#YEAH I’m sick in the head. what of it.
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Thinking about the comparisons between the sasamiya hug and kagihira hug. Both born out of an overwhelming desperation and guilt and. A fascinating difference is sasamiya had that internal dialogue while kagihira was just. Silent. And Remember how the sasamiya hug was Miyano’s oh moment. Remember. Hey guys remember. Guys come back
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green beetle black beetle
#star wars#the original trilogy#boba fett#darth vader#hi. sorry for star war jumpscare. genuinely#i feel like ive kinda been on an art hiatus lately due to health stuff#i got diagnosed with a parathyroid disease recently (wahoo) so now i know why i have been feeling so bad! need more tests though#anyway. in the mean time most of the entertainment my brain can handle has been like. youtube clip compilations of shows and movies#not even the actual shows or movies. literally just sections of them on youtube#i wish i was joking#the only reason i know what happens in succession is because i have watched it in disjointed order in youtube compilations. not joking#anyway so ive learned a lot more about star wars than i ever. thought i would#mostly just the original trilogy and prequels. some of the old comics & books are interesting too#(sick to my stomach) i like darth vader he has like the same personality as ganondorf except he had no good reason for doing anything#when vader/anakin does literally anything weird or unacceptable it like. makes me laugh so hard its like jerma when he sees a car accident#boba fett’s costume design has been rotating in my head a lot too it’s very good#he’s very colorful and like. matte/unpolished compared to vader and it makes them a cool duo visually#those 2 are my favorites. vader why is the space cowboy the only person aside from sidious or tarkin who is allowed to get mad at you#sidious is my 3rd favorite. he sucks so bad as like a person that you just. you have no expectations of him except just being evil#so its just really funny like everything he does is horrible and he’s so happy all the time like good for him#i’m making it sound like ive never seen star wars before. i have i just never really cared about it until i got an endocrine disorder lmao#but yeah idk art may continue to be slow while im figuring out treatment stuff#if anyone reading this also has or has had hyperparathyroidism im wishing the strength & radiance of 1000 beautiful horses upon you
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Hi, hello. I stumbled upon one of your Fo4 fics on Ao3 a while ago. I think it's really cool that you're so unapologetically willing to write stuff about your OC.
I've gotten really used to people hating on OC or Self Insert fics that I can get really self-conscious about posting my works.
But you have a whole tumblr blog dedicated to your OC! And your writing is really good and I just think all the work you've done is so cool. I just wanted to let you know ☺️
You’re so sweet! 💕💕💕 Thank you, I’m always glad to hear when people happen to stumble on my blog and stick around!
And yeah, I did just kinda burst in here and shoved my feral kitten problem child with her Detective RoboDad for all to see, and I’m not ashamed of it. I never understood why people would get so mad about people posting about their own OCs even if they are self inserts, I don’t see anything wrong with that.
I did originally worry that the little flower child Jasmine/Rosalinda was too much like me despite the fact that our personalities are wildly different so I toned down some of her background and even thought about giving her a complete overhaul, but now I think SCREW IT- she’s a Mexicana now! Because I can write and portray an actual Latino character accurately so I might as well with her like I had planned from the start.
All that to say that I had my own insecurities, but thankfully I bloomed pass that with support from some beautiful Tumblr friends and I hope to continue making more content in the future. 💖💖💖💖
And Bestie, go ahead and go wild with writing about your own OC if it makes you happy. And yeet any haters out of the metaphorical window while you’re at it.
#I am aware that most of you probably don’t realize that Jasmines name isn’t Jasmine— but Rosalinda#Yeah. So uuuummm. Originally I had planned to reveal that fact as I surprise and I was gonna swap her name out but then….#This blog got a lot more attention than I thought it would. I was honestly just planning on like five people showing up.#And I’m grateful for all of this! I’m happy that people tune in to see what I have planned for Jas!#But also I hope I don’t end up confusing anyone with her lore.#And sorry for not posting my solo work as much. I go through episodes where I’m sick and it’s hard to generate content.#With writing with my friends it’s easier because I’m sharing the weight and it’s funner.#I plan to get some more snippets out of my head and even finish them react requests from a long time ago.#I have not forgotten about them I swear.#fallout#fallout 4#fo4#nick valentine#fallout oc#fallout original character
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i think two characters drifting apart is worse than one of them just dying actually because. what do you mean they changed each other irrecoverably but circumstances mean they now live separate lives what do you mean one of them might look at the ocean and be reminded of the other one in a way that causes that very specific pain in their chest except the person they’re thinking of isn’t even dead, they’re just a stranger. what do you mean they’ll never get back what they lost what do you mean their conversations will now be awkward and stilted like two people meeting one another for the first time wh
#yeah i’m thinking about harringrove who even cares anymore#right person wrong time or what the fuck ever#makes me sick to my stomach#what if i bashed my head against the wall what then#girl you are mourning someone who is still alive ! the grief is eating away at you ! you can’t grieve because they are still alive ! help !
