#also ive never seen a soul on tumblr talk about the wall which has some Genuine Heartfelt Emotion as well

[redandfranticfeelings]

after several months of tracking the solar opposites tag i'm starting to get a similar feeling from the fandom as all those posts about breaking bad where walt is really supportive of jesse's transition

[nora-reads-homestuck]

"Fan" Album, old archived posts by Hussie, some videos, and two actual Fanworks!

(SkaiaMechanic) Another Fanfest Post! What Nora responded to here was actually done back in December. However, various parts were incomplete (for reasons you’ll see) so this just sat around in the Google Doc for months. It’s getting to a point where it’s just clogging up the shared document, so I’m posting what’s here and will make additional posts based on the rest of the content when/if she gets to them. Enjoy!

brrrrrrrrd submitted to nora-reads-homestuck:

Visual art has never really been my thing, and other people have been far better at sharing pre-Act 6 art than I could be, but I can submit a few things you may have missed.  They’re all somewhat dubiously labeled “fanwork” being that most of them made by either members of the music team or Hussie himself, but I don’t know of any better time to post them.  

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Before we get into the meat of this post, there is one more “fan” album you are current on.  It came out just a week after Act 6 began and has no songs about anything from it.  It’s called Tomb of the Ancestors and is by Kalibration (aka Robert Blaker) who also wrote Upward Movement (Dave Owns), Skaian Flight, Play the Wind, and Ira Quod Angelus, among other things.  https://homestuckgaiden.bandcamp.com/album/tomb-of-the-ancestors-unofficial-album 

There’s nothing more recent than Nov. 17th, 2011 on that page.

(Past!Skaia) As a single person fan-album, it’s not necessary to review this, at least not now. If you were going to, I would suggest holding onto it for later, when the amount of music albums in the story dramatically drops off.

(Nora) I agree, and will hold off for now! Album reviews actually take me a while to get finished because I can only listen to things at certain times, and I want to save my steam for meatier posts right now.

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Most of this stuff is stuff that has previously been deleted by Hussie or hidden by the original poster, so if that’s not kosher then feel free to skip down to the section below this one.  A little background:  Hussie at previous points in time had both a Formspring and a Tumblr on which he would talk about various things Homestuck, and other various things.  He also has a nasty habit of deleting old things, meaning a LOT of his old posts are gone and most of them only exist as archives.  Here’s some of that stuff, most which was posted before Act 6 or if it was posted during only very early on and not referencing events of Act 6.

To start things off, the origin story of Hussie’s horse painting.  This one actually still exists, but the images are broken:  https://web.archive.org/web/20140408053025/http://andrewhussie.blogspot.com/2009/01/need-for-steed.html

(Nora) I’ve seen this one before, but I read it again and I think I guffawed just as hard, if not harder. Hussie has quite the way with words… and homoeroticism.

Hussie’s infamous trip to Olive Garden: https://web.archive.org/web/20130312060633/http://mspandrew.tumblr.com/post/12963616983/land-of-souls-and-olives-a-conclusion-pasta-la-vista

Olive Garden part 2: https://web.archive.org/web/20130312060012/http://mspandrew.tumblr.com/post/13585722775/land-of-souls-and-olives-a-conclusion-plmfers-part

(Nora) Trix once suggested I audio react to these. Would that be a good idea?

(Past!Skaia) Nah, just read them through. It’s definitely worth a read, but nothing more than that. (Current!Skaia: As of 3/5/17, there’s no indication whether she’s gone through it or not. I’ll keep it in the GoogleDoc just in case though.)

The post-Cascade recap part 1, in which he talks about the the process of creating it and then the content of it.  Really great insight into his creation process:  http://web.archive.org/web/20111028175330/http://mspandrew.tumblr.com/post/11938555890/about-eoa5-part-1

Cascade recap part 2: http://web.archive.org/web/20111028222551/http://mspandrew.tumblr.com/post/11941710181/about-eoa5-part-2

Recap part 3: http://web.archive.org/web/20120801112223/http://mspandrew.tumblr.com/post/11960418585/about-eoa5-part-3

Recap part 4: http://web.archive.org/web/20111029142442/http://mspandrew.tumblr.com/post/11975241895/about-eoa5-part-4

There are more posts on his tumblr if you go to the archive and and mess around with the Wayback Machines captures, including a reddit AMA that for some reason only collected the questions from reddit and answered them on tumblr.  But that’s for a point much later in the comic.

