saw signs of DID in the Original Story. Due to the fact that we never saw signs of it, and also due to the fact that DID makes romancing him possible (more on that in a second), I feel confident in saying that Saeran was not originally conceptualized to have DID, but rather, this is something that Cheritz “retconned” (if you truly consider Another Story to be in the same universe as Original Story, rather than an AU, which I personally don’t but ymmv) onto him in order to make romancing him possible.

What I mean by that is … think back to the Saeran that we see in Original Story. Think about everything he does: How threatening he is, how he actually assaults and tortures in Bad Endings, how his grasp on emotional regulation is so poor that the slighest thing can make him grow violent in the Secret Endings (which is a defense mechanism, absolutely, but it still speaks to poor emotional regulation). How possible do you really think striking up a romantic relationship with someone in that state is, both from the standpoint of actually being able to build a healthy romantic relationship with them, and from the standpoint of wanting to? Yes, there are of course people who ate up things like the Bad Ending in the Christmas DLC where he takes MC away to dress her up like a doll, or those who liked the idea of Saeran whisking MC away in the prologue Bad Ending to make her his assistant, but for the most part Cheritz probably realized that the average player wouldn’t want to romance Saeran with the way he behaved in Original Story (and also, if they knew their own character, wouldn’t be able to romance him even if they did want to). The trauma-ridden young man that we see simply wasn’t attractive or available, from a personality standpoint, in the same way the other characters are. Which, again, isn’t to say that he didn’t have his fans, because he very clearly did, but they were far fewer in number before Another Story released.

So with that said, if Cheritz wanted to create a route for Saeran (and after seeing that there was at least some fan demand for it, they did, because they wanted that sweet dolla dolla), they knew they had to solve the problem of Saeran’s lack of attractiveness / lack of availability. There is simply no conceivable way to write him as a romance option in Original Story. It cannot be done. But in an alternate universe, they have a little more wiggle room, because they can change and alter things as they pleased. Since they were already going to do this for V (though I maintain this wasn’t necessary, and that V could have easily been a Deep Story option), they decided to do the same for Saeran. However, I think they recognized that this was still a risk. Thus, while they “retconned” DID onto him and created the much more attractive and available “Ray,” they didn’t release his route immediately. Instead, they tested the waters by seeing how fans would react to him in V’s Route. I do think that Saeran’s Route was still planned from the get-go (hence those magenta hearts), but Cheritz, being an indie company, likely didn’t want to spend the money until they were sure fans would buy it (which is a smart move). Hence, they tested the waters with “Ray,” and when they saw that the fanbase was foaming at the mouth over “Ray” to the point of virtually ignoring V despite the fact that it was his route, they gave Saeran’s Route the greenlight and moved forward with it.

So with that said, let’s look back at Original Story. As I said, there is nothing in Original Story to point toward the idea that he has DID. I mean, think about it: If there was an insinuation that he had DID in Original Story, don’t you think people would have brought it up? That people would have mentioned it? It’s one thing for people to look back on Original Story now and try to twist things to see his DID through the lens of “well, he had it in Another Story, so let’s try to find it in Original Story,” but it’s another thing altogether to take a fandom that had played this game fairly obsessively for over a year and have them completely miss any hints of multiple personalities residing within one of the more important characters to the central story before the idea is suddenly shoved to the forefront in an AU. The idea that “well, we just didn’t have enough focus on Saeran before!” is nonsense, because Secret Ending 02 is pretty much entirely from his point of view, and DID is never mentioned nor brought up. He never mentions having other personalities. The closest we get to any of this in the Secret Endings are the moments where he’s conflicted over whether Saeyoung abandoned him or not, and he’s “arguing” with himself, but fam, I argue with myself all the damn time, and I don’t have DID. Unlike in Another Story, where Saeran explicitly mentions one of his personalities “telling” him things, that’s not the case with the internal struggles he has over Saeyoung in the Secret Endings. Instead, it’s literally Saeran warring with himself over what he actually believes and what he wants to believe, both of which bleed together because he’s in a mental state where he doesn’t even know what he wants anymore. But the point I’m trying to make here is that his internal struggles are not a conclusive sign of DID. They’re not. If they were, far more people would have been talking about Saeran’s DID prior to the release of Another Story, and I never saw a single person mention it. Not even once.