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let it be known…. bestie!sukuna does a killer winged eyeliner
#sharp enough to cut a man and that’s his goal i just know he does the meanest winged eyeliner for you in class#you hand him the pen w/o saying a word and he’s immediately grabbing the back of your head to steady you#if suguru sees that he’s like What Thw Fuck Is going onnimm gonna be Sick#firmly believe that reader & everyone in school has a mini crush on sukuna#i say mini bc he is so fucking sexy but the moment he opens his mouth you’re like damn… i regret all my life choices why’s he yelling at me#anyways. reader is the only one who can tolerate sukuna and vice versa <3 reader is friendly so everyone loves them#but like. BEST FRIEND wise? it’s sukie & reader til death does them part 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼 i love them so much idk why their dynamic makes me so happy#okay i’m just talking to myself in the tags rn hmmm how do i want him to look#pink hair + black undercut OBVIOUSLY. face tatts/body tatts OBVIOUSLY.#ear piercings + helix + industrials + eyebrow piercing + nose piercing + snake bites + tongue piercing OBVIOUSLY#he’d also wear reading glasses. FKN nerd 😹😹😹 i have 20/20 vision i can’t relate 🤭🤭🤭#immaculately dressed & insanely intelligent you can call sukuna a lot of things but you can’t call him ugly or dumb#i think he’d have reader’s birth flower tattooed on him too just as a nod to how much he loves/cares for them <3#where should he work… maybe at the same tattoo shop as suguru? yeah maybe that could work#sukie’ll be a piercer while sugu is a tattooist yeah that checks out#maybe they’re in the same frat? yeah that could work part 2#okay YAY cool i’m glad i’m fleshing him out :3#snippets#personal
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this song ain’t got no right to be scratchin’ my brain as much as it does
#and i mean that as a compliment#Seven.txt#music stuff#Warren Zeiders#Spotify#gonna start making more use of Tumblr’s features and putting the actual songs i’m obsessed with in the body of posts#instead of just talking abt them in tags. i like music and y’all r gonna Hear about it no matter how bad my taste may be#anyways i’m at an internal war over this song#half of me is like ‘it’s just one of a million Mainstream Country Songs where some white guy sings abt heartbreak. what’s so great abt it?’#but the other half of me is like ‘yeah but. ur weak to that shit. that’s ur kryptonite bitch. it’s in ur blood. we Know this.’#‘also. nice voice + country accent + he’s blaming Himself and not just the girl + 2:40-3:00 makes u go apeshit every time.’#‘Also the cover image is hot as hell and it makes u think of that shot of Boothill standing at that pool table.’#‘oh yeah And the whole damn thing is giving off Seth YuuriVoice vibes. so like. yeah’#and i nod my head in reluctant agreement like yeah ok i guess ur right. damn#anyways if anyone needs me i’ll be in the corner listening to this on loop until i make myself sick of it#hsr boothill#Seth YV#yea fuck it i’ll tag them too why not#if anyone disagrees with me pls keep it to yourself it’s just my opinion pls let me have it in peace
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minds in half a dozen places or so I need to be able to do more than one thing at a time. hanzashiro is calling to me like at least two different videogames are calling to me library book that could be used as a murder weapon is calling to me. Hanzashiro Is Calling To Me.
