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I used to get nightmares every time I went to sleep so I learned to train myself to dream about jujutsu kaisen every time (and then if I did have nightmares they were about Toji but I could protect myself with a printout of Kakashi lmao)
And I fucking miss those days like. When I read the manga in a week then I did have dreams where missing scenes were added and I thought they were real and I had to read my own dreams which would make me wake up and they were bright white and colorless but still it was cool I'm just sad that kenjaku riding the manta ray doesn't exist as a manga panel (I looked so hard! I remember thinking about the angles gege chose to draw from and it just. Isn't there?? I wanted that shit as a tattoo smh)
If I can get back into writing fics until I fall asleep then maybe it'll happen again but alsoooo
I should have kept a journal of just jujutsu kaisen dreams bc that would be fun to read like
Ohhhh I just realized I can write this one into my Choso centric fic HELL YEAH OH MY GOD he had a new type of blood manipulation and protected me from Mahito in this scary old haunted basement that looked like it had tunnels to a catholic church or something it was so horror movie and vibes kqksxhajalajdodjr
Anyway I just want to go back and read my dumbass jjk dreams ;-; au where I am an organized bitch pls
#I'm just kinda burnt out w writing and I passed my limit on number of. Stories that I can write at the same time#But this week I was in a relationship w Gojo and we lived together#And Choso told me to stop saying I love him and I was like but I didn't is this guy reading my mind#But he still wanted to hold my hand so akdjshakxndhwkd#I think the only sukuna dreams that I had were of eating his mummified body#And I can't remember any geto dreams :(#Ik I've posted some on here so maybe I'll find them someday#Usually I just text a random friend like#Not even the same person just#Why can't I be organized#Jujutsu kaisen#Dreams
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i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".
it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.
do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.
but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.
do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).
you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.
walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.
no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.
do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."
you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.
there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.
i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.
he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."
#spilled ink#warm up#“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol#btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can#run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her#but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like.#ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone!#like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate''#we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!
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da crew
#why not include jimmy? good question#i don;t like him#yesss i love drawing headshots#and nothing else#and YES that curly is the same drawing as the one i already posted SHH. that quality was crap anyway#my art#mouthwashing#wrong organ#captain curly#curly mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#i can't stop drawing mouthwashing fanart. sorry it'll be over soon then back to drawing cats <3
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The "radical leftists" on this site who talk constantly about the importance of solidarity and kindness and compassion and then immediately tell anyone who disagrees with them to kill themselves are going to be devastated when they learn how much of actual union organizing involves talking to people whose politics you find incredibly repugnant and meeting them where they're at in order to find common ground
#so weird that none of the organizing lectures I've been to have advocated for suicide baiting as a tactic#can't imagine why that would be#turns out 'worker solidarity except for anyone who i deem not radical enough' isn't actually solidarity
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Potentially weird habit but. When I get really fixated on an oc/blorbo or whatever I get embarrassed thinking cringey shit "In front of" them. Like ah fuck I was cringe in front of my imaginary fursona. shit
#hoof draws#actually this. sounds weird now that I'm trying to explain it#roughhhhh the negative space is killing me ...#-once i think about an oc enough it feels like there's more ''reality'' to them and they go from like.#passive thoughts to In My Brain enough that they're with the rest of the brain stuff (where my thoughts live)#which probably only means that I put too much thought into organizing my brain#agh. this little pink stoat bitch is here because i keep vividly imagining them watching everything i do#and judging the cringey shit. like GO AWAYYYYYYYY#It's MY brain why can't I just think of cool shit. why am I making up a guy to judge me about shit#edit- i think this is the only time I've drawn myself instead of one of the sonas?
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thinking this labor day about all the athletes in women's sports who didn't have a stable league, who were only making decent money from a spot on their national team, who had to fight to get even a fraction of what they deserve. who spent their prime without a club league or the infrastructure to propel the sport. who came of age after title 9 in the usa [forcing schools to fund women/girls’ sports], the ones who fought for cbas and are only seeing big change at the end of their careers or after their careers concluded. who didn't have the media attention before, but are now showing just how much they can sell out stadiums and arenas. the players who played year round because overseas teams paid athletes what they were worth. athletes who endured and reported harassment but the league never took appropriate action. athletes who never had the media attention or ability to monetize their talent but who had careers that were just as impressive as the stars of today. who did it without the help of the science, technology, and medicine we have today. who set records with less support and fewer games in a season, which will be broken by kids who have had personal trainers since high school. athletes who played great games that are no long available to view, their talent no longer archived and accessible for young or new fans. athletes who still don't have a league or are just getting one in 2024. athletes who took it upon themselves to create change for which they will never reap the full rewards.
