#allofthefeelings

[pigtailedgirl]

Thanks to @bisexualdawnsummers for tagging me!

Put your music library on shuffle( i did my youtube), then list the first five songs that come up in a poll to let people vote for which one they like the most!

Ah geez, I tag @marley-manson , @allofthefeelings, @allofthebeanz, @luna-rainbow,@syrupmap

[bolshoiromanova]

Characters that have appeared in Natasha-centric stories from the 70s to the 90s as one-offs never to be mentioned again that reignite my anger that Natasha still lacks the consistent supporting cast of other superheroes (in no particular order):

Irma Klausvichnova: One of Natasha's main instructors during her KGB training, a woman who trained Natasha in "half a dozen advanced areas" (appeared in Marvel Magazine's Bizzare Adventures, 70s)

Anne Baxter: Worked for the American Embassy and befrended Natasha when she was still working for the KGB, actually helped her escape when she decided to defect (seriously, a woman who's instrumental in helping an abused woman escape and she's only mentioned once, and even then it's when Natasha's informed she's been murdered. Fuck that.) (Appeared in Daredevil and Black Widow: Abattoir, 90s).

Karla: Rival agent to Natasha, seen as untrustworthy by her KGB handlers due to her being descended from the Tsars (which might make her and Nat related but the comic doesn't get into that), hunts Natasha down for two years in order to prove her loyalty. (Appeared in Daredevil: Ghost of Evil's Past, 90's)

Anyway I'm tired and barely doing any of this justice put I picked up the Black Widow Strikes Omnibus for myself for Christmas and I highly recommend!! I discovered some new Nat stuff that I've never even read in here!!

[intosnarkness]

@allofthefeelings and I would like to present our new literary theory, “The Author Can Go Fuck Himself”. We’re coming for you, Russo brothers.

[swashbucklery]

YOUR GAY DISASTERS SHOW IS DOING A REALITY TV EPISODE???

Amy I cannot stress enough how much I want you to watch DC’s Legends of Tomorrow, it is precisely your type of superhero nonsense and particularly from S4 onward there are some Very You Characters and everyone is extremely bisexual but: yes?

It’s not really a reality TV episode; what you have to understand is that at the end of the previous season they needed to stop a demon from stealing the world’s souls. So they built a magic theme park overnight (based on Nate’s dad Biff from Back To The Future’s plans, which he of course made a deal with said demon to realize) and then put on a variety show with a bunch of magical creatures and then baby Zari brings her new dragon friend and then Nate dies but then they all bring him back to life with the power of song because LOVE CONQUERS EVERYTHING and Amy. Amy. What you have to understand is that the crux of their plan is that they are livestreaming this entire fucking thing the whole time.

So in the beginning of S5 they’re famous, and it’s not so much reality TV as a follow-along-with-us documentary but also the showrunners have said that this season is a lot about the nature of fame and celebrity and I just. It’s your personal catnip.

[alexeishostakoff]

Bucky and Nat supporting aroace Yelena's journey to realize she can use her body for whatever she wants, and not anything she doesn't, whether that means killing (no thanks, Yelena's still on board for that) or sex (that one she's maybe reconsidering)

oh absolutely!! tbh yelena...never really used her body for sex? but it was still hard for her to like realize that she didn’t have to, especially when she sees natasha, the black widow she has always wanted to be, flirt and charm her way through mission after mission. bucky and nat would be just so caring and willing to listen when she needed to talk through it, and 100% supportive on everything, and yelena doesn’t want to admit it but god she loves them for it

[readingisalwayssexy]

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[pearwaldorf]

@allofthefeelings replied to your post “I have watched the first two episodes of The Mandalorian and...”

WAIT BACK THE FUCK UP WE MIGHT GET MING WITH BABY YODA???????

OH SHIT YOU DIDN’T KNOW??? She’s supposed to show up somewhere in the middle of the series. And since we just got ep 4 of 8, it should be soon!

[perpetuallyfive]

Now I'm trying to remember what fandom I met you in originally and my brain doesn't go back that far? Like I can think of several fandoms we've shared, but.

It’s harder for me to remember how I found people on LJ. It feels like another life. I feel like a lot of the people I followed really early on were Buffy people, even though I never actually wrote for it, and you were just always around as a person who actually talked about femslash without treating it as a cute side accessory. I think I was reading your thoughts on things well before I followed you, though, and I couldn’t begin to guess when that was exactly or when you followed back.

[cipheramnesia]

*sends attention and praise*

but what do i post?

[sebuttstianstan]

allofthefeelings replied to your post “I found you!!! I found Anything that Bleeds by accident, and I'm so...”

I'm not that anon, but seriously, your fic appeared when it was killing me that there was NO good fic that explored Natasha and orders and belonging AND YOU DID IT ALL WITH SOME OF MY FAVORITE TROPES. You do the world (or at lest the fandom) a great service.

Yeeeesh every time someone who I follow/whose meta or opinions I enjoy tells me they’ve enjoyed my fic, it’s a wave of “oh no the pressure”. But very flattering. Thank you.