#back hurts went to the art museum#need to finish sorting basically the entirety of tbhk in my photo album#because it’s siphoning all of my storage space and i need to redownload my music..#that said. i think. with some novel related revelations. i could do some more fun stuff in the river#what’s better than two weird guys Three of them. <- shaking slightly#also. SASAKI HIRANO ASK IN MY ASKBOX.#also how about that art huh. Ha Ha#like sure ooookay we’ll give kagi and hirano SWORDS and hirano’s sword is sheathed still but kagi’s ISN’T and ichinose in the foreground has#a pistol out and is staringinto the camera instead of looking at what nearly everyone else is looking at and niibashi is on the phone with#GOD KNOWS WHO and yeah of course sasaki is sat on the steps there apathetically reloading HIS pistol ALSO looking at the camera rather than#offscreen which is FINE. and MASATO HAS A GUN. AND HE LOOKS READY TO START FIRING AT ANY MOMENT.#AND YOU’LL NOTICE THAT IT’S NOT A REGULAR PLAAAAIIIIIN PISTOL FOR SOME REASON. IT’S ORNATE. LOOKS TO HAVE SOME ENGRAVING.#i’m just supposed to. what. accept this quietly? i’m sick in the head. Sorry#anyway just wanna say plainly that evidently kagi and masato are the ones most ready to go. do violence.#or whatever the weaponry is a metaphor for Looks at you okay i’m done
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What do I want? I want to be seen as a peer.
#tiger’s roar#mental health bullshit#…and I feel further away than ever with my damn disability that I got told was psychosomatic without directly saying those words#because unstable tendons that pop grind sproing every time I really do anything#can’t Possibly be painful#or WHY my muscletone and stamina is shit#oh noooo it MUST be all in my head nevermind I CAN’T TAKE SEROTONIN. every drug with it makes me suicidal or worse#…anyway. I will be stranded as soon as I move out to attend university#which is only possible with taking out yet more student debt#and keeping a credit load far higher than I could ever do (nevermind my physical disability)#to keep my scholarship. and then Hope I still get a Pell + misc school scholarships#but there’s No Way around I Won’t be able to cope with a job with 15 credits mentally even if I could physically#…yEAH I’m Terrified. and I’m sick to death of people telling me to NOT take out loans#when this is The Only Way to pay rent and tuition to Even Attend At All#…and ALL Of This ontop of… you want to spend time with me? NOW that you’re at the end of your master’s and I’ll be getting things in order?#Do You See Me As A Creative Peer Or Someone Who Could Be One#or am I just a Pretty Gurl Who’s A Poor Lost Waif Who Sings Pretty#…you never did tell me what you thought of my script’s draft#and have been suspiciously Silent about your own art#do you REALIZE that to do ANYTHING together…you’re gonna have to drive. and I don’t want to do anything that costs money#because 1) it feels unbalanced (regardless if it’s a date or simply hanging out. but your body language screams Date?? not Hangout)#and 2) …I’ll be needing to keep a fisthold control of my finances as it’s gonna be stuck as reimbursements + debt#I…cannot see how I can mentally or physically take on a job. nevermind nobody’s wanted me to work for them for anything not janitorial#…so…yeah. how the hell can I even feel like anyone’s peer#when I’ll be at least a decade older. mentally ill. disabled. and can’t work because of it#how am I supposed to feel like anything but a porceline doll with rotting rubber joint connections + glockinspeal
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these violent delights is actually kind of ruining my life because i’ve never read something that portrays a characters self hatred so thoroughly and unavoidably and entirely Needlessly. it’s tearing me apart if i’m being quite honest
#the way paul hates himself is so Blinding and intense that it’s so difficult to read#because it reflects my own way of thinking so much that it feels like a personal attack#honestly if anyone ever wanted to truly understand what goes on behind my head i’d tell them to read this#because i’ve never seen the most gross and regretful parts of me put down and i. i don’t even know#some of the things that julian says to paul have Literally been said to me#and there have been moments where it’s so intense that i just have to put it down because i feel so nauseatingly sickeningly Seen#it’s such a . visceral reading experience for me it’s . god it’s a fucking lot#especially that part over the summer where him and julian are apart#and he’s so doubtful and suspicious and paranoid i felt fucking Sick#because julian loves him so goddamn much and no matter what he does paul just Can’t believe that anyone could ever love him like that#yeah it’s been a truly horrifying reading experience for me and not for the reasons i suspected#but because it’s like i’m being thrust in front of a mirror and forced into look at the grimy reflection so closely for the first time#this book has made my chest tighten and literally almost made me sick from how real it is. cannot stress enough how much i’d recommend#these violent delights