#this is across the board stuff#it's about the wnba the nwsl the pwhl and all the preceding leagues across the sports#im not athletic or good at sports but i do love the social sciences#it is the natural evolution of sport but there are lost generations#like in soccer abby wambach marta christine sinclair none of them had a club league in their prime#like cynthia cooper is the only other true guard that won mvp and she won it twice but you can't watch games from back then#women's hockey in north america is a newer story and perhaps more complex but still the stories of going from chartered planes in college#to not that in what is supposed to be a professional league#this is one of the reasons why i think we need more athlete's memoirs#like of course i want the juicy off court stuff i'm human but the amount of organizing and advocacy that athletes have had to do#nwsl#wbna#pwhl#and i want to be clear i'm not subtweeting specific players here in a mean way it's just facts#that if you are playing more games per year in your prime and you have more advanced knowledge#about recovery and training you have more opportunities to raise the bar#i actually get emo about this stuff all the time but i figured it's topical today
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Thinkin of Bruce's back cavity in the Meat Marionette Au.
I like to think the spine splits open, with the default being closed and him having to flex certain muscles to open it, almost like a mouth. The cervical (upper) and lumbar (lower) vertibrae are all single pieces and don't open, the lumbar continuing down the tail, while the thoracic are split into two pieces each. There's probably specialized muscles in the back that for lack of better terms tugs and moves the ribs in the back to pull the cavity open, hence why the shoulder blades are also shifted to the sides. Or something like that lol.
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AU is a combo of my au found under the What's Out There Au tag and @phoenixcatch7's found under the Possessed Doll Au tag. Make sure to check her out!
#meat marionette au#batman au#cryptid batman#cryptid batfam#body horror#Some poor sap: Why are you sad?#Batkid: I can't hide in the cavity anymore :(#Poor sap: Oh did you outgrow it?#Batkid: No dad developed organs so it got smaller :/#anatomy#Spine cavity#bruce wayne#batman#dcu#dc#Gosh Bruce's back in human form is probably so sensitive from the mental connection#Like he has to take a minute each time he wakes up back in his original body to just adjust to well being in a human body#Regaining balance because of a lack of limbs and ignore the feeling of something *missing*#And adjust to the familiar ache down his spine that might worsen if he's let enough damage befall his meat puppet#or something lol#Wait would they have lungs at first or do the bodies breathe through their skin lol#Maybe the lungs connect to the vents in their necks and expel gases if needed#idk lol
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this is literally just lore of mine so feel free to ignore i just got angry at having to pull 4 different images That don't even Match everytime i wanted to draw him with the scars so grigri of the future i am talking directly into your ear. do not go scrolling in your folders in search of this it is here. the reference is here. i am talking directly into your ear i am inside of your ear.
#if i lose this i'm going to be so mad so tagged it goes.#burakh lore#ata lore#ata fic#chapter 11#<- spoilers? well i've talked about it a bunch already#scars#scar map#scars map#nudity /#but in a goofy way. like that one image of rubin's portrait.#body shape ref as well? it depends of the time for him so. among multiple.#got asked Yes you can reblog not sure why you'd want to but if you desire. naked scarred burakh on your blog i can't stop you#pathologic#artemy burakh#<- putting him at the end so hopefully he only shows up in tags on my blog for organization purposes... hopefully
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神祗的庐山真面目
//Forms and Names
I have always wanted to write three After God essays!
The first one came at the tail end of Chapter 58 discussing Ahu’az and Yako.
The second one was something I’ve always wanted to do—an interesting mental framework to analyze Tokinaga Sachiyuki.
Now comes the third essay, ironically, the first After God ramble formulated in our Discord conversation. Hahaha. The last essay in this series is the actual first one that started it all, @orange-peel-candy!
This essay concerns my speculations and hypotheses regarding the gods’ forms... and The Man Stronger Than the Gods.
Be warned: spoilers abound up till at least Chapter 58 (a.k.a. the last chapter I read!). It's also a very, very long read.
What Do We Know So Far?
I am a two-bit detective-scientist wannabe. Before we start to speculate, we should lay out some of the facts that we already know. I hope I didn’t get any facts wrong because I’m mostly going off from memory, which is pretty corrupted from things like work, daily life, Buddhist Philosophy (yes), science, Neon Genesis Evangelion (I’m disappointed in myself for this), the likes:
Chapter 1
Out of the four, we know three gods’ animal forms.