I will never understand the lack of Natasha fic. She’s such a rich subject that it’s in fact incredibly difficult to do her justice in one simple fic. She has such well-established canonical relationships- whether positive or negative or just complex in betweens- with Fury, Clint, Steve, Tony, Pepper, Sam, Coulson... it’s endless (I remain forever pissed that I started writing the outline before Civil War came out or Rhodey & Wanda would have played bigger roles). Nat’s unambiguously the keystone member of every iteration of the Avengers and would’ve been acknowledged as such in fic and fandom if she was male. And the themes surrounding her character are just begging to be explored (and would have been! so many times! if she was male! instead of the fucking endless Tony-has-trauma-because-people-misunderstood-his-genius-and-ignored-him, I love Tony alright but goddamn it’s frustrating). Anyways post-Endgame it is difficult for me talk about anything concerning Natasha or this fic, which has somewhat developed into an unintentional rebuttal of everything Endgame stands for, without devolving into a senseless rant, but thank you I appreciate it.

[redspiderling]

IDK if it helps, but I'd argue ScarJo's still enthusiastic abt being a superhero, but out of the last three MCU movies she was in, we saw enthusiasm in IM2, Avengers, Winter Soldier, and Ultron, then she skipped the Civil War press junket, and then she's spent the past two press junkets aware she's getting fridged. Her passion for NAT has never wavered, but I think we're going to see a revival of "holy shit I'm a superhero" when she's at a press junket where she's not (A) supporting and (B) dead

Heey!Oh it definitely does! I feel that some of that enthusiasm seeped through, she was so bubbly in some of the Endgame interviews (like the ones she did with Danai). But then she was ridiculously stressed out in the ones before the premiere, of course.

It does make me happy though that she will probably get back to our level of enthusiasm when they start doing promos for BW. 

She’s been trying to get this film for so many years and honestly, it’s a huge achievement. Not only she’s getting this film but that she gets to have so much influence over it, and that it gets to be produced and directed the way that it does. 

(Which is also the reason why I find the “The new Black Widow will be the protagonist in the new BW film” ridiculous.)It does feel like a lot of that original enthusiastic approach she had to the MCU was lost somewhere in the middle. The AoU junkets were a disaster. Between people going “she should have stayed at home if she was pregnant and couldn’t do her own stunts”, dealing with sexism and then with the aftermath of Natasha’s arc in that film (and her own response to it via SNL) it’s no wonder she stayed away for years after that, especially since Natasha was pushed entirely to the sidelines by that point.

But yeah, SJ has been very steadfast in her love for Natasha and it’s a big part of the reason why I’m so excited about the BW film, even after all we’ve been through this past… month.

[cacchieressa]

allofthefeelings replied to your post: allofthefeelings replied to your link: ...

I took notes at the panel but had no idea what any of the notes meant or if they were of value! *helpful* I do know that I saw Jabrams and Felicity together twenty years later and that was trippy.

Oh man, I totally forgot that Felicity was a JAbrams show. Do you...do you think she and GRUNBERG will appear in a scene together???

[intosnarkness]

JEWISH CHARACTER: Adam Young

Adam converts later in life.

See, the thing about having the kind of childhood Adam had, with three good friends and  Dog and that one summer that you saved the world is, no one really believes you when you try to tell them.

Yeah, things are funny at the airbase one day, but the next they’re back to normal. And before you know it, your friends are looking at University and saying that the time you saved the world was a “brilliant game” and a “fun story” and you start to realize that they don’t believe it happened anymore.

They were there, though. They saw what you saw, with War and Death and Angels. But even though they’re your friends, they’re human. And you’re not. So you can believe a few things that would turn them rightside-down if they kept at it as adults.

So by the time Adam is 19, no one but him really believes he was the Antichrist.

Sure, Aziraphale and Crowley will corroborate, but it’s different when Pepper says that it didn’t happen with the kind of surety Adam only felt once, when he was going a little round the bend.

It did happen. It had to happen. He was there.

It’s Crowley who takes him to a Synagogue. 

“Church is all answers,” he says when Adam asks what they’re doing there. “Seems to me you’ve got enough answers.”

“What’s wrong with Answers?” Adam asks, looking at the weird symbols above the door.

“Well,” Crowley says. “You’ve got to be asking the right questions first, haven’t you?”

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The Rabbi doesn’t look anything like Adam’s seen in movies, and he doesn’t think he’s ever known a Jewish before but he thought there’d be a big hat and a beard and tired eyes, but the person before him looks more like someone’s Aunt than a Great Sage.

“Anthony,” she says, by way of greeting, as Adam and Crowley take seats before her desk. “What are we arguing today?”

Crowley smiles as widely as she does and hugs the woman. “Sheila,” he says. “Rabbi Kaplan. This is my friend Adam Young. He has some questions.”

“Hullo,” Adam says, and he thinks that 9 years ago he’d have asked where her beard was, but he’s a man now, studying for his plumber's license and everything, so he doesn’t say silly things like that anymore.

“Hello,” she says, her smile still beaming. “What can I do for you, young man?”