(Nora) Huh! Fascinating read-through. I enjoyed him talking about the process in particular (he makes it seem deceptively simple, doesn’t he, considering the lion’s share of the comic was a completely solo project banged out at a nearly inhuman pace). It hadn’t occurred to me that [S] Descend was actually scored, as opposed to simply animated to existing music, which is a bit embarrassing since it is obviously a medley. I also like what he says when he clarifies Doc Scratch’s means and motive—it’s basically exactly what I’d surmised from reading all his conversations. That tricky, tricky bastard. I am however still mystified by the Horrorterrors, and neither does Hussie seem keen to provide a real explanation for their actions:

The dark gods helped chart their course through this spacetime maze to deliver them to this location, at this time. Take that for what you will

(Nora) Also… why the hell did I not ever realize that Lord English is literally a giant green space pimp??? He’s got the gold tooth, the horrible gaudy coat, the pimp cane cue stick peg leg…

First of all, [Jade] didn’t actually conjure the 4th wall out of thin air. Remember when Karkat told her to turn the wall off, and then draw it? He was asking her to captchalogue an undamaged copy using her Pictionary modus, for this exact purpose. The eventual getaway. So she had it on standby, waiting for the right time to use it.

(Nora) Ohhhhh. OHHHHHHHH. Wow, this whole plan was even more convoluted than I thought, and with the whole password system and all, it was already pretty damn convoluted.

What’s waiting for them on the other side, beside a big ugly coat? Recall the setup I had with the two 4th walls facing each other, separated by one yard. They will break through the wall on the right, traveling nearly the speed of light, and presumably, break through the wall on the left to enter another reality. If you were thorough during Seer: Descend, you might have caught this excerpt on a bookshelf. “Though we adore Him we shall never enjoy His beauteous Croak. We spill our blood on acres of black and white so they may cross the yellow yard. At last in Skaia’s reflection through broken glass He may find the pond in which He’s meant to squat.”

(Nora)You may recall that when I played through the minigame, upon coming across that excerpt I said the following:

(PastPast!Nora) ….’They’ may cross the ‘yellow yard’? This must be referring to Hussie’s aforementioned interference with the story. It’s pretty abstruse, but I feel like it’s telling me something that I’m going to come back and go ‘OHHHH’ over, when I’ve seen more of the story.

(Nora) Consider me motherfuckin’ OHHHH’ed.

However, speaking of AMAs, Hussie’s Formspring was essentially a year and a half long AMA and most if not all of the questions answered there have been compiled here:  http://irratio.org/andrew_hussie_formspring_archives.html

Most of the early questions are inane, but after a while (after he stops answering everything that comes across his message box) there’s some really great responses in there (and some really funny jokes.)  Only thing is, it is *LONG* and will take a really long time to get through.  It went on from late February of 2010 to early October of 2011, with the last responses being around the beginning of the pause during work on Cascade.

(Past!Skaia) It truly is long. Kinda worth it though, and amusing to see Hussie’s actual trolling. 

(Nora) Hahahaha, Hussie is a troll and I love him.

Who do you think should be the next president of the United States?

dumb

(Nora) Welp, consider that one prophetic.

Once there is a reasonable number of strips, is there any chance of a Sweet Bro and Hella Jeff book with commentary by Dave Strider?

yeah

(Nora) That one too, I guess.

When do you think HS will be over?

ive been considering ending it on 8/26/10.

but who the hell knows if that’ll pan out.

(Nora) AHAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHA. AHAHA. HA.

(Nora) I’m going to leave it here for now, as there are SO MANY DAMN QUESTIONS and I really ought to finish my text post.

(Past!Skaia)Sounds good. Once you finish the post above I’ll set up a queue for your responses to the messages above.

(Current!Skaia) This was the main reason I held onto this post. It’s no telling when she’ll get back to this though, so I’m posting what I have. I’ll keep the link in the document, and if she ever does go back to read and comment more I’ll make some more posts!

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Enough decidedly *not* fanworks, here’s some things you might possibly call fanworks!  If you can call things made by Bowman or Toby Fox fanworks.  And bonus actual fanworks!

(Current!Skaia) I have not shown Nora any of the below. I think…they’re not really necessary? Except Savior of the Slamming Jam, obviously, but that’s also in a submission she hasn’t gotten to yet. If enough people think she “needs” to see them I’ll pass it along but otherwise I’m just leaving it here.

A concert in someone’s front yard!  http://www.nospoiler.com/y/HRT758PTmpw

Toby Fox’s Homestuck Abridged!  [Removed for Giant Spoilers!]

An actual fanwork, Savior of the Slamming Jam! http://www.nospoiler.com/y/CKrO8kS8D6g

Chorale for Jaspers & Pony Chorale, Live! http://www.nospoiler.com/y/o0Z0oopPGpM

I’m a Member of the Midnight Crew, Live! http://www.nospoiler.com/y/xR5vN0ve4lY

How Do I Live, live! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDSEXd4KyO8

Actual fanwork, Club’s Deuce’s Homework! http://www.nospoiler.com/y/dLo22lvynNg

And two shitpost videos by Bowman:

1) Cascade announcement (can’t no spoiler link to this one, but comments are disabled: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3o4NvBz8xac

2) “Toby Fox” is now on YouTube (can’t no spoiler link to this one either, unfortunately.  Still, comments disabled):  https://www.youtube.com/watch?list=WL&v=pA9uy3KdeEU

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I don’t think I have anything else at this time that either definitely has spoilers or possibly does due to having come out squarely in 2012 or later.