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#need to quickly pop off once and be done with it bc i don’t think i’ve ever actually gone off about this on main#might delete later or might not. depends on how angry i am lol#but i’m kinda sick of the out-of-pocket comments that keep dropping on my head once every couple of weeks lol#we used to be a society#now i’m getting shit for not liking jk as much and for liking someone else??? @.@#yoongi did not raise you to be this way#what makes you think i’d wanna go back to being a hardcore stan when you’re shitting on me for stepping back#(not all of you ofc… just some)#but yeah 🥴 why do you always have to pit these people against each other#asking me if i like bts or skz’s music more and then making a mean comment when i say i think they’re both good#acting like this fandom or the tannies themselves are inherently superior to other fandoms/groups#why are you bringing stan twt bullshit to my house#we used to be a society! @.@#i’m not gonna entertain weird asks about this anymore bc even tho i like to fight (lol) -#these ‘arguments make me feel like i’m talking to a wall#saurrr for the love of god do not come at me with the whole ‘you don’t even like jk’ bs anymore#anywhomst 😑#jen rambles
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Imagine having such confidence for you to speak on behalf of God😂
#yeah I’m sure he’s with what they’re doing 🤦♀️🤦♀️#how are you even a Christian and support them#like… is this what Christianity is about#or are you sick in the head
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#need to belong to a rich neoliberal woman who’s invested in my safety#she thinks my leftist ideas are quaint#she gives me Xanax when I get too excited about the news (it’s stronger than she says it is and i know but i don’t care)#she thinks it’s fun to set my daily schedule but#well i like it because I’m being told what to do but it ends up being enriching and constructive#even if it includes chores because you know what? building better habits is constructive too#anyway yeah she has a 25 step plan for surviving the fallout of climate change#property in New Zealand#and being useful in that space is part of my training too of course#but she cares about my comfort#also she ties me up and just goes crazy on me I’m like a bop it she pushes my buttons and I make a lot of noise and i eat her sloppy style#i mean not that sloppy but i do tend to use a fair amount of saliva#maybe we’d rarely have penetrative sex but she doesn’t pressure me into it and in fact really takes control#telling me to relax and let it feel good#and we cuddle and she’s very warm and maybe she gains some weight while we’re dating but i love her and love it because i love her#im sick im fucked in the head dude
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having anxiety sucks so bad when you might have a slight medical problem
#marzi speaks#am i being a hypochondriac or should i get checked#i don’t know !!!#if i look it up it will tell me i’m dying. it does this every time and it never helps#if ur curious i’m worried abt my nose. i got that nasty head cold abt a month or so ago#and my sinuses (while much better) are still worse than average#and even when i leave them alone to the best of my ability i’m really prone to runny and/or bloody noses rn#which is Not normal for me. i don’t get runny noses i don’t get bloody noses#i woke up this morning with a nosebleed. bizarre#that being said i know it’s scabbing over. but i am impulsive and keep scratching my nose#which is probably dislodging the scab. that or i blow my nose too hard#but what am i meant to do when i’m so congested that i can’t breathe through my nose????#i can mouth breathe sure but it’s not exactly pleasant#not to mention the sinus pain that causes#idk. am i worrying too much am i fine do i need my nose cauterized do i have a bacterial infection heading to my brain WHO KNOWS#ok i’m definitely getting paranoid. i’m not sick anymore and it wasn’t bacterial bc i didn’t need antibiotics#my mom caught a similar cold this week n i’m just a little worried#but that honestly probably means it’s not a huge deal! just a really weird strain of the common cold that focuses hard on the nose. yeah#ooooohkay i’m gonna distract myself before this paranoia gets worse#doom spiraling’s such a bitch. hate that thing#oh i should take my allergy meds tomorrow. forgot today#ok that helps actually. like i still don’t normally need allergy meds but still#been craving juice a lot too. mayb i’m low on vitamin c
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#hoo boy lads I’m going out of my mind I have so much to do and no time to do it#‘you could have planned this out better’ Bitch I am the first person in my immediate family#who has even thought seriously about moving to a different country#and I HAVE ALREADY lived in another country before but it was within the confines of an exchange programme#nobody knows what I’m doing this time around and therefore nobody can help me plan#I’ve been feeling burnt out since Fall of 20-goddamn-22#and last semester I learned that my master’s degree programme cannot accommodate the thesis I want to write#life took my plans and ripped them up into millions of little pieces#and yeah you can say ‘tough shit. that’s life’ but I’m SO TIRED of this happening#because my whole life has been like that#‘you can make your own decisions when you have your own house/apartment/life’#OKAY you’ve been telling me that my whole life BUT WHEN IS IT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN?#I am TRYING to take my life by the horns and make things happen but#I can’t help noticing how precarious my position is#I have to drive across country hoping my only form of transportation doesn’t somehow fail me#I have to set up a new life in a new country where I don’t know anyone and I have never lived before#it’s like trying to build a house off the side of a cliff. one wrong move? one really bad day? and I’m toast.#and yeah I signed up for this but it’s because I’M SO TIRED OF WAITING for things to fall into a place that would make this change easier#nothing’s getting easier! everything just keeps getting harder! and no matter how many times I keep beating my head against the wall#hoping I can make things fall into place…nothing seems to change for the better. and I’m sick of it!#they say good things come to those who wait but I’ve been waiting for twenty!! goddamn!! years!! and things are still the same#like standing water it just sits there and festers#I want to stop merely surviving and start LIVING for once#I want to *do* something but I need support and I feel bad asking for it#why is it so hard to make myself believe I’m allowed to take up space? why is it so hard to ask for help??#maybe because I’m worried that I’m not allowed to take up space..and I know that when I ask for help#it’s often met with non-committal sayings and shrugs and ‘well okay. you tell me what you need to do and we’ll figure it out.’#maybe I don’t know what I need to do! maybe I need help figuring that out! it doesn’t help when all I hear is ‘yep. adulting is hard’#LIKE I DIDN’T FUCKEN KNOW THAT. maybe instead of stating the obvious we could FIGURE OUT A WAY TO MOVE FORWARD?!#I’m going absolutely out of my fucken mind
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So Taylor and Joe confirmed their breakup?????
And people think she's dating someone else already????
Why does this still seem unbelievable??? Especially with some of the songs on midnights.
Also, I really hope she isn't dating the person everyone is saying she is.
It really does seem unbelievable :’)
There still isn’t any proper breakup statement from either of them, but yeah it seems like she’s dating someone else.
Don’t worry. No one likes her current… whatever that is. The only ones who do are clearly lacking in brain cells and I wish them well
#heck I think Taylor herself is lacking in brain cells right now#I wish none of this was happening but. oh well :’)#and i yeah I still can’t wrap my head around all of this happening only a few months after midnights#sweet nothing? lavender haze? labyrinth? paris? glitch? THE GREAT WAR???#Heck some people are now starting to say that bejeweled is about Joe and it’s making me sick like. stop trying to rewrite her history#she already explained what that song was about#blues and then purple pink asks#I’m lowkey considering blocking the taylor tags on all my socials until this blows over#I still love her but all this drama and speculation and bullshit is getting to me
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“baby stop im trying to read”
“what do you mean ma im just getting warm”
toji was in fact not just getting warm. his big calloused palms were currently underneath your (his) shirt fondling your tits. it wasn’t uncommon for toji to have his hands on your breasts as you read before bed. He used them like stress relievers. warm and soft and comforting to the touch. you had your kindle in one hand and the other placed on his head gently rubbing at his scalp as he nosed his way into the crevice of your neck.
“fuck baby you smell so good. you always smell so clean and vanillery.”
that made you smile.
“yeah i know i smell great.”
he laughed at that because yes you did always smell great. god he was so comfortable right now. nothing on the planet could top this for him. with your boobs in his palms toji could overcome anything. his touch became a bit heated and you knew this would soon be escalating. but you weren’t going to be the one giving in, if he wanted you he was going to have to ask. carefully his fingers began to pinch at your nipples and he knew he had you right where he wanted you when you began to mewl at his touch.
“what are you reading about that’s got you like this baby? are you cheating on me?”
“how’s it cheating if i’m reading you buffoon? and you know exactly why.”
he couldn’t help but smile at the easy banter that was so common between the two of you.
“want me to do to you whatever you’re reading about?”
and just as toji began to hike up your shirt with the intention of putting his mouth to work you both heard a slight little patter of feet on the hard wood floor. you couldn’t see anything due to the darkness in the room but you were pretty sure someone was here. toji lifted his head up with his hands still holding your chest under your shirt and craned his neck over the edge of the bed when he felt a little finger pat his shoulder.
“daddy i did sick”
“oh megs for fucks sake.”
authors note: i didn’t expect to receive so much love on this lil drabble! thank you so much lovely people
#jjk#jjk x you#gojo satoru#jjk toji#jjk smut#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen toji#toji fushigro x reader#toji x reader#toji fluff#toji x y/n#toji x you#toji smut#toji fushiguro#toji zenin#jjk x reader#jjk fluff#jjk gojo#gojo x you#geto x reader#nanami x reader#nanami kento#jjk fanfic#jungkook x reader#jujutsu toji#tojbnuy#toji angst#toji au
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