Vollof is a rabbit,
Ahu’az is a rooster (yes, calling it Chicken God was me being an ass),
Orokapi is a snake.
Did ya notice something?
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Chinese Twelve Zodiac – the Calendar
Wikipedia
The zodiacs are used by the Chinese as a calendar system, which assigns an animal to a respective year following a twelve-year cycle [1]. The sequence goes like this:
鼠、牛、虎、兔、龙、蛇、马、羊、猴、鸡、狗、猪
Rat, Ox, Tiger, Rabbit, Dragon, Snake, Horse, Goat, Monkey, Rooster, Dog, Boar
Vollof, Orokapi, and Ahu’az are part of this group.
So, my bold first hypothesis is that—
All of the IPOs introduced to us will be animals from the Twelve Zodiac.
I assign a modest 78% confidence level toward this hypothesis since all three we have known have come from this group.
From here, let's go through these queries:
Are the other gods also animals from the Chinese Zodiac?
Where does Allula fit in this, if the Chinese Zodiac theory is true?
Is there anything about the Chinese Zodiac, such as myths and philosophy, that may serve as story hints for certain characters in the story?
Particularly, is there some basis to make a hypothesis regarding The Man Stronger Than the Gods?
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Query #1: Are the other gods also animals from the Chinese Zodiac?
Well, we don’t actually have that many IPOs teased other than our 4 known gods. The only one we have, here, is the furry paw. Let’s look at it again:
Chapter 1.
Hypothesis 1: This is a tiger. [50% confident; 0.85 x 0.78 = 0.663; 39% overall confidence]
Hypothesis 2: This is a dog. [50%; 39% overall]
Hypothesis 3: This is an animal not part of the Zodiacs [22% overall]
Both a cat and a dog have 5 toes in their front legs (and 4 in their hind legs). But a cat’s dew claw is much closer to its other claws. A dog’s paw, meanwhile, has the dew claw being much farther away [2].
From Hepper.com.
This mystery IPO’s claws are certainly close to each other—including its dew claw. That makes it resemble a tiger’s claw more (Hypothesis 1, or H1). Another piece of circumstantial evidence is that this IPO was walking past a street filled with stray cats. If the IPO was a dog, I don’t think these cats could be this chill.
Nonetheless, H2 has good grounds, too. For what little we see here, the paw doesn’t show a tiger’s typical strip, and the tail is a little too bushy for a tiger. There’s also the fact that these claws aren’t protracted despite not being required during a stroll. A dog’s claw doesn’t protract [2]!
We can even explain away the cats’ relative calmness by positing the IPO as invisible to their eyes, kinda like how they can’t be captured by cameras.
Nonetheless, H1 and H2 have strong enough standing. Whether a tiger or a dog, neither conclusion will counter our zodiac hypothesis.
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There is, of course, a 22% confident hypothesis where the IPOs do not actually follow the Zodiac convention.
This opens up a lot more options for our mysterious IPO—a wolf, a lion, a cat, etc.
There is also this little panel you’ve helpfully pointed out:
Chapter 44.
There appears to be a fish IPO in this panel, which is not part of the Twelve Zodiacs. The only true aquatic animal among them is the dragon, or龍 (long)。
If the fact that a Long is actually an aquatic animal is new information to you, I’ve once written quite a bit about it in (yes, I know. Why does this bro yap so much?) an essay for a good friend explaining the origin of the dragon’s orb. Long story short: dragons are seen as the kings of the ocean and storm.
There isn’t much hard evidence to refute this “fish” IPO. One suggestion (thanks to you) is that maybe the “fish” IPO is just an NPC and that all major IPOs will be of the zodiacs. Another suggestion I can think of is that, similar to how Vollof turned from a “bear” to a “rabbit” in execution [3], the “fish” IPO might be revised to another animal among the zodiac gang in the future.
One last thing to add to the Zodiac theory in general: apparently, there’s already another IPO planned with horns [3].
Three Zodiac animals with horns have yet to be featured: the Ox, the Goat, and the Dragon. It’s another piece of circumstantial evidence, but all of it together still builds a pretty good case for the Zodiac animal hypothesis.
The way to falsify this hypothesis is to wait for more IPOs to be revealed. Mr. Furry Paw, Mr. Horn, and, potentially, Mr. Fish—all three can prove or disprove this hypothesis.