Speaking of people not talking about it, there’s also the Free Talk that his voice actor had following Secret Ending 02 (which, again, was dedicated to Saeran and was largely from his point of view). Saeran’s voice actor does mention a mental illness when talking about how he voiced Saeran, but DID is not the mental illness mentioned. Instead:

As a brief side note before I continue: When I mentioned above that Saeran as we see him in the Original Story is not romanceable, I DID NOT AT ALL MEAN TO IMPLY that people with BPD are not romanceable. So please, please, do not think I was trying to say that. There are so many people with BPD who are in loving, healthy relationships, even if they have their hard days. One of my dearest friends has BPD, and she’s one of the sweetest people I have ever met, and is definitely deserving of love. So please, please don’t think that I was trying to say, “Well, he has BPD, so he’s not attractive or available,” because that isn’t at all what I meant. I was referring strictly to his behavior and his actions (which, yes, are a result of his trauma, but as he recovers he’ll get better, and much later on down the line, he might be in a place where he can healthily pursue a romance with someone).

That side note out of the way …

As you can see above, Saeran’s voice actor specifically says that he thinks Saeran has borderline personality disorder in Original Story. If Saeran was meant to have DID in Original Story, surely that is information that Cheritz would have conveyed to his voice actor. I mean, why wouldn’t they? It would inform how he acted, particularly when you consider those moments I mentioned above where Saeran wars with himself. If those instances were supposed to be demonstrations of two personalities battling it out, then that would be something that Saeran’s voice actor would mention in the free talk. He would mention Saeran having multiple personalities. But he doesn’t; not only does he mention BPD, as shown above, but he also consistently refers to Saeran as having one (1) personality:

He mentions Saeran developing a personality (i.e. developing a certain way as an individual) in Original Story, rather than Saeran creating multiple personalities as a result of his trauma. And you know, it makes sense; as I’ve written before, Saeran demonstrates symptoms of C-PTSD in Original Story, and the thing about C-PTSD is that it can often be confused with BPD because the two share a lot in common, to the point where C-PTSD is often classified as a personality disorder because of the way it shapes the way a person grows and learns to view and interact with the world (something I know from personal experience). In fact, as a bit of personal anecdotal evidence, I actually sought out my therapist because she specialized in BPD, and after reading a lot about BPD online, I thought I had it. When I went to see her, though, and she examined me, she concluded that I do not have BPD, but that I instead have C-PTSD, and was getting the two confused (which, again, is understandable because the two have a lot of symptoms in common). So it makes sense that Saeran’s voice actor would specifically refer to his trauma leading him to grow into the person that he has in Original Story, because that absolutely happens in real life, all the time. And while it’s true that trauma can also result in dissociation that results in DID (in fact, if the research I did provided me with correct information, most—if not all—cases of DID stem from trauma), I don’t believe that Saeran’s voice actor was trying to say that Saeran developed DID from his trauma. Rather, he was referring to the way that Saeran’s trauma shaped his personality as he grew, which is absolutely a descriptor of C-PTSD (again, coming from someone who has it as a result of childhood / adolescent trauma).

Lastly, as I mentioned (and talk about in the post I linked), what Saeran does demonstrate signs and symptoms of in Original Story is C-PTSD, not DID. (I know that his voice actor says BPD, but again, they share a lot in common, and C-PTSD isn’t very widely known, I don’t think.) And he actually displays these symptoms in such a real way that I found myself aching with empathy for him in the Secret Endings. As I’ve mentioned before, the way my C-PTSD has developed is far closer to Saeyoung’s, so I find Saeyoung to be a more relatable character; however, Saeran’s C-PTSD was still achingly real, particularly once we actually get to enter his point of view and we see that he’s actually terrified and vulnerable beneath the defensive aggression he throws up to push others away. We see flashbacks to his childhood, and his musings on his childhood, where he tells us (or thinks about in such a way that it feels like he’s telling us) how he was actually always pessimistic in childhood, and believed that there wasn’t really any hope of escaping their mother’s home, but that Saeyoung’s optimism gave him a few shreds of that hope anyway. We see how he thinks about how he has always loved staring at the sky, and how he just wishes that he could stare at clouds forever. We see him express fear over Saeyoung abandoning him, even as he at the same time wants Saeyoung to leave. We see him awkward, unsure, and vulnerable around the RFA, even as they accept him. We see him still visibly hurting from his trauma, because recovery is not an easy or painless process, but we also see that he is still the same Saeran he always was, ever since childhood, just very, very wounded, but not beyond healing.

