#also i failed at the not crying lol
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rowanisawriter · 3 months ago
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patrochilles / fairy tale AU / complete (40k words)
There is a curse. A destiny, as his mother loves to remind him. A war. An unknown future, somewhere out there in the fighting and killing. But here, there is only the sun and the grass and Achilles’s swift feet. Here, there is Patroclus sitting in the shade. Here, Achilles pulls him closer and puts his arms around him, staining their clothes with charcoal dust from sketched out dreams. Patroclus sinks into him heavily. The sound of their breathing is the only thing they can hear, as though the clearing—their clearing— is a shield hiding them from the rest of the world. “Take me with you,” Patroclus tells him at the same time that Achilles says, “Please come with me.”
In the tiny kingdom of Phthia, a golden prince is cursed with invulnerability except for a vulnerable heel. An exile apprenticed to a shoemaker is commissioned by the palace to create a shoe the prince can fight in.
A fairy tale about a curse, a magical shoe, a war, a doomed hero, an exile, destiny, and love despite everything.
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agalychnisspranneusroseus · 28 days ago
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Man if Marcy keeps ending up with like child protection services in all these fics over her parents being slightly distant then my parents should be in JAIL
#idk if I'm wording it correctly but this goes hand in hand with some posts I#I've made abt Marcy's parents not being super great but also not being like...#like i didn't imagine them as outright abusive or deserving of losing custody over her#and people kept reblogging them and tagging them as abuse?? 😭😭#like if THAT is abuse. then what the fuck what up at my house#c'mon! her parents growing to kinda hate her because they couldn't stand her personality and failing to fulfill her emotional needs#while still always making sure she always had her material needs met#and doing their best not to blow up at her#resulting in them always acting mildly annoyed towards her#is not *really* abuse. right? like that's just how pretty much every parent feels tbh#like i've never seen a parent who genuinely likes their kids. every parent i know is either sick of them or morbidly depressed#like wondering why the hell they chose this life for themselves#some parents are just better at being optimistic and focusing on the nice parts than others#but not all have the mental fortitude to smile through the disgust and resentment they feel all the time#which tbh is an inhumane thing to ask from a person. parents are humans too and there's only so much a person can repress#i'm convinced parents like the boonchuys only exist in fiction#i just imagine Marcy's parents as being average parents who just don't always have the patience a kid like Marcy needs#like over here my parents are breaking my assistive devices and spying on me while i'm in the bathroom and I never considered that abuse#i just used to drive them insaneeeee back in the day lol#just like with friends and couples. sometimes parents and their kids aren't meant for each other y'know? and maybe that's just Marcy's case#i do know that's my case#but strangers online are here crying abuse for less#so now i'm like. hehehehe. say what now#personal
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anglerflsh · 2 years ago
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I like talking to my parents it's a fun game of "which one of us is gaslighting the other This Time?"
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constantvariations · 2 years ago
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As fun as it is to dunk on Griffon, I think it's also important to remember how he saved and constantly looked after V for his entire existence. Vergil would never have returned without the compassion of his nightmares
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thetangibleghost · 1 month ago
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Does anyone understand how to organize. Like how to make it work. Like how to keep spaces clean and your body clean? Does anyone know how to fight back the ever stronger rip tide of filth and clutter that takes over them? Also I'm sleepy.
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s-ccaam-era-crepe · 3 months ago
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going away until tuesday night, see you all then! :)
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chooey · 9 months ago
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my head hurts from crying so much lol
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fingertipsmp3 · 1 year ago
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Why did I get paranoid about how no one has checked the work I submitted yet. It’s literally Sunday
#i mean i signed up for this last night in like the middle of the night#but i guess they either automate the sign up procedure or they have saturday office hours#it is based in the usa so if they work saturday afternoons they will have gotten my stupid application at a regular time#oh it’s freelance work. it’s basically just writing and proofreading#i just want to get approved so i can actually do the thing and then i can make at least a little money and not completely lose my mind#as i continue searching for a job. and also! when i get asked about the gap in my resume i can be like ‘yeah so i was actually freelancing’#it will also make the job search a bit less urgent and calm me down a bit if i have an income stream in the meantime. i think#like i won’t have to apply to stuff i genuinely can’t do just because i need a job (like factories or care work. neither of which i should#probably really be doing on account of the dodgy knee)#but yeah. i was sooooo paranoid but literally… i did like 16 different example tasks for them. it took me well over an hour so it’ll#probably take a lot of time for them to mark it#i just hope they don’t reject it. that would be embarrassing as fuck. ma in english; i’m qualified to teach esl AND high school english…….#if i fail at proofreading i will simply just cry#the thing i feel like could screw me is i didn’t really understand the guidelines on maybe the first task or two because i can’t read#apparently. also i use british spellings and it’s an american company. i also didn’t realise grammarly was there and ‘helping’ me for a hot#minute. i was like ‘what are those squiggly lines for’#look if they don’t want to keep me i’ll just keep scouring the subreddits and find something similar. it’s fine. it’s all good#this would just be perfect for me because i love writing and i love correcting other people’s mistakes lol#personal
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ii-zi · 1 year ago
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i want a nice big house. a garden with trees, creeping thyme as a ground cover, and flowers. a nice big catio. tons of storage. a living room. proper trashcans. my own bedroom. well planned windows for proper ventilation. solar panels. roof access to see the stars. well planned water system so we have fresh water available in summer and warm in winter without spending thousands a month. outdoors lighting. a backyard door. a fence. enough space to steal my baby and my grandma and give them the life they deserve. a desk. space to build whatever the fuck i want. house decor. proper doors. less stubby ceiling heights.