For the rest of this essay, let’s consider the Zodiac Theory true.
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Query #2: What Could Have Been Allula’s Animal Form?
Allula’s floral form is actually a pretty interesting symbolic choice, which you noticed. She’s a poppy flower, right? The source of opium—one of the royalties of addictive narcotics. A really apt form for the god who introduced drugs to everyone else.
Nonetheless, this did not mean Allula had always been a talking one-eyed flower. She could very well have been an animal just like her other brethren.
According to Orokapi, Allula’s current form is a grotesque chimera of fleshes borne from the gods she had eaten. This tells us that she didn’t originally look like hair that’s been stuck in a pipe leading out from a bathroom hole.
Chapter 50
What are the animals among the twelve zodiacs that could possibly be Allula’s original bestial form?
H1- Predators: Tiger and Dog. These were the two possible candidates for Mr. Furry Paw as discussed in Query #1. Could Mr. Furry Paw be Allula?
I don’t think so. Allula has been banished into reincarnating as Waka for quite some years, and when that happened, she’d already been losing her original form and gaining her chimeric look. Hence, it’s likelier that Mr. Furry Paw was another IPO!
Then what about omnivores, like Rat, Boar and Monkey (H2)? This, to me, seems more possible. Rats are certainly seen as repulsive and disgusting eaters. Monkeys are a bit harder to square since their “stereotypical” trait(s) in the common interpretation of the 12 Zodiacs don’t really fit Allula all that much, barring intelligence (more on that later).
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My highest confidence level (about 50%) is on the Boar.
Boars are commonly seen as animals representing gluttony in East Asian culture. They technically eat anything edible and non-poisonous.
Here’s the thing: boars can develop a taste for raw meat [4]. And they have no problem eating human flesh or pig flesh! The most common incident of cannibalism in pigs is when the sows and gilts eat piglets, called “savaging.”[5].
Now, Allula is no mother, but she’s the only known god who eats other gods. An opportunistic eater with no repulsion toward the flesh of its kind. A cannibal.
A piece of circumstantial evidence: The Boar is seen as the intelligent animal among the Twelve Zodiacs, often similarly to how one envisions the Monkey. Allula has, in a lot of interactions, demonstrated frightening analytical capacity and intellect. She often uses it as a means of manipulation:
towards the other gods, she used drugs—something they had no idea about and became addicted to.
toward Shion, she managed to charm the girl with the combination of her eyes… and more importantly, her words.
She best displayed her intellect in Chapters 54 and 55. There, she worked out what she believed Tokinagawas up to accurately enough that he was reduced to near nervous breakdown. That’s the sort of skill in choosing conversation responses I wish I have, so I can make the NPCs in my game cry like a bitch.
Conclusion? I think Allula being the Boar seems far more likely if the Zodiac hypothesis is true.
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Query #3: Is There Anything About the Zodiac Hypothesis That Could Be Used to Understand After God’s Worldbuilding + Gods etc.?
The Twelve Zodiac was used as a calendar system with a twelve-year cycle. In other words, the zodiacs are associated with time [1]. Besides that, it’s cyclic. The Year of the Rat (first among the zodiac) follows the Year of the Boar (last among the zodiac) [1].
Both of these are already related to a character who isn’t said to be an IPO but is nonetheless completely intertwined with them—our boy Tokinaga Sachiyuki. Creating time loops to bring himself to his desired development is a known ability of his, isn’t it?
Keep that in mind.
Now, I’m gonna introduce to you Taoist/folk Chinese deities associated with the Twelve Zodiac:
Tai Sui, 太岁 (literally “great year” or “great age”).
Like plenty of Taoist gods, these deities originated as stars observed by Chinese astrologers—in this case, they’re the stars opposite Jupiter and are also in a 12-year orbital cycle [6].
Tai Sui are considered generals taking orders from the Jade Emperor (the lord of the heaven in Chinese mythology). They are the zodiac animals’ masters. Throughout dynasties, the Tai Suis’ numbers have multiplied into sixty of them, each mastering one animal while corresponding to one of the Five Chinese Elements (五行: fire, earth, metal, water, wood). There is, however, one Tai Sui General who is the boss of all Tai Sui; this one has no governing year [6].