What I’m trying to get at here is that I agree with his voice actor. Saeran was a fully realized character in Original Story, and was an extremely believable trauma survivor. Extremely. He’s one of the best written trauma survivors that I’ve seen in recent media. And to see Cheritz strip that away, retcon DID onto him so that he could be more appealing to their audience (because again, while Saeran had his fans before, that was nothing compared to the screeching over “Ray” that began as soon as Another Story released), and then say that he was magically all healed up in less than eleven days is … extremely disappointing to me. No offense to those who like it, but I’m not at all a fan, especially since it seems pretty obvious to me that it was done in order to make him more palatable to players, rather than because it was something that would actually benefit his character to include. (And honestly, Cheritz trying to wink-wink-nudge-nudge the audience by having Saeyoung mention how cliché it is in a chat isn’t cute. You don’t get to escape criticism for bad writing by acknowledging and laughing at the fact that it’s bad writing. It doesn’t work like that.)

So tl;dr, that is why I’m confident that DID was never part of Saeran’s character in Original Story. There were no signs of it, his voice actor clearly had no clue that it was supposed to be a thing (because as I said, if he did, he would have talked about that instead of BPD), and Saeran instead does show practically every single sign and symptom of C-PTSD. Another Story Saeran has DID, but Original Story Saeran doesn’t, and while everyone is entitled to have their own opinions on which portrayal of Saeran they prefer (and I won’t tell anyone otherwise, nor do I want to fight about it), I know which one I’m a fan of, and it’s not the one that Cheritz introduced in September of 2017.

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zennyshoneybunch · 7 years ago

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Mystically Destined - The Musical (Chapter 7 - Wicked Feelings)

- Girl! Get up, Mr. Han and The Mystic Boys are on TV!

Lucy erupted through Lizzy’s room like a tornado, her voice too high pinched and fast for so early in the morning. Lizzy heard her turn on the TV, but her response consisted in a very disinterested “Hm-hm.”, followed by a thug on the covers to hide her head.

- What? Now that you’re friends with them you don’t get excited anymore? You’re the worst friend you know? You’re all friendy-friendy with these gorgeous guys and you don’t even take the opportunity to introduce me.

- Luce, please, I barely slept all night, can we talk later?

Lizzy felt her friend sitting on the bed next to her.

- Liz, did something happen last night? Did Jihyun hurt you again? Because, girl I’m telling you, if he did I’ll march down to that pub today and I will actually cut his damn ball-

- Lucy! For the love of God. Nothing happened I was just not sleepy… until now! Now I’m really, really sleepy please!

- Fine. I have an appointment in twenty minutes anyway. But we will talk about this again sleepyhead.

Lucy uncovered Lizzy’s head just enough to plant a small kiss and left her room. The girl kept her eyes closed but she knew she couldn’t drift back to sleep now, not after all the noise and Jihyun talking. Now her thoughts were all filled with her former boyfriend and his fiancé all over again, just like in the night before.

Making peace with the fact that she was wide awake, Lizzy pushed the covers down and rubbed her eyes.

Lizzy ~ “What's the time? Seems it's already morning.”

She looked at the opened up window, the one she forgot to close before laying on the bed.

Lizzy ~ “I see the sky, it's so beautiful and blue.”

Forcing herself up, she walked to her desk were the TV was still on. Lucy was right, the boys were there giving an interview and Jihyun was the one with the close up, speaking with that mature and soft look of his.

Lizzy ~ “The TV's on but the only thing showing is a picture of you.”

Half way across the city, Jihyun was getting out of bed and heading to the kitchen. His face and messed up hair a solid proof of the rough night he had.

Jihyun ~ “Oh, I get up and make myself some coffee.”

He sat by the kitchen island setting the mug down and grabbing one of the newspapers the maid must have left.

Jihyun ~ “I try to read a bit but the story's too thin.”

Placing the newspaper down again he mussed up his already disheveled hair.

Jihyun ~ “I thank the lord above, you're not here to see me, in this shape I'm in.”

Lizzy turned the TV off and moved to the kitchen. Jihyun left his coffee untouched and headed to the room again.