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hua-fei-hua · 1 year ago
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decided to finally start transferring some of my shitty fanfiction pitches that i've been tossing at friends or into my tiny notebook onto my master doc (which i haven't touched since like, mid-may apparently), only to discover that i??? can't seem to edit gdocs on my laptop for some reason???? like it won't recognize any keyboard inputs, including ctrl+c/ctrl+v???
and i'm like "okay fine let's see if it works on a different acct" so i open up the doc to anyone w/the link n am abt to switch to one of my other accts, but half of them are like signed out, so i'm like "whatever" n go to sign in, but it repeatedly tells me that sign-in has failed w/o even letting me try typing in a password????
so i'm like "ugh fine whatever" and i turn off the vpn i got like two days ago to see if THAT does anything (it doesn't) and so i start googling the problem, trying various things, but all of them are like "oh yeah use google chrome for this" or "on your chromebook" or "install this google chrome extension!" and i'm like!!!!
no!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK. YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*screams into pillow*
i'm going to rip google to shreds with my own HAND-FILED SHARPENED TEETH at this rate
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pepprs · 2 years ago
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hi update things are fucking terrible and my eyes hurt from sobbing. lol
#purrs#delete later#not to liveblog and be tmi or whatever but i feel terribly alone and terribly miserable so this is in fact a cry for help lol. or really#comfort bc im fucking going insane. so for context last spring when i was still an intern another intern orchestrated this back channel#where everyone was supposed to talk shit about our supervisors (my dearest most belovedest mentors) and all of us hid it for months and it#all came to a head at asb 2022 because there was a lot of drama witb the asb student facilitators and our staff team. and it was sooooo ugly#and messy and horrible and probably played a direct role in one of my dearest beloved est mentors (who was the point person for asb) fucking#getting a new job and abandoning us in july lol 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 and so i became a full time staff member and me and my remaining dearest belovedest#colleague besties fucking carried the world on oh r shoulders and put on amazing programs as just 3 of us in the core staff and we thought w#we were doing a really good job with the asb 2023 leaders and that there were no drama dynamics or whatever and guess fucking what. tonight#we found out that half of them hate us for reasons we still don’t know and all of them are at each others throats and also some of the#participants feel a type of way about us. and i know i am being a fragile sensitive crybaby over it but i have had terrible cramps all day a#and have barely slept since ive been here and feel like ive been bending over backwards to support the leaders only to find out that half of#them think we’re evil and i just… i couldn’t take it. so i cried and now im beating myself up for crying. but it’s like come ON. i know we#did a pretty imperfect job of preparing them for this. and i should just take responsibility for that and not be defensive. but it’s like… i#have NEVER seen this program in person before or been part of the planning of it. i was just a student last year like all of you. and also#HOW many fucking times did we create space for you to talk to us and invite us in. and still this shit happened. and i just feel like a#failure. and i couldn’t react to that information in any way except cry liek it’s all so over my head and out of my depth and im not as#emotionally mature as my colleagues bc im the youngest and this is my first time dealing with this and i feel so incompetent and like i#failed. failed the first time by not speaking up when i was implicated in the stupid fucking Google form back channel situation last year#and now failed the second time by not being able to prevent this stupid drama bullshit from happening again and for not catching it. and jfs#like… im in excruciating physical pain and haven’t slept and haven’t eaten well and my life is falling apart and we were ABANDONED BY THE#PERSON WHO WAS RESPONDIBLE FOR THIS (i know we weren’t abandoned she literally just got a new job i just have psychological issues) and#we’ve been running at a million miles per hour with absolutely no break and now you’re mad at us and not even telling us and it’s impacting#everyone’s experiences but you want to pretend this is fucking high school and keep secrets. i am TIRED of drama. i am TIRED of this stupid#bullshit. and not to say this bc i don’t know if asb 2022 drama factored into her decision to leave but if it did i get why * left now. i#get it. bc this shit makes me want to jump out the hotel window. i do not want to face any of them tomorrow and deal with more bullshit. i#am emotionally unstable and incompetent and not equipped to deal with this in a mature healthy way. i want this to be over NOW. im done.#ok i think that’s it um. sorry about that i just needed other people to know i am suffering and i will suppress the shame i feel about that#just this once. esp bc i denied myself the opportunity for my colleague besties to comfort me while i was crying and i regret it now lol
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nuppu-nuppu · 2 years ago