That’s, of course, the Chinese’s side of things. In Japan, Tai Sui is consolidated into a single deity [6], in the form of Tai Sui’s full title, 太歳星君 (“Lord of the Tai Sui Star”)。
Tai Sui is so important and revered in folk divination that people whose zodiac animal sign is the same as the deity are said to be “clashing with Tai Sui” (犯太岁). Take the Year 2024 as an example: this is the Year of the Wood Dragon, so it is governed by the Wooden Dragon Tai Sui. Everyone whose animal sign is the dragon (no matter the elements) is therefore “clashing” with him, and superstitions dictate they appease the god because their overall luck has already tanked by the virtue of this clash.
What does this tell us?
It tells us that a Tai Sui is “stronger than these zodiac animals.”
Tai Sui, the god of time. Not linear time either—cyclic time. Who does this remind you?
More circumstantial evidence for your consideration:
The word associated with “time” is in Tokinaga’s name, 時永。 This is similar to how the word related to “time” is also found in Tai Sui, 太岁。 The difference, however, is that 時 technically means “hour,” while 岁 means “year.”
The pronunciation for 太歳星君 is Taisai Seikun ( たいさいせいくん) in Japanese [7]. The initials are T.S., which matches Tokinaga Sachiyuki. You can almost wonder if Tokinaga’s name is chosen to mirror the name of this calendric time lord.
You might think this is the end of Query #3, but there’s a speculation I want to put forward based on the Tai Sui Hypothesis.
“We Have Seen the Man Stronger than the Gods”
Chapter 49
Allula claimed that she and the other gods had seen The Man Stronger Than the Gods/God Killer before—a long, long time ago. 700 million years ago, to be exact.
Here’s the thing: Tokinaga is only 28 years old.
The big upheaval of the IPOs from the North Pole happened 30 years ago. Hell, modern Homo sapiens evolved from merely 300,000 years ago. My math ain’t no Olympiad level but methinks this math doesn’t check out.
That’s not all. Tokinaga’s power comes at the cost of body degeneration. How did this blud—whose body started to look like lichens-ate-it just by rewinding time a little to his last save point—manage to survive this long?
Another odd thing: Allula somehow does not recognize the God Killer when she sees one. Why? Why doesn’t she recognize what could possibly be the only Homo Sapien on the planet at the time? If that man was Tokinaga, wouldn’t she recognize him right now?
Tokinaga’s response to Allula’s assertion is also grounds for intrigue. He was there for a negotiation; the odds of him feigning ignorance were not too high. So why was his response “What are you talking about?” instead of knowing silence?
Why did he react as though he was stunned to hear Allula’s revelation? Was the God Killer she mentioned somehow… not him?
Granted, there are many plausible reasons to explain these odd points. We don’t know the full scope of Tokinaga’s powers. Maybe he could erase someone’s memories if he wanna (sure. Sure. Sure. Sure. Sure. Doubt. Doubt. Doubt. Doubt. Doubt). We don’t yet know what parts of the power system, such as reincarnation, are like in this story.
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God Killer (singular?)
If Tokinaga’s aspect as the time-bending God Killer is inspired by Tai Sui, then the speculation I want to offer is that there is more than one God Killer across history.
Japan etc. and even common Chinese folks might think that there’s only ever one Tai Sui Lao Jun/Taisei Seikun, but there has always been more than one Tai Sui in the canonical myth. Tokinaga could very well just be one God Killer who exists at this time. The one Allula and fam saw back then was another God Killer.
I originally wanted to make a joke that this God Killer was from the Australopithecus genus—the hominids before our Homo genus. The problem is… the earliest Australopithecus hominin existed 4.2 million years ago. That’s not even close to Allula’s “700 million years ago.” Bro, who the fuck did these gods see? Fucking Xenu?
The nature of God Killer(s) is largely shrouded in mystery by this point in the manga, so again, any reasonable guess is as good as another. I’m not even particularly confident in this speculation, but it does lend nicely to our last query…
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Query #4: What speculations regarding “The Man Stronger Than The Gods” can we make from this?
Although this is the last query and hypothesis in this essay, it is actually the first I’ve ever made since reading After God months ago.
The thing that kickstarted this was in his name.
As someone who’s immersed in Thai and Buddhist-Hindu myths, his name was eye-catching for featuring the word “naga.”
Britannica. This is an artistic depiction of Nāga in Thai style.
Nagas are, briefly, divine or semi-divine beings—sometimes half-human and half-serpents, sometimes basically sea serpents [8]. In common translations as well as general understanding, however, nagas are understood as dragons.
They are often associated with bodies of water.
The origin of the nagas is closely related to snakes. In Sanskrit, nāga is one of the many terms for “snake,” and the earliest concept of nagas is cobra-like [8].