Lizzy & Jihyun ~ “Spending my time. Watching the days go by. Feeling so small, I stare at the wall, hoping that you think of me too. I'm spending my time.”

She took an apple from the fruit bowl only to put it back in its place again. She didn’t really had an appetite.

Lizzy ~ “My *friend keeps telling me, "Hey, life will go on."

He sunk down on the bed, hands holding his head.

Jihyun ~ “Time will make sure I'll get over you, oh!”

They both ran a hand through the hair, pulling it back.

Lizzy & Jihyun ~ “This silly game of love you play, you win only to lose.”

Lizzy ~ “Ohohohhhh.”

Jihyun got up from the bed and moved to the window. He could see the east side of the big park extending right in front of the apartment.

Lizzy walked to the kitchen window. There she could also see a part of the park, only it was the west side of it.

Jihyun ~ “I'm spending my time.”

Lizzy ~ “Spending my time.”

Jihyun ~ “Watching the days go by.”

Lizzy ~ “Feeling so small, I stare at the wall.”

Jihyun pressed his hand against the window’s glass.

Jihyun ~ “Hoping that you think of me too.”

They both walked away from the windows, walking to their respective bathrooms.

Lizzy ~ “I'm spending my time.

Jihyun ~ “Spending my time.”

Looking into the bathroom mirrors all they could see was the face of the other reflected in it.

Lizzy ~ “I can't live without your loooove.”

Jihyun ~ “I'm spending my time,

Lizzy ~ “I'm spending my time, my time, my time.”

Jihyun ~ “The bed is too big without you honey, honey.”

Tugging at her t-shirt’s hem, she pulled it up through her head and tossed it on the floor, her bare skin exposed to the chilly morning temperature giving her goosebumps.

Lizzy ~ “I'm spending my time.”

Jihyun also took his shirt off, exposing his well-defined but slender and not too worked out chest, and hanged it behind the door.

Jihyun ~ “Ohoohohhh.”

They took off their bottoms, Lizzy leaving hers on the floor, Jihyun hanging his.

Lizzy & Jihyun ~ “I'm spending my time.”

They walked into the shower, ready to start the day.

Jumin walked into the kitchen to find Jihyun bent over the glass table, surrounded by scribbled pieces of paper, some intact, some crumpled, hard at work.

- Good morning. You’re up early.

- Good morning, Jumin. I didn’t sleep much.

- Yes, I can tell. You look ghastly.

- Yes, thank you, my friend.

Jumin draw nearer the mint haired man, peeking over his head.

- Are you writing lyrics again?

- Hm-hm.

- That’s good.

The dark haired friend moved away from the table to the counter, opening and closing doors until he finally found a mug.

- So, can you tell me what the problem with your house is again?

- As far as Rika is concerned, it has a severe bug infection.

Jumin chuckled turning the coffee machine on.

- A severe bug infection. So that’s what you call avoiding sleeping with your fiancé.

- Jumin, that sounds a little strange…

- I agree.

He took a sip of his coffee, leaning against the counter, his legs crossed at the ankles.

- Does this not tell you something is not right? How will you marry this woman if you can’t stomach the thought of spending the night with her? I’m not very knowledgeable about that kind of things, but I’m sure this is not a very auspicious way to start.

V sighed and leaned behind in his chair, his head falling back and his eyes closed.

- You’re right. Of course you’re right. But my head is a mess right now, I just need some time away to think and… I don’t know, I just need time.

- Time away, huh.

- Yes. What do you think?

- I think that you should take that time if you feel like you need it.

Jumin set the empty mug on the counter behind him and crossed his arms, watching his friend attentively.

- So, does that mean we should avoid the pub for now?

- No!

He immediately answered, almost jumping from his chair, just as Jumin expected. He raised his brow smirking at V who cleared his throat with a slight tinge of pink in his cheeks.

- I mean, I don’t think that will be necessary.

- I see. You don’t need time away from Lizzy, which means you can think around her, then?

V let out a small chuckle.

- No, not at all.

Jumin shook his head. Of course he couldn’t really understand what his friend was going through, since he had never fallen in love himself – and judging by the effect it had on V, he was sure he would never want to either -, but he knew he had never seen him act like this. And he was hopping V would make up his mind and have some peace and well deserved happiness.

- I need to go to the pub right now, do you want to come?