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hello 🥲🫂 jfjwjfke idk how useful or helpful this is but as someone who wrote that post a few months ago i just want to say that even if i still have those moments of,,,, i like to call it chronic loneliness cause it feels like it never truly ends but as a whole i’m a lot better now and a lot less lonely and i want to say that it definitely gets better even if it feels like it never will :”) sending hugs 🫂🫂
I'm glad you're not feeling as lonely as you did ;; thank you for sending this to me, it just sometimes feels like this chronic loneliness is a weighted blanket on my whole body that doesn't let me get out or connect with anyone so it gives me a little bit of hope to know that someday it might not be like this. I wanna cry, thank you. Sending hugs back!! We can fight this <333
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onlyseokmins · 1 year ago
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say you and seokmin are getting married. what would both of your vows be like?
asking for science and bc i just watched this one youtuber i adore getting married and her and her husbands vows were so cute and i sobbed
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i've been thinkin abt this ask since i saw it and was so ill over it like i haven't already been ill over kyeom as it is ajskdjf. first off - that's super cute congrats to them. as much as the dedicated spinster i am, i am a romantic at heart and keep tearing up at the fact that like proposal, ceremony, or both - i just know this man is putting his whole heart into it. he types novels on weverse just imagine him writing his vows i'm legit crying rn thinking of it. he's probably someone reminisces a ton - will remember little moments or things about you and bring them up. def will want to throw in funny tidbits to make people laugh. but ultimately... i think he would cry. he probably would break down mid-speech and then be so upset when he can't finish or takes too long lmao ;; he may or may not try to memorize them but istg it'd be like a whole packet long and wrinkled af after going through them so many times </3 my heart
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claire-starsword · 1 year ago
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Shining Force All Ship HQ Quotes - JP & ENG
Regular HQ quotes here
HQ quotes from SF2 here
HQ quotes from Final Conflict here
Ken:
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"It's my first time ever being in a ship this big."
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Luke: english version is accurate
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Tao:
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"So this is a ship... I've always wanted to ride on one at least once."
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Hans:
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"What if I'm thrown into the sea... When I imagine that I get so, so scared. I wonder how the others feel."
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Lowe:
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"Unnngh, I feel sick... It'd be great to learn a spell that could heal seasickness..."
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"Traveling by ship is great too... If you lend an ear to the sounds of the waves, you can hear the words of the ocean."
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Gort: english version is accurate
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This might contradict the GBA version, where Gort has a tragic story involving the ocean, and is not thrilled to battle at sea.
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Of course, disliking to fight at sea isn't the same as dislike the sea, though. At the same time, Max’s diary also portrays him as seasick, so it does feel like the writers really had different ideas on this.
Mae: english version is accurate save for changing her intonation at the end
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Khris:
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"The others seem to be sick. Maybe I should’ve given them some medicine."
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Anri:
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"We're finally going to the eastern continent. I wonder if we'll ever see Guardiana again..."
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Arthur:
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"I have no experience fighting on a ship. Will I be able to fight well?"
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Balbaroy: english version is mostly accurate, though I feel JP Balbaroy is a little pushier/passive aggressive
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"Those of use who can fly are great in sea battles. Doesn't hurt to keep that in mind."
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Amon:
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"Has Balbaroy already talked to you about this? We are very helpful in sea battles since we can fly."
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Diane:
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"I bet my skills will be useful to intercept enemies from here on the ship."
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Zylo:
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"I can't relax while on this ship. It's far too different from a forest..."
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Pelle:
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"We knights might not be that good at a sea battle..."