These three key points are bolded because these traits are shared with the East Asian concept of the Long (龙) as well. According to Yuan Jing, a Chinese archaeologist researcher, the origin of Chinese dragons (which other East Asian long are derivative from) likely evolved from a snake or a crocodile [9]. For example, artifacts recovered from the Taosi Archeological Site (陶寺) in Shanxi showed Long that pretty much just looked like snakes [9]. This connection is also speculated to be why “dragon” is positioned next to “snake” in the Twelve Zodiac. The dragon and the snake are kin.
And who, my dudes, is Tokinaga’s dearest friend?
Even an East Asian dragon’s “connection to the body of water” can be seen in Tokinaga’s character traits—chiefly, his avoidance of bathtubs and his strange discomfort with showers. You might correctly point out that it’s odd for him to be written as repulsed by a “body of water” if he’s indeed related to East Asian dragons, but a big theme of Tokinaga’s personality intrigue is the fact that he’s in discordance to himself. His self-hatred originates from his inability to resolve what he detests and what his “nature” desires. He’s like an Asian dragon who hates water.
Oh, but there’s more to this hypothesis. Much, much more.
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Fake Ancient Scripts That Repel Evil
Chapter 31
Well, the characters on his loincloth-ass mask seem pretty likely to be 日本, “Japan,” to me. You're not even trying, Orokapi.
We know that the eyepatch hides Tokinaga’s empty left eye socket where some of the deterioration is found. So what’s the character on his eyepatch?
The eyepatch, interestingly, was framed nicely within the last panel as Tokinaga dropped one of the earliest hints about the God Killer.
I’m gonna go and guess it’s based on “竜”, or “dragon.”
It’s that, or 龟, “tortoise/turtle”.
How do we decide which of these is likelier? Well, show us the hand!
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It's not a hand, you dumbass. It's a claw.
Chapter 42
This chapter is the first time when we get to see the claw that haunts Tokinaga. It features really sharp nails and scaly skin. Below are a tortoise’s nails.
Animals.net
The nails in a tortoise appeared to be closer to each other that our mysterious claw up there. The claw is also far leaner in the panel, compared to the more bulging (thicc?) look of a tortoise’s foot.
Based on this, I think the odds that the claw belongs to a tortoise are lower than our alternative: the East Asian Long/dragon. But do we have more proof?
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How many nails does a Long have?
Five claws may seem ubiquitous in more modern drawings of the dragon, but it’s actually a relatively new invention during the Qing Dynasty [10]. In truth, for the longest time, the dragon has had three claws—and the dragon types that were most likely introduced to Japan are the three-clawed and four-clawed Golden Dragon (金龙), both popular during the Tang Dynasty.
Baidu. Tang Dynasty dragon-adorned mirror. Try to locate its claws.
Now, we can combine both knowledge.
Tokinaga claimed that these fake scripts are used to repel evil.
One of them is found in his eyepatch. A writing that may very well be 竜.
What is this eyepatch guarding against?
The thing that is frequently drawn to be close to his left eye is the mysterious claw. A claw that can be reasonably suspected to belong to a dragon.
Does that eyepatch repel... or seal a dragon?
Chapter 55
No matter what it could be, it still points to one general direction:
Tokinaga has a lot of connections to a dragon.
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Verdict
This is a combination of all of our hypotheses to form a pretty damn bold speculation about The Man Stronger than The Gods.
Tokinaga may be a God Killer, not the God Killer. He has aspects influenced by Tai Sui and dragons—a mythical beast that is also one of the Twelve Zodiac.
We already learned that there are actually a lot of Tai Sui deities, with 5 governing a single animal of different elements. So, if the hypothesis is that the God Killer is not one person but many people...
Is Tokinaga a dragon-related God Killer? Similar to a Dragon Tai Sui?
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Last words
This has been an insanely long read, but it covers a lot of the speculations and theories I have had about After God thus far. There’s a lot we don’t know yet, and it’s always likely that I get a lot of stuff wrong. I have a specific image for that occasion:
Ajin.
Nonetheless, it’s been really fun trying to Allula out the story with what we have so far, and I’ll be really stoked if even a small part of all of this comes true!
Let me know what you think in the comments or tags! I love responses and add-ons; I read ‘em all! They make my day.
Thank You For Reading My Ramble! I hope this has been an eye-opening thrill for you!