“What do you know,” Adam says carefully. “About the End of Days?”

The Rabbi considers him for a long moment before she speaks. “Have a Sherbert Lemon,” she says, gesturing to the bowl on her desk. “And why don’t you tell me what you think, first? Then we can see where we agree.”

Adam helps himself to the candy, taking the time to unwrap it to get his thoughts straight. “Right,” he says, at long last. “It starts with a garden.”

[swashbucklery]

I'm not that anon but I for one have full confidence you could flay someone alive if the need arose. (THIS IS A SUPPORTIVE MESSAGE FROM A FRIEND.)

Oh my god this is so thoughtful, and exactly why we are friends.

[alexeishostakoff]

Prompt: Yelena meeting Sam, Bucky, and/or Steve post-Endgame, because she has a plan, and she (grudgingly) needs their help.

yelena belova does not need help.

backup, maybe, but not help.

she considers her options, but it is not a very hard choice.

between a patriot and a killer, she will always choose the killer. they are far less dangerous, after all.

and so she visits the winter soldier.

she stands in front of him, unafraid, her training etched into every strand of her dna, her title cold and clear in her eyes.

“widow,” the soldier says, for great russian monsters will always know each other in the end, no matter what form they may choose to take.

“my name is yelena belova,” she replies, head held high, still unflinching. “natalia said you could be trusted, once. i do not trust easily.”

[uncontinuous]

allofthefeelings replied to your post “Ok but imagine an AU where Vanya, when she finally leaves the...”

you are a genius

<3

But legit though, how much would Reginald Hargreeves be fucked over if world famous violinist/musician Vanya Hargreeves who’s no longer drugged wrote a tell-all book, as compared to mousy struggling emotionally numb due to meds Vanya writing the book?

Talking about all the abuse she endured, how he forced her siblings to isolate her until it was second nature to them. About how she thought she’d got away only to find out that it was much worse. How she was an adult who had no idea how to navigate the real world because she essentially grew up in a cult. How she found out she had powers. How she found out he’d drugged her through her whole childhood to nullify her powers. How she had no clue where to even begin and had to learn on her own so that she wouldn’t hurt others. Her exceprts from her days of isolation learning how to control herself. (Suddenly her mystery sabbatical makes so much more sense to the media and her fans.)

Fame holds power. We all like to pretend it doesn’t but it does. And when someone famous accuses you of abusing them and their siblings, it matters. When someone famous writes a tell all book describing the abuse in detail, it fucking matters.

Extra Ordinary is no longer the petty take that. (Because while I love Vanya and I agree that the Book was something she needed to write for her, let’s also be real and agree that it was in fact a petty take that more than it was anything else.) It’s no longer Vanya trying to scream for attention, because Vanya already has enough spotlight. Extra Ordinary wouldn’t have faded into the background as quickly.

It’s an accusation. It’s a fierce condemnation. It’s a child who never had power, attaining that power to fuck over their abuser and get justice years later; but better late than never.

Reginald would’ve been dragged through the mud.

The other siblings would’ve had to sit up and question things more. Yeah they were all fucked up by what Reginald did. They’ve all lived in that private bubble since that they’ve endured. But it’s different when the “ordinary” one talks about being left out while you trained, when you know exactly what training entails. It’s different when the “ordinary” one talks about you leaving her out, when you’re all fireforged because your father sends you into life-and-death situations on the regular when she gets to be at home and be a kid. It’s easy not to question your sibling’s abuse and even be complicit in it yourself when you’re abused in a different way.

(I refuse to believe that Vanya wasn’t made an example off. That no matter how much the kids hated their powers and training and childhood, that they all thought they were better off than “plain ordinary and therefore useless” Vanya. Reginald enforced that. You can see it in the way they treat her throughout the series. There’s always that hint of “we know better because you’re ordinary” even when they’re trying not to do it.)

But when the “ordinary” one talks about all of that, and then goes on to talk about how she’s not exactly “ordinary” at all? When she writes about finding out in her adulthood that she has powers and their father drugged her into being ordinary? That’s not going to upset the status quo, it’s going to break their whole worldview. It’s going to start forcing them all to question things. If Reginald lied about this, then what else did he lie about? If he drugged Vanya into not having powers, did he do similar things to them too?

Allison who is angry, so angry about the Book, but now for a multitude of other reasons too. Allison who doesn’t get questioned about her sister’s scream for fifteen minutes of fame. But Allison who gets questioned about if she knew her equally famous sister was drugged. Allison who takes a hard look back at her memories and can always remember Vanya and her pill bottle and never questioning it. Allison who maybe remembers earlier that Reginald had her Rumour Vanya too. Because how much was the pills and how much was her Rumour. Because now she doubts if her father ever had her Rumour the others too. Allison who has her epiphany long before she messes up with Claire, can even think about it, because now she carries the guilt of just how much she fucked over Vanya.

Allison, who maybe reaches out to Vanya earlier. They talk. They fight. They rage and scream and they cry. They become fireforged in a different way. “I hurt you and you hurt me, and we’ve all kept hurting each other because that’s all we were taught by him.”