[mindthebreakingwaves]

Just a stupid blog article about what 2017 brought me.

I've been wanting to write for a year now. But everything happens so quickly, and time flies, and with it goes the will, the logic, the reason to write again.

I dont really know what I come here to say. I guess it's a hearbreak bringing me here. And how it made me confront all my issues once again. And its the end of the year, so I guess its time for some soul searching, to evaluate what ive accomplished this past year, what walls ive punched through, and which new ones ive build.

First the good. The travels, the adventures, the never ending journey to see beautiful places, to realise my dreams. Ive been almost everywhere I wanted to. And obvisouly the list grew longer. With every dream landscape I checked out of my list, i added a new one, cause i never want this feeling to stop. Cause travelling is a drug. Cause the day you can sit and stare at the Grand Canyon, or swim in the transparent water of the Bahamas, or tan at the Varadero Beach, this day you're so high you never wanna get down again. Cause walking through the streets of New Orleans brought me so much joy and peace I'll spend the rest of my life looking for that feeling. Cause the laughs, the cries, the insecurities, everything just blends together in something so strong, so beautiful when you get to sit in four states at once. And it feels like I cant even remember everything ive seen or experienced, and I'm already planning what's coming next. I need a new fix.

But thats not all that was good this year. I found myself capable of being reliable, of working hard, of liking working hard. I dont know how i could have thought i was lazy cause im not. Im the opposite, work is an escape, work obliterates every stupid thoughts, every sad, every anxious idea. Ive wanted to drown myself into work, and the second I dont I just break a little bit again. I know I can do it, the best that I can. Ive done more in a year than ever before.

But I guess thats when the bad comes in, between work and my adventures. And is it really bad ? Ive done things i never thought i could do. Ive lied to myself and to others, ive been a mistress, ive been a heartbeaker, ive used people to numb the pain and the guilt. But ive also fulfilled some of my darkest and most secret fantasies. Ive confronted a part of me i was afraid of. And now im not afraid of it anymore, I now know what I would like, what I could do, if I only met someone who got me.

And I loved. More than ever before. Because I always stopped myself, I always stayed in my bubble, Ive always pushed people away. But at the beginning of the year, A. was opening up something in me, and some sort of hope just got into the cracks. Some hope and some bravery I guess. Something really stupid and overrated, cause ive hurt so much this year, its like all the years i was hiding just came back at me at once. And ive loved so many friends, thats the silver lining in all this. Meeting people i would never have met otherwise. Trusting people with who you are, completely. Being wrong sometimes, but getting it right so many other times. Cause you can give your trust, and some people will be there to catch you when you fall, and you'd want to be there for them too. Its unconditionnal. And although its friendship, and we cant know what will happen once the program is over, its real and strong now. And its just beautiful that way.

But there were heartbreaks. Thats what brought me here I said. It started with a crush who played me, and just chose my best friend at the time, without ever apologizing. Hurt like a bitch. You know, how my emotions are always all over the place, how my BPD is always throwing me against the walls ive build. But that was the beginning, of me falling for everthing that can be wrong in someone. For a guy that could never give me anything, expect what I truly wanted without knowing it. Falling for that kind of person you never thought would ever exist for you. Someone who doesnt love you, but someone who changed everything you were. I dont think ive ever wanted someone that much. But lust isnt love. I never fooled myself. I maybe tried to fool him, while he was trying to fool me. Cause yes I wanted more, but never the more he thought. And I guess thats the only regret, that I had to stop playing a rigged game before i could open that door inside of me totally. I think if he came back, now that ive lost the one that i really want, i would start playing again. But this is a story for next year.

Cause theres the real and stupid heartbreak that brought me here in the middle of the night. The reason ive been crying at every breakup songs for the past week, even before the actual breakup. The one ive got attached to so quickly i have to blame my BPD to understand my feelings. The one who made me feel so safe I had forgotten I could even be actually happy with someone. But i dont wanna talk too much about him. Cause theres no point anymore. Cause i miss him so much it hurts. Cause he's been nothing but perfect to me. And because ill be ok next year.

Everything will be ok next year. Cause im someone different, stronger and weaker at the same time. And this year has been the best and the worst. You know how cliché it is to say «  It was the best of times, it was the worst of times » ? Well it was. And i have a few more month to go, to get my fix, to get in line with myself, and to find the next step, the next thing ill wanna write about, in a year or so.

To be honest, im not even making any resolutions for this new year. And i dont even really know all the extend of what the past year has taught me. But I wanted to keep some record of it, somehow, like a summary, of all the good and bad. And thats what all this stupid tumblr article is all about.