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Yogurt:
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“…I don’t get it…”
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As usual, Yogurt gets always the same line in japanese, while the localization decides to remove the gag and pretend he's a normal character.
Kokichi:
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"Oh, I'm worried. What will I do if I fall to the sea? I can't swim..."
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Vankar:
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"Uugh, I feel sick... No, no, not from drinking, it's the sea."
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Domingo:
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“Ahem. Did yu know? No one here believs it but, the ocean and wivers are connected."
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Guntz:
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"I hate the sea! I mean, my engine and armor are all gonna rust here."
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Earnest:
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"I'm fine with sea voyages. Since I've traveled through many other countries, I've been in ships before."
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Alef:
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As I’ve shown yesterday, Alef has a line set up for this HQ in the US version of the game even though she’s not normally available at this point (both screenshots above are using Debug Mode). I have now confirmed the same doesn’t happen in the JP version, where she has an empty “0“ string like the other late game characters (Torasu, Lyle, Bleu, Musashi, Hanzou, and Adam).
Finally, the JP version also has an extra tidbit about Queen Koron having sent the ship’s priest:
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"I'm a priest. Queen Koron of Pao asked me to come along you in this ship. Sea voyages can be dangerous, so I hope someone like me can be of help to you."
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elegyofthemoon · 2 years ago
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I'm still thinking a lot about Ion's grave, and then ranking Ion below Orupeusu in terms of "Most Loved" of the Sunchildren
If you go by Ion's grave, there's a lot of sigils around it -- sigils that you may come across while traversing Enkanomiya (I don't really know if it means much of anything, but iirc I think the sigils also looked like the map of Watatsumi Island--). Maybe the sigils were something related to Ion's fortunetelling for his people -- a charm of good luck he'd give to them to give them some assurance against whatever bad fate awaited them
I guess my brain's going a few different ways with this:
Maybe the people gave Ion sigils to commemorate him because of the joy he'd bring with his fortunes for them. To express their love and gratitude for his act of kindness
In the face of all the false fortunetelling he did, the people would choose to neglect Ion instead, meaning that these sigils instead were made by his caretaker to commemorate him when no one will.
On the same note, because of the false fortunetelling,the people would cast aside the sigils given to them by the Sunchild, returning it back to the Sunchild's side at his tomb. Numbers of false promises of a better life than the one dealt to them.
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indigodawns · 2 years ago
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#whew you know when you've been Going for a while and then you get a break and you're still tired but you're also so so jittery#S WHERE IM AT OHHH MY GOD#luxury problem and it's totally fine but i am crawling up the walls my friends#also update time ig!! took my family to the autism group meeting thing on tuesday bc it was a meeting esp for that#and they kept throwing me glances throughout the info part like lol it's you JDFHJDFH it was v interesting#bc throughout it all it's like... here i have info about autism and here i have my 25 years lived experience without thinking i had autism#and since i wasn't diagnosed as a kid i wasn't as ~obvious about it and i find it hard to reconcile examples with myself if they#don't fit 100% (it's . the autism) so anyways it was v helpful!!!#and my mum was like ah yeah i always had moments where i thought so?? but then it didn't fit the cold white boy stereotype bc i#am empathetic and i have humour etc so she never mentioned it to me bc it's a big thing etc and tbf i wasn't ~ready pre-this year#but now it's like... ah yes i was always upset on holidays and they never got why (the change in Everything)... i was picky with food#and with new shoes and i HATED shopping and it overwhelmed me so much (still does)#i would ask my mum what tf i was feeling and why i was crying and i would analyse social interactions#and i'd have obsessions with media and horses etc. was big know-it-all. was so slow with some subjects at school#like yknow when you had to copy letters 80 times? that'd take me ages and i'd get a fail bc i was being so precise#anyways. enough signs methinks dfjhdjh so now im just trying to see where stimming & eyecontact come in?#i never noticed a problem with eyecontact but im trying to let myself not do it and it's kinda nice?? but idk#and stimming idk i used to suck my thumb for a long time but?? i wanna try things but whew internalised ableism etc#so see then im like so ARE YOU ACTUALLY-- but anyways it seems i am#and my mum made me realise that'd. explain why i suddenly developed depression around age 11 and never got out of it again#so lots of Thinking!!! and wanting to shelve things like ok great figured it out NOW WHAT but noooo#also stupid to do this on tumblr and not rly talk about it with irl friends but what do you say like#hello im autistic? yeah it surprised me too. no i can't really explain how it works for me. no that's not how the spectrum works#so here we are yes#<3
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