#adn maybe a little existential

[crowboy-bebop]

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my childhood dog passed away last night, and now every single family pet we had while i was living at home is gone.

i feel really weird, like she was the last link to my childhood, and this is making me realize that i can't ever go back. i can't really explain it, but it was like her being alive let me compress time, because as long as she was alive, then time hadn't really moved that much. 15 years is a long time, but it's not that long, because we still had the dog that we got when i was a kid.