V glanced up at the clock in the wall. It was still early, she wouldn’t be there yet, if that was what he was thinking about.

- Later. I want to finish these lyrics first.

- Very well.

With a pat on V’s shoulder, Jumin turned and left his apartment. He thought about asking the concierge to call him a cab, but then decided to walk instead. It was a nice morning and he would probably get there faster on foot than by car.

As soon as he could make out the pub’s entrance, he spotted a familiar looking color of girl’s hair, even though she was being partially covered by some guy’s body.

The man was cornering a very nervous and scared Lizzy between the pub’s wall and a protruding stone pillar from the next building, towering over her. Not that he was very tall, he was definitely shorter than Jumin.

Taking large strides Jumin reached the couple, immediately gripping the guy’s shoulder and asking him in his low and calm voice.

- May I help you?

The kid sneered looking back, no doubt ready to insult whoever had the balls to interrupt his playful sexual harassment. But one look into Jumin’s steel gray eyes and the scornful smiled was wiped clear from his features.

- I believe the lady told you to leave her alone. I hope there is no need for me to tell you the same in my own words. I will not sound as kind as her.

Jumin’s monotonic voice sounding cold and hard made the guy tremble in his distasteful choice of clothes.

- N-no, Sir. I'll leave.

The guy scrambled to move away, but instead of allowing him to go, Jumin’s grasp only grew tighter.

- Don't you have something to say first?

- I-I’m sorry, Sir.

- …To the lady…

Jumin’s voice sounded more like a growl, his patience running thinner by the second.

- Oh, hm, yeah s-sorry miss.

As soon as Jumin let go of the kid’s shoulder, he ran away like the devil himself was chasing him.

Lizzy’s entire body seemed to lose its energy and she wobbled a little against the wall. Calmly Jumin grabbed her arm trying to steady and avoid her from falling to the ground.

- Thank you, Jumin. I was really at a tight spot here.

- You should be more careful. This is not a bad street, but there are bad seeds everywhere. Why are you standing at the pub’s door all alone?

- I came in early expecting to do some of the chores that I ended up not taking care of yesterday... But no one’s here yet.

- Vanderwood should get you a key, then.

That was a commendable trait, he thought. Of course he knew she had to be a good kind of person if she was able to hold his friend’s heart so tightly in her hands. Nonetheless, a lot of time had passed and she could have turned out to be someone very different from the girl Jihyun used to know. After all, Jihyun’s feelings were still tied up to the puppy love they once shared. It was a good thing to see for himself that she was perhaps yet deserving of those feelings.

Lost in his thoughts, while the girl was awkwardly trying to respond to his observation, Jumin noticed something dark tinting the back of her pants, right below her right knee. Looking behind her he found that there was a broken piece of what seemed to be a beer bottle sticking out, tucked between the stones of the pillar. She must have hurt herself without realizing it, trying to step away from the guy’s reach.

Now staring at ler leg he could hear the girl fall into a weird silence, and the next thing he was grabbing her arm and pulling her behind.

- Come with me.

- Wha… I…

He opened the pub’s door with his key and pulled her all the way to the bar. Moving to the back room it didn’t take long to find what he was looking for. Vanderwood and his cleaning compulsion could be very handy sometimes.

He walked back to the bar where Lizzy was waiting with a puzzled expression. Cute. He set the first aid kit on the counter and faced her. Her eyes were wide open and she looked frozen to the spot. Was he really that frightening?

- You have blood on your leg.

- I… do?

She tried to look for it, checking her legs nervously.

- May I take a look?

- Oh, but it's nothin-

He effortlessly lifted her by the waist, setting her on the counter. The girl was too stunned to utter a word. Carefully not to hurt her, he rolled up her right pants leg, trying his best not to touch her bare skin. He wasn’t one to try and cop-a-feel. He rolled it all the way to her knee, exposing it. The wound was barely more than a scratch, definitely not that big for the amount of blood that seeped to the fabric.

Actually what really called for his attention more than the wound was the scar she had on her knee. It was strangely fascinating, the – smaller than he thought – trail of rugged and slightly discolored skin that marked half of her knee.

As if a strange force was pulling him, his hand moved on its own in her leg’s direction, hovering above it for a second, ready to touch the scar, until he saw her flinch. He immediately moved his hand away.

- Is this scar from your accident?

- Yes... Jihyun told you about it, did he?