P.S. To people who recently followed me for After God content: welcome to my garden! I do have to tell ya—I’m not very prolific an essayist due to my general lack of time. I also write essays for a lot of other things too—this is the last of my After God Three Part essays, and I haven’t had any planned after this. So, yea! Please enjoy what I've cooked for now! Ahahaha.
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Citations:
Chinese zodiac. In Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_zodiac
Cat Paw vs. Dog Paw: Vet-Verified Differences (With Pictures). Hepper. https://www.hepper.com/cat-paw-vs-dog-paw/
Inspiration for Vollof (summarized). On Tumblr (Thanks, Ko!). https://www.tumblr.com/kossanctuary/756356794456113153/inspiration-for-vollof-summarized?source=share
What Pigs Can (And Can’t) Eat: Ultimate Guide. Savvy Farm Life. https://savvyfarmlife.com/what-pigs-can-and-cant-eat/
Normal and Abnormal Behaviors of Swine Under Production Conditions. Pork Information Gateway. https://porkgateway.org/resource/normal-and-abnormal-behaviors-of-swine-under-productions-conditions/
Tai Sui. In Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tai_Sui
太歳星君. In Wikipedia. [In Japanese] https://ja.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E5%A4%AA%E6%AD%B3%E6%98%9F%E5%90%9B
Nāga. In Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/N%C4%81ga
世间动物千千万,为何是它们被选入十二生肖?《澎湃》。[In Chinese] https://www.thepaper.cn/newsDetail_forward_24694111
中国古代的龙,到底有几个爪趾?《百度·文艺时光》。[In Chinese] 中国古代的龙,到底有几个爪趾? (baidu.com)
#after god#after god meta#ramble with citations#long read#睿得失这个话痨的长篇大论#tokinaga sachiyuki#Idolatry Prohibited Organisms (After God)#All Chinese citations were not read with the help of AI or translation. I know Chinese ahhahah#this really took a lot of effort. Which is why I hope it was a satisfactory meal#I can't cook as much as I wish I can... Stupid work...#Happy After God Monday!
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so... apparently I've been writing Sammelweis' name wrong the entire time. It's Semmelweis, just like the doctor Ignaz Semmelweis.
I do wonder if she's going to have a heavy-handed reference to the real-life Semmelweis. Look him up, his story and role in the founding of antisepsis practices is incredibly interesting if you're into medical history like me.
#reverse 1999#semmelweis#certified storm moments#she's an npc in the rougelike mode that's introduced in the uh... 1.5 patch I think? or is it 1.6 i can't quite remember#i was curious on what her fullbody looked like and i thankfully found this on danbooru#why is your waist so tiny tho. maam your belt is crushing your organs! let your abdomen breathe jfc#you may not know this about me but i really love looking up medical history and pathology. its a really fascinating topic to me#modern medicine is such a miracle and i am intrigued on how things lead to the medicine and practices we currently have. how did#people back in the day deal with certain diseases and what was the misconceptions and what they got right but didn't quite know#the explanation of#jesus the tags turned into an essay of why i like this
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#i feel like I posted this already but I also can't find it in any recent posts so...#......he#cats#EVEN if I did post it.. why not poast himb again? it's he#I'm like halfway through actually editing aforementioned costumes and stuff and i WANT to work on sculptures again and I have video#s and that worldbuilding slideshow and all of these things so hopefully like.. more usual stuff soon maybe.. to be posted#for now though yeah.. just cats#The end of the year is also when I panic about the passage of time and how little I've gotten done and how I will never actually be a#sucessful game maker slash author slash cat cafe owner slash set designer slash costume designer slash psychologist#who lives in like Scotland or somehting and also owns my own candle company or something ghbjhb#and will probably just be a mentally ill hermit recluse all my life who dies early of mysterious health issues with 5000 projects left#undone and blah blah the crushing weight of chronic illness and capitalism and so on and so forth#So then I scramble to get projects done to try and meet some goals but usually that means I scatter between projects#so it takes longer to finish all of them. Like instead of dedicating 8 hours to one thing and finishing it one sitting. I'll do 2 hours on#this then 2 hours on that then 2 hours on another things. so they all get done slower even though I'm still technically making progress on#them all. This is also a very poo poo pee pee stink brain way to work and is not like. the most efficent thing but it's just how my brain#organizes tasks sometimes lol#***#(<ignore this its part of an OCD compulsion lol. anytime you see me type three asterisks I'm not bleeping out a curse word#it's just a Special Secret Foolish Thing I Have To Do At Specific Uncontrolable Times When Brain Says So gbjhhj)#ANYWAY... eeeee#Still haven't resolved my mystery chest injury though so being at te computer for too long is also kind of achey-inducing#Better get over it though because I have like 30+ hours of slideshow vidoe to edit hahaha hee hee hoo!!!!!