- He did. Actually everyone knows about it by now... I hope you don't mind, they all like and care for you. Jihyun included.

- Yes, I know. Everyone’s been really nice to me.

- Do you mind if I tend to your wound?

- Oh, please you don’t have to trouble yourself…

- It’s no trouble.

He opened the first aid kit box and retrieved the antiseptic and a large band aid from it. He then held her leg gently in a position where he could reach the wound without making her uncomfortable, cleaning it carefully.

He glanced at her, making sure he wasn’t hurting her. Her face was all red which was actually very adorable. He couldn’t remember the last time he had done something like treating someone else’s injuries. Actually he was pretty sure he had never done something of the sort. It was… strange but in a rewarding way.

Still he could feel how uncomfortable she was. She was always very wary of him. As if she felt like she should treat him with some sort of deference. Always polite but unreachable. Or perhaps she just didn’t felt comfortable talking with her ex-lover’s best friend.

Whatever it was it was making Jumin feel eerie about it. He was perfectly aware that his behavior and demeanor was ages away from the others’, but he was not unfriendly or unpleasant. And for some reason he wanted her to enjoy his company too.

- I know I'm his best friend and probably the only one besides you two who knows the whole story, but I want you to know that I don't take sides. It's not in my nature to act based on emotions. So if you ever feel like you need someone to talk... besides those four nut jobs, I hope you... I want you to know that you can rely on me.

Saying she looked surprised was an understatement. Her big turquoise eyes were as big as dinner plates.

- I thank you, Jumin. That is very nice of you.

He placed the band aid on the injury and looked in her eyes.

- You know, you don’t have to act so rigid around me… I know I’m not as funny as the boys but… I wish you would see me as a friend too.

- I would really like it if we could be friends.

She gave him a warm and sweet smile and he responded with a short but also warm one of his own.

He helped her out of the counter and she crouched down pushing the leg’s jeans to its place.

- He is staying at my apartment right now.

Her hands stopped as she looked up at him.

- What?

- Jihyun. He asked to stay with me for a while. I agreed, so he is staying at my apartment for the time being. I don’t know if that gives you any peace of mind or not, but I thought you would be interested to know. So I am telling you… as your friend.

He saw how her entire body relaxed even as she tried to conceal it. She stood up and brushed her jeans obviously trying to feign indifference.

- That is really not any of my business, we are just good friends, but…

Lizzy faced him and reached for his hand, taking it in hers as she squeezed it with a smile. It almost surprised him how small her hand felt in his.

- Thank you, Jumin.

He felt his face heat up a little and was about to answer her when the sound of someone opening the door interrupted their chat.

Vanderwood stopped at the door looking at them.

- Oh. Are we having a busy morning today?

Feeling the brunette’s piercing gaze on them, Jumin felt like he had just been caught with his hand in the cookie jar and awkwardly moved away from the girl, sweeping his hands into his pockets.

- Lizzy is here to conclude the chores she left unfinished yesterday. You should be thankful for having such a conscientious and industrious person working for you.

Vanderwood approached them, placed the box on the counter and raised his brow at Jumin.

- Should I, now? And are you here to conscientiously help her?

Jumin felt his face heat up yet again and cleared his throat.

- Have you established a proper work schedule for her? She has been working hard since you hired her, with barely any rest.

- It’s true she has been working hard so far. You should take the day off tomorrow, Lizzy.

He got behind the counter, taking the things he brought out of the box. Lizzy leaned on the counter, clearly excited with the idea.

- But will you be all by yourself? You’ll have a hard time if we have a busy night again.

- I’ll be fine. Besides, I don’t want people to say I’m enslaving you.

Vanderwood gave Jumin a sideways look and smirked.

- Ok, thank you. Then I’ll get to work now.

She tied her hair up in a bun, some strands of coppery blond hair falling on her beautiful slender neck. Jumin found himself captivated by it.

Jumin ~ “The world was on fire and no one could save me but you. It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.”

What was he thinking? He couldn’t actually be ogling the girl, could he? She was V's girl and he should never allow that to slip of his mind.

Jumin ~ “I'd never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you. And I'd never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you.”

Jumin teared his eyes away. Vanderwood was cleaning and straightening behind the bar, pretending to be oblivious of Jumin’s interest in his new waitress.

Jumin ~ “No, III don't want to fall in love.”