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i think i've drawn lankmann a few times. just a couple
#silverware's art#lankmann#pastra#pastraspec#he's just waay too fun to draw for some reason#i didn't wanna do the weird glitching he has when he talks#idk why. but i organized them from least creepy (to me) - most creepy (yet again. to me)#the one where i wrote “i'm back around” is actually a song lyric-#can't hold me down by genichris. specifically. a song actually made about lankmann that is very catchy. by the way.#many wouldn't be too impressed to know that pretty much everything in my computer has some relevance to Lankmann-#some of my friends would defiantly use that against me but hey. they might not read the tags#eh it's alright. he's an interesting character#also. IT'S SO WEIRD KNOWING HE'S ONLY 5'5"-#I'M TALLER THAN HIM#by less than 2 inches. but i'm still taller#this has been sitting in my drafts for over a day so i might aswell post it ig
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I am one of the people who wasnt fond of the lack of roleplaying choices in datv but I do wish I was seeing less posts and comments about how Veilguard concretely erased all the choices we made and the new team shoehorned in a secret illuminati organization. It's been one week we are not going to see consequences for a while.
#.txt#Dragon age#Datv#Like yeah the outcome of the Orzammar election or Ferelden succession didn't matter in this game because we are not in proximity to it.#It could still return in a future game if we're back in the south. It is just one video game#It's not going to infinitely recap prior games when it's not relevant to the story#It's busy infinitely recapping what just happened in its own game for the first act /lh#Also like the secret organization but just seems like something that was probably included in the base worldbuilding 20 yrs ago#Idk why the assumption that the writers are shoehorning it is so widespread... Also it's one cutscene.#We are not going to know their involvement in the previous games unless there's a new game.#And also shows that they want to go back to the events of the previous game? Which is seems positive?#I know we get one game per decade so it feels like it had to do everything all at once#But here's hoping all the development done on Veilguard can be used to make a 5th game in the same style with some improvements#Relatively easy and they don't have to reinvent the wheel again.#I can't believe the Catholic guilt game has a secret organization that was controlling the bad guys all along.......#Ignore that flemmythal already had that reveal
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Thanks to @edennill, whose musings sent me on a walk that resulted in a chance meeting with this etymological fact:
The words "prodigy" and "prodigal" are not related.
At all.
What. Just what.
As someone who had been a "gifted child", I just— a huge part of my life had been a lie. [Details of the etymologies below cut]
Prodigy: From Middle English prodige (“portent”), from Latin prōdigium (“omen, portent, prophetic sign”). From prō- (prefix denoting a forward direction, something before or prior, or prominence) + aiō (“to say, speak”) + -ium (suffix forming abstract nouns); compare and contrast with adagiō, later adagium, more likely of different formation.
Prodigal: From Middle French prodigal, from Late Latin prōdigālis (“wasteful”), from Latin prōdigus (“wasteful, lavish, prodigal”), from prōdigō (“to consume, squander, drive forth”), from prōd- [from prō (“before, forward”)] + agō (“to drive”).
The only common thing between them is prō-, which is a prefix present in a lot of unrelated words.
#I'm perfectly normal about etymology#not silm#technically#etymology#fun facts#idk how to tag it but#what???#why didn't anyone tell me earlier???#[maybe i just wasn't paying attention]#seriously#i can't even explain well why it is such a shock to me#but#it is#…seriously.#wait what do you mean you can be organically good at something and this doesn't make you doomed„ evil„ doomed to be evil etc#just: what.#yes I'm perfectly normal about etymology
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tropical forest
#horizon forbidden west#hfw#hfwbs#aloy#just me climbing trees again#i don't see this one in my tags/archive but i edited it last year...?#why can't i be organized T_T#verticals
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You ever listen to a soundtrack that makes you want to go beast mode and gallop across the plains and dive through aircurrents euphoric into the sea along the riptides and changing landscapes howling laughing whooping like the wild thing you were meant to be.
#See i am missing sharp teeth and talons#And a tail#And fucking wings#A rare dysphoria for me is the separation from human appendages#Why can't I flare my lip to waft scents to my jacobsons organ#Why can't my jaw open wider#Why can't i raise spines from my back and intimidate my enemies
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